Changed: imploded broken vanished summonedreturned
New new new
Clean clear powerful activity, unleashed wings upstairs
Protective instinct bonded to stability
Monitor on, guarding, titrating all sensory and physical input
Past seeking, obsessing on relief in dark lost forced absenting this plane
Past pushing and stretching time away, red flag slapping my face, “stop look closely dare see”
Focusing fully NOW on amplifying, maintaining the fresh satisfied giddy experience awake
I don’t need suppression, regulation, filing of edges for my body mind junction entity
I feel know the chemical regimen chosen for and by me
Don’t make muddy please
I am back in the office communicating, now awake now desiring deeply now understanding differently now graduating the walker
Am I improved? I am and I will be proud and keep it
Wiped away in the shocks of rebirth my circadian dysregulation!
Oozing tar of dysfunction touching food, health, relationships, safety, mood, hope
Sleep has become the gentle, warm blanket for mental emotional physical regrouping….I stared and stared to know it
Too I sing!
I sing internally connected breathing release!
Injections of confidence smelled enchantingly, mesmerizingly, of SHE wife partner friend lover teammate soulmate
No longer draining futility investing myself in every today, my future visible down a path in these rebuilt todays
My choice, my complete self investment, now I may live it
Fascinating to stop treading water
Unbelievably magically rewarding to blink upon a dawn when coveted transmutes to experienced enjoyed
Now I accelerate
Handle, build, correctly accurately confidently
Safely, Safely
I scrubbed my vessel and started digging out rot and restructuring the me:world interface
Drive to accomplish…handle delicately, guide carefully
If it burns agitates, threatens to tear away efficiency worse logic
Exit to the present moment
Breath be here…you hold and know now Okay
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Payge Terner
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