Hurt Heart Hate 3

Journal Entry The toughest part of letting go is realizing that the other person already did.what you were with that person was more than the constant fights ,the cuddling ,the hurting ,the sex.it was that bond formed.it was deep.it felt like a fantasy. it might not be much but it wasn't enough.where was the problem? there's still that echo at the back of your head that tells you about the bond . the echo that keeps you addicted . the very addiction that consumes you .takes up your time. sacrifices your humanity .silent screams .pleading on knees.all the weight on your shoulders.marking of wrists and thighs . always stumbling over words .tripping over depressed thoughts .like a knife went through your chest.all the physical pain doesn't even come close to what is felt emotionally .feels like your deteriorating .feeling s?i? thats painfull .its overwhelming.falling apart with loving lies. like you had a life with that person .every memory .every tear.like your feelings is holding on.how can misery feel so right?wishing there was more...