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DOMESTIC VIOLENCE MENTAL ILLNESS AND DIVORCE

AFTER WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS MY JUNK SICK ABUSIVE HUSBAND ESCALATED THE ABUSE TO PURE TORTURE HE WAS BITTER FOR BEING KICKED OUT THE ARMY HE EVEN BEAT ME CAUSE HIS MOTHER DIED OF CANCER LEAVING HIM WITH A DRUG ADDICT SISTER HE STARTED TO BLAME ME FOR THE ARSON MURDERS BECAUSE CIRO GARGANO OFFER ME A JOB AS A QUARTER GIRL PASSING OUT QUARTERS TO SAILORS I MET CIRO AFTER GETTING OFF THE TRAIN IN GREATLAKES NAVY BASE GARGANO RAN AN ARCADE THE SIGN READ HELP WANTED RIGHT ACROSS FROM THE LAUNDRY MAT I HAD TWO SMALL LITTLE GIRLS I WAS EXCITED THEY WERE ABLE TO COME WITH ME STOCKING STUFF ANIMALS IN MACHINES AND DTINKING COCA COLA ALL DAY I WAS JUST RETURNING FROM EUROPE MY ABUSIVE EX WAS SENTENCED IN MANHEIN BERLIN TRANSFERED TO FORT ELEVENWORTH WHEN HE RETURNED HE LEFT HIS SOUL IN MANHEIM PRISON IT TOOK A WHILE TO REALIZE THAT WELL HE WAS SO JEALOUS OF ME WORKING HE BELIEVED GARGANO AND I WERE INVOLVED EVENTUALLY WE WERE AT ANYRATE HE HIMSELF BEGAN WORKING ODD JOBS FOR CIRO THOSE JOBS EVENTUALLY WENT FROM ALTINATORS STARTERS TO SETTING BLAZES WHICH RESULTED IN ALL THOSE ELDERLY PEOPLE DYING WHICH RESULTED IN MY WEARING WIRES PREGNANT FOR THE FBI BUYING WEAPONS AND DRUGS FROM JUNK SICK COPS SELLING DRUGS FOR GARGANO PURE AND SIMPLE AFTER THE FBI RELOCATED MY FAMILY THE ABUSE BEGAN TO OVER SHADIW EVERYTHING INCLUDING CHURCH PRAYING HE WOULD GET BETTER I KNEW HE WAS SICK HIS JOB WITH THE FBI WAS TO TEST OUT THE DRUGS WE WOUKD BUY HE WOUKD BECOME REALLY JUNK SICK WSITING ON THE STATE DEPARTMENT TO RELEASE FUNDS FOR ANOTHER DRUG BUY I.MUST SAY HE WAS SO HAPPY WHEN SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH CALLED SAID LETS MEET UP AGAIN MY ABUSIVE EX HUSBAND WOUKD ALWAYS TAKE SOME NARCOTICS FOR HIMSELF SOMETIMES I WOULD PEEK IN AS HE WOULD LITERALLY PASS OUT OR HE WOULD CRAWL ON THE FLOOR LOOKING FOR MORE SCREAMING AT THE DOOR HE OWED EVERYONE IN TOWN INCLUDING A FEW COPS SELLING DRUGS THEY WOULD GIVE HIM DRUGS TO SELL BELIEVIG WE WERE BIG TIME DEALERS BECAUSE WE BOUGHT LARGE AMOUNTS OF DRUGS TWO THREE TIMES A WEEK FOR THE FBI WHEN THAT RAN OUT HE WENT TO OFFICER WALTER BARNETT HIS COUSIN GUS OR JUNEBUG THEY WOULD TRUST HIM HE EOULD HIDE UNDER MY GIRLS BED WHEN THEY BANGED ON THE DOOR CROOKED COPS PISSED OFF WASN'T EASY FOR THEIR FAMILIES EITHER I SUPPOSE HOWEVER THIS MEANT MORE BEATINGS WHEN HE EMERGED A RAGING MANIAC FBI GRADE A EX ARMY MAN WIFE BEATER BEATING ME MADE HIM FEEL BETTER I SUPPOSE AS TIME WENT ON I WAS NOW TREMBLING IN HIS I PRESENCE I TRIED TO LEAVING HIDING ALL OVER THE CITY HE WOUKD FIND ME AND BEAT ME AGAIN THE FBI WOUKD COME TO MY JOB AT THE MOTEL EVEN THOUGH I WAS HIDING FROM HUSBANDS ABUSE I HAD TO COME OUT IF HIDING TO MAKE DRUG BUYS WITH FBI AFTER THEY LEAVE HE'D KICK MY ANKLE KNOCK ME UNCONSCIOUS AND RUN OFF WITH THE MONIES THE FBI GAVE ME FOR THE DRUG BUYS FOR THE KIDS FINALLY WE WERE RELOCATED I THOUGHT IT WOULD STOP IT GOT WORSE I SPENT MONTHS IN DOMESTIC SHELTERS HIDING MY KIDS PACKING OUT IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS TO START OVER EVERYTIME HE I ESCALATES IT DIDN'T MATTER HE WOULD FIND US CALL THE KIDS SCHOOL PICK THEM UP THERE I WAS NO CHOICE BUT GO GET MY KIDS AND TAKE THE BODY SLAMMING HE LOVED PICKING ME UP AND SLAMMING MY BODY ON THE GROUND THEN RUN OFF BYSTANDERS WOULD COME ARE YOU OK I HATED THAT STUPID WOULD VICTIM HI I'M A DOMESTIC VIOLENCE VICTIM DO YOU HAVE SPACE WENT FROM TWO KIDS TO 8 WE ARE AFRAID FOR OUR LIVES IT WAS COLD MY ABUSIVE HUSBAND SNAPPED HE SAID HE WAS GOING TO KILL ME HE TOOK EVERY DOOR OFF THE HINGE NAILED THEM TO THE WINDOWS TIME STOPPED IT WENT FROM 11AM TO 11PM DARKNESS COVERED EVERY CRACK HE TORTURED ME ASSAULTING ME ALL OVER THE HOUSE MY CRIES WERE NOT HEARD NOT HERE I THOUGHT WHY DID I STAY SO LONG HE CALLED ME STUPID I GUESS I WAS HE HELD ME HOSTAGE AT KNIFE POINT TIED TO A CHAIR BEATING ME EATING CEREAL WATCHING CARTOONS SMURF MY DAUGHTER TOLD HER TEACHER I COULDN'T SIGN HER FIELD TRIP FORMS BECAUSE MY DAD TIED HER HANDS I WAS FINALLY RESCUED FROM THE DARK PLACE OH PRAISE HIS HOLY NAME MILWAUKEE WAS THERE I THOUGHT OF SPECIAL AGENT LEROY HEIMBACH HE BECAME FBI SUPERVISOR IN MILWAUKEE I WORKED WITH HIM ON MURDER CASES AND CORNERSTONE SELLING TRADING WEAPONS FOR WIC COUPONS MY GOD TODAY I HAVE FORGIVENESS I HAD TO IN ORDER TO SURVIVE THE SORJOURNAL TRUTH HOME SAFE PLACE SAINT ANGELINE CHRISTIAN HOME KNIGHTS OF KINDNESS FINALLY THE SPRINGS OF TAMPA BAY

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