Stream-Of-A-Dream
I made several grave mistakes on purpose
Accidentally called you by another name
I am a tragedy in reverse in every verse
Shame on me for doing the self-blame game
I had a dream of a stream of tears,
Running down my eyes for many years
Change is a challenging chore and cheers to happiness and positivity ashore
I adore you to the core, to the core but I don’t anymore, anymore, anymore
So I ascend to the deepest of my core
I had a dream of you once upon a time
I had a dream of you in sunshine, love of mine
I had a dream of you and it was so crime
I’m doing just fine, just suicidal and trying so fine…
I had a stream-of-a-dream
It gave me such high self-esteem
I can scream in joy
Because I’m a joyous boy
But, these morbid, horrid voices in my head
Tell me to die and go to sleep instead, instead
I had a dream of a stream of tears,
Running down my eyes for many years
Change is a challenging chore and cheers to happiness and positivity ashore
I adore you to the core, to the core but I don’t anymore, anymore, anymore
I made several grave mistakes and I’m a disgrace
Accidentally called you by the wrong name
I have an infinity times infinity headache
Shame on me for giving you yet another heartache
I had a dream of a stream of tears,
Running down my eyes for many years
Change is a challenging chore and cheers to happiness and positivity ashore
I adore you to the core, to the core but I don’t anymore, anymore, anymore
I had a dream of you once upon a time
I had a dream of you in sunshine, love of mine
I had a dream of you and it was so crime
I’m doing just fine, just suicidal and trying so fine…
I had a stream-of-a-dream
It gave me such high self-esteem
I can scream in joy
Because I’m a joyous boy
But, these morbid, horrid thoughts in my head
Tell me to die and go to sleep instead, instead
I had a dream of a stream of tears,
Running down my eyes for many years
Optimistic notions is a challenging chore and cheers to happiness and positivity ashore
I adore you to the core, to the core but I don’t anymore, anymore, anymore
I had a dream, had a dream, a dream, dream
It was as good as brewed coffee and yummy cream
I had a nightmare to the utmost extreme
Fairly enough, I feel like I’m going to scream
I had a dream of a stream of tears,
Running down my eyes for many years
Change is a challenging chore and cheers to happiness and positivity ashore
I adore you to the core, to the core but I don’t anymore, anymore, anymore
I am praying away the suicidal ideation
It’s reducing me to frustration and agitation
I am trying my hardest to be patient with myself again
How have you been? I am feeling a zero, not a ten
At least it’s not negative 37
Or else, I’d be a positive 69
I had a dream of a stream of tears,
Running down my eyes for many years
Change is a challenging chore and cheers to happiness and positivity ashore
I adore you to the core, to the core but I don’t anymore, anymore, anymore
Rock bottom isn’t far, for the shallow waters inside me are on feet level, I can tell
I’ve been through worse and I know I can let the devil kiss my grits and go to hell
I just feel like yelling
It’s appalling how I keep dwelling
On the inner negativity inside me
When will I be free? Maybe tomorrow hopefully
I had a dream of you once upon a time
I had a dream of you in sunshine, love of mine
I had a dream of you and it was so crime
I’m doing just fine, just suicidal and trying so fine…
I had a stream-of-a-dream
It gave me such high self-esteem
I can scream in joy
Because I’m a joyous boy
But, these morbid, horrid voices in my head
Tell me to die and go to sleep instead, instead
I tell it to die — the voices
My spirit inside, it rejoices
I tell myself to live, regardless
Of feeling distress more or less
I will live my dream
Even if it means my mixed emotions
Will fade like a stream,
Heading towards the lake and oceans
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J.W. Earnings
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