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My disability and miserable life

I m not angry with you, life simply astonish of how I ve been demolish simply baffled of your innocent questions never thought that in order to live I would need to hold onto pain never thought that life would extract price for every smile now whenever I smile it seems like that these lips are pursued in dept today my eyes have weld up with tears soon they ll burst forth I m sure for how long can I hold and pretend that everything s fine why my life is so miserable I didn t even done a single crime tomorrow who knows these sore eyes perhaps will long for the sight of more today my eyes as well as my soul and thoughts yearn alas those droplets lost and my memories spurn life!thus your course seems to be paved but never a one to be dismayed today again you ve reminded me of who I m today again when I tried to take a step you fall me further back and with a greater force, reminding me that I m of course I m not normal as I thought others are better than me, I lack things while they don t but God never ask me, did He, He never ask me that will you be okay He never saved me, He never protect me every second every where everytime somebody reminds me of how Different I m There s not a single time in my life when I felt like I m fine I ve long forgotten how happiness feels like Their s not even a single childhood memory of mine In which I ve smiled every second my thoughts fight so that even for a second I can forget who I m and live a normal life but there's s not even a single day when I m not reminded that I m different that they are better although I never argue, I believe them but they never stop reminding it not even for a single bit no one likes me, I m favorite of no one just because I lack something of which I never have a choice people often laugh when I ask a question in a class they don t know it but it break my heart just like a shattered glass people think that If I don t cry, I m a monster but somebody tell them that I m also a human I also cry, every night, alone in my bed wishing that instead of such life I would have prefered death I m not deaf if I choose not to answer you I always listen what you said about me but I always try to be quiet

Copyright © | Year Posted 2017




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Date: 8/2/2018 1:49:00 PM
This is raw and original I too have felt like a quiet listener. Inspiring. Memories are our strength regardless of the scars they leave us with. You are a very strong writer I will continue to read.
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Date: 7/9/2018 10:36:00 PM
your write are very emotional my friend ----good piece
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Date: 2/28/2018 1:37:00 AM
This is a very good write & full of emotions. Is it made up or true? Thank you so much for reading my Love In Time. ( I was with him for 17 years.) So it took a minute or two to get past all those years :)
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Date: 2/11/2018 7:27:00 PM
Your strength in your words and your creativity come together in perfect unison. We all feel your pain and we all feel your determination. You are a natural! Keep writing and we will keep reading.
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Date: 2/11/2018 3:05:00 PM
Are you disabled? How sad, especially when they live in a place where they are not accepted.. This makes me sad though and I hope it is fictional Faraz..
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Date: 11/28/2017 7:21:00 AM
What I like about your poems is the honesty and sheer rawness of your writing style which eventually is going to be better as you grow in life and believe me, broken heart is what gives birth to art. So no worries my friend. When life gives you lemons, make 'em into lemonade and sip on it. My belated warm welcome to PS and best regards.
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Date: 11/1/2017 1:44:00 PM
I love this poem.And by far Faraz, you're my favorite.Keep it up. Much love.
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Date: 10/29/2017 8:38:00 AM
This is touching and honest poetry, Faraz, you are strong though others may not see it now, keep writing and stay strong, you're truly special, a poet always is:)
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Date: 10/28/2017 1:26:00 AM
oh this is heartbreaking... you are a gifted writer, Faraz! You are amazing. If you are different it is because you're special, in good ways. You are loved. Hugs
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Date: 10/12/2017 9:40:00 AM
You are a true poet! Amazing for one who is so young.
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Date: 10/5/2017 8:41:00 PM
Faraz, your write is so powerfully moving, emotional and beautiful in its vulnerabilty. It takes such a courageous heart to write from your viewpoint with honesty and integrity. Your poem touched my heart and my mind. Please keep writing your poetry. :)
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Date: 9/22/2017 8:21:00 AM
Hello Faraz,Silent One and I agree you must be strong.There are many people out there that looks at the person not the disability and I know this because I am one of these people. I know people like this. They are my friends.
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Darlene De Beaulieu
Date: 9/23/2017 5:53:00 PM
I will encourage you more when you need it.
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Faraz Ajmal
Date: 9/23/2017 7:01:00 AM
Thank you for your comment, I really appreciate your time and encouragement, have a nice day
Date: 9/20/2017 12:22:00 PM
This is a brilliant poem that is written with such honestly.. Be strong my friend..
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Faraz Ajmal
Date: 9/23/2017 7:01:00 AM
Thanks for your encouragement
Date: 9/17/2017 1:05:00 PM
Oh Faraz, your pen bleeds your pain. That's what the pen is for. High school can be so awful dear, rest assured you are normal, just not average, no poet is :) Besides, who really wants to be average? Hugs to you dear poet xomo!
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Faraz Ajmal
Date: 9/20/2017 11:47:00 AM
Sorry, I wasn t able to reply you earlier, many thanks for your reply and kind words, I really appreciate it, have a nice day