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Skipping Kidney Stones
Did you even want to be found?
I took my shackles off and formed a search and rescue team
But did you even want to be found?
You’ve been running all your life I think you’ve aced this marathon
Just come home to me and sprawl out on the floor you were just begging on
With your conlifting personality traits, I’ve never met someone so dynamic
And tempers teaching you a math lesson in hopes of solving this
The ghosts of your forgotten selves, departed from each trauma train you’ve conducted
But I sure hope we don't need an seance for you to see them
So reassess your motivation
and collect your spirit where you left it to play pretend
At the mausoleum
You caged the blooming butterfly that is your willingness
And this can’t be a coincidence
You put all your eggs in one basket
But if just a crack would send you packing,
Then I overestimated your ability to sense danger coming
And how could I have saved you?
All you left me was an empty water bottle and a broken hatchet
I traded my decaying sneakers for strapped boots
So I could take action in the streams we waded through
And we took our hopeful hands and promises of longer lifespans
To the humble cabin in the woods you brought me to
Walking your haunted dolls through the hallway
Looks like your cheated best friend resume
Had nothing critical to say
And my phone became a hotline for a 9-1-1 dopamine rush
As if I could call you
How many times i’ve said “I swear I closed that door”
But I always come back to it open just a crack,
Enough for a sedated rumor to slip through
Shivering while yelling for chivalry
I knew it wasn’t coming but I kept my yapper shut
Heartache gripped your one-sided prayers
And sent them racing through the spaces in the floorboards
Don't worry, even though I feel I’ve given you everything
I’ll find a way to push the limits and find what constitutes as “more”
I knew how this was going from the beginning
But I kept my ceaseless engine of a mouth shut!
Besides, it’s not my words that have ever left the deepest cut
You put all your eggs in one basket
And this can’t be a coincidence
How could I have saved you?
How could I have held my tongue with my arms in a mental straight jacket?
I would never put myself at risk of being lost with anyone but you
We took our hatchets and loosely structured escape plan
To the cabin in the woods you brought me to
Copyright ©
Matthew Bailey
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