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Details | Free verse | |

Dementia

He was always so happy
strong and bold.
He'd give you the shirt off of his back.
Tough.
Independent.
He had a rough life
growing up through the depression,
but like he always does,
he got through it.
He has two boys, of whom he is so proud.
Moved from Regina, to Victoria.
He had the best life anyone his age could have wanted.
But ever since his wife died, 
he has not been the same.
Sad
Lonely
Empty.
But like he has always done,
he got through it.
Mind slipping, 
just a little forgetful.
That's how it always starts out...
But like always, he powered through it, 
until now...
He is not the same person that I used to know.
He been sentenced to the prison in his own mind.
Possessed by the thoughts of his dogs ashes.
He likes to play the blame game,
but we know he doesn't remember that it was him.
He wakes up in the night
shaking with pain, 
tears streaming down his face.
There is nothing we can do,
Oh well...
Two more tylenol.
Hold on to hope
for as long as you can,
It's only a matter of time now.
He gets vocal, a very loud tone.
He'll block you in your room
and make false accusations
But we know that it's the pain induced monster in him.
Tick tock, tick tock...
You can't handle the stress anymore
you have to leave.
Just hope for the best, 
maybe it will get better.
Surprise, it doesn't.
Your denial is foolish, everyone knows 
what happens next.
Sedation
Medication
Anger
Hurt
All results of
dementia


Details | Haiku | |

Gone but

This day seems brighter
as if a smile lights the sky
ever her best boy 


Details | Free verse | |

The Meaning Of Humankind

The Meaning Of Humankind

Forever people look for a complicated word
Years, decades and centuries they search
One sad word that gives meaning to humankind
Poets have written pages looking for the word
Singers sing their songs trying to find just the right word
Writers tell stories about the search for the word
Not one poem, song or story can find the perfect word
The perfect combination of letters and sounds
No one can find the one word that describes humankind
The perfect word is there right before them
It has been for all the history of the spoken language
In Greek, Latin, English or Aramaic or Chinese it has one meaning
Five letters, three syllables work together to giving meaning to humankind
The word the poets, singers and writers have been searching for
That word is simply alive
A sad word because it always has a final moment, a moment of loss
Yet, a happy word because while we are alive
We live, we love, we learn and we experience life and who we are
Sad or happy “alive” is the meaning of humankind
Thank the gods for the happy moments yet do not fear the sad ones
For that it life
That is the meaning of being alive


Details | I do not know? | |

If sadness ruled the world

I f sadness ruled,
The world would be bare,
And none would wear a happy face.
Crying would be everywhere.
Hateful faces,
eyes pleading to be saved from thier eternal damnation,
no Jovial places
And when somone was happy they died.
Love would not exist
This is because the people would be happy
and you know what,everyone would love oly themselves.
Death would bring the ruler joy
Birth would send in to a tirade
And lovers running off to happiness
Would be caught and worked to the bone.
Narcissitic people would be the richer and that would make them all the sadder,
Their children would got to school and learn about times of despair.
that would shove the happiness down their throats.
so if one is always sad and never glad 
they would be favored in king sadnesses eyes 
So why not go and live in this hate filled kingdom,
With none to love but your sadness and yourself.


Details | Free verse | |

My Love After Death

You can call my name but you wont hear me answer
At least no in this physical world
You know, my love, that I never wanted to be
Separated from you
What I would do to take everything back
What I would do to stop you from crying
You need to go on with your life
And just leave me as just a memory

Though I may be dead now, I still live
I am still alive within you
And know one thing now
I love you and will always as I eternally sleep

Hold my hand, isn’t it cold?
Well know that on the inside it is warm
To see you happy is a dream that I still hold onto
From this day forward
What I would do to hear your voice again
What I would do to express my love for you
But since I love you so much
I want you to be happy and move on

Though I may be dead now, I still live
I’ll be alive in spirit, honey
But I haven’t left without
Leaving you a gift as well as my will

What I would do to see you again
What I would do to say, “I love you” again
But you needn’t focus on me
For I’m still with you, just now a part of you

Though I may be dead now, I still live
You shall see a part of me again soon
Just 9 months from now
You will see some on me with a part of you
A new creation because of my love for you…


Details | I do not know? | |

~Unforgiving Soul~

Life can be beautiful and long. Or life could be short and depressing. Some people 
act happy when they are sad. Their anger will grow and only get mad.  Fear to live 
can be so strong. Some people will cut life short before they're time. They feel 
the only way out is suicide. For death is a gift that God gave us. But love is a 
choice that some don't follow. The hatred rejection breathes can turn you hallow. 
Your eyes tell the truth of an unforgiving soul. The darkness you seek is out of 
control. One day at a time it consumes you. Then at last your finally threw. You 
are bitter and heartless, angered, and cold. Sooner or later your evil will unfold. 
You have gone into hiding and left the light. Any chance you get you try to fight. 
The pain you buried so many years ago. The scars and fears of an unforgiving soul. 
Your day will come and you will forgive. The child you saved was abandoned and 
hide. Your life is peaceful and calm. Your little baby will grow up happy and 
strong. You saved a life and got yours back. You had so much pain and rage filled 
attacks. You can sleep without the dreams of a viscous man. Everything is Better 
now you can finally think. You stop and wonder why he took that last drink? Why he 
abused your young body? Where he was when he hid? Why he did the things he did? 


Details | Senryu | |

Playground

Kids go down
The slide…they head toward the swings
TIME TO SCREAM!

Free time ends
Their parents want to go home
Frowns exchange 


Details | Acrostic | |

Reflections: Midlife Crisis

P     aranoia permeates, etching itself into your fractured face,
A     cacophony of constant pressure; life remains a stressful race,
N     othing to hope for, no positives like promotion in the workplace,
I      nability to love, relationships lift anchor and set sail without chase,
C     hildren crushing dreams under mortgages; age grows with disgrace
!!


Details | Rhyme | |

Eyes of Seminary

Eyes of Seminary – Zamreen Zarook

Every day in our lives has different fragrance,
God give us various things in abundance,
Day by day knowledge is gained in accordance,
Things depend according to the attendance.

Two years of studies,
Helped us to come out with various abilities,
Extremely joyful moments with buddies,
But life said every aspect has its boundaries.

Teachers become very friendly,
They approach us very kindly,
They speak on us exaggeratedly,
Because they know, if not we might behave badly.

Big shots in the school boundary,
These are years of foundry,
It helped us to find and go for laundry,
Marvelous days, fully packed with sundry.


Various angles the kith and kins are civilized,
It’s because our knowledge is enhanced,
Guys and girls turned well experienced,
That’s why we call it levels of advanced.


Details | Free verse | |

The Autumn Affect

There's something unspecific about the autumn nights
A certain shade of color that uplifts my inner child's eyes
Beside a cashmere moon Venus and Jupiter shine bright
Complimented by a sea of blinking infinite twilight
The scent of burning oak lingers in the air from home made fires
Reminiscent of a time when this man was just a child
Careless and so free to dream and any dream to live
Like feathers floating across a field carried by the wind
As a gentle breeze blows through the leaves shivering delightful gloom
Unlike flowers of springtime the disheveled autumn vibrance bloom
Leaves crackle beneath my feet along the skeleton tree path
Where I try to find my peace or a song to make me laugh
The air is so much crisper and also soothing when I breathe it in
Underneath a starry sky and brighter constellations of Heaven
Amidst the trail I pass a lovely couple holding hands
While their children run aside frolicking in a playful dance
An old man and his wife admire the view from a wooden bench 
With smiles on their face as if nostalgia is still their closest friend
Its these specific autumn affects that bring me sorrows and joy
Reminding me of all theses things Ive wanted as a man since I was a little boy 
Its times like these that I wish I wasn't always so alone
Because I would light an fire with my family and call it home


Details | Free verse | |

Glisten in the Moonlight

Your glorious emerald eyes 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Glisten in the moonlight 
Delight dances in the water
I watch it joyfully
You are set free from the cage...
You're like a dove soaring in the sky
You are the rain...
drizzling down in ecstasy 
A hint of ecstasy is shown in your reflection...
When you caress me... I'm relieved... 
From the stress that forced me in chains
I knew we'd be on the brighter side of tomorrow 
We're glistening in the moonlight 
I knew we'd become candles in the heavens above us
We're glistening in the moonlight
For a moment, I felt your presence...your radiant with sympathy 
I saw at first glance the dark side of you
Tonight, we'll be together and fly through the horizon 
We'll watch the sunset say its last goodbye...
We'll wave a greeting at the moon! 
We glisten in the moonlight...
What if I was as handsome as the lion...
Roaring with pride and pure courage
What if we were glistening in the moonlight?
Would it bring health to our bones tonight?
Would it make our heart rejoice and overflow with delight?
Would we be able to survive this horrifying plight?
Would we be shimmering like a candlelight?
We're glistening in the moonlight... (6)
Ohh...yeah...ooh yeah...ooh yeahh...
We reach to the stars and hope we can trace a shooting star
I feel the coolness run down my fingers...
We're glistening in the moonlight
You're the dandelions in the fields
You're the gorgeous view that I marvel at everyday
When you kiss me, I live my dreams
We glisten in the moonlight
In a quick moment, I sense a feeling of endless renewal 
I roam inside of your illuminating maze 
Glow on... sunshine... 
Glow on...sunshine...
Glisten in the moonlight...
Listen to the truth and rub it in
You are ravishing like the sunset
But you're ascending while I'm descending
I feel extremely guilty
I wish I could glisten with you in the moonlight
You're glistening in the moonlight (6) 
Ohhh yeahh... oohhh yeahh... ohh yeahh
You're glistening in the moonlight (4)
We go our own way
I wish we can glisten like the moon
Glisten like the sun 
There's a dream concealed inside of me...
Reveal your light and pour it upon me
You glisten in the appealing moonlight
While I'm subsiding... you're fulfilling your dreams
Of gliding across the horizon 
You're independence... keeps on scorching with satisfaction
While I'm below you... 
Your emerald green eyes
Stared me down like a hawk...
Your emerald eyes
Gaze down at me genuinely...
I wish we could flee together in reality...
That could be a possibility
To glisten in the moonlight in glee
We were glistening in the moonlight (3)
But that was only a dream...
I'll pray that it turns into a reality
We were glistening in the moonlight 
Now, I've misplaced my delight...
Will I ever experience such a brilliant night?


Details | Free verse | |

My Future Generation

I can act insane
But DO NOT 
Make me feel worthless

I belong in God’s family
He will bless my future generation

Don’t punish me for
Being myself –
Don’t envy my glee 

I can act like an
Adult, but I’d 
Prefer to have joy…

Not stress…
That piles upon us in our 
Everyday lives

Being childlike is

A rare beauty – 

No one prizes it…

No one came across it…

In this lifetime…

I can laugh all day
I can make you smile
If you’d accept my 
Childlike dreams of mine
Don’t treat me like a sick swine

Renew my young heart
Give me the ability 
To kill the old man…

I have my place in God’s family
He’ll be adored and glorified 
We’ll exchange prayers and hugs  
By my future generation

I beg of you – 
Don’t kill my childlike mentality
I’ll behave myself…
I’m positively sure that I’ll make you happy

I’ll still have pieces of a child in me

And pass it on to my future generation…


Details | Free verse | |

IN THE LIBRARY OF LIFE

I am a book filled with a lot of pages
Turn me and turn me, each page is filled
There is joy and sadness
There is rage and peace

I am sentences
With each line I command 
I flow in and out of every page
Causing shades of color across the canvas
 
I am words of power
Forming, breaking and giving life
My tongue swirls around in my mouth
Bathing in its pool of seduction
Ready to form its next adventure


Details | Terza Rima | |

Life

Life

Sometimes life is not just what we want it to
Be, it can be something great, or something bad.
You can call me yours and I will call you boo,

Or you can call me ur enemy to bad
Life can be so beautiful just like a tree,
Life, it can be happy or it can be sad 

Life can fly by just as if it were a bee
We do not always get what we want in life
Life can feel as if we were in a red sea 

Life can sometimes feel like getting cut by a knife
 it can feel like something that makes you happy
it can be happy or sad its all just life

sometimes throughout life u will be unhappy
or your life can be wonderful and crafty


Details | Villanelle | |

The Ending Yet Not

The time has came to an end,
My heart is beating fast,
I want to embrace you,
For ever you shall be mine.

Why is love so hard?
My tears fall and fall,
Memories will remain in my mind,
I don't like this ending,
I wanted happy ending.

All I wanted is a small house,
With a happy family,
I wanted to be what I didn't,
See with my parents.

God why is he fading off,
He is everything I got!
I searched hard,
To find the one I want.

I feel rushed to obtain my mind,
The words just keep on,
Coming in rush,
As if you are leaving,
At this moment and on,

I want to talk to my best friend,
To look in your eyes is hard,
My emotions run,
My tears cant stop!

To say goodbye is hard,
To have no one to turn to,
When I am happy and sad,
When you are alone,
I want to be by your side,
Every where you go,
I want to be there with,

My heart has the deepest cut,
I want you to be close to me,
Like we were before,
I feel angry with God!!
Why are you leaving me?

This isn't the vision I had in mind,
Best friends and lovers forever apart,
I wanted you to be the one,
To hold my hand and get married.


Details | Free verse | |

Don't Try It

A single kiss from thy lovely lips,
so sweet and so divine,
yet I taste posion upon your tongue.

Your beauty so glorious,
like a blooming rose so beautiful,
yet, why do mine eyes go blind
in the sight that you walk along with another?

Yes you, walk with another,
arm under arm,
lips touching lips in romantic kisses,
it makes my blood boil,
for mine lips are dry.

For mine eyes have seen your glory,
yet no one here listens to my story.
You are evil, yes you are,
don't try to deny,
Listen to a man of experience,
you might as well save some expense.

I write of our long romantic walks
we took together, under the shade of olive trees,
how we went apple picking in autumn time,
and made love in the foyer.

Nomore of that sweet and passionate love,
nomore silent kisses in the night,
when the wind blows hard against the branches,
that tape violently on my windowpane. 
Nomore somber tears shed, when you got sick,
and nomore warm embraces when you shed tears of betrayal.

Betrayal now is a game played by a fool,
such as I,
to think I'd have a happy life with you?
Huh, only a fool would think such a thing,
but now I sit, looking at the foyer,
where we once made sweet, passionate love,
nomore will that foyer be filled with exotic pleasure.
Nomore will you be filled with smiles and exotic pleasure.
I've done my job, as a good man shall do,
now pack your things and get of my stage,
the spotlight yawns for anew,
and the audience grows tired and restless of you.

Now I live life anew,
you too shall see life in new eyes,
walking hand and hand with the blond, blue eyed devil
you call your own.
Shall he take one kiss from your lips,
and die of the posion he tastes on your tongue,
shall he go blind, when he sees your true, black beauty?
He will see the ugly soul, covered up by white rags,
and cheap makeup,
and then he will come to me,
and shake my hand in condolence
and say, "You were right!"

Now you are all alone,
looking for another, as you did many times before,
Now you are alone, walking an open road,
spying on another,
fear of being alone.
Now, you see when you play games with a good man's emotions,
don't try it,
because a good man is not meant to be toyed with.


Details | Free verse | |

Words of Life

Drowning in the pool of anguish…oh…oh…
I’m venturing into the forest…and I want to hear the words seep out 
Release these aching sorrows…I worry my soul’s drying out…
like a drought…
Drain out the fluids from my heart
It’s gouging me…bruising me to the core…

**chorus** 
Embrace the light…embrace the midnight sky…
You fall in my arms – you die so warm
Shed me more sun to lift up my spirits
From the…underground…and release me – I’m breathless
I’m drowning in doubt…ooh… oh… 


Remember me…I’m falling…into my swirling fate…hanging on the roots 
Strangling my heart…distorting in my veins… I’m bleeding so softly – cut out the wood…
Splintering me…I’m shattering… and I’m falling in the abyss
Bring me more radiance from my candle light
Warp me up in bliss…don’t let the midnight sky…don’t take away my delight
From the…ocean…and save me—save me…oh… oh…  I’m failing 

*chorus*

I’m drowning in regret…ooh..oh…
Hit the bull’s eye in my heart…embrace the light
And don’t leave me hanging in the abyss…hand me a kite!
Save me before I fall apart…shut out the night
And don’t let the dusk escape us…

I must confess…
I must confess…
I hate to see you abandon the light…
But I’m not the one to save you from the night
Ooh…ohh…

*Chorus* 

Splintering lies fill your heart 
I want to kiss it goodbye…
But you’ve mastered it like a piece of art
I want to kiss the abyss and die…
Dry… I wanna touch the sky with my whole soul
But I’m failing and the end of time has taken its toll
Tainted sorrow…swims around me…I dwell where the waters depart
But the anguish still swarms in my heart…
I’m failing…my heart stops beating
And my desires are fleeting
From my grasp
And the monsters laugh at me…as I fall… 

*chorus*

Embrace the midnight sky…catch me…catch me…
As I fall in death’s arms…I die so cold
And your heart is made of gold

Untangle the darkness & take away the nightmares 
Answer our prayers & block out the night 
Erase the heartaches & wipe away our tears
Unravel Your words of life & delight


Details | Lyric | |

It's My Birthday, It is Your Birthday

It’s My Birthday

It’s my birthday…  I look out the window there is no one for me owe so, owe so lonely poor me . 

It’s my  birthday…  you surprise me, with a Barber-Q grill  with a cooler that chills with a grin we show white grills.

Happy Birthday… it’s my Birthday I am still waiting,  it   is almost the end of my the day, just waiting on you to wish me a happy birthday which, well make my day. 

It’s my birthday…you do not remember that day, can we go out for we can remember that day?

It’s my birthday… I can share it or alone, some share it with a twin, or with a friend and the ones who stay to the ends like a good friend.

It my birthday…  its looks like another day to me I just need someone or something to comfort with me a room full of women and with hand full men, a juice in cup, juice in glass, with a sweet lady and grill on cut grass that may make every day feel like my birthday, with a touch of class. 
 
It’s your birthday… it’s your birthday you should all-ways win on your birthday, if do not have a mate you sneak and go on second party date form those who may player hate.  
  
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday!  it comes and go, I see you come through, looking out my window with a hand full company that is what a party really should need, yes it’s sweet, sweet with music and sweet with treats or  it must be the money, or food, or brinks, or just me.


Poetry 7/7/12 by author Keith K. Relf


Details | Free verse | |

Remembering Your Lost Love Again

Many many years from now on a busy morning, suddenly for a moment Mallika my name in your mind, it will force you to stop and look at the sky and from your heart will come out a deep sigh, memories of love, suddenly so fresh like a 'dewed' morning rose remembering your lost love again absentmindedly you will touch my last gift with moist eyes, "love thy name is eternity" your fingers will follow this line on that bone china vase, I know time will go slow though tears will flow faster and I will be nowhere near you "before the next teardrop falls", only my memories closer,nearer to you, happy,joyful,cheerful,pleasant days when the moon rose in the sky just for us, will these glimpses of happy days wipe tears from your eyes? If not,if you are still running on empty just listen to my words floating in the air, "love thy name is eternity". © kash poet 2012 ===================000=================== Placement: 5th (June 2012) Contest:Mish-Mash Sponsor:Tracie RULES FOR THIS POEM (HA HA HA HA...enjoyed the challenge) =========================================== Line 1.. must have 13 syllibles Line 2.. use the name of someone you love in this line Line 3.. must rhyme with Line 4 Line 4.. see above Line 5.. can only have 3 words Line 6.. must contain a palindrome Line 7.. use the title of your poem in this line Line 8.. must rhyme with line 3 & 4 Line 9.. must be one of your favorite short quotes Line 10.. use the name of a country in this line Line 11.. 5 words in this line must rhyme Line 12.. use only 6 syllibles in this line Line 13.. Add all or part of a song title to this line Line 14..use a synonym in this line Line 15.. use 4 different words that mean the same thing in this line. Line 16.. you cant use the letters A D or L in this line Line 17.. Use the words happy and eyes in this line Line 18.. the words 'running on empty' must be used in this line Line 19.. must rhyme with line 12 Line 20.. Use a line from one of your old poems in this line.


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My Sins

My Sins – Zamreen Zarook

Oh God you are so gracious,
Am a guy who have done since in capacious,
At times I have being as a carnivorous,
But it charged ages to identify as dangerous.

Since are being committed behind the screen,
Even it started at my thirteen,
Mirrors used to say that I am evergreen,
Whereas my since were always unseen.

In enormous number I have executed,
But for every count, high privacy was aborted,
Simply because of your blessings we are bracketed,
If not, we are already being quoted.

Oh God, I understood your kindness,
Here after I won’t commit since in others absence,
However much chances I get to access,
I will always have heaven as my address.


Details | Narrative | |

Dedication to Everyone

I feel that I have found a home in this cyberspace
with full of hearts and ideas in a special place
I wonder of all the people in the world to make me smile
with antics that help me grow in every mile
I do want to say to all of the people with respect
because of all of you my mind is not in a wreck
I would lie if I did not get ideas from all of you
without you my poems would not come true
I bless everyone with care 
with kindness and without dis-pare
I hold my hands high and put them together
with this I bless you with good weather
I do read some of the poems that people put out
sometimes I feel with out a doubt
I feel the pain in the poems that some has revealed
with hopes that they can read with their mind not sealed
I smile a bunch with every word
it is like a music in my head making a cord
I do want you all to know that you have made my day
to be a better day in every different array
I cherish my time with all the people in my heart
the words flow in my mind is just but a start
I'm happy with everyone in PoetrySoup.com 
with hardship that came this cyberspace makes me calm
I cannot choose five cause if I do I don't think it's right
just to tell you that is just my own insight
I thank all for helping me grow with all the poems that are shown
with faith and humor, with views of kindness this site has grown

If I had to say or dedicate my poems to who 
would be the first five who reads my poems with a point of view


Details | I do not know? | |

"The Princess"

So, I see a princess, all alone
Her beauty clear, her wisdom known
I ask her why she sits, on a floor of stone
Instead of on, an elaborate throne

She gives me a look, of utter confusion
Then asks me why, I live in this delusion
Must it be, that in her seclusion
She cannot be happy, why this conclusion?

I take a minute to wonder
And another to ponder
Why away from riches my mind will wander
And my heart grows fonder

I ask if I may sit with her, but she politely declines
I am startled at this, as my fascination subsides
She gives me a smile, and beautifully chimes
I am happy alone, listening to life’s little rhymes

Again I am struck to a daze
Amidst  confusion and haze
My eyes weaken and begin to glaze
I feel I have wasted many days

How can you be happy alone, I ask
To live life, without sharing your task
To sit here, no metaphorical mask
While right over there, in your birth you can bask

She gives me no answer, just one more riddle
Are you on top, or on the bottom, or stuck in the middle
To your neighbor do you mean much, or less than a little
Does a man play music, or is he a slave to the fiddle?

Though the answer is still haunting
I can hear it from a friends dull taunting
I have chased all that the rich were flaunting
And now I live a life that is lonely and daunting


Details | Rhyme | |

Living Without

I tried to write about love but I haven’t felt it. 
I tried to write about the sea but I’ve never seen it. 
Then I tried to write about the air, but I have never breathed it. 
I tried to write about magic but I never believed it.
I couldn’t write about god, all I have ever done is sinned.
And when I tried to write about life I found, 
I have never really lived.


Details | Lyric | |

How Alone Am I

How Alone Am I
How Sad Am I 
You never Know
I never Show

You Smile WIth A Shine
I Smile with Wine
Your Enthralling Eyes
Defines My Style

Missing you is my life
Yes I live, but I strife
Finding you beneath the stars
Misng You my life chars.


Details | Ballad | |

Goats

Goats

They’re everywhere
These pretty little creatures
On the serpent road to Exmouth
They be some of the features
Along with Emus, Kangaroos
And handsome birds of prey
These little goats be bountiful
They’re all along the way.

They be domestic goats 
Who’ve gone back to the wilds
Where they have bred one million fold.
As one moves along the miles
These little goats be seen so much
In their many shades and hues
Don’t know where they got their water
It be tough country too.

The weather here be hot and dry
As the sun bakes everything
And mostly here no rain does fall
To drinking water bring.
And yet these goats look healthy as
Such nimble little beasts
You’d see some dead there in the road
As the crows do have their feast.

That be the price of progress
That poor beasts have to die
That be the curse of human beings
Sometimes it makes me cry
Yet still they be so plentiful
These handsome little guys
Another little part of nature
That make love in me rise.


Details | Rhyme | |

The Ugliness Of Divorce


My parents taught me the Christian ways.
I was taught to obey what the Bible says.

I was proud of my parents!  I really was!
And loved them so much…  Just because!

They meant everything to me!  I was proud!
Until one day...  There appeared “a dark cloud.”

It was like a “darkness” hovered above.
Leaving their marriage empty of needed love!

Though they were together many years.
There were many cracks that soon appeared.

I say a once happy home soon destroyed.
Being with one another….  They no longer enjoyed!

How could this happen! I had wondered…
To see a happy marriage “totally plundered

As sin crept in...  And allowed to prevail.
Very soon this marriage simply failed.

May this be a warning for me and you…
That our commitment remains faithful and true!

If your marriage is heading toward separation…
Please seek God for a healing and restoration!

If your planning to have a divorce..
Jesus’ love can put it on the right course!

He can replace the brokenness and hurt within..
And can put your lives back together AGAIN!

By Jim Pemberton


Details | Romanticism | |

Together Again

A girl whom he'd forgotten
At his door, showed up the other day
The one he'd always wanted
Just knew not what to say

The boy she longed to hold
She caught his eyes once again
Of her love, to him, she never told
But this time, all her love, she will send

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

She greets him with a smile
A sparkle in her eyes
For his love, she'd run for miles
To try this thing called love, just one time

Gazing at her beauty, he feels her in heart
Remembering those nights, with her, in his dreams
And how he felt at this whole love's start
Where they'd be one forever, to him, oh how it seemed

Well this girl's name was Katie, and his Steve
And oh how tears were shed, by them both, when they were forced to leave
But in the past that was, so now he holds her hand
Two angels together, forever they'll stand

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again

An old couple now, a lifetime of love
They've conquered all, risen together, above
Together, all the years, oh how they've spent
And to each other, all their love they have sent

Feeling each others hearts beating every morning
Through all the decades, all the happy years
Steve's heart though, one of these days, stopped without warning
And Katie's wrinkled face, moistened with tears

How could Katie live now, without her beloved by her side
Knowing that beside her, his heart slowly died?
She dreams every night now, just as he did before, of heaven
Where they'll be Together Again

Once in a lifetime, and not one time more
Fate takes hold, luck is lent
From out of the blue, a miracle occurs
Hearts reunite, Together Again


Details | Free verse | |

Dreamer

I’m a happy dreamer
-I am that cocooned butterfly
In a shell of fragile webs
That dreams of flying, a splitting of the cage
Oblivious to the outside 
Where stretches a spider’s net
Neatly waiting
Oblivious to my dreams
-Oh, happy dreams.
 


Details | Rhyme | |

Sleepwalk

I just want to write you a happy song
show you that I’m sincere love you, belong,
I just want to write you a rhyming verse
free you of lovers doubt that is your curse.

Where do you go to there within your head?
when you should be sleeping in your warm bed,
wrapped up in sweet dreams ever so fragrant
yet you wander the nights like a vagrant.

Why do you go to this world so shady?
the night so dark not fit for a lady,
your eyes open only to the moonlight
in this place where you go every midnight.

Oh we need to relive our gangnam style
come down to earth and dance a little while,
every single step a journey by chance
into your pretty eyes I need to glance.

Oh I need to write you a happy song
put to right all this evil that is wrong,
find out where you go when you are alone
to free your nomadic mind your cyclone.

Oh I need to write you a rhyming verse
put to right this affliction that’s getting worse,
every night amongst the scented jarrow
sleepwalking the streets ever so narrow.

© Harry J Horsman 2012  


Details | Kimo | |

FALL

Hot sun-kissed days--- fled and rolled far away. . . . 
Crisp coolness saturates air
Brink to life and decay?

Pumpkins so yellow; melons so mellow
Gnomes appear; fat harvest fills
Crown AUTUMN: queen of year!

Dancing wind ~ jazzy blows, leaves on branches. . . .
Rainbow shower foliage
Trumpet dazzle of death?


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Details | Quatrain | |

Oh What A Relief It Is



As most days go, this one's a winner Think I'll go out and get soused After two long years hoping and praying We finally have sold our house! It wasn't a matter of price it seems Location was definitely why It took this extremely extra long time But finally a buyer came by! Advice to those who are thinking of selling Patience is definitely a must There's supposedly a buyer for every house But “For Sale” signs can start to rust! Dear Cathie and I are over the moon The relief is showing on our face Stress was getting too much to deal with To keep it a spic and span place! We can now go back to our slovenly ways With dirty dishes piled up high Mountains of clothes strewn round each room On the walls, bits of blueberry pie! Gonna miss the peace and quiet of the country Fields of green wherever you look But mostly gonna miss my best buddy Ron He'll always be number one in my book! © Jack Ellison 2013


Details | Free verse | |

Burn Away

BURN AWAY

We have all lost our way
To see starlight gazers
And men with broken hearts,
Seeking love in all of the wrong places;
Vacant lots, where women all looking for something,
But not quite knowing what they look for.
We have all lost our way.

The only hope of humanity
Is the shining sun
That breaks through the blinds of my window,
And the faint memory of me and her
Lying on our backs in a grassy meadow,
Holding hands
Looked up and counted stars.

Cities burn away,
Sky, stars, moon, sun all burn away;
The grassy meadow
Where we once lay, all burns away
Everything burns away,
Memory and desire and love all burn away
With the snap of a finger, and a new man
In her own life,
And I burn away.

A picture of her hung high and praised,
A picture of me, in a dark box
That collects dust, in some lonesome
And dusty, cobweb infested attic.
And I burn away with a new day.
I burn away.

A nightmare that I can’t awake from,
It is endless and repeats
When thoughts of her are all over my mind,
I cannot take such nightmarish reality
Too see her and smile,
And she walks away without a trace
Of ever returning.
And I cry,
And I burn away,
The tears wash the fire away,
And turn me to ash,
The wind picks me up and takes me away.

And for one peaceful moment,
I do not cry,
I do not burn away.
For a moment I am happy
And I smile,
And go away for a while
And let them all sleep in peace.

-10/2/2013-


Details | Free verse | |

Flying High In The Aqua-Blue Sky

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
I see a black and white checkered kite…
floating higher and higher than I, myself…
But, I was shoved 
Into another shelf…

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
2 birds were flying together in harmony… it made me smile 
If only…I could fly another mile…
If only…I could higher my smile…
If only…I could fly higher
If only…I could taste ecstasy…
people would accuse me as a liar
If I experienced the best day of my life…

But, I don’t wanna live with undying strife…
I want peace…
Hand it over, please…
Hand me the keys
So I could experience perpetual peace 

I took flight like those bird couples…
But, I was on an airplane…

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
I wouldn’t be greedy for gain…
I’m trying to act sane…
But, I’m actually insane
In many ways…I love my uniqueness…
And my stubbornness… and my gladness…
And my madness… my imagination goes wild
But, I need to put it on a leash…so I could remain mild

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
I’d feel the rain
Trickle down my hands…my wet, wrinkly hands

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
No one would understand
How awesome and wonderful I’ve felt that day…
Up there…
up there…I felt like a king…
But, now I lost that memory…I lost my ring
To success…but I’m willing to pick up my progress…
My pace…is slow like a snail’s pace
Do you see me crying? Just look at my face…

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
I’m the clouds absorbing tears

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
I’d be willing to release them…

but they’ve been stored up forever it seems
And…hell – I have been 
Shaking with fear…
Breaking by the seams 

High…way up high in the aqua blue sky,
I was……..
Daydreaming again…
My mind was stuck on cloud 7…
Thank heavens
That I’m still alive – staring into space
Just look at my sopping face…

I see no grace…I see only a pathetic face
In the mirror…….

This little dream of mine
Was rather sublime
I was a sweet boy, 
but now I’m sour like lime


If I were a bird, 
I'd fly away from my problems...

I'll flutter away
Without a care in the world...

I want to be happy-go-lucky...
But, I'm bound to submit to my 

Misery.............................


Details | I do not know? | |

My Love

my love...

my love blossoms amidst the thunder

across the oceans and the beyond the seas

my love reaches out and touches

the moments of bliss as the loneliness flees

my love is simple
with profound feelings of yearning desire

my love rages within
the furnace of this aching heart's unquenchable fire

my love basks in the warmth of the knowledge

that in the spring it takes root and it will flower

my love breathes in the light fragrance

of her hair after her warm and delicate shower

my love remembers drowning in her eyes

of those ethereal moments frozen forever more

my love recalls the fleeting ticking of the clock

each minute apart stabbing at my very core

my love she knows I need her so

for she needs me just as much

my love she sprinkles light flourishes of her sensual touch

as my love for her continues to ceaselessly grow

my love reaches down into the crevasses of my of being

my love for her is held onto deep inside

for in the coming of the cold ache of seperation

my love settles between the folds of her heart, for 'tis there that my love for will reside

my love like an eternal dream caresses me in wakefulness and in sleep

and that is the feeling that I shall cherish

a feeling of love that has settled in me 

a feeling so pure and a feeling so very deep...


Details | Free verse | |

A Spindle, an Hour-glass, and a Doll

This story is about a young girl named Sapphie Smith.
Her parents were poor, so they lived in a small house,
And Sapphie had only three toys,
An hour-glass, a spindle, and a doll.
The hour-glass had been her father's,
The spindle her mother's,
And when she was younger, Mother had made her the doll.
Sapphie had known no other life,
Therefore she was content with her toys and her small little bedroom.
She slept with the little rag doll every night,
Playing with it so much that it was frayed.
When she was about six years old,
An epidemic swept through the land.
Her parents wished they did not have to go to the village and work,
But they were so poor, they had no other choice.
Then, one day, Sapphie's parents did not come back;
Her father found good pay as a shepherd in the distant hills,
Where he would not see his family for a long time,
And her mother knew one day in the village 
That she had the dreadful sickness.
She did not go home because she loved her little daughter so much
That she did not wish to risk her getting sick.
But it tore her heart to pieces, 
knowing that she would never again see her beautiful daughter.
Sapphie wondered why her parents did not come home
As they did every evening.
It did not bother her much as she played with her toys;
The hour-glass, the doll, and the spindle,
Crawling into her little bed when she grew sleepy.
The next day, Sapphie was getting lonely without her mother,
So she went to look for her in the wooded hills around her house.
She soon grew weary, not having thought to eat breakfast,
And laid down to rest by a stream where she drank.
A kind woodsman found her and raised her like his own daughter,
But as the months passed, 
Her father came home, and found it empty,
Save the doll, the hour-glass, and the spindle.
He set them on the little table with three chairs,
Crying when he woke up and saw them every morning.
Sapphie found her father years later,
Which was the happiest day of her life.
Whenever she was sad, she looked on the mantle where the toys were
And remembered how wonderful it was to have her father again.


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Details | Senryu | |

The Kids of Divorce

Mom and Dad divorce; the kids are damaged for life; but some are relieved.


Details | Quatrain | |

Tell Me

Tell me sweet friend, why are you so sad
It's my passion in life to make you feel glad
This sadness you carry is depressing to see
So cheer yourself up and be happy like me


Details | I do not know? | |

I Cried Today

I Cried Today

I am thirteen today
You would think I would be happy
Yet it is hard to even crack a smile
With everyone wishing me a Happy Birthday
To me it’s not that happy
As today strange voices carrying on inside me
They say I don’t deserve to live 
They say I should die
I am thirteen and 

I Cried Today

My sweet sixteen isn’t so sweet
I just want to hide
Go back to sleep 
Or simply disappear
What is a girl to do? 
When she feels so sad, lonely and depressed
I don’t even have anyone to turn to
I am sixteen and 

I Cried Today

Today I am nineteen 
It is my graduation day
And while I am smiling on the outside 
I feel like I am crumbling on the inside
Those voices don’t give 
Never a break 
No rest for the wicked they say
I am nineteen and 

Today I Cried

I am twenty-one 
No drinking for me 
I am in a hospital as my first sip was almost my last
Who knew I could be so allergic
I am twenty-one
In a hospital and 

I Cried Today

I am twenty-five 
I thought I was in love 
Until I walked in on my fiancé 
In bed with my best friend
My heart feels so cold
I am so alone 
As my world has just turned upside down 
I am twenty-five and 

I Cried Today

I am thirty
I am working hard
To get back my life 
Take control of my future 
And actually see the possibilities of a tomorrow
It is a lot of work 
With a hard road ahead
I am Thirty 

I Never Cried Today

I am thirty-four
In a few short months I will be thirty-five 
I am not alone 
I realize I never was
Surrounded by people I love
People who love me
Married to the love of my life
My dreams are coming true
I feel so happy 
I am almost thirty-five and 

I Smiled Today

By: Jean Shular


Details | Free verse | |

Vertical Lines

Don't forget to cross the Ts
and dot your Is
because if you don't do that
they're just lines vertical on a page.
Lets us forget about the imperfect words
that make us cry
the vertical lines,
like jail bars hold us back.
Stand up and out and roar like a lion!

she is mine, I love her,
but I am quiet,
held back by the vertical lines
the black oily jail bars,
that keep my hear caged in
everytime I cry and people don't listen
the guard taps his nightstick upon
the vertical bars,
the imperfect feelings of pain and sadness
feeling like this it bores me 
feeling like this makes me sick
and I feel myself wanting to vomit
and shake the nervous feeling
of falling into a dark hole,
so I sit behind these vertical lines,
like cocaine lines, ready to snort up your nose,
like cigarettes lined in a perfect and neat row,
like empty wine and beer bottles
littering around my feet.

The vertical lines take me away from reality,
close my already blinded eyes
with a black blindfold.
These jail bars cross my soul,
chain my the ankles and wrists,
and choking me, holding my head under water,
I can't breath!!! Help me!
These vertical bars hold me back in life,
hold my emotions from coming out,
to tell you how I feel for you!
I no more want vertical lines,
I want to be free.
Drive horizontal roads that wined and turn around beautiful mountains
too take a deep breathe and share the beauty
to watch the horizontal horizon.
Too sit on a beach shore and write till the sun goes down
and the mermaids sings cheerful tunes
that uplift my spirits and break the remaining vertical lines
that bind and hold my heart in place.

There is nothing beautiful in a straight line,
let alone a vertical one.
Horizontal, vertical all bad in their own ways,
always trapping us, like jail bars or barbwire that streches across the open lands.
Love has no lines,
no boundaries,
so why should I have lines that bind me together
holding my head underwater,
till a spark lights a powder keg and blows me sky high
and I finally set myself free
and roam the horizon for ever.


Details | I do not know? | |

We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times

We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times

Don’t be sad about my parting
Don’t feel like you never said goodbye
For you and I both know deep in our hearts
That We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times
And shared so much love and joy every day
 
Be happy that I am now at peace
Be joyful that I have lived a wonderful life
Be happy that we have shared so much together
 
And remember I am always with you in a thought and a sigh
Every day when you see the beauty in nature think of me
Every day when you see the colorful flowers think of me
Every day when you see a frisky animal prancing around think of me
Every day when you look into the eyes of someone you love think of me
 
And know beyond a doubt that I am with you in everything you do
And know beyond a doubt that I am with you in everything you say
And know beyond a doubt that I am with you in every quiet moment of your life
 
Don’t be sad about my parting
Don’t feel like you never said goodbye
For you and I both know deep in our hearts
That We Said Goodbye a Thousand Times
And shared so much love and joy every day


Details | Rhyme | |

EYE Don't See -Part 3-

My eyes
Witness your departure
My eyes
Are dripping with hopelessness…
My eyes start to blur…
Melancholy put me under pressure…
Is there a cure to my disease? 

You don’t see
The shards of hope that once brought us back together
Just let me search for safety
I’m strong enough to realize that I’m no longer
The weakest prey out there…

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you hear me whimpering like a distraught puppy left on the train tracks?

I’m close to my demise…save me and take me home

Nourish me…and be my beloved friend

Will this friendship last forever?

Hopefully it has no end

Will this cheerful moment help us get along with each other?

Because of you…I feel the need to run 
I keep an eye on you – I worry that you’ll hurt yourself again
Because of you…My freedom is nearly gone
I don’t wanna be caught off guard again
Because of you…EYE can’t picture a solution for our vexing dilemma 
Because of you…eye can’t focus on my long-term goal 

And I’m left in my solitude…
Do you sense that I’m giving in to failure? 
And I’m close to my demise…
Only to find myself disappear…I can’t endure 
The hardships that you place upon me…
Could you boost up my confidence to overcome 
My atrocious anxiety? 

I’m just waiting for some sun
To keep me in good hands…
To strengthen me with perseverance …
I’m just waiting until His son
Leads the world outtah Egypt and reveals to us…
His radiance…His dazzling Kingdom – 
Vibrant with glee

Your undying sympathy dawns upon us
I’m overflowing with indescribable joy  
You’re a candle in the night…
We meet eye to eye…
What a sight…what a precious sight


Details | I do not know? | |

You and I



You and I.


You.

Your heart blazed,
with a warmth of spirit,

soothing,

alluring,

soaked in truth.



Your smile burned,
branding me permanently,

gentle,

tender,

enveloping my being.



Your love was complete,
from the depths of your soul,

unsaid,

yet fierce,

bathed in silent knowing.



Your dreams were poetic,
fluttering in the afternoon breeze,
infused with the distilled essence of rhyme.


I.

I squandered your generosity of spirit.

I vainly discarded your priceless poems.


Now I stand,

alone,

empty,

desolate,

wasting away,

rotting inside, day by day.




Details | Quatern | |

My glorious seat taken

Glory ran in my head I was soon to take the lead Made into the Queen The one to rule behind the screen Was suddenly thrust into the light The limelight shining so bright My seat was there, so shiny It all made me so preppy As I climed the stairs I was all in tears A lifetime of repairs Rang in my own ears When I froze, so stony The announcer said sorry A mistake it was, his own My name thrown on the back lawn I watched, as my seat was taken By my contestant, so gladdened No more to be the Queen I was sure to turn mean!


Details | Couplet | |

Le Vacance Pretentieuse: Darts

Drops of sweat slip from my furrowed brow
Eyes squint, select a number and let fly now

Miss again, a millimetre is a mile once more
Aimed for triple twenty, only got double four

The walk of shame, my oh so familiar friend
Silence broken, on alcohol I forever depend

The steel point of eyes bore into my neck
My opponent leaves me a juddering wreck

I lose the match; the wife won’t give me a kiss 
I wish I could have been anything else than this... 


Details | Rhyme | |

secret crush

be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of this big bad crush
if only you knew how much i care
the kind of love i have for you is rare
you dont even know my hearts on fire
and that your the one that i desire
i dream of kissing your lips
but when i wake away you slip
be still my heart just hush
ill get rid of thei big bad crush
i wish i could tell you how i feel 
then your touch i wouldnt have to steal
you would be mine
with our hearts and body intertwined
i wouldnt have to dream
and i could be with you always
i wouldnt have to scheme
this secret is hard to keep
into my heart its etched deep


Details | Free verse | |

My Sarah x

My daughter had to leave Ireland for work. She is teaching English in Madrid, Spain and is very happy there. She was home during the summer and when she was leaving, I was so sad to see her go but happy that she is happy. We are all living in difficult times with this global recession. Sad that our children have to leave their own country, the history of Ireland especially.
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As you prepare to leave today,
I already miss you.
How fitting 
that the heavens
have opened
for another tearful
 “goodbye”.

I hear you in the kitchen.
The sound of you
comforts me.
Cooking is your ritual,
writing is mine.

I will immerse myself
in words
and you
will be part of them,
for you 
are a part of me.

What a blessing
to see the essence of me
carry through
in you.

MMC 2011


Details | I do not know? | |

I Stand, Alone



I stand, alone.

Scratching for my truths,
peeling away the veneer,

I stand, alone, before this
impregnable cliff so sheer.

Cocooned in my solitary shell,
wrenching a smile from a tear,

I stand, alone, a little odd,
and definitely quite queer.

I stand, alone.


Details | I do not know? | |

Please Come Back

I'm sorry for all the horrible things I have said,
I'm sorry for all the bad things I have done,
I'm glad to havve you as my best friend again,
I was sad, depressed, and desperate to hear you voice, and,
Talk to you again.

Oh Caleb, I cannot tell you,
How happy I was, happy to finally,
Talk to you after months,
You will always be my best friend no matter what,
You know that I will always be here for you,
I miss you a lot, why oh why must you live,
So far away?

Why do you live in Illinois,
Why did you leave me,
Why did you go away and not come back?
Caleb, please come back real soon, we all miss you,
But I miss you the most.
You are my best friend,
And I am here to stay.

I will never let you down,
Never put you down,
Never will I forget about you,
I will never hate you,
It is impossible,
It is impossible, because you picked,
Me up when I was down, you
Were always there for me, and you still are,
You never let me down, and you never called me names,
You Never let me be sad, and it was amazing,
To have such a good friend around,
So why, why did you move away?

I know it was for your protection,
I know you had to get out of that horrible place,
That horrible dark place,
Oh how bad I wanted to beat them for beating you,
You did not deserve that, and I hate that image,
Noone deserves to be treated that way; I don't care,
Who they are.

Caleb thank you for being my friend again,
And forgiving me, and for always being here for me,
May I ask one little favor of you?
PLEASE COME BACK??????????
Always~N~Forever,
Briana Lynn Palmer
06-17-12
Dedicated To: CAZ


Details | ABC | |

Sometimes I Like To Pretend Things Never Came To A End

Sometimes I like to pretend, things never came to a end. But over time, our love became a crime. I didn't know what we had, would ever end so bad. But then I knew things weren't right, when we started to fight. Now I walk down memory lane all the time, the pain is worst then committing a crime. We only caused eachother pain, but we were eachothers maine. I thought things would be alright, but I cried alot that night. I don't want things to change, without you my life is strange. You said you wanted me so much it started to hurt that you couldn't wait, now im just another person you hate. When you said you didn't care, I knew the person I loved was no longer there. You aren't the same, the new you is lame. We both fell, now it's hell. You use to always be here for me, like family. But now your nowhere in sight, things aren't right. Empty is all that I can feel, I still can't believe this is real. I didn't mean to let you get away, I didn't know what to say. Am i with the right guy, or am i telling myself a lie. I was afraid to loose what we had, but to you that choice was bad.


Details | Quatrain | |

Lace and Frills

All around me I see folks are glad as can be
'Tis the season when glad hearts are beating
But surely you know, somewhere deep down below
There are hearts that are wounded and bleeding

See the cards go around, while the red hearts abound
Some are decked out with lace bows and cotton
But I haven't a one, I have missed all the fun
I am left all alone and forgotten

I had hoped for a card, yes, I hoped really hard
Just for one tiny note with a heart
Only three little words and I'd sing with the birds
Or I'd suck on a lemon that's tart

But I had me a plan, to the paper I ran
To the hearts and the lace and the cotton
And I made up some frills for some young pretty girls
That by others and me were forgotten

~ Feb 7, 2013~
~ For the Forgotten Valentine contest by Debra Squyres ~
~ 12.10.12.10 metre ~


Details | Rhyme | |

Just A Dream

The rain began to fall like the tears rolling down her face.
Each day she opens her eyes, reality sets in place.
She puts on a smile and pretends to be brave
But inside are hugs of comfort she constantly craves.

Her head starts pounding, her body feels sore.
She hates this feeling, she felt this way before.
She wants to pull out her hair n scream out aloud.
Her skies are turned grey n covered with dark clouds 

Nobody seems to understand the way she really feels
Different emotions everyday, she’s finds it hard to conceal. 
Happy people around her, yet she cant seem to find her smile. 
She’s tired of pretending and starts to feel hostile.

She feels disused by her family n friends
Her reality is like a constant nightmare that never ends. 
Deep into thought she lays curled up on her bed.
The feeling of loneliness is one she mostly dreads

At this point in time, she realizes she’s on her own.
Even though surrounded by people she would still feel alone.
She was racking her mind tryna figure out what life’s about
She could feel no purpose, but only self doubt...

Her friends have changed, yet she remains the same
Even when around them, she feels so small an inane. 
Everyday seems similar and she wishes her life would end.
As she gets older she notices there are less people on which she can depend.

Something’s lost inside her; she’s losing her strength each day
The only thought in her head is escaping to a place far away. 
Somewhere where she will be happy and start to smile again
Starting her life afresh and forgetting all this pain. 

As she gently closes her eyes and starts to fall asleep
She dreams of this place where she will no more weep.
For her dreams are the only place she feels vibrant and free.
Her only way of escaping Life, this harsh reality… 


Details | Light Poetry | |

Kindness is a Virtue

Who are and who is my friends or acquaintances, confusing everyday
but today I have found my self to walk a path that is not so rough
I became so blinded to have friends that it pains me anyway
They take a simple kindness and think that I am not tough
so by deliberately challenging me to act like nothing happens I grow bold
Wake up you! and all the rest, I have something to say
I don't like this feeling of regret or sorrow so please do not take me cold
as a friend you should know to not take advantage of my kindness in away
A storm is blowing inside my soul burning a hole in it so
lightning is striking in methods unknown for in the distance thunder you hear
Some of the greatest warriors fall with great weapons of bow
antics that slaughters such feebleness as cowardices use an unseen spear
To let one know that your feelings are clear do not hesitate
to do so shows fear and that is one thing that can determine your choice
With kindness in your corner you should easily win and that will be great!
In the end you can hold up a drink with friends and smile and rejoice


Details | I do not know? | |

Distant African Nights

Those Distant African Nights...


1.


The shadows swayed in your candlelit room,

a cool breeze teasing your bare back,


streaks of lightning forked in the Johannesburg night,

as my hands stroked your hair,

kissing your soft mouth,

holding you,

ever so tight.



2.


You whispered that you loved me,

and I kept silent,


the rain fell, 
shadows danced,
thunder rolled,

the breeze teased your naked back,

you whispered that you loved me,
as my lips found yours,

the rain washed over our tender nights,


lightning and candlelight,

etching poems on your burnished skin,


yet,

a fear gnawed at me,

deep within.



3.


We parted ways,
and you could never forgive me, you said,


now, after numberless thunderstorms,

the rain that falls,


echo the countless tears that I have shed.



4.


You are long gone,

far away,

happy, I pray,


yet the memories persist,

those precious moments shall never, 
ever,

like the Jo'burg rains,
trickle away,

and I wish you well,
for loving me as you did,

for it was I who was not worthy,


then,


and it is I who is not worthy,


now...



5.


You were always true,


it was I who always,

always,

refused to,


to give myself,


completely to you.






Details | I do not know? | |

Without You



Without you,

worn down, weary,
staggering into tomorrow,
dissolving my todays, grim, dreary,

I crawl, slipping out of my skin,
flinging laughter, joy, contentment,
into the gaping abyss of life's dustbin.

Without you


Details | Prose Poetry | |

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Details | Free verse | |

Winds and changes

take me
on the winds 
of the gift of space
in the housing of today's place

guide me 
in the storms 
of alteration
in the casing of my life

sailing on thick or thin air
fate and faith frequented
here and everywhere
boundlessly haunting anywhere
willing to wait somewhere
able to go nowhere else
always setting sails during the tides
acquainted  maybe with the unknown
in the middle of a crowd
or hidden by an invisible shroud

on the wings of my soul
with the aura of my heart
in the spirit of my mind
attuning to the paths of life
adapting to each headwind
adjusting to every downwind
listening to the other voices
trusting on my inner voices

(c) Elly Wouterse


Details | Dramatic monologue | |

my fault

everyday we talk 
whenever we feel down or sad
even though im stubborn and mad
and not to often here for a shoulder
never to cry on never there
ive got a sickness
ive realized today 
none of my business
that will push me away
i know how you felt a long time ago
with the tears and sorrow
i hope you live on to be happy
i wont be here to make you sad anymore
im sorry i was'nt there more
when you needed me 
to help you with issues
im sorry i could'nt make you happy 
when we were together
im sorry you werent happy 
when we werent lovers
you mean so much to me i just dont know
when will this end when will it go


Details | Light Poetry | |

The Shadow I hide behind


It may seem like I am always bright and cheery
but there are times when I am sad and weary.

I don't always let that show as I hide behind a closed and locked door 
and rather keep things as happy go - Lucky
It is the way I deal with life instead of staying down to sit
there with a frown I get up and turn it all around with a smile, and
it can change my mood for a good long while.

Then eventually I may sit and cry but soon I get up and smile again
as there is more to life than the hurt and stife, I like to bring a smile
to others as that keeps my sprits up and I can keep a happy outlook
on each new day that  we live and always help to give a smile
to someone's face that brings us joy and is full of grace.

In this case I may not always be bright and cheery but I never
show when I am sad and weary.


Details | Free verse | |

A Rose in the Desert

A single, red rose
ruby colored rose that shines in the twilight
and reflects my love over years of single
and tragic heartbreaks.
A single, red rose sits in a beautiful and calming oasis
sitting there giving me hope for love to come around
and knock upon my weak and weary door.
A rose in the dry and hot desert grows tall and blooms
with beauty and such glory
that it could make a grown man weep, if it wanted too.


Details | I do not know? | |

A Chipped Heart

A Chipped Heart...


Dreaming, my heart brittle as glass,
my solitary facade a pitiful farce,

shards tearing out of my skin,
seeking release, from cages within,

I am lost, in the dream,
bellowing out a silent scream,

torn from reality, drowning in the now,
yet I refuse,
I refuse to succumb,

I refuse to bow.



My chipped heart, may be wounded,
wreathed in pain,

still,

I believe, love, truth, belonging,

will take my hand,

again...


Details | I do not know? | |

When you outgrow your shoes

Just to sit and look at you,
To admire the person you have become.
To see how much you have grown--
Makes me happy and sad all at the same time. 
I am happy because you followed my directions,
And you are succeeding in your life. 
You have set goals and have overcome obstacles. 
You neve give up and you do the very best you can. 
It makes me happy when I see that smile on your face,
To hear your voice giggle and to know that I can still 
Hug and squeeze you like the little child you once were. 
But my heart is sad because
You can't walk and dance on my feet no more,
You cant sit on my lap and play pat-a-cake like you use to, 
And I cant carry you in my arms like I use to. 
You are growing up, and although there is a 
great big world out there for you to discover, 
Each new day is a new leaf turned , 
And an old memory put into the past. 
There is such a unique bond between a mother and her child,
It is too special to fathom or even explain. 
You want your children to grow up and become someone special, 
But you dont want it to happen too fast. 
And before you know it, their whole infant and toddler years 
Have flashed by in a moments time --
And you are looking and thinking back of when you use to 
Hold and cuddle them and sing them lullabies to soothe them to sleep. 
So, my dear daughter, although you got some time still to grow, 
When you outgrow your shoes and you have left home---
I will still be looking back and will remember
The person you were and the wonderful person
 You've grown to become. 


Alicia Griego 
10/04/06
















Details | Rhyme | |

The Things I want, The Things I Get

Once upon a time I loved a girl but she didn’t love me back.
Once upon a night I wished on a star but my dreams never came to pass. 
Twice I think I hoped for the sun and not the rain pouring in.
But my cover flew away and the drops soaked through my skin. 

I think I could wish for hard times and the dark,
And just to spite my soul the world would set ablaze from a single spark.
My money would pile high, 
girls would wave as they walked by.
And the one thing can I say for this life,
Is no one ever got a damn thing from goodbye. 


Details | Free verse | |

Sweet pain and bitter Joy

I'm happy you remembered me
Today
I'm sad that you forgot
Yesterday
I'd be overcome with joy
If today happened all the time
But it doesn't--so I'm not.
I'm half full of happiness
And half full of pain
I cry while I laugh
And cringe as I smile
I sing sweet songs in joy
and taste the tears
Trickling down my face
I'm happy you were you today
But sad, because you weren't
Yesterday.


Details | Quatrain | |

Sad And Happy



Usually feeling very upbeat and happy But even clowns have their days Probably brought on by the Christmas season For those old days we pine away Nostalgically recalling how it used to be A young family just starting out Sadly those happy days are gone forever Acknowledging what life's all about Really do wish I could live forever How sad to have to say goodbye To all our friend and the happy memories Remembering, it's hard not to cry So very sorry, didn't mean this to be sad The holiday season can do this to me As I remember all those great Christmas' Past With good friends and dear family <3 <3 <3 © Jack Ellison 2013


Details | I do not know? | |

boungiorno

hello! hey! boungiorno! what is the date?/
this world of dimensions created duality/
no letters/ no words/ are enough to express/
someone like you/ in reality/

i filled all your emptines/ MY still quiet bay/
as Jhon opened world in his Yoko/
you searched perfect princes/ looked for "right him"/
now at only one overman looking/

i swear/ i will hold you/ as much as i can/
would become all the axes/ and outer space/
voice is speared by the screaming wind/
falling down/ flakes to your place/

going crazy just seeing your knees/
don't regret anything/ my Benito/
unbelievable/ perfect/ unbearable/
you whisper/ "la comedia e finita"//


Details | Haiku | |

Midnight

The lamp light illuminates My messy bedroom And brings me joy to my heart The lamp light turns off quickly The mellow midnight Has revealed its pure beauty The door opens and welcomes The priceless sunrise And inspires me to write poems The morning greets me again The lovely stars dim I miss the midnight wonders!


Details | Tanka | |

SEPTEMBER TANKA

SEPTEMBER SONG - triple tanka

Like a lover's sigh
She tiptoes forth    looking back -
Those warm memories -
Birds    still singing    cross over
And sad sunshine stills the wind

Now    September sings
A sympathetic tune silvers
Promises late gold -
The change will be gradual -
Promises sleep    painless sleep

Mysterious calm
Like a magic caesura
Bated by surprise
In mind it's ever the same
Such gentle looking forward

-------------------------------------------------------------------------
HAPPY    HAPPY TIME - double tanka

Happy    happy time
Early tears and sleep lifted
Once past Labor Day
Harlequin    in falll colors
Trips so lightly o'er the world

Echoes    sad voices
From the past are silenced
By the happy clown
Bacchus    come down    pours the wine
The whole world on color dines


Details | Dramatic Verse (Verse Drama) | |

Finally

 There was a wonderful change in my life today,
A sense of  something good comming my way.
     It's been a long time comming and  it's feeling right ,
I know this because I was able to sleep last nihgt.
     Loving you has always been so easy  for me ,
Holding on to you was  very different you see.
     Finally the clouds and stormy skies have cleared,
We can see it clearly now that it is so near.
     For years we have struggled  with this love we shared,
Only recently have the two of us become so aware.
     Of what we truly feel for each other these days,
Leaving no doubts it was meant to be this way.
     I love her more now then I ever have before ,
To think I was about to walk out that door.
     She loves me I can feel her much closer now ,
The happiness I feel makes me scream aloud.
     Telling everyone I have a wonderful thing,
The love of my Queen who has made me her King.
     We will live our lives making all the memories ,
This love I have for you and  you have for me.
TAC  


Details | Senryu | |

TWEETS

Haiku, the first Tweets
Some funny some serious 
Capturing moments!

3-2-14


Details | Quatrain | |

Teddy



While dog sitting little Teddy Here's what I think he said; “I'm one damn happy son of a dog This month, I thought I would dread But youse guys are the cat's moew What a great doggie retreat You made the adjustment easy for me Youse guys are real neat So when this month is finally over We can't let this chance go by Please try to negotiate with my owners To stay here with youse neat guys You probably think it's a trifle strange But this is where I wanna be And I'm not feeling the least bit guilty My owners abandoned me!” Tried telling him they'll soon be back But it seems he no longer cares Gonna miss him when he finally goes This charmer has savoir-faire! © Jack Ellison 2013
Sadly, Teddy the poodle has since left us and gone to “Doggie Heaven”


Details | Free verse | |

A Rich Tribute

Mother Teresa been a historical,
and an important,
and a humble figure,
as she had dedicated her life for the poor and the needy indeed, 
the best tribute one can give her is by quoting a single quote of her,
out of the many though, 
the one mentioned below seems to be more precise,
in today’s world,
“Let us more and more insist on raising funds of love, of kindness, of understanding, of peace. Money will come if we seek first the Kingdom of God-the rest will be given”
Today,
in the rush of acquiring money,
many have forgotten this lovely aspect,
the aspect of love,
which is much greater than money,
and had crossed a number of boundaries,
from times immemorial,
today jealousy, selfishness, greed have taken over love,
wherein money is not that great,
than love itself,
as love is like a ‘Can’,
which can be filled from the top to the bottom,
unlike money,
which needs to be filled from the bottom instead,
love is greater than money indeed,
as we do love our Gods,
our wives,
the children,
whether they be ours,
or of others,
without distinguishing between their caste, creed, colour,
Love is indeed greater,
as we love the newborns born into this world,
our friends ,
wherein love can also help us to defeat our enemies too,
without love,
no one can progress on,
and neither the countries too,
Therefore love is greater than money indeed!!

'Quote and Author':-
“Let us more and more insist on raising funds of love, of kindness, of understanding, of peace. Money will come if we seek first the Kingdom of God-the rest will be given”- Author: 'Mother Teresa'


Details | I do not know? | |

Young Heart

From my youth,
I knew no goodness 
Teach me His truth
So that I will meet success

I hope I'm making little progress

From my youth,
I knew very little at first
Teach me Your truth 
Or I'll remain in thirst

I thirst for His spirit - to renew my faithfulness

I have a nourished heart
But, evilness broke it apart
I had an energetic soul  
But agony took its toll 

And now I pray
To Him who mends us all
To save my young heart
From the fear of losing control...

Do I still have an innocent, 
Young heart? 


Details | Narrative | |

Fear Of Happiness

Happiness is something I always fear, 
To me ,It is far away and never near, 
Patient waiting for over severals years. 
Happiness comes, but  quickly disappears. 

Few days of joy , followed by years of sorrows, 
Will I ever get to see a happy tomorrow? 
I am happy to be sad ,it forms my routine, 
Cant just keep wiping my tears umpteen. 

A moment of joy forces me to worry, 
Any huge sorrow ,to make me teary? 
My tears have dried now and let them be, 
I am happy to be sad , as sad can be. 

Smiles and laughter, not meant for me, 
Darkness and sorrows are my cup of tea, 
I fear happiness , it kills me. 
Life is mourning,and thats it for me. 


Details | Free verse | |

MY HEART LONGS TO SEE YOU

My heart longs to see you
Everyday i pray we'll be together
But something keeps pushing us apart
If only i have the power over space and time
I'll turn back time to when we used to be happy together

My heart longs to be with you
Being away from you makes life lonely and painful
But it appears we can never be together
If only i have the power to make one change in life
I'll change life itself to when we used to be happy together.


Details | Lyric | |

I'm the Knife

I said, “Take my hand, girl, let’s go for a ride.
You gotta choose soon, you gotta pick a side.
Pick me, the good, or pick them, the bad."
She said, "Babe, I pick you." That made me pretty glad
We left Chicago, we chose route 66
Headed to Santa Fe to get our fix
Took a hit before we left, one hit for the road
Then we stopped in St. Louis to lighten the load

Takin' this ride was the worst decision
Cut your family in two, like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
Your family won't be happy with your life

Drained a bottle of Bourbon before we started our day
"Drivin' crazy is the best." We always say
The highway was our freedom, our only way out
Never thought this road would end, we didn't have a doubt
Stopped in Oklahoma City, where the fields are endless
We only had each other, it seemed we were friendless
Drained another bottle when we checked in for the night
Got crazy, made some love, and had a fight

Takin' this ride was the worst decision
Cut your family in two, like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
Your family won't be happy with your life
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
I don't know why you put me through this strife

Hit the road in the mornin', too early it felt
Checked on my arm and saw I had a welt
Well, my baby hits hard when the whiskey runs wild
Only time I love her is when her temper is mild
Stopped at Amarillo, ‘cause our car overheated
My baby said to me, “I don’t like the way I’m treated!
When you tell me you love me you're never serious!"
I said, "Baby, I love you, you're just delirious."

Takin’ this ride was the worst decision
Cut your family in two, like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I’m the knife
Your family won’t be happy with your life
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
When we get to Santa Fe you'll be my wife

Saw a sign, "Welcome to Santa Fe!",  filled us with joy 
Took a look at my girl, she sighed and played it coy
Took my eyes off the road just for a second
Then that light came, well it did beckon
Smashed my foot on the brakes, plowed into a truck
"Well," I said to my baby, "That's just our luck.
But don't worry we made it to Santa Fe!"
Too bad my baby's soul had flown away

Takin’ this ride was the worst decision
Cut your life short like an incision
The knife was me, babe, I’m the knife
Your family won’t be happy what I did to your life
The knife was me, babe, I'm the knife
I regret it all, what I did to your life


Details | I do not know? | |

Port of Call

Port of Call


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

with the breath of the ocean a caressing balm,
soothing pained memories away,
to the swaying of a solitary palm.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

feeling the brushing away of all past turmoil,
on a quest for solace, ever so hard to find,
yet comforted by the crashing of the waves,
as the tide cleanses all pain,
and leaves despair far, far behind.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

drenched in a sea-breeze of mist,
that hushes the ache of bygone moons,
tasting the salty tang on my lips,
as the burnished sun,
over the distant horizon,
swoons,

and dips.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

searching, ever searching,
for a slice of solitude,
as memory bids a final adieu,
reaching under the sea so vast,
and seeking comfort in the depths,
while embracing,
the tomorrows to come,
wishing that they be true.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

seeing my truths drown,
as they slip beneath the turquoise waters,

feeling my heart ablaze,
with a passion that rarely falters.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

yet knowing that I am home at long last,
wishing the waves would wash away,
the defences that once stood,
like an impregnable wall.


Barefoot on a talcum beach,

alone, not lonely,

I have found, at long last,

my final port of call.


Details | Quatrain | |

The Tome

There are books that come from many genre Some that create sorrow and painful scars Yet others where the author spells out love Where love is surely written in the stars There is a tome of emotions prepared Written by some great poets of the heart Each poem shows a certain eloquence A piece of feelings that’s sure to impart Some passages are of sadness and pain Others carries some lines of compassion All of these put inside a single book From the greatest of love to full passion This is an example of what exists A beautiful book that’s enjoyable Poets that write directly from the heart All of which is pure and sure loveable
Russell Sivey


Details | Rhyme | |

Abide in the Light

You abide in the light
I’ll miss you…when you venture off at night 
Don’t forget me…
Don’t discard me…
Don’t leave me…   

Forgive me for drifting away from you… 

Please forgive me…
Please don’t ignore me…
Hear my pleas…don’t turn the other direction…
Run with me…into heaven’s light

I’ve given you my soul…
I’ve shared with you my melody
I’ve fed you until you were full…
I’ve healed you when you were under the weather…
I’ve tried to bring us back together

You hang on the rope of hope
I’ll rely on you…I’ll cling to you… 
You saved me from subsiding into the obscure abyss

Don’t reject me…
Don’t depart from me…
Don’t release me…

Respect me for who I’ve become
Please respect me…
Honor my presence 
Protect me from any sort of harm  
Is it in your nature to relieve my anguish? 

I’ve been driven away by my affliction 
I’ve set you free from Egypt…and lead you to the Promise Land 
Have you forgotten my affection? 
I’ve tried to empathize what you’re going through – I’ve gave you a helping hand
Don’t you understand? Will you ever understand? 

You abide in the light 
I’ll miss you…when you depart from my heart
Don’t forget me…
Don’t discard me…
Don’t mourn for me… 

Forgive me for wishing for your absence…
Please forgive me…
Please don’t give up on me…
Hear my side of the story… don’t turn the other direction…

I’m still training for perfection    

Run with me…until we arrive at home 
Hold my hand and we’ll take divine flight 
I’ve cherished you for so long
I’ve lead you to my home town – 
Do you remember where you and I belong?

I’ve given you my trust…
I’ve shared with you my dreams
You’re an apple to my eye

You were my angel of grace, promising concord –
Bestowing blessings upon me 
Your vitality never wears off…

You were my lamp – 
Glowing with serenity and elation
Tranquilizing my mind from despair and unease

I’ll never regret…meeting you that magnificent night 
I knew that that was love at first sight
The moment you stepped foot into the light 


Details | I do not know? | |

My Hell

Daily I think of my missing three, 
Numerous questions haunting me.
Are they happy and well,
Or are they in agony and Hell?
Do they know how I love them still,
That them not being here is not my will?

Is it love or hate they feel for me? 
Never again my face do they want to see?
Do I cross their minds, even a little bit?
Or do they not think of me, not one wit?
I pray that they are happy and well,
I pray that they are not living my Hell.


Details | Blank verse | |

Still waiting

I've been waiting. Waiting for you. For your smile and gentle touch. I'll wait for minutes, hours, days. Just to be with you. Just to be happy once more. Then I find out, you're gone. My smile disappeared. My wings spread out like an eagles and I soar through the cloudless skies. I look for you. Even though you have passed, I look for you. I look for a chance to be happy again. I'm still looking. I'm still waiting. 


Details | Haiku | |

I Can Not Take The Pain

i can not take the 
pain no more i love you very 
much i can not ever tell you because 
you are taken and so am i i know 
you will be happy with her and i will 
stay with the one i am not happy with.


Details | Ode | |

Family Members Gone

Sadness, loneliness and grief,
As I still live in disbelief, 
Both of them are gone,
Under the church lawn,
Gone under the soil,
And leaves me in turmoil,
My aunt and my cousin, both dead,
Laying in a casket resting their head,
I love them both, not because their family,
But because making me happy is their specialty,
They were taken by Him, it was too soon,
But that's what He wanted, He plays by His own tune,
They will be missed by many,
No one can replace them, u can’t find any,
I cry for them both, my tears will flow,
Not afraid to hide them, I make them show,
Will I ever see them again?,
If not my heart won't mend,
But I'll remember their both happy in heaven,
Just losing those two makes me feel like it was 9/11......


Details | I do not know? | |

Happy Birthday Love ( I Still Love You)

I'll blow out the candles
Though the cake's not mine
It's your Birthday, One more time
I still count the days
Though it's been a few years
But' I'll never be able to count the tears

       Happy Birthday Love-I still love you
       Happy Birthday Dear-You're still dear to me
       Happy Birthday Darlin-I'll never forget you
       Will time ever bring you back to me?

Your Birthday card lays unread on the table
Your flowers fade and dry from neglect
But your picture remains by my bedside
For your love I can never forget

If time heals all wounds
Than time is on my side
For one day I shall be allowed to rest
Than together we'll be forever side by side

         Happy Birthday Love-I still love you
         Happy Birthday Dear-You're still dear to me
         Happy Birthday Darlin-I'll never forget you
         In time together forever we will always be


Details | Free verse | |

I will miss her

You was so dear to my heart and its sad to say
But I will still think about you each and everyday
You took me in as your own 
And you did it all alone
Even though your not my real granny
I still love you like I love my daddy
I'm sorry I couldn’t be there
and it makes me mad that you had to die
but I'm so happy your in a better place
and you don’t have to see this sad disgrace
I love you so much granny 
And I'm happy to say that you don’t have to go threw any more pain
God has let you loose from that that chain
That almost made you go Insane
Its not bye its see you latter
And don’t forget I will miss you very much


Details | Ode | |

Cordillia 2

You were small and still inside,
Now you never will come out.
Even though i never got to know you,
I still love you with all my heart.

There are many things i wanted to teach you,
so many things i wanted you to see.
But i know you are in a place that will always be beautiful,
You will always stay young.

You will have your sister to guide you there,
My family is always there to protect you no matter what.
I hope you are happy cordillia where ever you are,
I am happy knowing you will never experience heartache.

You will never experience the lies people will tell,
You are protected.
you are loved.
You will always be part of me and your dad.

Although i wish i could hold you in my arms,
But until we do see eye to eye.
you are in my heart.


Details | ABC | |

pain and sorrow

All the pain the sorrow 
All the tears all the scars
All the heart ach all the pain
We hide it all deep in side us so know one will see it 
We hide in our own emotions 
Sometimes we might look happy but really we are sad 
Sometimes we look happy and we really are
How can you tell the deferent’s?
Why do we hurt so much? 
There are so many reasons 
Sometimes there’s know way to fix it 


Details | I do not know? | |

Sunday Thoughts

We can either be miserable 
Or we can be positive.

When we are miserable 
The forecast is always cloudy.

When we are positive,
The sun is always on the way.


I've heard this several times in different ways,
That's why I'm not putting my name on it.


Details | Free verse | |

We Watch With Tears In Our Eyes

tears;
the droplets of memories
both unwanted and loved,
they carry our strengths,
with glimpses of what we think we cannot do,
in a vision,
never tangible like the
bars we use to box ourselves,
we do so to keep the
memories out.
They obscure his watchful eyes,
so that what he doesn't see
are the clocks with no numbers,
and instead truth at twelve,
false at six.
In joy he sees the smiling plays
upon a persons face,
yet he doesnt identify
with the actors
as playing the role
assigned to them,
but instead the characters,
masterfully designed by the
thoughts and plans of harm
they wish to do;
to cause him to shut down.
To take the world around him
and squander his life;
he takes it
and those of the loved ones
around him.
The clock points at six.
In sorrow he forgets his love;
forgets the beauty that
he has been given to
change loved ones fortunes,
hes like a child at play,
whose love radiates,
filling the cold floor
andsteel bars of a 
playground left for time
with the orange hue of
wanted energy.
But his obscured eyes
look on the loss of love
and pity for the misfortune
given to him.
And with the bars he ruins more love,
creating the cycle of depression once more,
in another seemingly beautiful heart.
The clock points at twelve.
She comes into his life,
with the knowledge of love
given to her because
she accepted Him.
and she gives to him what
no one cared to give;
a love so unconditional,
so that his moments
in which he forgot himself,
and turn to scar those he loved
never changed her ways.
She was like an owl,
with her own watchful eyes
she watched upon another,
as to create balance upon his life.
And she had her own memory filled tears,
he never hesitated to return the love
he gave her.
And so the cycle of the clock ceased to exist
in the lives of two
so intertwined.
And time was never again a problem,
since the slept on
with watchful,
never tearful
eyes.


Details | Free verse | |

Hope

Holy books says it all
You taught me how to crawl
This will never change
Never ends never fades
Dear God where you are?
Shattered piece of childish dreams
This will never change
Never ends never fades.

I can fight for all my life,
Not broken, not broken inside
Never be so frustrated,
Not going to commit suicide.

Fuc*ing faith will fall,
Mortals will stand tall
Hell and heaven are all the same
Live your life, don't die in vain

Only you and I can make 
A better world for tomorrow
Have faith in yourself
And wipe off the tears of sorrow

Make me scream, Make me cry
I'll never fail to try.
This night's has an end
No pain will remain


Details | I do not know? | |

A Hollow Shell

a hollow shell
of tangled synapses
sparked into gradual madness
which drowns out the truths of the day
as the mind reeks of the rotten sad moments
that swirl in the rancid soup of forgotten dreams
dreams that once traced a gentle path of innocence
dreams that reached for pure love’s tender touch
dreams now paralysed but once vivaciously alive
what became of those fresh dreams and hopes
as they lie mustily on dusty bookshelves
torn into shreds by time’s fine scimitar
devoid of the touch of raw passion
when all that remains of love is
a hollow shell


Details | ABC | |

Death

Look around you
See the faces surrounding you
All with different uses and tasks to do
What if it’ll be your last view?
A bitter truth no one reviews
No matter how long we stay, the end will definitely come knocking
A time to really have all the rest you’ll ever need
Being alone with your deeds and virtue
Whether the good or evil
Alone and awaiting judgement
People singing melodious songs
They tell you what doesn't kill you makes you stronger,
Blatant lie, cause what doesn't kill you wasn't meant to kill you.
We wonder and ponder
But at the end, all they do is lauder.
Not knowing death is like thunder
Striking and leaving a donga
Leaving us in confusion
Live life as a traveller, but take only what you’ll need along the way.
Funny how when you die they start listening
A journey worth taking for those who know.
Tell me, are you not willing to go?
For more?
For all the bounties and all the grace
All the sights, smells and the tastes
Will be forgotten without a trace
As if frozen in time and space
When you see his face.
You asked for mercy, that he gave.
Death, the undisputed slave.
We come making everyone happy, then leave making them sad.
Why are we here in the first place, if this is how we gotta go?



Details | Free verse | |

Blessed Breeze

Something feels wrong –
the atmosphere
 Feels dry 
upon my skin
I remember 
the summertime 
and 
its blessed breeze 
– it kept
On flowing…
blowing…
bestowing…
jovial love 
for the renewal 
of your heart… 
Once bleeding…
Beating…
 from deep within
Accept me 
For who I am…
Accept me…
Do you ever ponder
About the good times
We’ve shared?
Have you
Erased it
From your mind 
Forever? 
I wish 
You could rise 
like the sun 
when the dawn 
comes rolling in 
The fog 
Surrounds us… 
With gloominess
There’s no need
To feel my stress
Remain
Stress-free
For eternity 
Dread 
Is caressing 
your soul
Don’t let it
DEVOUR YOU.
YOUR.
Life. 
Is. 
Meaningful. 
Believe me…
Please…
Keep it 
at ease…
Cast away the sorrow
Flick it off
into space
I’ll be there
To run the race
With you 
So wipe away 
The blue liquid…
blinding your eyes
DON’T.
Be. 
Afraid…
Don’t be burdened
By the shame
Sway with me
In the wind…
Where peace
Grows on and on and on…
Forever – 
Until the demise
Of the dawn 
Let the clouds
Drift away 
And sleep without
Disturbance… 
And don’t forget
To pray for 
The blessed breeze
Let me help you
Track down the worries
That try to 
BREAK.
YOU.
Don’t let it get to you
No matter what

Your body is warm
Your eyes glisten 
And reflect
Fascinating light. 
Shimmering
With 
All 
Of
Its
Might. 
Something feels right…
AT LAST! 


Details | Haiku | |

I WAS BORN IN THE OCEAN WILD AND FREE!!!!

Written by Ann Wilson on

October 31 st  2006

I WAS BORN IN THE OCEAN WILD AND FREE LEAVE ME ALONE AND` LET ME 
BE ME.THE OCEAN IS WHERE MAMALS WERE  MEANT TO STAY AND MEANT 
TO BE. THE OCEAN IS WHERE I WAS MEANT TO BE. FREE TO BE ME.AS THE 
WATERS I SWIM EACH AND EVERY DAY.I WAS NOT MEANT TO BE PUT ON 
DISPLAY TOO LOOK AT AND DO TRICKS FOR THE CROWD THE OCEAN IS 
WHERE I WANT TO PLAY.YOU ARE ALL FOOLS TO THINK THIS IS TRUE WHY 
MUST YOU BE VERY  CRUEL.THE OCEAN IS WHERE I AM THE HAPPIEST YOU 
SEE. YOU MAY NOT SEE IT MY WAY AND YOU MIGHT DISAGREE.THE OCEAN 
WITH THE SALT WATERS IS MEANT FOR ALL OF THE DOLPHINS AND ME IT 
NEEEDS `TO BE MY WAY AND THATS OK.I DON'T WANT TO DO TRICKS YOU 
NEED TO SEE IT MY WAY. SAVE ME TODAY LET ME BE BACK IN THE OCEAN. 
THE FACTS ARE CLEAR I CAN LIVE A  LONGER LIVE HERE.CAN YOU HAVE A 
HEART SO  LISTEN TO ME YOU KNOW WHERE I WAS MEAN TO BE. OR IS 
YOUR HEART SO COLD AND MEAN. I AM DEEPLY SAD PLEASE GIVE ME A 
CHANCE. I KNOW I AM NOT WRONG I KNOW WHERE I BELONG. WITH THE 
WAVES I GO SPLASHING JUMPING UP AND DIVING SO HIGH. LADIES AND 
GENTLEMEN BOYS AND GIRLS I WANT TO BE HAPPY AGAIN. LET ME GO 
HOME IS WHERE I BELONG IN THE CLEAR WATERS YOU KNOW THATS 
TRUE. I AM GLAD YOU HAVE LISTEN TO WHAT I HAD TO SAY.NO I AM HAPPY 
NOT SAD AND BLUE I AM .HAPPY NOW TODAY .GOODBYE TO ALL. I THANK 
YOU SO FOR LETTING ME BE FREE BEING BORN IN THE OCEAN AND 
REMAINING THERE MEANS ALOT TO ME. SPLISH SPLASH I AM MAKING MY 
DASH NOW I AM AS HAPPY AS CAN BE. THANK YOU ALL FOR LISTENING TO 
THIS MAMMAL THAT I AM. DEEP DOWN WE ALL KNOW ITS TRUE I WAS BORN 
IN THE OCEAN WILD AND FREE




Details | Free verse | |

fate

the bruises you made
the cuts i made
you forced me to do it
yet you don't know it
my heart breaks in two
as you break my dignity
my soul fades away
every time i saw you
I would end my life
if you didn't
but you ended your instead
yet i should be sad
i'm not
yet i should be crying
i'm not
instead i'm happy
instead i'm laughing
is it so bad?
you deserved it in my opinion
you had it coming
fate watched over you
every time you hit me
and finally fate hit you bad,
right in the face.
i'm guessing fate was on my side
i'm happy now
yet fate watches me everyday
i'm still happy you're gone


Details | Free verse | |

Waiting

Waiting for the day that all the troubles are gone
They are not just forgotten for a minute
But absent. 

Waiting for the day when happy just is,
Where happy is an emoting not just a word,
Happy doesn’t have to be forced.

Waiting for the day when sleeping isn’t the best place to be,
When waking up is better than dreaming,
No dreams are better than life it self.

Will there be enough time,
Time to spend waiting for the time to wait for dreams to be true,
Time that seems it will never come.

Every thing comes to an end
So when will waiting come to and end?


Details | Imagism | |

Happy Being Alone

Its  time for celebration, Fun n frolic all around,
Everywhere is merry time;
Red, green white color of season.
Its jingling bells, beautiful trees.
Tis Christmas!!!
Snow all round, All happy &gay 
Tall trees, decorated with bells, stars, good luck charm et all;
Misltoes hanging, stockings filled.
Yo Ho.....Santa's coming!!!!
May be wishes coming true.
Happiness all around 
Ask a wish & its fulfilled.
But whats the use..??
All like this day except one.
Even that person used to love this day .. but now not more.
Earlier used to wait to arrive
would be double celebration, Christmas & B'day
On that day lamp lights were burned around midnight,
Chatting, thanking, praying, seeking blessings from near & dear ones,
Those were the happiest yester years of that person's life.
Now no dislike it.
As usual awaiting for the big day, but 
Major let down came from close people,
Quarrels, argument happened.
And many more...
Though it wasn't that persons fault.
Most awaited day was a worse day mare.
Immensely hurt-but only that person.
Made a firm decision-not celebrating with near-dear ones.
May be only few friends-true few ones.
Even foes seems to be better now,
Loved ones seems distant to me.
Indeed that person distanced own self from them
Distancing away was not what was wanted, 
But circumstances were proving that.
Better to be loner than among with betrayers & cheaters
U will feel that person must be wrong somewhere,
Without a doubt for once person is right.
Now don't have any regrets,
No sorrow.nothing
Just happy being alone.
No awaiting for next X'mas...
With a ray of  hope.























Details | Couplet | |

Cold Comfort

I meet you, and your everything I need,
So ****ing perfect; the man of my dreams.
You have a woman, so we are just friends;
But do you know we can't live in pretend?

She lies to you and hurts you, so you eventually leave.
Greatest day of my life because you came to me.
I'm so happy all the time; always smiling,
But then you go back to her and leave me dying.

And now I can't eat, can't sleep; for thoughts of you with her.
And no matter what I do you won't take my lure.
So now your happy all the time and I'm miserable at best.
How can I settle for anyone less?

You once made a promise that if you were to ever leave,
The first one you would look up would be me.
So now this promise is my comfort on lonely nights;
Cold comfort it is, since I have lost the fight.

I dream of the day when you will be mine,
When my happiness returns and everything is fine.
Even though I'm deluding myself with this,
It's all I have left along with the memory of your kiss.


Details | I do not know? | |

She

She.

She,
remains just out of focus,
an elusive portrait,

etched in the corner of the mind's eye.

she,
sometimes strays into view,
a blurred mirage,
of burnished words cast in indelible dye.

she,
steals fragments of each day,
a welcome thief,
of emotions left in some dusty space.

she,
scatters my poems in the breeze,
an invited spell,
that vanishes into the wind without a trace.

she,
renders me mute and so often blind,
the wild dreamer,
a seeder of impossible thoughts in the mind.

she,
brings the elements of nature to me,
a gentle healer,
she unfolds my thoughts setting them free.

she,
comes and goes as she chooses,
an untamed spirit,
soothing the very place that she bruises.

she,
rouses me in nights of empty slumber,
a murmured breath,
brushing my cheeks with kisses too many to number.

she,
remains to me the enigmatic one,
a burning riddle,
yet she stays with me as each torturous day is done.

she,
my heart knows not why she stays,
my consistent constant,
filling up my nights and consoling my days.

she,
deserves so much more from fate,
the truest soul,
she loves too much and knows not how to hate.

she,
arrives again tonight as I lie awake,
a thoughtful shield,
my coat of armour in a world far too fake.

she,
stays with me and within me stays still,
the true one,
and to dwell deep in my soul is where she always will.

she,
from whose cup I have so greedily drank,
a giver of life,
I have not the words with which to her wholly thank.

she,
knows how desolate a world this can be,
my sustainer of hope,
and of life and of breath is what she will always be.


Details | Free verse | |

Good-Bye

Good-bye my lover
Good-bye my friend
Maybe one day I'll see you again
Good-bye hugs
Good-bye kisses in the rain
Even though our love was short lived I don't believe it was in vain 
Good-bye cries of joy
Good-bye to happy times too
My life was so happy but not without you
Good-bye my ray of sunlight
Good-bye to life itself 
There's no use to keep on living
I wont find nobody else


Good-bye
 

                    My
                             
                               Lover   


Details | I do not know? | |

sadness all over and over again

Looking at the blue sky 
Covered with clouds 
Moving from place to place
Taking away with them 
their happiness and pain
leaving behind them 
a smile on my face 
fulfilling my eyes 
with the beauty of white
decorating the sky
with their charming presence
contemplating them 
making me forget 
the emptiness and sadness in me 
for a while 
but when they leave 
non stopping tears
cover my face 
thinking of my life 
as a huge mistake
wishing to die 
wishing to relax 
wishing to be happy again 
wishing to know what is it 
that changed
 me from a happy person 
to me now
taking everything negatively 
ignoring the bright side in me 
ignoring the power in me 
crying deeply inside 
crying from the bottom of my heart 
feeling the pain 
feeling the sadness 
feeling the sadness 
all over again   


Details | I do not know? | |

Poems I live by

These poems are some of the poems that mean a lot to me. They tell a lot about me and my life and none of these are mine just some I live by. 

Isn't me 

Behind my smile 
Is a hurting heart 
Behind my laugh 
I'm falling apart 
Look closely at me 
And you will see 
The girl I am isn't me.

Wrong

When I cry at night 
the only thing 
I can think to myself is...
How can I seem so perfectly fine 
In the morning 
Like nothing is wrong?
And how does not one single person 
Notice that I'm not okay? 

The prettiest 

The prettiest smile 
Hide the deepest secrets 
The prettiest eyes 
Have cried the most tears 
And the kindest hearts 
have felt the most pain. 

The girl 

I was the girl 
That was happy all the time 
I was the girl 
Who couldn't stop smiling 
I was the girl 
Who didn't know how to cry
I was the girl 
Who can be spotted laughing all the time 
Now I've become the girl 
Who thought of death constantly 
The girl 
Who faked smiles everyday 
The girl 
Who cried herself to sleep every night 
The girl 
Who has forgot to laugh 
But no one knows 
No one knows how I really feel 
And that's the worst part.

My death

The death of me is because of you 
I tried everything I knew to make you happy 
But everything I do is wrong
It breaks my heart 
I cry at nights feeling alone 
I'm hurt 
And scared I don't know what to do 
I feel so much pain 
I wanna die 
I wish for it day and night 
Don't make me stay 
With the lies you tell me 
You blame me for so much 
I didn't do 
I'm never gonna be perfect for you 
The death of me  
Will be because of you!

This girl I know 

She writes down on paper 
What's shes afraid to say aloud 
She shy around people she knows 
But confident around complete strangers 
She smiles on the outside 
But inside she's being torn into pieces 
By a boy who never cared 
She whispers songs to herself In class 
Praying no one listens 
She looks at her classmates 
And wishes she was normal like them 
She longs for strong arms 
To hug her and keep her safe 
She writes down songs that she loves to remember to download 
And listen to forever
She wishes she could be like the other girls 
She's insecure about herself 
And want's to be understood  
This girl that I know 
Yeah she's me!


Details | Lyric | |

Cluttered Mind

Walking around my cluttered mind, 
Looking for something I'll never find.
As I'm wrapped in flames and I take all the blame,
I don't seem to care that I can't breathe this air.
And I see your face as you disappear,
Cus in my mind it's still so clear.

Sometimes I tear every thought in my mind, 
As I know I'm leaving myself behind.
Sometimes I want to hurt myself, 
Cus I can't get anything out.
Sometimes I look like I'm happy inside,
When really I'm just trying to hide.

My mind is cluttered with memories,
And your face it burns like a painful disease.
I pick up a pen to write you a letter,
If I mail it out, maybe I'll feel better.

Sometimes I tear every thought in my mind, 
As I know I'm leaving myself behind.
Sometimes I want to hurt myself, 
Cus I can't get anything out.
Sometimes I look like I'm happy inside,
When really I'm just trying to hide.

Look, at me, with your honest eyes.
Help, me breathe, cus I know that it's time.
Stop, it here, and leave it behind.
Good, night to, my cluttered mind...


Details | Rhyme | |

Bestfriend

You knock on my door in the middle of the night
I let you in and you hug me tight
You cry in front of me and tell me you’re over
I tell you it’s okay, you lay your head on my shoulder

Things have always been this way
You come to me and I make you feel okay
I’ve always been there to give you a hand
Coz I’m, as you always say, your “friend”

You tell me the things the two of you do
You say how much she really means to you
I listen whole-heartedly with a smile on my face
Although secretly, I’m wishing it was me in her place

You inform me when you and her go out on a date
And you whimper about her coming in a little late
I’ve always wondered what is it she has as a plus
When I know I can always love you better than she does

You tell me everytime the two of you kiss
You count the things she has that you miss
I just listen, coz I know there’s nothing else I can do
But secretly dream I am that one with you…

You asked me how much you mean to me
I answered you with not-so-pure honesty
I told you I’d be happy wherever you may be
But I’m not, coz you’re happy with her, not with me…

You told me you found out her love wasn’t real
And I cried coz I knew how betrayed you feel
I can’t do anything but give you a light back pat
As I secretly whisper “I won’t hurt you like that…”

And now, for the zillionth time, you’re coming to me
Telling me you love her but you’re setting her free
Listen, coz I’ve been dying to ask this one thing in my head
Don’t you see that I love you; can’t you just love me instead?


Details | Free verse | |

Happy Days

My life was not a happy one but I can still recall some good times.
My father was a lousy one though my mother was just fine.
I grew up with no money never knowing the finer things of life.
I never did drugs or steal and I did not think about it twice.
I grew up becoming a nice child, but had shyness like that of a mouse.
I was never invited to parties and was always left out.
I made some friends despite of it all and good ones no doubt.
No my life was not a happy one, but maybe this will change.
Until then I can dream of happy days.


Details | Rhyme | |

THAT DAY IN JUNE

I sat today midst the happy smiles
Of a children’s song, and for just a while 
I was happy too, for what else should come
From a happy day and a happy song

But it came again just like every June
When I feel the pain of an open wound
That on every other day I keep
Hidden far from view, buried oh so deep

But I guess that’s why they made the day
So that folks like me can’t just walk away
From the hidden chambers, vaults and tombs 
Where ghosts like this are left to loom

Waiting for the chance to emerge again
On that day in June; on the one day when
I can only sit choking back the tears
While the children sing…
And the ghosts appear

…Jeff Bresee


Details | Free verse | |

Waiting on That Call

If only I could kiss u as many times as I shed a tear last night.
I wish i were older. I wish people would  realize we are just two lonely kids trying to find a way in this world. I hope when the time comes for us to meet again we don't regret a thing. We will work out perfect we won't have to make anyone happy but ourselves. But for now, goodbye. I hope your life is as fun and amazing as you have made my life these past few months. I hope your successful, and I hope you find someone who loves you as much as I do. I hope you are happy in everything you do. Anyone who is yours is really lucky. Just know that when you need me to keep our promise, to find and fall back in love with each other, I'm where I always said I would be, waiting on that call, and on that day my life will be complete.


Details | Free verse | |

Break up

It’s over everybody happy now
The light of my day, the star of my night is gone
No more waking up to his voice or sleeping with his memories
It’s finished, it seems like the end of my life
Like I cant breathe anymore, my whole bodies numb
It’s like the only feeling I have left in me
Is this what love is supposed to feel like 
If so I wish I never loved or felt this way
Coz it hurts so much that I can’t even explain
Like being stabbed through the heart
I’m bleeding to death and there’s no cure
Only one person that can fix it
But there’s no turning back now because everybody is too happy now
He’s not coming back, well then that’s the end of my life


Details | I do not know? | |

Why Change

Why change your life when someone dies
Is it because of hurt and love and depression inside
Why not stick to your old ways
Is it because now you know you have not many days
Why not be happy like you were before
Is it because the one you were close to isn't near anymore
Why not be doing something you love on weekends and fridays
Is it because you are afraid that you will lose your remaining days
Why not talk about them and try to think about them 
Is it because it hurts to say i wish i could see them
Why not be happy when you pray to the one above
Is it because you are afraid to ask him why he took the one you love
Why not go to church on the usual sundays
Is it because you really don't wanna see anyone's bright face
Why not keep your house brightened after someone has passed 
Is it because you miss the fun and joy you had
Why not be joyful when you're being praised
Is it because  inside you've really been crying for days
So why be sad when the person you loved is gone
Truth is, it's because your heart feels empty and alone

Don't Be Afraid To Live After Someone Passed. You Have A Life Too.


Details | Light Poetry | |

If i died

If I died, would you still love me?
If I died, would you be sad or happy?
If I died, would I let you down or make you proud?
If I died, would I be a burden or a blessing to you?
If I died, would you go to my funeral?
If died, would you think happy or anger, also sad thoughts? 
If I died, would you be happy or sad I was gone?


Details | Free verse | |

my life

what am i living for ?
for eating, sleeping and working...
what is so special in my life ? 
whenever i sit alone ,i keep on crying 
for something that i want very much,
for something that i cant find...
and this thing made me hate everything around me , 
even the nearest person to me. 
i hate myself for not changing my life, 
for not being happy , 
for not being genuine with my self, 
for not being extrovert  
for obliging myself to be detached from the world and from the people around me.
but i the love the Sara in me , the Sara that's sleeping deeply in my soul waiting  
for me to wake up her...     
but my question is :is she going to help me??? 
some people born to be happy and to have a nice, easy life 
but some people born to have a tough and a hard life...
why do i have to be from the second kind ???
i keep telling myself : im the happiest person on earth, which is not .
i try to fill my time in anything to stop the feeling of orgasm , 
because it hurts my soul a lot , and it's hard to be healed again ...


Details | Rhyme | |

Another Day

I just wanted to get better,
But I guess it didn't matter.
I guess I'm not the same,
I don't know who I became.
I thought it was going good,
I was doing all I could;
To pick myself up off the ground,
I tried to turn my life around.
I thought I'd be all right,
If I tried with all my might;
To finally be the happy one,
I wanted to let myself have some fun.
I guess it didn't work,
Now I look like such a jerk.
I want to fix it all,
I don't want to take another fall.
Maybe I should find a way,
To try to be happy another day.


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Why Did You Leave Your Memories Behind

I've been trying to erase, for a long long time
All these happy memories, I have of you
But every time I think, that I'm finally over you
When my frown, has turned upside down
I close my eyes, and again you're right there on my mind
Oh! why, why did you leave your memories behind

I keep trying to move on, I keep trying to forget you
But every road I walk, every path I take
Leads my mind, right back to you
Oh! it's so hard to go on, without you around
For every dark alley, every dark highway
You seem to be right there, on my mind to stay

Now If memories were like raindrops, falling from the sky
I believe the sun, woul have dried them all away
And If teardrops, were like morning dew drops, when I cry
The winds would have dried them, from my face
But each waking hour, you're right there on my  mind
Oh! why, why did you leave your memories behind 

Today, I still see you walking away, into the sun
I still hear those words, you said, through your tears
Guess I'll never be alone, guess my happy days are done
I know you'll never return, guess my life has been run
"Cause when I close my eyes, you're right there on my mind
Oh! why, why did you leave your memories behind


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LAUGHTER WINE

For years I drank
     laughter wine, aged on fears and depression;
(it seems that no one likes a pessimist).

Laughter wine served with plastic jokes
	and drunk from society's suffrage glass.

Sour laughter wine sours the spirit; 	
	sweet laughter wine is a better drink.

It is aged on the hope;
	The faith that social sufferings will end.

It is proper to drink Sweet laughter wine
	from your soul-glass.


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Just Listen

Close your eyes...
Close your eyes my sweet girl.
Dream...
Dream happy dreams my sweet girl.
Stop crying...
Stop crying my sweet girl.
Talk to me...
Tell me what's wrong my sweet girl.


No.
I will not.

I will not close my eyes
-In fear of what might find me

No.

I will not dream any dreams
-In fear that I might not come back

No.

I will not stop crying
-I'm afraid I do not know how

No.

I will not talk to you
-For you will not understand, you will never understand, no one will ever understand...
I don't understand.

So open your eyes my dear friend
-Bask in the knowledge of knowing…knowing life, death, love 
[.For I can not.]

So dream my dear friend,
-Drift to a place where all is well, where no harm can come to you 
[.For I will not.]

So shed a tear my dear friend,
-And with those tears comes love, happiness and peace 
[.Though not for I.]

So talk to me my dear friend,
-Tell me your story, your happy ending. How all is well and kind and how this knowledge of yourself has brought you life. 
No confusion.

No loneliness.

No pain. 

Tell me about your happy ending 
[.For I do not have one.] 


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No Longer Neutral

A negative high,
to a positive try,
a very sad goodbye,
to a very happy hi.

Though my eyes tear,
my hope remains strong,
what I thought was fear,
was faith all along.

You climb up one side,
you slide down the other,
it comes from inside,
like you came from your mother.

I will smile through sorrow,
I will mean what I say,
I should stop thinking tomorrow,
and start living today.

A negative high,
to a positive try,
a very happy goodbye,
to a very, very sad lie.


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past and present

i have had bad in past
i hoped to god this would not last,
i made me sad and very blue
i could not believe this was true, 
now the time has come along
when a think nothing can go wrong
what the future holds for me
hope and pray it makes me happie,

never a moment to feeling down
never will be anothers clown
to walk away with a smile
to sit and say our lifes worth while,
looking at the things to come
makes me smile at heavens above,

for all the things thats meant to be
is one thing is to be happpie.
no one can say if its good or bad
no one can say if it makes you sad,

just need to keep move along
and pray my life dont go wrong,
as life is here and what,s for me
bring some things thats meant to be, 
to make me happy and also smile
making a change make life worth while, 

to sit and think where it will go
to sit and let my life flow,
to bring a smile apon my heart
to say goodbye to times i had,
for whats to come will be a change
to change my life in many ways,

may not be money or a love
may not see someone from heavens above
as no one knows what it is, 
for my life a give with a kiss, 

i sound good as you may see
as i know whats good for me, 
goodbye sad times and feeling blue
my new world i owe to you, 
for i know so good and well
time for my blues to go to hell, 
so smile along and be happy to,
as the way i feel can happen to you,

pray each day as it does go by,
for each day like white clouds in sky,
feel your heart open up,
and pray your never hurt,
taking the blues and lock them away
then you will be happy in every way,
goodbye bad times that were around,
i bury the bad times in the ground,

looking around and see what,s there,
its all the loving in the air, 
so farewell my sadness you may have caused
for it was for a love i lost,
as time heel all wounds,
a won,t be around to be your fool.
my life is loved by many around,
and the sad times are in the ground,,,


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Home Isn't For Me

Home isn't for me I try my best to respect my parents but they don't treat
me right
My pops always yelling at me and quick to hit me
When I speak my mind
My mom always cussing me out telling me to get my lazy ass up and get a
job
But times are hard and it ain't easy to get a job
Home isn't for me because we’re never peaceful
My parents always arguing about money when they know every week
they're short
Sometimes I wish that my home was more peaceful
A place where I can lay down in peace without nobody in the house
fighting
23When I go over my friends’ houses I always get jealous
Because they and their parents always get along they never embarrass
them when they have company
They always encourage them to do better if they screw up it’s like them
and their parents connect all the time
Sometimes I wish that my parents was like that always let me speak my
mind and tell them how I feel
I know it’s kind of sad but I hate coming home after school or when I’m
leaving my friend's house
Because my home isn't peaceful it’s like I'm fighting demons everyday
Home isn't for me that’s why a lot of kids run away from home especially
the black ones
Our parents don't know what we go through at school, work or out there
in the real world
When we come home from our problems we aspect loving and caring
parents that has a happy home
If it’s like that maybe we all can get along and understand each other some
more
If there’s no love at home what makes you think I want to be at home
looking at how miserable ya are
24   
I pray to God every night hoping and believing that he turns my place into
a happy home


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THE FEAR OF DYING

Youth seemed an eternal joy
for a gorgeous and happy boy...
no worries over necessities,
with desires without sequence.


The fear of dying was far from pondering,
only beautiful days ahead for the youngest heart....
longing for a tenderness other teenagers never sought,
and sometimes sleeping away the afternoons was invigorating. 


Like glass sheding water, his soul was pure and epic
and he never shook his fist to seek revenge;
he never shillied to shin a tall tree with panic...
always used pragmatism whenever on perilous edge.


He lives miserably, living on a day-to-day existence,
but the fear of dying is to exemplify weakness,
not to exert himself and to better before he hits dead-end;
yesterday God was his sunrise, now that light is glimmering instead.


He justifies his misfortunes with an inadequate story,
while his friends enjoy a happy life, he frolics like a sky-lark 
feeding on what people discard in a garbage pail daily...
and weeps occasionaly, instead of coming out of the  dark.


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The Woman In The Mirror

I look into the morror at this woman 
Who's drowned in tears for freedom
Freedom from inner pain
That has seized her with chains
Seized her for too many years
And now she wants to disappear

I dry her tears and comfort her
Telling everything will be better
Everything will soon change
All she needs is some courage
Courage to face and stand
'Cause change lies in her hands

She wants to fly away
Make a new life there and stay
Where she can get rid of her pain and anger
Where she can be happy forever
But she thinks she won't be able to make it
'Cause pain is forbidding her to stand on her feet

She wants to live no more
'Cause nothing is left to live for
If she can't be happy then why to live
In life she no more believes
She knows nothing is going to be alright
And to die she has made up her mind

But i hold her back and ask for patience
And that soon she will see the difference
Though i know she's right and i'm wrong
All i'm trying is to make her strong
But the truth i just can't ignore
Got to let it go, can't fool myself no more


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Darkness

She shakes and shivers. 
The nights, they are so cold now....
-This is based on a true story.-

The chills are haunting, 
and the silence is taunting, 
The darkness is what she deserves.
The shadows, they chase her
Her memory escapes her
But darkness is what she deserves
The halls are empty and hallow
And the truth is hard to swallow,
But the darkness is what she deserves.
Her eyes are tired,
Her head is aching,
Her body's numb and her heart is breaking,
Because darkness is what she deserves.
He's showed her once,
and told her twice,
she knows that she's not worth the fight,
and that darkness is what she deserves.
But he held her close, and whiped her tears,
and ran her far away from here, 
no darkness is what she deserves.
He loved her once,
He loves her still,
She's worth the fight, 
She's worth the kill,
There's no darkness for her anymore.... 


How simple life would be if all of this were true, but there is no happy endings...No, not ever for you. So let the wounds split open, let the pain run deep, let your mind forget, no happy memories to keep. It all ends here right now, It all ends here tonight, The anger and frustration, the fury and the fight. Let all of yourself go, make sure all of it unheard, because the darkness, my friend, is the only thing we deserve.



[Forgetting how to breath might possible save your life.]


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Heart

Heart, I haven't forgot you, since she went away
You're on my mind, when everything goes wrong
But I still have my memories, of her gentle touch
And I still dream of her, but that's not enough
I need to hold her and tell her, that I love her
But I feel that days gone and now, we need a cure
My friends keep telling me, to just forget her
But her wrinkled picture brings my tears, back to her

Oh! Heart, look how she's left us, to cry alone
Do you  think we can make it, on our own
Do you remember how this was once, our happy home
Oh! I just wish she would call me, on the phone
You know I never wanted her, to walk away
Cause now all I feel is your pain, everyday
I still think she might come back, to us and stay
so all we have left is for me, to kneel and pray

Heart, I can feel your beat, slowing down
I wish she was here to listen, to your lonely sound
She's always on my mind, when things go wrong
And that break she done to you, was pretty strong
It's so hard living with her gone, for so long
That's why I set down and wrote, our little song
You know I need her to turn my face, upside down
For that day she left, she turned my smile, into a frown

Oh! Heart, look how she's left us, to cry alone
Do you  think we can make it, on our own
Do you remember how this was once, our happy home
Oh! I just wish she would call me, on the phone
You know I never wanted her, to just walk away
Cause now all I feel is your pain, everyday
I still think she might come back, to us and stay
so all we have left is for me, to kneel and pray


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secrets

i may not be a mahammod ali but my words will float like a butterfly and sting like 
a bee
now there was this baby girl who was so unaware and didnt understand why 
daddy used to run his fingers through her hair and lay next to her while tuggin at 
her underwear See mommy never knew what was going on because sixteen 
hours out of a twenty four day mommy was gone and know it is two days before 
her daughters tenth birthday baby girl is dreedin it like its about to be her worse 
day daddy touchin her in inapproriate places was the first phase suddenly her 
mother realizing her daughter is always in a daze
happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday dear alexis happy 
birthday to you
as i close my eyes and begin to make my wish
dear lord please dont let daddy ask me for another kiss
visions of the past came into my mind daddy touching me down there until my 
vagina bleeds puttin his body parts on mine tellin me its okay no daddy! it is not 
okay you have made me into the monster that stands before you today good night 
alexis i hope you enjoyed yo birthday her mother calls i have to go to work i will 
see you tomorrow be good for daddy i love you good bye no mommy please dont 
leave me here aline alexis began to cry. whats wrong baby girl are you having a 
bad day no mommy scary and bad things happen to me when you go away her 
mother chuckled and gave her a kiss on her forhead goodbye and left her 
daughter in the care of her husband as a tear fell from her daughters eye as the 
front door closes the bathroom door opens and there in her doorway appears a 
figure not a father figure but a figure of her father with a grin on his face and his 
dick in his hand telling his only baby girl his is going to make her a real wo-man! 
but daddy its my birthday and im--im ready to go to bed hush your mouth baby girl 
and give daddy some head well you know how that story go 
six years later cant even walk the halls of her high school without being called a 
hoe. people look at her but people dont see her people hear her but people dont 
listen to her well listen to this she is not a garden tool you cannot used her and 
abuse her like some kind of fool.
then throw her in the corner when you are done and expect to pull her out again 
when your ready to have fun 
the moral of this story is to stop look and listen but her mother never did that 
now she must stop look and position flowers on her daughters grave because 
yesterday ladys and gentlemen alexis died of AIDS


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Fake

act happy for the crowd, hunny
don't let them see your pain, dear
cover up those cuts, you little wench
don't you dare tear up in front of them

never let them know the way you feel
even when your heart feels fit to burst
why would they even care
why would then want to put you first

so keep hiding the frown
the fake smile looks fine
laugh away the tears that want to fall
even though you gave it your all
and you feel so utterly small
keep your worthless self in line

Act happy for the crowd


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Home

Please do not define me by the house I’m living in.
You don’t know where I’m going; you don’t know where I’ve been.
Just because my house is not a mansion or chalet,
Doesn’t mean I can’t be just as happy where I stay.
 
The circumstances of our lives can change from time to time.
It seems to me that this time, a change will soon be mine.
I’m not sure I am ready to face this task again.
I’m longing for the days of youth and happy times back then.
 
No matter where I hang my hat, my heart is still the same.
Four walls alone won’t make a home when filled with doubt or shame.
A house is made of bricks or wood, but this I must confide…
A house is not a home unless true love resides inside.
 
A home should be a place that reaches out its arms to you,
Some rocking chairs on your front porch, where you enjoy the view.
As soon as you set foot inside the door you know you’re home,
Where Home Sweet Home is always best, no matter where you roam.
 
The welcome mat, it does just that…it makes you feel secure.
It doesn’t matter where you’re at, or if you’re rich or poor.
I think a home can know if you are feeling sad or blue,
And in its way, will do its best to take good care of you.
 
To me, there's nothing sadder than a house no one lives in.
No family to call its own, and empty rooms within.
Its windows are the eyes that blankly stare, as if to say,
“Won’t you come inside and take my loneliness away?”

The houses where I’ve lived before were happy ones, you see.
I loved each one in different ways and I know they loved me.
I left my mark on each of them in one way or another,
Especially the one I shared with Daddy and my Mother.

This home won’t be as nice as some I’ve lived in, in the past.
Financial strain can dwindle down a bank account so fast.
I have to do what’s right for me, and not for any other.
If you don’t like the place I live, I can’t go buy another.
 
I hope I won’t be judged by where I live, because you see
Your circumstances, too could change; you may live next to me.
Tornado Magnet, Trailer Trash…call me what you will.
The only thing that matters is the sweet relief I’ll feel.
 
Although it’s sad to leave this home, I never understood,
The heavy burden of my debt would soon be gone for good.
So if you want to tease me now, I’m sure you will agree,
This “almost” Trailer Trash is very soon to be debt-free!


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Letter To April

Hey babe.
How ya doing?
Is life treating you good?
Are you happy now?
I hope you are.
I hope everything is working out for you.
I hope you can find what you're looking for.
You know you can never go back.
You know you can't change what has already been done.
You have to look forward.
We have to look forward.
The past can not be undone.
We have to look forward.
No more pointless day dreaming.
No more thinking of "what if."
I only hope that you're happy with the decisions you've made.
I only hope that this is what you wanted.
Did it play out the way you wanted?
Did your life turn out the way you planned?
Did all your expectations get filled?
Was I holding you back?
I'm sorry if I was.
I thought you wanted more.
I thought you wanted better.
Better than what you grew up with.
Better than what we had.
Obviously better than what we had.
I'm sorry for everything.
Everything that added to nothing.
Obviously nothing is what I had to offer.
Good thing you didn't take it.
I love you.


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Remembering Her in Eternal Happiness

Each day and night I cry,.....
Seeing her as if directly before my eyes so happy and beautiful with the beaming
florescence of sun blinding my sight.

Constant flashbacks in my mind of all the good one person could bring into 
one's life, without a doubt to make them feel so loved at times of pain and 
wonder hidden in I.

To a woman so dedicated to learning only the teachings of the All Mighty God,to 
speak into others ears to believe that HE is always there to rely on and the most 
powerful man there ever will be that can solve any problem.

The pictures and words froze in my mind hurts deeply to understand that God 
has taken her from Hell on earth to a wonderful place of serenity to heal and 
rejuvenate her soul for a new life in a place way more gracefully innocent that the 
planet earth.

Way above the clouds and higher that no eye can see, But into the soundless 
galaxy of peacefulness to one's self mind to finally be free.

Hoping in mind she will never forget seeing the never ending tears of grievance 
for only her a time that is desperately needed.

Looking up off in space with overflowing tears, questioning Him why?......

Visions of me seeing her as an angel of God, to express how much i do care 
(That  was never reflected) , and the needs of her in my life and how it's killing me 
slowly inside.

But then is smothered with words of God saying "She is happy now and not to 
worry.... She will always remember you as you do of her and could see the pain 
straight through my eyes.

" I Wll always breakdown and cry with sadness and guilt in my heart, but is 
stopped with her presence of joy."

"Dedicated to my aunt Kelly ,Rest in peace"


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The Last Time

The last time I saw you,
It was about three years ago,
You were happy and sad at the same time,
Happy to be spending time with me,
Sad to know you would be leaving me soon,
The first time I saw you,
I felt a rush of love course through my body,
My heart was filled with joy and happiness,
I felt so happy when we were together,
Sad everytime we were apart,
I would always miss you when you left,
I knew everytime we saw each other,
Soon we would have to depart,
Everytime I was with you,
I still couldn't believe you chose me,
I couldn't believe my dream came true,
I couldn't believe I had you,
Now I am here alone,
Not knowing whether to cry or not,
You are here just lying in front of me,
Not moving not even a little bit,
Tears rolling down my face,
Maybe if I was there for you,
You would still be here,
You saw me one last time,
A huge smile on your face,
Maybe if I would have been with you,
You would still be alive,
I can't changed what happened between us,
I stand here alone wondering what we could've had,
I say good-bye for the very last time,
and as I do I give you back your lucky dime,
I just wish with all my heart,
That  I could've been with you from the start,
I have one last thing to share with you,
Baby I Love You


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I miss you

Lies you told me
That you never meant
And now I'm bent and broken
Yes and now I'm choking

Well at least you're happy anyway
Everything's OK
To you...

Why did you tell me you loved me
When you knew it would never be true?
Just throw me away
And find somebody new
New and Improved

Well at least you're happy anyway
Everything's OK
To you

As tears filled my eyes
Inside something died
But I'll never show it to you
I'll fake a big smile
Laugh for a while
You'll never know the truth

Well at least you're happy anyway
I won't tell you I'm not OK
I miss you...


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Story of my Life

Yesterday my parents got drunk and wasted like every night but my dad did not 
Have the right to say the things that were said and did now we all have tears to 
Shed. The story is simple it just goes like this my dad left the room with blood on 
His fist mumbling words witch were unknown but his voice had a very awkward 
tone 
Then he collapsed on the floor and I rushed into the open door. When I saw my 
Mom lying on the floor I grasped her tight and said, " I can’t take much more". 
Then she opened her eyes and not thinking right pushed me away and grabbed 
A knife she said her life was bad and that it was only getting worse and now she 
Was gonna brake this awful curse. She said she wasn’t meant to live with tears 
Running from her eyes but the sad part is she never said good bye with fear and 
Anger bestowed upon her face she happily cut herself out of the human race. 
She 
Grasped the knife tight as I pleaded not this way and she stabbed it through her 
Heart and with excruciating pain I grabbed her tight and never let go. But what 
Really caught my ears was when she told me please don’t cry, I was meant to 
die 
I’m happy and now I’m free. But how could she do this awful thing to me I loved 
Her so much but now all I can do is say be kind and helpful to your parents love 
Them more the anyone else and hold them tight cause it could only that one 
night 
For something to go wrong them they will be gone so please for me hold them 
Tight and even give them a kiss good night. My parents were drunk as usual and 
I 
Don’t believe they meant the things they said to me, my mom was sad and 
beaten 
By my dad, you see it can only take one stupid mistake from someone else to 
Cause so much pain, and tears will be shed and my story will go on till everyone 
Is dead. I love my mom so much but now all I can do is pray that she is happy 
And that I can see her again but I hope deep and within that she will be my 
Guardian angel my blessing from above but all I need now is a parent with love.


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Permanent Scars

Once upon a time I was a girl who had dreams
I stood out and brought light to a crowd, making life easier than it seamed
I was a young girl who looked forward to the blue skies and the morning wind
Always wanted to run, scream, and play, never wanting the day to end
Sometimes picking flowers, making mud pies, or climbing apple trees
Too busy to stay in one spot, to much to do in one day, starting off with loosing my
mothers keys.
I miss those happy sunsets, and my pillow full of wondrous thoughts and dreams
So sad, a story so happy ended at age 6, now life is harder than it has ever seamed
Now age 17 and each new day means a new permanent scar
Loved ones ripped from my heart, no light is left, each was the light of a star
Smiles replaced by frowns, laughter replaced by tears, and love replaced with hate,
People say it wont last forever, your special day will soon arrive, just be patient and wait.
No more sunny days, or morning winds, just rainy days and cold nights
Will these days last forever? I'm lost! Which way do I turn, left or right?


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Medicated

This relapse is pending
So go on and judge me
Still breaking and mending
Who you'd never want to be

Once happy, now sad
But it goes back again
Happy's the fad
Among judgmental men

This roller coaster
Of thoughts in my mind
All of you critics
Will be happy to find

Too many times jaded
The happy times faded
I'll go on and say it
I am medicated


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Sometimes I Feel... ...

Sometimes i feel happy 
happy that i met you 
happy your my friend 

But happy doesnt always last 

Sometimes i feel sad 
sad you didnt listen 
sad you said i wasnt your friend 

But sad always changes 

Sometimes i feel agry 
angry because you didnt give me a chance 
angry because you lied about me 

But anger can change to hate 

Sometimes i fell i hate you 
because youe lie about me and slag me off 
sometimes i feel i hate you because you ALWAYS ruin my life


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Father's Day

This day is made for those who have someone to celebrate,
I am not one of those people,
Today means a lot to dads everywhere,
Too bad I don't have one to share it with,
Every year at this time I just think and imagine,
I think about the many things I would do with my dad on this day,
I imagine what I would give him and how happy he would be,
When I see everyone with their dads it makes me sad,
It makes me feel like crying,
I ask God why is it that I don't get to celebrate this day,
How come I can't share it with my dad,
I know I am not the only one who can't, 
I know lots of other people don't have dads,
I just wish one time I can celebrate this day,
Instead of always watching others on the sidelines,
I have always felt I was missing something,
Now I know every time this day passses,
I sit at home and pretend this day doesn't exist,
I make it seem like som other day,
But when I see those people buy presents for their dads,
It makes me wonder how come I don't have that,
I get angry and mad at the man who I call dad,
Because him not being here makes me cry,
I hope that one day I can tell my dad,
I Love You and Happy Father's Day,
If that day was to come soon,
It would be the best thing to ever happen to me


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GREEN GRASS

as i sit here in the deps of
the green grass
trying so hard not to laugh
i find my happy days there
some sad ,theres nothing but a tear

this green grass has so
many secrets that i ve told so many time before
i cant just tell my feeling ,so i let them all go
i think to myself maybe somewhere out there theres hope

green grass 
green grass 
here my prayer 
sometimes i sit there
and all i can hear is a whisper 
from the grate down deps of green
grass mystical

green grass as i sit here in the deps of
the green grass
trying so hard not to laugh
i find my happy days there
some sad ,theres nothing but a tear

green grass 
has become my friend
and all that we have
i give my thanks to green grass 
for listing to my tears,my cheers
my dreams,my fears
my hopes

i know  the story was long and slow
but thanks green grass you gave me hope


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A Mistake

Laying beneath the stars and moon
Hoping that you would join me soon
I cried and cried till my body grew weak,
Leaving the tear stains on my cheeks.

I wanted to be happy and know pure joy
I wanted to be able to not have my hurt used as a toy
I wanted to be able to have someone kiss me so soft
I wanted to be able to have time stop

I held myself tight wondering what I would say
When I ran into you the next day
For that kiss made me wonder if my life was really right
Or if I simply fought for nothing visible in the light

I wished I could have changed it and had pushed you away
I wished I could have changed it and had seen ahead that day
I wished I had never cared or thought of what might be
I wished I had never cared of what you thought of me

I shook all over with chills from the cold night air
Wondering to myself if you had ever actually cared
Sobbing hard again as I seen my mistakes
Realizing deep within it was all just fake

I hoped that now you were happy for making me love you
I hoped that now you were happy for making me want my life to be threw
I hoped that now it was easy to sit and see me sad
I hoped that now it was easy to tell I’m not really mad

And even though my heart is broken and I know the wounds will heal
I sit here beside the grave crying, forever missing you still
And as the lightening lit the sky I felt warmth in my pain
I knew that though here that pain was eased it will soon return again


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You

Sometimes I need you beside me,
 someone to be a friend to me.
I need someone to talk to,I need someone
  to love me.
Sometimes I cry at night when I am alone.
You are the only one who makes me feel better.
When I'm around you,you make me happy all the time.
No one makes me as happy as you do.


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PICTURES

Pictures and smiles a families great descise.
Photographs of a normal family an illusion of what it secretly hides.
The family portrait in the hall is one of our biggest lies.
Our grins leave out what our eyes confides.
That day we were playing in the yard.
He got mad and beat me with a crow bar.
The pictures of my parents in Mexico left her scared.
He bashed her head in to the steering wheel of the car.
The pictures of little Travis playing with his new bike.
He was supposed to be happy but it wasn’t right.
Our dad picked up a PCP pipe for his strike.
When it comes to you father how are you suppose to fight.
It’s amazing what you don’t see in pictures.
It’s amazing how the truth is so easy to ignore.
People can be so blinded by wall fixtures.
It brings new meaning to what pictures are for.
The pictures of our happy family at the beach
Ended when my father was buried 6 feet.
My mother grabbed a knife the only thing in reach.
Now with her in jail my families incomplete.
Pictures hide so many things.
Pain only these pictures bring.


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Love, Then and Now

Tears flow down my cheek
Sadness lies ahead
Why am I so weak?
I live, though my heart is dead

Passive in a corner I wait
To be happy again
depends upon him, his state
My own I've never been

Timid near him I lie
How I got here, who knows
troubled by guy after guy
Wondering if my pain shows

Mustering will, I'm on my own
Lonliness kills me more
Not happy with him, depressed alone
Broken wings cannot soar

Finding strength, and settle in
Embrace who I am to be
Look up towards the sky, I grin
I'm finally free to be me

Love, who needs it, I'll get by
It only hurt anyway
Love it's just a bag of lies
It only leads you astray

Happiness, hooray, My heart it lives
Then enters another guy
A foghorn warning my mind it gives
Don't falter to anothers lies

Falter I did not, kept him at bay
Though he proved to be quite geniune
In such a short time, my heart swept away
My love he did win

Love, yeah I need it
It completes me through and through
When trouble forms I sit
and Thank God, I can count on you

You the one who saved me
From dieing in despair
You the one who loved me
And proved that people care

Thank you for your passion
and your love that has no end
All my pain is finally done
Wiped away by my husband.


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don't know why.

Calm as the ski's on this morning and as lonely as the song the birds sang,
 this was my birthday morning and what a morning to have the blues,
the 37 before never had me filling like I'm the first one in a chain gang,
I know,I know it's my party and I'll mope if I want to I just can't help to fill as I do,

As I close my eyes I know at this moment I should be back home,
Then there's no more sorrow or emptiness and I'll be happy on this day,
as I pour the coffee in silence wishing I could call you on the phone,
towards a cup and lip I wish you were here... yet in silence I stay,

So this is my birthday and this is how I fill,
wanting what I can't have...a talk with my mom and sharing a laugh, 
don't want to smile no need to celebrate I just want to take time to chill,
time to heal and time to recharge I'll do it on her behalf,
  
She never liked to see me down to her I was at my best when I smiled, 
she use to say your only as old as you fill so keep on being you my son,
it's hard to be happy when your moms not around to call you her child,
happy birthday  it just doesn't sound right today maybe tomorrow I'll have fun.


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Pop my bubbles of depression

These are thoughts i cant define.

Thoughts that scare even the depths of my mind.

Shallow days bring no joy.

Im scared to wake up i think too much.

In a time i once was happy filled with laughter i know me.

One day where am i but gone.


My body is in the mirror but who is that soul.

The only feeling i have are the wetness of the tips of my fingers tracing my tears.

I try to block out this person who came in.

But even what once made me happy is no longer my friend.

My friends are the thoughts that echo my head twisted little words wishing i were 
dead.

But in my heart i find whats left a family i love..for that death is not spoken of.

One bubble popped and i see some soul.

Of a person i once knew long ago.

i learn from this i just have to find whats left of me and take it and grow it like a 
vine.

Hard to break apart its path for it knows where it goes and pushes not slacks.

One day i was me the next day who is she.

Where does it hurt i ask its everywhere.

Can it be cured if only i care.

Pills can help says the ads dont want that to change you im scared say dads.

A professional person might do the trick but what if it doesnt and i still fell sick.

I do i pop my bubbles and the bubbles leak outta my skin and outta me.

I look in the mirror and i see someone i know. 

Its the bubbles i popped giving me back  my soul.


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WAR

We were happy as could be
We were so great, we were as one
then something happened and changed all for me
that moment was frightful and gone was the sun.

He came to me a dark night at work
To tell me some news of sadness
knowing that I would cry and jerk.
He kept reassuring me we’d get past this.

Months turned to weeks 
and weeks turned to days
The reality was cold and bleak.
We started parting in our own sort of ways.

The kids and I took him to the airport.
Hugs, kisses, tears of sadness, and crying.
I hollered at him to let us know what fort.
He said, “OK” and waved as he went flying.

A year went on with e-mails and phone calls.
Our daughter went up a grade in school.
Our son had a birthday with bats and baseballs.
Was I one or were we many a fool?

I did not follow through as I had promised.
There we guys in the house and I went to a club.
I came clean and met anger, spit, and ready fist!
I didn’t save any money, and for that, I feel like a flub.

Now we argue all the time.
Constantly crying over our happy past.
When someone ask, I say, “Ah, I’m fine.”
We were so happy... it was a blast!

The kids see him yelling.
They see me crying.
“It’s OK mommy, I’m not telling.”
Come the words from my daughter~sighing

He now can’t stand the sight of my face.
He goes to sleep angry, and wakes up mad.
He walks the house with a slow steady pace.
not knowing our future makes me real sad.

So what am I to do now?
Am I to go on and suffer?
Why should I and how?!
With my insanity, they’ll say, “Grab her and cuff her.”

Now I must make my own decision.
I don’t believe l will  go to hell.
I hope heaven’s real and not a vision.		
I’ll find out, here I go, now...
	 all will be WELL!


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Let me go...

Don't want to be alone anymore 
I want to be happy 
But that''s no acceptable 
I want you to be proud of me 
But that''s hopeless 
If I''m not what you want 
Then let me go 
If I have to stay here 
In this place 
Behind the shadows 
In the darkness 
And cold 
I think I won''t survive 
No! 
I know I won''t survive 
So let me go 
So I can be happy 
So I can smile instead of frown 
So I can sing and dance instead of bleed 
So let me go... 


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Crayons

A small lonely child,  she sits and puts her crayons on the floor  
Separates colours into light and dark, happy and sad she muses 
Packs away all the bright happy crayons 
There's no room in life for such frivolity 
For all she sees is the dark looming 
Her rainbows are all coloured in deep blues and crimson 
There's no sun, no warmth, just a huge dark crescent moon 
Figures in her pictures have no eyes, they don't see her anyway 
She's invisible as if she exists on another plane

A single tear escapes her eye,  rolling silently down a tiny cheek 
She captures it in her hand, even her tears are colourless 
A true reflection of the emptiness within 
Picking up the happy crayons she tosses them away 
With them all her dreams and expectations 
She turns and walks away, no one notices 
Disappearing into the welcoming shadows 
Into that dark familiar place 


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Average Life (Angel of Sadness)

I was born in pain
Therefore I shall die in pain
Give my followers the chance to furnish my veins
Here you go father, take your semen back
Ain’t no question marks for how these demons act
Held in open arms as I regulate trade
As impossible as it seems 
We find ways to segregate in the shade
One cotton blossom short
Of the tools in which we are educated slaves
So tell me
How’s your happy home and your white picket fence
College is further education
I’m still reaching out from a sanctuary scary as home
A reason to care, a simple reason to hold on
This common addiction varies 
When you lead life cold and alone
I see smiles of death across a new dawn
Simply because I can not share feelings 
Life will go on with out me
Thank your savior for your blessings 
Before you realize what you’re about to see
So tell me 
How’s your happy home and your white picket fence
The closer I get to hell, the more it makes sense
How’s your happy home and your white picket fence


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Quietly Disturbed

Quietly disturbed am I, no one knows because I hide.
Underneath my happy face, my mask, so no one is disgraced.
Quietly disturbed is she, there is no real reason to be.
Maybe that’s why she’s so confused, she was not the one hurt or abused.
Quietly disturbed are you, there is nothing you can do.
You try but every time you fail, just sulk along your saddened trail.
Quietly disturbed this girl, trying to live in her own little world.
Making peace with her own things, for what simple happiness it brings.
Quietly disturbed am me, I often question me sanity.
It’s not that bad get over it, in this world me doesn’t fit.
Quietly disturbed am I, no one sees how often I cry.
Underneath my happy face, I wish I wasn’t in this hateful place.


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A Beautiful Lie

She blinks back the pain as she starts her day
Today like so many in the past
She puts on her front for them all to see
And like all old lies it fits comfortably
She practices her smile in the bathroom mirror
Such a happy girl
Yes, such a very happy girl
Everyone one wants to be who she is
She blinks back the pain from her past
Tears dont fall, not from these eyes
Her heart is not made of glass
She wears a smile for all to see
And like all old lies it fits comfortably
She puts on her lipstick in the bathroom mirror
Such a pretty girl
Yes, such a very pretty girl
Her momma would be proud
No one can see the emptiness in her eyes 
No one hears her scream
No one sees who she is inside
No one knows what she can be
She is just me
Just
Me


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Oh how I wish, I wish I was free

I cant deal with this pain that dwells within. I cant sleep. What is it I will never 
understand, why I can't seem to be happy again.

Now time takes its shots at me.
Breaking me down. Oh how i wish, I wish i was free.

Mood ever changing nothing is constant. I worry sometimes that maybe its just 
me. Luck or no luck its the way it goes. I've dealt a hand, I wish i not have been 
dealt.

So now time has broken me down and nothing is real.
Allusion or not it all seems so surreal. Like a book, life has an ending will mine 
have a good one? Or will i Just never be happy again?


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Goodbye

I hate that you have to see me go,
even if your happy about it,
losing somebody is tough,
even if you didn't like them,
or know them,
it's still just sad,
that somebody had to live,
the life that I had,
and now I say goodbye,
words you hoped never to hear,
from somebody about to leave you forever,
I love you,
I hope you know,
I hated l ife,
be happy for me,
bye.


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Kemmick

This pain I feel is unbearable 
I feel as though I am slipping into darkness 
I want you so bad, it is killing me 
This yearning, burning desire that is like fire 
Scorches my soul to blackened ashes 
The need to hold you close 
Over powers the thought of letting you go 
Can you see my torment? 
I try to keep it hidden within 
Yet I feel as though I may be failing 
Do you feel as I do? 
No, I do not believe that you do 
There is so much life flowing within you 
Yet beyond the happy smile, jokes, and laughs 
I sense sadness within you that you cannot let pass 
I sit here and imagine us happy together 
But then reality kicks in and I imagine you with another 
I wish that could be me you hold in your embrace 
I yearn to feel the warmth that you can provide 
Alas, not all wishes come true 
So I will shut my eyes and dream of you 
If only things were different 
Then maybe you and I could be 
But I will pretend nothing is wrong 
And be the friend you want and need 


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As Happy As U Are (angel of sadness)

Smiles will carry you so far
But no worries, I’m only as happy as you are
Before I address these wounds
Let us discuss my future
And why I am blessed with doom
I’m over these tree tops
Yet I’m stuck beneath these clouds
Cursed for every time
You shout your beliefs aloud
Misery is peace
Therefore depression is here to see me
Smiles will carry you only so far
No worries, I’m only as happy as you are
28 days of February a love spell
28 days later, the end, seems above fell
Something about the scenes of a disaster
That puts a smile on my face
Your agony is only as lovely
As a child in my place
As if time should randomly select my enemies
Just past this line
Your phantom will detect a tender me
For my elite meets no defeat
Another face masked in glory
Another victim
Whose hunger won’t outlast his story
Smiles will carry you so far
But no worry’s, I’m only as happy as you are


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i should be over you

i am trying to understand your reasons im trying to figure out why
i keep telling myself i need to move on and get over you somehow
but thats impossible to do when you have something that is mine
i need it back so i can peice my life back as much as possible
dont think i will be whole again, what did i not do for you?
i cleaned your house i cooked your meals did your laundry and held a job too
i thought life was pretty good for you, you went to work and came home 
i never asked for anything but love from you.
that you never gave me even though you told me you loved me a time or two
but they were only words you felt nothing for me at all
10 years i was a wife a mother a maid and a punching bad for you 
i dont understand what is wrong with me why i cant get over you
you broke my heart into many pieces i can never love again
you cheated on me with every girl that came along one after the other
my feeling didnt matter to you ever at all
i took it when you hit me i did my best to protect the kids i should be happy you 
left me instead of crying and being depressed i should be thanking you for 
walking out on us but my love for you i cant forget
i cant help but hate you im angery and pist off too but through all those
emotions i cant believe i still love you
the thought of living forever without you by myside o i dont want to go on id rather 
be dead
ive done everything but end my life and still my love for you i cant forget
after all you put me through all the times you bruised and broke my body
and the creul stuff you said, after the way you treated our babies and the time you
blacked our daughters eye i should be thanking god not asking you why.
one day it will be over and judgment will come tell what will you tell your creator 
tell me your reason why? are you that heartless and cold?
i have to get my self together i need to forget the past
i should be happy you are not able to hurt me you can no longer kick my ass


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Thank you for loving me


Life has really changed now as I have you with me
But darling I just want you to be free
I don’t want you to get hurt OH my Dear friend
Happy we may be now but there will be pain, sorrow
And tears in the end

I appreciate of what you feel for me I’m really glad
For I want you to forget about me I don’t want you to be sad
It would be a sad scene you being sad and for me to see
How come I’ll be happy then seeing the one who is always there to love me?

There’s nothing else than love you can give me 
Another thing you can do to make me happy is leave me
You have a whole world in front of you for you to see
All I can say is thank you for loving me 




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memories

Memories:so sweet and innocent.
Memories:so kind and generous.
Memories:so happy and joyous.
Memories:so thoughtful and loving.
That is only half of it.
The half that we want to remember.
But the truth is there is a whole other half.
A somewhat demon half.
Memories:so painful and abrupt.
Memories:so hateful and sad.
Memories:so dissapointing and unworthy.
Memories:so taunting, true, and unrealistic.
Fact:every happy memory brings a sad one after it.
Sure you remember how fun and peaceful it was.
But when you least expect it a sad on hits you and you cry.
Just when you got think you got rid of a sad memory.
It comes knocking at your door front door again.
Memories:you want to keep but they dissapear.
Memories:you wish to get rid of but they won't go.
Memories:both good and bad.
Memories:just can't seem to make up their minds.


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09/02/06

What is happening to me?
I was doing so good
It’d been a couple of months
since I was last in this mood
Now I’m stuck in this prison
guarded by memories
sent here to torture me
I have no happy place to go
There’s a pressure building up inside
God how hard it is to hide
I’m clawing at my face
and I have no happy place to go
I’m stuck in this rapid regression
into a slow growing depression
but “why?” is the real question
Friends are too hard to find
I have nobody to call mine
Self-esteem is just a dream to me
I have no faith in myself
There are ever-present doubts in my mind
I am so bored
I am so tired of being alone 
I question my sanity
Maybe I really do need happy pills?
If they can make these things inside disappear
what’s there to fear? 
My arms should be open wide
I’m not living,
just merely existing
Stuck on a merry-go-round 
of profound depression


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"Happy-happy songs"

happy-happy happy happy 
to see you today 
don't worry I always 
look this way 
with my finger up nose
here I've found gold 
look want to see
it so glittery 
this is my
happy-happy song
what get back 
I don't like that 
hey-hey you
I talken to you
get away 
oh-were was I 
today -YES 
my happy song
can't we just ...
hey- 
I told you not today 
get your own a shoe
It just for me 
it just not 
for you
it my 
happy-happy  song
It me 
I'm not crazy
I'm not gone 
Its happy-happy song
so you want a smell 
look for yourself
bugs-bugs all over me
bugs-bugs there always
free 
look in my hair 
take a peak 
you sing - i sing
happy-happy song 
we all sing 
can't we all 
just learn to be happy
with new !
happy-happy songs
are you happy
now !
I happy
your happy 
here move 
see
happy-happy...


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Happy Face

Put on the happy face for everybody else’s sake
Make them think you’re a-okay
Make them think that everything’s fine
that you’re as happy as you’ve ever been
But deep inside is where you hide everything you really feel
Let it all simmer for awhile hoping it doesn’t boil
Just keep it all with you so they don’t have to worry
Let it all slowly eat away at every fiber of you being
while everybody thinks you’re so happy that you could sing
Just keep it all where it belongs
deep inside yourself
Don’t burden others with your troubles
Why kill their good moods?
Just put on your happy face	
so that nothing seems out of place


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Depression (2005)

On a sunny day it feels dark and cold
Having mighty huge arms
But nothing to hold
No one understands and labels you 'mad'
One minute your happy 
And the next minute your sad
Be happy everyone keeps saying
Easier said then done 
You try but the demon keeps on outweighing
You can fall and be in total despair
Everything is grey and has no connection
You reach for help and it seems as no one cares
Its can happen to me and can happen to you
Mental health is just as important as physical health
Its just like catching a cold or flu


Be open minded and try to understand

poemsbyrb@hotmail.com


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What I've Learned

I've learned a lot these past few years
Through my fake smiles and unseen tears
That friends sometimes aren't forever
that true love doesn't always last
And happy memories stay with you
but those happy moments go by fast

Words can cut deeper than any sword
Leaving you with something
That no man could replace or ever afford
Sometimes things happen,
Sometimes your heart will break
Though to feel real happiness this is what's at stake
In order to have the comfort of death
and your story to live to tell
You must also experience the hate-filled life of hell

Remember . . . There will always be someone there
Someone that honestly does care
A person can leave your life
Leave you alone with your worries and strife
But like pain, the love you once felt cannot from your body depart
but only may enter your heart

Don't worry someday it will all get better
Your mornings will grow joyful with someone to love
And you'll have the kind of life you thought you could only dream of

I've been there before with my head in my hands
Believing there's no way anyone could ever understand
But they do . . . trying everything they can to help you
Still you sit there unknowing and blind
To what soon you'll be glad to find.


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Must Go On

I met a man a few months back.
Cared for each other more than life itself.
Spent every waking moment together.
Inseparable.

Physically attracted to each other,
Mentally connected as one.

Finished each other sentences.
Knew what the other was thinking before a word was said.

Understood each other,
Had so much in common.

Could talk for hours on end about anything from life itself to fictional characters,
Taught each other lessons in life,
Explained the unknown subjects.

Were said to be perfect together,
We had good karma.

Could feel each other’s mood by just hearing the word ‘hello’.
Felt each other’s emotions.
One was sad so was the other.
One was happy and the feeling was mutual.

Shared many new experiences
Combined one’s was already had.

Told each other about our past and our future goals in life.
They always included the other.

He was taken from me.
We knew it was going to happen.
Tried to block out the inevitable,
But it was impossible.

I sit and watch him leading a life he doesn’t want.
Hurts to see him in a place he wishes not be.
Hurts to know he truly is not content.

He pretends he’s happy to hide his feelings,
I can see through the very thin act.

I cannot see him nor touch his soft skin.
All I can do is speak to him, 
On very few occasions.

He speaks to me and he tries to encourage me.
He gives me words of wisdom.
Tells me how good I can be.
Explains how I have such potential,
Can do anything I please.
Tells me he knew I was the one.

We both have made mistakes in life,
Neither can change that.
We both have to live with them for the rest of our time,
His more visible than mine.

I know he is a good person.
Loving, caring, funny sweet and straightforward.
Is the best person I’ve ever met,
The most caring person I’ve ever known.

I wake up each day praying he’ll be there. 
Go to sleep at night hoping to meet him in my dreams.

I know I must move on with my life.
Get to the goals we once had, 
Alone.
I get scared, worried I cant to it,
But deep deep down, 
I know I'm capable.

I may not be able to feel his touch
Or smell his sweet smell
But I do know, he’ll always be there for me
And if I need anything, I can call.

Its time I start reaching for the stars,
Accomplish what we always wanted.

There may be some pieces missing from the set, 
But the show must go on.



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The Fool

I thought she loved me
Was I too blind to see?
How could I kid myself, love...
It was never meant for me

I grew up fallen down
With no one for miles around
To come and pick me up
Or raise a smile on this frown

Then I met her, the love of my life
And she agreed to be my wife
But the happy times we shared
Wouldn't stay in my life

She picked me up
And filled my empty cup
I finally felt joy
And my heart was lifted up

We were happy together
And always told one another
How much true love
We had for each other

But then, the clouds darken the sky
The happiness leaves... but why?
Then she left me there, alone
The love disappeared in the night

So, after I was lifted so
Taking away my sorrow
I fell again, as I watched her leave
And my heart sank into woe

I lay there now
With no one around
To come and pick me up
The smile returns to a frown

I'm alone again, now I see
Love will never find me
I actually thought it had
But for I, it was never meant to be

I will remain fallen with bruised knees
Never again to rise or be free
I will not make that mistake again
No one can ever love me

I will live this life as I am
Empty and lonely, as I already have
But still, I wish for one thing
Only to have love sprout from this stem

But I know it shall remain infertile
With no strong feelings or will
A sad, empty plant
A beautiful oak that has fallen ill

But even when emptiness resides
I can't help but think of those times
The love I had for one
Which has forever been denied


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When best friends turn around! (1994)

They made me feel so low,
They hated me and wanted me to go.

They said things that were so immature,
These sad words made me so sore.

They were laughing at me,
 And teasing me behind my back,
It hurt so bad,
But they couldn't see.

The worst they said was ''are you going to cry''?
What was I supposed to do, laugh!
Inside I wanted to die.

I asked them ''has anybody done this to you''?
They answered with a ''yes'',
How can anybody make someone else's life a mess?

I went home and my tears couldn't hold much longer,
I wanted to stop,
I wanted to be stronger.

We were all a happy five,
Now they are a happy four,
When I thought of the number,
I couldn't take it much more.

I can't describe the hurt,
Its so strong it pushes you right down,
Into the dirt,
It’s a lonely lane when best friends turn around.