Anxiety lingers all in my mind
I feel I'm about to lose my mind
my head is full 
my eyes are rolling tears with so much fear
 into tissues of my cells
that flow the blood to my heart
each and every day I cry in pain,
where a new hurt  takes the place of the old one
a new pain comes my way in the light of day
dreams haunt me where old memories lay
the past had its way of coming back
when love didn't last 
my poor heart writes as it bleeds 
where my emotions are running all over the place
I cry out in faith for all of this to go away
before I break in the weight of my pains 
that pushes upon my heart
a reminder for me to bear my loneliness
where the rain of pain is always dancing around me
I'm weak and very  fragile
where my soul is growing cold
I try so hard to let the past go
my mind is almost lost in another time
where I grip hold on all that I had ever known
words that I write about my life
the world already knows 
I have been a slave in my own life pains
while my poor heart bleeds out in ink
for the whole world to read all about me
In my painful life I had been cut with lies
hate and anger others 
my mind screams by all the voices that came at me
while I sleep in a heavy painful dream 
where I lay my thoughts in wonder of a storm
that brings on thunder that beats down on me more
I have to ask myself is all of this worth the fight?
when so many has been wanting to take my life
where I know they are not right in their minds
I seen all kinds that drop another hateful line
that eats away at my soul in a world so cold
As the days become months and years 
brings on so much tears and fears
paranoia seems to take over me in darken dreams
where the walls are very tall 
I written my pains down in blood stain ink 
where demons play on the mind 
telling so much lies 
where haters play nasty hurtful games 
that haunt and taunt me day and night
the evil haters know that one day I will find my way
and when I do will fly away with white wings
out of darken dreams 
Until then they do win 
they hold much power over my soul 
they have almost smothered my life 
where darken dreams  makes me scream
my sight for life is blinded by darkness
where shadows of evil all around
I know this is only a test of good and bad
but sometimes it feels so real 
that creeps around late at night
bringing on anxiety 
my tears and fears play games on me
each day and night I cry
old memories haunt me 
the pains are so deep they weight down on me
when I sleep they give me bad dreams
I don't know how much longer I could keep going on
I pray night and day 
for this old anxiety to go away
my breathing has grown hard and my mind is racing
while I kept pacing the floor 
while my body tingles 
while my tears fall with fears of death.

 Poetic Judy Emery (c)

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Date: 8/9/2017 10:45:00 AM
Anxiety is a horrible thing to live with. You write beautifully. Thank you so much for sharing! God bless
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Date: 8/8/2017 10:23:00 PM
Wow Judy, very deep and descriptive write, you had me in the game from beginning to end! Regards, Craig
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