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2/12/2018 11:58:57 PM
Pull Myself Together	I just want to grab myself, and shake myself, until all the sadness in me falls out. I visualise it, as dusty pile of crushed velvet threads, crushed like my very soul. I want to smile again, and really mean it but I can't, because behind every look on my face, there are my eyes that betray me, haunting dark circles, barely containing the deep and brooding swell. I want to be held and consoled, but not by anyone but you, friends have tried to comfort me, and I am afraid to seem ungrateful, but I am shaking and falling apart all the time, so I hide from those that would care. I want to stop falling, I feel the wind in my gut, while my heart randomly surges, like a fist pushing on my ribs, it makes me sick and it hurts, I hurt from many directions. I want to be yours, I don't want to own you, but you can have me, and do with me as you like, for I know and trust you, and you are lovely. I want closure, but I am afraid to admit, that to control this descent. I would have to let you go, and I am not ready to, and I never will be. Because I love you. edited by JonK on 2/13/2018
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2/12/2018 11:58:57 PM

I just want to grab myself,
and shake myself,

until all the sadness in me falls out.
I visualise it,

as dusty pile of crushed velvet threads,

crushed like my very soul.

I want to smile again,

and really mean it but I can't,

because behind every look on my face,

there are my eyes that betray me,

haunting dark circles,

barely containing the deep and brooding swell.

I want to be held and consoled,

but not by anyone but you,

friends have tried to comfort me,

and I am afraid to seem ungrateful,

but I am shaking and falling apart all the time,

so I hide from those that would care.

I want to stop falling,

I feel the wind in my gut,

while my heart randomly surges,

like a fist pushing on my ribs,

it makes me sick and it hurts,

I hurt from many directions.

I want to be yours,

I don't want to own you,

but you can have me,

and do with me as you like,

for I know and trust you,

and you are lovely.

I want closure,

but I am afraid to admit,

that to control this descent.

I would have to let you go,

and I am not ready to,

and I never will be.

Because I love you.
edited by JonK on 2/13/2018

pages: 1