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Spider songs

Blades of grass, wet under foot, insect eyes  
Dusk, offset by the cricket orchestra 
Muted and receding into the trees and bushes,
Tickled by the wind, rattling snake tail wind 
While we may be in the company of wolves,
A long legged friend is late for the party 

Eyes, little iridescent stars 
Attending to each one, and look there, 
There she is, making the most beautiful geometry 
Parallels within the octagons, pulling silks
An arm for every task, little perpetual motion machine

Is that the Queen of the Night under the rusted iron? 
A forlorn lady, black patent leather, kill a man, maybe two 
With her danger red symmetry, oozing with youth 
And a penchant for paralysis, no one can resist her wine

Then there's the hall of cob webs, threadbare handkerchiefs
Left by ladies who exhausted all of their company 
To be a spectacle under the moon, in the wood pile 
Dressed up in the finest furs, all earth tones 
Stepping out to introduce themselves in girlish droves 

Venus of another sort, these little cursed jezebels 
Hovering on the skin of the water, or on the red brick wall 
Must frequent every happy corner, and slip away at a moment's notice
A real lady always knows when to say goodnight
Such graceful exits through cement cracks
Back to the parlor, to glow in the dark 
And they become spiders again 




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She Hulk

When I was a child I only ever wanted to be strong.
I wanted to be able to compete with the boys
and when I foot raced them at recess I won every time.
They called me ‘She Hulk’ because of my muscular frame
and from the way I only ever wore soccer t-shirts and sweat pants.
After that nickname was implanted into my brain like a growing weed,
I’ve only ever wanted to be feminine.
I started wearing skirts and dresses 
and in middle school they shrieked at the site of my makeup and done up hair.
But that weed inside of my mind only grew, and grew, and grew
until I became a mixed drink cocktail
with one part anorexic and two parts lonely,
because I thought that the definition of feminine began with the word frail.
No one ever realizes how greatly words affect us,
how a simple nickname can turn a pretty girl into a skeleton.
I stood at five foot two weighing seventy nine pounds,
so cold and frozen,
yet I still considered myself a ‘She Hulk.’
You could see my ribcage through my t-shirt
and my spinal cord protruded loudly through my weathered skin,
as if somehow my bones were dirty knives
just trying to cut through the flesh of judgment.
As I grew older I became the girl that was never enough.
Not good enough to speak poetry.
Not good enough to lay paint on a canvas.
Not good enough.
Not tall enough.
Not big enough boobs for them.
Not primped to perfection.
Not undeniably straight.
Not smart enough.
Not dumb enough.
Not ditsy enough.
Not cool enough or fun enough.
And I began to believe, too, that I wasn’t enough.
I never told my mother that I had been in madly in love with a girl.
I never told anyone about the night we first kissed 
because I was too vulnerable for the judgment.
And parents always justify saying that ‘kids will be kids’
But when we are kids our brains are still growing
and the smallest of seeds that get planted will one day bloom
into one giant regret,
will one day affect the choices that we make,
will one day influence us about the clothes that we wear,
will one day shape us into the person who we thought we would never be.
I only ever wanted to be strong,
and as a child I thought strength was only about being able
to lift a bar stool above your head.
I thought that strength was only about being able
to beat the boys in bare foot running races.
I was told that strength was something only
a man could have.
But as I’ve grown older I’ve realized that strength
isn’t about muscle at all,
but it’s about weakness,
and the ability to overcome the social anxiousness.
It’s about carrying around a lifetime of baggage
on your broken back
because the ones that kicked you when you were down
are going to be the ones that were  ultimately wrong.
I thought that the definition of woman 
began with the word disappointment.
And I became a mixed drink cocktail
with one part freedom
and two parts Sailor Jerry
because every girl needs a stiff drink once and awhile.
We are not disappointments.
We will never be the ones who gave up on hope.
We will never be the ones who gave up on each other,
or god,
or our mothers.
We will always be enough;
enough for the ones who shunned us 
enough for the ones that cursed us
enough for the ones the hurt us
and destroyed us
and beat us when we were covered in bruises.
But you see, bruises fade
and the scars of our flesh are only stories
things we have overcame
and there are things out there that we will overcome.
When I was a child, I only ever wanted to be strong.
I hid my vulnerability.
I hid the parts of me that were true.
I never told my mother about my girlfriend
because I was afraid she wouldn’t understand,
kind of like all those people who never understood 
just how much words effect us. 
I can’t say that I can beat the boys at foot races anymore,
because, well, I smoke cigarettes now.
And I can’t say that the nickname of my childhood didn’t affect me.
But I take that name now and embrace it.
Because I am strong.
I am the ‘she hulk’.
I am a mixed drink cocktail
with three parts greatful.


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Words

              Words

 I don't have nothing really to post right now
 However, I will read your poems first, 
 In hopes inspiration follows and falls into place

Please do not think I'm here to drop a bomb 
It's just a fair warning on how, I'm here
"To Rock Your World"
Allow me kindly to introduce myself, 
I'm as Sweet as they come 
I'm not the enemy, but a poet friend
In time you will see, and hunger my name

 I'm not new to any poetry world
 In time you will notice I am not your average girl

I will play fair, If you do
I'll be true to you, if you are true 
I'm not here to judge what I can't see
However, I will reply and enjoy the imagery

 This Destroyer is not like a lawyer
 However, mess with me or my sis 
 I'll chew you out like the D.E.A.
 I'll mess with your mind 
 A brain storm cleaning you from bottom to top

I am the POET DESTROYER
Admiring those who love the world of wordplay
Today, I will end my WORDS
With the quote I've always wanted to say
   "I am no poet!"

by;pd


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The Canvas

She painted her emotions with a dark brush
My heart sunk into her canvas
Transported to an endless sadness
She greets me there with a smile
Her light not visable from the other side

"Come" she says
"There are many rooms to explore"
She skips along yesterday's corridors
I follow in tentative foot falls
She looks back, "Here it is, this is where we'll begin."
Through the door we go in

In an instant she disappears
I wondered was she ever here
Then a silent voice whispers in my ear
"Watch and listen, all will unfold"
I watch in silence, my heart feels cold

A mother in a hospital bed
Two baby girls
One of them dead
Tears of joy now sad instead
She whispers "do you see?? Happy Birthday, little me." 

I hear her giggle in another room
So I walk through another door,
a toddler alone on the floor
Mom sitting, at a table with a drink
Little girl starts crying
Mom doesn't even blink

The scene changes 
A parade of men
Mom needs her lovers
Over and over again

In the night
When mom's asleep
Into the girls room, the demons creep
On the bed, there she lays
She leaves her mind
While the bad man plays

I scream
I want him to stop
Her so helpless
Him there on top
The whisper returns "There is nothing to do,
I want you to know the source of my blue."

I say "please I can take no more"
With that she says "there is just one more door."
She is back, she takes my hand
I walk through a door to her promised land

The darkness, is all stripped away
She is young once more, it's bright as day
She turns and smiles, " I'm okay,
long ago I learned to pray."
I said "I do not understand, 
how could he let that happen to you?
Is he not to blame for your world of blue?"
She looks again with knowing smile
"You will understand in a while.
One day all anwers he will reveal, 
best understood when you learn to kneel.

From her canvas 
My mind wishes release
Flowing into my heart, an ancient peace
On humbled footsteps, my journey within
A world of shadows, paper thin
I see beyond sadness
I search within 

This dark picture, 
brushed stroked on my mind
Her life touched by sin, 
Is now redefined
No longer is she broken
I watch her light grow
She says "I'm okay,
it's time for you to go."

For Kelly Deschler's Ghost stories contest.


















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Shawty Got Swag

$hawty Got $wag
Shawty got swag, Shawty mad dope. Face all cheesin’, She real turned up. Goin’ to da club, She steppin' wit her peeps, Lookin’ so ratchet, She’s straight up hoochie.
No racks in her pocket, No stacks in her wallet, But she all into bubbly Slurpin’ and burpin’. Lookin for a big baller, Who’ll give her wat she wants, Wildin’ on the dance floor, Tweakin’ an’ freakin’, Shawty actin' so cra cra! She just like da rest a dem, But Shawty real fly, Sure likes a lotta ice, Bling bling, and Benjamins.
Shawty creepin’ to hook up Coz she needs a boo wit finesse, Who’ll give her Yves St. Laurent, 5-star hotels, and 5-star restaurants. Shawty off the chain, Shawty off the hook, She got game and she’s aight! Shawty da bomb - fuh real!!!
Entered in contest “Ebonics – Let’s Do Some Slang" sponsored by Verlena S. Walker (8-18-2014). Some Terms and Definitions: shawty – a young attractive female; dope – cool, nice, awesome; swag – style; turn up – excited; mad – really a lot; peeps – friends, close pals; baller – a thug that made it in the big time; racks/stacks– lots of money; aight – alright; wildin’– to go crazy, acting out of control; cra cra – crazy; tweakin’/freakin’ – dancing provocatively and moving around out of control; cheesin’ – smiling; finesse – man who has swag and can spend a huge amount of money; ratchet – ghetto diva; creepin’ – sneaking about; bubbly – champagne; bling bling – expensive flashy jewelry; Benjamins – hundred dollar bills; boo – one’s lover; da bomb – the best of the best; game – skills; ice – expensive flashy jewelry usually diamonds or jewelry with diamonds; off the chain/off the hook – excellent, fantastic, awesome; fly – cool, in style; hook up – getting together with someone romantically; hoochie – a female who dresses trashy; straight up – absolutely, really.


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The Definition of Perfect

Her laugh is so melodious, a siren song, crashing ships and stealing hearts. 
She's stolen my heart.
Yet you can't steal something that's already yours.
Her body is a mystery, one for the history books.
Her lips, so pink and kissable, taunt me like a schoolboy.
She is a goddess,
a true Aphrodite, 
a creature of immense and unexplainable beauty.
Yet beautiful is an insult. 
She is not beautiful.
She is a work of art, a true Picasso.  
In her eyes, I see infinity.
I see stars.
I see the Devil himself.
What I do not see, is her.
She wears a mask.
She hides herself from others like a frightened puppy in a thunderstorm.
And yet, she could not be any more perfect.
Perfect.
You look up the word perfect in the dictionary, and you will see her face.
Perfect. 
Perfect dark brown curls, curls darker than my soul.
Perfect.
Perfect smile, a smile so killer it deserves twenty-five to life in the local prison.
Perfect.
When I see her, I'm a deer caught in headlights.
I'm frozen, turned to ice, turned to stone.
Her beauty could stun Medusa. 
When she smiles at me, I see Heaven.
I talk with God like he's an old friend.
And when she says my name, I melt like the wicked witch, 
and fall deeper...and deeper...and deeper...


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A Girl

As light leaves us,
the truth is unveiled.
A girl lies with sorrows unscaled.
To wither and die, 
without hope on her side.
She can no longer see a light,
to guide her through those forsaken nights.
She waits for a sign,
that all will come in line.
She is in pain,
with no one to help, all efforts sought in vain.
When will the girl see,
there are others like she.
Others share her pain, 
others like me.
Her light once pierced through the shadows,
it was a beacon through the night.
Now it is only a dying flame,
leaving the world to darkness,
cowering in shame.
A girl lies dying in her pain.


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A WISH

"I Wish"

I wish I could blow air into your little lungs, 
The day my daughter brought your stillborn body into this world. 
Hold your little body warm, 
And tell my little girl you have her cute little nose....
Count your little fingers, and kiss your little toes....

I wish, 
I could look into your daring eyes, 
Facing a little boy, who's ready for this world
I wish,
I could tell my daughter you have her beautiful brown eyes...
Sadly, it’s not like that.
How can I tell my daughter everything will be all right?
When a piece of my heart was stolen with her's,
When giving birth to her son, my grandson 
March 25, 2013---- How it Hurts! 
~~~
O’ how I wish, you entered this world crying
Instead, we're the ones left in tears of sorrow
~~~
How I wish you could be, 
And not this feeling you left inside
How I wish, God could explain why o' why o' why?
I wish I could find the reasons now, and not wait until I die.

Mostly, I WISH Mommy could fix this.

Bael Lesley G.
Born March 25, 2013 
RIP March 25, 2013

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by;PD  :-(


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Lesbian Love

Heated these shores, whereupon passion bears her grip...
A lady in love with another woman, and how can she deny this
Stirring deep inside racing through her veins the rapture, of her heart.


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Cotton Candy Caresses

Summer's surf rising from ivory tides be her light...
Reflecting from an hourglass these prisms she sways
Breaking waves their eyes conversations ladies they gaze.


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Sixty-Nine Reasons

I spread her wanting derriere as making love unto she.. 
Perfect sweetness; cumming, and all I could do was enjoy while 
My heart raced to catch her haloes breath; sucking, her beautiful breast.


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My Soul, is Freedom's Journey

Blowing through a vast crevasse –
from whirling tempest; 
to calming balm on wounded skin;
to constant howl;
to sunlit kiss, onto warm lips –

I am a promise, 
to the girl who waits,     
within the cave, where no light shines;
where sucking blackness and decay
consumes and claws across
the barren expanse that is –

My inner child’s mind.

Little Kristin, girl of 7 
(when time stopped)
suspended upon a bony pillar, sits,
engulfed by craggy mountain walls –

The cave of sorrows.

A black pit surrounds the tower, 
held hostage by those who would keep her silent;
(protecting the illusion at all costs)
she waits,
bound, 
and as silent as the fear that creeps up 
the lone pillar,
(coming for the light in her eyes)
killing slowly, methodically,
attacking light –
the light that creeps through cracks;
breaks through holes;
breathes life into darkness –

(minions of death vying to stay her shine).

Her holly-hobby night gown 
(full of broken dreams)
tattered and torn, 
crowns her dirty little feet.
A grayed white gag, beneath soiled cheeks –
(like apples, they used to say)
blackened by yesterday,
save for the dappled light that shines,
from green eyes –
just a glimpse…
       then gone.

A tiny flame flickers, within small hands –
(holding what was stolen)
keeping the beasts at bay...
(lighting a Mother’s way)

They say I was everything to the one in the photographs –
The light giver.

Light taken, 
       and given.
Her battery drained, 
(strength offered to the shining moon)
       then gone.

Permanently erased.
Eradicated, liberated (grace or fear?)

Strength was my gift born
from her weakness -
my birthright, and soul’s mantra.

My soul was God’s gift -
my strength,
was her gift –
I am battery doubled.
No more am I dirty black holes 
hiding in shadow,

For I am wind…

I am nowhere, 
        And everywhere.
I am past, present and future.
My soul is freedom blowing through the cracks 
left by the black maker (innocence taker);        
     
into my darkest depths;
holding the little girl (lost, no more) –

kissing her face;
drying her tears;
      leaving the cave -
carrying my child home.

Together we light 
the ancient halls,
Where I am the light maker now.

Winding my way from heaven to
ground;
kissing the nose’s of my five reasons 
found –

My soul is wind 
       from the heaven’s,
unbound,

and these are the gifts 
that my soul 
resounds.

Amen.


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With you in autumn evening

The sweet songs of birds, We hand in hand across the lawn, Pansies white yellow and violet Tossing their heads in the breeze. Somewhere the sound of falling leaves. The sound of squirrel cracking the walnut. Calm weather warm sun, White fluffy clouds forming different shapes, A passenger flight in the blue sky, Sun born in the horizon and about to fade in the horizon, Both our heartbeats echo inside of chest, Shutting and opening of our lips, Your unkempt hair flying backwards, Yellowish west sky. Heart shaped fig leaf's shadow. If I could stop this world from spinning, I would do so, Just to be with you In this autumn evening.


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Magical Moments

Gazing lovingly upon her velvets
Beautiful heart shaped glass
Searching about the vanity's
Disclosing drawer and a brush 
Gliding it sensually through 
Her cascadings golden hair
Mesmerized as joy fills my eyes
Once more; such beauty her light
Giggling while turning knowingly 
Amid her silkened bareness
Cherries set in firm atop, soft
Voluptuous vanilla breast
Swaying gently fragrants perfect
Hourglass afore that my heart 
Timeless this love's windless 
Chills caressing my spirit 
Left drifting inside these her
Spellbinding, oceans painted eyes. 


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A Beautiful Reverie

Here I lie beside you
My heart goes thump.thump.thump.
My soul dances inside you
Reveling in the texture of your own.
Electric and flowing 
The currents of our love
Glow like neon lights
Illuminating the hope in my eyes.
Though we're not moving
I feel so incredibly alive
Invincible to my past
Untouchable by all who lack
That gentle touch of when 
You lean in and brush my face
Your lips grazing my skin
Softer than a butterfly.
And then you gaze into my eyes
I fall into your depths 
Twirling like the autumn leaves
Melting into your smile 
Your soul reminiscent of summer.
You pull me into your arms 
And for a moment I'm lost 
Breathless and in awe
Staring in the face of pure exquisite love 
And there you are - holding it 
Glowing in the moonlight of my stare.
My heart beats - its drum pounding away
Echoing a song thats lost its words
I touch your cheek and smile
My hands cant stay away
My lips s l o w l y, draw near yours
Hovering, and then - 
Part, a soft warmth against them.
My eye lids pulling shut
Dragging me into a silent heaven
I pull away - and what seemed millennia
Lasted only a moment, a second in time
But this is our love
This is what you do to me
You make me invincible and fragile
Lost forever in a beautiful reverie.


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Once Upon A Time

This is a poem about the future I'd love to have with the boy of my dreams.
None of this has actually happened yet (besides us falling in love with eachother) but it's how I would like it to happen.

Once upon a time, I became the luckiest girl in the world. I fell in love with a gorgeous boy with blue eyes, and he actually loved me back. He was like my prince, he treated me like his princess and would do anything for me. Today, we're united as King and Queen. It's been years, but walking down the aisle I'm still staring at the cutest, most perfect guy I've ever seen. When our lips finally meet after parting to say "I do", it tastes like Heaven.

Once upon a time, I married a gorgeous boy with blue eyes. And today, I saw those perfect blue eyes light up when he first held our little girl in his arms. She's got her Daddy's blue eyes and just a little bit of her Momma's brown hair. She's going to be spoiled and loved more than possible. She'll know we support her no matter what, and she can tell us everything. It will be perfect.

Once upon a time, one set of blue eyes became two, and we were made into a family. Now, that second pair of blue eyes is walking out the door to college, with a suitcase in one hand and a boy's hand in the other. He better love her and treat her just as well as her Daddy does.

Once upon a time, I fell in love with a gorgeous boy with blue eyes. His hair has dulled and grayed but his eyes are the same, and they've seen a lifetime's worth of happiness and love. My baby had babies with the boy she walked out the door with, and I can tell she loves them as much as we loved her. Now it's her time to live.


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Have more respect for yourself

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Lord forgive me she says she is on that sophisticated wine and dine, 
she says her lips are sweet, hips full bliss enough to put your mind at ease. 
Damn girl where did you get those degrees. 
She feigns knowledge, pledges abstinence but lets loose to the first fool she sees
Then pledges again and lets loose and the cycle continuously, continues in a loop of ignorance. 
Strange you are, a woman you are,
so when will you take a stand, and understand your lips and hips... 
momentary satisfactions. The ratings of your visage an illusion which fades over time. 
Rude... me... no, truthful yes, knowledge is a blessing the king you seek is not 
dwelling in the slums in where you hum your tunes
Lord forgive me she says she is on that sophisticated wine and dine, 
she says her lips are sweet, hips full of bliss enough to put your mind at ease. 
I won't beg, I won't cry so the more power to you girl, cause ignorance is truly bliss


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The Beauty Of A Lady

Mesmerized amid enchanted as gazing about her graceful 
Beauty and her bare naked body's, silkened perfection..
Softly caressing her firm full breast she smiles; slowly
Lowering herself to let me taste once more her fragrant
Rose petaled sweetness her, moistened lips; entwined
Joyfully burning inside while gently tracing, her dreams...
My warmth her pressing, thighs; quivering as love's nectars
Begin their journeys pleasing flavours unto, my thirsting tongue.



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WISH UPON THE STARS

There was once a young girl,
Who wish upon the stars,
Looking so bright in the sky,
She dream and soar up high.

Opportunities knock in front of her,
She think, she decide, with a prayer,
Go on, walk alone and prove to everyone,
That no matter what, she will do her plan.

Roads are not as smooth as she goes,
But strong enough to dream and pursue,
Thinking of the wish she promise to herself,
And she asks God to give her more strength.

To be strong to face challenges in life,
And dedicate her wish to God above,
Now success is within her reach,
With her determination not to be rich,
But to help for those who are need.

A girl who once wish upon the stars,
Is now a woman of example and virtues ,
For she is the already the molders of the youth,
Wish granted and she is now contented,
For God is really good if you believe and have faith



9th Place Winner
Pd's "New Poem" Contest

That Young girl was.......me

9th Place Winner
For Nathan's "oOne of your Best" Contest





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A Reason

She's got words on her arms
In the language of a broken heart
And they say
They say I wanna be loved 
But I don't know how 
I wanna dream 
Haven't done it in a while
I wanna smile
Won't somebody give me 
A reason?



Author's note: This is a poem about a close friend of mine. The "words on her arms" are an analogy, for well, cuts. She wouldn't talk to me much at the time, but I saw them and that was all that really needed to be said, since she knew she couldn't fool me. Anyway, that was the inspiration for this.
She is doing much better now, by the way, in case anyone was concerned...


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Dancing set her spirit free



She was a shy girl
Few words spoken from her
When out in the world.
She was unsure of who she was
Living in her shell
Not unlike that of a prison cell.


Refrain

But dancing set her spirit free
Gone was her fear
Whether in class or on stage
Gone was her cage
The beauty inside unfurled
A smart, happy, controlled girl emerged.



Afraid to say something wrong
Afraid to do something wrong
She did not wish to upset anyone
She was not so smart
So her mother said many times
Often cross with her she didn’t know why.


Refrain

But dancing set her spirit free
Gone was her fear
Whether in class or on stage
Gone was her cage
The beauty inside unfurled
A smart, happy, controlled girl emerged.


When she was back in the world
Where shattered had been her trust
The shy, unsure girl returned
She wanted to be liked
She knew there was much to give inside
Few people knew the real person inside.



Refrain

But dancing set her spirit free
Gone was her fear
Whether in class or on stage
Gone was her cage
The beauty inside her unfurled
A smart, happy, controlled girl emerged.


She had a smile that could light up a room
She was  kind and had compassion for others
She knew how to listen to others
Why didn’t she feel free
To express her mind
Why couldn’t she shine?


Refrain

But dancing set her spirit free
Gone was her fear
Whether in class or on stage
Gone was her cage
The beauty inside her unfurled
A smart, happy, controlled girl emerged.


One day she left her home
And made her own
She made many friends
And her work was commended
Others listened to her words
She found she made a difference.


Refrain

Dancing had set her spirit free
Gone was her fear
Whether in class or on stage
Gone was her cage
The beauty inside her unfurled
A smart, happy, controlled girl emerged.

By CarolineCécile
© April 6, 2006.


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In Her Fathers Arms

The evening star glowing in a dust choked sky. A girl stands by a window, with a tear in her eye. She stares at the scene, hardly visible through the grime. She whispers in the wind, “Bring my Dad home this time” She opens the window, and climbs outside, Having a flashlight, in her hand, as her guide. Its glow shows the sides of the street. She’s afraid for what the light will meet Bodies piled everywhere she turns, She wants to go home, and never return. What brought this fate upon her town? All her emotions are stripped and torn down. A frightening sound explodes in her ear. Shadows in the road now appear. She run and hides behind a broken wall Praying to god the rest doesn’t fall. Footsteps coming closer to her She can’t tell who because it’s all a blur She backs away further so not to be seen in light, Quieting her heart pounding from fright. Gun shots and screams fill the air, All these sounds, her ears couldn’t bear. A slight whimper slips from her lips, And over the broken stone she trips. The shadows run closer, showering her heart with fear, She wishes they would just disappear. They pass by her; she fills with delight, She just wants to see her dad tonight. She shines the light, to show her place, And to the shine comes a familiar face. She doesn’t understand who’s to blame Because on the tag shows her father’s name. She holds in her tears and refrains from crying. She falls to the ground where her dad was lying. She lifts his arm and buries her face in his chest. She closes her eyes wanting to forget the rest. The shadows emerge yet she doesn’t see, How close the end for her would be. They look down at her, aim, shoot, and fire. Being with her dad is her only desire. The night had ended causing a little girl harm But she took her last breath, in her father’s arms.


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The Kiss

Creases woven in fabric like May petals
Sunk into heavy mud.
As a child, I’ve always been afraid
Of standing near a cliffs edge.
Wrapped in arms, folded; placed neatly.
Matches in a match box.
Igniting a flame, when pursed lips
Smooth the center of my cheek.
Desperately seeking colors
Falling through the holes of my fingers.
As a child I imagined a kiss being
Sedimentary.
But this- The Kiss -
Blankets me in igneous.
Like falling into lava deems delicate.
Forever graven on my palms
As I melt softly
Into the weak pulsations of your throat
Spiraling down beyond the cliffs teeth
Biting as I curl my toes into soft sand
Like warm rice pudding on my tongue.
Radiating glory through my veins,
Injected with love from a painful needle
Because as a child I was taught
The best of things
Hurt the most.

(Based off of the painting The Kiss by Gustav Klimt)


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Groundswell Girl - Named by JB

Enter a storybook tale
Where I can be 
The heroine you hail
Lucid dreams of soft reflection
A touch heated with lust and desired protection
A breathe a gasp as we succeed 
Join the fairytale with me
Valiant night within dark eyes
the right movement and I make them shine
like moonlight on the steamy hot spring
care to follow for a little dip with me
Trailing like the water at my fingertips
Grasp me around my hips
As close as the breeze on my skin 
Whisper lies as I let you in 
Lips mumbling up my thighs
bare heart exposed to the sky 
fire burning in my veins
Am I a mistress of this lust or simply a slave
Trembling with desire
Take me till we've lost count of the hours
enter this storybook tale
Where I can be the heroine you hail


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The Ice Cream Truck

the ice cream truck

do you remember in fourth grade when it was the end of the school year?
kids running around in class, volunteer parents planning for field day events, teachers grading tests.
a year's worth of crafts and colorful displays filled the walls like wallpaper.
you can hear singing from the kids in room 4b, ms. mcdonald's class.

the weather outside was a balmy 80 on this june day.
text books, paint brushes, and the obligatory pre-chewed bubble gum filled the desk cavity.
the assistant principle announces something inaudible on the speaker system.
and we are fast approaching the anticipated summer break.

summer. that's when spring lovers finally kiss and the butterflies leave their cocoon.
birds singing and the flowers are saturated with their red, blue, and pink hues.
the last day of school is finally here and the children ride the bus for the last time.
vacations. swimming pools. ocean city. the smell of hot dogs, grass and humidity.

jersey summers are hot. really hot where i grew up. you sweat just by looking out the window.

then one day, the familiar sound of circus-like music faintly approaches town.
louder and louder until everyone knows its the ice cream truck turning the street corner.
the famous mr. softee, or good humor truck, or some local self employed bearded man.
whatever it was, ice cream in all kinds, flavors, colors, and shapes was 25 yards and 25 cents away.

the music kept playing as children seemingly sprayed out of their homes in rapid succession.
a gathering soon followed with parents and children standing all against that delicious truck.
chocolate. peanut butter. vanilla. strawberry. cookies and cream. cookie dough.
sandwiches. bowls. cones. smoothies. sundays. sprinkles. nuts. oh so yummy!

i miss that ice cream truck. i miss those days...

...and i miss you just as much.


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The Girl In The Window

The Girl In  The Window

How could anyone ever forget?
Such beautiful paintings
Each hung carefully
Lit with just the right light
People walk by day after day
They look but they are not looking
They see such a memorable picture
A city at its glory
Berlin in the beginning of the Third Reich
A thousand red flags with black broken crosses
People wearing colorful clothes
Each with a smile on their faces
A paradise on planet Earth
They look but they are not looking
They do not see right in front of them
Hiding in a window is a young girl
A girl of no more than nine years old
Such pain and torture can be seen as she reaches for help
There is a tiny six pointed yellow star on her chest
Even sixty five years later no one sees her
No one sees the secret the artist put in his world
Could people be so blind to someone in need?
Did that little girl live?
Was she tortured and killed alone in a prison camp
Her story was never told
But she did more that even the toughest soldier
Her innocent face
The tears flowing down her cheeks
She cried for help for six million people
It was all there to see
If only anyone had taken the time to look


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Vanilla Skies II

Lips kissing moist, wet, lips..
Sugary pink; silk, sliding softly
Gently, amid love's tender thighs
Orgasmic bliss; in moonbeam tides.


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Heartbeat

You can tell the song of the girl too afraid to sing
To the beat of her own drum from miles away
Her song has no life

You can hear the song of the suppressor 
Who makes that girl afraid to sing 
To her own heartbeat 
The suppressor’s song is sung loud 
And with authority 
To cover his own insecurities

You can differentiate between followers and leaders too
 The followers sing an old familiar tune 
Together so their voices blend 
No one can hear individual voices 
There is safety in numbers
 The leader’s song breaks free 
A melody that soars so high 
That others look up to it

Some don’t fall into any set category
 Their songs weave into everyone else’s
 Trying different tunes and octaves 
They belong nowhere and everywhere 
And don’t stay anywhere for long

Others sing their song on a different frequency
 That few can hear and enjoy 
But who’s to say the song is good or bad 
When we don’t take the time
To tune in and truly hear

The songs of man and girl alike 
Flow and peak and weave 
Through melodies and harmony 
That never the earth will leave


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A White Dress

I saw a perfect shade of white
So elegant
That it must have been a figment
So elegant

Thump, Thump, Thump, Thump
Says the heart in my chest
When it sees you

The way it lays on you
Is stellar and sublime like the clouds in the sky
A white dress so perfect
That it blinds me with your radiating fairness
The whiteness of a soul
Is a cool shade of grey compared to your beauty

Tremble, Tremble
My knees are now dancing 
In your presence 

A rare sparkling jewel you are
Gleaming brightly
Like a white sun parting the clouds
Gleaming brightly


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She Was Everything -part 4-

When I awaken, I am in my classroom The math professor is in the middle of a lecture Then . . . there she is The girl I killed The girl I fear Sitting at her desk taking notes What is this? Why am I here? Why has my cruel mind formulated this gut-wrenching lie? Why do I fear myself? My hands shake uncontrollably As I stare at the blank page before me Looking up once or twice at her curly, golden hair I think to myself Why did I just get the urge to kill someone When I have never killed anyone in my life? And why her? The answer is as clear as day: She was everything But why then would I want her gone? —because she was NEVER THERE No matter how close She was never there . . . But she was rightfully mine! And if I couldn’t have her No one would . . . I snap out of it by the sound of her soft voice Calling my name We are the only two in the room now She is not facing me Her back turned as always She invites me to her house Her birthday party I swallow hard Is she kidding me? After ignoring me for all these years She’s inviting me to her party? My mind wants to scream But I answer in one word: Sure. Then, the next thing she does sends shivers down my spine Still not facing me She opens up her hand mirror —the one with the little black heart Her eyeball in the glass Staring me down That mocking look of pity Shattering my sanity She looks at me and says, “Don’t keep me waiting . . .”


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in absolute darkness

Do you know what its like to be 
in absolute darkness?
I do. 
And I want to be back
on a foggy night
where winter doesn't fall too far
the only thing you can see 
is a distant street light
yellow and gold
glowing from the distance
the wet leaves that fell from the trees 
fill the night 
with a dewy smell
darkness. 
I turn the key
bright headlights
flood the road
one line, two lines, 
they all combine
into a white blur keeping me 
from crossing into the abyss
I could drive forever 
alone. 
I want to be gone again
back to my home.


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Phantasia

Fantasizing whileas dreaming about her loveliness
Being a Vampiress coming unto my window by night
Feeling a bit erotic, at the sight of her beauty this morn
Ravens hair deep dark eyes purple shades, with aqua lips..
A candle amid hand answering the door as there she is
Alabaster myrrh black pearls rosebud natal fragrance
Silken flames my neck my breast my thighs her kiss.


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can i be yours to hold?

Why do we live so far apart? 
When we want to be together!
 We barley know each other…… 
…..And we already handed each other our hearts
When my ringtone rings I always hope it’s you
At first I thought you were weird 
Kind of cute now that I sit here and look at pictures
I see that you’re the girl that I have been looking for
So do you think
I could be the one that could hold you
Every single day 
To have you close to me 
Day and night I would take care of you
So girl tell me yes please 
Have me close to you 
Even though we are so far away
All it takes to bring us together is a simple 
Yes!!!!!!!!


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I am dead girl

I will bleed girl I will bleed.
The sharpest glint of silver lies upon my wrist.

You must read girl you must read.
Feel the words that beat the heart within my chest.

I am dead girl I am dead.
The question answered with the softly whispered yes.

I am read girl I am read.
The words contrast upon the page forever dressed.


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Who Though

Who would have thought the girl with the bright smile and joy enflamed in her eyes 
Sits' in the corner crying herself to sleep every night 
Who would have thought the boy walking the halls always giving a hand 
Wishs' that when he sleeps the gentle light may seep him off his feet 
Would would have thought the girl that ended her own life 
Was raped, beaten and bullied at both home and school 
Who would have thought our childrens children 
Have sought to use weapons and let eragancy become them making them a fool 
Who would have thought that no matter how we try for peace 
We show our children war is the answer
Who would have thought that our guidence
Has be clouded and no longer is pure 
Who would have thought teenage life is harder 
When your getting bullied or picked on in school 
Who would have thought that a person couldn't walk out of their house 
With out fear of being raped, shot, or stabed and death is finally at your door 
Who would have thought in life know a day's 
Death is more near to our lives then ever before 
    Who Would Have Thought


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My First Kiss

Today I was thinking
About my first kiss
It’s really hard for me
Because it was so long ago
And to be brutally honest
Drugs 
   Have taken their toll
              On what is left of my memory
It was back in the time
Of building hot rods
                     And cruising Main Street
Which for me was Chester Ave. in Bakersfield, Calif.
I was perhaps 13 
                     Cruising the strip
         With a buddy of mine named Warren
            Though his last name eludes me 
Lost forever in the archives of dust
At 13 I looked 18 which was a good thing
Because the girls we met 
                                 Bordered 18
And I do remember
That I was scared to death
One girl was ok
The other was, “Oh my God”
                                      BEAUTIFUL
And I latched onto her
                   Like a junkyard dog
Does a thief in the middle of the night
And the one girl rode with Warren
               In his car
And I rode with the other
         In her car
And I suggested we drive 
Out to Hart Park
We all sat together
                         Drank some beer
                        Smoked some pot
Then her and I walked 
                     Down by the Kern River
Near the spot where I 
                         Had watched my Mother drown
                              And I told her the story
And there in the moonlight
Lost in the beauty
                        Of her eyes
She ask, “How old are you anyway”
I wanted to say 18 
                       I wanted to lie
But she was so beautiful
                         That all I could say
     Is that I was 13
I expected her to get so mad
But instead
                She asked,
       “Have you ever even kissed a girl”?
The answer was
                    “No”
And as burnt out as my memory is
I will never forget
                     The mischievous look
                                         In those beautiful eyes 
Like a lioness
                About to pounce on her prey
How her lips
                Seemed as soft as a cloud
And her skin
                Was like nothing I had ever touched
And she took me away
                          To a place I had never been
She taught me
                     How to love
                              Far beyond my years
And through all the years
                                Known as the hell of my life
She is the only person
                       I only knew for a minute
                                     That I could never forget


Written for John's Contest.


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Yeah Right

I loved you 
I hate you
 
The picture and Sees candy I gave you for Christmas
Me there you smiled and accepted with gratitude
Me not around, she put her two cents in, 
You got on stage and dissed it

It had been a wonderful night
I pick up the phone
We intended to meet for dinner
Quickly found out you did a shitty job of picking a winner
You tell me your girl doesn't want me in your home
I'm your daughter, your princess, not a bar fly
Jealousy is such a wicked and ugly color
The darkest sound and tone 
Finding out your father has a wobbly backbone

Your girl yelled at me on the phone, 
Accused me of names,
Cast me from her Casa of Eden
You see two cats fighting
For you it's a stroke to the ego, makes you more vein.

Asked you to therapy,
Man...that was deep
Yeah right!  Got no where with you
Felt like one person trying to know down the Berlin wall
What are you a deer in the headlights?
If I can admit wrong so should you
It's not all on me as you would want me to believe is true

Thought this is a challenge in life you gotta play out
One day I opened my eye, 
Staring at the ceiling I realized
I'd gone to buy a card for you, 
All the loving writes
Nothing related to you baby
Something was wrong

You were wrong for treating me bad
I was wrong for accepting
No more..no more
Hit the road dad..and dont you come back no more



 





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One step back, Two steps forward...

Before I start I just want to say that I will always love you Baby..

I am letting you go, so go you are free
Free to learn that you were meant for me,
The pain and misery of our history,
Shall never flee from inside of me,

I deserve better than this,
You know I do,
But all I've ever wanted 
Was what I deserve,
To come from you,

Dating is preparing,
Preparing to give all,
I gave you everything,
A mistake that led to our downfall,

I did it anyway,
Because I want you forever,
But you are my first relationship,
And I didn't know any better,

If only you knew exactly how I feel,
You would not be so upset,
That I need time for my heart to heal,
You've done me wrong so many times,
Which are comparable to murder, 
But as relationship crimes,

I know we both never wanted this,
We sprinted off the start,
Racing towards infinite bliss,
Only to run out of breath,
And slowly move apart,
And lose eachother in innocent mist.

So when you come back,
You will be yourself once more,
Not who you are now,
But that innocent girl from before,

And since you have a tolerance to,
The greatest part of me given to you,
I will be come an even better man,
So when I learn how to give again,
I will be ready to take your hand...






By Janetta's Grandson.
A poem on a downhill relationship of me and my first relationship. I was getting 
treated
badly because I became obsessive after a hard time in my life and she took 
advantage of
it.  So I postponed our future and let her go so she can see what she is doing 
and go back
to the girl she used to be, in the meantime I'm going to focus on getting back on 
my feet
again.


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IF I CAN SO CAN YOU

in the corners of my room i place all my chapters of life

each one consists of a new beginning and an end

living in the streets covering up with newspaper

eating out the garbage wearing someone elses shoes

all were apart of my life

i never thought id be that girl who begged for a quarter

or the girl who snuck onto a strangers porch to sleep

conflicted and confused constantly in a daze

my life was like running through a maze except worse

people were my targets as i tried to scam them all

hey when your living from moment to moment

you run fast until you fall then call for help

but not the police they are the ones who kicked

me off the streets 

i seen alot of people die and witnessed many crimes

a thirteen year old girl sentneced to doing time

never dropped a dime or snitched on anyone

this was my life nothing about it was fun

throughout the years i grew up learning how to get by

made money hustling this and that spent nights getting high

was violated by men three times for sure 

emotional scares for thats there is no cure

lived the fast life with ballers and king pins

committing moral and cardinal sins

my time was running out the feds were on my trail

no way was i gonna cut a devils deal

i had two choices so i picked number one

i begged GOD for forgiveness from HIS only son

the journey was tough so say the least

but in the end i enjoyed a great feast

A NEW LIFE!!!!

now im out and life is good can take me far away

but never from the hood

i closed those chapters in my life straightened myself out

and stopped living trife..

IF GOD GAVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE HE WILL HELP YOU
BUT YOU NEED TO HELP YOURELF!!!! 

GOD IS GREAT HE GAVE ME A REASON TO CHANGE
                       LIFE


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Mirror, Mirror

Mirror, Mirror, 
why are you so cruel, 
Why do you reflect such a figure, 
So sad and insecure. 
Mirror, Mirror, 
what do you need? 
What can I do, 
to make you happy? 
Sweet girl in the mirror, 
who reaches towards me, 
reaches out to touch me, 
but our fingers never meet. 
You smile when I smile, 
But I can see right through, 
I know your pain pretty girl, 
because I feel it too. 
Girl in the mirror, 
what makes you so sad? 
what drives your anger? 
and makes you so mad? 
Sweet girl in the mirror, 
how well you know me, 
I'm sorry that you will never know, 
what its like to be free. 


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Who are they Really?

The girl you see is not all she works out to be 
Got no troubles Dont care Never has a downed moment

The girl your used to seeing has what?
A nice house A Lot of friends but what does this mean 

The Girl you know is not what she seems
sensitive emotional stressed??

The girl that people thinks is like this 
Needs to change

Then people can follow her steps 
become what they need to be 

Themselves.


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You're It

I have recently come to know
A special lady who reminds me of myself.

For sixty plus years ago in school
It seems I did not fit in 
There was the I'm better than you group  
And then there was me.
It was there and then I decided
I'd not worry about the crowd
I was going to what I thought best 
And chose to be myself.

If they wanted to act superior
I'd not stand in their way
If pleasing boys was their goal
I'd not their babies raise.
I'd do my thing and be satisfied
That I did it the best I could
And if they didn't like it
More power to me I said.

In l956 and 7 I took a teaching job
And one little girl so shy and timid
Stood out from the rest.
I tried to instill in them self worth
As well as books of knowledge
For you see I hoped one day
They would go off to college

Forty-eight years later the year 2005
I managed to contact her
So glad she was alive.
When she my letter did reply
I got quite a shock
These are the lines she did write
Mrs. Beer do you remember 
How shy and timid I was
Well, when you left school that year
I never was shy again

This concerned me for I wondered
Was it good or bad
Then a friend told me
Of the wonderful life she had
So maybe I did do al right
And when we chanced to meet
She was a sweet self confident lady
So unlike that little girl I knew

Why did I write this down
The reason you see
Michaela, I have tagged you
You remind me of me.
 
                         Cile Beer


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The girl bohemian



Den of the wild things
floating sheets, layers of waves
that haunt,
playing on the shores.

Dipping into the black night
laced around my skin and my soul.

The darkness of my eyes,
the reckless me.
Touching more than
all the wild things in me.

The moon crystal
naked glow,
and I take the plunge.

(draft 1)


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Behind these eyes

    You see my face and you see my expression but you don't know the real me that i'm 
protecting.
 
     You don't know that behind these eyes that a little girl cries every night, you 
don't know the half so why are you desperately trying to label me with some brand that I 
would never wear.

    If you'd look a little deeper into these pearly browns you know that I am not just a 
cover you have to take time to read the book to really know me. 

     You can't just skim the back or listen to what other people say because yeah I might 
be talked about but unless you dip into the pudding you will never truly know why.

    Maybe if you looked a little deeper you'd see someone trying to keep up in a endless 
race. 

   I keep on moving but it's never any good I guess I underestimate myself or maybe I 
just need someone to give me courage.

     I see the surprised look on your face and all I can do is laugh, I bet you didn't 
think that I had so much depth, I better you never realized. 

      So even if it's not me your interested in, please let me teach you one lesson. You 
can see some much more behind the eyes of a girl than the cloud of makeup hiding her 
face. 

In a girls eyes you can see her insides, her deepest fears, her insecurities. 

Behind these eyes is the magical side, and if you can look into them first then I know 
that your confident and well worth the struggle.


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Another girl


 Your the type that gets attention 
     girls get weak for you 
      and you listen 
      cause you crave females and can't settle down
            So I don't know why I bother
            It just pains me that you tell me another story
                When the truth is so obvious
             You tell me you can be faithful to me 
        Yet every time I come around there's another girl on ya leash
           you tell me that you aint never gonna hurt me
             BUt my heart hurts more and more with your excuses
              I'm tired of being niave 
               I'm tired of waiting
                cause truthfully there will alaways be another girl 
                 There could never be just me and you
                      There will always be some excuse
                        Some situation 
                         Something in the way
                     That should tell me something 
                         It tells me were not meant to be
                            Unless something drastic happens
                          over the next few weeks 
                             at least that's what i'm going to believe


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The Indian Rangoli or Colorful Poetry on floor

Inspired by Deborah Guzzi’s Blog ONAM / INDIA

The Indian Rangoli or
Colorful Poetry on floor


This is the story of the poetry of 
Ancient Indian Women,
Who were less blessed to get,  
The knowledge from the learned Gurus.

They were living before marriage
With their parents, 
And helping their mothers,
In household affairs,

Or looking after their husbands,
And his great families, 
After their marriages, 
In their early tender age.*

Finding no ways to express, 
The feelings of their hearts,
One of them took a chalk in her hand
And made a sketch on the floor like an art,

There was no canvas and no brush,
To fill her great artistic skills with colors,
Emotions were flowing in her mind,
Like a rainbow with alluring colors,

The talented one among them,
Collected flower petals of different colors,
And took many flowers to fill and decorate,
The sketches of Rose, Lotus and others, they had made on the floor.

Gradually she started putting,
Color petals in those lovely designed sketches,
And filled all empty sketch figures she had made there,
She was astonished to see that it came out like real Lotus flower.

The painting of petals on the floor was,
So alluring and enchanting that even its,
Beauty and fame, one day reached the heavens,
And Goddess Lakshmi* was too pleased to hear

That some one has made figures of Lotus,
More beautiful and colorful than her favorite,
Seat of sitting on Lotus, 
And she immediately decided to visit that house,

Where the young girl had made such alluring beauty of colors
Like poetry flowing on the floor, every where before Dewali*
When she visited that neat and clean house,
Decorated with enchanting beauty of Rangoli

She was so happy that she blessed that girl with 
Immense wealth and happiness.
Which always comes with the coming of
Lakshmi or the sign of wealth, every where in the world.

She also said, that day,   while visiting the place of that girl
“Who so ever makes and keeps her house neat and clean
Any where in the world and decorate it with Rangoli
Will get my blessings of happiness and wealth”

Ravindra

Kanpur India   18th Sept. 2010

Clarifications:
The above is the brief story of the origin of Rangoli, which
must have started more than 2000 to 5000 year back. 
Now Indian woman is active in all the fields of education 
&  social uplifting. 
*Although the early age marriages has now been made 
illegal but in some parts this bad tradition still exists. 
* Dewali or Deepawali is the festival of lights, joys & 
happiness, which falls every year around 5thNov. 


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Princesses

Pretty princesses
Dancing all around
Frolicking through fields
Very beautiful
Just like you!


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Sweet Surrender

Slow traces and her wet, warm tongues..
Ecstasies, betwixt my thighs; her crossing
My stomach unto my breast closing, gently
Her eyes all I can think of;`sweet surrender.


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Love, Death, and Rebirth

The signs started in December
When she started waking up in tears each night
She was a normal girl with dark brown hair and darker brown eyes
She had plenty of friends and a loving family with just one thing missing
Her father. 

Days passed by and turned into weeks but only felt like a few seconds
Her life just whizzed by faster and faster until it was just a whirr in front of her eyes
Darkness filtered into her heart and mind until she didn't know if she could go on
But she had to. She couldn't let her mother and her sister drown in this same pain
She wouldn't let them.

She pushed all the darkness into the depths of her own heart
In hopes to save the hearts of the two people she had left
Because what else was there to live for now?
The rest of her world had crashed and her mother and sister was all that was left 
She wouldn't let them drown in pain too. 

She watched as they started to heal in her loving arms
Their hearts started to lighten up once more
But hers was just as dark as it was before 
And growing darker day by day 
But she wouldn't let that stop her. 

Suddenly a year had passed... and then two 
It only seemed like seconds to her but everyone else started moving on
Her mother and sister no longer needed her nurturing care
But she needed someone to hold on to
Anyone...

With nothing left for her to take control of, the dark pushed past her boundries 
It found a way into her soul
Until all she could see was dark and no light 
But her mother and sister were healed now
They didn't understand

The tears came back and engulfed her soul
Bit by bit until she wasn't sure why she was still alive
The grief took over like knives 
Piercing her skin over and over and over
It hurt so much.

She started to wonder what it'd look like to be dead
She could see him again if she was
Wouldn't it be so much easier than having to endure this pain?
Wouldn't it be so much easier than having to live knowing she'd never see him again?
It would.

So she started to hate herself
All that negative energy was starting to take toll
Everyone around her was breathing while she suffocated more and more by the second
She wished she'd just choke already instead of living in constant pain
If no one would put her out of her misery, she'd have to do it herself

She couldn't see any light anymore
So she grabbed the pill bottle off the shelf and just hoped it wouldn't take long to die
Deep down she still had a spark of light, but she just couldn't find it 
And now it was too late in her mind to change, to turn back and try to look deeper
She was done living.

That's when people started to notice that everything wasn't as peaceful as it seemed
They started to see how deeply depressed she had become
They wanted to help her see the light again before it was too late 
So they sent her away to see doctors and to take pills to make everything better
It was a start.

She didn't see a change at first but suddenly she could think clearly
Maybe what they were doing was actually going to help her see the light again
Yes, she still wanted to die, but maybe that wasn't the only option anymore
They cared,  and behind all their own problems they were trying to understand
They really were trying

Six months longer she would be treated and cared for
Until suddenly she was sent home from her treatment and care with a smile on her face
She had a new perspective
Someone had helped her ignite that spark in her heart until it was a glowing ember
She had been reborn

Sometimes you have to be able to experience the worst of it
To come back shining brighter than before
And if she had died that cold day in October, she wouldn't of ever seen the best of it
Or known that it would get better
and it did!

And she now sits at her laptop, with a smile on her face and warmth in her heart
It's never been an easy road and it won't ever be
But at least she knows she's lived through the worst
And it can only get better from here

So whenever she feels lonely or gets back into that dark spot again
She can look back on what she's learned and can read this poem
And remember that she survived the darkest depths of depression
And she will continue to survive it as long as she lives
Because she is stronger now than she ever was before ?


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Who was Lizzie Van Zyl

Who was Lizzie Van Zyl?
A small girl stands on Woodcock Bridge
Pointing at her reflection in the water.
The glint from the sun, and a cold wind,
Distorts a distant memory of gold, and places long forgotten.

For the bridge and the girl are forever linked
The bricks paid for with the blood of babes
The mortar mixed with  innocence and suffering

For this little girl is Lizzie Van Zyl
Once a happy child, taken from her farm
Through tears, saw her house destroyed and  livestock slaughtered
Even her beloved dog.

Taken to sleep on the ground, slowly starved
And left to winters kill.
Her last comfort a pile of rags to die on
Her last words “Mother, Mother, I want to go to my Mother”
Thrown into a pit,
To join a multitude of innocents, in the name of progress

Bloemfontein killed with deliberate neglect,
And the bullet killed her father at Woodcock.
Another victory for empires glory

Lizzie’s crime was her fathers, for he wanted freedom,
Democracy,  and a future for his family 
But Greed and empire gave birth to new words
For here the Concentration Camp came to be,
Propaganda too,
A world kept secret from prying eyes.

But Secrets come out and greed fuels the beast
Bloemfontein gave birth to Auschwitz, Dachau, Treblinka,
Oh and so many more,
Different lands, same outcome
An Oasis for Evil, 
A place where the dark side of humanity can live.

A haunting realisation too,
 That England, has tarnished the code of chivalry,
And brought shame to the flag. 

Little Lizzie still Stands on the bridge
Her reflection is still pointing, not at herself
But at you and me
For it is we who did this, and it is we who will do it again,
So glance at your wedding band
For the glint might just blind you to its past,
And pray that Lizzie does not become your daughter.

Quote from a Journalist
Cowardice of the most loathsome cure on earth - the act of striking at a brave man's heart through his wife's honour and his child's life."

Footnote to the write
This write is about the Boer war and the tactics that the British used to achieve victory
LizzieVan Zyl was seen by Emily Hobhouse just before she died. Her memoirs reveal the conditions that Lizzie was subjected to.

The atrocities committed in South Africa were kept secret from the British public.
 As a result the final victory led to Bridges being named after engagements such as Woodcock and Ladysmith.
England is littered with place names, linked to battles. 
Perhaps place names where you live have a surprising story to tell.




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A Horse in the Meadow



A little rosy girl rested 'neath an apple tree.
Her sleep, sound in the blissful breeze.
Beside her lay on the grass,
Her blue felt hat with a golden ribbon.
Near her grazed her white shaggy horse.
She was a small prissy lady,her name was Snowflakes.
Her foretops flopped over her beautiful face,
Her tail rippled like silk.
Chomped happily on the ripe apples that dropped
Or munched some sweet daisies;  
Violets bloomed throwing a bluish hue,
Across the downy meadow green...
She loved the feel of softness
Of the grass around her feet;
The wind fingering through her locks,
And through the leaves.
She nuzzled the girl on her cheek,
With her soft velvet nose;
Waking her from her dreams.
The girl picked some daisies to flower her hat 
With some primroses to make a posy.
And got on her horse, no bridle-no rein,
Holding on lightly to the horse's flowing mane,
Trotted off into the blue haze of lea.


..

6th place in the contest
For Carol Brown's Contest : "A Horse Story"

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THIS GIRL JUST WANNA HAVE FUN

It's one night away from my most awaited day.
Tomorrow I'll be no longer free and single.
My friends called me to go somewhere else.
Say they prepared something to spice up the moment.

I hurriedly stood  up from my bed.
Choose the best dress to make impress.
Wear a push bra to improve my breast,
And a sexy silhouette to feel comfy underneath.

I rushed to a place and see what they hide,
In a small unit of a bestfriend that is so dark.
I have done a wildest thing in my life.
That will remain a top secret 'til everyone of us die.

It's an "all girls" party night out.
But to a surprised they had for me.
In life-sized cake appeared a machete.
I almost lost in space in the next episode.

The girls were all screaming out loud when he danced.
The sensation gets higher up to the 7th alarm.
The room is gettin' hotter as he moves like  jaguar.

The next thing I remembered is a total darkness.
No screams and loud music, I left alone in the house.
I found my body lying in bed all alone,
My push up bra and undie is missing all along!

I freak out and get crazy to what I'd found.
This is the day I supposed to wear a white gown.
By the sound of the bells and hymn of choirs.
I walk gorgeously in the aisle, with my push up bra inside!



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When we were young

We run when it rains

We lie on the ground

And stare at those stars

You said its 5000 stars up there

And I was eight

And believe you of course

You were nine that time


Two years after that I asked you

I say

"How did you know"

Then you said 

"know what"?

About the stars, 

"I count it", she said

"I dont believe you", I said

Then you say:

"I dont care, you want some ice cream"

Then we both walk towards your place

It was cold that time

And your father was on the terrace

Smoking his half lighted cigarette

And said  hi to him

He said hello

Vanilla that was the ice cream

You manage to stretch your hand

And made a loud sigh when you at last

had a grip on the ice cream

I remember sitting

While watching you preparing

A two scoop of ice cream for me

And just one for you

"We need to be equal" , I said

"Whats the point?", she said

"Nothing, its not fair for you", I said

"It is fair, because Im on a diet

I want to be a model someday.

And you need to eat more

Cause your going to be 

my bodyguard" she said








-comments please mate- TY 


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When Worlds Collide

Lying naked atop her bed, her pure white dove..
A string of black feathers strung, across her breast
Gently her soft fingers, caressing, her flower so fragrant
Eyes of want gazing deeply into my own; her beauty, my love.


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Prayer Poem Dedicated to Malala of Pakistan


Prayer Poem Dedicated to Malala of Pakistan Malala has dedicated her childhood to championing education for girls like her in Pakistan. As she lies in a hospital bed, a tragic victim of Taliban gunmen, let's help make her dream come true. Pakistan's constitution says girls should be educated alongside boys, and the government has the resources to make it happen. But politicians have ignored that for years, influenced by extremist religious groups, and now, only 29% of girls attend secondary school. Study after study has shown the positive impact on personal and national income when girls are educated. Courtesy Avaaz I have Twitted My Photo Poem on 17th Oct 2012 for Malala https://twitter.com/i/#!/kapoor_/media/slideshow?url=pic.twitter.com%2FsRpkWvZI A Prayer to God (Khuda) Let knowledge & education Touch and shape the dreams Of every girl child Of Pakistan. Let the flowers of real Happiness As it blooms, on the charming face of Malala Touch the smiles Of every citizen of Pakistan. Let the light of Khuda (God) Flashes on the minds Of all the citizens of Pakistan Who want to see A prosperous and Happy Pakistan. Let education and knowledge Bloom to spread their fragrance For all the Girl childs Of India and Pakistan. Ravindra Kanpur India 17th Oct 2012 Note: I pray to God to save the life of this precious girl Malala, who was trying to save the lives of hundreds and thousands of girl children of Pakistan from getting lost in the darkness of Illiteracy. Ravindra


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The Summer Of Love

Giggling from the corner of, her bedroom...
Gleam her eyes bare her breast tightly she grips
Sister Maria's rosary, tearing the buttons from her convents
White cotton dress virgins gazing at their beauty; twine reflections..
Sipping rose wine as she turns about to offer, her heart shaped glass.


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An Older Woman

Mesmerized by her beauty as gazing upon her splendours..
Past my bedrooms curtains and through her open window
I knew she knew I was watching having waved unto myself
Moments afore whileas she was slipping from, her clothing
She has always done so since moving next door myself shy
Until today, as ofttimes loving her dews petals; fantasizing
About her perfect beauty and her long flowing auburn hair
Bronzed complextion glistening legs her shapely full breast
Checking my hair my blouse my make up nervous, wanting
Ringing the doorbell my reflections looking within the glass
Joy as surprised when she answers wearing nothing except
A glowing smile and warm, welcoming eyes; inviting me in
Slight hesitation flames rising her breast, brushing my skin
Heart pounding her soft wet kiss; palms caressing her hips
Dreamy, gazing up into her oceans skies imparting, utopia...
My love's kissing, sucking, licking her lips; her creamful bliss.












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Her Castle By The Sea

Euphorias angelic rapture breathing it's raging
Celestials crashing waves in whirlpools of desires
Gliding atop her glistening moonlit beauty; cresting..
Oblivious unto the night and her stars which bathe us
As ecstasies flames; aneath a passioned kiss our flowing
Volcanic tides mingling love's rising betwixt, melting thighs. 
 




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Girl Rising

Based on a true story from a television documentary on Human Trafficking...an international crime with participants from a broad spectrum of society...occuring on a daily basis. I have only seen documentaries on the trafficking of young girls between the ages of 5 and above!! Law enforcers, it seems are fighting a losing battle against the men and women who sell and enslave young girls and I have no doubt, young boys as well.

Somewhere this day on planet earth
A Mother-to-be, while in labor, cries
Not so much for the mounting pain
Nor the fear of possible death
So many fears for the future…
“What lies ahead in the coming years?
What “fate” will meet my child?”
And added to all her heightened fears is…
Will she be there to protect her child?

Those dark years have now passed into decades
When Tanya walked the shadowy streets of the city at late night 
While kids her age slept peacefully in their beds
They made her dress up so she’d looked twenty one
Days were spent locked in a room, under watchful eyes
She was fed cheap fast food to her young heart’s content
Soon she'd lose all hope of liberation
This was the second man she had been sold to
And after a while she’d adapt to the situation 

Still fresh in her mind was that last day at school
In her backpack was her favorite teddy bear
Her Mother had chosen to believe her step-father again
Now that her twelfth birthday would be in a month 
As no one cared, she decided to run away
While at the bus station she met this “nice” couple
Who listened to every word she spoke
They promised her a ride to any place she wished
And she’d always wanted to see Disney land

“Maybe, she thought, it’d be a birthday treat”
 However, that would be another promise broken 
Weeks dragged on and they bought her “stuff” 
Although treated well, sometimes she still felt alone
Then one day came the grown up clothes and make up
That night her innocence was stolen once more
Later she’d try to make an escape
Only to be caught and tied to the bed post
‘Make it easy on yourself and accept your “fate”, she was told

That was years ago, although it seems like yesterday,
When arrested by a new officer on the vice squad
Who saw the flaw in the picture before him
The pimp gave no reasonable answer to the simple question
‘Why are you parked late at night on the street corner with a minor?’
 
Looking back over the years, she came to conclude that “Fate” is just another word, made up to cast aside blame; when we do not want to see the path we’ve chosen which has led us to our present state
When Pilate symbolically washed his hands, though he had power in that moment to act..
When there before him stood truth and innocence, 
Yet, he chose to make a comfortable bed for his conscience

Today, Tanya is a college graduate and a Mother who has vowed not to leave anything to “fate”. She’d teach her children to take responsibility for the choices they make… 
She would teach them that no one is of lesser value than another..
 Male or female; black or white, all hues; rich or poor 
All have a God given right to live free!
~*~
8/03/13
For:  Richard's "Girl Rising" Contest

(3rd Place Win)


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A tall tragic tale-w

On the day before Christmas 1997 I was in a supermarket
Saw many people,I thought it’ll take long time to buy gifts
Christmas  getting more and more annoying every year,
Cursed and wondered if kids really play with  costly toys.

Noticed a small boy pressing doll against chest, touching hair
Looking sad,asking granny if she has enough to buy the doll
She asked to wait, looked around, left the boy with the doll
I walked to him, and asked who he wanted to give the doll to.

He said “The doll my sister wanted the most this Christmas”
I replied,”Don't worry, Santa would bring it to her after all.
The boy said,” I don’t think Santa can give where she is now
My mom will carry it as she's about to go to see God soon 

I told Dad,tell mom not to go, wait my return from the market
I reached my pocket,had enough for the doll and some spare
The granny came, I left market finishing shopping differently.
On my way home, I  couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind.

Then,remembered having read the news of a drunk truck driver
Hitting a car in which there was a young lady and a little girl 
The little girl died right away and the young lady was in coma.
Next day,read the news that the young lady has passed away.

Bought roses, went to the mortuary where dead body exposed
Saw her in coffin,the photo of the boy and the doll on her chest.

                                 ************
**Unfortunately it is a true story except my going to the mortuary
though I wanted it much but could not as I was a foreigner in 
those days. My only pasttime was to visit Malls and reading newspapers. 

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Dr. Ram Mehta
Seventh place win in
Contest: My "Saddest" Christmas Ever sponsored by Constance la France


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A mole on upper lip-H

Dress up now boy and girl, It’s time for bonfire joy
Bring your purse bring smile line up now for fun
Many costumes many shades walking in the haze
Sounds of drumming and of horn fletching reborn.

Kids wander in the dark, go from house to house
And the adults partying the night away somewhere
A girl extended her hand; we took a walk on the lake
Saw an old house not lived in for many years.

We had it all the house, nothing could stop us now
A whisper went around a small town, tummy round
The girl searched for who gifted her with a child.
As we were all in masks and outrageous costumes

I could detect her because of a mole on upper lip,
Love story goes on, my son to step into my shoes.

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Honorable Mention in
Contest: Love Story sponsored by frank herrera


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Barenaked Ladies

Voluptuous Venus..
Enchantingly crossing 
Her long velvet legs
Lovely desires; sensual
As beckoning, my heart
Amid her heavenly beauty's 
Afterglow; her Cinderella's...
Kiss our love's, perfumed bed.


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ON CREEPY HILL

In a far away secluded place
There’s a hill known for its beauty
But lies a secret that finally revealed
Its haunted, its creepy… wants to know the story?

There were five 4th graders
Joined in the field demonstration in school
They needed fine branches to form a shape
That hill they choose because it’s the nearest
And decided to go there before the sunset

The distance is one kilometer so they walked happily
Before going up to the hill they’ve felt uneasy
Because once they heard that at the top lies a dead body
But they still continue their journey anyway
And saw a wrecked bamboo hut was empty

Going further inside the creepy hill
One girl was beaten by some sticky spider
Everybody were afraid and shouted 
They also heard people laughing at the end

The 4th graders looked at each other and wondering
What they were doing at six in the evening at the wrecked hut?
Three people, two pretty women and one handsome man
Wearing white and seated on a dirty and old bench
They looked enchanting but the children were afraid 

When three people looked at the children they smiled and asked;
“What are you doing here? Its’ getting dark, you’ve supposed to go home”
Shocked for the question they didn’t answer but run as fast as they can
One girl lost her slipper while going down on the hill so she cried hard
They keep on running even if their feet were tired…they were so scared	
The voices were still echoed in the air as they keep running

When they reached home, all of them told the shocking story
Their parents confirmed that hill is haunted for many years already
It’s the city of unknown people because they heard it many times
The children were chilled by the news and wailed 

The five 4th graders never attempted to go there for more than 30 years
But the experienced they truly can’t forget for the rest of their lives
Its Halloween month at that time and its Halloween night indeed
No trick and treats, no pumpkin, no costume but a real experience
The people leaving there know the story and nobody dare to go up
How about you? Want to try to go to the creepy hill too?



Date written: September 5, 2012

Note: the girl who lost her slipper was ME 






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Two Hearts full of Love

I am a heart full of love
that shook the pilars that held her colussium up
her heart filled with sorrow,
I swing such fury toward her heart and soul
she cowards away from me,
in fear of falling in love and not knowing what is in black
and not searching what is in the light of pure white.

I am a heart full of love,
she runs and takes the long dirt road,
through the raging mountains of the quiet countryside,
as the meadows of lilacs slowly die when Spring comes,
the blooming of the rose,
like the blooming of my heart,
a blossom on a cherry tree fall and harbour in the wintertime.
I swing toward her, she falls in fear of wanting attention and love.
Lost in the midnight twilight,
the flaming torch guides her through the dark holes of meaningless souls.
and like a frightened hummingbird,
she flees away from the secrets of falling in love.

A heart full of love ready to love,
it is diffcult to feel and to show,
but as if a rose that blooms in Springtime
my love is ready to bloom.

Pettles lay along a darkened atmosphere
lit up only with four wax candles
a portrait of a woman hung over a mantel piece
in honour of my one true love.

As the twilight shine though my bedroom window,
I show a heart full of love,
to take and to hold for eternity.

And as she slowly moves forward,
she takes me home with her,
and opens her chest and shows me her heart
with a glass of red wine and charming cigarette.
She sheads tears of pain and sorrow on my broud shoulder,
I curise her hair, silk laced hair,
shining against the twilight and the moonlit sky.

My heart full of love,
so divine, so original
a one of a kind.

We make love in the midst of the twilight,
as my dream girl is now reality and my pain is no more,
her pain is no more.
Too show such love makes a man feel free
and his soul lighter.
She holds him there,
as the sun rises over the mountains.
The birds sing a tune of cheerfulness,
and they talk about everything beautiful and kind,
that is still left in this cruel and empty hearted world.

Romance and love shared
with a heart full of love,
smile and kiss upon smooth lips,
feel me against your tight body,
and love me till the morning
when Blue eyed Death is staring us in the face.
and we go with him,
and play a game of risk,
and together forever,
onto a diffrent world
we shall love each other forever,
for you and I both have a heart full of love.


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Chocolate Covered Cherries

Soft fingertips caressing her lips drenched...
Petals sitting afore the fireplace their warmth
Immersed in her kiss; deep, these flames of love.


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Girlfriends

Handing her a rose flower..
Gentle kiss upon the brow
Caressing, soft vanilla hips
...Gliding her beauty down.


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Love Poem Number 2

The first time I glimpsed your beautiful smile,
I couldn’t believe you were real, my ideal!
Your beauty captured my attention and soul ,
I could sense it immediately, you make me whole.
Now the distance between us and every moment apart,
is so painful and sad, it blackens my heart.
For you, my heart longs, your gentle, kind touch,
Your smiles, your pure love, its all just too much,
For my lonely sad soul to be far apart,
I crave you, I need you, you are my sweetheart!
Now that you have come into my black and white world,
Color abounds, and rainbows unfurled.
A new joy in my heart, for love once again I am filled,
A new hope, a new faith, happiness re-instilled.
You are my true joy, and hope for forever,
Im thankful for you and Im glad were together.


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Only in You

Through the lonely woods, I may head,

Upon the autumn leaves, I may tread,

At the secluded horizon, I may stare,

And only you, I may see,

In those symphonies of silence,

In those melodies of calmness,

In those euphonies of quietness.

 

By the silent lake, I may lay,

Till the twilight fades, I may stay,

Then in reclusive silence, I may walk,

And only to you, I may talk,

Through those toungueless emotions,

Through those wordless attachments,

Through those voiceless sentiments.

 

In the lone meadow, I may wander,

Along the untrodden paths, I may waver,

In companionless seclusion, I may hide,

And only in you, I may find,

The depths of oneness,

The bonds of togetherness,

The cozy feel of coalescence.

 

In the wilderness of emotions, I may die,

At the merciless daggering, I may sigh,

Through a million wounds, I may bleed,

And only in you, I may seek,

The balm of love,

The warmth of affection,

The heal of inseparability.


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Her Sweet Juices

Gliding through her soft blue skies...
Her pink pillows; perfumed, in pastel cries.


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Daybreak

I wake on the sand
Right near the beach
You have yet to awake
Far out of reach
And Daybreak has arrived
A beauty unlike any other
Comparable only to us, girl
And how we love each other

So I gaze up alone
Marveling up at the sky
The warmth of the sun
Drying my eyes
I'm reflecting on us
Oh how each other we trust
I'm just so happy we're together
And I think to myself,
Just as this sun, we'll last forever

Then returning to be with you
I lay again now
Place my hand gently
On your warm tender shoulder
While I think of our lives today, love
And how they'll be when we're older...
I know there'd be no other way
So "I Love You" I make sure I say
To you, each and everyday


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Hunger

Sucking her breast..
Her swelling nipples
Melting, in my mouth.


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Damn Those Lies

Moaning softly a crystalline breath, as fragrant lava flows..
Nursing deeply her melting breast; tossing, golden curls
Aside blue eyes transfixed upon the naked mystical sky
Swirling while parting these lips she'll kiss and stormy
Their fusions her emotions; heart a heart, she screams...
Blood mingled holly dispelled she knows, love's meant to be.


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Underworld

I felt her Gothic breath 
It's warmth breathing
Upon my body; her touch
Igniting these senses..
In flames her lips tracing 
Burning kisses this conviction
Of my want; black velvet blue skies.


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She (a bubble world)

She is wild but romantic
She speaks nonsense 
but she’s funny
She has a free soul,
But she falls in love too fast
Making a slave of herself.

She doesn’t speak out her mind
She usually keeps in silence,
 Letting her thoughts be free.
She looks for that perfect blue prince
The one she heard in Spanish fairy tales.
She’s a child in a woman’s body.

She still has that naive look
She’s neither beautiful nor ugly,
She wonders what beauty really is.
She gives up before she tries.
And let things pass by.
Still she is a girl with dreams.

She sings with a marvelous tone,
 her voice is like sugary melody.
And some have been enthralled 
by her walking attitude.
She smiles hiding deep fears
But she knows she’s a strong soul.

She is confident and trustful
But she sometimes can be a hater.
She believes in people
but let down easily.
She is a special human being.
She can give more than she receives.

She is the girl in a bubble world.


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Thoughts of You

Random thoughts of you run
randomly throughout my mind,
as I hold, looking through a simple picture of you and I,
smiles and holding each other,
embracing warmth brings me to sanity,
watching your hand on my forearm,
as you gaze into my eyes.
Oh the tears flood such emotion,
only you and I now in such madness we call love,
such madness we all call life,
such madness we all call reality.

Thoughts of me without you,
I cannot bear to see such a sight in mind,
to hear such words that tear my heart out
and sadness stabs me rapidly in the back,
and I can't bear to see such a sight as this.
Thoughts of you
running randomly throughout my mind,
my hair turns silver and white with stress
of not being with you,
and my liver covered with cancer,
and lungs black with smoke,
and stomach embraced with ulcers.

All I ask for you,
is not to be a thought anymore,
and come back to me in flesh and bone
in a portrait painting of you in reality
come to me with your beauty and glory
and kind heart and hold me again,
and let me kiss you again and love you again,
and call you mine again.
Don't say it is impossible,
when you know and I know,
that it is in fact possible
to love each other once again.


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A Box Of

A Box Of



One grapefruit day under the sun
a little girl buried a box of letters 
beneath a dying banyan tree. 

Sweat beads like tears trickling 
down two tomato cheeks
she dug as though burying her heart. 

The sun had hidden when she finished
and gave final pats to the patch of ground
a pat on her own back, on memories.

She did not want to take the letters
that belonged with these meadows 
and these skies, and nowhere else.

On the very last day under the sun
the little girl buried a box of wishes
beneath a sighing banyan tree.

© 2010


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My 3AM Wake Up Call

You’re a 3AM
Wake up call
With another sob story
About the latest boy 
Who pumped you
Then dumped you
And left you 
In a sweaty lonely pile
Upon another 
Empty bed

And you cry 
Baby girl tears 
All over my phone
And you wonder why handsome
Boys
With shining white  teeth
With full heads of curly black hair
With six-pack stomachs
And  tight muscular
Rear ends 
Can not be more like 
Mature 
Older 
Men

“Just like you,” 
Baby girl says
“Just like you.”

And you cry 
Baby girl tears 
All over my phone
And you wonder why reckless
Boys
Who party all night
Who down countless vodka shots
Who shout “muthafukka,” “dude,” "beotch,"
And other raucous
Victory chants
Can not be more like
Mature 
Older 
Men

“Just like you,” 
Baby girl says
“Just like you.”

You want me to empathize
You want me to criticize
The nasty boys 
Who took you for another 
Cruel and pointless ride

You want me to father you 
In a way he never did

But I’m sorry
Baby girl
I’m sorry

I can’t

Because I admire and envy those 
Boys
In the prime of their life
Not yet defeated
Not yet haunted
Not yet beaten 
By the disappointments that
Await

They are a national treasure
A precious resource

From the exuberant crude shouts of
Irrational wild boys
Come the builders of shelter
The providers of sustenance
The conquerors of enemies
The explorers of frontiers

From the exuberant crude shouts of
Irrational boys
Come the daring adventurers
The first one into the burning house
The last one out of the burning house
The one still standing when everybody else
Fled

From the insatiable loins of such
Irrational wild boys
Come the fierce wild girls
Who dance insanely upon tables
Who run naked through the streets
Who make love without limits
In open fields
Upon damp grass
All through the night

From the insatiable loins  of such
Irrational wild boys
Come the fierce wild girls
Who cat-fight for their lover
Who kill for their children
Who wail passionately for their dead

From such boys
Baby girl
From such boys

You were born into the world

My crazy baby girl
You were born into the world
Like father, like daughter

And if I could be that young wild boy 
Again
The one that you hate
And love
In such a maniacal way

It would be an honor to be with you

An honor to hold you
An honor to love you

Until my dying day.


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Pictures Of You

She knew what she was doing...
What she wanted what she needed
Her desire; beautiful, her sensuous breast
Longing to be caressed, as she; to be cradled 
Amid her palms of sweet love; pure her warmth..
Ecstasy, her gentle lips her swirling, tongue; melting.


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Mediterranean She

Lifting her beautiful heart to my lips 
The seabreeze her velvet truth; archaic..
Wrapped warmly her breath, about my breast
A glistening matrix, silk of cream as beauty she dreams...
Sliding sensually across my kiss; drinking, love's pink champagne.


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Lady Lucifina III

Gifted with lovely shapely natural borne, forty-fours..
She loves teasing and then, pleasing, the beautiful girls.


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Girls Girls Girls II

Engulfed amid euphoric sensations; her silken breast...
Soft warmth swirling these heights, caressing;  this waltz
Breathing love's light our desire; her breath, upon my lips.


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Black Lace Our Love

Slipping from her beauty's black lace negligee...
Voluptuous her velvet breast, crowned in raptures
Silkened hues a melody as she, removing her stockings
Six inch heels an hourglass and light; placed upon my heart
Her love these waves of red their sanguine kiss; perfumed petals.


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Ophelia's Flowers

My heart so lept when first,
...I beheld, her beautiful lips.


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Soulmates

Slowly sliding, in and out of her love; glistening...
Gazing into her enchanting eyes as finding, her own
Beauty, to be loved as to love, so deeply; kissing her palm.


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When We Kiss

Lifting her velvet thigh unto my hip, my arm
Gently about her perfect waist; tasting
Her nectars her tongue, waltzing with
My own her breast; swollen burning these
Our nipples; this ecstasy her moans my sigh...
Flowing in juices orgasmic telling me, of her love.


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Raspberry Orange Rhapsody

Moaning gently her splendours opening wide
The grove of our joy and heavenly melodies 
Sweetened rhapsody her ripened rising...
Melting their flavours flowing into my heart 
Her love my love caressing her breast arching
Thighs she cries my keepers name climbing
Towards the sky velvet bows these, ecstasies 
Rapturous delicious delights; quenching my thirst 
Pulped pleasures lovingly guiding myself to share with..
A kiss her beauty her juices, divine; the orchard of our love.


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Dawn of A New Year

When she was the first to step across the threshold
I knew things were off to a good start.
Outside, dark and lowering clouds pressed in,
But inside, her beaming face made me warm all over.
I wondered if we should still go for a walk,
But she insisted, hinting that I was afraid of the stormy skies.
In no time, I shrugged on my leather jacket and we set off.
The cold winds whipped at our clothing all the way to the park,
A little raindrop spattering here and there.
It soon intensified to a downpour.
The freezing drops soaked right through her coat
And her dark braids had raindrops sliding down them,
So we ran to a pine tree, and I placed my coat on her shoulders.
My shirt was instantly drenched,
Chilling me where it touched my skin.
But I did not care.
Because I was huddling under a tree with my favourite girl
And all it took was a look at her beaming face to make my heart warm.


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Somber Tears

As the sun sets
and the twilight comes out,
as the birds and squrriels are no where in sight.

As the whores and pimps sit on street corners,
waiting for street lights to turn from green to red.
As cadillacs stop and roll their windows down.

I can her the faint cry deep in the darkness,
of dirty gutters and dark, dead end alleyways,
I hear the faint tears fall and hit concrete pavement.

I feel the faint cries of whores,
I hear the sound of backhand hitting face
and brused tissue and broken noses are everywhere.

And the somber tears fall onto pillow cases,
and white motel bedsheets run red with blood
and cheap Italian wine.

And you can her the poet over the radio,
reading his own work for the one millionth time
and you can hear his soul slowly wanting to die.

He drowns himself in smoke and alcohol
the whore takes her pay, or spends a night in a jail cell,
the pimp nowhere to be found,
with a shiny blade stuck deep in his gut.

And the somber tears fall gently on the concrete pavement,
the floors of a jail cell,
tears on the pillow case and tears on a lonesome stage.

Tears never present, but are seen by many,
pain aches and pain takes away,
and I pour one more drink for the whore.

She takes me away,
and I caught her salty, somber tear,
and she crawled into my warm embrace.

I was the one who stuck the blade in the gut of that pimp,
who broke her nose and made her bleed,
with a cowardess and souless backhand.

I walk into the moonlight,
hearing the somber tears all around me,
crash violently to the concrete pavement.

The Earth rumbles and erupts with these tears,
that are shead for fellow Men, and Women and Children,
but we all look at ourselves and smile.

Happy we don't pay rent,
happy we don't have cancer,
happy we aren't six feet under;

But we still all cry,
Why?
Somber tears all fall in one big wave

crashing violently on the concrete pavement.
Now the red light turns green,
and the traffic moves along,
the whore is still at her corner,
the pimp still with the blade in his gut.


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Everybody

Love me tonight girl we won't meet again ,
Don't fight the feeling cause love ain't a sin,
Let your body decide what it does,
It's okay baby, ha ha ha ha,
Let your body decide what it does ,
It's okay baby cause everybody ****s,
I know it's straight to the point,
But I'd rather be straight up and straight forward,
Instead of playing with your heart and your mind,
Games are waste of time, now we can do the nasty,
And do what the do and see what the does,
Either we gonna love what we do to each other,
Or just let it be what it was,
No harm, no foul, no commitment, no vows,
Maybe a contract or two,
But by that time I'm already tired of the way you like it, oh,
And let your body decide, exactly what it does,
But it's no secret baby, everybody fücks,
I know you don't do these type of things on the first night,
We both know it's wrong but fück it cause it feels right,
I know you don't do these type of things on the first night,
We both know it's wrong but fück it cause it feels right,
Love me tonight girl we won't meet again,
Don't fight the feeling cause love ain't a sin,
Let your body decide what it does, it's okay baby,
Let your body decide what it does,
It's okay baby cause everybody fücks,
Now I can hear your body calling me,
Tell me what it is, what's gon be,
Only got one night cause I'm...,
Lil mama is a bad one, ain't she? 
Maybe she might be a little timid,
Love when I get it,
Or I might even give a text when I'm finish,
Been doing all this talking, let's get it,
And you can tell me what you wanna do,
I guarantee you can do that,
Or you can teach me like a thing or two,
But I bet you I already knew that,
So one night one time baby girl,
Let's take this chance,
We ain't trying to be love strung,
But I know that Everybody ****s,
I know you don't do these type of things on the first night,
We both know it's wrong but fück it cause it feels right,
I know you don't do these type of things on the first night,
We both know it's wrong but fück it cause it feels right,
Love me tonight girl we won't meet again,
Don't fight the feeling cause love ain't a sin,
Let your body decide what it does, it's okay baby,
Let your body decide what it does,
It's okay baby cause everybody ****s,
Let your body go, let your feeling show,
Say what's on your mind, I already know,
I can read your eyes, see your body sign,
(Every sign you give baby) with a little bump and grind,
Nothing wrong, with a little bump and grind,
Baby there ain't nothing wrong, with a little bump and grind,
There ain't nothing wrong, with a little bump and grind,
Baby there ain't nothing wrong, with a little bump and grind,
Love me tonight girl we won't meet again,
Don't fight the feeling cause love ain't a sin,
Let your body decide what it does, it's okay baby,
Let your body decide what it does,
It's okay baby cause everybody ****s,
Believe that believe that baby,
Everybody ****s…


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That True Girl

 she's human,
Possessive,
Jealous,
Selfish,
Fragile,
Broken,
Insecure,
Hurt,
Afraid,
Hateful,
Not so fun to be with,
Not so pretty.

But she choose to forget that,
Walking with her head up high,
The pretty girl that is so damn fly,
Sweet you don't want to tell her bye,
The better version of independent mind,
She young wild n free,
Not to mention she living her life,
She don't need you to keep reminding her of her negative side. 
 For she don't live on that side.


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A Three-Way Shake

Remembering when I was a young lady a few years ago
As gazing through my best friends guest rooms window
Spellbound her twin sister fondling herself passionately
Watching two beautiful women making love, on a video
Then suddenly my girlfriends housekeeper entered and
She was the most gorgeous creation; Angelica in white..
I had long adored her British accent, as her warm heart
Seeming surprised a bit shy until; amid beauty's desires.



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My Mediterranean Dove

Her beauty's free flowing soft vanilla hips..
Velvet cream, gliding joyfully above my lips
Daylight peeking past the shades her breast
My tongue tasting our love these eyes gazing
Chasing butterflies floating by her cries gentle
Warmth caressing my kisses glistening she sips.


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The Flower Girl

The flower girl carefully placed the yellow rose petals

Covering the floor before her each step down the aisle

Now satisfied and smiling, she looked like an angel

There standing awaiting the bride

The yellow rose carpet was perfect and perfumed

She had performed her job with great pride

The bridal march rang, her little heart raced

Now here she was coming her way

Each step was placed onto petals she'd lain

The long beautiful train laying there on the floor

Carried the lovely yellow petals away

Capturing them as though they were keeping them all

For just this one special stroll, to adore

The flower girl smiled and dreamed a dream

They would re-appear on her wedding day

©Donna Jones


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* denial is so easy

Mom, there is something I have to 
tell you about dad, he comes in to my 
room at night, we play this game'
it's just between 'us' he said then he 
leaves and goes to bed.

I know you won't believe me but 
it's true, please don't be mad at me,'
the girl said.
'You are a 'liar' her mom screamed now
get out of my face and get to bed.

Late, that night on the nightly news they
reported about 'a little girl who had been
killed from being beaten black and blue
by her parents, the girls mom was 'apalled'.

Her mom said 'how could any parent do that
to their own kid'!?
The girl sat confused, she had just told mom
about what her dad did and her mom called
her a 'liar' it's just 'denial is so easy'.


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Mesmerized

Selling melting stars to taste, their flames; beautiful
Be her flesh perfumed, silhouette, and dim this light
Ruby red lips in luscious; her piercing emerald eyes..
Coffee coloured cream as she these,  silk splendours.


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Blondes Brunettes And Merry Go Rounds

Her fun house fingertips tracing dews drenched, fruitions lips...
Felicities ferris wheel; twined, their voluptuous femme fixations
Sixty-nine pink balloons eroticas poesy, carnival caravan of love.


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A Departing Memory

I know you.
Candles lit, incense fuming,
You like it when I bite your neck, just hard enough.
Blankets thrown about the room
So recklessly, they refold themselves.

And we roll down a hill together,
Kissing the leaves, tickling with our eyes,
Laughing with our hearts.
"You'll just leave me for the next girl you find."
"Yes," I say. Because only
Nothing
Lasts forever.
And it spills through the cracks in your hands
The moment you grasp it.
Like water from a stone.
She bites my neck
Drawing lines of ecstasy down my back with her fingernails
Spilling into me, fighting my words.
"I leave when the sun sets."




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CLAIM YOUR RIGHTS

She claimed her rights as a young lady
And in the coming years a woman
She don’t want to be an endangered species hunted by violence daily
She got rights too…she’s a human
Stand against this bliss
Gender Base Violence a sure diss
No more verbal abuse, emotional abuse or physical abuse
It’s your rights to reject abuse, so claim it, good news
You can only be his victim
Only if you allow yourselves to be used by him
You’re no longer going to be told…shut up!
You’re worthless, or what you say is meaningless…Just stop!
Or you’re stupid or call you names to graphic to repeat
After that, he says he loves you you’re so sweet
Well, decide today…that behavior is unacceptable
The truth comes before the love…Whether Sharon, Susan or Mable
Cause if he truly love you 
He won’t want to abuse you
Are my words credible, Gender Base Violence become a label 
Let’s take action and fight with all our might
“Claim your Rights”


©Copyright November 28, 2011 by Brian Pierre-Alexander
© All Rights Reserved


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Making Love

Passion burned amid desires flames..
Whileas slowly lowering her negligee
Tongues entwined her wet fingertips
Caressing my lips tingling her breath
Wrapping her ivory leg about my hip
Pulling me in a touch of her soft skin
Purple swirls and sending sensations
Melting our heart's mingling her love
Sweet juices, dripping upon my thigh.
                                         


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Soft Lips Velvet Dreams

Bending teasingly naked in front of her beautiful face..
That she could take the love, which she secretly wished.


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Twinkle Toes

What I wish was all she dreams
Your beauty's 
Sweet milky cream...
In this the taste 
Her beautiful lips; nectars 
Wet aneath tangerine bliss 
Flavours swirling and oh so pink
Softened silk.. 
Breast betwixt their warmth her cry
Pleasure; Your tender sighs
All I wish be all your dreams; She...
As your love and love, her cherry screams.




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more than fascination

When I first met you 
you were so cute that
my brain just couldn't compute 
so I went mute
 As I stared in awe 
Wanting to know you
Noticing that 
the reason my heart ached was 
 because of you
A girl much more than a pretty face 
I never wanted to make love out of lust
but then I realized 
that it was in you I trust
So I must change 
to show you
this isn't simply fascination 


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Her Love My Lover

Pitter patter falls the sound this rains
Lipstick traces, about her window pane..
Brushing beauty as that her canvas poetic
Of words like cleansing showers; caressing velvet
Heart's a colourful scene; she painting in dreams
Beyound the gray tasting their tender tips; dipped
Within vivid pools and her melting splendours...
Gathering vistas these ecstasies her, love; my lover.



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I lay sleeping

I lay sleeping with eyes wide open,
I lay sleeping with dreams that have no meaning,
I lay sleeping with nothing to dream about.
I lay sleeping with no care and sleep with eyes blind,
I lay sleeping, there with my eyes wide open.

Seeing the dark change from dark to black.
There is no moon, there is no sky
just purple strokes of paint in the sky.
Take that morning dew smell and close your blind eyes.
Smell the morning, that smell that clicks in your mind.
The smell of childhood dreams,
that as an adult never came true.
Sleeping bare in the nude with your eyes wide open.
Thinking of her, as she is five thousand miles away from you.
Wanting to love and hold her, but no use in crying.
Sleeping their with blind eyes in the dark that dances in the light.

Your lamplight turned down low,
as life trickeles down in its nightgown and yawns for sweet slumber.
Tired from longs days, and sometimes long nights,
wanting to curel in bed and close its blind eyes.
Dusk will soon peek its head through the blinds
and awake life to a new dawn.
She sleeps in the morning, and walks at night.
When he sleeps at night, and walks with a bare nude heart in the morning.

Life climbs over yellow mountains,
and meets her fellow compainion
a handsome fellow with broud shoulders and blessed with an ego
as I sleep there with my eyes wide open.
As I sleep with my eyes blind to what life has intented for me,
and as I raise to walk the lone streets at the break of the dew covered lawn
at the first sweet smells of dawn,
I can see life go on with the handsome man
and I blind and wanting to go to bed.

I dream of dreams that have no meaning
Gardens of cluelessness and raging emotions
tare me down and I am confused on which way to go.
Do I stay here and dream away, blind and half awake
as life slaps me across my broad cheek?
Or shall I walk on with life hand and hand
and regain my vision of the world,
Start to sleep with dreams that make sense
and dreams that are made of gold and have no end?
Dream of fancy dreams that show love and happy endings
I would love that, and I would love to walk with life,
but she is out of my leauge.

And my bed is so cozy and I feel like sleeping.
So I shall sleep on more restless night chashing life down.
I lay sleeping with my eyes wide open.
I lay sleeping with dreams that have no meaning.
I lay sleeping waiting for life to come back from the mountains
and lay beside me.
I lay sleeping with hope of regaining hope and salvage
what is left of my spirit at hand.


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The girl in the mirror

Mirror mirror on the wall who do you see looking back at you?
I would say to tell the truth but what is the truth really?

As you look into my eyes can you honestly say you'd answer back sincerely? 
And just from a reflection, a mere image can you eat it up and digest the real me? 

I guess I'm asking way too many questions maybe I should start first.
When I look into the mirror I see thunderstorms, I see troops running in dirt
trying to make their way home. 

I see this girl in the mirror and who see's 
a cracked reflection. Lines going up and down like lighting in the sky. 
People tell her she's a dime piece but damaged goods she feels like inside. 
But she still can't figure out why she feels incomplete.
Often times she feels obsolete just like empty milk cartons. 

In this mirror she gets images of herself chasing rainbows and butterflies in empty feilds. 
And instead of being barefoot she runs in heels. The real her, you'd have to dig down deep 
for because she conceals it. Almost like little kids burying treasures in the ground for safe 
keeping. If you find the door please turn it like a faucet and let her leak into you.

All her life she's been searching for someone to seep into. Someone willing 
to soak up all her essense for like a sponge. 
The girl in the mirror is still searching....


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Nights In Savanah

Taking another sip of wine a drag from her cigarette
Gazing through the smokes rings, upon such lovely beauty..
Slippng back into her silk dress a kiss, as she waves goodbye
This lady and the night; lingering perfume her lips their touch
In traces pleasures all over her body; be it far from the first time
Having been with another woman; multiple orgasms a knock, on the door.


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Ebony And Ivory

Entwined, in her vanilla cream rhymes..
Sitting amid the front row while she recited
A heartful verse feeling the vibes; her spirit alive
Blue roses atop the table a glass of champagne
Catching my gaze her smile; captured is her words
As pure beauty and this palisades venue aside the sea
Athena I think enraptured by, her elegance in grace...
Drawing the burgandy curtains, a log upon the fire
Sipping red wine her blue eyes; pallets be perfection
Pomegranate lips, carved these hips this sculptors
Blade caramel skin piercing my heart her, poetics license.
 


                                                               


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Sometimes I wish I was

I see you,
I feel you, 
I know you want me,
but I also know that you want me to be her,
and I'm not, 
but sometimes I wish I was.

I wish you saw me, as you see her,
even though You don't want to be with her any more.

I wish that you wouldn't pretend not to know me,
when the very last night,
laying on bed,
I love you,
slipped through your lips,
which was followed by a huge apology,
and you don't realize I didn't even flinch when you said it,
because i had been imagining it all along, 
ever since we made love for the first time,
I didn't want your apology,
even if I know you said it not because you loved me,
but because you wanted me to be her,
so you could love me,
and I'm content with me being in your bed while you imagine I'm someone else,
just that more beautiful, and with no intention of harming you.
And I don't understand, how you cannot see me a as you see her,
I know I'm not her;
but sometimes,
I wish I was.

I'm better,
I would never leave you there to cry your self to sleep,
I wouldn't grab you so hard that I would leave a mark on your beautiful skin,
I didn't want your apology,
But I do apologize to you.
'cause I'm not her, 
and because sometimes,
I wish I was.

I apologize,
because I'm leaving,
I'm going far away,
And I know You'll miss me.

I know you'll find someone else,
as I also know I'm not your only one,
but I do know,
I'm your best one.

I leave my life here,
and hope that when I come back,
if I ever do,
I will no longer want to be her,
but me,
cause maybe,
just maybe,
when I get back,
You'll love no one,
but me.


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Breakfast At Tiffiny's

Gazing up in anticipation at her moist as perfumed 
Soft lips pink petals glistening with, love's desirous dew..
Gliding slowly downward to meet my kiss; guiding palms her silk
Warmth caressing her breast squeezing my hips pulling me in, to her joy.  
                                                               


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Cat People

Tangerine the scene spilling through this green...
Glass crossing her thighs as she bathes within love's 
Afterglow, dare I let Ginger go; knowing insatiable be
Her hunger ?? Staring outside the window and a sudden 
Knock upon the scarlet door deja vu it seems, I have been 
Here before familiar this scent while she peers; moors moon 
Brushed aside midnight blue with carmine hues, filling her eyes 
Ah but time to loose these binds when the ladies enter; smiling
In tune as slowly sliding across, her fiery flesh glowing amid 
Natures splendours burgundy she, bending forward inquiring  
That my heart; all I could think of although were Shakespeare 
While they reaching for her arching screams in dreams lavender
Renaissance recapturing a stained-glass reflection their quoting 
..Macbeth, as I pierced the depths of her sixteenth century, Mars. 


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TurtleDoves

Fondling one anothers breast..
Kissing softly afore, the fireplace
Silken sweet; her peaches in cream.


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Wake Me, When the Morning Comes

A night full of nightmares
and suicidal tendencies,
feeling pain rush, like tidal waves
crushing me and blood boiling
anger wishes and takes the best of me;
but can I heal my own heartbreak?
Will I ever find love again?
See the angel of death come to me,
smiles and says come with me.
Oh, Wake me, when the morning comes,
so I can show evil the light.

Feelings eternal and fragile,
she walks some lonesome highway
travelled by the ones who fall in love.
She a grand fool, who takes life for 
granted,
wake her with the morning light
and shine down rays of goodness and 
pride
and show her the path that leads back to 
me.

Wake me when the morning comes,
place her upon my doorstep
and a smile upon her loving face,
I'm not ready to move on just yet.
I don't want anymore nightmares
and nightly visits from the black angels.
I don't want to see blue eyed Death,
with his grinning skull and black robe.
I want to see the sunshine break through 
my window
and I want to hear the birds sing love 
songs,
and the trees dancing to the wind's sweet 
melody.
I want to awake to her sweet and glorious 
beauty.
Wake me, when the morning comes,
when I can open my eyes to anew
and see life in a new day,
and live life in a new way.

-10/5/2013-


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In My Community

Our Ancestors fought to the death,
Just so we can live a brighter day,
So before you light up that blunt of meth,
Think about what you’re giving away,
It was a glad day in history when Obama rose to victory,
The first black president was all we knew,
Dark skin is in!
Haven’t you heard?
That even in our community, 
You can get burned,
It’s a sad day when people would rather stay home and “Crank That Amber Cole”,
Than get up and run to a poll,
In our community,
Rockin’ Luis V is better than having a college degree,
And teen pregnancy is not only a trend,
But the single motherhood that follows should end,
Young girls learn of a wonderful prince to take them away,
Nothing should change thought their mothers prince didn’t stay,
And as the tears fade away,
She grows stronger every day,
In our community,
Fighting is no longer a word,
You argue with someone and shots are heard,
Girls showing places the sun don’t show,
So how do they expect the community to grow?
Where love is a figment of imagination,
Making a young child question her creation,
Young mothers would rather buy the iPhone 5,
Then satisfy her baby’s cries,
While her new man’s eye,
Wander up another girl’s thighs,
In our community,
Where #team dark skin vs #team light skin,
Makes others not love the skin they’re in,
Love, lust, hate, and trust,
Giving a rose on Valentine’s Day is no longer a must, 
Where bad is good and good is bad,
Who would think to see their grandmother sad?
Her hurt and pain,
Shows how our community has lost everything her parents fought to gain.


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In The Shower

Finding her staring at myself within 
The shower; she looked so lovely
I could tell by her beautiful eyes
That she liked what she was seeing..
More in this, a woman always knows
When she is desired; lathering my legs
She did not gaze away, while her breast
Told me that she was mine; silken beauty.



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Queen Esther The Song

(Esther 5: 2)



(Chorus:  Part 1)

Walk In Majesty
Walk In Grace
Walk With GOD
Shining On Your Face
And You Can Walk
Thru Any Place ...
                      Embraced


Prepare Your Steps
To Bring GOD Praise
Keep Your Stride
A Steady Pace
Walk In GOD's Ways
Thru Every Space ...
                     Embraced


(Chorus:  Part 2)


Walk Like Queen Esther
Brave & Beautiful
Walk Like Queen Esther
Divinely Dutiful

and Every Step You Take
Please Pray
and GOD Will Guard You
On The Way


... Walk Like Queen Esther ...



Walk Like Queen Esther
In Love & Trust
Walk Like Queen Esther
and Move On
If You Must ...

and Every Step You Take
Please Pray
and GOD Will Guide You
Through Always



and Walk Like Queen Esther
Walk Like Hadassah
Walk Like Queen Esther



(Main Song)



The King Held Out To Esther
The Golden Scepter
That Was In His Hand

She Was His Queen
The Woman Who Fulfilled His Dreams
One of The Most Beautiful In All His Lands

There Was No Hesitation
In His Heart's Designation
Towards This Woman Who Stood Royal & Serene

She Held His Affection
and Did Not Suffer Rejection
As She Humbly Walked In, As His Queen

But Oh, The Interplay
of Emotions That Day
Between This Woman & Her Loving Man

When The King Held Out To Esther
His Golden Scepter
... That Was In His Hand

* * * * * * * * * * * *


so Walk Like Queen Esther
Walk Like Hadassah
Walk Like Queen Esther


( Walk-On Hadassah - Walk-On ! )


             Written & Copyrighted ©:  9/17/2013 
              by:  MoonBee Canady


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In a Blink of an Eye

Beneath the low muffles
Pedestrians shuffle
An average city day
Of hustle and bustle 
A lovely days stroll
With no place to go
Still the worlds moving fast 
But I'll remain slow
Because theres no movement
Unless I stand still
To give my heart a chance
To understand what it feels
The brilliance of designs
Engineered by our minds
And yet we lack passion 
To save our own lives
Surveying the pavement
To the edge of concrete
When I became overwhelmed
By this vision I'd seen
It was for a brief moment 
Yet I was surprised
When I saw her blue eyes
Staring back into mine
Butterflies came to life
It was love at first sight
Our approach became closer
And once again were her eyes
I felt a connection
Free from suggestions
Connected like dots
Lost in translation
But what I seen was a world
For this boy and that girl
Behind a white picket fence
And all this from a curb
Could she be the one
As the cat held my tongue
I brought the words to my lips
But my voice became numb
Them damn butterflies
They took me for a ride
I may be made of steel
But Im like butter inside
So without knowing her name
The light color changed
Then they all crossed the street
Moving on in their haste
She disappeared in a blur
Blending in with the world
And there I was standing
All alone on the curb
But with a smile I left
Without chance of regret
Or what if I spoke
The words my heart said 
Still overjoyed with delight 
It just wasn't our time
And she was gone from my life
In a blink of an eye

~ JJF ~


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In love for the first time and counting

It's all Ok
the birds are chirping
the sky is blue
the trees are green 
and so are you
i fell in love
for the first time
my girl is pretty
my girl is smart
she never burps
she never farts
she is an angel
and she is fun
nothing is missing
and it's all fine
today i'm trying to be nice
see the gay couple down the street
kissing each-other like little birds
the neighbor is common thief
must have a strong reason for it
my boss can keep more
from my paycheck
and go away and take a break
i'll work for you my entire life
and don't pay me the  overtime 
today Snooki looks just like J Lo
and the mule next door
like Barry White
God this is just a perfect day
i'm all pumped-up
and that's OK...







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Dream girl in true life!!!!!!!

A girl I had seen
Beautiful as rose
Shining as sun
Glancing at me 
With eyes big brown
Into the dreams 
She came once
Days passed and
Married I was
With a girl beautiful
As in my dreams
Face was forgotten 
But beauty was eternal
And my wife was equal 
So I wonder if 
She was the same!


                                         by:-
                                         Vrushani Thaker


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Converse Shoes

I am stubborn and undeniably clumsy
My life's not perfect,it's kinda messy
My hair is curly,I have no comb
I wear no make up,don't get me wrong
I am not a bad girl,just not the typical one
I can laugh like an idiot or sometimes like a moron
I am not girly,I have my own style
I don't know what to call it but it may take a long while___
To find a word that would truly describe me
Most people just see me as 'happy go lucky'
At times I can be very fashionable and chic
But more often than not my fashion sense can be very tragic
I can wear flat shoes,sandals and high heels
But my Converse shoes says best of what I truly feel
My civil status says I am single and 28
And I do not care of what society dictates
On how a woman at my age should dress and act
On what a woman at my age is suppose to expect
I am a free soul and that's what matters to me
And I do not care if you hate my philosophy.




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Marshmelting

Twined these our wet thighs...
Velvets gliding in the moonlight
Nighttide she her pure white, dove.


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Twilight Dream's

Naked ladies...
Beautiful they alone
Grooving atop the dance floor
Sinuous, sliding grinding kissing
Moonless night's in red lace, love.


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Beauty's Golden Locks

Unbuttoning slowly her blouse
Soft firm breast, whispering
Their flames of desire..
She could not hide, the want
Her beautiful eyes; fondling
Sucking; silk, melting in my heart.


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yippi-yi-yo-ki-ya

yippi-yi-yo
take control
be tough
cowgirl

strap on those six-guns
silver spurs
and leather
cowboy chaps

throw on the saddle
and ten-gallon cowboy hat
mount him slowly
and keep it steady
there now

speed it up
pull back hard
and ride him rough
be tough
cowgirl

yippi-yi-yo
ki-ya





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Should I

should i stop loving you,
because of your thick eyebrows?
or should i stop loving you,
because of your tiny nose?

should i stop loving you,
because of you broad waist?
or should i stop loving you,
because of your ugly face?

should i stop loving you,
because of your nasty handwriting?
or should i stop loving you,
because at bed you're snoring?

should i stop loving you,
because of your weird habits?
or should i stop loving you,
because of your misaligned teeth

should i stop loving you,
because they tell me to do so?
or should i start ignoring this,
because I LOVE YOU


:)


An entry in "A Girls Night Out" contest, 
1st Place (06-03-14)
Sponsored by: Darren Watson




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SELF-LOATHING

Step after step I move forward.
Into the abyss, 	
Into the pit
Black, thick, silent,
The pool is filled
 Yet the tar is so bleak and empty.
Fully submerged there is nothing, 
Nothing but me
Nothing to smell hear or see
So I focus on me
My weaknesses
My faults
My mistakes
I feel all the pain as the air leaves my lungs
As the pressure of all that I’ve done bears down upon my chest and back.
Bones bend and muscles contract.
That last bit of air
 Right before sweet eternal sleep
 Escapes into the darkness
And for that moment the pain stops and the pressure fades…
I am cold.
I am lost.
Floating back to the top…
I inhale 
And life is restored…until next time.


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Switch

Shy away; girl at play

electric candle light doesn't flicker

you could only turn it off

but then girl, you'll be dark

stuck in mist that is your trouble:

thoughts of love and seeking double

One that's here to stay and watch

and another for you to use and toss

Shy away; girl at play

electric candle light doesn't flicker

you could only switch it off

but when the light comes back and blisters

Of the heat that steams off the floor;

dirty underwear builds in corners

stained with both felt good wrongs

Choose a mister wicked sister

'less they both switch you off...


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spectacles

Show me who you are and i shall paint out broken columns on the valleys of her back as if such figure is un-common
i have found no beauty bending as the vines that are her hair and the frailty of man upon her back is what she bares
bleed her body for the harvest let them feast upon her soul for the nurishment of mother is leaps beyond so bold
she is like the flower growing in the deepest of dark forests,amongst the ivy and hemlock but her skin is much too porous
to concern herself with games that tantalize the men, as they marry on crusade it is her children that she tends
sheath your swords with her ambition and tip your arrows with her will, craft your armour from her strength and in the battle you will kill
come now children from the pasture and lay each upon her side, suckle gently at your mother although theirs pain she does not hide
though the water leaks from rooftops her leaves are thick and block the rain, as the water level rises cling to her branches with no shame
she is the stone upon the beach, once a mountain pound and breached
yet still her disposition clear to love her children that are near

inspired by Roots Frida Kahlo, 1907-1954


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Just let me breathe

Let me breathe,let me step on this earth
to see the wonderful world of god.
More than that,grant me the
wish to be in your arms.
Do not let the love,which
brought both of u together
become a  curse to me ,which makes me
pay a hefty price-i.e. my life.
Kindly do not build me a grave
even before I am born and
do not flush me like waste
for being a girl child.
Is being born as girl such
a crime to you are punishing
me with death?.
please do not fill your heart
with venom instead of love.
I promise to be a good daughter,
take care of you always,
be there for you through thick and thin,
make you proud and laugh.
do not crush my little heart which loves you,
do not break my hands,which craves to hug u.
I am a bundle of happiness not a burden.
Is it too much to ask for a chance
to live and love you?
yes I am girl child,it does not make
me less human.
Just let me have my chance of living and 
do not pluck the bud even  before it blossoms.



[This poem reflects about the most dangerous crime -female foeticide.I hope this kiling stops forever and girl child is embraced .]


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How Real Love Is

Let me start by stating love is not easy

Love does not come fast

Cause I’m only 21

And honestly I been working my ass off for love

Sometimes I think it won’t come

So I settle for just a woman’s touch

But I’m young

I got a lifetime

To find

What I feel is the right one

But it’s a shame cuz I fear the women of my generation

Focus solely on payment

And skip the need for intelligent conversation

The population of material girls

Has grown since Madonna

And it seems like every girl I knew in high school

Is somebody’s baby mama

And the rest think a relationship

Is all about the drama

What happened?

What happened to talking?

Midnight walking

Looking up at the sky

Exchanging our goals in life

When did it all become a business transaction?

Sometimes I think people get married just for the taxes

I have yet to meet someone who isn’t easily enraged

About another girl looking my way

Or hearing

“Why dat chick, be all on yo facebook page”

I don’t need that

I don’t deserve it

I mean I'm far from perfect

But I’m far from worthless

I just ask for a lil more maturity

Less insecurity

More attention for me

Without the need for jewelry

I’m just wondering if that’s too much to ask

But I have hope that Ill stumble on a girl

Whose mind is shaped

To handle the weight of a mature relationship

That understands the concept of partnership

And knows that I do everything to make them happy

And will do the same for me

So in time I’ll see

 If there’s hope for my love life just yet

And I’m willing to bet

She’s out there

Just waiting to see just how real

Love feels

Like me,

Just waiting to see how real love is


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Side By Side

Oh it's a beautiful night!
The moon is full
And the stars are glowing
While the trees, with Earth's cool summer breeze
Start slowly blowing...

A campfire's flames are burning so bright
While a young couple holds each other tight
Warming their hearts, as these two lovers embrace
Traveling together, through time and space
Oh how tonight, with their love, they won't hide
Two lovers forever, Side By Side

Under the stars, both of them lay
They've been together, happy, all night and all day
Holding each other, a sweet caress
While green grass stains her pretty white dress
But no words, to each other, do they say
Happy just sitting Side By Side, knowing no other way

Gazing up at the stars
Breathing in the night
Them together with nature
A beautiful sight

All the years they've both struggled
And how they cried 
Has led them here tonight
It matters not now
As they'll lie here forever, Side By Side


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Like the frightened Jackrabbit, I run away from Love

Jump up and down like a jackrabbit
running through meadows
running from what?
Could it be heartbreak,
a venemous snake that hides in the grass,
hiding with fangs ready to pierce the tender skin
upon the tight, bronze flesh of everyday life?
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now!
I need a vacation a long way away from the faceless smiles
and ignorance of young girls, who don't look at you,
who don't show you love and respect.
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye now,
as jumping spiders hop everywhere, crawling eight legs around me
my soul black like carcoal, but my heart still beating
slower this time, not like the days before
and like the jackrabbit running from anything and everything,
I run to seek love and vanish away from the empty voids
that people call, their souls.
Recording a film with no tape,
talking to a woman you love, but not having the guts to tell her how you really feel
Jump my boy, like a jackrabbit, take my advice
tell her before she leaves
turns down the endless avenues of endless dark love
the trees grow taller, taller than you
and you sit there feeling away yourself die, missing out in life.
I cannot see you lose your love.
Say it, say it, Say it!!! Tell her! Tell her! Build the guts up!
Build up the courage, tell her how you feel. Take her by the hand and never say goodbye! Never say goodnight, stay with her till the flight comes in the morning
of the first rays of sun shine through your dorm room take her and love her!
Do not be like me, the jackrabbit! I see no happiness
Reading poetry it makes me sad,
to write of others falling in love and I never finding the one.
People tell me, you'll find yours, have hope
but I am a frightened little jackrabbit
who flees from sounds of deep emotions, not having courage to fall in love,
not building the guts up to tell her how I really feel.
She walks alone, I find my oppertunity and sing my love song
She smiles and moves on,
please tell me I cannot fight anymore.
All I have to say is Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye
I need a vacation
to go to some sandy beach on an island of love
and write and write and write, the same poetry that depresses me
but makes you all fall in love with words!
Fiction about love stories, please kiss me
Blue eyed death comes, plays a game of chess with me
I bet twenty, he bets my soul
Kiss me death, the only love I'll ever get,
besides my poet friends who kiss my ass
Listen to my heart, truely, I don't write of beauty
I write for the sorrow soul, the fleeing jackrabbit
running away from love.....


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Risen from the mud

A tribute to Sri Lanka Gold medalist  Susanthika 
 

A  Lotus bud was hidden in the mud of a jungle stream 

Dark skin, curly hair
Black mare runs
Against the wind
Across the fields
On the rocks
In the jungle
Barefoot
Barefoot

Thorns prick her little feet
No cry, No sighs
Bones protruding scar face,
Rewards  of starvation
Her childhood
Had to run miles to school
Barefoot
Barefoot

She rose from the mud
To the national games
No spikes, no sandals
Barefoot
Barefoot
Our black mare
Ran across the Oceans
To Sydney Olympics
Like an arrow, against the wind
Rose for the nation




in the contest Girl Rising


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She Was Anne

her name was Anne 
and she wrote dreams 
upon pages; 
the kind that roam around your mind 
but are always held deep 
inside your chest;

and she heaved 
under the weight of tears 
left uncried 
and so many truths 
left unsung; 

her name was Anne 
not of Green Gables 
but of Gestapos and Gettos; 
not summer getaways 
but of guards and gates; 

she was Anne of raven hair
with faraway eyes, 
on spindly legs 
running towards
a woman's curves; 

but the hook of her nose 
told heritage tales, 
that they numbered
with hate
upon her youthful arm;

yet she still dreamed 
and wrote, 
of longings and yearnings 
of the future; 
with simplistic thoughts
not comprehending 
her reality; 

her pen flew across pages, 
filled with hope, 
yet inked in sadness; 
and the winds blew the sheets 
upon the prejudice
that surrounded her; 
without effect

she was Annie to parents 
who saw only the past 
of a little girl 
with shiny new shoes 
pink bows 
and capped teeth; 

the shoes went into piles, 
bows flew upon the breeze 
and the teeth 
shone only in fillings 
of melted gold 
instead of smiles; 

she was the promise
of a woman's secrets, 
yet to be revealed 
and enjoyed, 
upon silken thighs; 
with desired weight 
pressing love 
upon waiting lips; 

she was humanity 
destroyed by 
inhumanity; 
as the world watched 
little girl tears 
float away, 
into subconsciousness,
where we didn't have to
feel them or hear 
their weeping moans; 

she was a star 
from the family of David; 
an outcast now 
from society 
that deemed her unworthy; 
outlined by the yellow blaze 
as the star 
burnt itself out; 

and she called to her God 
without blame 
for he was good and kind; 
and man... 
well man was man, 
so unlike her God; 

her name was Anne 
and she pressed her face 
upon the panes of our illusions; 
breaking through the 
shaded barriers 
that we ourselves 
had forged; 

but too late for Anne 
did we see the truths; 
and now she remains 
forever young 
in our minds; 
but dead to our 
world; 

and her pages 
are all that speak; 
her hushed whispers 
grown finally loud; 
we hear her voice 
and feel at last
her tears, 
as they slide down 
those precious pages 
to become 

our own...


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A Breath Of Light

Her rose scented kisses..
Breast empowering breast
In tender flames; perfect love.


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Their Mothers Cry

Each day on the television news shows
I watch the mothers of the kidnapped
Nigerian school girls as they cry big tears
of sorrow for the loss of their daughters.
I sit there helpless, wanting to aid them
in their quest to locate their beloved girls
and return them safely to their families.
Hopelessness invades the core of my soul.
My God! This is the 21st damn century,
events such as this should not happen
in this modern world in which we live.
I guess the evolution of the human race
still travels at a slowly moving snail’s pace
and that realization hurts my heart and soul.
I say a sincere prayer for the missing girls
and their grieving mothers so far away.


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Auburn Tantalizing Hair

Flowing locks of long auburn hair
gently caressed 
tussled and strewn
by the morning air
Textured as the finest flax
With a glossy sheen 
the smell of summer fruits
so fresh and clean
Gracing the elegant porcelain smooth neck and  shoulders 
of a  beautiful  brown eyed girl
with the cream of luxurious hair
and smouldering stare 
Unrivalled beauty beyond compare
See the highlights dance and shine
in the radiant summer sun
Gypsy girl dances in lush  wood
As wild as the winding river that runs.





Peter Dome.copyright.2013 Dec.






Peter Dome. copyright. 2013. Dec.


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Angelica

Beautiful 
Her kiss
Tracing 
My hips
Her touch 
My lips 
Parting,
This bliss
Deep 
Inside 
Her
Oceans
Eyes 
Lost 
To find,
Her love..
...Sublime.


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Loves Perfect Nectars

Honeydew dripping 
From the smiling petals 
In raspberry rose fragrance
Upon the corners amid 
Her soft moist lips ~
Kissing their lovely tenderness
Glistening buds of sweetness 
Perfumed pearls; sugary joy
Heavenly bliss in this, she'll taste.


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Chaos

what are you living for
is it that girl again
is she really that one
your only

lets get real
don't laugh it off
don't let your dreams 
carry you away from
where the truth really lies
where it really hurts 
don't confess your darkest
secrets to me
don't send me off into the
world unknowing and naive of its malice

the no's surrounds us 
all... pulling us in... closer
tighter, tranquility and stars
skin breathes skin, pores
mere holes to the underneath

is it that girl again
why does she always show up 
at the worst times
she took it from you, didn't she
stole right from you
and you let her
and you let her do it
over and over again

the hits, the burning, the 
outrages, the hangings

where are you
are you hiding in the closet 
what about the bathroom
that right
there you are
wrapped up in a towel 
blood stained and forlorn

my friend my friend
where have you gone


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But with the evil, came the good

All turned down to the worst
as the children lost innocence,
as the bums drank their last breath away,
as the man eating sharks finding their way,
to the over-crowded sandy beaches,
as the man turn to the woman
and gave her a slap across the face,
as the thef steals in the night,
as the coward goes behind his loved ones' backs,
as the oil lanterns spill over and burn the bridges
to salvation and paradise.
Something always happens to the good guy,
a knife in the back in the midst of dawn,
his woman leaving with another man,
he dying slowly of cancer,
or suffering from intoxication of the blood.
Poison. Poison, ravages his body,
oh, how could God let such things happen
to such a good man?
His life work, his social life, his nirvana
all destroied, burned away, turned to dust.

But with the evil, came the good.
Yes with time and time again
repeating itself in a circle of time,
across the crossed faces,
as blue eyed Death smiles
and as the girls grin,
Everything came into place,
Anyway with evil, came the good.
Indeed it had came right to his front doorstep.


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Selene

Swept into the night Selene..
Glistening beads her fragrance
Soft silk sensations warm breast
Sliding kissing soapy, showers; scentful
Dreams collapsing unto that the waiting
Perfumed tiles while the world disappears
The moon melting a hummingbird hovering 
Above their windows sill where she cries
Everything is right, pure; into the bedroom
They go and love as she, turns down the lights.


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Paris in my bed

this is the loyal trail
here the street of fantasies
for beauties - the soft path
where the desire 
whereby the caresses
for happiness by two
for pleasure by three


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A Letter To My Love

I am writing you a letter, dearest,
Because if I were to say what is in my heart,
I would be struck dumb by your beauty.
I write this to tell you that I love you.
I love you more than my own life,
And I always have,
Ever since I first met you, those many years ago.
I love your smile and how joyful you always are.
I also love to hear you sing.
Your voice is the prettiest voice I ever heard,
And you are the prettiest girl I ever met.
I love you for who you are.
You are always so thoughtful and caring,
Helping people, giving them a smile 
And word of encouragement or praise.
I have yet to meet a person
Who does not like you and say nice things about you.
And of course I admire your faith.
How you are always singing your favourite songs from church,
Or offering to pray for someone who is downtrodden or sick.
You have a beautiful heart; I am sure God hears you.
P.S. The florist ran out of pink roses,
(I wonder why :) so I am sending you some red ones.
All my love, all my laughter, all my heart... Yours forever.


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Penthouse Pleasures

Her blossoms unfolding their love's, midnight petals...
Capturing my heart; gently, turning over as she removing
Silk sheets from her beauty's nakedness; dry sweet perfume
Her fragrant strawberry cream, still clinging to her velvet thighs
Rose garden an afterflow, while she dreamnt; calling out my name
In her sleep fluttering long lashes, lovely, and all I could do was smile
Kissing lovingly her pearl white cheeks these, soft vanilla traces between.


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Skin Deep

Achilles' heel 
You’re another day older
The world’s much colder
She…

It’s not your fault
They were taken 
Don’t blame yourself 
for God’s mistake
Is…

Her beauty reflects your own
Her life reflects your future
Chasing rabbits will get you there faster
Loss of faith will bring you there faster
Watching…

The ball drops
It’s clever to see
What happens to us
And here we are
Waiting…

Yes, 
Take the evil out of this
You’re stronger
She’s stronger and always,
Loving…


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Little Girl, Dedicated to my niece

  Little girl at six years old,
She's having problems with herself.
  She looks at the ground and says she's fine,
But you can tell she's hurting when she can't even look in the eye
  Of someone else.

  Little girl don't you get tired,
Of staring at your feet?
  You're beautiful and I admire,
How you stay so strong each & every day of the week.

  Though fists and violence bring the past its just too much to bare,
Make you flench and soon you feel you wanna give up
  All that you have left to spare.

  Though hurtful words make your 
Heart shatter.
  You somehow manage to get through the rough,
When my day goes bad and i need some sunshine,
  Your smile is always more than enough.

  I don't wanna cry,
But I see beyond your mask,
  I see the pain you hide inside.

  I don't wanna cry,
 Cuz I should be the one wiping tears from your eyes.

  So here wil be no tears,
Escaping from my eyes.

  I'm imprisoned with the sound of your voice,
Young and brave with a broken heart,
  You want to be happy but they never gave you the choice.

  Though pills and drugs are all you see,
You keep yourself away.
  You don't wanna go down mommys path,
But truthfully you just want her to find your path and stay.

  Little girl i bet you didn't know,
That I went through the same. 
  And when I look back at me,
I see you in a way.

  And it's okay to cry,
I'll be there to dry ever tear from your eyes.

  You don't have to hide,
I know the pain you feel inside.
  
  And I promise I'll be your crutch,
Until you can walk on your own.
  I'll be the arms wrapped around you,
If ever you were to fall.
  And I promise,
You'll never be alone.

  Little girl don't you get tired,
Of staring at your feet?
  Open your pretty eyes and admire,
The beautiful world around you,
  That before you didn't see.
  
  

 


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Hawaiian Honeymoon

Holding tight her virginity..
Timid, twas her heart's tithe
As parting her silken garment
To offer her bride love's bloom.


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A STAR IS BORN

 

There is a sweet little girl whom i see each day,
she wishes to be a star,I pray that she may!

She has the jest,she has the power,
She is the star,star of the next hour!

She wishes to fly but she is shackled in school,
But once she is out,I bet she will rule!

she has a heart that wishes good for all,
her songs remind me of the early morn bird's call!

she has a dream,not short - far too long,
she dreams to change the world with her song!

she is so confident,so lively - so bold,
''but she cant decide her life'',her parents told!

the wonderful girl who should be rocking the stage,
is again in a school,I will call it a shackled cage!

she has a pen, a copy and an elephant book,
and she has to bear it all with a pleasant look!

last night was a shakira's show,she must have cried,
they think she is happy but she is dying inside!

this star will be killed long before she shines,
but I'll accuse the convicts in my rhymes and lines!

Derasest parents, no doubt you love us, you have carried us in your lap,
but you are not me and i am not you,between us is a generation gap!

Our thoughts are different,dreams and ideals too,
so how can you decide we will wear red or blue!

Be a good dad,be a good mom,dont always talk of the performance,
we need your support,your guidance and not your hinderance!

Hundreds of your sons kill themselves every year,
what more proof you need,is it not clear?

we have a life,
we are the teens, 
we have hopes,
we have dreams!!

and it was her right to dream,she dreamt of a star,
but I am afraid they will kill her before she goes far!!


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To a love ill never let go of, sorry

you whispered sweet doubts into my ears
but i was so blind to acknowledge the fears
ill never regret how i felt for you 
but you seem so far gone, i don't know what to do

i only did what i thought was right
but i guess i lost all fear and extinguished the light

Bay, i wish i never left 
but its to late to take it back

Bay, i wish i had some sort of sign
to know your OK

i have this horrible habit of making a mess of things
you might think it funny
but i jump when the phone rings

i hope you dont blame me for what happened 
but then again it must have been my fault
im sorry

i guess all those times i apologized were in advance
for the heartbreak that i probably brought down upon you
bay, im sorry, im sorry, im sorry if you ever read this
you'll finally understand the way i still feel about you 

nobody ever said it was easy 
but nobody ever said i would fall this hard

i miss you 

im sorry
im sorry 
im sorry 
im sorry
im sorry

please bay, im sorry 
please bay 



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Phantom Journals

Phantom Journal Entry 1
 Wednesday 8:03 A.M.
I found Jesus at a bus stop this morning. He recommended that I comb my hair. I told him if I had any nails I would hand them over.  Monty  found a shoe full of vomit by a dumpster. Someone had an interesting night. This apartment smells like stale french fries. Frank is still sleeping on the counter next to Mr. Coffee. There is a stray cat clawing at the windowpane. The town is gradually waking up. The park across the street is filled with shirkers. My mind is still living in last night’s conversation. But I don’t remember it very well.  Shit, I’m going to be late for 

Phantom Journal Entry 2

Wednesday 11:13 P.M.

Work sucked. I think the bartender is an alcoholic. She hides a flask in her bra. It fell out when we were in the stall together. Frank is sprawled across the kitchen floor. Monty steps over him to grab a beer. The stray cat is now sleeping on the windowpane. Nothing ever changes from morning to night. Except Monty is drinking coffee and not beer. 

Phantom Journal Entry 3

Good Friday 9:47 P.M.

The ocean left the brine. The girls here are all made of smoke, and their dreams are living in my beer. The worms are drunk on the stove. Frank passed out hugging the toilet. Monty takes a piss right next to his face. Some girl just asked me what I was writing. I told her that I was rewriting the Bible. She seemed confused. Her hair wasn’t combed either. The guy at the bus stop would be ashamed. I can’t remember his name though. The television can’t stop spewing poorly scripted ‘reality’ shows. This Friday isn’t very Good. 

Phantom Journal Entry 4

Monday 3:12 A.M.

My eyes are broken garage doors off the tracks. I’ve drank too much Red Bull. She keeps waking up and asking me for water. Apparently her mouth is in a drought. A dead soldier lays between her breasts. Frank keeps drooling on the carpet. My favorite ash tray is tipped over next to Mr. Coffee. This desk keeps hiding words from me. Monty wonders how much a plane ticket to Hell costs. He never sleeps.

Phantom Journal Entry 5

Thursday 12:31 A.M.

It smells of raw fish and bleach in here.  My palms are sore. Monty told me to stab myself with pencils to make sure I could still bleed. So I did.  That girl ordered me a pizza. But I forgot it under the couch.  The medicine chest is nearly empty. When Frank wakes up he is taking a trip to 5th Street to get more. I wonder if they sell bandages there? Will Mr. Coffee brew marijuana for us? My brain is starting to throw up. 

Phantom Journal Entry 6

Thursday 12:38 A.M.

This desk keeps mocking me. I offered it to the guy at the bus stop, but he said he didn’t want anymore wood. The dishes are now a chemistry project. But Mr. Coffee is always clean. I can’t get this girl to stop showing me her tattoos. I miss the bartender at work. She got fired tomorrow. So I bought her a new bra. The medicine chest is empty now. Frank is never awake when I write.

Phantom Journal Entry 7

Thursday 4:30 P.M.

I finally got the garage doors fixed. I guess they weren’t closed enough.  There is a ghost that keeps haunting the hallway in my dreams. She is pretty hot. Except she keeps tilting the pictures on the wall.
The thirsty girl still won’t leave. Neither will the cat. We may have found the cure for cancer in our dishes. But probably not.  Frank is talking in his sleep about stepping on rats. Monty is listening to Beethoven while he attempts to write poetry. He is an awful writer. 

Phantom Journal Entry 8

Monday 1:49 A.M.

The guy at the bus stop asked me if I wanted to drink his blood. I told him I wasn’t thirsty. The water was running from the shower. Frank was dreaming in the tub. Monty ate chicken wings with the tattooed girl. I can’t remember her name. I think that cat is hungry too. Mr. Coffee wants to go to sleep. There is broken glass sticking out of my feet. The sky is bleeding white. My mind begins to masturbate.

Phantom Journal Entry 9

Sunday 3:33 A.M.

The brine is looking for the ocean. The girls here are all made of smoke, and their realities are dead on the floor. This desk is growing a face. The medicine chest is full. Monty picks up a filthy habit from the black lake. I haven’t seen Frank for a few days. He must be under the couch. I robbed the guy at the bus stop. Turns out he didn’t really save much. The thirsty tattooed girl shattered Mr. Coffee last night. I will miss him dearly. Now my shot glass is spawning worms. 

Phantom Journal Entry 10

Tuesday and I don’t know what time it is

It’s been 369 days since I last wrote an entry. I’ve simply had nothing to say. Monty is living in the streets somewhere. I think of him every time I buy a loaf of bread. I wonder if he found out how much tickets cost? That cat finally starved a few weeks ago. I married that thirsty tattooed girl. I still don’t remember her name though. Frank went to sleep in someone elses apartment. Never did talk to him much. The worms are all marching in a line. Someone stole my medicine chest. I think it was Monty.  The guy at the bus stop was thrown into an asylum. But somehow vanished one day. The garage doors are now closed on a regular basis. That ghost finally straightened out the tilted pictures. I think I’ve been combing my hair a lot better lately. I am still a phantom to society. But that’s okay. Nobody knows my name.








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The Garden

The night air is cool and collective,
Running through my hair and face.
Even when I’m with people, I feel alone
In this cold blooded space.

It’s like walking through a garden
Of all your favorite foods,
But none of which can substantiate
For that one so special mood…

That mood, 
that beautiful frame of mind.  
I only go there with you,
And only you can make it unwind.

I discovered a passion unlike any other
And in my finding I opened a world,
A world I did not know existed.
I’m on cloud nine every time I think of you,
Just the thought of you brings joy to my heart.

This garden holds many beautiful things
Many delightful pleasures,
Many cold nights,
Warm nights,
Difficult frights,
Ecstatic times and unsystematic times!

But they mean nothing to me,
While I’m alone…

Walk with me through this garden.


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Twined In Scarlet

Gazing into enchanting emerald eyes, telling her...
How very beautiful she is, as she then kissed my lips.


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At the edge of life (part 1)

Joy, happiness, pain, sadness, love, passion, hatred, greed, tears, pleasure, grief, lies,
regret, pride, addiction, suicide.... 

Lots of emotions
Lots of feelings
Lots if confusions
Some are nothing but act, lies and performances
Some are truthful and painful
And Some are helpless and hopeless

I stand as a baby bird ready to fly
I blunder forth and back, Left and right
Where ever the wind takes me
 Just like the voices in my head moving inside my mind
The sound of the screaming nights, the stormy lands, the raging hungry oceans, the cries
in every drop in a rainy day and the broken heart of the earth.

The floating sea animals, the burning forests!! Because of the intelligent acts of human!

Thoughts, poetry, stories scrawl across the white empty pages... Meaningless words!!

Safe, secure!! Look at them no houses, no families, no shadows... Nameless!

They're hungry for hugs and kisses for a bosom and we get angry for getting a bad payday
and they aren't getting any!
Their only shield is the naked trees!!

The mask of blessings and the beliefs of belongings are wilting with the fires of
loneliness and guilt.

The music of the weddings
The screams with every new birth
The voices of the crashing bones when a body hits the ground...another suicide!
The shouts of a girl lost in despair holding her father in her arm screaming for help to
save him...another heart attack!


War, human, peace, god!!

Voices of thunders - god creation - Reach from the farthest, vast skies burning houses
trees and cities.

Human creation crashing the skies blowing homes, women, babies... Blowing them into pieces!

Soulless men!!

Somewhere in this world in this minute a girl weeps
A child cries
many dies
somewhere in this world humanity fades
Some are killed
Some are hurt
Some lost in dreams 

Lots of voices I can't handle 

The thoughts of an addict living with a blue hole in his arm barely losing it
The thoughts of a daughter brutally beaten from an alcoholic father
The thoughts of an hungry child of war dreaming for a family to love him
And the thoughts of many more

I should have helped them all, but I can't! 


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The Little Girl

The little girl all alone
her footprints stain the
sands of time
for which life 
cannot atone-

Misery was her only friend
sadness the only thing
that fate would send-

All the pain she shouldn't feel
hope long lost
this agony real-

Why was she born
if to know only tears?
How could she sustain
each day all her fears?

But one day as her sorrow fell
as diamonds to rain
came a beautiful angel
to assuage all her pain-

Embraced now in radiant, golden light
no more darkness or endless night-

Bereft and lost she will be no more
in Gods garden to forever soar-

Emerald as her Irish eyes
her body broken
but her soul to never die-

The little girl now a star
in Heavens glory
midnights keeping
her ageless story-


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Cargo

Commodities.
Packed up
Wedged together
Shut out from light and air, 
Little creatures indifferent to life or death
Stacked.
Branded.
Horrified
Of what comes
With the open door.
Looking for the first opportunity
To Leap
Escape
This intolerable life.
The Mass grave
Of a two-dimensional reality.


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To the lion-haired girls

I want to tell you
to keep your curls
but the allure of it
will find you one day.
You will spend hours
just to run your fingers
down the length of it,
and when you gaze in the mirror
you will see you,
but a different you,
sexy,
womanly,
tempting.
You will put on red lipstick,
and the lowest cut blouse you have,
push up your breasts
as the strands waterfall down.
You'll pucker your lips,
just a little more,
sway your hips,
just a little more
and the men will say,
you're so beautiful,
I prefer you this way.
I want to tell you
to keep your curls.
They are wild,
lion-formed,
complicated,
full of truth.


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The Girl and Her Kitty

The kitty played with its tail, 
The girl watched her. 
The kitty got tired and slept, 
The girl placed a hanky on her. 

It was an embroidered one, 
Her grandma's present,
No bigger than her kitten. 

The girl was her mom's apple of the eye,
The kitty was the girl's unique one. 

One day, the kitten died, 
The girl became a grown-up. 

Her mum is a grandma now. 
The embroidered hanky has faded. 

Just love is left behind.


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Joy These Bells

All we could think of, was her beautiful heart-shaped glass
Upon the beach aside the pool amid the halls,  she always 
Knew as I gazed the air grew dense twas hard, to breathe
Rushing home unto the bedroom we'd go with, Madonna's
Crazy for you filling my heart her notes while she slid atop
Our white sheets; her velvet splendour in perfections glow
Parting love's cheeks ever glistening as she, her moans for
Us, caressing her thighs deeper this light my tongue a sigh.


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Like a Flower

Like a flower you are
Mixed Beauty with generous attar
Flowers progression from year to year
Phenomenal that should be revealed

Some will be picked from the fields
That loved ones would be pleased
Some would be crushed by feet
As lovers wonder the fields
Some would dry out from the heat 
Plummeting seeds into deep beauty sleep 

Yet again to rouse every next coming spring
Spectacular art work that can’t be real
Where minds and hearts could meet
Admiring that's of nature novel gown 

So my words to you would be brief
Wake up my dear from your deep sleep
For Spring is not far from reach
Let nothing defeat your beat
For like this flower you will be
Beauteous, generous lady indeed 
Prevailing with each coming spring


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Once Bitten

Gazing happily into this mirrors glass
The purple streak, she left upon my thigh
Her love last night; breast aflame as she slid 
Soft kisses, across my lips, swollen;  fire and ice..
Meta rushing through these veins her scarlet beauty. 


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Beauty's, Red Rose

Lying her loveliness gently  back; again
Parting love's fragrant, scentful thighs..
Soft their joy as silk these skies; pastel
Pink, blue, her beautiful eyes; butterfly
Petals arching her hips longing my kiss.


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Das Ein Mannlein


Das Ein Männlein

The silent echo reflects through the lodge,
Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stum…
Repeating itself in the young boys head.
He is not yet a man, but stands proud enough to be,
Coming back here to relieve himself of his past.
Crying out as he reaches the splintering and tilted door.
The memories of the cold, the blistering cold overpower him.
He spends time collecting himself as the moon moves across the sky.

He had been here with his family-
Says the toppled dining room table.
He also wasn’t the only child in the lodge-
Says the curled up paper dolls in the fireplace.
There was music- Ein Männlein Steht im Wlade ganz Still und Stumm…
Echoes the toppled ivory-keyed piano in the corner.
There was a war, as the Russian Graffiti on the wall complains.
The crashed bomber-plane with the seat full of bones assures that fact.

He came back to the rotting lodge in the forest
Back to the overgrown pile of shambles to find something
As he digs he picks objects out of the rubble, a boar’s head, jewelry, dog-tags,
And finally the thing he seemed to have been searching for.
A baby’s bathtub, with a scrolled handle, stares at him through the dust.
What happened to the other child?
She still has all of her baby teeth in her sweet little baby head.
She’s been sitting in that bathtub ever since that horrible night.
When she was boiled to death by hungry war criminals. 


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Fleshful Flights For Fantasy

Caressing her marmalades delicious derriere
As if it's beauty were that her genies bottle ?
Three wishes a bouquet in colourful candles..
She licking dreams to quench, her rose tower.


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Joy, My Darling Joy

Joy blooms in Springtime
Joy embraces my sad heart
Joy sweeps away gloom
Happiness clothes me
In the brightest suit...handsome
Single smile lifts up my spirits 
Joy sways in the wind
Joy dances with me kindly
Joy surprises me
Shadiness passes
Away without a single 
Sound...no disturbance
Joy plays piano
Joy loves to hang out with me
Joy loves to uplift the blues
Joy loves bringing in good news 
Joy sings with me everyday
Joy sings a striking tune... 
Joy brings joy and love to you...
Joy sings a heartfelt poem
I dream of her every day and night
She's my lamplight 
She keeps me up all night
And she's quite a sight
She's so full of sweet, sweet delight 

I love you, dear JOY!


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Colour

She is red, a riot, 
Rolling with recklessness and 
Reaping the rewards of passion.

I am carpet blue.
Bubbling with banality, bursting
Boredom with silent fashion.

Colliding in the corridor 
We pace a purple paradox.
We’re her favourite colour.


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Where Is My Mind

My thumbs in my mouth as saliva drips out

taste like there's dirt in my finger nail

look at my hand, the others are clean

but one is painted by that Asian girl I met last night

...don't know what type of Asian she is...

Chinese, Taiwanese, Japanese, Philippine

....um...what are the other ones?

My heads on the ground and my hair is intermingling with the grass

I guess they're talking about the feeling of being chopped up

I feel pretty chopped up, in the inside I mean

If that was a visual, I'd be dead...right?

Like the fish I see in the sky

that can't be right, cause fish can't fly

they must be angel fish then...hahahaha

My thumbs in my mouth as saliva drips out

and the sun is out but the stars keep buzzing

they kinda fly towards and whiz pass me 

taunting little bastards, they know I'm trying to catch them

I think I tried to sell my soul to the devil as a kid so I could get all I want

Wrote him a note and everything and buried it underground

good thing I didn't dig too deep cause a second later

I got scared and ripped it apart...

My nail has that ying and yang thing painted on it

Good has some evil in it and Evil has some good

and that's the balance of the world right?

Like I think its evil that my dog died as a puppy

but the good in it is that he'll be part of the earth

And people that fall in love have something to live for

cause they have each other, but the evil of it is

they care mostly for themselves so its selfish

...hmm...I think I messed that theory up...

My thumbs in my mouth as saliva drips out

and I feel like I'm swimming; without the use of limbs

My heads on the ground and I'm pretty sure there's ants near by

But I don't want to move, cause if I move I'll have to get up

and when you usually get up, you have to do something

and I'm kinda just enjoying talking to the sky

even though she never answers back

but I always did like the quite ones

I put my hands in my pockets and I know there's nothing in it but myself

so I guess that's something right?

My thumbs in my mouth as saliva drips out

and I wonder what that Asian girl is like

Is she shy and smart like the stereo type

If we were to go on the date she could help me tip the waitress right

hmm...

My thumbs in my mouth as saliva drips out

and I hate living, but I love being alive...


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Stephen

Words can not describe how I feel
when you put your arms around me.
When you kiss me, I am whole.
When you tell me that you love me, I still get butterflies.
When you are not with me, I feel empty - 
incomplete. 
You bring me so much joy and love 
even when it is tough to deal with me.
You are the sweetest man to me, 
you put everything ahead of you.
You make me smile when i cry, 
laugh when I am angry.
I trust you with absolutely everything
I know you will never hurt me.
You are truly an amazing man.
You are my best friend, 
my love,
my forever.
<3


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I can think of everything

I can think of everything
example about you
or about you
and even about you


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RIP Curfew

Thank you for being in my life,
to think you were only broken twice,
you taught me how not to be late,
and how to get my timing straight,
my mother made you and loved you too,
she stayed up at night to make sure you show true,
I'm not going to say I'm happy you're gone
but i do rue the day you were spawn 
now that I'm 18, you've done your job, 
I'm happy you will no longer make my heart throb,
with every minute that i am late,
made my life full of hate,
so thank you curfew, and thanks a lot,
now my own schedule will take your spot.


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Comfort in my arms

As you lay right beside me
Snuggled tightly in my arms
I haven’t got a care in the world

Your sweet smell envelops me
Your soft gentle, skin caresses mine
As warmth is shared, our bodies curled

Stress and worry dissipate
Finding comfort in each other
As our two souls become one

We drift gently off to sleep
As our breathing begin to sync
As if our love has just begun

Waking still in my embrace
Not wanting to leave each other
But we let go all the same

Now we’re off to seize the day
Knowing we will return again
To that comfort we will reclaim


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Swirling Heights, In Buttercup Kisses

Spreading my derriere her wet tongue..
Twirling within circles so deep, her love.


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Untied laces

just realized this ticking of the clock
the subtle flow of the birdsin a flock
the passing days, the setting sun
the gentle breeze,the lost one
every year, i go far away from the memories
how fast it is, and how irreversible?
the times i had, with a a few of my best friends
all nighter every day,laughing at the regular trends
skinny dippin  at the darkest hour
watching movies, on the projector on tais tower
fights and sprowls , kissing and flowers
those years had everything droughts and showers
pigging out at random weddings, people trying to recognize us uninvited guests
dancing with the bride and running as fast as we can, when they looked at us as suspects
weird experiments, burning hangers in the kitchen

those trippy moments in that haunted apartment,
the worst of the memories , the best experiments
baked goods and cookies, made us high
watching darjeeling limited laugh and cry
their girl problems my guy issues
always had an advice although none of us had a clue


planning our future ,dozing off while smoking weed
we were always broke, no money for gas
sleeping till noon, playing videogames all night
while helping me out with my lipstick colors and girl fights
grabbing each others collar to give us chocolates
pitching in money to get a pack of cigarettes
 getting fired from jobs , failing tests
half an hour of comfort drink, how soon we would forget
"you are not made to work under someone""einstein also failed"
the same old motivational speech behind the broke frame
making future plans, plans of becoming big
one wanted to be a boxer, one wanted to sing
promising each other with a blunt in our hand
never to let go,till eternity together we will stand
even if we separate we vowed to reunite every year
we believed staying away would be something we cant bear

how i miss those people, the ones i shared my everything
from money to my dreams, discussing our summer fling
we held hands and walk through the flood
cracking death jokes,enjoying the scariest moments with kisses and hugs
i loved my boys, their expeditions were mine
we all found each other in the loneliest times
and its been ages since i last saw their faces
at the airport they came with untied laces
they hugged me told me this is not it
handed me a list of things i was suppose to bring
the moments were precious , we didnt know then
time never goes back  no matter how much we begged and yelled


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Little Girl Manicure

Little Girl Manicure

Pink enamel
bitten to
remnants of lacquer
not quite chipped
away.

Kathryn McL. Collins
September 29, 2013


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what happens to the brown-skinned girls

What happens to all the brown-skinned girls?
Sitting on the stoop waiting for the ice cream man to come
20 plats in their hair
Turning the double dutch rope
Sitting in the middle of the classroom

You know, that one girl . . . what’s her name?
ponytails neither pony nor tail
Who aren’t allowed to wear their hair down 
or sport Brand X Jeans

Who can’t wash that Diaspora right out of their hair
or erase their royal heritage

The ones that pop their gum the loudest
Run the fastest
Fight the hardest
Dream the most

Ones who don’t wear pants and go to church all day Sunday
got tattoos 
wear makeup
or slide into their short skirts on the way to school

Who are picked first for the team
picked last
or never picked at all . . .

Girls - who don’t have time to hang out ‘cause they “gotta go to work!”
for their new dress
or in their old car
to pay the light bill that momma “forgot” 

Girls who roll their neck
and their eyes
their hair and their hips 
to the rhythms of the Congo, Bronx, or the Swats

Girls who sing in the mirror as they glue, braid and towel on that
long . . . wavy . . . hair

Who, “hate that stupid light-skinded girl” because 
“she thinks she’s so cute”
or hate themselves because they think so too . . .

Some may have never had him hold their hand
call them beautiful  
take them to the father/daughter dance
come to their rescue . . .

See he was
in jail/out of town/in denial/out of time
insane
to forego all the love that just one little brown-skinned girl has to give

Girls. Not little Halle, Beyonce, or J Lo
But young Angela, Carol, Michelle, and Alek
Those awe-inspiring girls who don’t yet know 
that they are

Elegant, intelligent 
engaging
enchanting . . .

Who don’t see themselves 
On movie screens - in magazines
The eyes of the world, little boys
Their own

Who buys them a bomb pop when the ice cream man comes?
Tastes the sweet undertones buried in dark chocolate
Loves them?

Loves them for themselves
Who loves them
Loves them
Who loves


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Somber Song

Whilst sitting at her piano,
A tune it just came out,
It was so full of sadness,
We all had so much doubt.

Lydia was her name,
She was on the way to fame,
Her music was a special gift,
And gave us such a lift.

The townsfolk they all gathered around,
To greet this girl they'd found,
And she became an idol,
In this little country town.

One day whilst they were walking,
The lane was deep in snow,
The townsfolk came across this girl,
It's the way she wanted to go.

So now when they hear a piano,
Their thoughts all turn to her,
And so this Somber Story,
Still causes their heart to stir.


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When a GIRL is quiet

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
Questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
Around
When a GIRL answers "I’m fine" after a
Few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be here forever
When a GIRL calls you every day,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL texts you every day,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
Without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
Her future. When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
Than that.


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Nighttide Seductions

Waking up wet her loveliness lingering...
In pools of perfume gathering as, trickling
Her tongue tasting; thick, deep inside my lips.


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The Sad Girl Walks

The Sad Girl Walks

Walking through the cemetery
Her eyes stare blankly ahead
A veil of silk covers her face
Hiding her pale white skin
Her mouth is locked in a frown
There is nothing in her world to make her smile
She tries to talk but she has no voice
Not that anyone would listen to her
It is still easy to see what she feels
The pain that she had suffered
Tears have stained her dress
How long has she been crying?
Has anyone ever told her that she’d be okay?
That life has moments of pleasure
Who is this girl who walks among the dead?
What secrets do her mute lips hide?
She is all alone
Condemned to walk without a life
Just a sad girl in a sad world
Walking among the dead
Hoping that she will find a life
A life that will probably never come


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A Game Of Chess

Shall we adjourn from the 
morning morgue
For pizza and a game of chess?

Rays Curve Along The Earth

It is daybreak
With morning comes the 
shining off the layers of the 
lake
And mourning the opening of 
the floodgates
We went down to the coffee 
table
Skipping past the cherry tree
This tree, it served us fruit and 
oak
To love and to live beside the 
wood
And there we played a game of 
chess
[/i/The bishops had fallen but 
the castle was gone
The White king shoved the 
guardsman pawn
He fell soon after
To roars of laughter
They all adjourned to the 
morgue
To the final morgue]

Tea for two and two for tea
Still Café Paris for you and me
We lounged in striped sky blue 
beach chairs
Our raking gazes grazed the 
summit of the hill
I would not have sat still
But for the girl that had lain
The girl wreathed in flame
Scratched her shoulders and 
laughed with the rain
I wondered: did I dare?
Hold her hand and descend into 
the uncharted lair?

Gears and Cogs

It was between April and June
I began to build my bicycle
Fitted in a third wheel
By then I couldn't tell what was 
true
What was real?
Took her down ol' King's Road
Gave her a short spin
But for the third wheel she 
would've broken
She survived, just barely, a 
token
The token piece remained 
unbroken

I BUILT a house of upside down
I KNOW that lost is lost but 
found
She was my house of upside 
down
I built her and she built me
We built each other in the 
machine

Gliding Through The Winter 
Wood

It is nightfall
With dark tags along the 
midnight sun
Unwanted but unaffected
She shifts the curves along the 
earth
And ruffles up the winter wood
Where I have been waiting
Where I have wasted many a 
night praying
And on the tree bark painting
For love and for my love
And the taking of an oath and 
tea

What then shall the leaves fall
From thy hand onto the snow
And when shall there be 
daylight once more?
For now I shall be gliding
Gliding through the winter 
wood

Dark amongst the silver white
I am king and you are queen
In an endless game of chess


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No Such Thing As Happy Endings

The first night they meet
He knew it to be true
The girl who lied before him
Was genuine and true

He looked into her eyes
The deep browns didn’t lie
She loved him just as much
Yet he didn’t try

The nights turned into mornings
The days went by to quick
His chances seemed to slip away
With every day that went

Then finally the day had come
She said she couldn’t wait
Time had passed so swiftly
He was far too late

It was then he realized
He made a huge mistake
He let the girl he loved
Simply slip away


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a love story

With the ringing of a horn and a man yelling all aboard. I knew I had to get on somehow. I saw a line that I climbed Hid out in a pile of boxes that laid below deck. When the ship set sail I knew I was going somewhere. Knew my life was soon to start. The first night I laid low, the second night I met a girl who stole my heart loosing myself in her eyes I slowly let her into my life. She saw who I was an unwealthy and uneducated man, with a life of unknown adventures ahead. The ship hit and started to sink. We grabbed each others hand and ran quick. Wish I would have met her in another time where we could have laughed and cried. Never thought it would end like this holding the hand of a girl I never kissed. As our souls drifted away and we became one. Our bodies lied limp together and the sea won.


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Tender Splendour

Twas the Autumn of two thousand and nine
Landing in London, with my dearest best friends
Aside my side and John, joking about Sarah's wild hair 
As Tristen enjoyed his drink Karistia, gazing out the window...   

                                                                         ..."In`Progress." *


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Impending Night

The impending night has fallen upon us
It woke with much persistence
Our hearts fled from its rage like a doe from a rifle
But the blast had already been made. . .

People fall like rain
The clouds are crestfallen with grief
And the darkness has no mercy 
Rain soaks...leaves an impact
The falls are devastating...

She was so strong, like a diamond she shined
Only to burn away and be one with the grime
I never saw her go
But the angry darkness of her essence—strangely glows...

He choked on his words, his memory
Like a child swallowing a pill
It is sticking in our throats
Against our will
And the dose ever grows. . . 
 
Who will stop the night?
You wicked thing how achingly stormy you have become!
Rich in your light as it smothers you whole
Leaving the rest to the droll sound of its toll

She burned
As they watched in angry happiness
The smoke of her spirits filling our hearts
No expressions...heavy depressions 
He was left to melt and rebuild

His wick ignites—burns are second nature
Though images are hard to swallow
She still talks to our souls
Her story still to be told
Like diamonds never found

A flame of hope hovers
We remain instilled in the rot
The darkness smothers
Its heavy slumber always waking


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Girl On A Train

In the early morning rain
I saw a blossom fall
landing softly on the garden wall
and for a moment I tried to recall
that girl I met on the train

I had a second cup of coffee
as I tried to remember her name
looking out on the rain,wondering if she even liked me
Well, beauty is only skin deep all the same
But would I ever see her again?

Indeed it's a small world
My friend told me he had also met a girl on the train
as he described her to me
I knew it was the very same girl that I had met

He had gotten her phone number
And said that they might soon go on a date
But he couldn't remember her name
I wondered if her heart he did win
But I found out later she had a twin!




           From the Title: early morning rain













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School girl crush

She asked,
girlfriend #1,2 or three
what number am I?
Don't you love me?
All the other girls
break your heart.

Will you be my one love?
My one and only?

Say, "I love you"
From me to you is weird
From you to me
is a dream come true.
 
3 is a crowd
1 is lonely
2 is just right.

When our eyes meet
I know it is not just fate
for us to be together
it is destiny.

I didn't believe
in love at first sight
until I met you.

For my eyes
I see only you
Just to hear one day
that you love me.

You and me = one big happily ever after

She said
love is a fiery torch
love is war
and love is hell.

I will steal you
from your lady.

You want me to love you?
your wish is my command...


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Earthbound Angel - 1


Earthbound Angels (1)

You know her,
or perhaps 
someone like her,
getting by
day to day
no wings
allowing 
her to fly

Average,
says many,
but to family
her attributes
are plenty;
a kind nature
wearing a smile
for all

She carries
her heart
on the sleeve
of her words
giving freely…
a glimpse
into a love
filled soul

© Debra Squyres 2013


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Supernova

Swirling galactic galaxies twined galacia...
Inside her beauty's, beautiful, stargate lips.


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Nirvana Number Nine

Slavish slipping time 
Betwixt her warm thighs
That she may cry; wet 
These circles revolving
Through diamond cages
Claimed amid her alibis
Tethered, unto this... 
Moment which hangs 
From the regalias rafters
Theorems lucid love notes.
 


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Tangled Vines

Tangled vines kept closed the door
that led into the secret garden
the small girl very patiently
one by one untangled them

It took her oh so very long 
until at last they were all free
slowly, and so excitedly she
opened the door and peered

Her eyes wide as saucers
as she beheld the beauty
a stunning garden decked 
with flowers made of jewels

contest: Tangled Vines  written 06/30/2013


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flowers in my minds garden

all i remember are those cold nights when my fingers were ticking on the black pads
describing the way your presence changed the universe inside of me;
planting flowers in my minds garden.
the way you described your desires and thoughts in poetic form were like mine long falling leaves carried by the wind and drawn to the stars.
waiting for that moment to arrive at that place where you would realize that it could've
be me that would whisper those goodnight phrases right into your ear.


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My Favorite Devonshire

Rainbow Girl .... by Carolyn Devonshire

rainbow girl
her heart glistens like a prism
compassion, wisdom and love
always offered to a needy friend

when others seem to abandon
when there are no rays of hope
beaming from above
I take solace in her comforting words

her humility is astonishing
a friend who has only recently entered my life
and yet she makes time
when a friendly voice can brighten a day

she doesn’t realize how much she offers to others
standing out like an opal on desert sand
magical friend
turns frowns to smiles

how can I reciprocate
for the lift she provides
iridescent, a star that surpasses all others
gratitude does not seem to be enough

rainbow girl stands at my side as I near the end
thousands of miles between us, 
but just a phone call away
resurrecting struggling souls -- her forte

                                               her worth is far more than a pot of gold

____________________________

so strange it is,
that someone fair
could stand outside her skin
and write a poem, of loveliness
about a distant friend
a poem she puts upon her shelf
she never sees the mirror's face
the very same endearing depths
that radiates within herself....

in every word she tells
the poem she writes so well...
describes herself, 
from the beginning to the end
the words she penned, return and bend
and aim right back where they began
describes the girl, we know so well


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You're My Plague

You plague me with your sweltering disease My heart throbs in unease You carry me off to a far-off island Your breeze keeps me flowin’…scraping sand Your names escapes my lips I tell myself, “Get a grip, dude…” But you decided to intrude... My blood drips to the floor I’ve been losing balance… The instant you pushed me aside Your quietude devours me… I can’t help, but hide… I feel horribly disheartened…feelin’ too insignificant To start my day with a good note Too discouraged to be motivated to run… You trade me your pain in the past I consume it like a bear My stomach is churning persistently…you’re running too fast… I’m dowsed in despair My eyes stare vacantly…into space…they roam happily Your vigilance keeps me safe and sound…I dwell in your tranquility Your dreams caress my own… This intriguing comfort never makes me feel alone I’m under your dazzlin’ spell… This is heaven – not living hell! I’ve been bruising myself over you…for a while now The moment you abandoned me that night… Your rejoicing mends my gash…heals my mind… I think better of you – everything’s black and white I feel so exquisite when I’m around you… So inspired to reveal my might…just shine your light On me…and remember to meet me at sun rise… But I still feel malnourished… By your sweltering disease My heart refuses to beat in perfect rhythm – my high hopes nearly perished By your forceful breeze…pushing me on my knees I’m stumbling off my feet – I’m not at all pleased I’m not in the mood to be teased… I’m suffering…I’m not discreet How did you push me off my feet? Why do you make ME feel so damn miserable and incomplete? You plague me with your sweltering disease My heart pounds as I fall upon my blood-stained knees You carry me away to an unknown place Your voice still rings in my ears… I glance at your admirable face I’ve faced you way too many times – Your sparkling with majestic brilliance and pure grace


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AM ALIVE NOT DEAD

Crazy how when one problem is solved,
Another one arises,
When one thing is lost,
we find another one,
When we give up
someone else moves up,
When we think its the end of the road,
the journey has just began.

Crazy how when one stops hurting,
worry wants to take over,
When we are down and crushed to dust,
freedom calls, wanting to sweep you away like the wind.
Crazy how when i cry,
I realize am normal,
I have emotions and tears.

Funny how When my life is out of control,
When am broken and hurt,
Scared, thinking that this crazy world,
Is going to bring me down,
i find a reason to smile
I realize AM ALIVE NOT DEAD.


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Peace at last was not found on earth


I live my life wondering why I’m here
Trying to right the wrongs of the tormented
When the wrong has control
And no one gives a darn

I wander trying to make sense of a way of life
People trying to make the American Dream a reality
When the Dream is an illusion
For the Middle Class and the Poor

In the midst of all the world’s drama
A young man mourns for the loss of his brother
A little sister tries to hold on to the brother left behind
Only to lose him just like the first

First love, young love stops short of forever
A young girl devastated by the loss of innocents
A dad trying to help his little girl through it all
The loss of her mother now her lover

A best friend, a little sister, a girl friend, and a father traumatized
By a young man choosing to follow his bother into Sheol














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The Melody Of Love

Cupid, Draw Back Your Bow...

                                        "In Progress." *


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The Beauty In Love

Warmth laced amid fragrant; sweet water
Perfumed flowers as our breast, they kissed
Embers craving ecstasy which danced 
Atop their hidden pages; designs...
Spanish tiles and beautiful Carmelita
With softened hands carving our names
Etched deep these walls; the beauty in love. 


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Love's Bossom

Lifting my breast gently, unto her heart..
Softly squeezing my love suckling her spirit
Gathering daisies she sings, a lullaby in dreams.


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Coveted Girl of Thousand Lights

we feed in every lovely mysteries of love
others feed on tears of broken heart
garner on spicy concentrated kisses,
do we know karma holds its name?

pardon dearest shadow for stabbing you
every night i cried, tears of blood infinitely
the pain I'm feeling, i know couldn't be compared;
to that dead veins around you, coveted girl of thousand lights

remembered your days caressing my soul, 
seems like heaven always shines indoor
the days without you make the world stops,
earth shakes out of spin, crazy color of skyline reveals itself.

now we two hold in promises out of you
wishing every you becomes a dew, fragrance of joy
my spirit holds your name, peak of distant rain
wishing every you become a dew, treasure of soul.

thanks for holding my heart
thanks for showing your love
pardon my soul for letting you live in hell
your name holds the greater eternal fame.

thanks coveted girl of thousand light
with you had been the best thing in my life.


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Simply not infatuation

When I first met you 
you were so cute that
my brain just couldn't compute 
so I went mute
 As I stared in awe 
Wanting to know you
Noticing that 
the reason my heart ached was 
 because of you
A girl much more than a pretty face 
I never wanted to make love out of lust
but then I realized 
that it was in you I trust
So I must change 
to show you
this isn't simply a fascination 


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Winter Winds

Winter winds blow all around. 
I’m astonished by the sounds of Jingle Bells and reindeer stomps. 
All of this should never stop. 
Snow lies on the ground, if only that weren't too profound. 
Time only leads to decay, but not on Christmas, not today. 
You should see the angels pray. 
Toy trains, and rag dolls are the things kids used to want. 
But time has changed, yes so have children… 
Santa seems as if a villain. 
So much fighting, so much crying, it sounds as if the kids are dying. 
“I want money, I want fame, and these toys are just so lame.” 
But that’s the product we provided. 
Second chances are no more, Santa’s plot we wait for. 
He’s sick of this, he doesn't care, it’s as if he’s not wanted here. 
He gets ready to take it all back…. 
WAIT! 
There’s still one toy left in his sack, it’s for a little girl, half a world away. 
Now how could he have missed this, on the perfect Christmas day? 
He turns around, not time for war. 
This toy, the girl is waiting for… It’s not a toy like you’d expect. 
She didn't ask for electronics, or stupid games such as Sonic. 
She just wanted one small thing… 
She’s waiting for something EXTRA special this gloomy day. 
In a bed she sits and stares, at the window near a chair. 
She’s so weak, and all alone. 
She doesn't even have a real home, not where there are bright lights anyways. 
They've decorated a weeping willow, the only tree around the “home”. 
So she has lights to see. 
It’s Christmas after all, but there’s no way to calm the raging sea. 
She’s dying, it won’t take much longer, and she doesn't care about the tree. 
She needs a new heart extra bad. 
So, Santa’s bringing her the one thing, that will stop her parents from being sad. 
He rushes to the hospital in his golden sleigh, and climbs right down the vent, 
He’s saving Christmas today. 
Santa rushes in just in time, finds a doctor, the girl is dying. 
It’s not what he usually does, but he stays and watches as they save her life. 
He waits for her to wake up. 
“Santa, you saved my life, oh thank you so much! I needed my heart to be touched.” 
He just smiles, and kisses her hand. He’s so glad he didn't destroy the land. 
Christmas is still a special day. 
There’s no more sorrow, no, not today. Santa smiles though some are still ungrateful. 
There’s that one child, standing in the snow, her life can now be started in the evening glow. That’s life for the grateful, loving, caring, and the thankful. Most of the time Santa just gives toys. For all the good girls and boys. But not today, and not tomorrow, once a year he gets rid of sorrow. So sleep tight and say your prayers, Christmas time is but once a year.


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Nakusa

She stands there, 
silently, 
as the khols
and taals
begin
to play.
If money had afforded, 
they would have found the
wrong chromosome.
Pat silk
Sitipati
Bangles
ornate
heads
fingers
feet
and she
begins
to sway.
Maatsya, 
the fish, 
life begins.
famished cries
unheeded, 
A crumpled woman, 
abandoned child.
Now she is the tortois
lifting herself
from the milky sap
of oleander, 
castor oil.
Bending, 
fingers spread, 
She gazes, 
smiling, 
sorrowful.
fearful.
Varaha- 
the boar.
She pulls
herself up
fingers dancing, 
feet stamping.
Narasimha
She overcomes.
She stands.
She spins.
Dowry.
Her worth measured
and found
insufficient.
Threats.
Shame.
A marriage worth
a decade of work.
She squats, 
Steps.
Vaman, 
The dwarf.
Her eyebrows lower.
Her lips pout.
Gazing off into
some far distance, 
she runs, 
stops.
Turns.
Returns.
She lifts her axe.
Parashuram
She sweeps her arms.
She holds her head high.
Her eyes twinkle
and she is free.
Shaking her finger, 
she sits
and takes up
her baby in her arms.
Rama.
She strikes the floor
right to left
bending
stretching
Head.
Neck.upraised foot.
A boy.
Joy.
Honor.
Pride.
She joins
her hands
and slides them
down
before
her eyes.
Before
her heart.
Lifting her finger
she philosophies, 
teaches, 
trains.
She lifts
her child.
He walks.
He runs.
She stirs.
She waits.
Her eyes
shift
from left to right.
Looking up, 
she lifts
her arms
open
inviting
above her head.
She rolls
her neck
and cradles
her womb.
A needle stick.
A girl.
Nakusa.
She falls to the ground
and she
cries.


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Her Beauty, In My Dreams

Washing over me; her warm breast, weighing joyfully amid such soft palms
Arms about dawns waist; dreams, smiling as gazing into her eyes to find..
Beauty that we share; butterflies, dancing within our hearts while chasing
But a breath; nothing has changed yet all is the same and everyday, is new
Time stills its frames; hands untying her negligee; lovely, her mirrors image
Twined in this love as satin falls unto the floor; about these fragrant kisses
Capturing hearts aneath reflections cast betwixt, chains of silverish hues...
Rose petals strewn atop the scented pillows; insatiable hungers to quench
This candlelights thirst; a poetics witness unto desirables rivers of pleasure
Murmuring gently loves silkened voice into the wanting sea; sands and surf
Soft velvet, weighing joyfully amid my palms; her breast, thus now glistening.


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Face Value

Her Cheekbones, smooth as  pebbles 
Grasped tightly in his sexed up hand, sweating indelicately
Resembling that night the thoughts between the sheets were conceived
Weighing like soaked white carpets
Beneath flea market stands
She Is Beautiful, she is beautiful
Belladonna, noxious

Dusty eyes and wavy hair
Neruda book shoveled away somewhere deep
Inside her closet full of chewed up bones
Illumination, dying in Latin never seemed like
A juxtaposition before the closing of the soul
At least his eyes are a Cambridge blue
Jazz muted in Mortality sings on dangling participles  leaking out
From the saxophone

What is that worth?

Thick waist, hourglass coke-a-cola
Mama-sita, mira mira 
Lolita-like N.Y.M.P.H.O.ed up eyelashes
Coating tears with manufactured glob
Somebody put in a bottle
The higher your skirt the more your face value

Goes up, up, up pass the mystery between monogyny and the thighs
Right between the slit ice 
Like Mmmm, and he slides past the first three bases
Oooh Girl you look so good in those Six Inch Heels
                     What is it worth, 
                             to throw away your 
                                                                            Worth      
For a toaster oven and a washed up guy sitting on your back porch
Scratching his head waiting to be given a pardon for his misdeeds
While American Media stole him away
And blamed it on the graffiti on the Church Walls when it was really 
Hipshot for the Hip-Hop , This shameless act of cytotoxicity  
when it was really 
The Devil trying to slow dance with the pretty girl behind the stage

Eyes that lie time after time and are almond shaped but see no further
Then 6 feet deep and a saxe blue sky
Baby girl, on auction in the club
(Going once, going twice, it’s okay we’ll sell her half price!)
Like a slave, a sycophant child  to some sick twisted game
Dancing in the Matrix style of killing the clock
Biting off the hands, to chew them up, spit them out
To pretend like the world isn’t ending over our heads
Seven kids, bloated waist, waitress fingers and lips
Smile, Misfortune dotes on you, Lucky One

What are you going to do when your looks run out?

Heyyy girl, what’s your face value?


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Homesick

There's this girl that I know who misses her home
The place filled with laughter, her joy, and her hope.
This girl, she is sad, and I've seen her heart break.
She just doesn't belong here, and she doesn't want to stay.

When she's at the beach she just sits and she stares
Across the water to who knows where.
The ocean is the one place she has found on this Earth
That fills her with any kind of peace and hope.
Though still she is sad, she's not where she belongs,
But at least at the ocean the fierce homesickness calms.

She'll walk down the beach and look out at the water,
Totally uncaring of those who might watch her.
She knows she's not normal, that she isn't like them.
But she knows that they cold never understand.

This girl that I speak of, how I know her well. Yet at the same time I hardly know her at all.
It seems to me as I walk down that beach that
I'm never gonna know of who I truly speak.
Because as long as I'm here, so far from my home, my heart, my pain there, my hope,
I am only half here. 
I am only half home.
And all that I want....I just want to go home.


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The Window Glass

Looking at the window glass 
the reflection began to appear
Ever slowly I could see
the looking girl was me 
Behind me in a long long line 
others began to show 
Each one awaiting for their turn 
to see what they could see 
I took my time and really looked 
and saw a second me
Now this one's who I really am 
not who I used to be 
The first one's light was fading fast 
gone before the looking glass 
I grabbed the girl and pulled her through 
she's who I want to be 
There's love and peace etched in her face
The old one's gone she's been replaced 
to look no more into the glass 
I've found my life it's here at last


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Brittany

___________________________________

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...at the edge of neverland
where spring butterflies dance in dream
a loving salutation rang through the valley 
as softy I sang..


a great gift
had arrived
with a breath
of loving promise  


a tendril of life
twirling and touching
in search of loves nurture   


  
outstretched and reaching 
my girl of cherry blossom beauty         
opened her eyes of felicity
with blue ocean innocence
and topaz starlight 


in that precious moment of silence
cathedral bells rang
for a beautiful gift of gods grace was born
an angel named "Brittany"
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___________________________________

Contest ~ "My Children"
My Sweet Girl ~ Brittany


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When we pour salt on slugs, when we fall in love

How is it I could love someone I could not win back with a poem?
Or that I could not touch with an Iris?

How is it I could ever find something in someone who thinks the moon is hiding nothing!?!
Or think it queer that I look for dead locusts, to hold in my hands, to bring back.

How is it I could love someone, 
who when it’s over will meet me like a stranger in the park to chat about the weather or a movie and salt the Irises at her feet. Like dying slugs.


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IM SO SORRY

im sorry i never told you that i was a intimidated by you

the way you talked and walked and acted so strong

when i ran away you were left alone to deal with the ramifications of my life

you were just a little girl and i abanded you

we were best of friends as well as sisters but i left you all alone

you found out you had cancer and it tore you apart

a 13 year old young girl forced to face the world alone

im sorry i was a coward and lied to you about my life

the things i did were embarressing and i was out of my mind

i couldn't hold your hand or wipe away your tears

i wasn't there to comfort you or tell you it's all right

i never lied about loving you that was always true

inside  my head i was dead and didn't want to destroy you

your best friend died and you were a wreck

again i wasn't there but never did a day go by that i didn't care

you had two children through the years and this aunt wasnt's around

they grew up not knowing that your sister loved them so

you struggle with pain on an everyday basis and im three thousand miles away

i ruined our relationship once again when i told you i was gay

the drugs destroyed my inner being to the point of no return

i did the worst and hurt the best but never no more than i betrayed you

im so sorry little sister that words are not enough 

id trade my life today to take all my ugliness away

behind these eyes lies a remorseful soul longing to love you and make this whole

i try to reach out and talk to you but you never answer my call

i guess this is all my fault for hurting you long ago

in time thats your time ill be waiting here to see your face and hear your voice

saying that you still care

i love you sister!!!  

(FOR THE CHRISTIE AND SHARON "I'M SORRY"CONTEST)                


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The girl with a curl

Her name is Mary
not Virgin Mary
or the girl with the dragon tattoo
it's Mary
the girl with a curl
when she is good
she is too good
when she is bad
she is too bad
in her teen years
she dated Wild Bill
and tried almost everything
jail
drugs
and orgies
but in her twenties
she married the other Bill
the guy from the hedge fund
who smells CK and wears
only Armani suits
and now she lives in a mansion
in suburbs
and has two beautiful kids

Her name is Mary
The girl with a curl
when she is bad
she is too bad
when she is good 
she looks like a saint...


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The Imposible Man

The minute I look at her, 
all things around me stop. 
Or seem so, since my heart 
beats so fast. Faster faster it 
beats. My mind melts, melts 
like a popsicle on the side walk 
on a hot summer day. The butterflies 
in my stomach flap up a storm, a tornado 
in my stomach. And every day, I fall in love 
even more so than the last. Every time, every 
time her eyes look upon me, I can't help but look 
so deep into them. Like orbs of pure and utter bliss, 
and I just get lost. Oh my impossible, improbable girl, 
how my search has been so long. The many mountains 
and rivers I've crossed in search of a place where loneliness 
ends. Even so, I have found you. But time, time, is not on my 
side. Too many obstacles, much like the rest, separate my morality 
and my love, from my mind. My impossible girl, oh how you look at me 
with those unwavering eyes. How you talk to me with that sweet tone in 
your voice. I don't know what I should do. I know not whether to wait, and 
let time tell it's tale, or if I act, and tell my tale for it. All the better. For it is 
uncertainty under certain events that dictate life in its truest form. I'm lost, so lost. 
Waiting, for my impossible girl to call for me, to finally, call for her impossible man.


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Country Girl



She's just a plain
good old country girl
never complains a lot
doesn't ask you to buy her the world

riches silver or gold
just wants to be loved
a gift that cannot be sold
such a sweet and loving heart..

Smooth talking southern drawl
words spoken peaches sweet
down home girl sexy swing and all
countrified and country fed...

When I first met her
my soul took shape some song
her energy playing master violin
a tune so pure and so strong..

My lady wears perfume from her bower
so lovely inside and beautiful within
country girl the dreamier flower
my soul in rapture above all earthly sin..
~ ~ ~ ~ ~


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The Suicide

Manifestation
Like maple grass shoots
Like attack cobwebs
Like forlorn lovers
Like someone should be addressing the morbid
The end
The can't
The shouldn't
These things manifest in my hands
Like well fed baby dolls
Like those who can't get by
Like burgundy tears
Like purple lashes
That will all melt away soon too
Under moss engraved cobble stones
Like ear wigs in fresh bark
Like hard candy 
Like a digested apple skin
Like goodbye mama
Goodbye papa
Goodbye sister
Eternity to me is pomegranate juice
In the bathtub 
Like decapitated deer
Like road kill
Like the smell of burnt toast
Like frozen peas on a bone bruise
Manifesting into a heart
The heart 
Of her 
The girl saying goodbye mama
Goodbye papa 
Goodbye sister
Her kisses take the breeze
Like a leaf blower blowing leaves
Like smoke from a cigar
Like tea kettle steam
Like a house in fire
Eternity is a bath tub
A finger prick
One dead end click
Of a cell phone
A corse rope
A belt 
A necklace too tight
An anklet that doesn't fit right
A girl blowing kisses in the air saying
Goodbye mama 
Goodbye papa
Goodbye sister


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Mystic Creatures

I was drawn to another world,
there a gentle light shone out.
A beautiful girl stood waiting,
gazing at the lava rocks around.

A formation so strange to me,
where I could see ages gone by.
Here I could only think not talk,
“This is usual to do you see”

"Hello young lady how are you"?
I sent to her with a loving thought.
"Where are we, that you are alone"?
“Why are you in this dreary place”?

Her light brought a tear to my soul
as she replied, with sorrow clinging
"I am the spirit of this great Dragon"
Sending the creature’s picture to me

I realised what my vision was.
There on the ground he lay,
The grey lava rocks his life form
A mighty Dragon of a bygone day

Had I looked from a distance.
It would have made sense
The lava rock head and neck
All parts of such a wondrous creature

I looked further to see more.
An arch glistened with rainbow suns,
were the wings with which it flew,
a crumpled heap catching the dew

Scattered shield shaped scales,
dreamed of colours swelled
I felt a great sadness at this sight,
turned to the girl to ask why

It came to me with love,
from mystic ages gone by,
that she was the his spirit
with her dragon she did fly

This was my Dragon,
together we had flown
I was his spirit guide
thought you would have known

Such a long, long, time ago
"Why then"? I sent to her,
“Is this mighty creature so”?
Thoughts aren’t sent any more

Earth creatures have let us go.
"We of the Spirit flying so free,
Held by the thoughts of you,
can’t you see, you make us be

Creatures of our Spirit land.
are calling out to be reborn.
The Phoenix and lovely Unicorn,
held in mind for all to know.

“Now leave me with him as I must go,
I have to search for a new Spirit so"
I left the young lady as she did say
Re-crossing back to my own day

I thought things she had said to me,
they cannot be left in memory.
There on this day I vowed,
to see more clear the creatures there.

I thought of a mighty dragon,
a spirit girl guiding his great form.
This was the day he was reborn
I renewed the creatures in the spirit so.

That they are of eternal breed,
a great light came on for me,
as in their world they were made
that they now will forever be

A voice so soft, with love so free,
flowed into my thoughts to thank me


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Organic Verses Plastic Women

What has happened to women and girls of today
Once natural and organic
The plastic surgeons and cosmetic companies
And Beauty magazines have blown all that away.

False hair lashes and brows
Face lifts botox Bigger lips 
Liposuction off the hips 
Nose jobs boob jobs
False nails on your finger tips
On your hands
Laser treatment on skin
Foundation and fake sun tans
coloured contact lenses
Not happy with what nature has sent us.

Society demands through books Tv and magazines
Are turning girls into Barbie dolls made of plastic
Stand near a flame and they'd melt away.
And an in possible dream of perfection
Give me a natural organic girl any day.

Be happy with yourself no ones perfect and shine and radiate sunshine.




Peter Dome.copyright.2014.July.
What's wrong with being natural


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You Shall Fear Me

The scream of evil,
has awoke him.
Deep in that chamber of
fiery hell. 
He will slumber no more.
Demon energies bringing Him forth.

Provoked by the promise of pain.
Do you know what has awoke?
You shall fear Him like no other,
for He is the Belrog!

Pounding steps through 
the great halls of Moria.
He is coming for me
I feel the heat.

The black pain, 
weaving itself into my heart.
Charring my soul,
as He takes me whole.
 
I shall not pass through the light,
but into the darkness of night
I no longer fear him.
Feeling the demon 
I want more!

The blackness of His evil is great.
Fear me,
For I am the Belrog!


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Girl

Girl, did ya ever find a guy and wonder
Why’s he seem more than a friend?
He takes you over and under
A starry night outside your bed
Can it be he wants to last?
He cancels dates just way too fast
The tension’s drawn it’s hard to see
The things to be that I can feel


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Just a girl

Who am I ? 
               ill tell you this im just a girl with in a girl, hidden behide layers of my self. I am 
selfish and cruel , beautiful and charming. i'm the girl next door with hidden lies. I'm a sister 
and a pretend mother..
                i'm just your average teenage girl, but i have pores and deep lines etched with in 
my soul. Of course im not perfect but i never said i was.
                                        i'm just a girl.


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I See You Everywhere

What do I say now? Where do I start?
Without you beside me, I'm falling apart
Thinking of you, know it isn't too smart
But I See You Everywhere, oh my poor heart

Love in her ways
She drifts slowly past me
A spring in her step
Oh she's moving too fastly
Upside down now
She turns my heart and soul
Reflecting in my mind
And in my heart, a hole
Every time she crosses my mind
I'm reminded of the pain
No chance to love her
She'll forget my name

So what do I say now? And where do I start?
Because without you beside me girl, I'm falling apart
Thinking of you, I know it isn't too smart
But I Still See You Everywhere, and oh my poor heart


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i am happy

i am Happy

I have found an improbable girl
not an impossible girl.
I am happy.
Because, in any other likeness
she is still she,
In any other likeness to me.
No matter the time
No matter the day.
the impossible cause 
has found an improbable man
to find another 
like me again, 
would be like me
Highly impossible, but
highly likely.
to find myself looking
would be to find her looking,
again
The impossible lady and her impossible man


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Soft As Sweet

Lathering her pink moist lips..
Enjoying the cream of my love.


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Should My Time Here End

My heart,
I have lived within you from the day we met
Now the passing hours seem to be shorter, still
Before I leave I must confess the reason why I drifted away
For had I known of your true desires from the start, 
I would have saved you all the grief
I tried to show you what love is but wouldn’t give you my soul!
You found it hard to trust ‘til I spoon fed it to you
It’s just too bad, late in the game, the picture became quite clear
So I stepped away though it hurt me to; I did bid you move on with your life
I’ve told you time and again, how very sorry, I am
I pray God will send that special girl so you can settle down
That finally, constant searching will end and peace will build a bridge
Have no fear, all will be well, and your angel I'll remain

Then come the day when you’re ready, God will send that girl for you
Know that, the many times our wills would clash, I wanted you to see
That, words come easy and are sweet, yet untill you truly love
That pain which haunts you still, will ever be
I am grateful for the times- good and bad; we saw one another through
I wish that you'd give God the chance to love you as you should 
We'll be forever in each others' heart no matter where we go 
With all my heart I pray, you find the happiness each soul deserves
Should my time here end this day  
Should the sunshine light up your world no more
It'll be my  fervent prayer to see you inside of heaven's gate! 

~*~

Notew:  For Waylayee Whitlock's "If I Had One Last Day To Live" Contest


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Sliding Down

I’m hoping for my dreams to become a reality
I’m hoping for a phase of gratitude
I’m rejecting my hopeless fate
I’m accepting your side of the story…but don’t intrude 

Unexpectedly, I believe in love in first sight
I grab the rope for extra support
It burns like a vertical line of fire
I’m unable to climb, but I seem too far from my desire 

I’m sliding down the rope, hanging from heaven 
They’re distraught by my absence
They’re cheering for me from down below
I’m sliding down… 

I cherish you like my own belongings
I designed you on my bedroom wall
I have you displayed deep in my heart
Believe me – you’ll never split it apart 

Every day I long for your touch – you changed my life around
My heart is blazing like the zealous sun…I prize my freedom and progress
The world is spinning endlessly as I kneel upon my knees 
And I imagine the memories we share with each other 

I’m sliding down the rope, hanging from heaven 
They’re distraught by my absence
They’re cheering for me from down below
I’m sliding down…

When I reflect upon the joyous times,
My heart never fails
To pound vigorously for you
I’m sliding down 
I’m looking forward to spending the rest of my life with you 

I see the light in your eyes
I don’t see an insidious nature in you…
I wish I hadn't believed in the lies
I never felt like a hopeless victim until I gave in to the darkness 

I’m sliding down the rope, hanging from heaven 
They’re distraught by my absence
They’re cheering for me from down below
I’m sliding down…

I’m glad I've met you in the first place
We’re a perfect match – 
Don’t deny it…you made me feel handsome
We’re on the road of victory
We’re making great progress
We’re hanging on the edge,
But we were rescued 
From sliding down…

At least we’re kept ourselves alive……


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Help

He tells her his problems,
Expecting to be comforted by soft lies.
She says his problems make her mind ache,
That he is just a liar,
Expecting attention.
But what if thats all he wanted?

A few days pass,
And she hasn't heard from him in a while,
One day she finds a note under her door that reads,
"Screw this place, I hate you all,
I thought you might want to know,
This is the end for me, whether you care or not,
I'll never see you again", 
And the girl thinks he is joking.

A few days later,
The boy was not joking,
And ended up killing himself.
The girl was heart broken,
Thought it was all her fault,
Takes her own life in a spiral of depression.

This may be metaphorical,
But make sure,
You don't make the same mistake,
If a friend comes looking for help, help them.
Regardless of how they have treated you,
Not trying to help someone,
Who is about to write a suicide note,
Is that not the same as having their blood on your hands?


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THE MOST BEAUTIFUL

Never has it ever occurred to me
In my whole life on earth
That I'll come across a soul mate like you
So beautiful and unique indeed.

Beauty is mainly physical they say
But yours goes beyond that
To illuminate your hidden features
And accentuate the uniqueness in them.

The sun prouds itself as the most beautiful
Lucifer boasted to that once
But the sun's rays is cowered by your smile's brightness
And Lucifer bows to your beauty's superiority.

Beauty as yours are Angel's version
Beauty comparable to none
Beauty emanating from the depth of your essence
Beauty Numero Uno.

The wind whistles
The birds of heaven sings a eulogy
Flora sways to the beat
All dedicated to your heavenly bestowed beauty.


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awaiting Cinderella

around and around
up and down
the merry-go-round 
goes round 

again and again 
and again
as the sounds of music play
fond of youth and the gay
and the bells 
in the  one horse open slay

flashes of color and detail flash quickly by
elegant wooden carved animals

with shiny painted tails
prancing horses with nostrils flaring
regal lion with full curly mane staring
and a golden chariot awaiting fair
Cinderella


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Our Night

Dry chill in the air under a sky sprinkled with stars like glitter on felt thick as dust.  Faint air of chimneys in the distant town wafts lazily by.
Night falls and it's sounds awaken.
Distant howl of the nightly pack, some unrest as cars dart down the nearby road.

Despite it all, the security we create is palpable.  Legs entwined as I pull you close, feel your warmth, you skin soft to my fingertips.  You chatter from the cold...I draw you even nearer for a nibble on the lips followed by a deep thrust of the tongue.

Ironically warmer now, though we are naked. Skin to skin, pheromones at play.  You body quivering and soft moans emanating from a place no one has seen.  I drink you in, in waves. Your moans are matched only by the heat of passion I feel now as we are sitting, facing each other in a moment of pure love and expression. I can make the lines of your face faintly through the steamy air we've created.  I sense peace, pleasure and security.  You are beautiful.  We are joined as one, warm and wet, the musk of sweat and sex too much to ignore as we continue this love dance.  

Coolness at last, the doors swing wide. We walk, talk, and you are mine.  We explore the subtleties of our faces, necks, arms, chests.  We know one another as we do ourselves.  We are one in spirit and body.  The night ambles on, as our time draws near.

Parting, how hated.  I fumble for a last kiss, walk away, trembling.  I sit, stand, run to you again.  Once more, with passion.  You can't go, but you must.  Not forever, but for now.  Though separated by dimensions, you remain near in a dream and in my heart, forever.


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That's Where The Lord Lives

I walk outside to see all that I can see.
Over there is our house, our home,
In the distance, you can see.
And that place of hallowed happiness
Forever has been our home
And forever will be so evermore.
That house is small but raised us tall,
From the perfect parents who loved us so
To the perfect sister for which every man would want.
The house built us all up strong.
More than a mere building,
It is a place to love and be loved,
A place that hands you hope that you give right back, 
And a place of everlasting faith.
This home is where my parents taught me about God
And opened me up to Jesus.
They opened the eyes of the blind for all to see,
And the blind included me.
They taught me to be the best I can be;
The best things in life are free.
They have taught us so well,
And they all have saved my soul.
Even if I am not there now,
I carry Him with me.
I carry them with me.
I carry Their values and Their teachings with me.
In this house, this home,
We reside.
We cannot forget this.
This is where my Mother lives.
This is where my Father lives.
This is where my Sister lives.
This is where We live,
In this loving, caring, beautiful home
They made just for us.
We cannot forget this either.
This is where it all began. 
This is where the hunger and thirst was created;
This is where we are fulfilled.
We cannot, we must not forget this:
This is where God lives.
This is where Jesus lives.
This is where The Lord lives;
The Father and The Almighty.
This is where We live;
This is where We reside.
We must not forget this.
We must not forget this:
What a beautiful and perfect life this is.


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Too Close Am I

I shattered my own heart,
Wrecking balls, tumbling decisions,
It fell upon me too late,
Forever and now I will lose what I held so dear,

But I held it out at arms length,
I let it fall, the uncurling my fingers,
Sinking into an emotional seat that engulfs me,
I so desperately buried the threat,

Happy once, I have not forgotten,
The taste of joy upon my lips still,
How could one ever forget the ecstasy that is happiness,
For we all seek it within the nil,

Berserk and rampant in my head,
A beast set loose upon my mental state,
So silent am I, my comfort so walks away,
So silent I can hear the screams echo within the blank,

Damp and dark are my thoughts of late,
Cramped tight inside, no prison break,
Hoping to find my way,
Before fear swallows me in regret,
And I become lost in my own wake.


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Jacket

Tremble
my arms are around you
I meld
Into the void I simply am held
I know you
Are you around
Come out of hiding
Don't make a sound
I like to know you are helped by my pertinence
I am so fervent and distance so learned
I place my arms around you
You choose to be with me
I learn that you're near me
you can't deceive me
We walk in a park
Cold and bleak and dark
The moon shines and covers us
Tremble..
You are spoiled by my touch
end all
And I simply can not reach
Stave off the cold
My jacket around you
I make you bold
I breath warmth into you
Cover you and discover you
I recover the last breath of your secret
I understand you
Listen to my input
I want you to be great
Walk with me, near me
Enter my fate.


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The patience of distance

The longing that's settled
Tears at my sides.
It grips my heart
Ripping slowly.
Leaving moans and screams
To consume the still 
Quiet air 
That surrounds me.
To feel him,
His touch light
And demanding
Throws me into a haze.
But his touch
Is far far away.


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LOVE

When love talks it speaks with beauty 
And when it wishes to take action the world shall change 
Among all the stars in the universe and the galaxies a like 
Beauty captures each 
It teaches to speak in calm words 
Refusing to fight 
The light that you see when you hit rock bottom 
A tall tree in a barren land 
Carrying away grains of sand and returning soil 
It is creation 
Royal as any blood line 
It is found within 
The darkest tunnels 
And most evil hearts 
You decide when this action is to start 
Shaking the world with an iron fist 
It clears away the mist 
That shrouds us all 
It makes a blanket to capture the ones who fall 
True love happens however small 
You make the choice and your soul carries action
Fractions of scars are all mended 
And its the strongest force that is given 
Love braces the world for the gravest storms 
And it is to appear to you in what ever form 
A girl to be the finest jewel 
And a man to refurbish it with a tool 
he makes the girl refined with love And disturbing to beauty 
The power in us all is instrumental 
And it all starts with the choice of love


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Children

There was little girl with large, owl eyes
beaming curiosity outside her window sill,
eying that new girl across the road.
She looked at her.  She was a skinny,
shorter than five-feet, sandy hair from
the Pacific shore, and eyes that were the sea.
She had a smile so lively and spirited
and contagious for she smiled too.
The little girl jumped from off her bed,
took her eyes off the glass,
strapped on her playing tennis shoes and
yelled to Mrs. Fannigan, "Mama, I've finished
cleaning my room. I'm going out to play!"


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A Daydream


To my assumptions my brain went out of function
It is a mess; it is moronic; it went out of logic
My brain is still eluded by this madness still diluted
Do not want to see it concentrated
Because my world is still dilated
Like a woman is labor and
My heart made of paper
Soon to be torn later...

As my mind wandered its intimate thoughts of a woman 
Her right, brown and black eyes pierced threw my eyes 
Right, strait to my heart. 
As the image moved into existence 
I could not believe this 
It is a woman of a young man’s desire 
Sparking a fire which I couldn’t retire
Seeing this appealing but I was only dreaming  
As this madness revealing my assumptions...

As I switch off my mind from its virtual mentality 
I opened my eyes into this so-called reality 
Spring forward like a jack in the box 
Being the end of my slumber 
Dragging my body to its final gloom: the shower 
Inhaled meekly, exhaled deeply 
Doing this repeatedly
As my mind moved backed and forward 
Like a rectangular wave motion 
Came to a solution
Which I hope to be with the wrong conclusion
As the day progressed 
Hoping to cool my heart on my chest 
With my assumptions...

As the sped threw like a kid in cocaine, mental pain 
Too much information put me out of focused 
You should have noticed 
My day contracted like stretched rubber band 
All of a sudden I so myself lying on my bed
As I deduced my life like a mathematical deduction
Closed my eyes for a second 
And I was back where I started:
To my assumptions…

To my assumptions my brain went out of function
It’s a mess its moronic it went out of logic
My brain is still eluded by this madness still diluted
Do not want to see it concentrated because my world is dilated
Like a woman is labor and my heart made of paper
Soon to be torn later...


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Blue eyed girl

Blue eyed girl of Pacific Ocean.

You are blue eyed girl of Pacific Ocean.
Like me through face book of heaven.
Being interrogated I have seen your naked beauty of Pacific Ocean.
Where enjoying only blue water and blue eyed girl of heaven.
 See Beauty of your undressed hidden spherical dia.
Where enjoying intensity of beauty reaches to bottom of pacific.
 Beauty of brevity is so specific.
Tolerance not to be measured
Not to be magnified.
Enjoyed only blue marbled crystal floats in Pacific Ocean.
Where blue water flows beneath my waist to a motion. 
Saroj khan[sakha


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birds love

Birds view:
When I first saw u as a little princess
I knew you will be a beautiful woman one day
Your eyes were so soulful 
They looked so mesmerizing
Your smiling lips a beauty to revere
That one day will steal the world
I know your hair flowing in breeze
Will set many a heart palpitating
For you I salute oh! My little princess 

There you are my little one I can, 
segregate you my darling
My foresight never failed 
You are my golden girl in red
Standing apart from the blackening figurines around,
Your hair is a riot as I imagined and the glow never hiding
I could spot your sexy frame 
Are you the colorful or is it my sight
That makes you the golden girl 
That I cherish in flight

Be sure to stretch your arms 
For me to land with claws all drawn in
Never to hurt you my child
Lets seal the bond begin 
When you were a little one
To the beauty that you have grown 
Right under my sight of admiration….sunkan


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Find the Inner Child

Has the little girl been lost?
The one who was left behind
Who saw the world through naive eyes
Who had only the simplest things in mind
And desired only love and affection
From those who could not seem to give it

Where is that child today?
That girl who so often dreamed
Of gallant princes on white stallions
Of castles on distant hills that gleamed
Who wished for that one great love
To come and sweep her off her feet

Is she gone forever?
The tender heart that became tough
She believed that things would turn out okay
She just needed to pray hard enough
Then she would be (and do) the right thing
Instead of making more mistakes

Do you think if I found that child
That I could go back to the long-ago time
To the innocent spirit that saw truth
To the hopeful soul and purest mind
That knew someday all would be well
And believed God had a plan





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Friendly Love

There are a lot of things to say
Why do I feel so alive when you're around?
There’s so much to do today
But how do I get rid of the clouds – shadowy and gray
We're lying on the ground...
Looking at the stars overhead... 

You are my beloved friend – 
Our love won’t break or bend
I’ll love you until the very end…
I’ll love you endlessly…our happiness blends
Like coffee and cream– yum! 
I know…these rhymes are quite dumb…aren’t they? 

Our light will shine and burn out the night 
Maybe there’s a star in the sky that scorches with love 

You are my superb friend – 
Our love won’t wear off or wither away
I’ll love you until the day I die
I’ll love you every day…our delight will be
As sweet as pie – how appealing 
I know…these words are overused…aren’t they? 

Our flight will be as dazzling as the elegant eagle 
Trained to ascend for more than half his life – or we’ll be like the seagull!! 
We could fly there and catch it someday
Fly…fly..fly…with me! Shoot the bull’s eye!
Our love will never die…so don’t say otherwise
Or I’ll sink in dismay


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Just To let You Know

I’ve eaten the chocolates you brought last night
   in the box that was prettier then the taste of the candy
 
   oh… 
forgive me, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful
 
   but... 
I’m not that kind of girl you know 
  one who is bribed by roses and Whitmans 

   nor...
am I likely to fall for fluid practiced lines
  meant to make a girl swoon and fall in love 
for a careless hour of your time
  with your hungry, shallow anticipations…
of removing my pearls and chemise
 
  you know…
the one who waits with excited expectations
  for your silvery seductions...
just yearning to be seduced 
  by your lover boy’s touch
 
  or …
for a midnight tryst 
  that ends before it even begins
 
  oh yes... 
I see your majolica, opaque heart 
  It reveals the opacity of your dull mind 
 
  nay,...
you interest me not 
  my heart rises to the golden boy
the one who laughs with his eyes
 
  and...
he really does see me with his heart
  the one who listens- who knows the color of my eyes 
he spends $1 on my favorite kind of licorice

  not… 
$20 for a meaningless box of chocolates or…
  roses meant only to impress
 
he's the one who learns quickly 
  he really wants to know things about me
those little endearments…
 
  you know...
like what my middle and last names are
  he knows and sees what I have to offer
it will be appreciated by a true heart 

for I am not an empty headed
  young, seductress 
  waiting...
to sweep you off your feet 
with empty lines and ploys 

  no...
I am not that she 
  who expects fancy gifts 
unloading your checkbook of it's contents
  putting out her soul for sale

  no...
I'm not some plastic Tinker toy 
  you put together and then pull apart
 
  so… 
I think I’ll just wait until he comes along
  If not…
when I’m alone I’m happy 
  the smell of the dogwood
their fragrance in the breeze
  I’m okay with just being me


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Girls

We live behind chipped nail 
polish and smudgy makeup. 
None of us are perfect, and 
none of us are whole.

We let boys carry our heart 
away on their gallant white 
horses,
Completely aware that they're 
not our princes. 

We cry at romantic movies, 
Only because we know that 
that glamorous love 
Doesn't exist.

Our expectations are too high 
for our reality, 
And our hopes are larger than 
our dreams.

We often let our infatuation 
with boys make our decisions. 

Drama is the boat we ride
On our way to maturity, 
And jealousy is the iceberg
We can't avoid

Best friends are the people we 
call
When there's the littlest things 
that mean the world to us,
And we're dying to tell 
someone who cares.

We make big mistakes, 
Are we're all beautiful for it.
We all have similarities and 
differences, 
But we're all equal.

Our nail polish chips, 
And our makeup is never 
perfect.
We're girls.
And we're pretty amazing for 
it.


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Angel lullaby's


Dimonds are not beauty. Beauty is people and things unknown. Things unknown that swirl around in a young child's mind and happiness amounts to a flower crown made for a small girl with the soul of a faire. Happiness that comes from the pure joy of looking in your mothers deep brown eyes and getting warm fuzzies . Joy that spills out into a smile when a wise woman tells her that the little floating fuzzies in the air are baby angels and that when it thunders it's just there mom singing them an angel sized lullaby a lullaby that makes her big blue eyes sparkle....But the wind changes and the sparkling in her big blue eyes fade and the flower crown withers and dies and the baby angels turn into dust and unknown things still bring joy. But so do things that bring trouble and those big brown eyes sometimes betray her and the thunder is just thunder and baby Angels and days of simple joy vanish ...But if she waits just for the right moment the clowds will gather and the sparkle returns to her big blue eyes and the wounderful liquid leaks out of the sky! spinning and spinning her hair dripping. She squeezes the big blue eyes shut and suddenly the baby angels return To the sky and the Flower crown gets a long drink of water and blooms once again and and the angel lullaby returns to the air and rings in her ears and those deep brown eyes watch her spinning and remember why they fell in love with her and 
finally she is home !!


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My Rita

Rita, the feeling is so real
For you, of all the love and 
passion
My Rita, how do I make you 
feel?
Loved, or out of fashion?

Rita, I’ll be the one for you
Forever by your side
My Rita, whatever it takes, I’ll 
do
Our hearts, we’ll never hide

Rita, you came to me my love
In just the nick of time
My Rita, tonight we’ll rise above
You’re in your red dress so fine

Rita, the feeling is so real
For you, of all the love and 
passion
My Rita, how do I make you 
feel?
Loved, or out of fashion?


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Courtship

When being told you're “perfect”
but that it's not enough
what can you even do
in pursuits of love?

The seemingly endless process of
meeting and greeting
sharing, laughing, loving, caring
even becoming attached to family, pets
all so that it may come to an abrupt
ofttimes one-sided end- 
it wears me down
I'm far too young to feel as drained
I'm far too young to feel as pained
I'm far too young to feel as enslaved and betrayed
by this process of courtship as I do

Those older and wiser counsel: 
Patience, waiting is never easy
The right one will come along
You're a good person with a good heart
and you've got a lot to offer
It's their loss
*sigh*
I already know all of that, 
but it doesn't mean I accept it
It doesn't mean a part of me
cannot fear that the one I held dear
should have been mine to keep,
mine to fight for, mine to live for,
mine to die for
But what can I do?
What can I do?


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YOU CHANGED MY WORLD

OK GIRL WHAT YOU TRYING TO DO TO ME,
FROM THE VERY BEGINNING YOU WERE DIGGING ME
CALL ME UP ONE RAINY DAY,ASK ME TO COME OVER AND MAYBE PLAY

NOW YOU WERE THE ONE WHO REALLY CHANGED ME AROUND
TAKING ME TO CLUB JUICE AND SHOWING ME THE TOWN

AT FIRST I WAS YOUR PROJECT,YOUR PROTEGE,YOUR GIRL
YOU TOOK ME AROUND AND OPENED MY WORLD

NOW WE STARTED OUT FRIENDS AS WELL IT SHOULD BE-
ENDED UP LOVERS TO THIS DAY SUPRISES ME

TO TOOK ME TO THE WILD SIDE,BUT NOT ONCE WAS I AFRAID
YOU TOOK ME BY THE HAND,THATS HOW THE FRIENDSHIP WAS MADE

YOU OPENED YOUR HEART,YOUR LOVE,AND YOUR HOME
NEVER ONCE DID YOU SAY JUST LEAVE ME ALONE

IM NOT THE KIND OF GIRL TO KISS AND TELL
BUT BEHIND CLOSE DOORS,YOU TAUGHT ME WELL

NOW YOU WERE MY FIRST,DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS
THE RULES OF ENGAGMENT WERENT REALLY EXPLAINED YOU SEE

OVER THE COURSE OF TIME THE INTIACY WAS REALLY SWELL
BUT NOW IT WAS OUR FRIENDSHIP THAT REALLY STARTED TO FAIL

NOW ALL THE WHILE I WOULD SAY "AJ WHY ME"
BECAUSE YOUR BEAUTIFUL,SPECIAL AND CARING YOU SEE

NOW I GREW TO ADMIRE YOU MORE,AND MORE
IT WAS OBVIOUS I LOOKED UP TO YOU,IT WAS YOU I ADORED

ITS YOUR STRENGTH,YOUR CHARACTER,YOUR INTENSE PASSION
QUALITIES THAT ARE APART OF YOU,THAT ARE LIFE EVERLASTING

SO NOW THAT YOU TURNED ME OUT AND TURNED ME ON
RUMOR HAS IT  THAT YOU NOW WANT ME GONE 

IT SEEMS YOU THINK THIS STRAIGHT ARROW IS GAY,
GIRL IM NOT GAY...YOU JUST TURNED ME THIS WAY

DONT YOU REMEMBER LOVE-IM THE ONE WHO'S STRAIGHT
I WANTED TO GO OUT,BUT NOT ON A DATE

BI OR STRAIGHT WHAT DIFFRENCE DOES IT REALLY MAKE
MEETING YOU WAS NEVER EVER A MISTAKE

SO NO THERE'S NO BETTY,JANE,SUE OR SALLY
IT WAS JUST YOU,AND THOSE FEW TRIPS TO CALI

I CERTAINLY DONT WANT TO ALIENATE OR PUSH YOU AWAY
YOU TOLD OTHERS IM"YOUR BEST FRIEND"WAS THAT A MISTAKE
IF I LOST YOUR TRUST,MY HEART WOULD BREAK
YOUR MY CONSTANT TRUE FRIEND IN THIS SIN CITY STATE

REMEMBER THE ADVICE,THE SMART WORDS YOU TOLD ME
DONT TRUST ANYONE ,DONT LET VEGAS MOLD ME

I WISH I COULD BELIVE THE WORDS YOU SAID IN YOUR VERY HOME
LATELY WHEN I CALL ,YOU WONT EVEN PICK UP THE PHONE

AM I SO SAPPY OR SORRY TO THINK YOU WOULD STAY
PERHAPS IVE SAID TOO MUCH,AND YOU WISH I'D GO AWAY

I'LL GIVE YOU YOUR SPACE AND YOU GIVE ME MINE
HOPEFULLY WE CAN FORGIVE EACH OTHER,AND WE'LL DO JUST FINE

  IF I SHOULD DISSAPPEAR,FALL OFF,LEARN A LESSON ONE DAY
WHO WILL REALLY UNDERSTAND THE"INTRIGUE"OF JESSICA
I GUESS YOU WERE JUST DRAWN THIS WAY-


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la la la's just killing me

about who does or not does in literature
we meet so many dogs
barking dogs
biting dogs
all kinds of dogs
some with pedigree and those collars
with shiny medallions
or stray dogs for which
leash is their salvation
and their freedom has the effect of a yelping…
for whom saw Hitchhiker's Guide intergalactic
they know
rezistance is useless!
for others it can be a mouse literature.
white one 
sitting quietly in the closet
and nibbling on paper shelves.
what's behind the paper does not matter
it could be a trap
and literature not possibly be a rat
no!?

I do not know what is about with all the literature lately
But sure it's not the girl in the fourth grade
that girl who runs and
her panties always fall
or her teacher's fault?

finally
 [I pray]
rezistance is useless
could be hell on earth


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N I N

THIS GIRL HAS NINE INCH NAILS
EVERY TIME SHE SCRATCHES HER WORDS
I THOUGHT MY HEART WOULD FAIL

NEVER THOUGHT I COULD IMAGINE
STOP
WAIT A MINUTE
SHE DUG SO DEEP
MY WORDS HAVE NO RHYTHM

SHE WRITES YOU A POEM
AND YOUR DONE WITH HER HYPNOTISM

THIS GIRL HAS NINE INCH NAILS
EVERY WORD THAT YOU READ
SHE CUTS YOU DOWN TO SCALE

NOW WHAT ABOUT WHEN SHE FIRST BEGUN?
I THOUGHT SHE WAS A MAN AND WAS PRETTY SPRUNG

O!
BUT SHE'S STILL HUNG
SHE'S GOT TO HAVE THE BALLS TO ROLL YOU UNDER HER TONGUE
DAMN!

THIS GIRL HAS NINE INCH NAILS
AND EVERY POEM SHE POST
SHE JUST PAINTS IT ON HER NAILS

SHE'S LIKE A
ESCALATOR
ELEVATOR
REACHING HIGHER 
GRABBING HER PEN
AND BEATING DARTH VADER

THIS GIRL HAS NINE INCH NAILS
CDA GOT DUMPED BY HER
CAUSE SHE NEEDED SOMEONE TO MAKE HER WAIL

I THINK I COULD TAKE HER
JUST NOT IN FORM SLAMMING
CAUSE SHE'S THE CREATOR!

O!
BUT WE COULD BE THELMA AND LUISE
EVERY MAN GIVING US WHAT WE WANT WHEN WE ONLY TEASE
DAMN!

SHE'S LIKE A
DOMINATRIX
CONTROLLING THE MATRIX

SO WHICH PILL TO SWALLOW
RED OR BLUE? 




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It's Time

Theres a momment when you  realize your not a little girl anymore.

Mommy and daddy arn't there to run too.

You have to make your own choices.

Your finely free.

You get to do what you want.

No one setting rules for you...

Your life is perfect...

Right?

This momment is the one you've been waiting for...

But now that its here...

Your eyes are getting teary...

Already longing for the "good old days"

The good old days where...

Mommy would sing you to sleep...

Daddy would rock you in his lap when you where scared...

You knew you where safe...

You didn't have to worrie about being judge...

You knew when you got home there was someone to love you...

That was the good old days...

Now its time...

Time to go...

Go out on your own...

Alone...

Its time...

To go out and start a life of your own...

All grown up...

You're not a little girl anymore...

It's time...

You're ready...

To start a life of your own...

Little girl...

Farewell...


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Sewina

He was a sweet talking guy,
Sewina was his name,
Led a girl to his passion waters,
The thirst was all the same,
Cloaked in all his sadness,
Bursting within from shame,
The girl released his hold,
Without pushing further blame,
For he kept himself in torture,
And for that she could not remain.


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Ugly vs beauty

I just want to be an other pretty face.
The girl with the amazing eyes, or the girl with the beautiful legs
  Amazing, I am not .  
 Im a dull girl who swims through this world of bright colors.
No light shines behind my eyes, only shadows of dreams that never 
came true.
I am that girl in the back of the room.
I am the girl who looks down.
I am weak for I can't find the key to my beauty.



Beauty such a harsh word, such a hush world.


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Lori

Lori,
was a beautiful strawberry blonde
i don.t know which i love best
watching her eat juicy strawberry's
or playing volley ball
Lori what eye candy you are as you
get wet and lay out on the beach.


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Imagine

I wonder if you seen her, if
 you did your the best cause i cant rest 
I have to find whats divine in my mind, 
the right person to make a story come 
To life, right here on this one night let
Her flow like a airplane taking flight
Wait a minute that doesn't sound
Right she cant flow like an airplanes
Flight she's my imagination, but
On this night she can shine bright.



Just imagine


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the descriptive injury: part I

someone asked her what she was looking at
as she stood in front of the large picture window in the kitchen
in the abode where she presently resided---
the question came aloud from another room,
as if the questioner was busy themselves & only in passing
did they see the girl standing
with eyes focused,
arms at her sides,
as if in a private state of wonder
(& why a private state of wonder seems to be ample food for the
popular & public, pedantically preposterous, who prey upon the
rest of us---we’ll never know) &
so without hesitation they rambled out their comment,
not sticking around a moment for an answer &
as if that itself was not an answer to such a question,
the girl standing in front of the window
neglected to say anything, instead,
taking an extra moment to enjoy what it was that she
had been privately concerned with,
whatever images appeared out there
that her own sense of sensory perception
was devouring, free of the babble
swirling all around,
incessantly---


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Your Will Be Done

You did this, you pushed the wrong buttons,
It was not supposed to end this way.
So now I hide behind these blinds,
I begged and pleaded you to stay. 

You never saw that what i sacrificed for you was way beyond my powers,
But input everything aside for you and now you bring out the sorrows. 
So thank you for showing me what your expectations were with me so you earned your crown,
So I say this as my finial words, "May Your Will Be Done".


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Inner conflicts

Trees are falling down in my world.
The sun has gone down and it's not hot anymore. 
The season is winter.
I find more and more that the dark side is speaking to me in tongues.
She wants me to be bad and lean over to her. 
I am in a tug of war match.
But I don't want to be.

I run screaming into the church to forgive me for I have sinned. 
I ask them to wash away my unpure thoughts. 
But than I remember that were all human.
I am allowed to make a mistake.
I leave a paper trail of my regrets and I detest littering. 
I am hopelessly in love.
I am hopelessly in lust.
But the bottom and the top of my heart
belongs to the one that I have fallen for.
 
She owns my heart.
She owns my eyes. 
She has the ability to make me cry.
The daggers she throws I deserve them I know.
So I take them as punishment for my lustful thoughts.
Home is where the heart is and my heart is with her.
She will never realize how sorry I truly am.

In these last couple of months I have devoured her trust.
I never realized how big of a part I would play in destroying us.
"I will never hurt you" people say that and that's the biggest lie.

We hurt unconsciously. We hurt without even meaning to. 
We leave little stab wounds every so often.
We run off and leave each other bleeding everyday.
People are not afraid to hurt their afraid of the outcome.
Death, loneliness, prosecution. 
People will lie in love until the world is ending.
 
I sincerely meant it when I said I never thought I'd hurt her.
When I told her that I would be different.
I will never say those words to anyone again. 
I won't promise that I won't do it again. 
After all humans were created from eve's great mistake. 
I craved the apple but I never did taste.

I looked in the mirror and I barely recognize my own face.
This girl I see she said many things.... 
She didn't keep up with the many promises she made.
But this girl she is still learning the rules to this game.
She sucked at life just like she sucked at chess. 
At the age of twenty and three she is not done 
growing yet. 


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Lorrikeet

A bird lays an egg
She keeps it warm
It starts to crack
And it hatches, during a heavy storm

It was a beautiful Lorrikeet
You could tell mother bird was proud
So out of her own happiness
She joyfully tweeted aloud

Time to fly, little Lorrikeet
Mother Bird encourages him
So he jumps off the tree
And swoops through the sky like a queen bee

On a quiet night 
A van pulls up to the tree
A shadowy figure scales it well
And he was tranquilized, faster than you could to five

Daybreak in a pet shop
He was in a cage, that's all Lorrikeet knew
Surrounded by a rainbow of birds
Name a bird and It was in view

The other birds learnt of Lorrikeet's intelligence
But then they bullied him for it
Lorrikeet grew depressed
There was no bird to make him not want to throw himself in a pit

So Lorrikeet was trapped
Trapped in a cruel world of hate
One day he'll be free
But there is no specified date

But then a little girl walked into the Pet store
But like anyone her age, she was looking at the puppies
Little girl asked Mum for a pup, but she said no
But then the tears roll down her face, What a sad show

Then something is spied in the corner of her eye
The beautiful Lorrikeet looking out of the glass cage
The little girl runs up to the cage and admires the beauty of the birds
Which are staring at the girl like one giant herd

The little girl decided for ages
Deciding which bird. There were cages and cages
But then Lorrikeet tweeted. Oh It was beautiful like a flute
The Little girl said it was a lovely toot

And so Lorrikeet was chosen
Chosen to be taken home by this sweet innocent child
Lorrikeet was happy to leave the cage of sorrow
He'll be playing with bells and eating the finest seed this time tomorrow






I wrote this poem to teach that through the hardship of bullying, victims can go on to
live long fulfilling lives. Which is the only thing that keeps my head high :)


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After All These Years

I'm looking into winter's face
The sadness wraps itself around her 
Like a blanket of grey fog
A face so pale, so ashen and cold as a winter's day
Betrayed and abandoned by her youth

The girl she used to be....why can't I find a trace?
A youth taken away by choices,  
by circumstance, by life experiences 
by things that I cannot know?

My memory of her has been stolen away!
How dare it! How dare this truth reveal itself?
How dare she not be who I've kept
within my heart's own memory?
I want that girl from yesterday....!
Is this ghost someone else? ...someone's way of fooling me?
 
I swallow tears, and my grief, in our idle chat
Our surprise brief encounter, that I can't take back
Why does it hurt that it's not the same?
Is it regret, or is it a guilt I cannot name?

A friendship born in childhood, so young, so carefree
She, with bright eyes, and blond hair that curled
Around her high cheeks and rosy smile
She was the one who shined so brightly,
Who's charm, who's gay laughter I had so admired
A childhood where we danced together in sweet grass under sunny skies
Where is the innocence, the radiance?
No longer there, not even a glimpse of the girl I knew
Oh, how I weep inside
Now, here, this meeting by chance
After years that had taken us to seperate worlds 
In my mind, and in my dreams, she had always been
The fair maiden, the one who had held my hand
Two little girls who made promises
Who sat in the dark, under a summertime sky
By the light of the moon and wished upon the stars.
The stars now gone from her sad eyes, the look of weary miles
Now fill the void ......as one more time.....
                                         we say our goodbye.

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The independent girl

The independent girl walks alone
and flips her own pages
she can't help that she experiences
sadness in so many different stages.

She hates that with independence 
comes a lot of lonely nights
as she tosses and turns in bed
her pockets maybe swollen
but she has nothing holding
her tight.

A soft caress this girl craves
more than anything else
she'd give up all the wealth 
to not be by herself.


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Shade of pink

The flowers are some shade of pink, 
I couldn't really grasp the exact color because I was in a rush to get them to you,
I didn't want that color,
I wanted the color blue,
Because I really don’t love you,
Like that, 
I see you as a person I can talk to you,
Not a person that I can lay next to,
I want to break up with you,
I don’t have the courage to so,That’s why now,
I’m sitting next to you and your pink flowers,
Wishing that I have powers, 
To change myself to someone that is not a coward.


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Most beautiful muse

you are my most beautiful muse
from the Pleistocene to a kiwi
from a storm to the heaven
from the blue age to a gnosis
from a hearing to the naked eyes
I love your pink poetry
caressed by the absolute


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Belle fille

Belle fille


J'eprouve l'amour.

J'adore tu. 

Tu est intelligente,
et belle,
et aussi parfait.


J'adore tu. 

J'eprouve l'amour.


Tu es une tres belle fille.


Belle fille.


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love to a liar

Fill my heart with all it can imagine. Is as easy as granting a wish. Honor, love, and inspiration. Is , as easy as finding belife. Cuz, i never could of imagined a heart, turn so cold . Camaflaged, with ways of deciet. Proveing heartache and caious. To conquere all joy. My heart can only imagine the oposite of sane. Insane my theroy , cuz not sane to actually belive a heart full of day dreams of magesty and castles with you the pilot light. Where confidence n trust you catrepowrr my might. My heart can image , but imahine a heatt this true . Still be shadowed on all those who wish ill. I still find my love imagination full as heavens sun. But never imagined for all this pain. Your unfaithfulness, deciet, n cruel, infection. Broke my will to fight. Was the day reality came to light. Destroy n all my hopes desires goals and belives. Well my heart couls never imagine the way you decieve. But the day you take my lmage as a heart full of pure love and intent. Appreciated. Not crushed by your unkindness. Is the day for a heart to make me imagine a heart worth belive n and dreaming n possible. The same. Is the day love turns the liars to repay you, with same. Is the day my heart stops ache n for its endless amounts of pain.


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Investigating Jack the Ripper - The Bait

He cuts throats too, my dear friend Ramsay!
How can I sing myself to comfort,
Sing wonderfully, as my father brags,
With a cut throat!?
Perhaps the draining of my fluids shall be our killer's lullaby,
As he sleeps soundly with the soothing flow
Of my newly dead blood!

With an uncertain sigh,
I now stand alone, quaking!
Cruel thought imagining despairing fate
How could Ramsay have so much faith in a cowardly girl
When faith is simply what she lacks? 
She is out to find an evil one unseen,
A twisted fiend that can be he that passes—or he!
Where shall she go from here?
Surely she cannot stand in this spot forever;
The rain has already chilled the coward to the bone,
When all she has on for warmth, the foolish child,
Is a thin old sweater?
But, ah, her bone is to be chilled once more,
And the weather, I'm afraid, will not be the cause. . .

-this is a dark soliloquy of a character in an unfinished play about Jack I wrote... maybe a couple years ago? I gottah put a date on these things! Haha-


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Girl in a Peach Dress

Did you ever see a girl Sitting with a peach dress on One of those shorter dresses That fans out with many ruffles With beautiful peach stockings That go up to the knees And soft leather shoes That she would wear on her feet She also would have peach roses On intertwined within her hair This girl would be so cute Your heart would skip a beat Have you ever seen her before She’s out there, I just know it For I have seen her somewhere For her image is in my head Her peach dress, her stockings Her leather shoes and roses All have a certain feel She’s out there somewhere Did you ever see this girl
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Ebony Aphrodite

Not even Tisiphone looming could invoke the fright this fury leaves etched across my spine
Olympus' indignation will not leave me in spiritual paralysis like She
(Shch, shch, shch) severing my Atlas, losing my mind--I can't carry these melancholy skies
Her voice, even in its brevity, balmbarded me with an inward rise of Dawn's rosey-red fingers
Now, Her silence--Her silence sings a delyreous epic of what I couldn't help, but destroy
--Without Her, I feel like Telemachus futiley fending off suitors alone
Promises to not fly too close to Helios: broken glass under a blind woman's feet
Like Perseus, I'll face whatever evil's Cracken; although, a life without Her, I'd rather be the Nemean Lion
Ebony Aphrodite, whose tone leers at me with a Medusa gaze
I wasn't Cronos; although, I was, in this gracious goddess' eyes, titanic
However, it now appears I've corroded our thread; easier for the Fates to cut


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The Raven and the Girl

The Raven flies, and people duck under it’s presence, 
“If only the people could understand me, I’m not harmful.” 
The Raven wishes to express it’s feelings to them. 
“A place to go where I’m not feared would be wonderful.” 

The Raven flew and flew over every land, every forest, every mountain, 
But wherever he went, fear struck the hearts of mankind. 
The Raven couldn’t stand himself, he just wanted to die, 
“If there was one place I could find.” 

The Raven’s wish finally came true when he found a lonely little girl. 
“Young girl, are you an outcast like I?” 
To the Raven’s surprise, the girl could understand, 
“Yes, I wish I could just die.”

The Raven was sad for this girl, but also overjoyed, 
“Young girl, can I stay by your side?” 
The girl smiled and held him close, filling him with a new warmth, 
“ I would love that.” But life lied…

As the two grew older, more people in the land noticed,
“That woman talks to that Raven all the damn time, she must abide!” 
That day, the girl was burned at the stake, but she was not alone, 
For the Raven burned as well, they stayed by each other’s side. 


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Magic hands

With a wave and tears are gone
They touch and the pain of the day disappears
When life has beaten you down
 They lift you to your feet
On a day so cold
 Keeping you warm they do
In the dark of night
 Hold them and they will guide you through
On days of thunder
 You will be comforted
If wounds bleed
 They will heal
In times of need
 They will give to you
When trouble heart and soul
 Together they send a prayer
So hold and cherish
 To whom they belong to


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Someone

My someone
Is like the sun
That bears life and gives shine
She is very unique
Undefinable
Yet so simple

She is the reason I continue
To trod this way of life
Not that I am fast
But it suddenly came
Very magical

Sparkling eyes
Heart throbbing
Stunned by the moment
Catches the rest of me

Falls into the pit
Of my deepest
Emotions
There is no one like her
For I know this is something
Not only an infatuation
More than what I feel

If only she would know
How long I hid
From the reality
That rattles my being

Don't let the night come forth
Let me be at your side
For it may be cold
Not so because I know
You're there
And especially
My special someone
Is none other than
You


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Love's Exit


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As we stand

the stage was set,
nerves escaped
moments before.
Our eyes connected at
a distance.

Now they're locked,
the audience shifts and 
moans.
As they are blind
behind the door 

your lips burn,
your thighs feel 
of velvet

my hands play 
hide and seek,
reaching the summit and
flying through the valley.

our bodies seperate
our energy one

your love was so 
right

the clueless bar,
if they only knew , 
would sword my soul
to reach you 

but you were mine,
and I was yours


locking passion in a room


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This Is It

The new chapter. The new chapter of my life.

A happy, healthy chapter…the one that I deserve.

I searched deep within myself, and finally found the nerve.

The nerve to move on...

The nerve to forget…

About the past, about the pain, and all of the regret.




I am not the person I once was…. for this is my new start.

I am no longer the girl with a broken home, a broken heart.

I am now the girl with a bright future of love, happiness and success;

So now is it time to go out, and buy a new dress?

Because my old clothes just don’t fit like they once did…

So now, they hang as ghosts of the girl that I have been.


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Song about an Angel and a Poet life as it is truly

Once I heard a song about an angel and a poet
Quarreling over something a little less than perfect

A man sits at the bar, trying to forget
A girl on the street looking to get payed
A little boy in the corner cold and pale
Life isn't always beautiful to all

Lies fill the air with empty promises made
Disappointment and broken dreams 
Frowns on old aged faces as days keep going by getting them no where
People keep on moving some slower than others

Days pass, time flies
Who do you want to be with when it's all over?
The people I've known, the lives I've seen
I've seen a lot of things, been a lot of places

Had many a dream, and many a heart break
I've known honest people do dishonest things
I've known liars keep their promises
I've known theives give what they can

I've seen a smiling face stab true friends in the back...
A wearisome stranger save a childs life
A good christian girl sleep around
A misunderstood inked skin girl a virgin

Things aren't always as they seem
Sometimes things are exactly as we don't expect

Don't be so quick to think for a second,
You can ever understand
Because until you've walked their shoes
You just can't

And don't be so quick to judge your brother,
Because the truth of the matter is
You don't know til you're there how you'd do
What had to be done for your kids


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The day I died

Today is the day I died
Young girl who loved the forest
The wind and all that’s wild
Young girl who used to sit
Under an old oak tree
That offered her protection
A cradle for her thoughts
Young girl who didn’t care 
About this silly world
That kneels us down
And makes us weak
Goodbye young girl
With curly hair
Goodbye sweet purity
Goodbye my youth
Will we ever meet again?


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please don't take from me

should i make it there to save you
would you still feel the same
live my life by the moments
pleasured in the rain
but with in these memories 
i choose to stay

if i gave into you 
where would that leave me
tomorrow evening
i'm just a drifter 
living the night by shame

death is a writers angst
the older you get 
the less you care 
to be monitored by it

happy new year, baby
this here is my last song
may god bless you 
and keep you strong

if i told you fortune sleeps
where we lay
would you change your mind 
darling
lie with me and my prayers

life is running vastly on its way
feels i'm like we're dying everday
death warrants me forbidden
living lost in tatters unforgiven

kiss me lonely and goodbye
this world may not end 
but you and i 
we're finished baby
you see i got this fever 
running through me 
not color efficient 
but you're paleness 
feeds my suspicion 
so bye bye pretty girl
you're not the only woman 
in this world 


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The Wayward Cafe

I sat in a small wayward cafe,
the smell of coffee beans being crushing into submission
tickled at my nosterls.
The sounds of tin cans and cups
some of them being stacked and others
drop with a violent crash.
The tables all red and round
There sat the women, with their novels, tea cups and coffee mugs
sharing small talk of innocent love.
Some women quiet and others talking.
All of them drinking something.

The cool air blew through the windows,
what a mess that wind made.
Blowing papers all around
and blowing the women's hair back.
A man sat there, writing away,
with an endless cough, a tickle at his Adam's Apple.
Then again everyone had a cough.

I sat there reading poetry, writing poetry, embracing poetry
with a pen in one hand and my head in the other,
gently resting of the red round table.
I wrote of the cafe, the women, the man with the endless cough,
that shattered your ear drums everytime he put his hand to his mouth
and coughed away.

A woman who sat reading way,
drinking lemonade and sometimes
taking long glances up.
She was waiting for someone, I could tell.
I looked at her and she at me,
and we both smiled.
Then a sudden silence,
she looked away from me.
A man, who had an ego,
(Then again, doesn't every man have one)
brushed my shoulder and pushed me away.
He apologized, not sincerly.
They kissed and hugged,
I went back to writing with a frown.
They went away in love, I guess?
And I sat all alone in that
lonesome wayward cafe.
Nothing to keep me company, but smell of coffee and tea
and the laughs of the women sharing small talk,
and that one man with Earth shattering cough.


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Stolen Petals

Little girls gotta grin,
bruised legs
shaved skin
red burns
frozen like a mannequin.
bowing to her audience
applauding her commence
calling her an on-core
little girl so heart sore
pouring her life down
upon the dirty floor.
crowds got an uproar
raping her like a new whore
petals, petals surround this girl
weeping, screaming so eye sore
hearts been ripped off its stem
laying alone in guilty flem
helpless, broken,
little girl torn,
all thats left now are her thorns.


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autumn falling

cry me a river
give me an indian giver,maybe i can fix him
think of the thought,the store you bought could feed a thousand towns
with the food you leave lying around. you could do art in the world,
marry a pretty girl to the turn of food she do marry,even carry in her eyes.
its the prize and the dice is thrown?this much we know,we can keep two,you and 
the truth,when you marry it we do.i know of the earth turn and hunger 
burning,sure i was fit for command to every man who had a plan.he would look in 
my eyes and size me up,but he didnt think of the crux of the theft of dinner and 
whats left.its hard in the middle class to be that picture in the mind,when i find 
candy bars dancing in my thoughts when i rest.chest full of air and thats what you 
get to eat. when we seen this girl on second street,of course i was too tired and 
hungry to pursue her,to my hunger peanut butter and jelly will never do her,so i 
just willed her to happen and despite the laughing in my mind,i find were still 
friends,me and her,but there was no word of sex or even second best,it was 
less,just friends.to the end i go,i worked and held a job,kept my room a slob,but it 
was prop up and starvation,like the middle class across this nation.it takes em 
no time to help,to release us from our hell.then,bask in the glow and let me know 
how a ferrarri goes or my favorite group has a Cd on the loose.wait till im fed and 
have my own bed then tell me you need me at your show or in iraq,then ill find the 
facts do meet.give relief on summer street.


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Love and Lust

The energy pouring out of you right now is surreal.
Like I placed my finger gently in an outlet.
My head thrown back.
My mouth so dry.
My eyes so wet.
But I refuse to cry.
Your fingers tremble graciously when you stroke my lips.
But just as quickly, your open fist tugs wildly at my hair.
This is happening.
Blurry visions of skin on skin.
Pink tongues, brown hair, sharp eyes, wicked smiles.
Intoxication is magnificent.
Your perfume is as if the only liquor in this room.
And I?
I am an alcoholic.
You are a delicate champagne.
I want to pop you loose.
Leave you empty, and drink you in all by myself.
I was never one to share.
I just can’t help but taste the aroma of your presence with my tongue no matter how arousing it might be.
Because that is all that life consists of.
Constant arousal.
Sometimes through the tongue, or stomachs, our eyes, our hearts, and elsewhere.
Where would we be without this beautiful state of being.
I am drunkenly aroused by you, to a lethal point.


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sleepless nights

Sleeping restless
Cause I'm missing
That one thing

When I do sleep
I dream
Dreams that prevent me
From waking
Cause I wake to a empty room
With cold sweet
Cause your not
Next to me

I want to feel
Your soft lips
As they touch mine
I want to feel your body
As I hold you
Make you feel
 like
your my world
I wish to wake next
To my queen
Even though
I'm just the court jester
But I do not jest when
I say this
Your my heart and world
I think of you
More then you can imagine
If I could paint you
You will be my Mona Lisa
If I could build you
You will be my 16th Chapel
If I could find you in history
I need to take every beauty that ever was
Put them together
And still they fall short
To what you are
You are
My Queen
You are 
My Heart 
You are 
My World 


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Rose Pedals

in the shapes of flowers around
her favorite baby sitting silent 
with nothing but joy on both their faces
she asks her doll if she wants a ride
and giggles at the answer she hears
she puts Rose on the red seat of the tricycle
and walks beside her, helping her 
giving serious instructions on how to ride
"don't go into the street, and stay out of
Mr. Potter's yard, you are doing so good"
then she closes her eyes tight
opens her little imagination wide
and let's go
and watches so proudly as Rose pedals home

Michael F. Lewis


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Mixed Feelings

You wanna know why I read?
I read because books are my escape.
I read because the friends I have in books are so much truer than the friends I have in real life.
I read because in books I am as breathtakingly beautiful as the heroine in the story and not a one-hundred-thirty-three pound white girl with a black girl’s ass. 
I read because the stories are either so good, I can try to wish myself into them
Or they’re so horrid they make my life look like a fairytale.
You wanna know why I read?
I read because the parents in books don’t yell at me for failing a test that I stayed up until 1 in the morning studying for
Or tell me I’m getting cellulite when its clear that I already hate the way I look.
I read because the little brothers and little sisters in books are adorably hilarious where mine are annoyingly bothersome.
I read because when my nose is in a good book, my mind is where that book is, not in the reality that is my life.
I read because the boys in books are more kind to me than the boys in my classes at school.
You wanna know why I read?
I read because I love to read.
But you wanna know why I don’t read?
I don’t read because reading is shameful in the world I live in.
I don’t read because reading is something tedious, a chore you do simply to make the grade in English.
I don’t read because the stories in books remind me just how much my life sucks.
You wanna know why I don’t read?
I don’t read because every page I turn is another homework assignment not turned in, another failing grade to show my parents.
I don’t read because every time I read I want a snack to munch on, and every time that snack is a chocolate bar I think to myself “You fat, ugly girl, you don’t need that chocolate, you know what they say: a moment on the lips a lifetime on the hips.”
I don’t read because what boy wants a girl whose prince charming is not ever going to show up on her front porch with a dozen roses and a devastatingly handsome smile?
You wanna know why I don’t read?
I don’t read because every time I finish a book that was a new obsession, I have to find one just like it and there never is one.
I don’t read because when the hero dies, so does a piece of my heart.
I don’t read because every book I read just reminds me that I’m the freak brainiac of my class, and that’s all anyone sees when they look at me.
I don’t read because the perfect characters in books make me hate my imperfect self.
I don’t read because I hate to read.


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Final stand

There are two worlds I live in. Two worlds with two of me. One is 
bright and sunshine.
The other is dark and far off, with cobwebs and maggots. I like to 
pretend that the dark world is non exciting.
But it does...
It lives and thrives inside me, pulsing like a wound.
And then there is the other girl with sharp teeth and a wicked smile.
She haunts me and teases me.

I tell myself to remember the pretty girl with sunshine smiles and a candy heart, but i am afraid,
she is beginning to flicker and fade like a dying candle. 

In this real world that i live in im crazy. but maybe its the world that is crazy, not me.


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The Girl with the Cherries

Happy New Year to all who create beauty with words and moments of hope. Thank you for
sharing and new roads with a thin pen.

The Girl with the Cherries

The girl
who used to open
the markets
and lock the day.
The girl with the cherries 
is flying away…
And they soared 
like rainbows.
The traders’ faces
stretched.
The passers by
sank their hearts.
And somebody 
smiled,
gathered the pastels
and went on.


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The Girl in The Dress

just a girl in a dress
who knew shed be a mess
her smile pulls you in
her lovely little grin
she shadows all your thoughts
you never even fought
you grab her hand 
takes you to another land
dont look in her eyes
shell pull your rope tight
the more you fight
she'll convince you she's always right
a tiny little pill
an evil little thrill
her fake layer you tear
she says she just wants to share 
she's got you hooked
but you still took
now your the mess
who fell for the girl in the dress.


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Shape

So we shape once again…
Only the Geiger of us two…
Once the heartbeat begins…
The swallowing will finally end…
2nd beginning, my cheeks start to grin…
2nd chances, racing towards us…
Ransom gusts fill our hearts with ease…
Finally a place to retire…
Nothing is required…
Accept me…
Love is thus a wonderful word…
Filled with thoughts absurd…
Such as peace, worship…
Faith and hope…
Words that are proven true…
Me and you…


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Signs

I love you so much more than the sun in the sky
Love you so much girl, and just can't tell exactly why
To confess my love, to you, is all I wish to say
Tell you outright, at the break of each new day

Our worlds seem to align 
And it's not by design
I want you in my arms forever, to be mine
Oh love, just give me a sign

I've had none before, and well, you've had nine
But with this I am fine
To the shores of forever, with you, I will find
If you just give me some Signs

Signs, from you and above, oh how I'm praying for
Please pretty girl, won't you open the door?
Leave me crying on the floor
Leave me girl, wanting so much more

How can lonely hearts mend?
Find others for their love to send
All across the sands of these times
Show me the way, give me some Signs

You could turn a whole life's world around
Without the utterance of a sound
You could halt his childish whines
If you just gave this poor boy some Signs

Signs, from you and above, oh how I'm praying for
Please pretty girl, won't you open the door?
Leave me crying on the floor
Leave me girl, wanting so much more

Yet here I am, sitting alone and broken
No words to you have been spoken
Why am I so shy? Where did the days go?
Oh how they fly and Oh how you glow
Nothing left to do now, but wait for new Signs


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One night with her

Shirt first 
lips second
succulent and flavorful, girl I want seconds.
I run my fingers through your hair 
man I've been dying to do that forever.
I could go further but instead I just grip your chin in my hands
and stare into your face 
I admire the heat in your eyes
All along I've been longing for this day.
There are no need for words. I can feel the desire in your expression.
I start to trail kisses down your body. 
I've never witnessed such perfection.
I can't believe that I'm here and that your right beside me.
Body on top of body. We collide into each other. 
No preventive measures needed as our bodies mold into one another. 
I make love to you like it's my last time because
your straight and I might not get another chance.
I don't know what provoked this sudden change in plans 
and it doesn't really matter to me.
All I know is that for this moment I'm in bliss
because I've got the girl of my dreams underneath me.
Her black hair is sweating out and sticking to my body.
I suppose for tonight we got a little naughty.
I lay my head on the pillow and sigh.
I am physically and mentally exhausted. 
I'm no fool I know this won't end the way I want.
Cupid doesn't often shoot for the same team.
I didn't plan on shooting for anything.
But she changed everything.


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Rush Hour

Heads bowed they scurry,
In formation, but each to his own,
Like great lines of supplicating ants,
Flowing in polar directions.
A horn honks, hardly heard,
As the girl in a world of her own,
Steps out across the junction.
Tyres screeching, hearts beating,
A shout, A greeting,
Old friends meeting,
Across the street as the girl keeps walking.
They move, they rush,
Too close, they push,
All for one and none for all,
The people keep on scurrying.
A crowd, oblivion,
So many, alone.
This, then, is Rush Hour.


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Memories

Tear soaked tombstones
Love letters
Class rings and report cards.

Texts from you
Roses from homecoming
Kisses stolen in the twilight
Phone calls until midnight.

Standing in the rain
Holding your hand
Neck to neck in the wind
I wish it would never end.

I fell for a boy in blue
And then I met a boy in black.
When he left me crying
You were there to pick me up.
I found my best friend
And feelings that never end.

Walking out against the wind 
Your arm around me
I’m smiling and you’re watching me.
This time I take your hand
Gently turn around and marvel your eyes
Before wrapping my arms around
Your neck and kissing you.
And I feel no cold
As your arms go around me.
We are one
One and the same.

I hold you close to me
And whisper your name
As the cold wind
Whips around us going on.
But this moment is ours.


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Who I Am

I’m trapped
But not in the normal sense,
My minds trapped
In this body.
Everyone calls me a girl
Because that’s what my body portrays me as
But that’s not the case
Yes…I’m in a girl body
But I’m actually a boy
To be more precise…
I’m an F.T.M.,
Female to male transgendered.
I was born this way
And it’s actually natural
It’s not a defect
Or anything like that
It’s just who I am
I can’t change the fact 
That I’m a guy
I just deal with the girl body
And accept who I am
I know that it’s weird
And probably hard to accept
And to wrap your head around
But all I ask is to try
And to not judge me
If at all possible.
This is who I am…
I’m an F.T.M.,
And I’m proud of it!


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Acceptance without exception!

A primeval well accepted tradition
Once married a girl need to adjust
Even if the in-laws burn her to death
Put on a smile in front of the society
No authority to follow owned rights
Yes to all decided by unity except her
Get up each day with warmth for all
Even when it kills her thousand times
As marriage is a constitution to drive
Change the life of a girl without asking

A man’s world widely accepted by all
Women after all seen “behind” success
Esteem is so called the wealth of men
In the chauvinistic driven modern world
We talk of technology and progression
Yet the hearts within still unsecured
If women will really get empowerment
Will hamper our proclaimed self esteem 
Keep them in veils, trap them in rituals
Many societies follow such strategy!!!

Safety and security for working women
Still a big question in this global forum
As change is feared to accept equality
Devils in form of men disgrace the esteem
Shaking the humanity and human culture
Acclaimed as the posh section of society 
Hiding the deeply wore scorn in their face
Still there are instances so vivid and clear
Where prime religion is to worship Women
World prospers, whirls air particles in cheer

Why then apprehensions at some places
Still to accept the esteem of each other
Equation will be so fruitful and simpler
Self esteem of each will increase by itself
Protect a culture which gives growth to all
Adopt new changes and walk with time
Acceptance without exception…
Adds to self esteem of nation’s emblem 

 


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Vines That Bind

In this garden my calloused feet trace pathways
Along wild flowers and rose bushes
Planted by gracefully meticulous hands
She knelt in the sunset and moon rise
Creating this carefully chosen form of Eden
As the sun rose and moon set her tears nourished
Her protege flourishing with the guide of her soul
Through blurred eyes I gaze upon her struggle
Unable to comfort her pain away as her life fades
Vines encircling my wrists gripping me steadfast
Her grown nature keeping me at a distance
To share your soul is to ensnare
With thickening barbs and thorns that pierce
These feelings take solidity when she cries
Skin yielding up to this solemnity remains
As essence seeps into the soil beneath
The beast wages an internal war to rip these binds
Being barred from her light's eminence
No force embedded can halt this flowing
Yearning to protect from this ebbing darkness we share
Screams tear up through the thickening silence
Realization begins to set in as the fog rolls over
Her eyes can no longer touch mine.


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Forever

All things splendid, unpredictable I tell you,
Duality expressed by a two sided coin,
When the favor is yours, it's sure prone to last.
But never ceasing to disappoint,
It's compliment,
Wrapped in a tendency to rapidly  become the past.

Blissful times with you remind me of all good dreams I've  had,
They never last longer than a single hair at the back of my neck,
But they always stand whenever I breathe your breath,
The same way I feel when I touch you,
Hypnotized by the goodness of the feeling,
The feeling your skin transfers to my nervous system,
Left dizzy,
Confused between the texture of silk and your skin,
Your skin,
A garment I feel,
I'd wear you all the time, everyday.
My newly found passion.
What if I could touch you forever.

Your smell so refreshing it's edible,
You smell so right,
I'm left assured, you're palatable,
I've always known you tasted divine,
Call me a cannibal,
What if I could indulge in your strawberry kisses forever.

To hold you,
Your bosom bare against my chest,
As our skins become one,
Our hormones form a language,
Letting our bodies converse,
Our bodies speak the same language,
A foreign language,
Because no one does it like us,
Tingles and tickles tantalize,
As our senses become revitalized,
I feel so alive, I could die,
I don't know what to feel,

If such could last forever,
I promise;
I would believe you if you were to say heaven was made from a piece of you,


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Sometimes, I'm just angry

There are no other words to say this so I’ll say it frankly
I hate you
For being there at an imperfect time
And suddenly leaving when I needed you most
When I was about to leave and
You said you still wanted me there, so I didn’t 
For using me as a trampoline from one girl to another
Because when you were with me
I held you close and tight
Still you found a way to unchain yourself
And you ran as fast as you could and you never came back
You hurt me in so many ways
I was affected deeply in places I thought was unreachable
When I let you in, I thought you planned to stay
Until that fateful 27th
When you cowardly walked away from us
With no valid explanation, no sturdy proposition
Left without a single honest apology
Expecting me to be strong and to move on as I should
But how can I move on when you ended it with a lie
Until now I’m haunted by the later stories they told me
That other girl you tried so desperately to hide
You’d think I would never uncover the truth
But, I’m not like that
Letting things go so easily and letting lies just pass
I hate you
For your lies that penetrated me deeply
From the lies you said about having feelings for me
To your lies about leaving because you’re not ready
How can an honest man
Who truly is, without question, in love with a woman
Just, without point, walk away from her?
That’s not you, you know
You’re far from honest and you’re even farther from being a man
I just wish I could turn back the clock
And slap my own self that moment I was falling for you
Because right now, I hate you that much
Hating you so much, but missing you more than I can ever feel


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A POEM TOY

I don't have toys
	And I don't care for any of them either.

	Well no, I do. After the death
Of my friend Dasvina Lee and I loved for a Baby doll.

	I asked to my mother if she could buy
One for me with the next C.F.W.C.P. check.
	She stopped backward; and at first
I got the idea she will be buzzing around
The house looking for a cigarette butt
'Cause she has ran off cigarettes.

	And then she bent forward
And stared at me as you stare at yourself out
	Into the mirror browsing your stomach
Upon a hushed thought, and a human fist as a bad sword
Like that, exploded: "Shutta **** off, stupid girl!"

	And then, right on, she pushed me. 
Like that, and she said, "Go and clean up this
Mess! Now!"

	"You can play with yourself," she added 
Brutally, "if you're so goddammit lonely!"
	Though she never really made it so easy
Just a sort of wet concrete admiration,
I tried to smooth it, but the following was uglier:

	After a third try she hit me again. It was like a
Thunder light, burning on the skinny body
And at the same time it was running through a hybrid
Shore between my soul and my heart.

	Leaving no doubt it was all what I'll get
From her and the damned toy shall be called
	Off.


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Candy is Sweet

Candy is Sweet Of all the girls under Gods sky I met the one girl that might make me cry. Like the white sun that shines so bright When she at me smiled my dark world became bright. I hear about guys that wish they could make her theirs They'll open her doors and they'll pull out her chairs. These are the guys who only want to get her into bed They don't think with their heart, they think with their head Other guys only want her for her good looks They don't even know that she likes to read books. There's so much more to this girl than you see I can’t help wonder how she feels about me. I found that she's smarter than you might think And you'll never win her over with a corny line and a wink. So I finally decided how to try and win this girls heart I thought a picture and poem would be a good start.


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A GUY

all i want is a guy
who will give a shoulder to cry on
and
be a real man i can rely on
a guy
that won't tell lies
and wil TRUELY be mine....
someone who knows how to treat a girl like me
all i want is a guy
with a mind
and
thats a one of a kind
a guy 
that won't be fake
for goodness sake!....
someone who knows how to treat a girl like me
all i want is a guy
i can trust
who won't mistaken love for lust
a guy 
that just might 
be my mr.right
someone who knows how to treat a girl like me


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A Mom Mirage

. 
               I am going out tonight
       with no thought to wrong or right!!
           I am donning my sexy dress
               and putting perfume on…

         “hello again, my black stilettos”
                             and 
             "hello my rich red gloss..."
               
                  I will tousle my hair
                 till it looks a little wild
                and blow a kiss goodbye…

                        No panty lines
                        No worries…

That’s right, boys, I am getting out tonight

                    Watch out for me
             I am unrestrained and crazy
                     Watch out for me
                   I will dance all night
                          Laughing….
              like any girl in nirvana would…

            Who gives a bleep if its raining?

                     The moon is out 
                      Full and howling

             My spirit growls to be set free!!

        Oh yeah baby….I am going out tonight!

A cry interrupts my reverie 
My baby girl woke from her nap
A bittersweet smile touches my face
as she crawls into my lap….

                      I realize my stilettos
                          are now retired
                     and my sexy little dress 
                          is collecting dust
                    sitting forlorn in the closet.

I have on my mom clothes
You know the ones…
sensible and comfortable…
(un sexy cotton)
That’s the ones….

                   I am staying home tonight
                and putting my angel in the bed…

             I am a mom now and what can I say
 
                 The sexy dress will have to wait


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little girl

little girl with blue eyes.with blonde curls.A sky blue dress.And a basket full of apples shes bringing home to mama.
Little girl crossing the meadow.Not very far from home.She waves at nearby rabbits peeking out of rabbit holes.She walks with a rhythm.She hums a little tune.Shes only eight years old and she does not notice the sky is turning a dark shade of blue. 
little girl takes a nap in the meadow.Just a short one she says and slowly closes her eyes.
She falls into a deep sleep dreaming of butterflies.
Bobby day was a lonely boy.Looking for comfort.The little girl had treated him kind.She also had beauty before her time.He looked down upon her sleeping in the meadow.a basket full of apples laying beside her.
Little girl awoke to night fall.She awoke to Bobby day staring intently at her.
Bobby was a predator.that's what her mama always said.Lonely only because he had women scared.He wanted to take her home but the little girl knew better than that.
No one but bobby and that little girl were around.In the dead of the night only the hoot owl saw what occured.It was an accident bobby will testify .She fell backwards and hit her head as i tried to grab her .I didnt know what to do when blood trickled from her head.So 
I carried her to the river and threw her body in.But i did not kill her.It was an accident he said . the judge felt sympathy and gave him four years.But for the rest of his life that little girl would haunt his memories.Knowing that his own actions may have inadvertently caused her to die.



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86B West York Street

86B West York Street

A small one bedroom apartment
White walls and a textured ceiling
A crappy painting hangs on the wall
Handmade airplanes hanging as if in flight
86B West York St. wasn't much
Cheap rent and no luxuries
Yet, to my eyes, it was beautiful
There was a little girl who lived next door
Waving every morning as she passed
She was all smiles and happiness
Looking through the window every day
She brought the light into the room
That apartment sits empty now
That little girl has long since grown up
Those rooms are no longer as beautiful as they were
Its life has been drained away
Luckily, the memories are still there


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Dreamtime

The moon's light played over the ocean one night.  The cry of an albatross could be heard as he flew by.
Sweet blue eyes gazed up into a beautiful face, a warm smile to go with it.
Naked baby girl abandoned upon the sandy beach.
Tall nude Lady with long blonde hair picks up this little babe gently, quietly singing as she did so.
Smiling into this little girl's face she tells her, "Little girl whose soul is as bright as the sun, do not be afraid my little one.'
Making her way out into the ocean's surf while carrying this little babe, this lady's torso formed into an itself into a graceful iridescent fluke.
"Do not fear the ocean my sweet," said this Lady as she submerged  while gently covering her mouth and nose-breathing air into her little lungs. Then this little one was able to breath on her own accord.
While making their way into caverns, distant music was heard.  One of these Lady's sisters was playing the lute.
Making their way onto dry ground this beautiful Lady and newly acquired daughter's eyes beheld a great city.  The city shimmered like a gem. There was coral intertwined with beautifully carved slabs of stone. Strange structures completed wtih the decorative carvings of abalone.
Seated upon a throne that had been made of pirate's gold, the Lord and Lady along with her sisters accepted this little baby girl without question. They were horrified at the thought that this young life might not have been if she had not been found.
A mother seal let this little baby nurse along side her own pups.
Then this baby girl was placed in her bed, an old discarded tortoise shell, its insides covered with rich furs from seafarerss of long ago.  A gift made apparent for this little girl who was able to generate warmth likened to golden sunlight- sunlight which radiated from her tiny body.  All were pleased, this was to be this little girl's home now where no harm would come to her again... thanks to a divine lady whose love could not be denied.


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This Life

Just a simple girl am I
like a bird wild and free
so many places to go
and wondrous things to see-

Here in Egypt
so different from the west
it's hard to say
which thing's I 
love the best-

In USA
burgers, pizza, salty fries
all the goodies my oh my
but here in Egypt
none of those things
you will see
so please bring
McDonald's here
to me-

The ways to say
I love you
so different than before
in Egypt the words
bahebek so much more-

So a country girl I was
and country girl I will
always be
for my simple
little life
is quite enough
for me-

This poem is about the differences between USA and Egypt


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A spare girl

A spare girl

This love you say is true
Is just a hoax,
Nothing more than a way to use an innocent girl for sex.

I thought what we had was real,
But it was only a fantasy,
My only use to you was pleasure.
Not love.

You only come crawling back to me
When that beautiful girl learns that she can find a man,
I don't understand why I can't learn this lesson.


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The cold night

Mother tries to light a fire using 
a spindle,
Which could provide heat n 
light.
For a freezing snow storm 
which grew 
Would not let them survive the 
night
At last she got the fire started 
and looked around
Their empty home 
And exclaimed,"If only I had 
another log of wood"

The girl unaware that their life's 
hourglass was running
Out of sand,
Watched her mom struggle 
which immensely hurt her.
She though little ,understood 
her mom's words
The only doll she had was of 
wood.
She laid her doll on the fire ,
Smiling to herself ,stepped 
away.

With both tears of sadness and 
pride her mom
Knew not how to react
For she may never be able to 
buy another doll
Then her daughter who was 
just four
Said,"I am a big girl now,I 
don't need dolls."
Then she caressed her in her 
lap all night long
As she was after all her 
beautiful,priceless doll..



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Lost

A story that was never told
Will finally unfold
Its about a girl who lost herself
By the end of the story
She helfs that the situation is detrimental
Which she trys to hide within her inner kennel
But theres only so much feelings someone can hold 
Theres not many people who can keep it controlled
Spread your wings and fly
Don't let time pass you by
Because your the pilot that flys the plane
Anyone who tells you otherwise is inhumane
Don't you fall, don't you dare fall


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They Forgot To Be

The little girl asked 'Do you love me?"
"Yes," they replied, "now leave us alone!"
The little girl said "You love her more!"
"Now don't be silly, I'm quite busy. Your father's business burned down today, we 
have no time for this."
The little girl ran, she was found and dismissed as additional stress.
It passed along as days that were not meant to be.
It continued as coldness that never ends.
And then one day,they grew older, and  the little girl came to realize  the truth,
 that family would never be hers.


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Little Refuge

Little girl goes down to the water.
Little girl climbs up the hill.
Little girl wanders in the woods.
Little girl collects little things.

Creatures and curiosities.

Puts them in her pockets.

Skipping and running and playing at hunting.

Now and then she stops, and rests.

Her every heartbeat,
her every breath,
conspires with the fragrant moist air,
the rocks and the trees,
to forget her home.

There she waits before the sunset.

She waits as long as she can.

Oh, how precious is this place.

Her refuge.

To the sea and the hills. . .
Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.


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I am from

I am from a broken home,
broken hearts 
and broken dreams.
I am from tear stained cheeks,
flashing lights
and cowering underneath the table.
I am from a forgotten past,
one I try not to remember.
I am from children services,
paperwork and court.
I am from the tear soaked earth,
from thunderstorms and rain
sleepless nights and all too 
frequent nightmares.
I am from anger and pain. 
I am from being the girl that "cried wolf"
a girl that no one believed.
I am from court and binding paperwork
and having no say.
I am from contemplation
but never action.
I am from saving others
while drowning in myself.


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Fourth of July

The fireworks exploding behind our closed eyes, 
They come to life with the spark from our lips.
We open our eyes and sway back and forth,
Looking at each other as if we will be there forever.
We pull in close and embrace.


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Still Trying To Get Home Pt 1

       It was a dark, foggy, rainy night and I was driving alone.  It was several hours before 
dawn.  I had "no service" on my cell phone.  Out here driving in the middle of nowhere and I 
felt very alone.  I kept my fog lights on.  I was definitely not concentrating on the radio.  My 
thoughts were on this quiet deserted road.  The fog was thick out here.  I was worried about 
a possible run in with a deer.  I could only see about ten feet in front of my car.  The fog 
seemed to have suddenly rolled in which was kinda bizarre.
       The thick woods that followed on either side of the road could not be seen.  My mind 
drifted to the spooky stories we use to tell around campfires as a teen.  As I was lost in my 
own thoughts - There!   A woman had come out of nowhere!  I swerved, slammed on the 
brakes just in time.  I hope she was fine.  I looked in the rearview; She wore some kind of 
light blue prom dress.  I confess this was becoming an erie night, and something about her 
was not quite right.
       I pushed the automatic button to unlock the doors.  Her wet dark hair kinda hung in her 
face, so I could not tell if I had seen her before.  She opened the back door and with her 
head tilted down she climbed in.  I noticed bruises on her pale white skin;  And dark marks 
along her throat.  Where in the hell was this girls coat?  "I'm trying to get home, will you help 
me?"  I said, "sure" - I then noticed the cold temperature.  "Where do you live?" I asked 
her.  Almost a murmur, she said "About  four miles down, the only house on the left hand 
side."  She then added, "Thank you for the ride."  I drove, and kept looking in my rearview 
mirrow, but she kept her head tilted down.  I had never seen this girl in town.  She kept quiet 
not saying a word.  I know it is absurd, but this girl gave me the creeps!  She kept her head 
down so I assumed she had fallen asleep.
       I drove for a few miles, sure enough a house with a porch light was on.  As I pulled into 
the drive, I suddenly felt erily alone.  I looked in the rearview the girl was gone!  My heart 
was hammering beneath my breast bone.  I brought the car to a halt, leaning over the front 
seat to check.  I felt the hairs stand on the back of my neck.  It was quite a scare.  For the 
girl was not back there!  This would be a night I would never forget. The girl had vanished 
but my seat was still wet.  I got out of my car, running up to the house trying to not get 
soaked in the process. (John Freeman con'd on pt2)


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Her Smile

Lips, pink like painted roses,
Part to unveil
The shine of her compassion.

Cheeks dimple as
Her smile
Unfurls across the
Perfect canvas.

Eyes, new moons
On a cloudless night,
Pull her into my heart.


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While I eat this apple

Hey you, dressed in blue,
hiding your face in rags,
while carrying those heavy bags;
Come hear and show me love,
while I eat this apple
of your soul.

Smile beautiful,
hold that head up toward the sun,
while I chew into the core
of that sweet apple of your soul.

Give me a kiss,
thank you.

Now watch this magic trick,
I'll make all that sadness
disappear,
with one simple kiss,
the stroke of a black-inked pen
to frail white paper.
don't close your eyes; I don't want
you to miss it!

Don't be scarred,
Love is on your side Blue-girl.

Don't cry,
come into my arms;
a kiss on your cheek,
a loving kiss from heart
to heart.
Feel me eat that rotten
core from deep in your soul,
and feel loved again.
No thanks required,
just a poet at his best,
doing his job.

.3.18.2014.


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Little One

Fields black and sundered so,
Mists of tears, forgot in woe,
Showers of rain, standing still,
Skin as white as snow,

Passers by wander not a sight,
Pay no heed to such a blight,
Showers of rain, lost in ill,
Wandering each... stone cold night,

Forgot, abandoned, this lowly one,
Hope is lost, all yet none,
Showers of rain, brights forsaken,
Misbegotten hope, now that all is done.


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Tight

Hands clasped tight. Sqeezing. 
Life slowly pours from the eyes that once lit my world.
And why? He betrayed me. 
With a girl so pretty but not as fare as I.
One accident after another and now he is left to roam free in the skies with that girl 
he called "Baby".


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Just One Drink

What did she say when you told her you still loved me?

Did she turn away or try to disagree

Did you think about her or how she would be?

No you were only thinking about me.

 

She stands there now, all alone

Facing her fears of the unknown

Turning her head on what she's once known

Realizing now, she's on her own

 

With no one around to help her choose

She stands her ground, not ready to lose

Her head held high while hearing the news

To accept her fate, she must refuse

 

She tries and tires with all her might

To win you back every night

She has no plans to give up the fight

Any hope is out of sight

 

Her heart is now filled with hatred 

Will all the love that you desecrated

With just that one sentence that you stated

Her entire life is now dated

 

Did you ever stop and try to think,

Just how far she would sink?

How close she was to the brink?

Or how it could all end with just one drink?

 

Just one drink to end all the pain

Just one little sip to break the chain

Just one to do the job, to her disdain

Just one and she will die in vain. 

 

You don't even care to attend her funeral

To you she was just a girl that you could treat cruel

How could you be such a fool?

You don't even know of the fire you've fueled. 

 

You come to my door and ring the bell

You send thousands of messages to my cell

Repeatedly the words "I LOVE YOU" you yell

But for all I care you can just go right on to hell 

 

I don't want you anymore you Silly boy

I am no longer your stupid little toy

As for the loneliness you feel now, I hope you enjoy

Because you had your chance and my love you destroyed. 

 

I am my own person without you

I no longer rely on your every move

I am no longer clueless on what to do

I know now I can move on to someone new.

 

As for the girl that you threw aside

I hope you think of her every time you cry

You're the whole reason that she died

If you wanted someone to love, she would have been there by your side. 

 

She would have loved you the way you love me

But you never opened your eyes and seen what there was to see

I'll never love you no matter how hard you plea

So wallow in your self pity, you'll get no remorse from me

 

I hope you drown in your misery

Thank God that sad little girl is finally free

Thank God I knew it was time to flee 

This is goodbye, so don't bother calling me.


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If You Only Knew

Dustin, 
My best friend, My x boyfriend, and the one I’m still in love with.
I know I have a boyfriend and he just happens to be your best friend too, but if I had the chance to tell you everything I would.
You and I still love each other like we did 3 years ago, but there’s nothing we can do about it.
I cant leave my boyfriend because I to scared of everything that will happen. 
I do love him and I do love you, but Who do I love more?
The one weekend I Saw you this year was the best weekend I've ever had.
We walked around like there was nothing else going on in the world.
The biggest smiles on our face, My lipstick on your lips, and the love in our eyes.
You and I even sang together on the park bench for the world to hear.
Shinedown is our favorite band because we both fit like perfect puzzle pieces in all their songs. 
I can't describe the way you made me feel with your big blue eyes, and the way you lifted me up like I was as light as a feather.
I know people might say if I love you so much then why don't I leave him. 
My answer is simple: I'm scared of being hurt… again.
Sure, every girl is sacred of a heart break but this girl? 
The bipolar , depressed, starving, love hungry, emotional, girl isn’t just scared she's terrified.
I do I love my boyfriend, but I don’t know who I love more.
Sure Dustin you broke up with me on my birthday 3 years ago, but we all make mistakes.
So for this years birthday you got me a beautiful “J” necklace, the color of my birthstone.
I know it might not sound like that makes up for it but the way I feel with you makes me feel invincible.
Every night we would go up to the hill, smoke a cigarette, and just hold each other. 
So if I had the opportunity to tell you  one thing that I regret not telling you.
It's that I love you and the way you make me feel more then everything in the whole world... except for Tyler, my boyfriend.
I'm sorry Dustin.


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The Gray Man of Pawleys Island SC

For some time a young man had not seen his lover.
He made haste to join her soon as time allowed.
Riding on horseback he sped home to see her.
Ride  he did from Georgetown to Pawleys,
Riding to her in lower South Carolina.

Eager to see her he acted fool hardy,
by marshland and swamp instead of by road.
The short cut he took was riddled with quicksand.
Both he and the horse were lost and ne’er found.
The young girl declared she would never again love.

Time needed to heal, she began to forlornly
walk and remember the young man she once knew.
Mourning her lover she walked every day.
On one such excursion, she saw a young man.
Dressed in gray approach at a distance.

When he drew near she recognized her beau.
She knew he had died but now lives again?
A touch to her lips brought her to silence.
“Please leave immediately, there is great danger”
Without saying more he vanished away. 

Finding her parents she told them the story
They fled to the mainland making great haste.
The hurricane that night was fierce and deadly.
Lives were lost and many homes destroyed.
Save their’s and a neighbors whom also was warned.

No one can explain the subsequent sightings.
Foretelling the safety of those whom are warned.
Of their lives and belonging which stayed safe 
in the wake of a terrible, terrible storm.
But the young girl knew that which they didn’t.


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Suicide

Standing on the shore, A girl fully clothed with no shoes. Her eyes filled with great suffering.. .lost hope ensues. As she notices the water stretches as far as she can see, her hearts implore won't let her be. The sky changes color. First green to blue then gray. Much to her dismay her shattered emotions now egress. "The color gray, the color gray." her tears profess traveling down her face "Oh, why the color gray." A color so dark, so deep, still allowing you to see the depiction of sadness it brings. To the sky, in her heart, buried deep in her mind. In the sky is that feeling. A very isolated out-pour of a feeling.. a feeling she tryed so desperately deny. The tide, closing in. small foamed waves now landing at her feet. It's so cold, the water. Identical to her, how she feels, all she only knows now. Numbness. Weakness. and her defeated soul. Depleted ..A heart is now left with no beat. She reflects on the lost hope her broken heart tried to hide. Seeing within herself the damage it has done. "Love is it" she says in a soft whisper ".. love is it." The disturbance of the oceans song snatched her out of realization. As she listened to the water, as it forcefully emerges hitting the shore and it's rocks with all it's might, as she listened to the water cascade back towards the ocean only to return hitting harder. The ripples and waves. Uncontrolled, involunterily. She is relieved for the ocean is singing the same song. Her song.."Love is it" she mumbled. "It understands how I feel. It knows exactly what I am going through." She smiles. "Love is it. The beating of my heart, with pain constrained inside it. The utmost sadness. Blinded happiness and misguided hope." The heart lies beat-less... No more discursion: Her last thought before submerging her body deep into the depths of ocean. In acceptance. Drowning. No longer standing on the shore. A girl fully clothed with no shoes.


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Angel With Cut Wings

If all the world would collapse right now I'd look at you for the last time and still tell you how much I loved you, 
Your past binds you from gaining happiness but I'm here,
I'm always going to be here for you ,
Through thick and thin,
I had myself questioning before whether you were worth it or not,
But in the end all you had to do was give me off that very faint smile and you gave me wings, 
You're the Angel with the cut off wings, 
You cut them off because you blame yourself for the bad things that occurred to you in the past which you never had control over, 
But I'm here and I just want to let you know that your past does not define your personality to me, 
You're my the One,
My everything,
My blissful paradise, 
I love you and I'll fix you,
I'll never let you go till the end of my days and beyond.


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The Girl in Maroon

I see the girl, walking a soaked street,
as fallen leaves pave a path
for her in a maroon skirt,
talking about the boy she never did love;
dreaming about the man she'll never get-
as she holds close,
her head starts to pop
when she's done; lost again, another one,
gone once more, believe me, again lost, I know.

A heartbeat stills, for a moment, a heartbeat loses sight
of true light, the stroke of a pen, gone-goodnight...

She, the girl in maroon, walks again,
stumbling and lost to her car,
light a cigarette and watch her get lost,
that girl in the maroon,
she jumps in, with a twist of hand and touch of a key
to the ignition,
she lights up and drives away...
lost, gone, forgotten, goodnight.

.6.1.2014.


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The Red Blanket and the Rubber

Two blankets on the dry grass
at the far side of the open field.
One red one and 
one small, pink one 
off a girl's bed.

Off to the side, a ball cap,
a knapsack, and a sad, empty, bottle of root beer.
One pocket of the knapsack 
held one Durex, latex condom. 
In Spanish, on
the side of the foil packet, “1 condon de latex”. 
the other pocket – a large tin of Tea Tree , water-based, pomade
nearly gone.

inside the knapsack
in the big pocket -
school books, notebooks
pens and pencils.
The front of the math folder read “math blows”.

Last night, little Johnny
met his girl at the park for
some  love making.

The left hurriedly, or were scared off
by a coyote 
or deer in the tall grass.

Little Bobbie went home without
his school books and his hat, but
left with pomade in his hair
and the smell of his girl 
on his clothes
and her taste in his mouth.


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The Flower that Shattered the Stone

As I look back I see a girl
She is at a quinceanera practice 
She suffers from leukemia.

Like a bright star from heaven
The sun and water brought life
Then leukemia drained it
It’s sharper than a knife

To see her alive is blissful
Her light sparkles even in illness
The illness is sad but not sinful
As the river runs freely
The mountain does rise

I see with my own eyes
Medicine has helped her recover
Life hasn’t looked so bright before
I’m proud not to see her suffer
We’re all glad that her pain is lower than minor

The rainbow was painted full of light
Like a bright star from heaven
Like the flower that shattered the stone.

Light hearted


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Wake Of Dawn

At the wake of dawn,
A sudden yawn,
Escapes my mouth,
While the wind blows from the south,
I get up from my bed,
I mean couch,
Since my girl,
Threw me out,
Out into the cold,
I went,
So I can find shelter with an old,
Old friend,
That I discussed my feelings with,
But then again,
This friend wasn't just a friend,
It's my ex friend,
My ex lover,
That I'm crawling to,
Even if our "thing" is over,
I still think that we can rekindle,
The love that made us mingle,
The love that made us break-up,
And become single,
But I need to stop thinking like this,
Because I think,
If I continue,
If I continue,
I would be missed,
By the girl that told me to leave,
By the girl that I recently kissed,
So I'm going to run,
To my girl,
To say sorry,
Before our relationship is ends,
Done.


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Skin Deep

I stare blankly ahead of me;
stare into the cracked soul of the being who used to reflect a smile
- the girl I used to love unconditionally.
That love evades me now.

Where has it gone?

I search desperately, but I fear it is lost forever
- lost forever in the turbulent streams of my --self--consciousness;
lost in the dark recesses of my mind,
in the shrunken cockles of my heart.

I fear I may never find it.

But surely nothing is ever truly gone;
surely it is simply hiding from me
- playing a twisted game of hide and seek - 
or creeping in the shadows of my despair until it is needed again.

I need it now.

Words cannot express how deeply, how utterly, I want to love that person;
to see something of worth or merit in those dark eyes,
to smile back when those pale contours
find their pride again.

But somehow, I just can't see that face the same way.

All I see are lips chapped from saying "no"
- from constantly repenting sins they will soon commit again and again.
All I see are those blank, empty eyes staring back at me
- the cracked soul within beating herself bloody to be freed.

I wish  I could see it - I wish I could set that girl free - but somehow I can't find how.

I want to see it again:
the eyes so full of promise and hope that they blossom,
the smile of a girl who knows the world will keep spinning.
the face of a girl who may be chipping away piece by piece, but is still trying.

But you can't see what just isn't there.

I'd like to think that with enough wishing, that face will return;
that somehow the withering girl - bound by her own will - may find the sun again.
That against all odds, the cracks will begin to fade - the splintered child will heal -
and maybe, eventually, time will turn back and her smile will find its way through the pain.

I'd like to think that miracles are a stones-throw away -  that all you need is a little bit of pixie dust.
I'd like to believe that love does conquer all - much as the world would like to prove otherwise. 
I'd like to believe that, beneath the face of a girl with only bad days left, there hides another girl.

I'd like to believe that inside those soulless eyes,
buried deep within a chasm of depression,
hiding, timid, in the shadows,
there lies another face:

A face that, maybe,
I can love
- or at least smile back at in the mirror.


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Of Recognition

This path I take
                      So familiar it seems!
Of sweet years past I dream,
Of distant seasons I dwell; But of love---
Of love I miss. Although deprived of a 
Maiden's gift, I bestill my aspirations;
             With passions gone I retrieve my thoughts but fail
             To comprehend; and now I must cater to my wounds
Of empetiness and bleed to the boredom that follows.


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Monster In Love

A beast was told to protect a girl
The moment he saw his assignment
He fell in love with her instantly
But it was no use whatsoever
For it is forbidden to love a human
If anyone found out he will be killed
So he let it go and did his job

He kept an eye on her everyday
And he often saved her from situations
That had nearly killed her
At night he would sit by her bedside
And he watched her dream pleasent dreams
Always making sure she's comfortable

One night he did what no other dark angel should do
He entered the girl's dream so she could meet him
At first she was frightened at his image
But then as she got to know him she too fell in love
They were so happy it felt like nothing could go wrong
But they were soon discovered by the beast's master


The beast begged to his master to let the girl into the lost world
He told the master that they're in love and they want to get married
But the master was too dissapointed at his top protector
The beast turned to the girl and spoke "I will always love you no matter what."
The master was so disgusted at the angel's behavior and destroyed him
The girl woke up crying later that morning and got up to get dressed


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AN ANTIQUATED BEING

In an orb of knowledge, walks a colored girl.
Her celestial being is ethereal.
Abreast is she of her past but fragile to the imminence.
Her strides are hindered because once she was poor and her life was lost in that
      remembrance.
In the present day, she is born to be a rich woman.
Her compositions oeuvres her as a legacy lost.
Her cognizance delineates her as a renowned Poetess.
She remembers herself as well spoken.
Prestige she was given by her family.
However, she was born in the time of human suffering.

An antiquated being esteemed to write is this girl in her reincarnated life.
She was born before her time and now the good Lord has revitalized.
Metaphysically she conceives vivacity.
With effervescence learnt, her vim and vigor are expressed through her lexes.
The echoes of her thoughts are parrots.
Emotionally she enters her past life and begins to compose the opus.
Her perception manifests the images of her verses.
A modern day Poetess against subversion is a Poetry Diva verge of curses.
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POETRY DIVA - OBLIVION DARK SUNSHINE - VERLENA S. WALKER
PENNED ON JUNE 21, 2014!
In Truth and Integrity, this is ambiences of the author's connection to her past life.


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the descriptive injury: part II

it would have been an injury to them both
to attempt a description,
to bring what it was that compelled the girl to silence
(if she had not chose silence beforehand---one outside can never be sure)
to formulate an image, to dispel some kind of physical qualities verbally
which to the person outside
might have made some impression upon them,
because that unique allurement of which the girl did focus
could never truly be brought into any kind of distinction for the rest of us,
in fact to try would only taint it & do a disservice to the whole of the
event---
rather, even a more considerate onlooker, who stopped when crossing into the other room, in order to ask the girl about her moment in awe, 
would only force a quick death to what was happening,
like waking up from a dream involving the two,
neither can make the other understand
anything but the attempt at understanding,
for what is to be understood 
exists solely on its own---right out there in the focus,
or it lies dead in our savage
description---

and when the questioner came back after a few minutes,
unsatisfied with the absence of any answer
(as so many of us impatient imbeciles are),
after turning, the girl spoke a few phrases 
which to the questioner seemed only nonsense at best,
as if she’d been spoken to in a language that she didn’t know---
what had been said was simply a description also,
one that felt only like another installment,
a domino in the falling, predictable effect,
wherein one person tries to get at the heart of the matter,
while the other tries to help them &
a million conversations begin, part ways &
begin again,
constantly picking up the baton & then dropping it,
be it like the boredom of rereading a “choose your own adventure” book,
or a fresh new mistake
found when the collision of the selves within
mess up the overall stability of the
whole.


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no walkies for me

With a crouch and a jump and I miss it
Why can’t I get it myself
Why can’t I get the biscuit
My mistress leaves on the shelf

Normally I wouldn’t steal anything
But not a happy girl am I
She has gone out and left me
Didn’t even say goodbye.

Normally a tap on the head and that biscuit
Comes my way when she’s going  out
I give her my paw to say thank you
This pleases her I have no doubt

She thinks I am a well-trained boxer
Well I am when I want to be
Other times I think, shall I, shan’t I 
When she says outside for a wee

Oh, I hear the key in the door now
Shall I sit here and pretend I haven’t tried
To get myself a biscuit
But the debris might prove that I lied

There is flour on the floor
And on me now,  rice all over the place
Will she be cross I wonder
Should I hide without a trace

So I slink away to my bed now
Pretending that I am asleep
‘Til the screams of horror awoke me
What she called me would earn a bleep

Bad girl was one that she uses
Flowered up to make it sound bad
Think walkies is out of the picture
Now I am feeling sad

What a day I am having
No biscuits or walkies for me
She had better hurry up and let me out
Cos now  I really must p ee.


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Valiance

Beauty overlooks pain...
For weakness shows no sorrow...
Plain from within...
Your heart is shown again...
Lacking the ability of reason...
Your soul comes looking for me...
I ask that you reconsider...
But you risk in assumption...
You put me in danger...
Hence I am no stranger...


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This girl has me in her grasp

Mmm this girl i know
Shes bossy so
For i do not like you
I may be lieing its not true
It may be love
At this moment I cant move 
Your engaging stare has me paralyzed 
Im in you grasp 
How do you know of my love
Its time for a retreat
For that im beat
I need to rewind
My heart is stuck in a bind
Ive never had the feeling
Im going to jump through the ceiling
Can i be this overjoyed
Of this girl ive always tried to avoyed


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I wish you did

You talk about how you can never find her,
or how you can't seem to keep one around
I try to hide the fact that I am that girl,
because I know that in your eyes I'm not.
You say that you want a girl that laughs at all your jokes,
 If you notice,
I do.

I let you cry on my shoulder, EVERY time you get hurt. You say that you want a girl that you need a girl, that's there for you when you need her One that makes you laugh when you don't want to. A girl that you can be yourself around.
If you notice, I'm her. If you notice, I'm everything you said you want. Do you notice? Not one bit.
But I wish you did.


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the doors

love of my life
the heart of the gold
the crystal handle
to my love door
she opened them wide
and gave a huge smile
and shined her light
in my dead life
she opened me 
with tears of grace
and she made me realize
that i got to fight every way
stand my ground
and not let me down
for i was in tears
for all the break
and then she came
and made me alive again
she made my heart beat
and my lungs breath 
she gave me everything
which was what i need
for to come back
and socialize once more
she has made the pain
run away
never to come back
or return anymore
she made my life
as a prince or a knight
with all loyalty and might
she brought me my life
back from the grave
were my doors were sealed
and i thought no one
would try to revel
my batter and bashed
a heart as you may
she is fixing it right now
and making it great  
thanks to her
i am alive again


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she my independent women

she knows what shes doing,she can pay the
bills on time.
she know how's cook and clean.
she got her own car,she can pay her own
house,her own mortgage.
she's my cute girl,she's my independent girl.
she can do anything for herself.
she don't have to ask anything from me.
she can do it for herself.
she stole my heart from the beginning.
I didn't know I could fall in love with a girl
like her.
she has time to spend with me.
she is my baby,I'm so proud that she's my girl.
shes the girl that's always on my mind.
shes the girl for me.
and that's why I love her.


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The Girl I Used to Be

Extra pounds pad my frame
But I’d rather just ignore ‘em
Cause in my mind, I still see
The girl I used to be

My driver’s license say 52
Where has the time gone
On a good day I feel 18
Like the girl I used to be

When I get up, I hear
Creaking and popping sounds
My back is weak and hurts a bit
But some days I feel young 

I can't work as hard
Walking hurts my back
I take pills every day
For my aches and ails

Gray hair has found its way
Into my crowning glory
But L’Oreal covers that
So it won’t be showing

Wrinkles and a sagging chin
In my mirror appear
But I turn away and I still see
The girl I used to be

My hands are not as lovely
As I remember them
I look at them in surprise
As if to me they don’t belong

Sometimes I forget things
I know I used to know
Of all the things I miss
I miss my mind the most


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I love U

Your love is so full of passion n innocence, 
and the words like im lost in pain.
I just got lost in the breeze, 
the breeze of your love,
its like flowers blooming in spring.
I juz sat still waiting for you,
waiting for the time to stop,
I just couldn't wonder what were you,
Just another girl or an angel frm d star.
But one thing's true , that i love you,
for the breeze and the warmth you give.
And hearing my cries, one day you
stop for me with the time,
I can never forget the time you saw me,
with those eyes full of love,
It was so innocent n full of pain,
It made me cry, like a thundering rain,
Tat it melt ma heart with all those chains,
Clinging to stop me from meeting you,
I can't stop now, loving you,
I don't really know what it is, 
but it feels so romantic n true.
People here, people there,
call these words as poems,
but i would say that everyone
has a  poet hiding in them.
I finish my words with some love and care
A really amazing love affair,
I look at you with despair.
Why don't you be ma pair?
I love u so much,
I want to be with you,
I desperately am in need of you,
that now i know that the girl of my dreams
Is really you.

LOVE U AMANDA MILLER!!


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Graveyard on two feet.

She walks alone
down a busy street
Fear painted on her face,
and blisters on her feet

Car horns are honking
People bustle by,
Not seeing the brokenness 
of the girl at the traffic light

but they wonder why...
but they wonder why...

Such a beautiful girl 
is alone in this world
No one to pick her up
when she's down
No one standing by her side

When you look in her eyes
you see the fear that's inside
her walls come tumbling down
but you'll never get the chance to see her cry


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UNTITLED

written 30th Nov 2001


Lost and alone
 for she doesn't know where to go
This mother is now stuck
 she weighs up her options
And see's she is fighting against gossips 
 she stops, and takes a look at this world
What have they done, to this lovable little girl
 as she open's her eye's
Only to be faced, with all there lie's
 feeling alone and tired
She walk's on, to only find
 she is saying good-bye..
Taking one last look around
 before she lay's down on the ground
As her eye's completely, silently close
 she whispers, her final prayer to die
Still she walk's on, lost and alone
 but the difference now is quite clear 
For you can see her soul.....just disappeared...


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Malignant Black Snakes and Spiders Attack From Hell

     Malignant Black Snakes and Spiders Attack From Hell

Sweet little girl smiles on the soft sunny day
Plays with pillows on sofa beds  
Bright powder blue eyes follow patterns of colorful butterflies
She runs to greet them
The pita-pat pita-pat over crisp meadow
Greens and yellows flow together
Follow on the tips of glowing blues
Drenched in cool dew dancing in delight
Giggles and thrills all the way
Parades play magical music in the bright distance
Lifting the spirits of the noble child even higher
A daffodil catches her glance
She snatches it up against her chest
Holds it tight for luck
Then flies to purple majestic trees
Dress lifts her to the precipice  
Paradise is nice
It’s time to run through fields of dreams
Blue skies smile down on her
God blesses her every move
She knows it's time
Mother and father wait for her with open arms
And abundant kisses for her precious face 
A warm lunch with buns and cakes awaits
That can’t be beat
How sweet 
                                               (Influenced by Dadaism- anti-art)


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X

I’m your X, He’s your X, but I stand back wondering if your go to put an X on are future. I 
know your not my girl but I’m craving you was still in my world as my girl not my X. I know 
he missing you why because you’re a Queen no lie in this world and mine, but you have had 
times with him and I guess it was good times coz I can still see it in your eye’s, but does he 
see the same thing too, 

All these years I’ve been good to you only getting better. Understanding you, but I guess I 
need to do is understand No OVERSTAND MYSELF before trying to give you my love. So I’m 
on my ting now so I’ll holla when I can and see you when I see you coz I’m not throwing my 
love around any more. 

I LOVE YOU and you have identified it, so it your time to show me what moment in time it is 
or you might not call or even TX and just get back with your X but you know how far the 
love goes and what adventures we could overcome together. So i don't call this the end or 
the past because i believe love will still past this way.


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Faith

The way you look at me
Known you for five years
The way you smile at me
My heart glimmer
I see something in you
A beautiful creature
A king waiting for his queen
The way you hug me
Its like im the one
The way you kiss my soft lips
The suden change
Its like I tamed the beast in you
Your now someone caring
You love is there just for me
I am lost
Not knowing how to appreciate
Appreciate you gift to me
I want a beautiful creature 
I want to be your queen 
I just can't I just can't
I am a walking soul with no body
I am lost in this world
I am not the creature for you
I am some girl with no body
NO commitment
No love in the heart
Just a stone
A dull stone 
Is it worth you love
Is it worth your patience
THere you are loving me 
Loving me for who I am
The lost girl the lost puppy
Then I realize you are my creature
You are my king
I am your queen
We became one


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You Will Miss Me

One day, you are going to miss the text messages, phone calls, and emails I sent you.
You will miss how I used to worry about you when you were out late at night.
You are going to miss how I used to annoy you.
One day when I am gone you are going to miss how you actually had someone who wanted you.
And when I am not around anymore you will miss me. 


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Delphine my staR

She sticks cons a fate
listening the young Bach
Jean Sebastian before the goodness
before the consciousness
after the Joy
to sing her first
her absolute perfect accordance


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AISHA

Forced into womanhood at 12
betrayed by those you trusted
abused daily mentally and physically
forced to sleep in the animal shed
Your escape was short-lived
being captured and returned
to your tormentors

In the mountain
the cruel knife passed
on your innocent face
No, Aisha
that is not cold water
in your nose
It is your blood
Your nose is gone
and so are your ears

Your tormentors have gone away
and left you alone to die
But you refused to lay down 
and die
With your defiant spirit
you crawled down the mountain
to those who cared
and protected you
and helped you to a new life
away from the evil unjust system
you inherited by birth

What was your crime
to be dealt such cruelty?


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To the End and Back Again Part 2

I found a knife in the kitchen and started cutting my wrist. I kept cutting until I lost so much 
blood that I went unconscious. The next thing I remember was waking up in the hospital with 
Jania beside me. She told the police and the hospital that she was my sister so they wouldn't 
contact my parents. 

When I could leave the hospital, I started to drink. I drank more then a 30 year old man 
could. I ended up going into AA where I met 15 year old Noah. Maybe it was because he 
reminded me so much of Connor, but we bonded so quickly. Noah was in a band that I 
became a part of. I then met one of Noah's friends named Brandon. We started to date, 
Brandon and I, and I thought he was everything that I needed. Brandon turned out to be 
abusive and controlling. I couldn't leave him up until the night he raped me. The only reason 
I could was because I hit him so hard in the head with the metal bat next to his bed that I 
gave him a concussion. I ran from his house, and I ran right into Noah's arms. We dated for 
a short period of time but ended up breaking up because we were too good of friends. We 
still are friends to this day.

I dated a few people after him which led me to high school. I went to a school in a different 
town. I met my current boyfriend named Pat. We were only dating a few months before I got 
social anxiety and didn't leave my house for 6 months. I ended up having to transfer schools. 
I had to come to my towns school so I could be in a special program for other people who 
have the same problems that I do.

Jania joined the army about a year ago, and I met someone named Kevin. He was very 
sweet and made me feel safe in Jania's absence. Like everyone else I've come to know, 
Kevin left me alone, making me worse then I already was. 

I found out a few days ago that Jania was killed in the war. Her legs were blown off and 
because she was so small, she lost too much blood to survive. The girl that helped me 
through everything is gone now. The people I've loved have all passed again and I will never 
see them again. Nothing will ever be normal for me, and I will never feel safe. Maybe life 
was planned out for me and all of this was supposed to happen. Maybe I was meant to be a 
suicidal girl with anxiety, depression, anger management issues, trust issues, abandonment 
issues and a recovering alcoholic. My life has given me the opportunity to love and cherish 
every moment. So that's my life so far. 

Sucks, doesn't it?


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Diary Of Lost Love Part 3, Dedicated to a Lady

She finally tore down what we built
like rolling stones got our hearts
tripping over the hill.
Like a mountain
we finally reached the mountain peak.
Our love fountain
ran out of water
so I never stop to take a drink.
A deep emotion
going through my body
beating on my heart.
A deep emotion
telling me that the rapid beats
will never stop.
I kissed her lips
I kissed her cheeks
and told her the lovely truth.
I rubbed her back
massaged her feet
and told her that I'm forever loving you.
She looked away and walked away
like she never cared.
I chased her left and chased her right
throughout the years.
I caught up to her and finally
grabbed her hand.
Baby girl loving you is my only mission
and my only plan.
So love me kind and love me dearly.
Save me the last dance.
So love me kind and love me yearly
all over again.
They say your ex
is an example of what you don't deserve.
Well my ex I truly loved her
but somehow I found a way
to love to hurt her.
Baby girl I don't deserve ya
I know it's hard but I'm not perfect.
I know you love me
am I worth it?
The pain is unkind
but my heart is burning
and I'm yearning for your love.


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an untitled slam poem that addresses gender and also being a lesbian

"Oh," she whispers, "but she's here with a boy!" Her words, especially the painted blue one, stick to her palm covering her lips and mouth, I lace my fingers through yours and this happens simultaneously on opposite sides of the room, we look at each other and smile, the suppressed laughter in our mouths a balloon blown so full it's about to pop,

It pops.

You're not all boy.

We laugh because she saw you from far away, she saw you and your hair that basically spells out either, 'lesbian,' or, 'boy,' across your forehead.

I look at your eyes. I tell you: Jesus, she thinks you're a boy and she thinks I'm straight we've neeever been in this situation before.
We laugh.

And, oh, that waitress that one time said, "thank you sir," when you handed her your credit card, her words overflowing with poisonous flirtation, spilling out of her mouth along with a biohazardous receipt, Her fingertips brushed yours as she handed it to you,
She didn't know. Painful ignorance.
After she left, you asked, "So is she a lesbian? Or..."

I didn't have the heart to tell you that she thought you were all boy.

I also didn't have the heart to believe the waitress didn't know she was feeding us poison.

you acted like it was nothing, but I, like, internally growled or something because the only two people who are this protective over someone else are moms and girlfriends.

She whispers, "Oh, but she's here with a boy!" and the blue word caresses our cheeks like your thumb and mine, currently participating in some sort of passive aggressive thumb makeout session because that's a nervous habit we have when we hold hands. 
And we have the words "boy" and "lesbian" written across our foreheads, so it's a good thing I focus on your eyes.


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Adflicto

I just want to curl up and away
Forever lost in the land of dreams.
Where is that happy land of sunshine?

Lost in a perpetual storm; am I
The storm or is it around me?

The dark Beast forever stalking my
Light, my life of laughter, smiling.

I thought I was safe but then
The grief tore my soul apart
Once again, I was broken, ruined.

The circles, the fears and desires
All mockery of me, the joke.

Escape but not for me, chained to 
Walls of the pit I’ve fallen into.

Too much of everything yet not
Enough and the paradox is heartless.

Raving mad and angry at the world,
At life so cruel and beautifully still.

A hope, a whisper so frail like frost
In the shining light of angry morning.

What am I, anyway, except thoughts
And a bundle of torn up skin?

Tired and wracked with thoughts so dark,
Peace must be found or I shall

Break. 


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Mirror Image

Mirror Images

When I look at myself in the mirror,
I see what is not there
According to my clothes.

Why has my viewpoint changed?
I have always seen myself,
As being thinner than I really am!

That nasty fat girl is supposed to be gone,
So why has she suddenly returned?
I am not eating as much,
Due to the stress of moving.
But why has the fat girl returned?
I’m confused!!!

The fat girl is not what
God wants me to see.
He would want me to see
The much healthier, thin woman
I am meant to be. 
So why is the 450 pound person, 
Showing up in that mirror on the wall?

Is it because we are moving
Back to where I used to be
Fat and ugly?

Only God knows the answer,
What am I to learn?

                                                   Christine Stout


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Im in love with God

oh im in love with God
now what should i do
should i conquer the east 
or the west or the entire world
and hand it to you
at first i thought there is no place for anyone other than God in my heart
but now im sure a woman can enter too and make this heart a home
God talks to me in my dreams and in my wake we laugh all the time
Hes the best friend ive ever had and im at peace finally


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Nobody Cares

Nobody cares that a girl is beaten for disobeying her father
Nobody cares that a boy is killed for trying to break up a fight
Nobody cares that a baby is drowned for crying too much
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek

Nobody cares that a gay man is stripped of his clothes and forced to walk out in the street
Nobody cares that a transvestite is revealed of a secret in front of their friends
Nobody cares that a lesbian is forced to make a porno so her parents don’t find out
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek

Nobody cares that a girl is forced into sex, beaten when she refuses
Nobody cares that a boy is forced to clean up after his mother’s flaws
Nobody cares that a group of friends gets arrested because they look suspicious
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek

Nobody cares that a girl is beaten for disobeying her father
Nobody cares that a gay man is stripped of his clothes and forced to walk out in the street
Nobody cares that a girl is forced into sex, beaten when she refuses
But I care… Its not right for people to turn the other cheek


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The Last Letter

Its been 4 years and nothings really changed
We grew apart and stayed that way,
I guess that fate.
I sat up late, so many nights
And thought about the times,
When talk and laughter, even fun 
Came naturally.

But now I sit here, feeling alone
And reading the words
You once wrote:

"We'll always be together. 
No matter the distance,
No matter the time, 
I'll be with you forever
And ever. All time"

Its been 4 years and everything has changed.
We grew apart and stayed that way
A decision that was made.
So here I sit
Yet another night
And re-read for the who know what time
That last letter that you wrote.


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humour me

not exactly the girl interrupted
not exactly the girl interrupted
said the boy with a promise to repeat
he who laughs last laughs best
laughs best he says
im not sure the joke is on me

Something funny he asks
something funny?
the sense of humour surrounding me
surrounds me

the joke i have become
the joke i have become
you never know what retard is packing a nun

something funny he asks
something funny?
the sense of hilarity surrounding the joke i am

how many shocked sherrifs
shocked sherrifs
does it take to get me
out of this?
wanna take a crack at the answer

The psycho in the bath
complains
humour me
humour me
the sense of humour im among
isn't funny
isn't funny

not exactly the girl interrupted
the girl interrupted he says
with a promise to repeat
never know what retard is packing a nun
packing a nun

if your gonna lay the rail he says
lay the rail
better be ready to ride the train
he who laughs last laughs best he says
laughs best
i'm not sure this joke is on me

In the sexy trees
the sexy trees
i stare into like clouds
i see the tree spirits making love
i see the tree spirits shaking the tree
Practicing to look into the stars
into the stars he keeps rearranging
rearranging to tell me something
tell me something
i didn't before see

the joke that surrounds me
the laughter of everyone
everyone laughing at me
humour me says the psycho in the bath
the psycho in the bath says 
humour me

the sexy trees your fifth element
a fifth element
telling me something about the stars
the stars he keeps rearranging
rearranging to tell me something
he who laughs last laughs best he says
laughs best
with a promise to repeat
i don't think this joke is on me


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My own little garden

My dearest little garden
that grows my plants
The finest yard of numerous
that holds my beauty
My wholeness that grants my draft.
My obese garden that stays and stands
Even though you know I am a Yokel.
I owe you much
My till, till and till.
My own mine, I whole you all
Cos you have stood by me
In no place and less vacuum.


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i want her

I found her the,
Perfect simple girl,
not a cheer leader,
yet sporty,
your the right height,
everything i want,
but you belong to my friend,
your a girl that i cannot have,
i want you to be with me,
but your with him,
i know you dont like me
but i want you
so please girl give me just one chance


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Untitled

Sprouted in soil,
not rich nor poor
surprisingly the seedling grows under
the toughest conditions.

Nature is false, though one may not believe-
the burning in the blistering summer,
the drowning in the spring
the Identity ripped away in the fall
and the double edge of winter,
beautiful and bitter.

Only time has shown appreciation
towards the seedling, giving it
Knowledge,
on a daily basis, now a sapling
strength and wisdom acquired
each new year; something gained
nothing lost

But nature furious at time's progression-
takes the rage out on the sapling;
a branch broken
Time heals this injury
but more are sure to follow as the anger rises,
so does the intensity of these wounds
later a storm progresses
and lightning strikes
the sapling suffers at the rage of nature.

A sole protector stands Alone
guarding the Treasure,
as old and beaten,
Alone, against the world-
Always fighting,
refusing any help, this is Her fight.
heartwood exposed
to nature's elements and insects
that attack the vulnerable possession.

Another joins the fight-
waving away objections
bringing tools to heal,
helping to guard
Giving-in
accepting help-
now two brave the world,
burdens shared, protection from harm,
a sacred Treasure.


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WANTED

WANTED:

Someone who’ll understand
The words of a psychopath
The personality of a split
The heart of a woman.

Someone who’ll see
What is behind the eyes
What is inside the heart
And not behind the clothes.

Someone who’ll feel
The want to rage
The need to wee
The desire to be loved.

Someone who’ll hold
The arms that’s swaying
The shoulders that’s faltering
The feet that’s leaving.

Someone…
Just someone…
Simply someone…
Who doesn’t even exist.


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Diary Of Lost Love Part 2, Dedicated to a Lady

She act like she cares
but she doesn't care at all
love is something she fears
but what is she fearing for....?
She said that she loves me
but that was all a lie.
If you truly loved me
then you would look me in my eyes.
I'm not a fallen angel
or a devil in disguise.
I'm nothing like the temperature
but I want our love to rise.
Our love was so hot
but now it's feeling cold
they called us Adam and Eve
but now were the Princess and the Toad.
Baby girl your so beautiful
I never ever lied.
Baby girl your so wonderful
I love that sparkle in your eyes
but when you left me
the pain corrupted my mind
but when you left me
I wanted to rewind time
to go back and love you
one last time.


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the mistake

I never knew my heart can hurt this bad.
You broke my heart,you shattered my heart
into pieces.
I was always by your side,i'd always thought
you was my center of universe,part of my world
I can't get you out of my mind.
I should have stop dieing my feelings for you.
I every time I see you,I feel like my body is in
a state of shock.
I never thought I can be lonely in this world.
I should of thought of your feelings to.
But I put my image first,you was second.

I just can't believe I made a mistake of a life time.
you were the girl I loved,you made my life whole
your girl in my life.

but my chance is over,and my love is too..


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Girl Inspired

The girl that inspired me, she came into my work yesterday
The girl had long hair and a smile of grace
Her words were soft and proper like artwork of the mind
Her advice was amazing and right
Her advice was merely her story

The girl had a face and it read clear 
Oppertunity knocked and I was always here
I saw the doors open through my life over and over, and when I finally looked straight ahead

And over the next hill 
And above the rolling waters
And inside my heart of dreams I came into the reality
That my time has been well spent and again I will be on my path

Like the girl
I cant wait to thank her

-Jess


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The Ballerina

The Ballerina

A little girl no more than three or four
She spends her day listening to the music from her mother’s radio
She dances a beautiful dance for her age
Even the clopping of her feet is magical
Yet, she will not allow anyone to watch
Stopping the moment she feels eyes upon her
Years go by and the little girl never gives up her dancing
Schools and practice are a daily routine
The rest of her life is a mere dream own by her talent
Sore ankles, swollen knees and bloody toes are her curse
Yet, she never gives up the dance
She dances in untold choruses with a thousand other girls
An unknown she dances every night in one show and every day in another
Years of practice grow and strain in every muscle she uses
Audiences applaud every performance but it is not for her, never for her
Yet, she never gives up the dance
One night she is called to be the central character of the show
Her dance is flawless in its technique
As graceful as the swan she portrays she glides through every moment
This one night is the fulfillment of a life of dreaming and work
All the classes, the pain of strained muscles and the blood-filled shoes fade away
The audience…they are not there
She doesn’t care that no one knows her name
Fame is something she had not desired since she heard her mother’s radio
At that minute the music and the dance are the only things she knows
And all of her life has led to the moment
So many years of her life she strived for this
She still does it just for the dance


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Their Souls Departed

   She walks the streets
Of dim lit lights
The heart broken homeless woman
Lady of the night.
.
   The world was yours
Gold and pearls, a platinum life
Married to a silver spoon
You were once a rich mans wife.
.
   Your husband befriends the spirit king
A storm of abuse and alcohol rain
Now you run to spare your life
The only hope is to escape the pain.
.
   State to state with blackened heart
Into the night is where you sleep
Within the darkness led astray
Where lonesome lives and gutters weep.
.
   To your new home
No key no door
Emptiness squared
Of paper board.
~~~
   He walks in silence all alone
Seeking out divinity
Mile upon mile on worn out shoes
Through the streets of un-lit trees.
.
   Contrition holds his broken heart
Bound to earth by saddened love
His soul was taken within a glance
He is now the lonesome dove.
.
   Once a father, a husband, 
A man
A wonderful life
Of dreams and plans.
.
   Until that night in the car together
Unknownst the evil seed
A green light passed and through a yellow
The devil in drunken speed.
.
   A wreck to fell the family tree
Within the night of silence brings
A horrid vision imprinted the mind
Of a soulless man with broken wings.
~~~
    Even while life continues to shine
    There comes a girl of only nine
    Abandoned, alone to hope adored
    Mommy is gone to be a whore.
.
    This child walks in huddled arms
    Frightened to be where evil charms
    She finds a box to crawl inside
    Alone to live, alone to cry.
.
    While tears fall down upon her face
    A sound has startled her in her place
    Unbeknownst the box with broken tape
    This nine year old girl will now be rapped.
~~~
   Now as I sit
In the comforts of home
I knew none of these people
Or the streets they called home.
.
   I lived like most, in ignorance
To those poor and suffering lives
Never once did I adjust
A thought or even an eye.
.
  Yet on the set the news I stare
Police lights shine in heavy glare
Those unknown people, those broken hearted
Lie still in the night, their souls departed.

     BY: DARREN J McMURRAY
     Placid Poet


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For Love 19

i said goodbye to u
i locked all of the memories away with the others
i gave in to the emptiness
and i was completely incomplete

6 days and i thought i was safe
and then u came right back
let me beg and plead to keep u here
even without ur love

u are the only one who could bring me here
take me by the hand and lead me with spoken good intention
and then leave me desolate at the end of ur road
just staring thru the tears as u go away again

and i should just prepare myself for the days ahead
when i know u have gone away, and i am not in ur eyes anymore
and i remember why im here
and why u need me when u do

i am only the skin that holds this ruined heart
i am only the eyes that u forget cry for u
i am only the body that turns u on
i am only the want and desire of ur selfish ways

winter is on its way again
and it will be short days and long nights
cold and alone, curled up here alone
and always waiting for u.

maybe sleeping u away was the best thing i ever did
and i dreamed u back into existence
and here i am stuck in love and being ur whore
just like ive been since the first man looked my way.

ill just sit here thru the months and try to remain empty
without expectations, without feelings of my own
and when u come to me, on rare nights when u need a release
ill put the smile on my face and the sparkle in my eyes

the whole time ill be hoping...
to get ur love back
to earn ur hearts attention
and have u all alone.

i was once an irreplaceable love, the only thing u needed
and we would watch the other sleep and be amazed in the morning
and time was never an issue, and life was a possibility
and u said that there was nothing that would keep u away...

well im no longer ur little jewel, am i?
i am no longer the goddess, the woman of ur dreams...
i am the mistake that u cant get rid of, the girl u dont need anymore
and i am the girl u keep hurting with ur ways.

i dont know what to do with this anymore
i wish i could hate u too, and i wish i had also given up the fight for us
but my heart and head are still all absorbed by u
and u will never ever know.

u are still the man i love forever
u are still the one i want for life
the only one who touches me
its all just a memory, but one i cant delete

and i would still fight this war alone
if it werent killing me every battle
but the love will never die
and u will never ever know.




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A Dress Masked Revolution

Most people only see the outside girl,
Some only see the revolution created

But I’m the girl with that revolution
I’m the real thing,
Not imitated.

I’ve gone past my insecurities
I’m free from clichés,

Living with everything I’ve got.
I’m confidence with security,
Honestly,

What you see is what I am,
I got a beaten up heart but here I stand.

I’ll go beyond the skies, create my own dreams;
I’ve got it in me.

Look at me all you critics,
I declare my own independence,
I’m a one girl clique.

I’m nothing according you, I can’t impress
But the world freed me,
I’m the revolution masked in a dress.


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STRAW MAN

STRAW MAN

The straw man guards a golden field,
His eyes are empty, like its head,
A golden heart shines in his chest. Whose hand
had put this golden heart into his chest?
Can this heart put his body into motion?
This is what the crow is thinking about, and only the wind knows
the whole truth, that the girl with the golden hair
sat at the feet of the straw man,
waiting for the fairy to promise her
that she shall provide a heart for the straw man.
Like a man made of flesh and blood,
he loves it when the wind fondles his face,
and even more when the girl with the golden hair
is sewing a green shirt made of grass leaves,
so that someone might love him too;
When the sky darkens,
when the dark clouds come down like a led curtain
(to bring our story to an end) the straw man
is standing alone in the golden field, waiting for his death.
He opens his mouth, but all that comes out of it is silence...
treacherous silence.
I cannot hear him, I don't know his thoughts,
(after all, how can an empty head bear a thought?),
but I know for certain that he can feel, and I know what he feels,
I know what he wants:
For me to take him away
into distant golden deserts,
where the sun is eternally warming;
Where there are no crows to pick his eyes,
where there is no thunder and lightning, just the golden sun
and the girl with the golden hair. It is late
(I cannot save him, being just a poet outside the story),
the fireball is coming down from the sky
to burn the straw man.

  
©Walter William Safar


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The Found Boat-A Precis

Spring rain; river overflows, shallow lake fills. 
 
Riding a log, two girls explore the flotsam, 

Find boat; old, damaged, half sunk, ruined, mostly.

They shout out, show teasing boys, schoolmates, the wreck.

Delighted boys drag the hulk home, repair, seal. 

Girls watch the project day by day; at last done. 

Boys and girls launch, try it out by twos, threes, more. 

Success. No leaks. Make lunch and sail down river.

An abandoned house appears.  Going ashore—

They explore, eat lunch, play games, dare each other—

To strip. They all do. They dance, sun shines...time stops. 


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Her Story

Yellow and orange
Consume the wonderful fall
For this little girl
Fall is when she falls in love
She rises with the spring
She is at her peak in the summer
But she cannot keep strong
All Year long
So she falls when the leaves fall
She is in love now
Fighting for this one boy
Giving him all she's got
She finally hits rock bottom
In the winter
He breaks her heart
Shatters her so
She only remains that way though
For a short while
Because with spring comes relief
With summer comes strength
After that her story starts again


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Long Kiss Goodbye

It’s soft and gentle
Not at all what I expected
The initial reaction
Left just a fraction
Of retreat
The body is more than meat?
It’s throbbing again
It’s boiling in
It can’t stop now
It doesn’t know how
It’s so sharp
But it sets you apart
The pain isn’t bad
It instead feels good
I’m definitely a fan
But we don’t know if we should
What do we do?
What do we say?
When do we act?
Can I kiss you today?
The answers are here…
We continue with patience and an open mind
We tell each other what we want to say and what we’ve felt
We act when we feel the time is right
We kiss when you go the other ten percent


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1-20-11

Cuz it's like she's got the stars in her pocker and the moon on a string.
She's the girl who does't let anything get to her,
who held her head high.
The girl who never worried about being in love, 
Until the say that she met him, "love" was only a word that she never learned to 
pronounce.
She may be confused about alot of things in her life, but she knows the only time 
she's truely happy is when she's with him.
Cuz he is the color of love.


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Dancing to the Emotion

She glides across the stage,
thoughts concentrated.
Connected to her hands and feet,
loosening the body.
Her emotions flow easily,
unchallenged.
The slow, melodic notes in
her ears guide her,
like a master and his apprentice,
he takes her to unexplored realms.
She travels forward,
never looking to where she came,
yet her body always returns;
back on the stage.
The crackling, booming applause surrounds her,
reminding her of a fire;
She's dancing to it's flames,
breathing in the stale heat.
encouraging it to burn even brighter,
to light up the sky,
take the world with it;
Her movements are sharp,
as sweat starts to bead on her forehead.
The heated beats stop,
taking her back to the darkness of the theater.
The dim blue and red spotlights envelop her,
complimenting her tan, sequin dress.
She refuses to stop
as she turns to the next dance,
music following behind,
letting her take the attention
she deserves.
Now, she's in the mountains,
dancing in the rain,
thunder cracking above
as if a whip.
She jumps through the air,
touching lightning,
feeling its energy course through her.
Shes unrestricted,
unchained,
and free,
gliding on top the sky,
but only for the song.
Once again the song ends,
forcing her back to her
place of origin,
leaving her alone with the faint faces,
watching her,
smiling,
clapping,
praising her.
Shes baffled,
as she recalls the adventures made.
She never did anything
beyond losing herself to the music,
and let the true,
natural thoughts and emotions
of a carefree dancer
guide her.
She bows.


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The Ugliest Girl in the World

I’m the ugliest girl in the world
I hide on the outside
With make up
With curls
When I’m thin people like me
Congratulations!
What an achievement
For abandoning myself
When I’m fat, people like me
Ugliness peeks through
So witty!
So smart!
So talented!
Thank god she’s fat!
In between
Mother says with mother bias
What a pretty face
Father says with male bias
I’m an 8 out of 10
Thanks, Dad
Lovers know what I want to hear
But won’t say
It will seem false
It will be false
After all
I am the ugliest girl in the world

Lovers compliment others
Words never said to me
For I am ugly
If I had the right kind of knife
I’d carve an X into my face
Diagonal
Right to left
Diagonal
Left to right
X-ed out
Then there would be no question
It’s the wondering that kills me

Maybe, maybe it doesn’t matter
Maybe, maybe I’m pretty
This woman lives in me, somewhere
Battling my ugly
Battered by my ugly
In me, two people who despise each other
No one sees my wounds
Agonizing wars, b*tches brawl
If I had the right kind of knife
I’d cut them right out of my chest
Leaving a void
Where the pain was
A void
My ugly pain
MY ugly
Where would I be without my ugly?


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Hidden

Tell me what you see
When you think of me.
Frail and fragile,
Or fearless and fighting.
I’m not a force
To be reckoned with
But just a feeble attempt at 
Functionality and survival.
Just a girl with every intention
In the world to make sense
But just painfully misunderstood
And misused.
Just a sweet girl whose heart
Has been abused one too many times.
Do you see me at all?
Do you see what I want you to see
Or do you really see me?


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Not So Straight

Met this girl and shes
Super cool,
But I’m straight.
And she doesn’t remember my name.
Which is cool
Because I’m straight.

Shes got eyes that radiate
That shine when she smiles.
And I’m straight.
Her laugh makes me want
To tell a joke just to hear it 
Again. I’m straight.

When she hugs me the only
Thing that I can think is
How great she smells.
I’m straight.
She says I look cool and I
Have a stupid grin for days.
I swear I’m straight.

Except shes stuck in my head
And it becomes a place I live.
Thoughts of her
Are the only ones I have.
I look forward to when
I will see her next.
And I start dreaming with 
Her name on my lips.

I guess I’m not as 
Straight as I said.


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The Girl In Yellow

It was Sunday afternoon
As I walked down the road
Of puddle and mud.

The sky was crying
With her cheeks that’s gray
Like a baby in the crib.

And then I saw
This girl dressed in yellow
Smiling sweetly at me.

She waved at me
And I responded 
With an honest wave.

She bids goodbye
And I continued to walk
To my destination.
The sky was crying
Yet i felt happy
Because a girl smiled at me.

And that was how
The girl in yellow
Changed the gloomy day.


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A Dream of Her

I slept one night alone in my bed,
Sifting through all the wound thoughts in my head.
I felt uneasy, un-restful at best,
then I slipped into a dream of her, at my hearts fervent request.

We lay on the shoreline entwined in remorse and regret,
of all the broken promises neither of us had seen kept.
We cried to each other and we proclaimed our continued love,
We plead to each others’ hearts,  to our hate we should be free of.

My son he sat watching as we both reminisced,
about fond memories we both held onto, we both have missed.
To him it was strange; his memory at best placed
an uneasy asterisk next to our feelings of disdain.

But here we where together sweeping hate away,
I felt the love brimming from her yes, I felt love take hates place.
I felt it so much, that I awoke with tears welling from my eyes,
Every ounce of bitterness in my heart, I realize now was just a guise.

I still love her I’m sure. 
There will be no other who can keep a vacant spot in my heart for their return.
No pain could ever give me reprieve from the loss of her in my life.
No love shall give me that fire, that I once held in my life.


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A girl i want

I love a girl in distress,
cos i want her my mistress,
never worry i bring no stress,
make sure we are on the press.

I need a girl in my house,
buy jewels more than an ounce,
for tonight i will try to announce,
be my lady so i will call you my spouse.

I want a girl to take out,
buy her drinks then we make out,
for tonight we will order take out,
and i will become her princely stout.

I hate a girl whose a gold digger,
who loves money and smokes cigar,
who goes out  with only pubic figures,
and after all that she becomes a pest jigger.

I don't believe in love as fate,
love at first sight not my soul mate,
we know each other as we stay out late,
for this is how love converges to become fate.


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Brown-eyed girl loving

Down you upside hanging
By me danger dangling by
Bellybutton unsweatering

You sprite! Grin giggling
At me look laughing at
Legs in blue jean wrapping

You and tree branch playing
Just me girl game watching just
Wrists undressing, lil' tushy out peaking

On you keep swing-a-linging
For me song singing for
Finger gifts wind-dancing

By magic kisses you blowing
To me mush gushing to
Face o' yours flushing

You red from blood rushing
And me too blushing and
Feet maryjaned still on holding

To you boy-toying
After me trick scheming after
Hands stretch straight reaching

And you too much fun having
With me joke teasing, fooling with
Hair clean scenting the air swim-swishing

Around you and your Mom's calling
For me heart racing for
You and me to play without falling

For you too young for boy friending
For now me too young for dreaming for
Brown-eyed girl loving.


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The Year I Had In Halls

Reminiscing of my first year in halls
A circular green surrounded by 25 front doors
Perfect for frisbee cartwheels and just chilling on your stoop
Everyone new everyone in this small rounded coop
But the first night we didn't and it was the holy freshers week
After the union we'd disperse to where the party was to be
At Number 12 lived a girl that quickly caught my eye
She studied fashion so you can imagine that she was pretty fine
I pretended to be the bouncer outside her student studded house
Standing with the smokers sipping tins and famous grouse
She came over and asked if I'd had any trouble tonight
I said it's been fine until now but I'm worried now I might
It took me three days from that point to gain the courage
For a kiss I'll reminisce about until the day that I am buried
The final night of freshers, a boat party on the thames 
Signalled the end of our romance and the beginning of just friends
It hurt for a little while but the rest of the year we had a ball
A year I'll never forget is the year I had in halls


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Please don't think me selfish

I am a little restless with the sound of a child screaming
It's hard to keep breathing
I try to shut my ears to it
That tiny thing screaching
Walk away real fast
To stop the intensified feelings
Of that baby wailing

It's easier to stay away
All alone in my home
When it's her first birthday 
I'd rather stay at home

I could never hold your daughter
With those tiny little hands
Watch her pursed rose bud lips
These things I couldn't stand
The smell of warm milky breath
The suckling noise they make
This tiny person all brand new
These things I couldn't take
I could never change a nappy
Or pat her back to burp
With her little eyes all glazed
It just wouldn't work

Please don't think me selfish
As you can never see
Or feel the hurt of the childless 
Your never feel as me
My insides are empty 
From hope throughout the years
That never amounted to nothing
I spend some days in tears
That inside I'm broken
My heart it cracked in two
For the wanting of a baby maybe even two

When she grows up and gets married
Has a baby of her own
Then your be a granny
But I'll still be alone


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Hate the way i lie

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie 

This is real and we both know how it fells 
Right now the pain, it kills 
We wont fight it almost doesn’t fell right 
The right fells wrong, its like that song 

Fueled by our hate ,Blind from our love 
Its like I am drunk,  and stuck in a funk
You give me breath, when I cant breathe  

I cant leave and I cant stay here 
The farther I run, the closer I get
When its good its bad, when its great its worse

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie 

Have you ever cared so much, when they are not there you cant breathe?
When they are there, you get week in the knees?
And when they leave, you can barley see.

I said I would never hurt you, and I see now how I did
Cant even look at you in your eyes
Trying not to think about all of the lies 
 
Crazy in love, or in love crazy 
Its time to go our separate ways, 
Its time for us to have a new day
That was yesterday, but today
Its a different day 
 
No promise I will show restraint 
Life is a game, play it without aim
I wont lie again, but I am still watching you leave
I guess that’s why you found Steve

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie 

I did things I didn’t mean, said things that whernt so clean 
I am in a new pattern, with a different routine
But your the same as me, and just don’t believe
But when it comes to us, there is always a fuss

I know it was me, and you should flee 
Our relationship was crazier then it seams
Like a hurricane and a blizzard

So I pack my bags, and go outside
I can fell the pain, with nothing left to gain
Cant even look in to my eyeball , with out needing a highball
Next time I fight , It will be though a peep sight 

No next times, because I am gone
I am sorry for my lies 
My games is what caused pain, and she doesn’t want me back
I know I should not have lied
This time I am gunna leave, and set my slef on fire, 
That we people know we expired

I cant stand there and watch you burn, its my turn 
I wont let you get hurt, even if I get burnt 
If I hear you cry It will make me die  
All this because you hate the way I lie


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I Will Never Be

I will never be, the girl you dream of.
I will never be the type of girl you long for.

I will never be short.
I will never be tiny. 
I will never be pale skinned

I am not naive, weak, or easily-manipulated.
I am strong and intelligent. 

If I do not possess the qualities you want to find in someone, 
Then that is too bad. 
Someone will. 

I told you how I feel
I mean, we can be friends, 
But I have to and need to let this go.?
I can no longer feed your ego because it is slowing hurting and further confusing me.
 
I will never be your type. 
So therefore, we will never be.


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Regrets

This anger that is inside me now is tearing me apart,
    After all this time I find you had been lying from the start.
I am hurting so much from the pain you have caused me,
    By using your beauty and charm so I would not see.
All the lies and deceit while loving you and giving all my trust,
    I will expose your evil ways and mean doings this is a must.
Never  should another endure what you have put me through,
     This I will make sure of if it's the last thing that I ever do.
How dare you break my heart and then treat me so bad ,
      It  takes a lot to upset me but girl you have made me mad.
You've no idea the rage that I am carrying inside me now,
      I will make you regret this one day I will figure out how.
If it's the last thing I do I am going to make a example of you,
      How and when I am not sure of but trust me it will be soon.
You walk away from me as if you've done nothing wrong,
      Believe me girl I will show you and it wont take me long.
Seriously do you think you can get away with treating me this way?
      So wrong you are for that and you will know this one day.
That deceiving the man thats so in love with you ,
      Is something you are going to learn not to ever do.
Why would you ever do this to a man that loved you so,
      I guess this is something that I am never going to know.
This anger inside that is slowly tearing me apart ,
       Blinded by your ways I was completely in the dark.
Just one more thing I must say to you before I go ,
       You are evil  and that's something everybody will know.
TAC
   


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Not so sure

Slowly getting tired and frustrated with the situation that's at hand, 
but yet I'm trying to get a good grip on it and not let it go,
cause when it goes its going to fall and once it falls its going to explode,
the feeling that I'm getting gets stronger by day and weakens me by night,
I try to remind my self this is how it was since the beginning,
I'm not suppose to neither am I allowed to let it affect me like this,
slowly ill start pushing away.
I been hurting,
that empty feeling is coming back slowly the hole that was once patched up is simply 
reopening, 
as much as I try to maintain it shut the pain knocks at it making it crack. 
And it's not a feeling of loneliness because this feeling has just been growing 
waiting to escalate just building one on top of the other forming into this giant tOwer not well 
build,
I'm not losing interest just focus on what's in front of me and what I have 
needing something to pull me back saying look I'm here,
words are slowly just turning into words 
I can feel like I'm hurting not in pain,
just hurting that discomfort in my chest is annoying 
to the point where throwing up seems like the best option
as I hurt I know I'm hurting you to 
trust me its not my intension to. 
I love you 
forgive me or forgive me not but I blame you 
you have me so rapped around your finger you don't even notice how much I love you or 
need you 
when I need you the most your never really there your presences maybe but your mind is far 
gone 
I'm sorry I put you threw this the headaches and heartaches cause trust me i feel them too,
but you chose me and I chose you and we chose each other 
knowing that we
us aren't actually perfect 
we each have our problems you have yours and I have mine 
once your problems becomes me and my problem becomes you 
the world we have builded starts to drifted apart 
you on one side me on the other 
yet we still hold hands trying not to let go 
hoping and praying for the best to make it come back together again
I know there's a purpose to why our paths were put in the same direction  to each other
I'm still trying to figure it out
I love you I always have I just need to get reuse to being use to the beginning and how it all 
started and what it use to be,
But yes things are changing 
I'm still trying to hold of grip of the change
But at the end of the day,
It will forever be me and you,
Together again.


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A Key To Me

Girl Side

A lock and chain surrounds my heart. 
As true love can only have the key. 
A person comes and tells you that they love you.
But can you believe them when you walk away?

A boy looks at you and smile.
You look back and think this might be the one.
Until he goes and breaks your heart until it lies almost dead,
clinging to life itself. 

You thought that someone would come and be your prince charming. 
And then you find out that it’s a lie. 
When is it going to be my time to have a love in my life?
Or when is it going to be my wedding day? 

A boy makes you feel comfortable 
and 
make you feel as if you were on top of the world. 
Then you wait for him at the tree that you two named 
YOURS 
but he doesn’t shows up. 

You makes changes. 
You let him go and cry until you fall asleep.
Now you feel as if the world was on top of you,
and your not on top of it. 

Boy Side

A girl comes along tell you that you are very cute.
You tell her that she is too.
But then she has a boyfriend. 
You feel set up.

You sit at your kitchen table scribbling on a piece of paper. 
“I hate myself. I hate myself,” a million times.
You think about death and why hasn’t it came yet. 
Makes you realize that you want to be different.

A girl is alone at a park bench
And she’s crying. Blood shot red eyes look up at you
You asks her is she okay. 
She looks at you and nods yes.

You make her feel comfortable
and 
tell her that she’s pretty. She kisses you. 
You start to date. 

Then you find out that she has other “friends”
She tries to explain.
You don’t let her.
You lock yourself in your bedroom for the rest of the day. 

You feel unwanted. Underserved.
You want to run away. 
You make a path of your own.
And never look back. 

Just ‘cause live throws rocks at you,
don’t let it win. 
Make you lifestyle yours. 
And don’t never give up on true love. 


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Confessions of a stalker

From the time new born, sunlight bounces and plays, childishly on your beaming, chocolate flavored, skin,
To the time where the wind waits for you to pass, before blowing your designated, direction,
I watch you.
I do so vigilantly, so cautiously,
As the predator watches his pray,
And not an inch less than the Shepherd does his flock.

Whenever i cast these longing eyes upon you,
I no longer see only you, except i am now showered by foreign, visions,
Visions of you and i, you and i hand in hand,
Nearing no foreseen end.
Shown to me by the ancestors of cupid,
Reassuringly, shown that you shall be mine,
After all the inevitable is forever undermined.

Before being blinded by that coco skin you wore,
A realization was born; you are my favorite everything.
Be it a thought, daydream or fantasy,
With all cliche-filled, honesty it is indeed true.
One provoking, thought forever clinging,
Evenhandedly clinging to the crests of my right brain,
"The darker the berry, the sweeter the juice"
Now it is safe to say, you are my ripened type. 

Sadly though, i still let you kick dust and pass me by,
While our scents waltz in the atmosphere,
Happy as they marry and amalgamate.
But cowardly i let myself let you pass me by,
A teeth-less lion, i am,
Satisfied just by feeding these eyes.

I am a man of no kind of weakness,
That i feel you need to know,
But right now my mind is foggy,
Too misty to concatenate sensible actions or words,
So pardon me for depriving you,
Depriving you of what your knowledge is entitled to,
But as soon as i gain reception upstairs, you'll be the first to know;
I am your number one stalkler,
A.K.A "your future".
 

 


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Lost girl


She is a plain symphony of a sorrow song
She feels guilty although she does nothing wrong
At a town with faces she has never seen before
She’s a lost girl needs to find her way back home

She’s in a pale white dress and damp eyes
She looks so naive and so confused
Walking along the road with her empty mind
People look like angels people look like goblins

It feels like ages ago when the world seemed so warm
With the rainbow and the sun escorted her days
Currently she has no idea of where to go
She is a lost girl needs to find her way back home

She watches the snowfall from the gloomy sky
Still she feels so worthless and reckless
On the land she is standing she feels so lost
She wonders If only she had a pair of wings to fly

Wings that able to take her to her dreamland
A place where the grass is green and the sky is blue
Where the river is warm and the moon lights her night
Place where she calls home for her soul and her mind


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Stage Fright

My character's poem!! Enjoy ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 


I can't stand it - 
I wanna stand up, but how?
I am full of anguish 
I have stage fright... 

I can't stand it...
I'm a bit scared...I'm unprepared...
I want to get rid of stage fright, but HOW? 

I might be late
I wanna be there on time, but when do I get there?
Oh...at 4:00 PM...ooh great. 
It's 3:07 PM...happy to say everything's gonna turn out okay...hopefully
But I still can't shake this dread that I feel
It's so unreal...

I have stage fright...
Well...I'll try to make it on time and do my interview with all of my might. 
But it's embarrassing - I know the drill nevertheless
I think... I always think I could reach up to success 
I always worry, but what is there to be worried about?
I'm gonna make it on time...no doubt about that. 

everything's going to be alright
I'll make my ride on time...

I can't stand it... 
I want to perform on stage with some positivity in mind
I must use some of my strength 
I'm such a wimp though... 
Oh I should try to build some courage
But I can't stand my ground...I can't stand on stage
I can't stand it...I can't stand it...at all. 
I must stand...tall
Or I'll slip and fall... 
I am so selfish...but tell me:
How do I stand out? 

I can't stand it... 
I want to stand out, but how? 


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May Day in Oregon

We stumbled out of the professor's house drunk and dazed
Cackling in that conspicuous way about something his wife had said. 
The outdoor air was tight and crisp in contrast with 
The kitchened cat-haired aura of the professor's home
and my companions' eyes glinted in the reflection of slick streets and sweaty moon.
New flares of laughter and I turned back to see the most beautiful girl 
Sprawled face-up on the sidewalk,
Her lilac tutu once gaudy now rendered lyrical when placed on misty cement.
She rose and we trudged onwards, shattering the suburban night
With shouts about Boston, hidden summertimes, and pending separations. 
The most beautiful girl shone unaware of sticky leaves clinging to her tutu
But I said nothing, for tomorrow would bring blinding desert and crushed-leaf memories
And I needed to save words (and leaves) on this last night of being broken with strangers 
Like this most beautiful tutued girl
Who saved me far more than any other had dared under this indifferent moon.


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shyness take over

as i look at my friends , also family with they girl love or even just friend, in look at
my self wht that can't be me i can write a girl even talk on the phone with a girl but
when i am next to her i feel scared , like i am do something wrong or stupid, i feel like
its the end of the world , shyness take over in i think i am to old for that, i can talk
tex write a beautiful girl but whats with me when when she by my side , i feel so alone in
the world like there no one for me no girls like me but just as a friend , i want you
beautiful girl were you why can't i talk to you i need you but thats the way i think
shyness is what i am it can not be break in i don't know why ........


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EMMA

Staring into her eyes, I see peace.
I seek her joy by all means
like my favorite food- rice.
She is beautiful
She is awesomeful
Her name is Emma
My Savior's namesake- Emma
Little wonder I like her
Christ's glory shining on her
Her Name Is Emma.


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Grace

 					
She walks to school and studies 
all day,
Hoping her A’s will make her 
parents notice her in some 
way.
But they open another bottle 
and raise it to the sky,
Ignoring the sad little girl who 
just walked on by.
She lays the paper down with 
an A marked in red,
But her mother is lying face 
down, passed out on the bed.
The same little girl comes to 
school the next day
Bruises blackening her eyes 
and cuts scarring her face.
The teachers wonder but none 
of them ask, 
It’s hard to see the pain behind 
her smiling mask.
For the little girl who tries so 
hard not to cry
Every day is a battle, a 
struggle just to survive.
But one day she’ll shine, 
escape the pain and fear,
She’ll find a way to love when 
all she’s ever known is hate,
But only if you stop it before it 
becomes too late.
So listen to the child with scars 
on her face,
Unknown to the world but to 
you she is Grace.



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ABOUT DREAMS AND REALITY


When she really wanted to grow up,
she used to think it must be easier
to be grown than to be small.
She used to think, and she had faith in it,
that if she were a little more skillful,
dreaming would be worth it,
because the girl used to believe
that dreamed dreams
became true
with time.
And all the girl wanted then
was to see all of her dreams
racing through time
so they could become reality.
She became less confused
when a wise teacher
helped her understand
that we grow up faster
the more perfect
our learning is.
In every possible way
the child wanted to learn.
She wanted to know everything,
not just the fact, but the reason
for stars hanging in the sky,
for gravity and centifugal force,
for storms and for flowering.
The more the time passed,
the more she tried to learn.
And she touched everything
and she felt everything
and she read everything.
She used to eat
with the hunger of someone who wants to have
ideas,
and to understand them,
science and philosophy,
arts and eruptions,
names and abbreviations.
But when girl had finally grown up
as all creatures
do
a deep sadness
overtook her completely.
Now that she knew
about colors and transparent colors,
about Gregorian chant and itchy skin
about moons and circumferences,
about the world, about onomatopeia,
she could easily understand
that dream and reality
are parallel lines.



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Don't Fall In Love With A Girl Who Reads

Don't fall in love with a girl who reads
she'll over analyze every word 
and she'll never understand why 
people aren't paper backs 
and she'll write in your corners
search for a plot in your veins
and make a metaphor of your broken heart
don't fall in love with a girl who reads
she'll make notes in your margins
and skip to the good parts
she'll bend your spine back
just a little too far 
and when she's sleepy
she'll skim pages
always forgetting her place
don't fall in love with a girl who reads
because she'll fall in love with 
last chapters and final words
and the ending will always be 
her favorite part


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Skin deep (part 2)

Is there anyone,
who has it all?
The perfect everything?
The perfect skin,
height, weight,
mind, mentality?
The kind of person,
who has it all.
If so,
is it the ones,
we’ve seen on tv,
magazine covers.
Or is it,
the prom queens,
beauty queens,
or even the supermodels?
Or maybe,
is it someone,
we would never suspect ?
You?
The girl next door,
The girl who takes your order?
 Or maybe even me ?


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Dancing Queen (1)

...
Just walk up to her!
Just move on leg in front of the other and move your lips up and down for speech!
Then suavely put your hand in her hand and walk together!
It's that easy man!
...
Yeah right!

Standing in this hallway with it's many red lockers
makes me feel like I'm in that scene in that movie the Shining.
You know the part when the elevator opens and all this blood starts gushing out?
Yeah...all these red lockers...I feel like I'm swimming in a sea of it.
So I'm pretty much wading in a hallway for a girl that has put me in the friend zone
to get out of class, so I could hopelessly try to move out of that zone.
The one I want to be put it...as long as I don't do anything stupid that she levels me down.

Still got five minutes
...hmm pacing to my direction is...i think...yeah its Glenn.
The queen of drama, he's the head quote on quote top actor in class
and has been given the title queen for his skill and well...you know...

Wait 
He's approaching me 
What could he possibly-are those girl shoes he's holding?

Hey David!
IWasPossiblyWonderingIfYouCouldTryTheseOnForMe!
YouSeeIBeenHavingTroubleFindingTheRightSizeForThisGuy
That'sGoingToBeInOurPlay,ButHeKeepsGettingSick!
SoIHaveToKeepGettingPeopleThatLookLikeTheyCouldBeHisSize
SoICanGetTheWardrobeTogether!CouldYouImagine!

...Glenn was always a fast talker...
and most people that have spoken more than twice to me
already know me as the yes man...
Not like a brown noser! I just can't say NO to people.

Um sure but, why is this guy wearing girl shoes?

OH!Don'tTellMeYouDon'tKnowWhatTHePlayIsAbout!
I'veBeenPostingFLyersAllOverTheUniversity!
It'sQuiteFun!We'rePrettyMuchDoingAShowOfThisMovieCalled Kinky Boots!
HaveYouSeenIt?It'sSoEntertaining!AndOneOfTheCharacterIsADragQueen!

Oh um okay but, right here?

YesPleaseIfYouDon'tMindItWillJustBeAQuickTry
I'veGotSoManyThingsOnMyPlate
That'sGoingStraightToMyHips!
OhFMLDramDramaDramaI'veBeenDealingWith!

I just pull away the the red high heel pumps away from him
so he could shut up already.
I thins he talks fast so he could just talk more.

And there I was, in my black sweater wearing my khaki shorts
bending my knees barely standing in these knee high,
high heeled, red pump of shoes.

..and of coarse she steps out of class in the display I'm in.

She stares her brown doe eyes at me 
as others also do but continue to walk.
Some point and luagh, some just shake there heads and giggle,
and other brave ones comment along the way and say sarcastically NICE SHOES.


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Dear Sophia

Special little girl we finally get too have.
Overwhelmed the day we found out you were the little girl that Daddy and I waited for.
Plenty of brothers you will have to protect you, from any harm that comes your way.
Having you inside my tummy for nine months was overwhelming, we couldn’t wait to meet you.
In separable we will be, you are our little angel.
Awaiting your arrival is very close, we can’t wait to hold you close, and finally call you our little girl.
	Daddy ~n~ Mommy Love you


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broken

a girl was broken. as broken as most are. no other heart could heal her cracks. so she was slowly chipping away into nothing. behind the rest she was shattered and broken...

walls of glass,

flying stones,

is broken diffrent,

from alone?

inside where her layers fell away the cold echos through her and she feels it empty her of her of her soul...

shattered walls,

empty heart,

growing colder,

from the start...

so in the end the girl was broken and came to be nothing more than that...

crystal dust,

oh so fine,

have you seen the broken,

friend of mine?

 

goes with alone. @};~


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Krazy Kolors

Rusty colored AXE's cut down green trees
To keep hearts warm when our homes are cold
Butcher knives bloody red from slaughtering cattle
Yes our children now sleep peacefully with their bellies full
Shiny handcuffs send fathers to dark prisons
And it seems to me they make the streets more dirty too
Judges sit in black robes
They slam down wooden hammers
And in the back of his mind he didn't understand it either
A Teacher stands in front of a green chalkboard
She sends a young man to the principles office
And from the classroom through the hall to the office the walls are white
He stops at waterfountain the button is shiny
The stream of water is clear but still he can see it
A little girl is abducted in a white car with a shiny police mirror on it
The tags say Texas Exempt in blue and white
The sun looks down and sees, but I thought sunshine was suppose to be happy orange and yellow
The next day the 10 suspects line up) n front if a window and mirror
These are the two craziest colors, clear and shiny
I don't understand these two colors
A dispatch comes in, we can hear through the speakers
Now we think clearly even though its clearly obvious
We can't see the clear airwaves
A Lieutenant dressed in tan rushes through a tan door
He says I have the greatest news
WE JUST FOUND THE GIRL
Clear tears fall from the eyes of the Father and Mother
Toxins relieve and it washesof their face this cause of grief
Now her comes the little girl running with a pink bow in her hair
Now the sunshine is orange and yellow and this day it makes us happy


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Myth of Cheating

Rumor has it
that she is a monster
she cheats on her boyfriend
with her ex lover.
rumor has it
that she feels no remorse
she never feels horrible for the uproar she causes
she is empty inside.
rumor has it
that she never thinks of anyone but herself
she gets what she wants when she wants it
and never considers the consequences of yesterdays action.
rumar has it 
that she cares about no one
that she is an emotionless robot
that she is selfish.
rumor has it
she doesnt care about rumors.
Reality Being
she has so much feeling she doesn't know how to handle
at night she cries herself to sleep knowing shes done so much wrong to everyone
she always thinks of what has happened between her and him
reality being 
she hurts inside
no one ever can take away the pain shes caused herself and others
she loves him and she thinks thats all that should matter.
Reality being
shes as scarred as a Vietnam Vetran
she wishes she coud just be normal
she cares about everyone so mcuh
she doesn't know what the right desicion is
Reality being-
rumors arent always rumors
black isnt the same as white
there is many forms of truth and justice
and your heart can't lead you to the right choice.
A monster could have a bigger heart than a loving mom
this girl could care about them so much
yet no one asks
no one considers
they follow the rule what you see is what you get
no one dares to deliever
that who you are in the inside can't be seen from the outside
and not everyone is someone you should trust
just ask the girl with the broken heart


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I'm Not

I'm not the girl that falls for the jock
I'm not the girl that roots for the team
Or the girl that looks down on the geeks
And the Goths
And the drama crowd
I'm not the girl that judged by the clothes
Or the girl that knows all the brands
I'm not the one who has all the money
Or the one that drives a new car
I'm that girl who skipped the assemblies
I'm that girl who tried for the plays
And the one who ignored the preps
I'm the one who rooted for the Goths
And wrote the poems the Emos read
I'm the one who wore the black
Who loved the vampires
And read too many books
I'm the one who listened to Rock
And didn't care what anyone thought
I'm the one who was being true
And always will be


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Can I Do It

There was this boy that I once knew 
So handsome, so sweet.
And with just one touch from him I swear I'd get so weak.
He would tell me I was beautiful, and he always made me smile, couldn't ask for nothing  more cause I ain't felt that in a while.
He was everything I wanted, thought he was every woman's dream.
I couldn't stand to be away from him, and he'd never treat me mean.
This boy was my protector, my knight and shining armor, and when it came time to have my heart I had givin him the honors.
We were friends before our relationship so I would tell him everything.
I love this boy a bunch, and dreamed of taking his last name.
We been together for three years and sum, yeah I'm talking real serious, but lately his behavior has got me kinda curious.
He went from the boy who kept me happy and always kept me smiling, 
To a boy that doesn't care about me cause he hurts me  and he's lying.
He brought a girl in our home and in the same bed we share, and f'd that freaking Girl and he didn't even care.
It hurt my heart real bad and he continues to deny it, I'm young but I ain't stupid and I know it when he's lying.
He loves her more than me and I gave him everything.
I was the best girl he had so why'd he cause me all this pain.
We get in this dumb accident and I get his butt to kiss, all this time that I spent loving him and now I see  where his heart is.
I thought I had his heart but now he's torn between the two.
He said he has to find his self, I know that that ain't true.
My mind is sayin walk away but my heart it just won't do it.
I know everything he's doing and yet I sit here looking stupid.
Dwelling on the past, thinking about what use to be, thinking how stuff was before when he was so damn true to me.
Back when I was his everything and he showed it everyday, when he would cuddle up and kiss on me in every freaking  way.
I'm Hurting deep inside, I try fighting back the tears,  he don't love me no damn more, have I wasted three long years?
I be sitting in this room kicking things, yelling ,cussing.
Stressing about the pain and knowing that aint doing nothing.
Cause stuff is still gone be the same 
At the end of it all, cause i fell hard and really hard and I know it's all my fault.
He be out there Havin fun, I sit here miserable as hell, and I know then he's wit her and that ish makes me mad for real.
But like Vivian green said " I gotta go,  I gotta leave".
I can't stay where I ain't wanted cause he don't wanna be wit me.
But before I turn this page Imma leave ya butt with this : all the love that we had shared I know I'll truly miss.
But I deserve so much better, more than u had given me, gotta let go of this now, I'll find someone who will love me. 
And all the stuff I did for  you will hurt you in the end , as I move on to a new beginning.
I gave away the heart of me ,it was a lesson learned, as I move on to happiness you will be sad and alone.
No one could compare to me , I'm high class, at least I got that trophy for the best you ever had.


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Facade

She tries and tries to act tough.
She tries and tries to act like she does not care. 
However, what some do not see 
Is the passion building up inside of her unexplored territory.
Yearning to be discovered and seized.
This girl’s heart wants to feel immense and great things,
So she knows that these feelings linger inside of her.
Deep down what this soul desires,
Is for someone to break the hard exterior that surrounds her. 
A person strong and persistent enough to conquer all of her fears. 

The roughness of her surface is a disguise she chooses to wear.
She internally wonders what qualities she possesses that make her unique enough to interest 
someone. 

She acts like she needs no one, 
But she strongly longs for that special and unique individual to come and take her away 
From all of her doubts and angst. 
That lovely being who will love her for who she is and aspires to be. 

This mystifying facade this girl chooses to wear is beyond what we will ever know. 
Except for that amazing mystery of a man who will find his soulmate hidden under this 
terrain. 

Sad to say, will we ever know?
Sad to say, will I ever know? 
This mysterious facade surrounding this girl we cannot explain. 
Contrarily, this scared and bewildering young lady,
Is me.


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Simple Motion

Swish, swoosh Sky high she goes A wondrous movement Taking form in the air She moves rapidly A back and forth motion Quickly she moves Twisting within heights unknown Hollering with all her might Listening to her voice As she sways She hears herself As she’s moving Through the air Swinging She swings with soul And with a joyful Giggle
Russell Sivey


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And Even If

Walking into the bookstore with my mind as heavy as a drooping satellite,

I look up at a cafe timeline of the famous thinkers who split mind

and matter apart and onto a piece of paper, and I am granted with the pleasure of 

enjoying my first silent movie. My steps follow forward, and my eyes capture each

author’s life story portrait by portrait. 

And then I bump into her.

It takes me an entire ten seconds to realize it has taken me ten years

to realize what tough love really feels like. I rub my shoulder, look up,

and immediately I forget what time my heart told me it was.

And even if I only stare into your colors for three seconds, and I stand fixated

to the sticky floor since my frappuchino splashed

across my feet, the magic of a planet's rotation, atmosphere, and gravity has set

my satellite on a course to love again. 

And to believe that it is until just now that I remember that I forgot to ask, "How are you?"


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What Happened to the Girl

Look
what do you see
a past together and whole
a girl who wrote
released the pain
laughed on the pages
screamed out her anger
She had a way with words
and who is she now
that girl with the pencil
where did she go
what happened to her joy
what happened to the laughter
she hides it all away
the pain 
the tears
she's lonely for her lover
dead beneath the ground
she misses the sister
supportive through it all
time steals it away
the girl had to grow
here she stands a woman
she's suffered in life
stands strong before you
and now she wonders
where do I go now


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Mona Lisa?

Mona Lisa who are you?
Some say Leonardo’s other half
But I don’t know-
It just seems to me
A girl like you could never be just a half-
And your smile-it drives men mad?
Is it really as extraordinary as they say?
It just a smile nothing more
A weak smile some have said
But maybe that’s just it-
The smile was never clear
It does not appear that you were smiling for much
Was it forced-were you truly sad?
Or were you just tired and that smiled appeared?
It’s all the same-it does not matter
I just was wondering who you truly were
Well, girl of flesh or of imagination
You are a timeless mystery
And I guess that is what has drawn you to me….


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I am

I am different	I am a daughter who sometimes can’t be seen
A friend who has bee around once too many times
A girl who’s life is not complete
Something is changing me
I’m not the little girl I used to be
I am different; I’m sure you can see
Nobody cares but everyone stares
I’m like a firefly floating in the night sky
Dazzling the night away, showing people my true colors
I’m like the sun who sometimes come’s out and play
I am 11 pm who doesn’t care and wants to stay up late
I’m like fall, I loose my energy
I am a tiger, ferocious but me
I am crazy but beautiful at the same time
I am not that typical type
For all the things I have done, I look back and wonder why,
Why me
I am outrageous
I am gorgeous
Gorgeous enough to be me


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The Way Boys Love Pretty Girls

I know he loves me...
But he loves me the way
Boys love pretty girls-
The way they love
Cute and fun and nice
Girls-
How can they not?

But I love him the way
A lonely girl loves a boy
That makes her feel
Wanted-

The way a girl afraid
Of everything
Loves a boy 
That makes her feel
Brave-

The way a girl
With a mind that
Is always a thousand
Places at once, always
Too many places-
At once-
Loves a boy...
Because when
He touches me,
I can't think-

He loves me the way
A boy loves a girl
But could still
Walk away
Unscathed-
I love him anyway.

The way 
He looks at me...
How he smiles...
Is so beautiful.


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DEATH STILL

Woman, the freshness breath,
Untouchable lips as they have been caught up
In fine pleasant date from a summer park
So how many hours I made love to my German girl?
From the peeping movements of a rainy day
To a cricket of the existed morning’s commute!

I love you
Among the trail of a ring
Your mighty body I smelled, and the stretching kisses
From the Truth, which in such delight
I carry you, and between the streams 
As if there is no tomorrow 
I take you as the night has done upon us.

O, I love the whispering of you dying smile;
The narrow space you and I create facing down the hot sand;
O I love the breathlessly moment, your dead eyes over me
In which it well might open in a way of brutal still.

Yes, I love your sweet sweating, your smell;
The glories of heavenly climax, and then, all so quiet turned away
That nectar  one hundred miles keeps me awake.



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Malefactor

The kind of girl who
wanders alone
The kind of girl who
doesn't give a s***
The girl with the
wicked gleam in her eye
The girl that causes traffic to slow down,
then frantically speed away
The girl who wanders down the street 
and people go inside
The girl that just flaunts her attitude
so there's nothing left to hide


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CHRONICLES OF A TAUREAN GIRL

I am a Taurean Girl
Adorned in strength of character’s veil
Valour and grace held as a scepter
Born in a month named after Maia
Nurtured in the magnificent land of Gaia 

I am a Taurean Girl
Rare and fearfully made as a clear pearl
Exuding confidence in mauve Louboutins
Blessed with the gift of gab and soul
Wherein lies the passion that makes me whole

I am a Taurean Girl
Madly in love with a Capricorn gentleman
Whose dreams resemble that of an airman
Strong, passionate, he makes the heart airlift
And brings with the blessing of two precious Libran gifts

I am a Taurean Girl
Endowed with the rich blessing of Abraham
Ever smiling, cheerful, intelligent, quirky in nature
Like red wine, maturing, getting better with age
Eager to continue writing fresh memories on life's priceless page...


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Illuminate

Truly love can be so
Fascinating
Watching the flowers bloom
Spring comes
Dance with me
In this endless journey
Eternity...

With you I feel so strong
Though we're two worlds apart
I connect you to my
Heart ever beating
Feelings...

Walk away and I will follow
Shadow
Wherever you go
For I know this is
Love...

In the middle of the night
You are my
Light...


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Spry Bri

There once lived a girl named Bri and it was her birthday She came up with a rhyme and it was, it is your birthday so please do not freeze the cheese. It is your birthday, so do not cry and instead be spry. Aunika Alch Age 12


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A Day in the Life of Flora

There once was a girl named Flora Who lived next to a forest full of fauna She liked to eat a lot of pasta But her favorite food was pizza She had a llama Who gave her mama A whole bunch of drama If she did not get her polka-dot pajamas. Aunika Alch Age 12


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The Darkest Cloud 3

The cloud rained heavily on the boy, it stayed a while.
He tried to find somebody to help, but did not know the number to dial.
He stopped playing his beloved guitar,
Each dark cloud that passed him left a massive scar.
With the black cloud obstructing his view of outer space,
He was no longer able to rest in the puffy white clouds with his leg brace.
One night, a terrible feeling all over his body left him tossing and turning
A chill rolled up and down his spine, he woke up to his phone ringing and he started vomiting.
Kneeling over the toilet bowl, half asleep and fully confused,
He just knew something terrible had happened, this black cloud left this boy bruised.
The boy answered the call. 
One of his good friend’s was found dead in the middle of the night they said.
His body fell against the bathroom wall and started to bawl,
He felt this coming with every toss and every turn that night.
The boy had the worst kind of blues so the boy and the girl went for a cruise
They did not know they were headed towards terrible news.
Stopped to get gas along the way
The boy started pondering if happiness is something he will ever find.
He thought his eyes must be playing a game with his mind,
He never thought he would witness a friend of his intoxicated to the point they were blind.
The boys’ friend drove head on into his most prized possession, his truck.
His optimism had already grown distant; his coat is no longer weather resistant.
The black cloud flooded his head with darkness; the boy knew it was no longer worth fighting.
The boy who was already weak from the clouds wrath,
Lost all of what was left of his hope; his mind was aiming to the most negative number in 
terms of math.

The cloud rained heavily on the boy, it stayed a while.
He tried to find somebody to help, but did not know the number to dial.
The girl stayed optimistic, to this day she remained realistic.
Tries everyday to rid these clouds and help him from growing more pessimistic.
Tries hard to help him face the day and look beyond,
She is afraid of losing this boy and their extraordinary bond.
Using her knowledge and strength, she constantly tries to erase his negative mentality,
And fill that space with pieces of hopeful and positive reality.
But the cloud weighs more than he can take.
He believes the rest of his life is at stake.


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The Bottled Message

The hue of the sun was sweet, round, reddish-yellow citrus orange,
Light was illuminating in scattered patterns throughout the pines and willows of the 
park.
The sunset traveling deep into the brown irises' core--
The plump child's fingers intertwined with her mother's hand;
Life consisted of butterflies and undisturbed reality . . .
The flowing stream and wooden bridge circling the park in San Diego,
Water-- how mystifying and powerful to a small girl with a smile,
She had created a message. Her message. Her art. Her scrawled piece of work.
The abstract scrap was rolled into a glass bottle--
The stream seemed to pass in a circular pattern . . .
The mother placidly lifted the shiny bottled and motioned her to drop it--
Reluctant to have her message released,
To be discovered. Her first secret.
"Let go. Let someone else look upon your message someday."
The girl let go.
She watched the bottle flow away into the orange hue . . .
The girl wanted it to come back;
Perhaps, just maybe, the river was circular.
A river with no displacement--
IT wasn't the distance the message traveled that mattered;
Inside of the young girl, it was the motion that kept her heart moving . . .


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The Stallion

A horse walked in the ring, 
Alone but bold,
A man hollered to move him around,
His tail held high and his neck bowed,
He snorted and bucked in defiance.
The epitome of a spirited beast, 
He looked every bit a stallion.
No one bid,
But save on gal,
A tiny thing who most thought a fool,
At least on that day.
But as time went on, 
That horses spirit never caved.
But the girl was patient, 
And kind,
After a long time that horses will bent,
He was defiant and spirited still,
No mistaking the Stallion he was,
But save for one small girl, 
to whom he gave his heart to.
And day after day,
He willingly rode with her,
Over mountain and field, 
After cow and game.
He loved her you see-and she loved him.
And after a time, 
she went back to that auction ring, 
And with her was that Wild beast
Wild still or so it seemed, 
As he snorted and bucked freely.
But no worries-he wasn't for sale.
He was to be a father this year,
He'd earned the right,
And when she stepped in that ring, 
No defiance was seen.
As he bowed his head and silently gave to her,
Their will seemed unified.
She flowed upon his back, 
And he stopped spun and slid
Like an invisible hand guided him,
No movement of the crowd was seen.
It was true beauty in motion,
A Girl and her horse- One
Suddenly they all wished they'd seen what she'd seen,
Not a horse to be broken,
But a spirit to be fixed.
A partner she saw,
Not something to be controlled.
All crave this with their horses,
Dogs and loved ones too,
But rarely can it be found,
Too busy trying to break them, 
We fail to join them.


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New Life

The life of mine,
So missing in time,
The break in my line,
The whole in my life,
My heart wide open,
My heart found,
My heart unwound,
I am happy,
Because of caring,
Some one found me,
I am ready,
For her to fill me,
That whole overflowing.


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Princess and Ninja Turtles

A little girl 
Sitting on the floor of her room 
The walls are decorated with princesses, knights, and dragons
The little girl not playing with dolls or ponies 
But playing with boy toys like transformers or ninja turtles.
Her face painted with greens and black paint
Her pink clothes painted the same colors
Her dark brown hair cut short that she did herself.
A mother wanting a girly daughter standing at the door of the room 
Rushing to her daughter to look what she has done. 
Takes the toys away from the little 5 year old girl
Yelling at the child 
"WHAT HAVE YOU DONE THESE TOYS ARE NOT YOURS. YOUR A GIRL YOU PLAY WITH DOLLS"
The child just looked up at her mother and smiled "Momma, its okay to be different."


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August 28th

Aug 28th 

The sky is clear for far

My pants are old navy and have visible holes 

A lady with a smiley face umbrella enters and a man removes his cap

 

Only to replace it

 

The leaves are starting to fade and many to fall

We pass the intersections which house the wealthy—but only pass 

 

I'm leaving my element 

 

As our minds do pass the thought of riches—the institutions of wealth fly past 

Large oak trees scream into the sky reaching for something of substance 

A boy—no a man with wild hair steps up walks quickly, sits 

No roses but other flowers are in bloom—that of the unrecognizable but 
gorgeous 

 

White shoes, clean studious girl perfect hair, time taken 

 

A young face smiles at me 

Cheap clothes swaddle her she looks into her holder's young face. 

Their dark skin is one but their minds are waves that beat against each other—
she holds her pretty face and smiles 

 

A woman who looks older then she should, spent her time feeding addictions 
she sits near

Stares into an abyss—something she sees there that we cannot 

She is unkempt and laughs at nothing from time to time 

 

The studious girl shuts her book

 

The lost lady plays peek-a-boo with the child in front of her…

 


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A boy and a Girl

Love is such a powerful thing to feel people tell teens you dont know what love is ..Your just full 
of out of control hormones. Its so much more than that. what adults dont understand is we 
would do anything to be with theone we so very much adore. Take my little story for example. 
A young independent girl starts falling for a much older guy. There is a four year span but they 
both think age is just a number. The boy tells this girl she is beautiful an gorgeous every waking 
minute he gets. he makes sure she is all in tact making sure she isnt falling apart because they 
cant see each other b/c of their amazing age difference. They talk to each other whenever they 
can. Everytime they hear each others voices they start falling for each other even more. They 
had a long talk about what they wanted to do to be together. They both decided that the girl 
would wait three years until shes of age. He keeps telling the girl hang in there b/c patience is 
always the best way to deal with this situation. They both talk about the great memories they 
already have experienced. The boy tells the girl she is amazing an worth the long, painful wait. 
He says we will make it through this little bump in the road. The end of the tunnel is far away 
but soon that light is going to shine as bright as it can an im going to run as fast as lighting 
strikes this earth an jump into my future with him. My future looks so bright an amazing with 
him. finishing highschool then college is near. But after my school days of highschool he is all 
mine. This guy an girl are going to wait for each other. In the mean time they are going to 
remember the good times an focus on the positive things. When the girl starts thinking 
negative the boy will tell her its all going to be over soon an a new beginning will come.


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I see

You look at what I do
You just see words
But when I look I see more
I see emotions running strong
I see a heart bared for all
I see fears of not being accepted
Fears of people's scorn
But most of all I see
I see what wasn't meant to be seen
I see a girl afraid to grow up
A girl not sure of her life
A girl too self conscious to live
This girl shows the world a face
She hides behind that face afraid
Afraid of what will happen when she leaves
When she shows the world the true her
Few see this girl's true self
Most see just that mask and think its real
I see this girl hidden in my poetry
I see because she is me


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No is all you ever say

There you was standing in my way
Each and every day
No is what you always say

Like when I was six and wanted to fly
You said no took my wings and made me cry
If I had jumped out of the tree I would have died

And the time that the senior had asked me out
You said no and made me shout
Two years later he went to jail for rapping that girl and still is not out

Or the party that girl had with no parents there
You said no Even though dad did not care
The cops were called and found drugs everywhere

You was always in my way
And no is what you always say
Thank you mom for being that way

Now I am the one who has to be in the way
And no is all I ever say
Maybe my boys will understand someday


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Your eyes across my soul

Its time to face the truth croons the singer on the radio and I die
Curling up in to a ball pulling my hair out and screaming
Because I know this to be true
I will be there again when it snows and snows
I will be there again if you call
I will be there again if you whisper out my name
In the eyes of my memories you're beautiful
In the breaths I stole with my camera you're beautiful
Across these lips that will never touch yours again you're beautiful

I thought I heard you call out my name tonight 
But I knew you weren't home
In the cold under the city lights beneath the blanket of night
What if it was you I think now as I linger
But you weren't home
And still... 
I wish I had turned around
To see you standing there in the gently falling snow
But I thought you weren't home

I have lost sleep tonight and I may never sleep again I fear
Because I don't know what to do
I don't know where to turn, where to go
So that I may, I might, 
Dream of your smile and your eyes across my soul
You're so beautiful, 

I let slip this pen from my fingers
Staining these last few lines I know it to be true
And I don't really care about that now
I will never be with you I know, I know... 

And this is the truth I must learn to face


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Daddy's Girl

I've always been perfect in his eyes
I guess you could call me "Daddy's Girl"
That's always how it's been
Little girls are the apple of daddy's eye
It's an unwritten rule
It always has been
And it always will be
Daddy's girl till the end!
He protects me and protects me however he can
He shows me everyday he loves me
I guess I'm lucky
Most don't have this Daddy's Girl bond
Between father and daughter
I can go running to him for comfort
Whenever I need it
Even now, even though I'm 18
I still know where I can go
It's my special place to cry
My daddy's arms
Like always I find comfort there


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Chalk Walk

There once lived a girl named Chalk she loved to walk in the park one day she ran in to a piece of bark. Aunika Alch Age 12


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My life

When I was a little I wanted to run away
Felt scared and all alone
Bruises all over
Scared little girl inside
Afraid to look at her face
Didn't know what to expect
Would she hit me again?
Would I have to hide or protect my brother and sister?
I heard them screaming and crying
I can't protect them
I'm so young.
Just didn't know what to do
I hid in the corner
Wishing she didn't come find me to
But it was to late
She came and found me
Screamed at me and yelled
You're a bad little girl she said
I cried and hid under my bed
After all the beating I laid in bed
Hoping tomorrow would be a better day 
It never way


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She's the Type of Girl


She’s the type of girl who will make you hold your breath ‘till your head explodes

She’s the type of girl who will never pick up on her cellular telephone

I saw her Wednesday watched her walk by
I call her Thursday to no reply
Then I tried on Friday would you be mine
I got no response I’m done wasting time

This chick thinks I’m stupid she must be crazy
Every part of her body is amazing
My jaw gets weak and my mouth goes lazy
I’m done trying to reach her is this hasty

Then On Monday to my surprise
She called me back and she replied
You think you’re so smart so realize
To be my man there’s compromise

So let’s get together and if you make the right impression
I will show you what love is and teach you a new dimension
So grab your note book make room for a life lesson
I’m a tender lover who needs all of your affection

She’s the type of girl who will make you hold your breath ‘till your head explodes

She’s the type of girl who will never pick up on her cellular telephone

Listen to me because I’m willing to be
The best thing you’ve ever received
So try to conceive try to believe
Every thing I say is every thing I mean

You think you’re so bad you think that you’re queen
When all you do is sit there your attitude screams
You need attention that’s why you called me
I’m not that foolish these eyes they truly see

I think you’re obnoxious oh so irritating
Your soul is toxic as well as degrading
So talk your garbage your looks they are fading
To hold my heart hostage is complicated

Like you said lets get together I hope you bring a personality
Welcome to my reality all in all you are a fallacy
A true walking beauty a beast undoubtedly
Not just a plastic princess lacking individuality

She’s the type of girl who will make you hold your breath ‘till your head explodes

She’s the type of girl who will never pick up on her cellular telephone

I don’t need this I hope that you know I mean it
I would get between it but I would never eat it
You are misleading your outward features fleeting
That is why I am fleeing because you are being
A bitter little chick that gets every thing she’s needing
Unfortunately I’m conceding this conversations bleeding
Me dry that’s why this here guy is saying goodbye

So, so long I wish you all the best long life and all the rest.

****!!!…(expletive)

I’m just playing lets do this again some time.


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My eyes.

Look into my eyes
Tell me, who do you see?
A girl in misery?
Who’s lost and incomplete?
Or a girl who looks for more?
A more meaningful message to this world.
Look into my eyes
Tell me, who do you see?
Just Me….


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Dirty Kiss

 The door slammed behind me and she grabbed me
Pulled me into her kiss
Hard and fast
Our lips met and so did our noses

I remember thinking
Under the flash of pain
Behind the sudden wash of tears
Within the gush of blood down my lips and chin

"This is sooo not how it looks in the movies" 

We kissed anyway.


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Battle

A day before we were simply
just That guy and That girl sitting
by one-another
feelings so innocent began
to grow and grow until-
two joined as
one.
One fell,
yet the other fell harder
now a battle rages
though not of hate but of love,
as the caretaker title is fought over
to worry of the other
then of one's self is the path that was chosen
She struggles,
against His help and worry
but His persistence wins.
Is it He or She that loves most?


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Once Upon a Time

Once upon a time, I loved a princess
She had no kingdom to speak of
But even a moment of her time was priceless
Nor did she have Royal Blood
For her blood was that of a commoner

Once upon a time, I loved a princess
She was fair as can be, just look in her eyes to see
The depth of her soul, for she truly knew pain
But the scars on her heart, I hoped to wash away with the rain
She was not perfect by any means, but she was a princess to me

Once upon a time, I loved a princess
Or at least that’s what she was to me
Her wish was my command, for her love I would withstand
The rage of a thousand nations if just for a moment I could see
That love that twinkled in her eye whenever her eyes gazed
Upon a commoner like me; For I am nothing compared to my princess

Once upon a time, I killed a princess
I did not harm her body, t’was her soul that I killed
For when I left her crying, wounded in the street
I could not let our bodies touch, nor our faces meet
I left my princess bleeding in the street

Her heart was bleeding, her voice was pleading
“Please! No!” she screamed to the lonely moon
And then and there I knew that I was no knight in shining armor
I was the devil in disguise and I destroyed my princess’ kingdom
With my words full of lies


Once upon a time, I loved a princess
And once upon a time, she loved me…


*Dedicated to a time when I loved a girl who loved me more than life itself. I left her and she was never, and I feel never will be, the same again. It sill hurts me to this day to think that I caused her so much pain. 

P.S. Let me know what you think in the comments below!


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the girl who collects

the girl who collects

umbrellas and
sand of the dune
collects
wings of the sea

the girl collects
wings


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Burns and Blood

She lays in a hospital bed
As a nurse changes her bloody rags.
On those rags is the young girls burned skin
And boiled blood.
The nurse stumbles back because of the smell
Horrified by odor the nurse leaves the room.
The little girl lays their still breathing
Cords under her skin to keep her alive.
Burned form head to toe 
By the church 
Accused of being a witch
Her skin black like volcanic ash
a white plastic wall surrounds her to keep stuff from touching her.
Another nurse walks in the room
Just to see what is inside the plastic wall
As the nurse looks at the young girl
Who has been scared sad and alone.
For a long time.
The little girl looked back at the nurse.
She hurt her by just looking at the nurses eyes the windows to the soul.
The nurse ran out scared fearful of the girl
The little girl looked back up
A dark figure loomed towards the little girls plastic wall
Putting its hand on it promising they will pay for what they have done.
The little girl raised her hand to the figures and touched it.
Vein like cords spread around the plastic walls turning it black
The hole hospital turned to a rusted nightmare.


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Who the hell

Who in hell is Victoria Smith?
A depressed young teen tortured 
Praying for death,
A man craving to be 
Victim, hapless and abused 
A sad poet masochist ?
Is she weird or what?


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The One

That feeling so frozen,
The stress so shuddering,
Wanting to talk,
Not knowing what to say,
Having feelings,
To reach out,
To another person,
Not able to speak,
To show affection,
Is my way of speaking,
I show my feelings,
Through action,
Words mean everything,
And nothing at all,
One wrong word,
Can change all,
The benefit of the doubt,
Is what I think about,
The wrong conclusion,
Without evidence,
Can ruin everything,
I want to find some one,
I am lonely,
To search for the one,
Seams hopeless,
Until she appears in front of me,
Then my world changes.


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Treasure Me

This girl I know
stays hidden beneath
the Winter's snow
She doesn't want to be seen
by those who never understand
by the ones so unclean

Her lies come free 
with every purchase
That's what she said to me
when I gave her my soul
to keep and do as she willed
she was the Devil's personal mole

Hidden in plain view
so no one could truly see
the pain she really knew
the horror she only told me

This girl I once knew
was a little like me
and a lot like you 
Blinded, so you wouldn't see
what was real or what was true

She told me
that her lies came free
with any purchase of choice
so I paid the price for choosing my voice
She kept her end
told me that the reprocussion scars will mend

She told me to speak my mind
to never leave a thing behind
and I did just as she told
before long, my will began to fold
I became bent and broke
Heard the things that I spoke
Regret and pain, the wounds started to show
Her lies were true, I soon would know

A devil's advocate
A sinner's ecstacy
Who could have thought
that the fallen angel would be me

Tomorrow I take the girl's place
To betray my own race
Turn my own kind against myself
for the common good 
or the blinded wealth
The cycle never stops
it will never end
because where there are choices
the human will can bend


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Loveless Dreams Lead To This Darkness I'm becoming

The one who wanted a Love from his dreams
Went to deep in the fight for the right to be King
As he rose so high to the castle in the sky
To his surprise The Lord was not inside
Only a sickness that estinguished his flame
And took the Dream he had
Right out of his name
The Nighttime Daydreamer
Was taken by a plague
As he could no longer
Find his peace in the day
They all watched him fade
As his Love disappeared
Becoming The Darkness
That he had beaten through the years
He just sat helplessly
And watched his heart break
to mask his growing pain
He followed the white snake
Right back into the Garden Of Eden
But there was no Eve
For The Darkness had decieved him
Right into a deadly temptaion
He had no escape
There was only one way in
To succumb to The Darkness
Which he ultimatly became
that was how The Dreamer Of Nighttime died in name
For he could dream no more
He was now a monster he called Darkness
The night his Love walked out the door.


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Background

No one can understand the life that i have lived
No one can fathom the things i have seen
No one can know why i am the way i am
No one can know where my live has been
I come from the inside of a woman's body
the person in which helped create me but i don't blame her
I come from that woman not knowing
The answers when her daughter asks for her father
To call my own. Someone who could or would
walk or drive me to school
Take me to father daughter days
and many functions at school
Someone to know what to look for in a man
and not be  trapped by my own insecurities
Someone to ask a million questions
when i bring my boyfriend to meet the family
i come from a mother who smoked weed everyday
using it to defend herself against her pain
no one knew the ailments that intruded her nightly dreams
They just thought she and statistics were one and the same
I come from being solo to having a sister
Taking all the attention away from me
Stealing my shine and my thunder
Taking all away from me
I grew up with no friends to rely
No one to share my secrets with
No shoulder to cry on
No one to just be me with
I come from being so poor we lived on the streets once
no water, food, or money
No heat to keep us warm or air to keep up cool
just hand me down things
I come from holding things in too much
not being able to let go of emotions
I am crying when i am mad or pissed off
but quiet and reserve when i want to cry
I come from having all of this and so much more
I will never get things back to the way they should be
I will constantly be dysfunctional and if you wonder why
before judgement is passed my background you should see


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Sweetest Dream

You're still the best I've laid my eyes on,
you're still the sweetest dream I've had.
I still recall the vivid smile you shone at me -
a beam among the darkness of a winter night.

A gleaming light which hinted that I got a chance
to make it so that I could call you "baby".
A chance I had, a chance I've wasted
and then another, wasted, too.

I'd hate to seem like I'm making up excuses
but it's the constant sense of shame that I was born with
that holds me back from spitting out
the words that I've been dying to mumble to your face.

I look for comfort in "it wasn't meant to be",
I look inside my head and find you hiding.
You're still the best I've laid my eyes on,
you're still the sweetest dream I've had.


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She's lost

Things I never thought possible have all come true
Even my worst nightmares are real
I never knew exactly how much it all hurt
Until I sat down at night and just let my mind wonder
Every little thing that has every bothered me
Comes running back in a way so strong I want to cry
Unfortuantly no matter how hard I try to act like it don't hurt
It does, it kills me inside every time I'm reminded of them
Images flash into my head of things I could have had
Things I sometimes wish I had
They over come me and cause me to go insane
Cause me to become this helpless little girl
A child for the most part
One who tries her hardest but still falls to her knees
On the outside I look okay like nothing can hurt me
When on the inside I'm screaming for help
This strong girl has finally reached her limits with bad things
And has turned into this fragile child, she thought she had left behind
The child who can't handle things for herself
Who has to run away and cry alone
Because this strong girl doesn't wont the outside world
Knowing how weak she's become


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Invisible Girl

She plays a twisted game 
Though she knows she'll never win 
Just trying to find her place 
But always hitting a dead end 
Not sure where to turn 
Without getting burned 

She puts on a smile for the world 
Happy and carefree 
Leaving no one to guess 
She doesn't believe 
She's worth anything at all 
So she falls apart in silence 
Letting no one in 
Her scars telling the story she'll 
never give 
It's not attention she seeks 
Just wanting the loneliness to end 

Her smile fades 
She wastes away 
Not wanting to face another day 
Hating herself but she doesn't know 
How important she really is 
always there for everyone else 
Putting them above herself 
Now it's her turn to cry for help 
Will you listen 
Or remain wrapped up in yourself?


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Not Just Like a Girl

A girl you always think
Is a showpiece to blink
Just for you and like ones
But you must now rethink

A resolution I have made
To throw away the cascade
And join hands with thorns
To change and to upgrade

I don’t want to waste time
In the hesitations of a prime
I want to win over hurdles
And with world to rhyme

I want none of decorations
Or any childish temptations
I want to present examples
For my coming generations 


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Decent Indecencies

Indecency, exposing self.
Ideologies clash.
Immorality takes the center stage.

Morality humbles herself.
Its a matter of the consciousness. 
The lovemaking of heart and soul.

Decisions are offspring's, 
of this unity, conceived
With purity of the mind.

She could not brag. 
She needed love,
Weak in her limbs. 
it's a matter of her age.
Uncontrollable urge.
Overtaking the matters of the heart. 

She is being used and abused. 
Because she belongs to the vulnerable kind.
A splendid contract of convenience.

Morality looses its sense. 
She should, introspect,
about the mattes of the heart.

Its, fundamental need,
Of every humane being. 
A physical urge, 
that's uncontrollable at times.

But what's the enjoyment, 
that you derive, 
from a synthetic
Offspring of love.

I read poems in various platforms
That rapes, morality of the fairer sex.

Its disgusting, to read budding  poets.
Fantasising their thoughts,
Into phrases and stanzas.

Please avoid such inhumane acts,
from being displayed


Its very unatural for any poet, 
to portray a woman,
as an object of sex.

My advise to these vulnerable kind. 
Please, dont be unkind to yourself.

You have rhyme.
You have grace.
You have the passion.
You have got reason.
You have compassion.
You have strength. 
You are a creation.
You have everything and more,
than the male counterparts.
Your are the lifeline,
Of procreation.

An envy of art.
Don't submit yourself,
to  this ABUSE.



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Friendemy

The girl shouted for joy in the middle of the velvet full moon.
The little dog barked twice interrupting the high-handed act of argument.
How many words will describe the perfect purification as we proceed to knavery?
"I must run to her before it is too late"my heart was singing repeatedly.


I relapsed when i saw her acting in the theatre of sobs,in front of thousand pearls.
I blessed all this time i was struggling,tried to bring myself to life.
How many times i had to apologize when her majesty sparkled into the dark?
I tried the e4 move once to estrange the defense of her black pieces.

The girl started to cry as the final stroke with a brush blinded the canvas again.
She saw her long golden hair dancing among the colors of omnipotence.
How many architects may manufacture the texture of her smile?
She wrapped me up with her wet deep eyes,burned me with her mind.


"I have to tell you girl, that my best friend is naphthalene."
"Ssssss....My name is Friendemy.Don't worry.Be my best friend not my best 
enemy".
Suddenly the girl disappeared and i alone face the discouragement.
Today,tomorrow and the day after.



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next heart's song

there are days when the words come
like fevered friends grasping at lapels
urgently telling the tale with gasping breath
other times they come like a sweet river in the sunshine
they flow like bright beauty
the words can ignite you or seduce
like a simple phrase sweet to the ear
like her playing her guitar
melody brings the heart such joys
the concept brings such beauty
just a fragment of song
but in it i hear night caravans on high desert road
i hear autumn sunshine laying on soft grass
i see all the creation possible to me
so play a little longer
let me hear another summer day
let me find the words to my next heart's song
let me see the beauty in you


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Once I Sought But Love Ran Away

Once I Sought But Love Ran Away

I sought peace by way of knowledge
the well was full but the peace it did so hide
I ran races after peaceful horses but 
the saddles fell of and trampled was my heart
I sought love by way of exciting sex with 
beautiful vixens but satisfied I found love hiding
I ran after soft girls with hard sexy bodies only 
to find sex great but true joy O' so elusive
A journey lead me into a wild life looking for
clues to peace and love. I found great pleasure 
no real gain. I sat for years begging for an answer
when suddenly a little bird told me-
Stop, you are trying to force it! 
Love flees from force. Settle down, look around 
and you will see Love seeking you out! A great
truth hit me like a ton bricks. I obeyed that 
little voice and now married ten years to the
 Love that searched me out! 
Hallejah and I praise her with a Shout!!!!!

Stop, open your heart, look and listen.
That same little bird just may speak to you!

Robert Lindley. 08-13-2014


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Jennifer

Just like a Bad religion,
This contradiction becomes a huge restriction,
Restricting me from inflicting or imposing my will,
And even though I've already attempted in my mind you are still,
Concrete,
Like a written will,

I'm numb yet for you I can feel,
But the negligence is Real,
The negligence is Kill,
The negligence is confusing,
The negligence is amusing,
But only to the mind of the enforcer,
And if i can then trust and believe I Will,

Attempt again,
and again,
Until you finally feel,
All of me,
The Real,

Confused adolescence,
Yet a man is what you need,
Confused adolescence,
Yet for the D you greed,
Confused adolescence,
All of the minds that you lead,

Everlasting like the trust you're supposed to have in a God,
Everlasting like your beauty but its all a Facade,
Everlasting like your booty *****it's all a mirage,
Everlasting like my thoughts of you you reel me in like a rod,

Started out as nothing,
Then it led into something,
Tried to take a chance,
Dropped them all,
Then in the end i ended up with nothing,

I wish the best for you though,
So i guess I'm wishing for myself,
Or maybe the wishful thinking may have been the cause for self humiliation,
No need to reflect or recollect for reconciliation,
Cause now it's all a dark memory,
Thanks for causing this Revelation.......


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In my head and In reality

 I know a place where many people would like to visit but cant. I know a place where a lot
of people don’t know I go. I go to this place when no one can get a hold of me. This place
is full of music, it got vivid bright colors. The music plays all the time. I have a
husband with no face and kids with no faces. But lately those faces are blurry. Getting
clearer, at least for the husband it does. The colors though, bright and beautiful, show
all the meaning in this place I go to. The blue so blue that its bluer than the ocean. 
Bluer than my eyes and yours as well. The house is built just to my liking. The cat walks
by and looks up at me and meows. The dog barks in the back ground, the fish makes bubbles,
and the kids giggle in the other room. I’m in the kitchen cleaning and making dinner while
I hear the TV on in the living room and he’s playing a game while talking to the giggling
kids.  I walk in there to see the colors on the screen of the computer as beautiful the
ones I see. The red of the shirt he is wear and the blonde of his hair. The giggle that
pierces my thoughts and I turn to see the little girl all full of joy. The couch ruby red
just like the ruby I wear around the neck. The diamond on my finger is shinier that I've
ever seen. The earrings in my ears dangle around my neck. Then the cry of the little boy
needing his diaper changed laying on the dark emerald green blanket with the yellow
giraffe on it. In walks the sandiest of brown and white dogs with so much energy that her
face looks like its almost smiling.  The cat comes in from the other door and rubs
affectionately on the little girl whose laugh punctured my thoughts just moments before. I
look back at the little boy on the couch whose cries now have punctured these thoughts. I
turn and walk over to him. I pick him up and say why you crying my little man. His tears
fade and a smile comes to his face. In this place I'm finally me and I'm finally happy
again. This is my place and no one can take it from me.


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be my girl

I don’t know what the future holds
But I need you there
Baby if we’ve got each other
There’s no reason to be scared

I can’t promise you the world
But together we can see it
There’s millions of girls
But you’re the one I want to be with

Baby I only want you
Don’t want anybody else
If it can’t be the two of us
Then I think I’d rather be by myself

Baby why waste time? Why wait?
Imagine my hands around your waist
 Sitting by the fireplace
Me putting a smile on your face

We could travel the world together
Or stay in and cuddle alone
I just care about your pleasure
Together we’ll always be home

I can’t promise you will never get hurt
But I promise I won’t be the one to cause it
Baby let me show you your worth
Run you a bath & cook you a meal when you’re exhausted

Together we can have it all
I’ll be there when you call
I’ll be ready to catch you
When you fall

With me you’ll never be alone
I don’t know what the future holds
But I hope you will be there
Baby let’s start our journey and see where we go 


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Memoirs of The Damaged-Part Two

I just want to take you back to that small frail girl,
The girl who sat in the shadows, in the corner of her room,
The girl who’d,
Never dare to cry,
Always wondered why,
Often wished to die.
The girl who encountered the unpleasant but turned her mess into a message 
To enable you to have a clue, 
That it is possible for God to breakthrough, 
Any trial that comes to you.

Part two, for me, is the segment of clarity,
I now understand what God has in store for me.
He has brought me through the hard times so I can stand strong,
Led me through the wilderness, and calmed the autocratic storm,
And now I have a clear mind and clear vision, clear focus, 
my success is sure to come.

Through my new mindset, 
I feel like a butterfly that was once a caterpillar,
A new creature, I’ve change and morphed in to someone better,
I once travelled slow, only wished to fly,
And now I flutter high in the breeze 
drawing closer and closer to where I pray to be

This is a memoir of the damaged but also an account of an overcomer.
I proclaimed my freedom from the distant memories of my past, 
on a revelationary journey to a rural town in Polska.
As I took the same steps as our Yiddish friends did several years ago,
I learnt to understand that whilst facing the threat of death daily, 
They appreciated the gift of life.
The gift, of life.

Human beings, we are designed for a purpose
                                            Live for a purpose
Are instructed to accomplish that purpose,
                                            Our eternal destination is dependant on its completion.
But whether we actually ever fulfill that purpose, we will still all live, then die.

The grounds of the death camps and the ambiance I experienced, 
provided me with the eloquence, that after death there is life.
Over 1 million souls died in those grounds decades ago,
But after death, there is life
But still, I heard singing birds and saw growing trees, peaceful in the breeze.
After death, there is life.
Eternal life,
But where we dwell is determined by our obedience to the Most High.

I’m not asking you to believe what I believe,
And I’m not asking you to think the way I think,
But I am asking you to ask yourself,
Ask within, deep in your soul,
Why are you hear,
Why do you experience the things that you do,
Why do have the desires that you do,
And whether there is One Greater watching you.

This is the end of part two,
I was that little girl,
And I’m the narrator
Now, look at me, I’m a new creature.


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In My Head

the pain gives me a headache
this sad little girl is all alone in the big world
the hurt gives me heartache
how can all this be in my head
when it feels so so real 
my head always hurts and is numb at the same time 
the inside of my head how to explain 
how can i fix the inside of me 
i plead please help me 
i lie and say im fine 
when things really arent
i hide behind a smile of fake happieness 
i try to make you guys think im healed
that my minds not raceing 
that everythings okay and im really okay
but in my head its a whole nother story
i just want to lay down and cry 
i dont know why though
in my head everythings all twisted like a messy fileing cabinet
i cant speak about it i dont know the words
this little girl doesnt know what to say 
but maybe what shes feeling 
is all in her head


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A Journey With My Paranoia Pt 1

I hold three magic rocks, in my hand rolling them over and over and over.  Leaving this 
reality behind, far behind....
       I opened my eyes and to my surprise I was in a bedroom, so dark like buried in a 
tome./  But I felt claustrophobic like a babe in a womb./  I could not breathe and silence just 
seemed so loud./  I stepped out of my body and begin to watch myself some how./
       I put heavy sheets over my windows./  To keep out the world and it's echo's./  I bury 
my face in my pillow and hide from my own shadow./  I hear screaming voices on my 
radio./  I distract myself by reading "Edgar Allen Poe."/  I was forced to leave town and 
travel to New Mexico./  I encountered the Martian-man and he said "Hello."/  Then 
surprisingly he took me on a ride in his U.F.O.!!/  Eventually he brought me back and 
dropped me off in Jericho!/
       A Priest approached me./  He told me he was from Tennessee and he handed me a 
key./  So I traveled to a town near the Dead Sea./  While there I met a girl who smelled like 
potpourri./  While we were having sex, I lifted her leg and discovered she was an amputee!/  
She then let out a wail that sounded like a banshee./  I admit it turned me on sexually!/
       I finally found the palace and began my search./  I got lost and met a giant-of-a-man 
named "Lurch."/  He introduced me to the town whore,?  And hand-n-hand, me and her 
searched each corridor./  We found a red door./  Of course it was locked, that was plain to 
see./  So I pulled out the priests' key./  I opened the door and there in the middle of the 
room was a P.C./  It was in H.D./  Me and the girl entered the room./  The door slammed 
behind us with a "boom!"/  She ran and sat in front of the computer./  She begin explaining 
the site like a tutor./  On the screen was a chat group./  She clicked onto the home page -
 "Poetry Soup!"/  I was hit with deja vu./  That's when I noticed on her lower back was a 
tattoo./  The words said, "I hate you."/  
        
Continued in Pt 2


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Invisible Kid

Invisible Kid

Invisible kid that’s what you were called.
Locked in your room wasn’t punishment at all.
	
Alone to explore your dreams and read stories,
Alone safe from harm to be whoever you wished.
 
Fantasies and storytelling for your teddy bears.
Role playing and performing in front of the mirror,
each morning.
 
Play time with her friends was often, 
never rare for the invisible one.
Together, they were little girls fixing 
their hair while singing or twirling around 
playing dress-up.
 
But this invisible girl floats alone in her room too much.
All alone and she seems quite happy.
 
Really, she’s just fading away.
Hiding herself from the violence and scary things
that loom beyond the door.
Afraid of the death scenes,
that might play out any moment.
 
Oh what a quiet girl she is in her room.
So calm floating around with files of
imaginary things to ponder.
 
Round and round in herself.
Round and round locked in her brain.
Away from the pain and shame
of her violent and desolate world.
 
Unplugging from all,
so the fear disappears.
 
All alone, she stayed in her room.
Suspicious of anyone’s touch,
So independent, she didn’t need a crutch.
 
Now a grown woman,
when will she come out and share herself
with the world?

 
 
 


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LAPSE

She was a plump, short girl with pretty face
I didn’t mind to give her my wandered heart
Without interest but with a balance of seeing 
Her any more again.

Time was being unpredictable as I saw her back in New Orleans 
Trashing cans and smoking cigarette at a dock of a fancy restaurant
And she told me she had a baby and the father was unknown.
If there was a grill she did not show unless and until I noticed
How beautiful she was.

I heard the girl said who is that mom and she replied nobody. 
She smiled, kicked the cigarette away and turned her back
At me and I felt at that moment so ruin and so damned dirty
Without knowing why.


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Journeys

“Are you falling in love with her..?”

But there he looked onward, without a single way of direction
With logical reasoning behind him, he could not fathom the thought
It was as if something so absurd had lied down in front of him
From a hidden spot he never knew to look, 
The weight of the glass pulled him down
Like his thoughts.

She was rare in all her peculiarities 
Made up of every kind of purity known to man
She was everything and nothing all at once
A representation of all that he lacked, no matter the article
She made him decent, and in return he made her happy

His arm reached only for her
“Help me lose my mind” 
he uttered looking into her eyes in order to catch the despair 
Suddenly caught short of breath
The little bit of liqueur pestered him, like the voice
He thought to himself, 
There was only one pleading argument to if she’d ever say adieu
“I’m so much better when you’re around”
The words echoed in the back of his mind


Home never had an address, but a path
Where ever she set foot
He saw her spinning from the corner of his eyes
Free and alive 
But, she always held him
With all that she could
As if she was his only genuine believer.


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Just a Poem

It seems that lately there has been a slight divide,
And I've never really been the type to like division,
Cause lately I've been searching for the missing piece by my side,
And like LeBron i think it's about time to make a decision,

See the Kryptonite must be the sweet serenity up in your eyes,
Or maybe it's the potent way your voice soothes my ears,
The temptation that oozes from the way you move your thighs,
Causes all of the wrong reasons in my mind to want you here,

Or could it be the way you walk,
The calming way you talk,
The pain that you hide,
Even though your past has constantly tried to stalk,

I see the pain,
It's in my vision,
Yet i still remain,
Without a mission,

And yet i'm drained,
Because you've kept this love on hold,
You've prolonged a long extension,
It's like forgetting to pay a pension,

Have you already forgotten?
Have you already found another?
Have you already Gave up?
Have you found a Lover?

Is it me or is it you?
Lie to my ears,
And Seduce my pain...


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Ode To The Girl Child - in 4 parts

EPILOGUE TO THE GIRL CHILD - 4/4
--------------------------------------------

YOU ARE, THE BLESSED
CREATION.

WITHOUT WHOM I WOULDN'T EXIST.

NEVER ENJOYED, SO MANY PLEASURES,
OF NATURES, BOUNTIFUL GIFT.

YOU ARE THE THE CONCEIVER OF LIFE.

YOU ARE A MYSTERIOUS MIND.

YOU ARE ENVY OF PICASSO'S PASSION.

YOU ARE VIVALDI'S FOUR SEASONS.

YOU ARE POETRY IN MOTION.

A COLD SPRING IN THE OASIS.

YOUR ARE MONALISA'S MYSTERIOUS SMILE.

YOUR ARE, NOW THE TALENT, OF THIS GENERATION.

I CANNOT CONCEIVE, MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU.

POETRY WOULD HAVE LOST ITS RHYME.

MUSIC WOULD HAVE LOST ITS MOVEMENTS.

I SALUTE YOU,  BEAUTIFUL GIRL CHILD.

WITHOUT YOU, LIFE WOULD SURELY CEASE.


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Teenage Love

I have to wonder
As a teenage girl does
If you like me
Or like the chase
You make my heart skip a beat
You make me smile till my face is sore
I melt when I see your eyes
But I have to wonder
Do you feel the same? 
Am I the one who makes your day
As perfect as you make mine
Your eyes as big as the moon 
Your smirk as playful as a kitten
Your personality as warm as a thousand suns
And I find myself falling hard for you
And I just can’t help but wonder
If you even notice
If you even care
Or if you’re looking at her
My heart can’t take much more
I need to know
But your lips tell me nothing
You flirt, you smile, you make me the happiest girl in the world
And I want to be yours
And only yours
I have never felt this way before
I can’t get over you
No matter how much I try
I tell myself I don’t need you
But as soon as I see you smile
I melt


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Your serenity

I want to be your bed. Your launch site and landing zone where you begin 
and end your day. That place you find comfort and rest. I want to be the 
sheets that cover you to keep you safe and warm, giving you that feeling 
of being somewhere you belong. The pillow where you rest your head 
when your mind is set free and your hopes ideas and plans run rampant 
before you let go and drift off into your dream world. I want to be that t 
shirt that clothes your beautiful canvas just reaching the cusp of your 
cheeks, gently resting upon your nipples. I want to be your place of 
solace. I want to be the things that give you the opulence of tranquility. I 
want to be your serenity.


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Role Models

“Role Models”


Can a Man teach a girl to be a Woman?
Can a Woman teach a boy to be a Man?
A simple fact known over millennia 
It takes a village to raise a child.

So how does a girl become a woman?
And how does a boy become a man?
Is it nature verses nurture which decides?
Or are there other forces that preside?

What is it that makes a girl into a woman?
What is it that makes a boy into a man?
Could it be that our individuality identity 
As male or female is quite simple.

The primacy of "nature" over "nurture"
Is manifested in emulating the behavior 
And clear example of both parents
It is they who define who we are

Our journey to self-realization begins 
A "blank slate" endowed from birth 
From infancy to adulthood nurtured
To fulfill distinctive specific roles

Guided by a Mother and a Father
A child’s guides to self identity
Our individual roles are learned
In life lessons taught over time.

© Eugene Harvey


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deserved

oh ive been so wronged

in these past couple weeks

by women.

making myself vulnerable has led to certain regrets

for instance,

i regret letting myself be lied to and manipulated

i regret giving myself completely

only to be taken and used

but these are not things i can control,

i regret we ever met.


oh im not entitled

to get what i want.

just because i treat you one way doesnt at all mean i'll be treated in kind

and i dont expect it.

that whole golden rule thing is a bunch of sh*t and i know.


i deserve nothing from anyone

yet i still would appreciate a f*cking medal

or a cookie

or something

anything

some f*cking thing

at some point

has to prove

the legitimacy

of my way

because i have given so much

received less than nothing in return

let go of my ego

and i still love.

all this, carefully;


i suppose

it isnt the universe or karma who hurts people

it is the people who hurt people

so when i ask for recompense,

im asking you.

not that i expect or deserve a damn thing. i hope you enjoyed my poem. thank you.


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What Happened to Us

I miss it.
I miss the laughs 
The cries 
I miss the adventures
The crazy things we did	
And the lessons we learned 
I miss trust 
The bond we had
I miss my sidekick 
My partner in crime
I miss fitting together like puzzle pieces
But I guess, sometimes,
The pieces are meant to be lost and never found. 


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My Two Girls

A tale of my two girls.
One's called Jodie
and one's called Daisy.
They have a lot in common,
mostly they're both crazy.
Being teens,
so full of life,
infact they both amaze me.
One big difference,
for all to see
is that one's covered in skin,
the other is much more hairy.
Both mastered in the art of making noise
and both attract all of the boys.
Both love to go out in the sun,
just as soon as the day has begun.
When it rains they don't go out,
they stay indoors and muck about.
They're full of fun and love to play,
that's non stop every single day.
I can't keep up,they're too much for me
but without them
I never want to be.


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Passer-by's

Mr Skinny Jeans Is Always Around His Mates,
But Don’t He Want Any Alone Time?

Miss Emo In Red Just Listens Never Talks,
But Hasn’t She Got Her Own Opinions To Express?

Mr Tattoo On His Arm Always Shows It Off,
But Later On In Life Will He Regret It?

Miss Girl With Pink Glasses Never Leaves Her Book,
But Does She Know She Can Make Her Own Adventure?

Mr Always Got A Cap On Not Very Often With Friends,
But Doesn’t He Want To Be Around People Who Care?

Miss Girl Who Every Boy Fancies Always Talks On Her Phone,
But Don’t She Want To Talk Face To Face With Them?


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Look At Me

I wish when you would look at me
You’d see inside & not just the surface
I love to hear you say how cute I am
How attractive & how beautiful
How much you love my curves,
and compliment my smooth soft skin
with the tips of your fingers
running across my side
And when you look at me with those eager eyes
I know that you want me
There’s no doubt in my mind,
Your eyes tell me that I’m beautiful
It feels good, but not lasting
All my life, it’s all I wanted to hear
The man in my life acknowledge my outer beauty
I never heard it said before, it meant the world to me
And now that it’s all you ever say to me
I realize…
It’s not important now
It never was

I look in the mirror & my beauty cant hide
Who I am inside
I’m constantly questioning my worth
The kind of girl I am and the kind of girl I want to be
And If I’m happy where I’m at
Now all I wish is that you’d look at me
Look past what your physical eyes can see
And peer into my inner being
And when you see inside me
Who I really am
If you find that I’m worth loving
That’s what will mean the world to me


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SHE

   ......SHE
She tried to hide
beneath the cotton dress
but when she walked she was always there.
The old women looked away.
The little girls stared.
The big girls hated her and it showed.

        and the boys...
        and the boys...
        and the boys...
we just went totally insane.

Everyone's heart broke
whenever they looked at her.

That's the kind of girl she was
and she just couldn't hide.
.....© ron wilson aka vee bdosa the Doylestown Poet


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Dancer

Caress me
with your kisses
you little delicate thing
with your soft, silent
quick and tiny breaths
and wings like the
stained-glass windows 
of the cathedral
and as they pray
you dance
paint the air I breathe
with fragile beauty
Feeding flowers
with the dust 
of another lovely
Creature
Visiting the minds
of dreamers
and children


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Letter To Cornwall

do you remember this place by the ocean?
these coastal mornings with their Arena air
the wind from the crab dock almost strong enough 
to be swept away,
running from growling raccoons
randomly reading names on boats-

The way I remember The day you said the word traded, 
how it changed us, to me, 
you brought me here in your little red car
I knew it wasn’t romantic
Dave passed out in the back seat
You chugging back a litre of water
Like you had spent the night in the Saharan 
Even the car smelled hungover

Over there by those big rocks where couples watch the sun rise
Just a few feet from where I am now
You calmly wrapped your arms around me 
The way waves cradle the sand
 Then  said “it was no big deal,”
And my sun set, turning me dark 
The way you rationally explained it was “part of the game” 
told me you had done this before. 

Stood on a late spring morning with your arms around a girl
 and told her that you were going home for the summer
 like you always do and regrettably wouldn’t return with the fall.
Then left maybe on a greyhound or maybe In your little red sunfire.

 I think about that girl left back in one of those little Saskatchewan towns
 and wonder if she’s writing you this morning too,
I know about her because you came to British Columbia on a trade 
and now I wonder if there is letter on its way 
from the town in Alberta that sent you to Saskatchewan.

It’s kind of comforting to know that I’m not alone
To imagine all the girls left in limbo 
Writing letters curled up by fire places, from small town diners,
Empty arena seats, front porch swings and, beaches
 
I’m watching the boats now. 
Ships come in and make the harbor beautiful for a moment 
and then sail away.

The team still skates everyday at five
I picked Dave up from practice
We had a mountain burger
And a couple of black Russians
I should tell you it ended there
But we came down here 
And skipped rocks into the ocean
Laughing about old times
When he was the third wheel
And when he took my hand
I let him; it felt right at the time 
So I’m not alone, but lonely

Is there a girl in Ontario who has already fallen?


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SHE IS FRENCH

She was French
without being continental;
without language.

She was French
the Channel could not part us
our hands clasped often.

She was French
She'll ne'er be forgotten
she was all mine

for a while;

She was French
without being, well, y'know.
And she loved me...

She is French
still;
I love her
still;

She is French...

tcmoon 2012


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Broken

Lost 
Gone
Deserted
Fallen
Can't get up
Struck
Let down 
Can't move on
Despaired
Look deeply into her soul
You see it clear
This girl
This woman
Is broken


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Reflection

Who's that girl?
I don't recognize her
The girl I knew was pretty
She smiled alot
She laughed
Her eyes sparkled
What happened to her?
I guess she went away
I wish she would come back
I miss her
I stop for a minute 
And realize 
That girl is me


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Average Girl Life

Sometimes they say follow your heart but I follow my intuition

Sometimes they tell you to follow your dreams but I live my dreams

Sometimes they say the sky is the limit but I reach for far and beyond

Sometimes they say its better to have the finer things in life but the simple things are just as good

Nothing in life is free that's why we're given the opportunity to work hard for what we've been given

Nothing is just an easy step away reasons why we walk the path of life to our adventures

Nothing about life is ever a mistake its just the mistakes we live and learn from

Nothing more than your extra-ordinary average girl who needs nothing more than what she already has in life


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xi

You, yes heaven's girl,
who sits from afar
looking at e with hazel eyes
and long hair so smooth-
you look to be loved,
still you say nothing;
you look at my hands,
you see my pen move swiftly
on paper so thin,
and you smile-yet you say nothing.

When I come with a smile,
your face(a loving face)
turns frail and red with shyness;
you long to be loved with words,
with such sweet poetry,
and a voice soft, yet strong- I tell you my girl,
let you be mine,
for I long to be loved too,
in this lonesome world-
oh you, yes you heaven's girl
stop hiding, I've found you.

.2.27.2014.


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to a beautiful girl

She is the most beautiful girl I ever seen
She has a smile that can touch someone's heart
She is the star that shines in my light.
She is a beautiful girl, yes in deed.
You're something special, You are a kind and gentle girl.
I'm so speechless and shy when I'm around you.
But I'm glad you can make me smile.
You re the sky She is the light that touches the ground
She is the day and the night
She's the morning and the afternoon
She has a heart made of gold.
Everyday I think and wonder if I can ever find a girl
Like you.I dream, wish and wonder about wishes and dreams
To me You're a beautiful rose too me
You're the girl of my dreams.
You're my princess, And I'll be you knight and shining amour

This is for you, a beautiful girl that will always be cherish
And cherished forever more


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Stone Cold

Emotions run dry in the pool of emotions
The lies flood forth in a sea of despair,
You hate her,
Resent her,
But secretly you dream,
Of the girl with the eyes that made you so weak,
The girl who’s lips drip with lies,
The beautiful pretender who made you so blind,
To her lies, her scheming, her cheating disposition,
But your love for her remains,
In each tear that you shed,
You whisper her name like you did once before,
But deaf ears cant hear,
And stone hearts cannot feel.


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Shrouded little Girl

A girl shrouded by a dusk cloak, held my hand as we walked through the night in a green 
pasture.  Glowing green lights surrounded us as we walked; elusive little things they were; I 
stretched out my hand to touch these things that seemed to be intangible.   It almost 
seemed that these green lights were stars and I was on the verge of grasping such a thing, 
but my hands were held in place by the little girl.  My body and mind stayed motionless by 
the thought of disappointment, until she said “If you want to ahead and hold a dragon fly go 
ahead. But beware of its sting in the turmoil of darkness.”   She said it in such a sweet voice 
that I was compelled to see who this little girl was, instead of me doing the deed she turned 
around and showed me her pale face masked in the innocence of a child.  All while smiling 
with an unknown splendor.


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20 20

The light from her eyes was aimed at me
with a parallel relation.
It wrapped itself
around
me
and married my
imagination.

With direction
I walk outside of myself
past Autumn's clock malfunction
and into
the palm of existence
from which I view
this certain light.

I am a hungry pupil.


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I Knew

You make me laugh, and then make me cry,
I am going crazy inside,
You hold me close, then push me away,
All I want to do is stay,
You tell me I'm your world, then go out with someone else,
I just want to be only one,
You call me at night and say the most amazing things, but you never say them in 
the light of day,
I just want to hear them all the time,
You say I love you more then life, I want marry you, then you wont even call me 
your girlfriend,
I just want you to decide,
I can't be yours 1/2 the times,
I am the kind of girl that loves so hard that 1/2 the times, isn't worth mine,
I would do anything to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you,
But I don't know how much more I can go threw,
I just want you to hold me like you once did,
Tell me I'm the only girl you will ever love,
Just make up your mind,
I don't care if we are going to be a part,
I just want to know I am your one and only,
The time of me saying I'm waiting forever has passed.


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Girl of green grove

Her hair looks and smells like strawberry
Her smile lights up the world like spring sun
Sun that plays shadows with her skin
Skin smooth like surface of a pearl

I love to see her smile but I hate to see her cry
Even though at that time she is beautiful too
Her tears are light of full moon
Reflected in morning dew

But what is truly unforgettable is her gaze
Deeper then the vastest sea
Deeper then endless space
 Deeper then time itself

Brighter then prairie set a blaze during the night
Those eyes with their mesmerizing beauty bring delight
They are as deep as final theory of everything
 With reference to soul of souls



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Ode To The Girl Child - in 4 parts

DANCES OF A DIVISIVE MIND. - 3/4
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There are more gruesome...,
acts of patriarchy. 
Devised to Subjugate, the girl child.
Men, so cunningly....,
planned, in the dark of the ages.

The devil; if he exists, would envy.
And perhaps, shrivel away in shame.
And never cease to exist.

But, who created the devil..?
Another, pigment of imagination of mankind.  
A mole to infiltrate, the Humane mind.
And keep the subjects,
infected, in fear; of reprisal.

You have come, a long way my Sweetheart. 
Because, if you are reading this poem.
You consider, yourself well emancipated. 
 
There was time in history.
When you would have been, 
crucified or burnt, alive in the stake...???
Because you have committed, 
An unholy and evil act.

You have learnt to read and write. 
And liberated your self. 
And men have become very insecure.

You got a very long way to go baby. 
The choice is in your hands. 
UNSHACKLE, your mind from yourself. 
There's a host of virus
In your HD.


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Sway

I have music in my heart
And a song in my chest 
That reverberates through my rib cage
As you play my bones
Like the keys on a xylophone 
Every time I kiss you
It's like the first time all over again
And I see the stars in your eyes
The swirling constellations
That you'd swear I'd have to be drunk to notice
But I do
I do notice you 
And all your perfection
Your flawless beauty
Makes my lungs swell 
Each time I breath you in
Drink you up 
I never want to hurry
I never want to catch up
I want to stand here and sway in the breezes
Because if I hurry the wind will also pick up
And I am so scared that it will blow you away
Like it did to the balloons
That you got on my birthday
And though they may float away
The memory is always there
Just like you
Your always here 
Even when we are inches, feet, yards, miles apart
You are always here
Laying in my heart


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Someone Else

I came here to be with the girl I love,
Instead, I get someone I do not know.
This person I sit with here today,
Is someone else I've never met;
Who comes from God knows where,
And comes to strip me of everything.
Everything I hold close and dear.
Including the girl I love so much.

My girlfriend and I would always show our love,
But this person I do not know makes no advance.
So as I try to find out who this person is,
My love slowly slips away into the abyss.
As I try to bring her back and show her my love,
She just slips away deeper and deeper;
Till all I can see is someone else,
Who looks like the girl I fell in love with.

This person who I do not know,
Slowly dominates my love and life;
As my love slowly vanishes,
From the arms that love her dear.
I made a promise to my love I'll never break;
I promised I would never stop loving her.
I'll always love her till the end of time,
Even if I'm loving someone I don't know.


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Her

Her touch
Her feel
Her presence is all your after
Her lips
A kiss
Is what you long for
See her
Meet her
Let her know your life long wait
She's perfect
Not of your dreams
But this reality
Oh this reality
Astonishing
Beautiful
Couldn't ask for better
In her ambiance 
Her smell
Her looks
Will soon fade away
But your love for her....forever


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Death is Happiness

Just go ahead and laugh as I cry my last words.
Love gone wrong is my explanation. Exploiting my generosity as I cringe from the 
hell,
That is my life. We lie in my bed just remanicing.
I look to the sky to save me. Go ahead girl just fall asleep, as I sit here and cry. It 
isn't the first time as I find this my way of living. Go ahead girl, just grab that gun 
and aim it at my heart. 
Because if this is love than kill me now. It's so nice, living in a world where no 
one else can feel the pain that breaks my heart every day, I'm not okay. 
 
So go ahead girl just stab that dagger in my back. KILL ME!!!
It's what you do. These thoughts of suicide run through me every night. To smile 
would be a fantasy
in my mind, but there is nothing to bring it. So do me a favor, when I die just put 
that smile on my face,
because it will be the only time when I'm happy.....


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My Familiar Stranger

We took some gorgeous pictures yesterday,
I wouldn't give in until I got you to smile
After spoiling so many with your scowls...
Since when did you not smile in photos?

I shuffle through them now and I think,
If I didn't know any better I'd assume
We were having a wonderful time.
You always were
A cunning little actress.

The flash goes off and your normal face returns,
You hate this party, you need to get away.
Despite everything, I still
See through you,
And insist on accompanying you
Though for all the use I am,
I may as well have just danced on.

So in silence we walk,
And in worry I wait;
Just eighteen, yet you need
Two bottles,
Where did you get the money?
And you know I don't drink.

Stumble along to the park,
Oak trees shading your sensitive skin
Though it's already burning.

I look sadly into your face,
Faint concentration as you pour out your poison,
It's only the two of us here.
Empty eyes as you gulp and shudder,
I couldn't have less in common with this girl.

I don't know this obligated embrace,
I don't know the awkward brush of that hand,
I don't know those cold, grey eyes,
Looking anywhere but at me,
Cloudy with no trace of that
Beautiful blue.

I avoid the alcohol
And drink you in instead;
There's no denying that
You're not the girl I fell in love with.
If I met this girl on the street one day,
Would I feel the same?
Or would I pass her by?

As I hold you and mop you up,
Considering the latter,
I realise it doesn't matter.

I don't know who you are,
But even now I'm here to save you.
Let them think it's out of pity,
For I know it's out of love.


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Ode To The Girl Child - in 4 parts

CREATIONS BLUNDER - 1/4
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Its not you fault, don't be sorry. 
Paradox of creation...
A most misconceived,
divine beauty, etched in pain.

The pain that you experience,
is a mistake of creation.

If I had my way...?
I would have divided, the burden. 
Why should you alone..,  bear the heft.

I would have gifted, the male child; 
half of your pain.

Just like, how two instruments.
Mingle, to produce a piece,
of wonderful music.

So whenever she gracefully,
experiences, the jagged, cycle of life.
Her partner should also be humbled.

There is no rhyme or reason,
for this kind of discrimination.
He should have taken my advice.


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To Sheldon

She's so pretty,isn't she?
But try to look closely and your'll see
Behind the pretty face is a woman in pain
Don't be fooled of what her make up is hiding
She wears it everyday to feel beautiful
To conceal the truth that her heart is sorrowful
you wont know the battles she's fighting deep inside
Yeah she looks fine but can you open your eyes wide?
Don't misunderstand but she's no mannequin
She has a heart and she needs some lovin'

If you don't take care of your girl,someone else will take care of her for you.


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In My Eyes

In My Eyes You're One Of My Best Friends...
'Cause You're Always There For Me,

In My Eyes You're  One Of The Strongest People I Know...
'Cause You Take Everything On The Chin,

In My Eyes You're The Girl I Go To When I Need Advice....
'Cause You Always Tell Me The Truth Even If It's Not What I Want To Hear,

In My Eyes You're The Girl Who 's Got No Fears...
'Cause You Don't Move When You Are Face To Face With Danger,

In My Eyes You're The Girl Who Gets What She Wants...
'Cause You Keep Trying,

But That Night When You Cried Into My Lap Needing A Certain Someone...

Then In My Eyes I Knew Heroes Do Fall


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Darling Darla

Take your crucifixes, Your holy water.
Immortal love of a vampire's daughter.
Silver stakes and a garlic deathtrap.
Like a Priest's slave and a fatal attack.
Your final need for Darla's blood.
Reaping with the gift of Life.
The sun finally sets,
You owe us the price of your regrets.
A destiny that slays,
A life where the demons do not stray far from your gaze.
But you'll never steal Darling Darla.
My words, Your weapons.
Your strength, My lessons.
Queen of Liars,
A king for hire.
Remember when you were baptized,
The day when Darla died?
Remember the graveyard in Transylvania,
The vampire's resurrection in her coffin?
Like an angel that is burning,
Caught between Heaven and Hell.
Damned to Earth with the burden of the Apocalypse's birth.
The sun finally sets,
You owe us the price of your regrets.
A destiny that slays,
A life where the demons do not stray far from your gaze.
But you'll never steal Darling Darla.
A stake through her beat-less heart,
The end of our new start.
Share her blood,
Drink her pain.
Your mother, Deadly Darla, finally shows her sorrow and you never again question what is sane.
Soaking wet in the Devil's Hellfire.
NO!
I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE! (NO)
NO!
I DON"T NEED YOU ANYMORE! (BLOOD AND GORE)
NO!
YOU"LL NEVER STEAL THE GIRL I ADORE! (NO)
NO!
YOU"LL NEVER STEAL THE GIRL I ADORE! (BLOOD AND GORE)
NO!
I DON"T NEED YOU ANYMORE! (NO)
NO!
I DON"T NEED YOU ANYMORE! (BLOOD AND GORE)
GO!!!
When the sun finally rises,
You owe her the price of a slayer's disguises.
A destiny of decay,
A life where humans are your pray.
But you'll always live with Darling Darla's blood.
The sun finally sets,
You owe us the price of your regrets.
A destiny that slays,
A life where the demons do not stray far from your gaze.
But you'll never steal Darling Darla.


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Man In A Bottle

Dead end story, dead end train,
No girl left to find, no heart left to claim,
Held back by the glasses and clinking of ice,
The whiskey, the bar, the story of my life.

Tears in the whiskey draw memories to view,
A girl in my arms, our hearts born anew,
The dress, the kiss, the vows and the love,
Tears fall once more as I look up above.

To the tattered old ceiling, a cobweb or two,
Look past to the sky, like your eyes, colored blue,
See your smile through rain, and your face through the sky,
Goodbye sweet angel, forever goodbye.

Fog my memory, take the reigns,
With liquid fire, flood my veins,
Pour it through and watch me burn,
A man in a bottle with a lot to learn.


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CHAPERON

I took my girl to the ice cream parlor,
to buy her and ice cream cone.
when we got there, her mother was there,
she had to be chaperon.

How  can we be with each other?
when she always with her mother.
We cant even hold hands at the picture show,
her mother got to be there where ever we go.

Now that we are getting older,we thought it would get better.
Wrong it got worst.
Now when ever I want to kiss my girl,
I have to kiss her mother first.

Now that we are dating,
I asked my girl to take her to the prom.
Wouldnt you just know it,
she was chaperon by her mom

Soon we will be getting married,
and have a family of our own.
Her mother said if we have a daughter,
remember she will have be chaperon.

We love her mother dearly,
but one thing we dred.
When we are making love,
she will be watching from under our bed.


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STILL DAYDREAMING

World full of darkness and hate.

Young black male trying make it walking through these streets.

With a pen and a dream to make it just you wait.

With god in his heart keeping him from growing weak.

Also a girl that he would give the world up for.

She keep him on his path forward to greatness.

The girl make him feel like she the only one god gave him from what he prayed 
for.

He can talk to her about anything that upset him and still keep it hood.

To tell her his feeling he knew it was all good.

He told her one day he going take her to the top.

Just as long as the love she give him never stopped.

In his mind he knew that would never stop being.

They plan they whole life out together already.

But the boy,he still daydreaming.


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meeting an angel

the first time we met,it was awkward because we didn't
know what to say.
speechless as can be,we look at each other and smile 
and say sorry.
I walk away without looking,she looks back and smile.
but as I walk away she made me smile.
but I wonder about her if I will ever see her again.
I wonder who was that girl I bumped into.

I wonder if she was just a angel that just appeared above
looking for her way back.
so I walk and walk,I see the angel I was thinking about
It was the girl I bumped into,she was playing her guitar.
I walk up to her and ask her,
your the girl I bumped into.I wonder what is your name.
she smiled and said angel.
huh really,yup she said.
she played beautifully,wow I smiled and said I have to get 
going.
how about tomorrow.

she said ok,
I said ok,I will come to see you..
I smiled away..and she smiled back
and thats how I met angel


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Gotes

GOTES

She sashayed across the dance floor,
A shimmering Lycra curve.
Through the throbbing beat explosions,
She yelled a few delicate words.
“Have you got Gotes?” she said,
“You what?” said I,
“Have you got Gotes?”
“Have I got Gotes?”
“Yes,” she said, “Have you got Gotes?”
“I don’t know, whats Gotes?”
“They’re like sheep wi’ horns,” says she,
“Oh, no I haven’t,” I replied,
“Hmmm,” she said, “pity!”
and with that she danced away,
disappointed.


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You Know That I Know

I've been holding back for way too long
Cause in my heart I have a song to sing
Oh I'm gonna sing
The worlds not falling, you're not getting trampled on
It's just my foot steps on your lawn
I've come to say
We're gonna be okay

Cause when the rain falls I'm gonna cover you
You'll never get anything less then the truth 
from me, from me

Would rather tough times together than better apart
We have what we need, what we need is
fine by me, fine by me

The best part is I love your name
As common as it is, it's not the same
Cause girl you're not like anyone I know
The best is when you say my name
No other girl has ever said it the same
And I know that you know from the look on my face
And you know that I know

It all comes down to what you think
And what you feel and if it's real
And if not, you gotta let it go

But baby I'm the one for you
The one that you come runnin to
The shoulder for your smiles and your tears

And baby I want all of you
The good, the bad, we'll see it through
And I can't wait to give you all of my years

The best part is I love your name
As common as it is, it's not the same
Cause girl you're not like anyone I know
The best is when you say my name
No other girl has ever said it the same
And I know that you know from the look on my face
And you know that I know

We've only just begun
The best is yet to come
Just know that I'm sincere when I say
"I'll always be right here"

The best part is I love your name
As common as it is, it's not the same
Cause girl you're not like anyone I know
The best is when you say my name
No other girl has ever said it the same
And I know that you know from the look on my face
And you know that I know


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In this position

Just hearing your voice on the telephone 
makes my body foam like it's never done before
I want you, yet I barely know you.
It's like both our bodies are singing the 
very same song.
I hate that I feel this way about somebody
who already has somebody.
I don't want this situation to turn into wishful 
thinking. 
I can't have my heart missing something 
that I shouldn't even be pining for. 
It's just that  you have this way
about you that seems to click with me
I know if we ever did do something
that it will go down in history 
but I'd better hang up now 
before I start falling in love.
It's not me your calling girl friend.
it isn't me that you'd be hurting.
If you go and do what you know you want
than a girl I barely know will end up hurt
just because we took it too far.
I don't want this position,
we can't change any of the conditions.
That's why it's better to hear the dial tone
than to be caught creeping on the low.
That would be a whole new low.
So I'm afraid to say it but I have to go.


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I Could Be The Girl For You

I would never dream of depriving you
Of the happiness you have found;
He's not like all the others and for this I'm ironically thankful
For a smile is a smile and yours
Will always paint itself on my face,

But should you ever feel incomplete
You're the only one I have patience for and
I'd be your best friend once more,
Should you ever need a familiar hand to guide you through, then
I could be the girl for you.

Though I haven't a lifetime of experience,
I have an understanding of you and listen to your troubles,
Hold you until I've absorbed all your worries and
Let you leave lightly.

And so long as I'm around
There will be no struggles for you,
However, it's hard for a girl
To be a gentleman
But I'll take your bags in my weak but willing arms
Just to see you stroll freely by my side,

Then those days when our eyes meet,
The secrets we both know we're thinking of
Exist again, and your lips brush mine,
They will not be so rare, and in the
Surreal delight, I'm thinking
I could be the girl for you.

No, I'm not the best around people,
But for you I talk and laugh and it becomes a strain which I detest.
You glance at me, knowing what I'm putting myself through for you
And your mouth twitches; you're not sure how to feel,
It's times like this I wish that we could kiss
Like a regular, natural thing
Not some circumstance to agonise over,
But that's the way it is, and I watch you
Leave with him.
You look softly back and catch me thinking,
I could be the girl for you.

Do you hear my dreaming?
Surely I could tell
Because, well, I can always tell
But you're gone now.

So here I am back home again,
Another love poem you'll never read
Yet I feel somehow you can sense the words piercing my mind
The way I train my eyes on you and yet
Look down, afraid you're working it out,

Lord knows what this is; well, actually
One definition lurks in the grey area,
Impossible.

And as the time flies, men come and go,
I pick you up when they throw you down
With no recognition of the wonder you are,
Your tears sting my heart whilst your laughter makes it soar,
There'll be other guys and I'll see you through them all,
Rainy days and magical nights;

All this will I do for you because although
I could be the girl for you,
That would be too simple, and so
The harsh fact remains, though I'll admit it timidly;

You will always be
The only girl for me.


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What am I?

What is a girl who trusts in God?
Me, a tall rhythmic girl
Curls on my head who rocks the world
Tan and brown eyes
A crooked smile with a flair
I’m the one who’s always there
That is a girl who trust in God

Why is laughter the medicine of the soul?
Questions for time that only time knows
But with the right voice
And words of irony
All can see what is funny
The young child within comes out
But remember
You don’t stop laughing ‘cause you grow old
You grow old cause u stop laughing


Judgment hour is all around
Peers of judgment coming out
In your face cause what you’re about
Bang! Peers of judgment slam the gavel
Grind you deeper into the ground
Peers of judgment and peers of harassment
Wrong eyes, clothes, hair
Friends, family, house
If your not like them then what you about?


Marriage, kids, a husband and a dog
All things I see in my future 
What I hold close to my heart
Softly stroking my sons hair
My husband’s hugs humble my ways
Time passes as I watch my family grow
Growing into the family I’ve always held near
But always and forever religious I will be
I am a girl who trust in God
That is me.


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I Am

I am a girl who dreams
I wonder why I am here
I hear the people cry
I see the world crashing down
I want to fall in love
I am a girl who dreams

I pretend to much
I feel the pain of everyone
I touch the clouds
I worry about my life
I cry for all the pain and suffering
I am a girl who dreams

I understand that my day will come
I say everyone deserves a chance
I dream that everyone will live in peace 
I try to fit in
I hope to have a family
I am a girl who dreams


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Ode To The Girl Child- in 4 parts

INFERNO OF THE GIRL CHILD - 2/4
------------------------------------------

You have, a long way my dear. 
And a much longer,
journey awaits you.

There was a time, in history.
During this period of grace.
She was condidered, so impure.
And not allowed to enter
Hallowed places.

Even the living spaces. 
Because man decreed, that,
God considered...!
his own creation sacrilege...?????

At times; she....,
because of this stigma.
If an untoward evil should happen.
Be considered the reason, 
for such an event.
Was burnt alive in the stake...
because she was the curse of the Gods...!

A sacrifice, 
to appease the creator....!
who cursed his own creation...?

This is just a pigment of history.
Just one turn, one view. 
Through the kaleidoscope, of life.
 Tribulations, of our beautiful girl child.


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goodbye to the day

I wanted to meet you now,
but I decided to do so.
as shy as can be.I didn't
know what to do.
I put my words in my pocket
so I can give to you.
and so I can say to you in a soft voice.
I like you,I just wanted to say the
words just right.
now I didn't know why my feelings 
were toward you.
when I wake up to see another tomorrow.
I pray to see you there at the first time
I saw you.
I sine the kindness in you,
I wish and prayed for a girl like you.
because its just another day.
so say goodbye to the day to the night.
even though we see the stars at night.
so say goodbye to the day.
I'd prayed for a girl like you tonight.
I loved to say hi and goodbye to you 
everyday.
so say goodbye to the day...


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SEARCHIN

     DAM SEXY GIRL YOU GOT IT 
GOING ON, AND I'VE BEEN 
SEARCHIN FOR A GIRL LIKE 
YOU  SO VERRY LONG.. 
FEELING SO LONELY TRYING TO 
FIND STRENGTH  TO CARRY 
ON ,BABY  ALL THE HOPE I HAD 
IN FINDING YOU WAS ALMOST 
GONE..  THEN WHEN I SAW 
ACROSS THE  ROOM I KNEW 
THAT IT WAS ON , COME BE MY 
QUEEN I'LL BE YOUR KING WHO 
NEVER DOES YOU WRONG, SO 
LIGHT A CANDLE AND WE 
GONNA FREAK UNTIL THE 
BREAK OF DAWN..  UNPLUG 
THE PHONE , AND CLOSE THE 
BLINDS SO WE CAN GET IT 
ON....


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A Girl in Singapore

I'm so excited like a kid in a candy store.
My jaw hit the floor.
       When I saw that gorgeous girl across the world in Singapore!
I'll be that heavenly pearl knocking at your hearts door.
       Gwen are you going to open up and let me in?
Can you hear the mandelin?
       Your love and friendship I'm determined to win.
Take you to a place you've never been, but always wanted to go.
       If you're Juliet,  I'm your Romeo!
Cupid has hunted me down with a crossbow.
       I wonder if love can be felt across the seas,
and distant countries?
       I just want to be secure and free.
Give one girl every inch of me.
       I believe that "we", "you and me", are connected heart to heart.
You are my counterpart.
       We even share the art, from Eminem to Mozart!
Although I'm an inmate, who's to say we aren't soulmates?
       Let me illustrate.
After reading your letter I get so high I begin to levitate.
       My soul begins to regenerate.
Looking at your picture my heart begins to accelerate!
       So I'll take this new energy and explore.
Only to adore, that gorgeous girl in Singapore!


Note: This piece was written for a beautiful shy girl named "Gwen".
She's an exceptional writer as well!  I'll see you Gwen.....


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Repitition, My Boy

When I think “next time I’ll”
And realize there will not be a next time,
A pressure pain twists my head a notch.
A mistake unfulfilled by repetitious learning.

A twinge says: if there is a next time,
You will err next time.
And if you err next time,
And you happen along the same path again,
Under mostly the same circumstances,

Ah,
Then,
My Boy,
Then you will learn for good.

He continues:

But that’s the small lesson,
And so see it now.
Perhaps you repeat the mistake.

Now
Think of the larger fracture
The event that lent your mistake.
Can you spot the break?

Point it on the print-out.
Were it an x-ray,
Would you worry malpractice?

You may get a call six-months time:
Misdiagnosis; there was no break.
Take off the smelly, itchy cast.
Hit the showers.
Soapy clean.

But in the amnesia,
Recall your other half.
Admit to guesswork.
Think how seldom you trust speculation.

You
The rational one
My Boy
Stroked it off easily this time.


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I win You lose.

Stalker of the night,
Evil one of the day.
One who haunts my dreams.
And wishes to rob me of my soul. 
You who try to break me. 
I am not who you want me to be am I? 
You push to the ground yet while I am there I will not grovel. 
As I live out my dreams, I see your words breaking them down.
I stare at your face and wish to see the source of your hate.  
I see anger, hate, disgust and I wonder why.
In your eyes, I see the true I look at them and see myself in your eyes. 
I see a girl who you could never tame.
I see a girl who you pushed down and yet she rose. 
I see a girl who you could never love.  
I see a girl who reminds of your mistakes. 
I see a warrior and maybe that is why you hate me.  
I am not the submissive little daughter you wish me to be. 
I am stronger than any wind from the east. 
I am not quiet and shy.
I am vocal and playful. 
You tried to break my soul and you  robbed me of  my innocence.
You put me in tears…you caused me great pain.
You are what nightmares are made of.
Yet I have survived.
I am everything you could never be.
I stand and to you I say thank you.
Thank you for teaching me to survive by being the dictator I had to overcome. 
Thank you for pushing me down for it  made getting up so much sweeter. 
Thank you for turning my family against me because now I know that I can survive 
on my own. 
Thank you Monster for teaching me that my greatest weapons aren’t  physical nor 
verbal…that they lay in me.
You taught me that my greatest weapons are: my will to survive, my unwavering 
faith and my love. 
You haven’t broken me down…instead you made me stronger.
I win. You lose. 




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Whatz Love

Chorus:
Whatz Love-Does it mean anything in your mind
Tough Times-With that one girl in your life
Whatz Love-So many dayz have passed by
Tough Times-Sleeping by yourself every night
Whatz Love-Baby-Whatz love to you

Verse:
Love is a word
That holds two hearts together
Never separated in spirit
Holding each other forever
Never confused
‘Cuz you’re my soul mate
I thank the Lord 
For sending a beautiful angel to hold me
This never was a role play 
A life long dream of romance
Tryin’ to hold on
Her love is the only way
It’s like Novocain
To numb and ease the pain
But still I feel that “cold rain”
That’s when my flows change
Can’t you see my words contain
So much sentimental value
Still lovin’ everything about you
Whatz love baby
Whatz love to you

Chorus:
Whatz Love-Does it mean anything in your mind
Tough Times-With that one girl in your life
Whatz Love-So many dayz have passed by
Tough Times-Sleeping by yourself every night
Whatz Love-Baby-Whatz love to you

Verse:
Love can mean a lot of things
Good and bad
Sometimes leads to diamond rings
Thatz never sad
Beautiful sparks
Maybe broken heartz
But right now
Itz just you and me
In this world of Godz
Alwayz prayin’ for strength
When we’re apart
Lonely thoughts in my head
Sad remarkz 
Love wordz never said
All our special times
Dreamin your body 
Close to mine
Thatz what makes love real
So tell me baby 
How do you feel
Whatz love baby
Whatz love to you


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Little Girls

The once was a little girl
She lived in a little world
With big people and big places
She laughed and she played
Rode bikes in the summer, and would sled in the winter
Life was simple, bruises were boo boo's
And Santa Clause came alive every Christmas Eve 
But the little girl turned into a woman 
The innocence of a child turned to the wisdom of an adult 
Bruises were bruises
And she herself, became a child's image of Santa
She has a little girl of her own
History, all the same, for all the little girls


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I used to be

I used to be a geek. 
There's nothing bad about that. 
But I just want you to see the drastic changes i've been through. 
You see I used to be alone. 
No friend in sight. No one cared about the girl who stayed quiet and silent. 
I was in a deep depression cause no guys would look at me.
I was completely envious and jealous of the girls who seeked attention and received it.
Thoses girls used to be my worst enemies. 
It's funny how they became my best friends.
How quickly they came once I become ok with myself.
Once I stopped caring so much what others thought.
Once I got a sense of fashion. 
People flock to those who embrace themselves, people flock to people they can relate to.
Now I don't want to make it all sound like an instant transformation cause truly to get these 
people's acceptance I had to change everything that I stood for. 
Change my quietness to loud and my shyness to bold. 
Change my baggy pants in to tight and my no name in to designer.
Strighten out the naps and lotion up the bruises.
I had to throw all my mixed up emotions in a closet and lock the door for good.
Now the new me seems like all i've ever been.
The new me seems like home. 
Now I critcize girls who look how I used to be... now i'm the dime piece every guy wants. 
Now i'm the girl with tons of friends and it's not just image. 
They really truly have embraced me.
    But there are sometimes in my new life and my body that I wish I could go back to that 
invisable geek because sometimes being under a daily microscope gets tiring.  Sometimes I 
wish I could go back to how I used to be. But things can never be the same. This is from a 
former known geek. 



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Silent

Silent as you are
As the night
When it's dark and dim
When the nights all you've got
The only one there to listen
The silence that cares so much
The one thing in the whole world
The one thing that can make a poor
Sad girl feel loved
The girl that sits in the corner of her room
Scribbling the poetry of a million lost souls
That finds their way into her mind
Speak the language of the dead
Just be silent
But not silent enough
All the images that race through her head
The images of the blood hitting the walls
In her mind she plots the death
Of everything that she fears
The death she wants to cause
The hate she feels in her own heart
For the family she doesn't know
The family that she feels fading away from her
Away from each other       
All in the silent of her mind


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A Couple of Grams of Heart

A COUPLE OF GRAMS OF HEART


Step right up,
See the man, the man with a heart,
weighs no more than an ounce or two.
Broken in all the wrong places,
but there are no right places to be broken, apart.
Watch him dance, try him at cards
see if he is not just as much man as you -

with only a couple of grams of heart.

Love has torn him apart
this man with so little heart,
ripped him a-shred and asunder.
He knew right from the start
if he'd just acted his part
the part where he gave up all
the truth in his heart -

there would be lightning to pay for the thunder.

He'd be brave if he could,
put on a big show, a show to end them all.
But he just does not have enough in his shirt
to stand up in spite of the fear and the hurt,
and dare to look out over the wall,
to risk the question that makes him so small -

will you love me, just as I am, after all?


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Locked Up

Locked up in a world of my own
The stress across my face is shown.
I am tempted to do whatever I can
To make this feeling be banned.
I am stressed, I am tired
My mind is so fired.
A girl who needs to scream
A girl who needs to let it out.
A girl who is so stressed
A girl who has just confessed.
The world is spinning sideways
For my eyes are crying.
I am a girl locked up in a world.
Schools on my back making it worse.
My love life feels as if it has a curse.
Every little thing adds right onto it
All I do is hide, I won't throw a fit.
But be careful because I might take it out on you
So don't make me feel anymore blue.
Cause I am just a girl locked in a world.
Stressed with needles going through my mind.
I lie upon my bed thinking of what I did wrong.
Why do I deserve all this pain?


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Women Power

Don't you dare look at her
with those dreadful eyes
if you think she'll be frightened
in your dreams you'll hear your own cries

Dont underestimate her strength
her dexterity is more then you
about her corporeal and mental power
hey insensate man-you have no clue

if you think you are supercilious
you better change your thinking
in reality you're vicious
proudness is what with which you're teeming

Your woman is your life
at your every step she will be with you
its your duty to respect her
she'll be always by her husband's side-yes that's true

you harass her, you kill her
you burn her alive
she has to face the consequences
she is the one who always strives

But mind you she wont let a tear flow down
her actions will be dynamic
your truculent behavior wont stop her
from heading towards the tallest peak

If you ever break her heart into pieces
she wont remember you as the one who broke her heart
But rather the one who taught her
to live with a broken heartDon't you dare look at her
with those dreadful eyes
if you think she'll be frightened
in your dreams you'll hear your own cries

Dont underestimate her strength
her dexterity is more then you
about her corporeal and mental power
hey insensate man-you have no clue

if you think you are supercilious
you better change your thinking
in reality you're vicious
proudness is what with which you're teeming

Your woman is your life
at your every step she will be with you
its your duty to respect her
she'll be always by her husband's side-yes that's true

you harass her, you kill her
you burn her alive
she has to face the consequences
she is the one who always strives

But mind you she wont let a tear flow down
her actions will be dynamic
your truculent behavior wont stop her
from heading towards the tallest peak

If you ever break her heart into pieces
she wont remember you as the one who broke her heart
But rather the one who taught her
to live with a broken heart


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Lord Have Mercy

Lord have mercy on my soul
I know you never you wanted to see your your son walking in the cold
Hanging out in the slums, 
I have hundreds of thousands of dollars why am I hanging with bums, it's hard to make
decisions the struggle is where I'm from 
So much hurt, so much pain,  
 Sad and evil thoughts won't leave my brain.
 I treat everyone with love, but they rather treat me like I'm in enslavement, 
My life ain't been right since I saw my foster brother lying dead on the pavement
Lord please steer my ship, cause the path in headed my spirit can no longer take the labor
Your prophet told me whatever I ask of you, you shall grant cause I have the spirit of
Christ and for me I'll always have favor, 
Thanks for the financial blessings lately but those gifts I can not savor 
cause I'm running to my past and running away from future, running away from dreams
running away from the girl you chose for me as my queen
I stayed strong, and moved on, but I wish I could go back to the day I lost it
When she hit me in the face and told never to hit again
Lord you know I was abused as a child, so me getting defensive when hit, wasn't right
cause by talking it could of made our problems solvable
But the way I said things made my actions deplorable
I pray to Jesus that he can give us an audible 
Even though she hurt me deep, even though I don't want her, when I lay down to sleep you
keep putting her in my visions
It's making it hard for me to move forward and make some new decisions
Lord why have you stuck this girl to heart like a leech
It even brought a tear to my eye when I had another girl take her place for reservations I
made for us at Myrtle Beach
Even though I had a great time there the feeling was bittersweet
I'll try my hardest to do your will, even though a girl I will not beseech
I ask that you make it easier caused everything I attained I had to toil
Even if things don't go my way I will forever stay loyal
And Lord Bless me to still have love for those that does things purposely to hurt me
Even though I'm disobedient at times, I pray for my soul that you The Lord Have Mercy.


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Darkened Night

On this darkened night...
It's no wonder why the world can't see
This girl they never did meet.
She's running through the alley
She's running and her heart is racing
She knows not of where to hide
from the Pain.
The Pain is chasing after her,
Sucking her life away.
And on this darkened night 
This girl continues to pray,
As she's fighting for the air,
"God hurry and bring upon the day"...
"God please stop the Pain before it's too late!"
The world is so blind
When it's the pain that's chasing her.
It's times like these
That I don't want to understand.
This girl is alone as she pleads
For any helping hand.
And it's things like this that always seem
to happen on a darkened night.
So the world can't see through a beautiful day.
What gives their soul a fright.
Still this girl needs someone
She's running out of places to run.
The pain gets closer and closer
Still she keeps praying for the sun.
And just as the day begins to break through
The pain did exactly what is sought out to do.
On this darkened night
It's no wonder why the world 
would never meet 
This girl who is now unable to breath
There was nobody around to stop the pain
On this darkened night
And to know that the world can't see
Darkness can be so scary 
And everyone gets a turn to be
chased eventually
When my time is-
I don't want to know when
though I wish I did
So I could tell a friend.
I don't want to be alone
On my darkened night
Deep inside I know I'll be on my own
For this fight.
But when it's over
At least I know God will be on the other side
He'll be there to brighten up
What was once 
A darkened night.
And in this place
I'll be able to still breath
In God's world...
What we know as heaven
The pain will never reach me.
And in this world
There will be no wondering why
Why the world can't see
For there's only happiness in heaven-
No pain will ever again
Be chasing me
On a darkened night.


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The pursuit

  Me and you flat like melted butter. You on top of me, me on top of you. We create a sandwich 
just us two and all that's on my mind is what I want to do. No other inturruptions, No loud 
contridictions telling me to stop cause I want this. Can't nothing disturb this process of releasing 
my oppression. Can't nothing prevent this pure hot aggression. A passion so strong im almost 
fighting you cause your not taking me fast enough. Im tired of this lock and chain that I have 
been carrying around for centuries. All I see is that im locked and have you have the key. Im 
offering myself and your willing. Nothing can ruin my plan. It's going to happen. He's two inches 
away from the goal, my whole body is shivering and he sure is delivering like promised.  2 or 3 
more seconds and I would have been pure no more until the door slammed open and his girl 
walked in and witnessed the whole scene what a perdicament. Now it's me him and her and if 
looks could kill I would be dead but that last part wasn't a joke she just pulled out a blade and im 
afriad. He told me he didn't have no girl I thought as I struggled to detach myself from tangle 
sheets. His girl's face showed it all and I knew I was in for some trouble. I could tell that her 
motto was no regrets and she wouldn't have a problem burying me in her families cemetery. 
This is some deep ---- and to think this is all because of my stupid pursuit to lose my virginity.


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Soul battle

I have a battle within my soul
It creeps up to my brain
which magically pushes a button
and trickes down the tears
I have a battle in my feet
cause they can't stop running
and I have a battle within my heart
cause it doesn't know why it falls
I have a battle within my eyes
cause it can't see past the disguise
I have a battle within my noes
cause it doesn't seem to detect
how horrible his breath smells 
before he opens his mouth
I have a battle within
the good girl in me 
fights the bad girl 
and the bad girl kicks a.s.s sometimes
cause she wants the glamarous life
while the good girl just sit at home
            alone
I'm currently having a soul battle
where my reflection shouts 
and my mouth won't stop lying
  My insides are at war
     So don't you tell me to stop crying   



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Metamorphosis 1

Only the truth matters, only love-

neither notions of normalcy,
nor the cogent paradigm,

only heaven above 
is cogent, only 
her bow unbowed

she is my painter,
my muse lost
and found 

Love,
iridescent with the breath
of sunlit skies she shines eternal,
mine memory and mine sorrow
she cries the song of lost tomorrows-

I am wandering.







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Fear

It's boiling inside me like a big balloon that can't take anymore 
air or it will explode 
I'm trying to do my best to keep it in but it seem like nothing is working 
I pray and i pray and don't get me wrong i'm not gone stop praying 
because if i give up what 
is that telling myself that i did it for nothing and i plan not to look at 
myself like that. 
I look in the mirror to examine myself and tell me what do i see 
I see black beautiful girl trying to to do something with her life
I see a girl that is different from everybody i know in some way 
i believe that this girl i see is 
going to be something and somebody one day. 
I would love for people not to look at me for the color of my skin
 but for the character that i 
bring to you 
If you judge me before you get to know me then when you get to 
know me how would that 
make you feel cause i'm not a bad person no no my mother raise me 
better than that with 
the help from the lord 
But when i really examine myself i see a little girl thats stuck on the 
directions she should go 
and hardly can't find her way but thats ok i'ma make it and i hope 
that ya'll would pray for 
me 1 day yeah it's me the gurl in the mirror but the problem is that
 its my anger that keeps 
me in fear


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Is this my sentence

I'm reaching critical 
will the doctor please save me
Do I need to get hysterical 
before a blessing can re bath me
I should be eternally great full  
and trust me I don't need any confirmation
I just need a little blanket to sheild 
me from all this breaking
I fear taking an antidote 
because those things can make you crazy
You cure one major enigma 
but another one is chasing 
I want to know about my life
but a prophecy is too revealing
All I want to know is if these 
wounds I feel will eventually heal
So doctor take your time 
I'm maxing out all my life lines
I will be just fine 
I know I'm  far from the due date line
I'm just a young girl whose lost
I know this isn't anything new 
So what's the rush? 
It's just that these constant blows
Can confuse and eventually 
make a weak girl want to choose
 




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(Teen baby boom not cute)

Love 
is fragile
babies 
are cute
but add on their
burden 
and than the love
begins to fizzle
weaknesses
surface 
 
             like a soggy pancake
            that once tasted sweet
              your love is bitter now
            You sometimes imagine
               what it would be like 
                 if you had chosen
                    a different path 

Maybe you can at least
dream that this isn't your life
 the babies crying grows louder
maybe it's because she misses her father
The girl he sneaks off to see 
is young vibrant and free
the girl you use to be  

                 Your trapped feeling sorry
                  trying to be the mommy that you
                         thought you could be 
                                at eighteen 

Lies are what he told you
when he said he would be there
Your heart is what broke
now that you know he doesn't care
  
                  Your mom warned you that an abortion
                   would be the best way out 
                   but you were in love 
                   you guys were gonna be
                   the perfect family  
                   at least it's what you thought. 


Sometimes love is fragile 
and than there's the times 
when it didn't exist to begin with 



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Surreal Dreams of Her

So the day goes on
one bye to another
the one kills the con
and there is no more bother.
For my dear is gone
lost with the father
she breaks my bone
and the heart stops;
nothing I have anymore shows
and at my new time lows
it all shows.
Big old bothers and weird dreams
nightmares call on and it lingers
through crisp cool air
and I brush her hair with boney fingers.
She looks at me like a stranger
and it kills the show
as the curtain comes to final call.


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Healthy Full

Your a healthy girl my father says,
but my mother says loose weight!
Your legs are thick and shapely my lover says,
but my girlfriends say they quake!
Your a shapely girl my buddies say,
but my co-workers say you must like to eat!
You remind me of Jessica Rabbit my doctor said,
but my teacher says try to look more like Jessica Biel!
I'm fat or thick?
I'm shapely or big?
I'm five foot nine and weigh...never mind,
But people make up your minds!
am I healthy or am I too full?


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accidental observer

had a hankering for praline pecans &
so, as one with a hankering for praline
pecans will do, when the appropriate
funds are available & one has the time
to go praline pecan search, 
off to the grocery he went.

the first store didn’t have exactly what
he wanted & so back in the car & the
search continued, but rather than pop
from store to store, not finding the perfect
can, like Goldilocks & the porridge,
he settled for a bag of some fancy 
black pepper & cranberry pecan 
concoction, which while in reality
were probably better for him, they just
didn’t hit the mark, like the pralines
which he’d envisioned in his head
(and eventually in his stomach), only
a half hour or so before the
black pepper purchase.

rewind to right before he went up to
the register to buy the nuts & you
find him walking down an aisle in
which at the end, only a few paces away,
there stood a little girl, a toddler, pushing
one of those teeny lil’ carts which 
kids are able to push around beside their
parents.

now, her cart was pretty damn full &
the little girl had somehow got it
teetering, so now at this point she is
struggling to keep the cart from completely
falling over & the squealing scream/cry
that only a little girl can muster, starts to
emit from her mouth simultaneously 
with a reddening of the face, which is the
pre-balling cry period that children
seem to have.

our praline-seeker, he sees the child screaming
& ponders the scenario, that if her ran to
help the child, the parent might not 
appreciate a stranger in the midst of their
most precious, while on the other hand,
it’s perfectly possible that she will let the
cart fall over & cause her some kind of
pain---either way, the child is not the
responsibility of the praline-seeker,
so he simply watches the event unfold
as he continues down the aisle in her
direction at a casual walking pace.

within seconds, the father & his even
younger daughter (being dragged by her
arm round the corner of the other aisle)
come to help out the struggling child & 
suddenly her screaming stops, with all
the pre-balling cry reddening 
disappearing, as if nothing had happened---
the father looks up, smiling a stressed
out smile at the praline-seeker and 
gets down to the level of his child, 
brushing hair out of her face &
telling her it’s going to be alright.

as all three of them move on round the
corner to the next aisle, our praline-
seeker stops & decides on the black
pepper & cranberries. 


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Sugar coat

This pain in my heart 
goes far beyond my pout 
I'm in need of a drainage 
that's how deep the bleeding 
in my soul is raining
I used to be a nice girl
Now I'm the statistic

I never knew how far 
the transmorphication had gone
until I saw the disappointment
in my mother's eyes
It showed me I was less loved
They flickered cold and sad
When they rested upon me 
As if she remembers 
the daughter she once had
I'm disappearing and it's quite sad

I remember what I used to be 
This new girl shall be the death of me
Sin leaked in through open wounds
pretending to soothe 
I trusted it's deceit
I liked what evil was doing to me
Such power oh what a rush
never seeing that inside I was changing

God no longer laid any fingers on this
future delinquent that I was becoming
the shimmer in my eyes went out 
like two dead light bulbs 
and I barely survived the struggle
Before I realized how deep 
the devil had pulled me under

I know now that I need my mother
I'm not gonna sugar coat the pain
cause life isn't candy it's demanding 
and it can turn a good girl out
Like pimps do to their prostitutes 
and I wonder everyday if I will continue to sway
I grow numb thinking about what 
will happen if I don't make a change


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Sheltered Dream

One fine Saturday night sheltered went to play
They called the game jumping poles for adults
With a little too much down the gut with luck
Recommend by the bottle he carefully tucked;

Went to replace a naughty girl on a pole dance
Eagerly the crowed whistled lured by the sight
The lone girl looked awed to his coming plight
Pushed on the ramp he lost the bottle in flight;

What a sight he fumbled with the buttons tight
Holding on to the pole by his trembling knees 
Winks flew as the girl jumped to help him strip
Souvenirs quickly tossed as bouncers moved in.

A memento strip went to each chosen customer   
Lol how I envy them; disenchanted without one.


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To her

Amazed yet proud to see her be
  comfortable, relaxed, no matter where effortlessly,
to be her would be what any body would want to be
  to fill free at peace with who she is and safe knowingly,
my every thing when she was born like daddy's girl should be
  now a wonderful preteen and a person unknowingly,
my biggest heartbreak is what I could see her be
  for my little girl will be swept away respectfully,
for all that her mother and I have done for her to be
  a little girl this special happiness should be her destiny,
a head of her the best times of her life is what will be
  for now I'll keep her right here very lovingly.


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It's Happy Father's Day?

I wish you could see
Just how beautiful your daughter is
And when her heart
Is tickled
She smiles
Just like 'you'
I wish you were here
to tell her
That her daddy loves her

That girl is me
And now im just another
Lost girl....

How am I to know
A King
When you never showed
Your crown
Instead I love a man
Who throws me down
Or either my love
Is in vain
Only to hide
From the pain
But I refuse
To be another
Lost girl

Im a survivor
Im a fighter
Highly favored
To blessed
To be stressed
And I will make it
I won't be
Another lost girl

But through this all
I have learned
Resilience
I stand with my head high
I don't have to be
Another lost girl
And neither do you...
So fight
And don't every feel like
You can't be your dreams
Dont be another girl lost...

I wish you could see
Just how beautiful
I am
When my heart
Is tickled
I smile
Just like you
I wish you were here
To tell
That my daddy loves me


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Girl

In my mind there stands a girl
Beautiful and brave
Kind and intelligent
She is all I wish I could be
All that I think he needs
She is everything I wish for him
A loving wife
A great mother
She stands by him always
Knows just what he needs
She is the perfect woman to raise his family with
That girl is who I want to be
I wish I could be her for him
But I'm just me
A scared girl that never knows the right words
I look in the mirror and see too many flaws
I don't ever think I could be enough
But I have his heart all the same


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PeoplePleaseTheyDiffer

PeoplePleaseTheyDiffer 
PeoplePleaseTheyDiffer 
 
a differ song 

Salt And Peepers Yin and Yankee... 
all of us are just too many people suffer in the shaded oasises while long knives 
wait as ninjas making promises to GOD. 
One man smiles his KNOWING at me another shoots them daggers in me they 
both make promises that they can't keep me with the horror of they lust. Eye like 
children best at how they trust us. A little girl is singsonging and her mother is in 
horror at the man for he must HATE the little girl for making noises WAIT this old 
man loved it he was never very mean about it but secretly he hummed his 
breathe to match the song the little one has hummed. Thinking now only good 
thoughts of his GOD and how some people are just young and how they have 
that innocence of youth just keep the little girl from growing old OH WENDY 
WENDY WENDY please just learn to fly to never ever land with peter pan 
and she is making every word she speaks into a rhyme for she is the offspring of 
the wine the very poese and this poet the loving daughter of mye mamsie she is 
so very in mye heart a world apart but ever near me sometimes she seems to be 
left in me in the places next to mother held so dearly one man HARD as stone 
another yeilding growing older in the recess of the conquest of his time. 
Sometimes it seems this poem could go on forever for this poet would just stay 
and type these words forever and hum a differ song. ...yes ewe its for MARY.




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Your Worst Nightmare

I'm your worst nightmare 
come true;
I'm the one that knows you;
I can see you,
inside and out, 
I'm the girl you dream about,
I'm the one who 
gave you your first kiss, 
I'm the one you just realized 
you missed;
I'm your soul and you are mine
our destinies are entwined;
I'm the one that you loved so much
and yet, you pushed away;
I'm the girl who loved you ,
and whose love you feared would kill you
I'm your worst nightmare
 come true
simply because I know you


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HAVE YOU SEEN HER?

The coffee shop was quiet
Much quieter than last week
When I last saw her,
Which was also the first time
But in those seven days
She has filled my every thought
I have haunted the coffee shop everyday
But I haven’t seen her again
And today once more
There is no sign of her
I should ask the waitress
But what would I say
“Have you seen that girl?
She was here a week ago
The girl who was sat there
In that easy chair
The girl with the chestnut hair
In a pixie cut, have you seen her”?
How ridiculous would that sound?
She would think me mad
Or worse a stalker
Maybe if I told her about her smile 
A smile to brighten the darkest day
Or those green eyes
Hypnotic and mesmerising,
Or that soft velvet laugh
But no I would just sound creepy
So I order a coffee instead
And sit in her corner
Drinking my coffee
While pondering my insanity
“Do you mind if I join you”?
A voice halted my musings
It was her, my quarry
She was here and she was speaking to me
“Absolutely, please do”
I replied rather pompously
“I love this corner” she said
“I like to sit and watch the world go by”
We exchanged a smile
But now she was actually here
I was speechless and my head was spinning
And I felt a little guilty
For stalking her like prey
Then, in a soft easy tone
She spoke again, which put me at my ease
“Didn’t I see you in here last week?”


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The Heard Tale Retold-I

You have heard the tale,
That is couched in wails,
There was a beautiful girl,
Who swished her skirts in a swirl,
Impressed a prince,
Looked deep in his eyes,
And went for a spin,
They were in love,
Like two forlorn doves,
They hid their moorings well,
Before hell broke pell mell,
The king came to know peccadillo of his son,
He straight went for his royal gun,
Not satisfied at that,
He caught the poor girl alone and flat,
Looking at the insolence of love,
In the girl’s eyes,
King froze in anger and decided to vent his might,
He ordered for the girl to be buried alive,
And she was buried as she shed tears in hapless drive,
She flagellated and struggled her tiny frame,
But could not help the mighty pain,
Those muscled executioners,
Pinned her down,
As the mason completed his rounds,
Epitaphed and buried ,
The girl was a forgotten play for the prince,
Who frolicked along making his way to throne.


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An Unsheathed Dagger

The tear cut across the page
It's cry pierced the silence
Then another
Bitterness in each hand, finger
Finally
Parts left of a veiled note, about me
contents opened for me, for me
Anger lacing the uneven edges

Betrayal had danced upon the lines
Taunting
Across the page, each line was a stab
Into my back

A cold-eyed girl with a blunt sword
Of hurtful words
and
A fair-skinned girl with a shining shield
That broke
Both stand by my side, but one drifts away
Wrote those nettles of words
Each momentarily paralyzed me
Tranquialized
Until the end

Undecisive
was I
Wether to scream in mocking anger
Or cry, betrayal
But realization surfaced
Cold eyes belong in dark depths
Away from the light, the innocent

Forgiveness was a smile of the past 
A sweet thing, it was
But time itself had been another chance
After the many millions

A sheen of frigid ice settled 
My heart
A silent flame burned away 
My tears
I could have shed
But by now I was someone else
Someone filled with hate,
Pride

The new sheet I pulled out
Was clean
And my stiff words of truth 
Spilled onto it's white innocence
and
Tainted it with darkness
Tainted it with poison
The poison of the words I held back
For decades 













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A friend

I was the girl that sat around and listened to everyone, who laughed when others 
did, who talked only when spoken to, I sat in the corner and wrote about my 
felling to scare to say anything. I was the girl who cried herself to sleep at night 
hoping everything would be alright.
I kept up my guard and didn’t let anyone in
I thought I could do this all on my own or maybe it was because I was to scared 
to let people in and because I was hurt to many times before, my pain is 
something that I don’t want to deal with again I didn’t want to be hurt again I don’t 
want to be left alone, but for some reason I let you into my life and trusted you 
and told you things I thought I would never talk about again you showed me that 
you wanted to know about me and that you cared. I hope I wasn’t to open. 
Sometimes my life scares people sometimes it even scares me. But you didn’t 
judge you sat there with an open heart and teary eyes, you felt the pain that I felt 
and you became my friend. I know that I can come to you when the darkness 
closes in and I don’t see the light or when I am falling and know that you will be 
there to grab my hand and help me pull myself back up thanks for being my friend


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May Girl

May Girl
I went into the jewellry shop to sell my dead mum's jewels. I saw you there, looking like the Goddess of Spring or like you'd been to a wedding. Your hair tied up and flowers in it. Wearing a white top, so Art Noveau.                                                                                    
Faint hint of make up, torquoise eye liner, red lipstick. Stylish black mini skirt, the right length. And your legs... legs of a Goddess. You remind me of my mum, when she was young and pretty. Her image caught in old photos.                                                                                              
You confirmed that not all local girls are nasty.


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Little Things

She wonders about me so pitifully misinformed
But I'd rather she despise me than let her know the truth
A crazy decision; doesn't make sense and
I wonder what she thinks I'm doing
Can't even explain it to myself

Consequences, I'm missing so much of so little
Meaningless glances, mindless chatter
Turns to gossip, I listen intently and don't care about these people
Laughably solemn declarations of superiority
Such a modest arrogance
I must confess; somehow it's worth the struggle to bump into her

Wish she could see how she looks when she's sleeping
Sheets clutched over breath, a contented sigh
Then she could understand why
I watch her, take in every element of her

I like the tiny jumpers over old school shirts
Somewhere underneath she's still the same
The only girl I ever fell for
And when I try to get up, trip, stumble
I just keep falling
Bows and bracelets, no-one else exists
Such a girl as distinctive as this

She fills all my sketchbooks, notepads, journals
I can read her anytime

And then when she walks, puts out her arms for me, happily shuffles
Little things, not particularly attractive
There's not a part of her I could condemn

But forget it all.

I don't see her anymore.
Can't talk anymore.

And all the world is watching this fail; they all know.
Not one lets her in.

If she can't see, can't feel, can't sense it
Maybe that's supposed to be for the best
Or so I'm convincing myself.

You have friends, family, money.
You've got everything going for you.
So I'm happier than anyone
Wouldn't make sense any other way
And of course I want for nothing more
Days spent with kindly faces, good intentions, making memories

Hope she's jealous of this perfect life
She has no place in.



If I wasn't laughing I'd be crying.


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drunk of love

Walking along in the city park
Looking up the sky that’s getting dark
A story of a couple gets a shot from a love angel
A picture perfect from every angle

Their love makes the sky tumbling down
Never expected that they’re just twenty-one
In their age of fooling around
Their love blooms in the summer ground

The man stares the woman’s face
He sees a picture of a beautiful place
Hold her smooth-skinned hands
Asking her to dance even though he can’t

This boy falls from the highest mountain
Falls down to the deepest sea he’ll sustain
He will do anything what the girl says
Dresses up in black suit in vintage’s way

And then he sings…

“I think of you all night and day “
“I think that you filled all my way”
“I think you step on the heart of mine”
“And I’d say that’s fine…”

A simple kiss would make him trill
A romantic dinner will make them chill
The boy gives her a diamond ring
The girl knows this is the finest thing

He says to the girl he had a dream last night
Dreaming of their dancing under the moonlight
A massive Indian dancer with his melodic song
And we are laughing and dancing all night long


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Behind Theses Hazel Eyes

Behind these hazel eyes is a broken heart,
a young girl being ripped apart,
hidden pains tearing her up inside and out,
killing her softly about,
screaming lies haunting her soul,
hitting her so hard and taking its deadly tole, 
but deep inside she's a hopeless child trying 2 survive,
making her way in life so she doesn't break down and cry,
Behind these hazel eyes,
is little girl in deskies, 
faking a smile so everyone gets there way,
she wants to die now any day,
this girl you call names  is just a poser trying to make it through life,
trying to be popular by making a sacrifice, 
this girl tries to laugh,
tries to share ones joke,
until they tare her down,
now she's broke,
Behind these hazel eyes is a sad girl blind,
cause she did not see her self going out of her mind,
this girl you hate,
this girl has no hope only fate,
this girl u see,
is not really there,
she's just a broken heart just standing there,
the girl u love to be with,
u think she's fake,
and hidden beneath your eyes you think she's just a big mistake


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Freedom's Song O' Joy

I sing a song O' joy
For antiquated times
O' how the people did fly...

Searching the starry skies
Listening for the babes cry
Still, sing I must O' joy...

Liberty frees girl and boy
Father's search the nights
A new mother soon sighs...

Viewing contemptible lies
Tearing at our young’s lives 
Yet, we sing the songs O ‘joy

Liberty’ freed girl and boy
As we hear the babes cry
A tear is shed from mine eye

Once as girls and boys so forlorn
Now as men and women 
Standing tall and strong

O‘ joy, we‘re singing -- Freedom’s Song
All eyes are on the prize
Because the people did fly…
We sing your song O’ Joy


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B G J

Take a sip, dip your fingertips in it,  take a swig, don’t drink too much just a taste 
of the lust. In your mouth you will feel the sensation the embration and the motion 
of it all  in your mind this BGJ will takeover, it will take you to another place
 maybe even put a smile on your face. It will make you so in touch with your skillz,  
the lack of it will make you kill. Peanut-butter, caramel, mocha, dark chocolate, 
white chocolate  all sorts of flavors and kinds 
It tastes so sweet, it makes our life complete. It takes you to another world when 
you get a taste of this black girl.
It’s what your life is made of, it’s even said black girl juice is better than love
It’s the sweetest thing around, but the best of the BGJ is downtown 
You will forever crave for this BGJ because it gives you the use of your knowledge 
and skillz 
It’s calling your name so much you cant deal to be away from it for too long cause 
the BGJ is so strong
Only the most special girls hold the BGJ power inside and since every black girl 
is special this such good stuff cant hide
 Any special black girl can provide you with this feeling that takes your breath 
away. You can sip, swig and dip all day. Stay hooked on this such good stuff 
through the rain and STORMS 
 This BGJ will stay the same sweetness, petiteness, bitterness that puts you at 
your weakness 
They say the blacker the berry the sweeter the juice 
Well even the light skinned to almost white tend to be the same BGJ 
So don’t be choosy still don’t go with the cheapest floosey 
Go with most of the things outside still see past it all and see that this black girl
 has a lot of BGJ inside…1996"


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Quickstudy

 Quickstudy 
Quickstudy 
 
 
Have you ever asked someone for help with homework and got dissed they say 
whoa you want my help or you are just wanting me to DO THIS? There is no way 
to stay a friend the girl is not the best and she is married to her test she cannot 
aid and abet the criminal in you she will not make an animal of you she will not 
help you and it is likely that you will fail in life at everything you do and falter and 
then fall no motor car no stall to buy and sell no you are a cheater after all is said 
and done there is no one that can do the work you want the girl is on her phone 
now to everyone that she shares numbers with to tell them you're a bum. And 
then the time for class has come and you do not have the answers you wrote 
them on the bones of all the people that you killed to be someone go and read 
them after dark in the text of wishing land to be a doctor or a doctor here or a 
doctor there. 



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PRIORITIES

Name brand designer clothes: Gucci, Fendi,
L.-V, Versace, Prada, and more. Name brand 
things is what she adores. So what ! She can
not pay the rent . It's not the neighbors business 
that the lights and water are turn off.
  This is why the kids are at her mothers house.
Don't get it twisted this girl is not lazy or crazy.
Her priorities are all mixed up. She claims that
she works a job; that doesn't pay enough.
  This girl desires a lifestyle she can not afford.
Her Lexus was repossessed yesterday, and 
she feeln' somewhat gray.
She rides the bus without any fuss. Remember-
ing  the conversations of her friends.The abund
ance of things don't mean  anything . When your
kids go without ; and you're  put out of your house.
name brand things are nice in their proper place.


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I Wish I Had a Chance With You

I wish I had a chance with you
My love would be so true

I know I am not the girl who is right for you
And it makes me so blue

The girl you are with is the luckiest girl I ever knew
Maybe her love is true

But if she should ever break your heart
Just know that I'll be there
To mend the broken part

I know I will never have a chance with you
But my love is true


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Music to her ears

Headphones sizes too big
For the little girl in red
Mother smiles as she listens as her child sings

Needle sizes too big
For the little girl in red
Mother swallows tears as she watches as her child winces

Burden sizes too big
For the little girl in red
Mother applaudes as her daughter, her child, bravely bears all

Remission
Victory
A cure






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Cotton Candy Girl

   She's cotton candy sweet a whole line to buy her as hungry boys waited patiently. But 
Once they got to the front of the line and handed her their money and took a bite out of 
her they tasted staleness and there's no receipt. No refunds just move on so the next 
sucker can pay for their idealistic fantasy. She can transform into god if she wanted to 
while the guys admire her from a far everything seemed picture perfect. That's the 
problem no one's perfect sick and tired of immature guys judging only on looks. They get 
upset after they try it and it's not as good as it seems spitting out the contents they 
get angry and mean. Let down by the cotton candy girl they try to rap to the milkshake 
and the Oreo all leaving them resenting that they ever consented to them. Now poor eraser 
girl walks down the block it's love at first sight because not only is she special there 
is more to her than her sugar coating. Inside and out she had a heart that only breathed 
compassion; a brain that gave her reason and wisdom. Her beauty was the last thing on her 
mind, in fact she needed someone to tell her before she could realize just how wonderful 
she was. No cotton candy girl in her but the resemblance was remarkable. She gave no 
tooth aches or staleness. Her heart was available for free and she would always share no 
matter how small the bundle. The guy was mesmerized as he glared deeply into her eyes. He 
felt foolish and felt a smirk coming on at his stupidity for ever wanting a cotton candy 
girl.


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We can talk

 We can talk for hours about nothing and everything at the same time
   were so different but so similar
       I am what she looks like on the inside
         The quiet confused girl she tries to hide
           She is the loud outspoken confident and bold me
               the me that I keep inside cause 
                  i'm afraid people will judge me
                 We balance each other out 
                   My bold side which is my true side
                    persuades and feeds her scared girl side
                    So she can go on being what people are used to
                      she saves me from unleashing the truth
                                      The girl I really am
                               She helps me contain myself
                                   I help her maintain her image  
                                    I'm the only one who knows 
                                       how scared she really is
                                      she is the only one who knows 
                                        how explosive I really can be 
                                                  We can talk
                                               about anything 
                                              Cause she knows my inner girl 
                                                   I'm best friends with her inner world
                                                      and together we clash
                                                          Her bold
                                                             me quiet
                                                            and were fine 
                                                              Cause we can talk 
                                                         


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The Girl of My Dreams

Your face,
A majestic visualization of perfection,
right in front of me.
I feel like I am loosing you,
losing you to the dark unknown ,
and I do not know how to respond.
Should I be sad,
or should I feel honored to have been in your presence for so long.
We talked the day away,
it made us numb to all the faults in the world.
The cold weather reminds me of you.
It reminds me of the times that you and I were together
Now you are just a memory,
a distant figment of my imagination that I hold so very close to my heart.
I have been drinking every night, 
not enough to get me intoxicated,
but enough to numb the pain of being deprived of you.
You fled,
like a criminal,
away from me just as we became inseparable.

E. L. Wald


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I SAW A GIRL (PARTII)

She walked away free.... 
Took my heart too.... 
Left me a kiss, I cannot forget 
If she only knew..... 
What she meant to me 

You searched for days.... 
To find a girl with golden hair 
Your heart  laid bare... 
The loving ways 

When you least expect... 
She finds you 
Looks at you too... 
What will you do next? 

Never lose the sense... 
Of wonderment... 
These words are true... 
It can happen to you.... 
Never relent... 
For a kiss.... 
From a girl with golden hair 
Leaves a heart laid bare 

I saw a girl.... 
Same as you.... 
She kissed me too.... 
The quiet murmurings of the heart 
Unfolding through 


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Vanity Pain

This is the story of a girl; nimble and short
She suffered from a thing called vanity pains
You see, she was the epitome of beauty
A pretty face in an ugly society
She was either too thin or too fat
During every diet she'd want a snack
She deprived herself of so many things
When in the end, she realized her vanity pains
Were what she needed in the first place

She needed a push, a boost up to the top
Up to the top of the ladder of confidence
No man could ever do such for a woman
For the woman has the ability to do it herself
She needed to take the pain out of her vanity
And rid her life of inane insanity

She wanted her stomach flat and her ego big
But how does your ego grow if your head is low?
The cure to vanity pains is to forget your looks
And have fun, maybe read a book
Maybe dance at a club; talk to the girls
Who cares about your thighs or the way your hair curls?
Only those with the vanity pains notice such things.


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"I wonder if she liked me?"

Are they really my friends?
Do they see?
The hurt they've caused me
The pain.
They misery.
The agony.
My wrists scared with depression
My heart forced to love them.
I don't know what to do,
What to think
I try to make them like me,
Yet still they don't 
Maybe someday they will see,
The actual me,
The girl who made it,
They girl who lived her dream.
They girl they thought,
I could never be
Maybe they will think
"I wonder if she liked me?"


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Timid Admirer

Every morning, every night, everyday
24/7 I think about you
Every second spent without you seem like forever
And I can't wait to see you again!

Whenever I see you
My heart jumps
And I try to keep my cool
Trying to not leak out
My feelings suddenly
But it gets harder each time I try
You don't how hard it is for me
To tell you how I feel
You don't know how much I want to kiss you
Now what should I do?

Every morning, every night, everyday
24/7 I think about you
Every second spent without you seem like forever
And I can't wait to see you again!

The times I practice
In front of the mirror
Trying to summon up courage
To at least get you
To be close to me
That way I'd feel at ease
My dreams seem easier than reality
And I wish it were that easy
But I can't keep cowering
I have to go head on...

Every morning, every night, everyday
24/7 I think about you
Every second spent without you seem like forever
And I can't wait to see you again...
You're the only girl that makes me feel this way
And no other girl can do that to me
That is why I must not be afraid anymore
And I can't wait to see you again!

I'm no longer afraid anymore...
I'm no longer scared anymore...
I'm no longer frightened anymore...


Details | Free verse | |

No dipping

  U see me and my boo were ready to do the do
      We planned the day  
    Discussed it thoroughly
        I was convinced that home boy really loved me
            So it was all cool 
          I was about to lose it to a incredible dude 
             There was going to be no regrets
                I anticipated his hands all over me 
                    He was gonna make a new woman of me 
                        The day finally came 
                    I undressed him and he undressed me 
                        As the passions ensued 
                     I could take no more 
                        I told him to put it on  
                           He said girl I left them next door
                              He didn't stop 
                               Doing his do
                              But I felt completely turned off
                                  I said so go next door 
                                    It's just across the hall
                                      He was like nah baby it's cool 
                                    I sware I don't got nothing
                                        Let me just put it in 
                                      By now I was completely shocked 
                                           I shoved him off me 
                                               as he tried to get on top
                                              He said chill baby girl next time I promise
                                                            I get paid next week
                                                  In my head I'm thinking what is this some 
                                                     kind of weekly installment type of thing?
                                                               He got condoms on layaway
                                                               Or something 
                                                        There aint gonna be no next time
                                                           Matter fact there aint gonna be no today
                                                                 I got off the bed, put on my clothes
                                                                 There simply will be no dipping without a condom