I'M Over Anxious

Nothing is ever straight forwards for me For whatever I do I don't quite trust me Did I make enough sandwiches, should I cut off the crusts? Do I need some more napkins, Will the wind blow in gusts? Did I water the plants enough on the window sill? Have I watered to much to make them over spill? Will the kids be okay to have baked beans for tea? Should I go to the shop or should I wait and see? Will the dog bite the postman if he comes through our gate? I should have known that one not left it to fate Nothing is ever straight forwards for me For whatever I do I don't quite trust me Should I try a new hairstyle, go for short and neat? Or maybe try something a little upbeat? Do I really need Sky TV to keep him amused? Or can the expense be far better used? Do I wash all his socks inside out as they are? Or is that taking things just a little too far? Is it okay to laugh when he slips on the soap? Or should I just ask if there's anything broke? Nothing is ever straight forwards for me For whatever I do I don't quite trust me Should I go for a walk and take the dog out? Or stay here and pet him, get covered in snout? Perhaps I should hoover from top the of the stairs? Get rid off all the unwanted pet hairs? Shepherds pie or roast pork for our tea? He won't want either and blame it on me Can I reach the phone before the ringing ceases? Or will it fall and break into a thousand pieces? Nothing is ever straight forwards for me For whatever I do I don't quite trust me If I put in a plug will the sink overflow? Should I turn off the taps before I turn to go? Will the washing machine cycle ever end? The drone and the noise drives me round the bend Will the dog eat his food from his dish for a change? Or will most of it end over the range? And If I take a bath will the door bell go? Forcing me out with too much on show? Nothing is ever straight forwards for me For whatever I do I don't quite trust me If instructions say pull, I just have to push Maybe I was found under a gooseberry bush Whatever I try never quite pans out right If I'm hoping for peace there's always a fight I do try my best to make a decision But for me multiplying is like long division And whatever I do with the best of intention Would have been done far better if I'd practiced abstention Jane Shields 18th August 2016