A Sinner's Pray

As I laid my head down I realize… that I don’t fear him. As I close my eyes, I raise my body up, I kneel down… bent my head… and cry. Because I don’t fear him. If he forgives- I know he will-for my sins I will be please. My sins are many… many sins I have on my head. Many sins I have feared repeating out loud, Just in case anyone hears them. I wipe the tears that have consumed me night and day. Please dear God… console me! I need you dear father in my life. Do not disown me, Lord I pray. Do not leave me stranded, In a place so bare. I got no one. Everyone one left me. And I fear you will! Someone passed close to my door… I dried my tears out of pride- I didn’t want anyone to see me crying! A couple of minutes passed. No one came! I blew my nose loudly… What had I cared! For my father is the only Person I shall fear.