Im a Soldier
I’m a soldier, reborn from the
Battles of the East
Conceived by loveless parents
Raised by a dysfunctional family.
I’ve been betrayed, forgotten, abandoned
Several times heartbroken
But the dream of becoming a soldier
Is the one who kept my head over my shoulders.
The chaos takes over my brain
The bad memories keep invading my head
But I never forgot the fact
That with the time, they simply fade away.
All over since my childhood
I always wanted to hold that rifle
Walking in a silent desert with my comrade
Nothing else but our duty is really important.
The teenage years were tough
Lonely, single, without job
It took me self-determination
To keep such dreams to live on.
I’m a soldier, a term of character
Is not a muscular body, is not a camo uniform
Is a state of struggle, self-confidence and courage
Is the willing to sacrifice everything for each other.
Devoted and fanatical from young
I always knew that there belonged my soul
Since 6 years of age, I also looked to other things
But nothing but the soldier, remained as just a joke.
I haven’t realize what exactly is
Maybe the discipline, the training, the guns
Or the friendships, but if something is sure
Is that the soldier heals every part, of my wounded heart.
The civilian life affected me, almost corrupted me
But everything was a self-training
In order to shape, mold and test my honor and courage
So I could became as best as I can.
We’ve been through worse
But beauty also appeared in our roads
Every time we found ourselves alone
We just travel to another world.
Being affected from our hearts
We slowly reflect with our minds
Realizing that the past is the shade
And the future is the shine.
Maybe I can be a fierce warrior
But that doesn’t mean, that I can’t love without passion
From it, maybe I had ‘enough’
But maybe, I never really had it at all.
My living standards are very low
I just want to be somewhere I call home
If I knock again at my old house
I know that no one will receive me at the door.
I wonder how much I’ll remain sad
I spent most of my time alone
But it doesn’t really matter though
I realized that I’m at the hands of the Lord.
Because there is no Death for my soul
If I ever die in a war
Our actions strike like the thunder
But our names and faces, fade like the smoke.
I’m just a soldier, I just followed orders
May the Virgin Mary pray for my soul
Let the Lord judge me for the
Bad and good things that I’ve done.
2018.
Copyright © Ivan Javier Velasquez | Year Posted 2022
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