Carrot Cake

We struggled for years 
fertility drugs - to no avail.... that first micro- surgery 
where my neighbors welcomed me home with a carrot cake.
Pursuing that elusive goal of parenthood
with as many in -vitro attempts as money would allow.
Always the promise of a pregnancy- like a carrot on a stick

You held my hand through all  
of those almost unbearable procedures - 
and with each failed try
we never grieved- I never let myself 
until today at 40,000 feet - 20 years later,

the tears came, un-bidden

Flying First Class from LA-
they served me carrot cake.

Suzanne Delaney 

Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Date: 11/26/2016 10:32:00 AM
Hi FJ: Thanks for your most appreciated visit and empathy. I am fine these days and loving life always. Hugs, SuZ
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Date: 10/7/2016 1:59:00 AM
In every pain, healing always come miraculously in place. A very beautiful poem my dear Suzanne. Thanks for sharing and I'm also dropping by to greet you happy birthday! love and hugs, Leonora
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Date: 8/2/2016 4:11:00 AM
Oh Suzanne this moved me to tears. Life is funny how some little thing will make all the pain rush back. I think your sadness also came with leaving Hawaii and entering into a new season of your life. I am so sincerely sorry it was not to be in this life. I wish you and your husband all the happiness in your new home. Love, Connie
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Date: 7/25/2016 1:37:00 PM
oh my,so sad and so well crafted . I Love when you write like this!!!
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Date: 6/24/2016 5:32:00 PM
My wife and I have discussed children for many years, but due to health issues we may look into adoption. Thank you for a great write!
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Date: 6/22/2016 11:46:00 PM
P.S. Hope you are getting settled in well, Suz. I received your nature photo of where you're living now ... seems very tranquil to me.
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Date: 6/22/2016 11:41:00 PM
Oh wow, Suz ... very poignant poem. And, of course, all the more powerful when based off of experience. I have an aunt who always tried to have kids, but she was never able too ... in compensation, she treats her nieces and nephews (me) just like kids. Life is very mysterious at times ... you never know how or when the floodgates will come. Very tough situation, Suz ... but you are a strong person, no doubt about it.
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Date: 6/22/2016 12:30:00 PM
- With regard to insemination and in vitro fertilization - How many succeed in getting children .... about 60 % - None , who have not experienced it, can not comprehend how vulnerable you are in such a situation - a deep sensitive write, Suzanne - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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Date: 6/22/2016 12:18:00 PM
excellent poem! such an elegantly succinct but emotive writer you are
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Date: 6/22/2016 12:02:00 PM
What a sad poem, but so relevant. No having a baby is a pity, but life is as it comes and you should have courage.
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