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Let’s talk about trust ‘Cuz I don’t know how to do it I mean, It’s easy right? Should be nothing to it! Just cast all your worries (Including all your doubts) Cast them to the wind Just throw them out! Just toss them aside Give them the cold shoulder Don’t give them a foothold Or they will grow bolder I mean sure, Okay! Sounds like a snap Tell the f***ers off But, wait, Oh Crap! I forgot how hard It actually is! Those f***ers are convincing And really are a whiz They find just the perfect angle That binds me up tight The vulnerable Achilles heel That I can usually hide True to what happens True to what I find It’s tied to some childhood trauma Hidden latent in my mind Trust can be hard for me to come by Especially when it comes to wealth Although, I have a few issues with my body I generally trust in my good health But when it comes to provisions Trust just isn’t there I guess that’s what happens When you grow up in despair I mean, when you grow up poor Without enough to eat And dream of food so often Trusting is just defeat But I look at the birds And I know in my head They are well taken care of Else they’d be dead! I’m so used to hard work To satisfy all my need That trusting to be cared for Is completely foreign to me When I get close to the pain And the frustration Locked away in my soul I panic in desperation It’s a wild, crazy reaction That has no basis in truth Just childhood trauma That hasn’t seen the proof And so I sit here now with it As it screams and shouts loudly And flashes scenes before me Until they are all that I can see Mostly, I do love awakening It has become my goal To experience the truth And become an untethered soul But, dude sometimes it’s hard! The work can be grueling Undoing deeply rooted pain Has got to be the most challenging Still, I will press on Because I know it’s worth it This time I devote to myself Is ultimately to my benefit

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Date: 10/5/2022 1:33:00 PM
I forgot how hard It actually is! Those f***ers are convincing And really are a whiz When I got here I burst out laughing, because it is true. Easy to say throw your cares away, but not so easy to do. Easy to say wipe all bad memories, but we weren't equipped with "delete buttons". Another excellent poem Becky
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Becky Forbes
Date: 10/5/2022 1:59:00 PM
That is the BEST compliment. To resonate and laugh. You made my day, Wendy! Thank you thank you thank you!!! :-) Becky