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16 Candles Part 1

I bawl myself to a deep sleep every night, Because no one can hear my cries in the sunlight. They may be desperate dewdrops that stop at a sight of a morning glory, But labels are strong, they fight to be released, they scream a different story. I look into my mirror at my tear stained face after a long day of smiling, I shriek with guts of agony “I’ve had enough of life and this senseless dwelling!” I dream to be woken up a person without my infections, It’s not a simple journey of accepting our imperfections. I have notebook pages of secrets, They are deathly unexposed spirits. Poems upon poems of my invalid emotions, Sealed in my mind, avoiding firework explosions. Boys still don’t like me, I was promised the love of my life, where is the tragical romance? That every movie character seemed to have along with an invite to the prom dance. All I have is a huge crush, that’s a cross off my checklist, On a certain someone who doesn’t even know I exist. Wasn’t something special supposed to happen when I turned 16? I’m myself, and so is my world of blue skies and grass of green. Joy was kept limited, gloom was gifted, And my mind was an eclipse, afflicted. My future is all to displease, Bad people have good destinies. I’m not pure, but can’t I have ease? Good people have bad destinies.

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Date: 5/30/2020 9:24:00 PM
I read both these titles, and feel so hurt! Being 16 is tough, but COVID19 has changed the equation: school will be less crowded now. Peer pressure is one thing, racism and bullying are both wrong & ILLEGAL. U must write or email the head of the school if U are bullied. No reason to suffer in silence; the bullies are criminals, not U. (I am a pastor, so forgive me for this: Jesus never says we are unclean. He died for my sins. He will give peace or SALAAM)
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Farzeen Rashid
Date: 5/31/2020 12:53:00 AM
Thank you so much for this amazing comment! I definitely agree with you, COVID-19 has reduced the communication with toxic people and bullies at school. Due to this pandemic, I’m very upset I can’t see my friends and kind of stressed out because of online tests, but I’m so relieved I won’t have to cross paths with the bullies anymore! Thank you for your comment, it makes me so happy when people come across my poetry!