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I walk and walk, without talking to anyone, I walk here and there, to avoid their stares, their scowls, their “poor lady” pity - Do they know I used to be pretty? Now I’m just a dirty nothing, dirty whore, I walk till I can’t walk anymore. I have no place to be, no place to go. I sit for a moment when I find a spot, a park bench, a doorway, the outer corner of a parking lot But someone always comes around and looks at me with that disdainful frown, I walk. I walk so I won’t get caught I walk away looking down at the ground. I feel so ashamed. There’s nowhere I can hide. I try, though, I try. I stand in long lines to find a decent place to sleep for the night, but decent places are hard to find. I’d rather lie in the dirt at the downtown park than fear the rats that nibble in the dark in bug-infested rooms with urine-stained mattresses. I eat my food real fast, then hurry on my way, before some men come around and try to pressure me to stay. I live in fear for my life every night, It’s like a fist that hovers over me, constantly, Like the fist he used on me that day, my body beaten; the bruises have faded away. I walk. I walk, to get away from the pain. I sleep in a doorway, in an alley down the street. I’ve nothing but these filthy clothes, and the shoes on my feet, and I’m ok with being dirty, let me stink, I hope I stink! Maybe it will keep the stinking men away from me, so I can try to get some sleep, rest my aching feet. And then, when daylight comes again, in the sunshine or the rain I’ll walk and walk ... to get away from the pain. Inspired by Tom's "Being Homeless" contest Facts: Domestic violence is a leading cause of homelessness for women and their children. (nedv.org) According to VAWnet.org, “Homeless women … are particularly vulnerable to multiple forms of victimization including forced, coerced, or manipulated sexual activity.”

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Date: 7/28/2020 11:40:00 AM
It's a shame life can hurt us and society makes it worse. Good write , Becca, Hugs Eve
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Date: 3/11/2019 7:10:00 PM
Very Good.
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Date: 10/20/2018 9:55:00 AM
This is hard hitting. Even when they're down someone is preying instead of praying. No tools were needed in this truth...i love the straightforward approach within this write. Grand Standing for a good cause! Deeep
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Date: 8/31/2018 7:38:00 AM
Wow Becca. This is so real in my mind and I could feel the pain and fear in the the lady that seems to have lost all hope for a life that could be. To see only that fear and pain is so sad and frightening. Very well written and it has revived a compassion in me that I often forget. Thank you for making me realize that, my friend..... Robert
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Date: 8/31/2018 10:38:00 AM
Robert, thank you so much for your review. I'm glad my poem could reach you in that way. I truly appreciate your visit. hugs
Date: 4/7/2018 9:19:00 AM
Becca, if this is the "homeless" piece you referred to in your comment on my blog "In the details", I would say, most definitely, that you "believe" this lady is real. You have details aplenty that make her so, and therefore make your readers feel more compassion for her. This is "created truth"...for your character. And a marvelous write.
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Date: 4/7/2018 3:14:00 PM
Thank you so much, Jim. I did try to put myself in her shoes, so to speak. I see what you're saying now, about "created truth" Thanks again x
Date: 8/17/2017 11:49:00 PM
Compelling!
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Date: 4/7/2018 3:14:00 PM
thank, Anita!
Date: 6/6/2017 6:42:00 PM
Wow, Becca. I'm sorry I missed this one. Very powerful, telling it like it is. Magnificent write!
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Date: 6/6/2017 8:26:00 PM
Thank you, Daniel!
Date: 6/4/2017 3:34:00 PM
Hi Becca , most people don't see this happening but happens it will all the time all over the world. very emotional and fact based description it is horrific what mankind do man is not kind those two words should not be together :(( hugs
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Date: 6/6/2017 8:27:00 PM
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Date: 12/19/2016 3:08:00 PM
Brilliant poem, Rebecca. Gripping and soul searching w/harsh reality presented unfiltered and unaltered. Realism poetry at it highest. Your talent shines like a bright light in the night. I'm attracted to it immensely. Love the poem though. Much love to you and yours.
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Date: 12/4/2016 8:25:00 AM
Belated congrats on a very poignant well written poem Rebecca!! You are a very talented writer!:)
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Date: 12/2/2016 4:12:00 PM
What a deeply poignant piece this is. The picture so fitting. It really touched my heart and I thought there but for the grace of God go I. Excellent. A winner for sure. God Bless, JB
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Date: 12/2/2016 4:29:00 PM
The picture.. yes.. she looks so tired, doesn't she. The picture touched my heart too and inspired the thoughts in this poem. Thank you for your lovely comment, JB, I truly appreciate it. Hugs
Date: 11/29/2016 6:06:00 PM
I feel compelled to save her if I only was there. If she could trust a stranger and that he truly cares. Where can we go when we don't know where we can go when we don't know. Walking, walking, walking, like sickened, saddened souls. That lost their way so long ago and play their sullen roles. You've put yourself in her worn shoes and crawled inside her saddened blues. You've touched me with this dark depiction. I only wish that it was fiction. :) Peace. You are beautiful Becca.
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Date: 12/2/2016 4:31:00 PM
Aw Robert... I know you would save her if you could. You are a good man. Thank you so much for your kind words, my sweet friend.
Date: 11/28/2016 5:32:00 PM
Once again, a mesmerizing poem, though a much deeper theme than the previous one I read, but still amazing. What I have found in the two poems I have read by you is there is a melody to your words, they become so easy to read as they flow gently to the eye. A very dark and heartbreaking subject I find in this. I came from this saddened and feeling for this walking woman. Your poems are incredible. I could say so much more about the format and style, but I only have so much room in this box.
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Date: 12/4/2016 9:29:00 AM
Thank you so much again Chris for your kind and encouraging words..
Date: 11/14/2016 1:24:00 PM
It is sad that our homeless are made to feel shame. You read this so well, you brought this piece to life.
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Date: 11/6/2016 6:37:00 AM
Amazing write! When you take the time to peel back the onion there is always so much more to see. I never see them as ugly or dirty or stinky. They are our neighbors. They don't want pity I just try to sit with them male or female. Maybe eat with them and offer to share what I can. They are our lost soldiers. Ours to offer a sense of their dignity back to them. Thank you for this read. A Fav. Love always armand.
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Date: 11/2/2016 1:24:00 PM
So touching this is dear Becca...So heartwrenching. I am deeply moved.A favourite...Big hugs
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Date: 10/28/2016 7:18:00 PM
So emotional and touching, Becca. Congratulations on your fine placement. Hugs, Sandra
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Date: 10/28/2016 5:49:00 PM
I have read this piece a couple of times. I really really like this poem. It left a lump in my throat it's a very emotive piece.
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Date: 10/28/2016 5:16:00 PM
This is so well done Becca, very moving. Congratulations.
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Date: 10/27/2016 9:20:00 PM
It's beautiful, Rebecca. In a way that forces to light the things people refuse to see, your poem puts it front and center. Some part of me just reading it wants to offer her food, or a place to sleep. The part about the church especially struck me. The imagery was crisp. Congratulations on your win!
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Date: 10/27/2016 9:44:00 PM
Jesse, I love that you want to offer her food, or a place to sleep... you seem very compassionate, and we need more compassion in this world. Thank you so much for reading and for your lovely comment; I truly appreciate it.
Date: 10/27/2016 11:54:00 AM
Congrats on your win, Rebecca. You paint a very vivid picture with your poem. Agnes
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Date: 10/27/2016 4:38:00 PM
Thank you for your visit, Anges! :)
Date: 10/27/2016 10:31:00 AM
I knew this was a winner, first read. Congrats!
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Date: 10/27/2016 4:37:00 PM
Aw thank you, John :) Hugs
Date: 10/27/2016 9:00:00 AM
Hi Becca, This is a well written poem. It felt so real. Congratulations on your fine win. It was well deserved: -) Alexis
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Date: 10/27/2016 4:37:00 PM
Thank you, Alexis! Appreciate your visit! :)
Date: 10/27/2016 8:13:00 AM
An engaging narration with shaky facts. Congratulations on your win with this amazing poem.
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Date: 10/27/2016 4:36:00 PM
Thank you very much, Afzal :)
Date: 10/27/2016 1:40:00 AM
Oh, this is an amazing write, Becca:) congratulations on your well deserved win:) sad to read of such hurtful things that happen, especially in the 5th stanza:)
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Date: 10/27/2016 4:35:00 PM
Fortunately that 5th stanza isn't true for all churches... I know there are probably many churches that reach out to the homeless and needy. But sadly, there are some that shun them. Thank you for writing Jo, Hugs :)
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