Smashing Into The Ethers

These cycles keep repeating, generation after generation in my bloodlines. I am the black sheep because I want to break them. I want to smash them into pieces than throw them into the ethers. It ends with me never to be repeated again. Sometimes it feels heavy all of this healing. Sometimes I grow resentful because I can't be like them. Sometimes I feel like I stand out like a sore thumb. Sometimes I feel like I never belonged. Sometimes I ask why I was I chosen. Than I realize I am stronger minded. For every heavy load I carry I know I wouldn't be given it if I couldn't bare it. Than I continue smashing those pieces sending them into the ethers.