Overwelming

overwhelming thoughts with screams suffocating time as tears form the river of denial i drift deeper out of my mind grasping for air as i attempt to see what isn't there coveting words that cling onto my ability to care lacking self control i search for something, anything to grab scratching, biting, clawing my doorway to deaths cold slab songs that which i sing in memories of whispers and prayer beating to the seductive release of that which isn't fair i try and try to overcome this realities haunting sin i dig deeper and deeper throwing away my soul within twisting and turning seeping with silence sleeping and spinning weeping in violence learning to regret and never to forgive unable to accept it was me who lived