Guess At Normal

The fatal flaw The internal void The lack of worth affliction Finally realising it is a state of being It's true but also fiction I had inconsistent attachment That's the formal phrase My brain has made adjustments As I coped in different ways I don't know what was and what wasn't true I can't figure it out I just know that I'm struggling Of that there is no doubt It's possibly cathartic To finally understand I should have guessed earlier Having experienced it first hand I'm hoping to stop apologising For simply being me Especially to those that insist I am their cup of tea It would be great to hear and accept Some of the nice things I am told Anything positive and I'm usually unsold So I practice saying thank you Stop trying to drive people away They didn't go anywhere They insisted that they stay I'm not guessing at being normal I'm just slightly off the wall And after looking into it, it's not unusual at all