Where Ive Been

So many years, so many things Can’t say I’m the same person Since the last time we saw each other wearing those coats back in 2017. I’ve been trying to forget about you I’ve been trying to fall in love again But my passion for you is still vivid and wet Just like the colour of dark-silk red Living so many experiences Asking myself where I’ve been With the time I realized I am still walking alone In the Boulevard of Broken Dreams Maybe it was my mistake I did lie, fantasized and deceived I only wanted to test your character To see if we can become the same being The sky is no longer blue, There is no light coming out from the Moon I promise that since the last time we saw each other There hasn’t been a single day Without thinking about you Just wanted to forget about your memories But you just still appear in my dreams I don’t know what this exactly means But the Lord just wants this to repeat Reflecting upon my guilt, wondering about another Love If another relationship could manage to start When you appear while I am at sleep I just wake up to a Broken Heart How long will this agony continue? For how much it will be? I only want a new beginning So I can redeem my sins It has been complicated, to carry on a better life I had lived many good things though But there is this emotional scar Lying around on my mind I’ve changed, not because what I’ve lived Or learned, but because how I reflected Wisdom doesn’t come out from a book or map But it does come out from the bottom of the heart So tired of pretending I’m happy Since 14 years of age, my life has been like you said, so sad My mind is better when quiet My life, I’d realized, is so silent. April or May 2021. (Incomplete)