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SUCIDE
SUCIDE
I wish people understand
Only if they knew the outcome of those actions
I've always wanted to be recognized
In reality, I hurt badly
No one understands me
It ends the moment they are there
The moment everyone leaves
I'm left with my thoughts again
I see things that others don't see
I remember everything that happens in a day
Back in my closet, I feel disappointed
Not to myself but that we ain't equal
That we can't force people to act right
That egoism is the order of nature
That I can't change what can't be changed
Fake friends, real enemies
All in one, none in all
Is it the betrayal and the heartbreak
Or the painful actions and hurtful words
Maybe the disappointment and the failure
Or regrets and complications
Or lonely nights and sad experiences
Sometimes the horrible past
Rarely the scary future
Mostly the unfavourable present
I believed against hope
Living each day like it's a miracle
Expecting a change in a world of competing interests
Best lessons are learnt the hard way
I feel lonely yet I'm not alone
I feel emptiness yet i'm being filled daily
The outcome of my great discovery is an end in itself
Might not be the best option but part of the options
I embarked on this uneasy journey
Though cruel but I'll achieve what I desire
No one should say hurtful words behind me
Where were you when I was crying out for help?
You all turned deaf ears
I was neglected when I needed the care
I'm not leaving because of any circumstance
But because I know there is an endless end
I've come to realise that
suicide is not even part of the options
Cos no one deserves that happiness than I do
Never think anyone is better
The best can only be you
The only way to punish suicide is to live
Since there can always be a positive part to a negative side.
©ho²
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Helen Oke
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