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I started to wonder within my mind 
what language is this that speaks to me? 
I felt as if I was dying, grasping for life 
this is my fight deep within
Reality is starting to kick in, 

A whisper of true silence, is taking over me
I believe love will set me free
because Life is not a dream, it is reality, 
There is a plotting and planning 
going on in the back of my mind, 

I fight the internal demon within my soul 
this demon doesn't want to let me go...
Now my soul is being cut like an edge knife 
cutting me deeper and deeper within, 
I can feel my blood as it bleeds away from me, 

I hear the voices in my head 
they are wishing I was dead....
my internal demons I will fight you to the very end 
I will never give in....
I can still hear my mother and father fighting for hell
I just want to stop the bell that rings in my head, 

This old pain that they feed into my brain 
that keeps pushing me too the edge of the blade 
A sudden raid from my bedroom hall told it all, 
I must stand up tall and keep myself from going insane: 
I look deep within my soul asking God to take control, 

I had made my way to my bed 
just to lose myself in deep sleep 
I held my self from my poor troubled mind
I felt the internal pains of the past
my father and mother gave 
leaving my soul bruised 
to an internal demon of a beaten down past, 

I fight to get a grip on the pains
that still brings on the rain....
The old bloody knife that my parents put into my heart 
just like a disease of a internal virus that don't go away 
this is my curse 
that keeps me looking back to an broken past.

Poetic Judy Emery

Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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Date: 9/26/2017 1:49:00 PM
A painful pen Judy, thank you for sharing it here. Hugs and love mo
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