Livid Calamity

You held me in your arms But never had me in your heart I could never play the better card My heart in my palms But still enclosed and manacled By a shell .I exposed and sought closure We squabbled and suffered You forced me into a world i tought of as contempt Battled with contend Without my damn consent I lost my solitude and content You never saw me for me Cause you chose not to But expected my walls to be phantom And comminuted my sanctum Knew me only when you had steam to blow The day i got my chance i took it And vowed to escape that repressive scene I tried so many time's You fought so many time's You took it too far Even caused a cicatrice And destroyed my euphoric bliss I wish i could consolidate And infiltrate my thoughts Than formulate my words I yell but my words are forged by sincerity I lacked appropriate honesty My tears couldn't form But my emotions stormed Feel it but can't grasp it Because it alternates Fluctuates and oscillates