I Fear

People are Unique characters Each person with their own personas, A mask of their true self - Choosing to reveal or withhold Many traits, especially fear. Well, I’m no different, I FEAR Above all else - losing my family Those I hold dear to me For they’re all I have And all I ever truly need I FEAR The unknown An empty void Enjoying the moment, then suddenly Happiness snatched away I FEAR Being alone Becoming wholly connected with you, then You disappear, Gone in the blink of an eye I FEAR The future For it coincides with the unknown And that, that terrifies me I FEAR Failure, in all things And so I don’t even try To put forth the effort I should You can’t be disappointed If you don’t try I FEAR Your judgment because I want so badly for you to be proud of me For without your pride, I feel empty I FEAR Trying something new What if I don’t like it? But, What if I do? I FEAR Not being good enough Weakness heightened, Anxiety and depression A lack of confidence I FEAR My mind, for It’s constantly against me Your words of faith slashed Confidence diminished By this horrific, mental disease If only, I didn’t fear so much Then I could be the best person That I was created to be