Joys Lost

I think we had known each other for about three years. One day you were sick. Then in one month you were gone. Just like that. We had gotten so close! You didn’t judge me and I didn’t judge you. I loved you! You believed in me. You literally told me I was special, and you meant it! Life brought me to Joy, and you Joy, brought me joy! You are, And will always be, Special to me! That last hug I can still see! I try to go back there mentally. I can still feel your warmth, and I still remember your bravery! It’s just so hard to believe! I hope you are among the most peaceful of all and any paradise! You were already an angel, so I pray you feel at home. I will continue to write for you, because I know that’s what you’d want me to do! We both know its true, and you knew I loved writing too, not just for me, but I loved that your interest was true! I will even read them to you just like I used to. I’ll pretend your with me listening, and maybe I’ll find some sort of comfort in that. Even if they’re bad it’s OK, because I stopped caring about almost everything but you..... the day you went away. I know that’s not what you’d want, but it’s true! What else should I say? What else should I do, It’s hard to care The one person that cared about me, Last Monday, physically turned blue. When I try to picture you, sometimes it’s bad, but thank god most of my memories are from times you were glad Eventually I won’t be as sad, but unfortunately, that day is not today. Again, I stoped caring about most everything, but you, the day you went away.