I Didn't Mean It
I was physically present but my mind wasn’t always there,
Trying to find the silver lining but everything seemed so unfair.
I knew I could have a seizure but I could never see the shore,
My mind lost at sea even for 1 minute, I would wake up so sore.
I had every right to give up and just not care,
At times it started to feel like I was living a nightmare.
I would roar and I felt pain like I had never felt it before,
My body went hardcore, looked like I came back from war.
I knew life wasn’t a straight line but I never got this memo,
I would cry myself to sleep at night but you didn’t know.
Unaware of it, I would make a loud whelp,
I would get mad at you but you were only trying to help.
Having to give up everything I worked for, what a low blow,
There would be highs and lows but it wouldn’t always show.
I had another seizure… welp,
You kept trying to comfort me, I know you just wanted to help.
At times I felt hopeless,
But most of all… I’ve never stopped hoping less.
Aaron Pura Jr