Emotional Cutting
I pierce my heart with horrific thoughts
of an unfathomable and unimaginable
child abuse that has never left me.
I sever my soul into pieces going over every
detail of the relentless insults and beatings
from my father and that violent boyfriend.
I gouge my mind with the most profound regret of all
in that, I didn’t spend enough time with my mother
and beloved brother, Jimmy before I lost them.
I curse myself for not making it known to my mother
And brother how much I loved and needed
them which was more than I could ever say.
The heaviest burden engraved on my being
is for the loss of my protector and advisor
in a dearest older brother which I will forever miss.
I am also aware and ashamed of the deeply painful
Look in my Son’s eyes for having to cope
with a mother like me.
Lastly, I beg Oh, Dear God please rescue and release
me from this deep sorrow and regret that torments me
so the emotional cutting is finally brought to an end.
Copyright © Diane Perna | Year Posted 2018
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