Cud

I could work out why I'm so sad. Is it the now things, Or those long ago things? Maybe how long ago things make now things worse. Talking in simple language, you might think I'm facing things, But I'm trying to chew them up in my mouth before they turn into words. So I don't know why I'm sad, or want to. I swallowed it. The only sign is, I tied my hair back, Nursed aches in my stomach writing this, Crying yesterday, Just silently. Hopefully, little by little, I'll disperse the sad. Little joys will change the balance. Boxes repacked and closed. If I ever tell anyone, They always say, "Oh, that's a lot to deal with," Or some other words That make me think, "Oh." I'll try simple things, Try not to overcomplicate it, Until I'm not sad.

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Hilda Greenhough

Date: 10/4/2024 12:16:00 PM

Perhaps a drink of water. I know I don't drink nearly the advised amount. Does comedy relieve anxiety. Or make it worse. I could take some advice.

Di11y Da11y
Date: 10/4/2024 1:10:00 PM

I've not figured out the anxiety, I tend to try and just let that pass and also do things anyway - typically I'll surprise myself. Sadness was reactionary. It's passed too and I'm trying a bit of exercise too (we'll see how long that lasts!)

Daniel Henry Rodgers

Date: 10/4/2024 6:42:00 AM

Dear DD, I did not know whether to cry or feel overly sad about such a significant loss. In other words, it is so well expressed with a great emotional outpouring that sometimes it is cathartic in of itself. Interestingly, you used cud because growing up on a farm, that is a word that is used a lot. I hope you are feeling better, and I believe moments like these make us better poets. Autumn Blessings, My Dear Friend, Daniel

Di11y Da11y
Date: 10/4/2024 1:08:00 PM

Yes, I titled it cud because of all the chewing over and sitting in your stomach - well spotted. Thank you, it doesn't tend to last long and I perk up again.

Paul Willason

Date: 10/4/2024 5:47:00 AM

Fascinating internal dialogue DD ...sums up the human condition in those moments when sadness settles and becomes almost a regular companion. To pull it out on the page is a good start...it helps to give it a name. Like this poem, Can identify with mood. Sending good vibes my friend...

Di11y Da11y
Date: 10/4/2024 9:00:00 AM

Thank you Paul

Paula Goldsmith

Date: 10/2/2024 9:58:00 AM

I enjoyed reading this wonderful yet sad write. The word Sad only has three letters yet is a very powerful word/thing. Sometimes hard to move on from than other times. When this hits, find something to be blessed/happy about. They say count sheep to go the sleep, it is better to count your blessings. Cheer Up with a hug.... Have a blessed/wonderful day writing away................

Di11y Da11y
Date: 10/2/2024 10:01:00 AM

Funny you should mention sheep. There was one running in the road earlier and a plumber stopped his van and risked himself to guide it back to the field. I nearly burst into tears watching it. There are always good deeds happening. Thank you for your comment

Lin Lane

Date: 10/2/2024 3:26:00 AM

I feel the way you do sometimes, Dilly. It's as if something is rushing like waves to the shore in warning that something is not right, but you've no clue as to what that might be. Don't allow trivial things to make you sad. Certainly nothing in PS should bring on that emotion. We can't force those who continue using AI to stop, but we can and have brought them into focus. Shake it Off. LOL Lordy, I'm quoting Taylor Swift!

Di11y Da11y
Date: 10/2/2024 4:07:00 AM

Haha yeah PS plays no part in it, although the AI issues affect the motivation to bother writing it out, which I found helpful, so the downturn in the site is impactful in its own way (that some can't understand). There are real events in this case, quite sortable for now but just a bit all at once and mixing together. Thanks for your comment (and the Taylor earworm!)

Clive Culverhouse

Date: 10/2/2024 1:33:00 AM

If this is just a poem of artiistic expression or you've written about how you really feel then either was it's a powerful one and I can feel the pain, if it's the latter I hope you feel not so sad by your writing, writing poems helped me to feel ok again.

Di11y Da11y
Date: 10/2/2024 1:35:00 AM

Thank you Clive, hopefully I'll shake it off. Everything's ok really except the feeling so that's good.