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Forever

Love arrived in Autumn like a Spring breeze,
Out of its time and out of its season,
Its dancing spirits left me ill at ease,
And the dark shadows, taunted my reason.

The green leaves that were my days before you,
Have drifted and faded and are no more.
The naive moments of white clouds on blue,
Have become remains on the forest floor.

The light and gentle glory was divine.
There was even a glimpse of forever,
But that which I was lent is never mine, 
We only borrowed the time together.

I have heard the loveliness in a song,
And tasted the exquisite fruits and fare,
But the prize that is stolen feels wrong,
And the promise of joy becomes despair.

Love lets us believe in eternity,
Like a white bird flying across the sky,
Forever is until you discard me,
Chasing another golden butterfly.


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Blood In The Breeze

Blood in the breeze 
Remember my name 
I am the one who you lost 
The one who won. 

Tears on the sunset 
You cried 
I escaped the shouts and 
Screams 

Heart on the sun 
I have you my all 
You spat on me 
And turned me to shame. 

Me in your arms 
Desolation and fire 
Hope and grief 
You taught me them all. 

Let me tell you
that now I'm happy 
Let me tell you 
That I don't care. 
Let me tell you that 
These lies are forced by you
Out of my shattered lips


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What Fear Fed On

Fear
The venom that rains
Got you
Drowning
In the desert
And a spirit
Weak in brevity
Strong but unbelieving
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

Society cuts
Flying wings
As to drain
The courageous soul
Of its hope
And then
People die
Rich with power
Power they never used
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

I see plain pain
In your eyes
Hurt laughing at you
You’re afraid
To ever love again
Because your past
Caused you wounds
So you walk agape
Running
In a cold escape
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

I see your dried tears
Inscribed
On your broken face
But a determination
You’ve been robbed of
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

So will you
Forever sulk
Forever your conscience bulk
In a pessimist bask?

Or will you
Your mantle take
And fear forever shake
For you live dead
When fear drives your head

That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you


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Oof





	
Oof

Don’t put your view all are blind
They can’t see ten or nine
They have determined they can find
Solution is already all know shrine

Bereave is not necessity it always dawns
Scarce barks all the day as unwelcome guest
Put your disguise on your veil
All viewed your deceitful hay

Shame on you for being that that
Looting always day by day
Poor creatures are suffocating
Swallowing your poisonous play.


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Loved at Points

I feel loved at points in my life
Sometimes I don't at all
I can be pushed around and yelled at daily
In the end, I always fall
I have never understood love
Or what it really meant
All I know is that love hurts
And that, I can't repent
I listen to my orders
I stand up straight and tall
Wishing someone would hear me
Knowing that I'm crying in the hall
Some days I just brush it off
Letting it all go
Being who I would like to be
But hiding in it all
I'm alone in my mind
But I know inside
I'm dying before your eyes


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A Veteran

I am what others didn't want to know
I went where others feared to go.
My training in violence was nothing new,
But I did well what they were afraid to do. 

I don't hate those who refused to go
I did it for my country, not for show.
An eternal loneliness beyond the pale
Was my certain reward should I fail. 

I have seen terror's deathly face
And feared to go, but kept the pace,
Enwrapped in the cold sting of fear
I fought for buddies and those I hold dear. 

I've known sweet love and a moment's kiss
And wished for all the world I could stay with this.
But I was committed and I knew my lot
To live out death and dangers best forgot. 

Shrouded deep in the stink of death
I've cried aloud and tried to catch my breath,
While my soul screamed out to God where I'd been
To just once more escape the living pain, again. 

Going where others wouldn't go
Knowing what others wouldn't know,
I am the stuff of legends and lores
I am a veteran of my nation's wars. 

I ask only a moment of your day.
A moment of silence out of the way,
Ask only that you honor the debt
Of freedom bought: don't forget.

by E. Marshall Evans


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Beast



Bitter by ; being mentally bruised and battered most of my life,
shaken with fright without a single soul to help me
through the troubles unseen horrors of the night, 
from an evil source that I fear to strike. 
But as the evil forces, who limited my choices 
that when I found my stallion horses. 
Swiftly it came to my head I can run and I cannot hide, 
feeling the Beast closing in on every time I decide to hide. 
Tired of running and tired of alluding this
relentless creep as my red bolt eyes weep 
feeling rest-less, likes a lonely defeated warrior from his home in retreat 
that is when I knew it time to rest, to release my Beast. 
But in a fight, I may not win however as I cast out my dirty words sin
I made sure it felt my impact, to the bloody end.

by Keith Relf


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Push Up

i could sit here. day in and day out
thinking of the most proper way
to let the ink in the pen spill out
but as of late im feeling prehistoric 
so much weight on my shoulders 
and i dont know where to go
resuscitate my soul
look back up and head to the goal

so much evil around. i feel like the devils workin double shifts just to bring me down.
on the road to redemption
you can take a seat up in the front section
just so you can feel the emotions
in this electric notion

i've done a lot of things that hide the halo
let it all collaborate when i medicate 
now look at me, mind workin like plato
formulate a new path to take so i can
maneuver through all the mistakes 
we all know we cant change what we've already made
but we can change the next thing we create
startin to sound like a serenity prayer
5 steps till im thirty
and the twenty four before i was never a player
found out when the lights came back on im strictly a lover
its the strongest drink for your soul, when its thirsty
so careful how much you intake or be left hungover
even worse be the one she ran over

i dont mean to come off like im too deep
but the obstacles made there way through just to scrape through
and leave me suffocating
just for me to re-invent a new way to breathe, re-decorating

is your life so complicated 
you rather wet up your pillows and revoke from the life you live
just think of your kids mourning 
theyll never see that pretty face in the morning any more
cheer your self up
you got a lot to live for
your a gem and im that friend
trynna appraise the value 
that you dont see inside of you


just another day for him
goin about
searchin wonderin what his purpose is
running in circles 
till he found a way through all the turbulence





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The Revelation

                                      Your nightmares are coming ,
                                        their dark and their near.
                                      our leaders a muslim
                                           Sturing up fear.
                                        The law of shariah 
                                         Evil at best.
                                      their raping the children,
                                            and beheading the rest 
                                          They push sick religeon
                                            your dead on the run .
                                       you'd better get on your knee's 
                                              and pray to the son ..............James


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you dont listen

you think I got listen to you, 
you just my kids father,
there noting between me and you,
it seem the words take you back to court is your favorite words,
get this Sheena Shenia Jackson isn't scare of no court system or even you,
its just a word that is there, 
so if you ask me you just things to make women scared im not scare of you like I use to,
I have became stronger and wiser, 
I have the Lord behind me, 
I believe in him very strong,
so if you want to bring me back to court lets do this now, 
you are just a man that God put on this earth, 
and I fear no man, no woman and no body, 
I am a King child forever,

by : Sheena Shenia Jackson 
May 23, 2013


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Life is getting rough

  Life is getting Rough
Now in life looking forward to another day
Is like being dead another way
Life is getting rough
Life is getting tough
They say we better off alive
But we better off to die

Cost of living is rising
Yet salaries declining
Children Starving
Poverty increasing 
Parents striving
Life decreasing

What are we looking for in life
I think it's too late to think twice
Because today I am alive
Tomorrow I DIE
So everyday live life with no expectancy
Because tomorrow , we can't depend on 

Thank you.


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The Willow Tree at the end of the Road

I must have been 7 when I first climbed that old willow tree,
The gang called it the club house.
There was Jodie, Bridget and of course Rebecca the Wrecker. 
I think that that tree was more of school than school.
It was more a parent than my parents.
I certainly learned more about life, boys and the fear of falling,
Than any other place I've been.
We once placed 5 snake eyed marbles there.
The first was Courage in Adversity.
The second marble was Joy in the good times.
The third was Faith to overcome Doubt.
The fourth was Love thy Father.
The fifth marble was Love thy Mother.

I went back one day, all grown up.
I saw that the council had a sign on the tree.
This tree is regarded as unsafe. 
Please beware.

Oh doubt in my childhood. Fear in the  every day.
Let not the pangs of daily life ever erase
The treasured moments in that tree.



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Green People

I see green people
They tell me they come in peace 
But they are showing me the roots to all evil
I see green people
They try to disguise their intentions 
But their actions are so see through
I see green people
They are the true world leaders
There are no free actions or thoughts
You do or think what they want you to
I see green people
They manipulated all of our history
So if we were to find the truth
It doesn't matter because their is no proof
I see green people
As their head grow larger 
I continue to have distant dreams of me being considered a equal
I see green people
They told me to worship them or die
Close my eyes and look through the lies
Because without them 
There is no chance to walk among the Gods
I see green people 
And there is no doubt about it
They truly show me the roots to all evil





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Someone Elses Life

I feel like I'm living someone elses life, a life in strife. I've been strong, but when will I belong. I feel so alone, but I'm doing ok on my own. I can't describe the pain, but I keep in mind every storm runs outa rain. I use to think our love was unbeatable, but really its unforgettable. Everyday I walk down memory lane, trying to ignore the pain. He crosses my mind everyday, when will all this go away. There's gotta be something more, my heart is becoming sore. My momma doesn't have to worry, because I'm not sorry. I know he made the mistake, and he's the reason I have this heartache. What we had, was bad. I shouldn't have let it go that far, your just another scar.


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Going down to the Clenching

My father would always clench when he saw me approach,
He knew that I was a disappointment to him,
He’d stamp his foot like treading on a cockroach,
And laugh the laugh you laugh when you see a fat lady at the gym.

I was taller than him, and smarter by half,
And it made him feel a little inferior,
But that wasn’t a good reason to laugh,
He was just nervous for life wasn’t worth living unless you are superior.

Oh I’d shake his hand and say how’s tricks Daddo?
But something died behind his eyes when I held his hand too long.
He’d clench like he was being electrocuted in snow,
And I would be left without a Dad and without a song.


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Dream

I am frozen, yet awake
paralyzed at fear, grasping to move
unable to in my own skin, able to see all around
I move parallel faster, with my body below
terror holds me down, without breath
I hear chatter, not of my own
then I move, I breathe
I awaken out of the terrible 
Dream





Taryn Thompson


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Embarrassed

It hits me like a wave, churning deep within my gut.
Holding my breath as the situation sinks in.
(Climbing a stairway to heaven)
People staring, eyes peering, thinking of a way to get out
(drifting up in a cloud of smoke)
Pale face reddens as heartbeat quickens
(Flying away on invisible wings)
Running, fleeing, where can I go?
(End of the rainbow)
Dirt swallows me up, blanking my mind
(Calm, peaceful, no more worries)
Frozen in awkwardness, palm to my forehead
Stuck in reality.


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Ghost of Le Moulin

   Ghost of Le Moulin



Between Fabrezan to Tournasay 
where the cruel Cers wind blows,
Lie’s maison le Moulin
amongst the wine groves.

Every year on certain night 
you can hear a child calling,
twould cause a fright,
She’s the Ghost of le Moulin.

The villagers all know it
and a man with a gun,
spent the night there
but didn’t he run.

It’s hairy and scary
a mystery to boot,
now I’m a ghost hunter
who’s after some loot.

You can drink pastis
in le Grand cafe
but, disturb a ghost
and you wilt pay.
                                                                                                                                       
Breaking almonds
in a Breton cap,
for sweet nougatine
wilt bait the trap.









With lantern held high 
a crucifix too,
I’ll pray fer the saints
and Jesus the Jew.

Regarde  the Ghost of le Moulin,
pretty girl with evil eyes,
pock marked face
hear her cries....!

“Here’s some rope ta hang ye bye
 silly old man soon ta die,
 I’ll eat ya sweets, wear ya Breton cap,
 I’m the Ghost of Le Moulin”.

Between Fabrezan  to Tournasay
where the cruel Cers wind blows,
Lies maison le Moulin
amongst the wine groves.












Fabrezan,  south of France, October 09


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A Speechless Night

My nighmares hold me down
And take away my voice 
I try and try to yell
It's someone from hell
He floats around me late at night
And holds me down with all his might
Waits for me to fall into that state of mind
State of mind where im asleep
But hear and see and feel it all
My parents are who I try to call
Petrified to fall
To fall into this state of mind
Where I have no control 
When The devil grasps my soul
A time he can conquer my mind and body


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Lost

Lost in this wilderness. . I feel like a scared child... Everyone seems so raw n wild... No one to hear my cry in distress.. I search for your hand to hold.. To guide me to a place where I worry no more.. Am so scared, that a shiver runs down my body n soul. . As tears drop from my eyes.. All I hear is there laughter, n see them smile.. Lost in the wilderness... I feel scared like a small child....


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Midnight Skies

Midnight Cries In midnight skies the cries of love drift off to sleep in endless love. For he who heard them. Sent them hope, that God created a world for them. For us to see and bare good times. For no more hurt and devishlish crimes. For the earth which once was good. Is soured and torn. There are no morals or dreams no more. Or hope of good things when suffering soars. For they are crushed by his vast sword. For he who has the greater sin. He has carried and been burdened with. He has been forgotten. In times like these. Because people hearts bleed with disease. For they have burdened him with more sin. They have forgotten the pain he is in. For he so carried his cross with pride. A younge man who was destined to die. No matter what the world does think. This man did live before we did. We have lost our way in darkened times. Like lost sheep we have roamed, away from him. If youd only listen and help to carry his cross. Take the blame for things done past. Change our ways for hope to last. We wont do that out of pride. When he is denied. I feel for him. I pick his cross up and help him off the ground. For he is my brother. Who I have found. He has carried that cross. No man deserved his life in such a lose. Tormented and torturded to no extent. He didnt look like a mere man in the end. He coutinued to stand even after he fell. Showing me the strength of Heaven and hell. For a man so strong, so bold and kind. Showed me what we can do as man kind. He gave his life for everyone who reads this. For those who can not see. Do not be blind Find this man, for he needs you. He gave his life to save you. With your help, you raise his cross. You heal that burden of love. That has been lost. Ease his pain and find your way. For Heaven is a start and hell is a step away.


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Coward

People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?
Why has this life become so meaningless,
that we just want to throw it away?
We become selfish and think our life is so bad,
dont think of others who's lives are worse, But still greatful for what they have.
People take for granted the things they've got,
clothes, food, smokes and shoes, even a roof or a bed,
They dont think of the homeless,
the hungry, not even the cold or the hot.
They just think they want to be dead,
Things happen in our lives that, to us, seem bad.
We dont look for help or trust any "friends"
All because of the past we've had.
Dont be a coward and run away,
Stick it out, Live life,
I know that there's alot of strife,
But stick it through day to day.
People want to commit suicide,
people choose to die over livin life.
Why has it come to be this way?....


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Transformer

Transformer...



 I am so sorry I tend to whisper to my self while the wings on my back enfold me in my idiocy and bust in a furl of feathers and fire.
 
My authentic halo falling broken reinforcing my thoughts on transformations... 

My lush lies crept up into me whispering to you my secrecy and my merry go round patterns...
 I was adapted to serous sabotage and unconsidered volcanic eruptions... Having nothing to react to I made my own quake...
 
i deserve everything. 

But for you to say I can't feel is something that just shocked me at my core... 
But then again what should I expect? 
Secret boyfriends? 
are you kidding me...? 
But then again what should i expect... 
I gave you a reason to be suspicious a reason to say those things... 

With my viscosity on the subject I realize I have to be punished... and it has nothing to do with you...
 





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Impossible

To maintain a life
Above all the strife
Pain and sorrow
Is to choose
A sight so sharp
It sees through the dark
And sees even in the light
Things that defy human sight
Things impossible
Things unprecedented
Things invisible
The ability to look
To see beyond the present circumstances
To hold on to that faint candle light
In the midst of the pitch black darkness of the night
The will to cling to life
When death is but a pinch away
The strength to see the sun shine so bright
Through a sandstorm in the Sahara
Through the snowstorms in the north pole
Through the cloudy rainstorms of the amazon
The ability to see white
When everyone sees black
The will to see beauty
Where everyone sees  the ugly
To see the highest mountain peaks
As mole-hills about to be trampled
To believe in particles
Faster  than  light
To believe men can touch
The surface of the sun
And walk to the ends of milky-way
With the stars as our footstones
The ability to hope for better things
And to dream of better days
In the midst of bitter months
Can’t you see the impossible
It’s laughing you to scorn
Telling you I’M POSSIBLE….


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firing squad

i feel the darkness surround me, 
i know what fate lies ahead,
i sense the fear take over me,
i know i will soon be dead,

i hear the ground beneath me,
i know i must face my end,
i sense the guns select me,
their bullets my only friend,

the darkness is drawn from me,
and the light forced in my face,
i see the rifles before me,
my body now frozen in space,

i see my life spread out before me,
i see my oncoming end,
i hear the triggers pulled for me,
a bullet, the message they send,

i felt the darkness surround me,
their sights locked to my head,
i no longer have fear inside me,
my body now lies dead.


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For the Love of Will

For The Love Of Will

The pain is deeply rooted within.
They see but don't know the thoughts that constantly stir.
Fear, regret and remorse as I drift off to sleep.
Into a land of peace and tranquility.
Acceptance, reassurance and unconditional love awaits me.
Oh how he loves me for whom and what I am.
Can it be true?
Can it be real?
His loving eyes shine down upon me in admiration.
I never want to wake to a life of uncertainty.
Words softly spoken from his lips to my heart.
The promise reveals his sanctuary within the embrace of his arms.


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dil ke ehsas

Yeh labj nahi dil ka ehsas hai
Tu dhadkan se b jyda dil k
pass hai
Tumein chahna mere bAs mei
nahi
Tu chalti hui meri sans hai
Tumein mohabbat kernA meri
adat ban gayea
Tu harpal mere pass hai
Dard hai khafa b hu per firbi
tere labjo ki pyass hai
Mai kerti hu mohabbat
harpal tumein tuhi meri har
sans hai
tumse jindagi roshan lage 
tuhi mera raaton ka chand hain 
yeh dunia kya samjhegi meri chahant ka nasha 
didar tera he meri har sharab hain 
yeh labaj nahi dil ka ehsas hain



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the man behind the glass window

the man behind the glass window
i look outside and i see all the beautiful people 
man and woman holding hands
friends talking to friends
i wished i was normal and was not confined
i am afraid to venture out
fear of rejection head full of doubt
if the world see me will they understand
behind the glass window i sit watching the world go by
longing in my heart my eyes too tired to cry
i reach out but no one sees
it is like i am invisible and no one cares for me
i pull down the blinds for the thousanth time 
a prisinor in my own mind


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Fear

Being "free" is what I want to be,
Be "fearless" is what you keep telling me.
Not afraid of much- there's a few fears left inside,
To the point where I'm so scared, I just want to cry.
Fearless.... It's easier said than done,
There's one fear that sure seems to have won.
To this specific fear,
I'll tell  you right now and here.
There's a part 1 and part 2,
too scared to know what to do...
Part 1 is honest and true- it all is,
I dont even expect any responses.
Part 1 of my fear is admitting and saying "i love you" (I'm trying NOT to scare you too)
Part 2 of this is... I dont want to do anything to lose you.
You're important to me- read every word,
Dont want it to be awkward, only heard.
I'm okay with being friends and taking it slow,
For as long as I need to or until I'm old.
I hope to be in a relationship with you,
But I NEED you to tell me, so we're on the same page and I'm NOT confused.
Don't get me wrong, I'll wait as long as you need,
But this fear of mine maybe stronger than me.
there you go-one of few of my fears,
I dont want things to be weird.
If your not ready thats fine with me, forget this poem existed for thee.
Just know that I understand much,
Take as long as you need, there is no rush.
I had to say it or else I'd blow up,
That was hard to get off my chest....
If you'll excuse me now, it's time to throw up.
I've never been so terrified to lose someone- a great catch,
I honestly think that we make a great match.


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Prison

"You keep trying to tell me?" Dont you see me in chains? 
You were the ones to tie me, taking my freedom away. 
Your both still as sinsiter, delivering nothing but pain. 
How can you tell a prisoner, to go forth and change? 
Time is flying fast, and Im forced to forge a life. 
But I cant do that, behind bars every night. 
You dont see my tears, and you never really cared. 
You just leave me here, your compassion is so rare. 
These bars are made of iron, I cant bash my head through. 
This situation is dire, Im losing my sanity too. 
I cant even tell, my time here has only risen. 
Save me from this hell, release me from this prison. 


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Sociopath in the Forest

Amongst the mysterious and gloomy forest
Begets a creature so cruel and ferocious
Consciously aware of its own destructive behavior
Deceptive in nature; unforgiving at heart
Enchanting the woodlands like a corrupted hermit
Fantasy twisted; reality tainted
Gremlins, Ghouls, and Goblins lurking from afar
Haplessly awaiting for the beast to collapse
Imminent death for ones with black hearts
Justifying their existence based on ego and pride
Killing themselves, not just others
Laughing along the way to an eternal plane of misery


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More Than I Am

I pull my blinds down shut to end another day
An eerie silence fills the halls with lonesomeness and decay
I draw my sheets back and clear the thoughts inside my head
Because the quietness breaks my heart when im alone in bed
I turn the T.V. on to turn the emptiness down
I hear the voices speaking, but I can't make out the sounds
I look at my bible filled with guilt and shame inside
I havent picked it up to read for quite some time
And with hell I look up to my ceiling and cry
Have You abandoned me too for ever leaving Your side
Lord just light the way and I will come back home
Lead me back to that place I was once before
I know I havent prayed, because I have been afraid
I know I let You down and I was scared of what You might say
Forgive me for ever thinking I could do this on my own
Please give me strength so that I can carry on
And help me turn these pages once again
So that I may be all I'm meant to be in the end
A better friend, a better son, and a better brother
A better uncle, nephew, cousin, and a better lover
Teach me to be a father who leads his child with strong hands
Because I know that You made me to be more than I am

*JJF*
4/18/2013


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Fear

A walk alone through the darkness unknown,
A swim alone through the vast oceans...
A dive alone into the abyss unknown,
Not even a stand off with the satan..
Can drive fear into my heart,
But...
A single drop of tear, from people close to my heart..!!


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My mind and heart are at war

MY heart and mind are at war
My heart and my mind are at war,
Body and soul lost between the hate,
Confused and hurt not knowing what for,
They pull, twist and fight to escape,
The battle of pain sweat and tears,
Caught in the midst of heartache,
My soul breaks free and leaves behind its fears,
The pain is too much for my body to take,
I built a wall and smashed it to dust,
For another, but for what,
I lost my faith and lost her touch,
I am soulless standing here stuck,
My mind has won this war,
My heart damaged and broke,
Still not knowing what for,
I pray and i still hope,
That this war will end,
And mind and heart will coincide,
Hoping my soul and body will mend,
For the rest of me has already died
I am done with the pain of passion,
And done with the love of pain,
All i here is my hearts door's crashing,
For this is what makes a man go insane,
I felt her love i loved her touch,
I kissed her lips and she kissed my heart,
Now this feeling, i feel too much,
Now it’s time for my mind and heart to part,
I will see her eyes in the moon lit sky,
Her beauty in a sky of wonder,
I will shed one tear and let the pain die,
As i lay awake in a world of loveless slumber
The illusions of love corrupted my mind,
The confusion of passion clouded my eyes,
The death of my heart came soon this time,
So now i will love in a world of my demise,
You can’t feel this pain that i feel,
I am done trying and this time i am,
When i write i write what’s real,
So now can you see why my soul ran?
Can you stop and wonder,
How i made it so far, with so much pain,
Can you here my heart crack with thunder,
And can you see i live in a world of rain,
 I have sought love found it and lost i
I am tired of pain.  so tired my heart is exhausted
i am done now if she comes back then i am here,
if not like i said i have shed my one and only tear


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MY TURNS

All coincidences find me bitter
Much as most hearts tend to be sweeter
I hardly get my sovereign right to glitter
The fact defy my humble chance to treat her

My rudeness blind folded the star
The aim was always the moon but then i was far
Boarding trains aiming for a Porsche car
Just like engaged to freedom aiming for her

These trials have been routine, i must say
The same result of boredom, God i must pray
I am far away here, afraid i wont come, here i must stay
If truly you can take it, then please wait for me on that day


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Fights

We fight we yell we kick we scream
we do everything known to humanbeins

somepeople say they hate eachother an not even mean it .
    why do we do such mean things an not mean aword of it.?


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if you only knew

when you lose sight of what really counts
its easy to focus on only whats shallow
am i too fat is my nose too big
do i walk or talk weird whats wrong with me
when we forget the depth that is here in this world
and focus on things that are just absurd
so maybe im not a supermodel and my bums a tad on the thick side
and maybe im no a genius thats getting a scholorship on my side
but does that mean im nothing that i dont count
this world is getting sickening count me OUT
im ashamed of myself for even thinking like this
and obsessing to tears over shallow petty shit
i am praying that god hears my pleas for help
because i cant conquer this all by myself
i used to not care didnt care at all
but like any other i rise and fall
i am of the opinion that your body is a shell
and youll leave it behind when you go to heaven or hell
it will rot in the ground and count for nothing
and when i meet my maker he wont care how big my bum is
some women ONLY care about their looks and they dont get it
they dont see the big picture 
and i fear theyll regret it 
and other women dont care even at all 
about their looks because their depth is so massive and raw
but then theres me in the middle with so much depth and spirituality
why do i waste time wondering what are all the things wrong with me
im sick of crying over it ive done it for too long
im sick of getting angry when i cant crawl out of my bod
its a thought that i had reguarding a cacoon
like how catapielers go into them and out comes a butterfly zoom
if i could just crawl out my mouth my soul free for just a moment
and be allowed to have a different shell to live and own it
i wonder what its like to feel just for a second
not arrogance but a sweet compliment from someone who MEANT IT
my desperate pleas go out to you and anyone else who will listen
i hate my body im sick of my face and my voice is just ridiculous
so lets just drop it in the ocean let it sail away
cuz me im going to better places where i dont have to cry all day
where i know that my body is just a little shell a vehicle if you will
its our car or truck or limo or bus to use while we use our free will
and ive always said when you go you don't take your money your lambergini
or your watch expensive jewlery its all staying beind
and you should think about what YOUR world is while im trying desperatley to fix mine


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Predator

Look deep into the eyes of the predator.
Look into the anger, the hate and the fear backed by the ever wanting urge to kill.
Look into the eyes of the predator.
The eyes that rip through flesh; that tare through purity and righteousness; that pierce the white dainty exterior of the prey. 
Look into the eyes of the predator.
Look deep and see a child, one so innocent and unknowing.
See the pain and the anguish, the fears and the flesh mutilating wounds.
Look into the eyes of the predator.
See the exact moment when time became too much to bear, when one more breath became a choice between life and death.
Look into the eyes of the predator.
What is it that you see but the embodiment of the prey.  


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family portrait

If I fall I pick myself up and try again
Been hurt before but I won’t cry again
My wings are broke but I know I’ll fly again
Cause I was lost with no map
I paid the cost with no cash
No one there for me in my hour of need
They’ll be there when things are good. 
They only care about power and greed
But I could never be a coward or leave
Isn’t anything about that logic that’s sensible
None of that stupid stuff is apprehensible
People walking around like they’re invincible
Like they’ve got no morals or principals
World on my shoulders it feels miniscule
No weight at all
Won’t make me fall
You wouldn’t last a mile in my shoes
Girls yeah there’s been a few
More than life or death win or lose
Been through the storm my skin is bruised
People ask questions like it’s an interview
“Are you depressed, why didn’t you cry when your dad died?”
So I guess I’m heartless and some kind of bad guy
Because I didn’t shed a tear when my dad died
What about when I was 3 he threw a yellow pages book at me 
Which left me with a black eye
Now I’m supposed to lie and act like he was the greatest father ever
Without this man in my life
I made it through the harshest weather
No family to stand by my side
No love at all. I thought a parents love is meant to be unconditional
Raised in foster care
Praying my parents would call just to say “son I’m missing you”
No matter how hard I try I can’t run from missing you
Is it any wonder I idolize rappers and Eminem’s the one I listen to?
Where was my father when I needed advice on girls or for my first date?
He didn’t even send a single card on my birthdays
But I’ve still go R.I.P Dad tattooed on my arm
Age 15 I started to self harm
My head would hit the pillow and tears followed
Cuts sinking in my arm so I always feared tomorrow
**** everyone I don’t want or need there sorrow
All they can do is call it attention seeking
But I look at people who allow their scars on show
As brave and redemption seeking
Does that change when you can no longer mention reasons?
And the reason for your first time’s intentions leaving
So now maybe it’s a mental addiction
Sometimes in life you don’t like what the pencil’s scripting
Cause the more I like you 
The quicker I say you need to let me breathe
You say you love me
The quicker I let you leave
The more you hate
The less it gets to me
Hate is safer than love
But do me wrong and you’ll be dead to me
So to family and friends who have hurt me I have 3 words rest in peace


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Things go wrong

Love hurts and people change. Things go wrong and things get strange. But life goes on and you only life it once. Be strong cause things will get better over the months. I thought I was heartbroken, I thought you were my world. You fooled me though, made me think I was your only girl. But all along, you didnt care. Im not sure, your were even completely there. But now I've moved on, when I thought it was impossible. I had to be the bigger person in this breakup, I was responsible. I let it get to me, but I didnt let it ruin me completely. I didnt do anything about the hurt you caused me, I acted so sweetly. I let you walk all over me, I tried to ignore how you disrespected me. But when I ended things, the pain was easier to see.


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Knocking at the Door

Knocking at the Door


  There was a time when hunger dwelt  the land.
  She who has no pity,
  left her mark, the mark of death. 
  I was one of many that hunted the hare,
  whose empty belly rumbled,
  whose pale skin hung like a cloak.

  Humbled this moment lies a great wolf,
  Fierce frantic, writhing in terror,
  tied down with rope.
  But our friend is only a character
.
  Upon hearing an enchantment.....
  Who’s afraid of the? Who’s afraid of the?
  You couldn’t catch pigs  could you? Would you?
   In mine comfort sleep
   will I ever see you again?

  Beware the Gypsy’s gaze,
  alike a starving rat.
  Imagining not compassion,
  But a content satisfying loneliness

  How cheery time was
  when the great black pot,
  bubbled ! and spat sharply.
  Like the wolf  snarling, snapping , staring,
  who’s that?....  Knocking at the door !





  Hendrifton Farm Christmas 09.
  An old gypsy woman actually knocked at the back door,
  the moment Carrington finished this poem.                                                        



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House of glass

We’ve built our foundations on feelings alone,
How were we to know that they don’t last?

Always we are one tremble away form destruction;
A breath from the shattering truth.

Sometimes I dance alone in this house of glass
Praying to be seen by you.

We sit and wait for it to come down around us
Staring into each others’ eyes and seeing nothing.
And feeling nothing.

Warm skin, but an icy touch.
I am numb to it all.

Shattered glass will no longer hurt me;
Cutting words have found my heart.

Singing now the anthem of the sunrise,
And we smile at “goodbye”.


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Okay

“Okay”

You ask me if I’m alright
I say “I’m okay”
You say you worry about me
I tell you “don’t worry, it’s okay”
You wonder if anything is wrong
I say, “Nothing is wrong, everything’s okay”
You ask if there is anything you can do
I tell you, “you don’t need to do anything, I’ll be okay”
Then I have to look to see and ask myself…
Am I alright?
Why do they worry, should I worry?
Is there anything wrong?
Is there anything I can do?
Then I know…
I’m not okay
It’s not okay
Ok?


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TEARS THAT NEVER DRY

TEARS THAT NEVER DRY...
A JOYFUL MOMENT JUST TEMPORARY HEALING,
MY TRUE FEELINGS NOT NOTICED.
MATERIALS NOT WHAT I LONG FOR,
A HUG CAN TAKE ME A LONG WAY.
MOMENT LIVED ONLY EXTENDED BY WARM HEARTS OF STRANGERS,
I FEAR WITHOUT THEM A WEEK IS LIFE PERIOD FROM LAST SMILE.
IT HURTS MORE BECAUSE I’M WISER THAN YOU THINK.
NOTICED EVERY TIME YOU LIE YET I KEEP STRONG.
FALSE PROMISES YET I STILL FALL FOR THEM EVERYTIME,
KEEP BELIEVING YOU WILL CHANGE BUT SLOWLY LOSING HOPE.
HOW DO I CALL GOD IF YOU THAT HURTS ME LOVES HIM MORE,
COULD GOD HELP ME IF YOU THAT HURT ME SPEND MORE TIME IN HIS PRESENCE?
I FEAR THIS TEARS WILL NEVER DRY,
THAT DEATH COULD BE WHAT DRIES THESE TEARS.
STRONG FEELINGS OF HATE GROWING NOT CAUSE OF LOVE,
LOVE I DO GET BUT DON’T SEEM ENOUGH.
THIS MONTAIN NOT EVEN FAITH CAN REMOVE.
CAN’T KEEP THE TEARS FROM FALLING ANYMORE,
HAD YOU GAVE UP ON ME I COULD HAVE LIVED BETTER,
TRY TO PROVE MYSELF YET IS NEVER ENOUGH.
I FEAR TO GIVE UP ON YOU SO YOU DON’T HURT LIKE I DO.
KEEP HOPING FOR A BRIGHTER DAY, 
SEEM LIKE I’M JUST HOPING FOR SUMMER IN PLUTO.
ALL I CAN DO IS JUST PRAY ONE DAY YOU WILL TRUST ME,
TRUST IS ALL I EVER NEEDED FROM YOU.
CAN YOU EVER TRUST ME? 
TELL ME WHAT TO DO AND I WILL DO IT ALL.
TRUST IS ALL I NEED FROM YOU,
CAUSE I’M TIRED OF CRYING.
TRUST IS ONE OF TWO WAYS THAT CAN DRY THIS TEARS,
WILL YOU EVER WIPE THESE TEARS?


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Love drugs

my drug
my cure
temporary
----- pure
 
it's high
it lie
i'll die
i'll try
 
to taste
a glance
i'll chase
my chance
 
and live
my life
in grieve
enhance

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My Little Angel

I Losed A Huge Part Of Me Thee Other Day, Heard The Heartbeat, He Said Everthing Was Okay, As We Waited There, Time Began To Pass, I Was Getting Scared, He Walked In The Room, And The Words So Insercer Entered My Mind, Just One Word, And The Whole Room Went black, People Stared Like What Were You expespting, My Baby With His Arms Around Me, I Felt A Tear Roll Down My Cheek, And I Didnt Care Who Saw, All I Knew Was A Huge Part Of Me Wasnt there, Emptyness, Felt So Lonely, But Everyone Was There, Mommys and Daddys Little Angel Was No Longer There:"( So Heartbreaking: But True... R.I.P Jamie Mom And Dad Will Keep You In Our Prayers


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My Dream

I had a dream of u today u called me and told me it was all a bad dream u didnt have to go away wen i woke up i felt like screaming and crying im falling apart without u here its like a part of me is dying  all i can see is a big smile on ur face u kno nobody will ever take ur place its so hard for me to stay strong with my best homie gone the thing thats hardest for me to accept n comprehend that im never gona see u again that kills me inside wen u left us i feel like apart of me died i dont kno wat to do but all i kno is wen u left apart of me went with you


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Baby I miss you

Baby I miss you
I miss the way we snuggle and get wrap up together
I miss the way your lips touch mine
I miss the way you touch me
I miss when we held hands
Baby I miss you
I know when we went our different ways
that it was my fault not yours
I never wanted to let you go
I was just so sacred that if you really seen me for the real person I am
that you would leave me 
I never meant to say goodbye forever 
Now you moved on 
And I'm left here  with a broken heart
I'm trying to be strong 
but your always on mind 
I can't seem to erase you from my mind
I'm sorry for ever hurting you.


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No Sire

"No sire, I will not be your pawn." 
"But you've said that for so long." 
"No sire, you will never see me bow." 
"Look at yourself, on your knees now." 
"No sire, I will retain my rights." 
"What do you want, some kind of future and sight?" 
"No sire, you cannot take my soul." 
"Really? You were so vibrant before this was told" 
"No sire, I will remain sane." 
"But to you, this was once a game." 
"Sire, what is it you want from me?" 
"I want your pain and suffering to feed me." 
"No sire, I will not give this to you." 
"Your helpless. What could you possibly do?" 
"No sire, I dont want to fight. Im worthy for much more than this, 
I would rather end my life." 
"Your nothing but a blush, go on I dare you." 
"I will Im no longer scared of you" 
*The girl cut her throat, slaying the life she once had. 
This only provoked, the sire with a good laugh.* 


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Oh Time

Why dost thou act this way?
Oh! I bid to know
I hate to see you everyday
Tell the way i go


My freedom is my life
To be loosed is death
For to nought will be my strife
Only if i forsake my health


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I will not bow down

I can't change 
And you can't make me
This world has already tried to break me 
And I stand here strong 
So what makes you think you can do anything else to make me wrong 
You aren't strong enough
To make me fall to my knees 
Who do you think you are?
Dust in the wind 
An old women who can't confront her own sins 
Pass your judgments and please tell your friends 
Point out everything you can 
But in the end you won't win 
Your not smart enough to challenge me 
Your to worn to even try to begin 
So count your blessing, that you aren't worth my time 
Because I would show you true fear
It's the look in your eyes when your staring in the mirror 
Thinking about how did you get here 
So concentrate on me, Tell me I'll never be good enough 
I promise you'll never see one tear 
The difference between me and you 
Is perfectly clear
When they tried to break you
You bowed down without a fight
And I've crawled to far on my knees 
To ever let someone as insignificant as you
Make me do it again 
So try your hardest I welcome the fight 
Don't hold back hit me with all your might 
I'll be standing at the finish line with your loaded gun 
Telling you I wish you were more fun 


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Fear is how he made you

You hold your side 
Because if you don't you know you will just fall apart 
Honesty, does nothing. Might as well lied 
You breathe deep to fill the empty space 
A place where hope should be 
But there's not a single trace 
You run to the space in your mind 
That's meant purely to hide 
You will never have a home 
Words just to make you cry 
The cold can't touch you 
Because the fear has already consumed you 
Fear you thought you could hide 
The pain you thought the world was bind too 
The hardest thing to know 
Is that your suffering is shown 
That those around you see you dying 
They reach out there arms 
But your not trying to get help 
You can do it alone
What's one more punch 
What's one more burse  
Or one more tear 
It makes you stronger 
Your just standing to close for it to be clear 
Enough is enough and you can't go one more day 
With a family of broken trust 
But your legs won't work and you clasp 
There's no more fight in you
There's nothing left to do 
You cry out to the heavens 
Screaming your sorry for everything you did 
And everything you didn't mean to do 
You know it's not your fault 
But it doesn't matter, His wrath is unwavering 
He didn't do it so it must be you. 
He tells you when the world blows up, it was simple to kill you 
Fear is something you learned at a young age 
Something that's stronger then love and stronger then rage 
Fear of losing everything he let you have 
You can wish and you can pray 
But one simply fact still remains 
He own you every day until breath leaves your body 
For fear and pain 
Is all that's left 
Because that's all he made


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Empty

Deceivingly beautiful, ugly hatred inside
Sweet loving words mask thought of suicide
Genuine honesty battles uncontrollable lies
Temptation of euphoria fuels the fight

Longing for a cure to numb the pain
Grows like a monster unwilling to tame
Giving into feelins, taking on blame
Supposed to be stronger, never felt so drained

Naked and bare to humility and regret
Growing weaker to fear of pain and death
Demands to stay and deal have been set
To choose between life's needs or forbidden wants being met

Searching for what's become unattainable bliss
Finding nothing but answers that don't seem to fit
Strengthens thoughts of not being missed
And widens the black hole of not want to exist

Loneliness makes time unbearable and empty
Arising conflict on regaining internal peace
Blur the clarity of what is meant to be seen
Or continue to hope for what never will be.
         10-15-2011


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Evil dark

Horrible sounds by haunting fear
Like a dreadfull  face
Just back of you
Behind the curtain at night
With the lightening and thunder
To make you fear with
Heartbeats drumming
To the sudden fear
Of the ghostly appearance
With the reddish long nails
A view of horrible sight.


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SCRAMBLED HEARTS 1

SHALL I GO ON WITH
ALL IT IS HAD HAPPENED?
MY SCRAMBLED HEARTS STILL BEATS
ALTHOUGH SOME THINK AM DEAD...!
FROM EVERY MEASURES HELD
ALL AM DEALING WITH IS MY SCRAMBLED HEART!
I HAVE BEE STEPED ON 
WITH NO MERCY
CONDEMNED WITH NO CRIME
HELD BOND BY THE CHAINS OF ALL EYES
ALL GOING ON THROUGH MY MIND
A HERO SONG TO SING
ALL WITH A SCRAMBLED HEART
DEEP SCENES OF LIFE REVEALED
GREAT PROMPTING, GREAT ATTEMPT
BUT YET 
A SCRAMBLED HEART!


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Lonely life

I live a lonely life 
Full of sadness and strife 
I can't seem to reach out for what is right 
Am I asking for to much 
Am I missing what is waiting for me 
I just can't seem to set myself free 
I pray every morning for a brand new day 
But then I find myself  walking away 
I cry a lot , I sleep a lot 
This just seems to make it all stop 
I know there is a shinning light waiting for me 
I just have to crawl through the darkness and set myself free 
Fighting the Demond's that are in control 
Is a daily struggle and it has left a big hole 
I know god is with me every step I take 
But to get there I will experience some heart ache 
Worth it in the end to put all the pain a side 
So I will stand tall in the world with pride 


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My unplaned Bump

You where unplaned
5 months from  now you be a bump
before I know it you'll be here 
I love you already 
You've made have been unplaned 
But you where the best bump
That could have ever happen to me 
I love you 
I can't wait until I can hold and kiss your little checks.
You've done got me warp around your little finger
You are my one and only 
Now I can't see myself without you.
You have your daddys eyes
And my smile 
All I want is the best for you
I love you 
My unplaned bump.
I can't wait until I see your face
Don't worry everything will be alright
I got everything planed for us.


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UNLOCK THE HEART OF ENIGMA

Unlock heart of enigma,
Pulse pumping burning it's stigma,
Crying out for all unanswered,
Tears all turn ashes from blistered.

Unlock the heart of enigma,
Making all brims into karma,
Hungered with pinkish solitaire,
Red hummers filling up the air.

Unlock the heart of enigma,
Tuning songs into sloppy drama,
Unexceptionably killing every trust,
Would this heart stay or last..?


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Enslaved


Dishearten was I in foreign land
Unjust Kings enslaved me
Until His Unfailing Nail Pierced Hands
From enslavement saved me
Now strongly praised beyond compare
Rock of my Salvation
Build in me a house to dwell
With unyielding dedication
Hear my new song
The Joyful shall sing
 This Ransomed Nation Thankful for His
Sacrifice, Amazing Reconciliation


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Stand tall

   Stand Tall


 
Sometimes I think of the past and how fast it's passed
It seems like time has ran out of my grasp at last
The hurt and pain that bursts with shame is something I have no control of
If you tried to take me down you can't because what I have left is love
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down , at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
Time has really come and gone
I will always remember what you did was wrong
I've alway took in the hits and kicks, heck you beat me down
Here's the little twist you missed, I bet you thought I wouldn't come around
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down, at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
No matter how much pain you made me swim in
I look at today and I am up and livin'
You want to manipulate and make me up a story
I don't want this man to get people doing things for me
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down, at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
Today I take a look, I feel like I am shook
I keep thinking to stay on my feet
So I don't make the same mistakes that won't repeat
I am here now and for always, I am a clouded cloud through all days
 
Stand Tall, Stand Tall!
I will never bow down, at all
No matter how hard it gets
I will stand tall even if I sweat
 
By: Robert Barrett
 
 
 


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A prisoners struggle

Until you’ve ran a million miles in your cell,
Or stared at your reflection in the mirror,
Until you’ve shadowed boxed with the sound of the silent bell,
Or saw the light fade, and the darkness draw nearer,
Until you’ve dreamed of hell and felt flames,
Until you’ve remembered love, and felt her heart beat,
Or when you’ve cried so much you smelt rain,
Only then can you know of what I speak,
Until you’ve felt the failure on your heart,
Or the crippling effects of disgrace,
Until you’ve ran from the light, and embraced the dark,
Until you’ve given up and lost all faith,
Until you’ve painted pictures on your ceiling,
Until you’ve talked to yourself to calm your mind,
Only then can you know this feeling I am feeling,
For what I am feeling is the loss of time


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So LifeLess

i Give My heart away
every single day 
when i dont see
your face i break down
and my heart shatters its breaks  not in the right place 
my Pain in life slowly once burn forever inside just fades 
away and dies But a beautiful heart wanted everything broken 
i feel so lifeless . 
life and peace is all i ever Ask 
each every single day what can you see
in me is pure in my heart how can some one try bring me down
all i ever do is just fall right into the ground 
you going live your pain every other day you got to live your 
life and you going to make mistake there things to fear in
this world and your life just fading away 
just take step back realize  all the memories are getting cold 
and you have to erase the pass Time to wake up and realize 
your life just fades aways and dies


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Reach High

REACH HIGH

It's time! It's time!
Everybody reach high
In the air 
Do it like you don't care
No matter your faults
Look at your wins
No matter if your caught
Take people for a spin

People want to laugh
People want to put down
You'll get the last laugh
People will be the rebound
Just reach high to the light
People will see you just despite
What you've done or will you'll be
Just reach high and do it for me

Have fun, don't run
Don't be afraid
There's no point for that
You'll look like a renegade
Say what you'll say 
Do what you feel
Today's not the day to play
Today's the day to be real

Have faith in yourself
Believe in what you do
Don't sit their and dwell
Learn your skills to be used
You are apart of life 
So embrace that part
Stand up to the light
and give yourself a head start

I'll stand by your side
I'll help you raise yourself high
I'll help you glide in the air
Will both stand side by side
Don't bring yourself down
Show then what you got
Be the one in front
Make sure you stay on top


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Surely

Surely!







I felt like exploding. 
The back of my eyes were burning.

What had happened here? 
There must have been times when I felt more than this. 
There had to be. 
Surely.

It was Tuesday afternoon, around 12.20pm, that I realised what had to be done. 
Someone had to pay!

I have lived, up until now, a privileged life. 
One really of no hard labour, unlike many of those around me. 
I suppose I felt superior to some people in many ways. 
Should I have thoughts like this as a member of the human race? 
There you go you see, human race, race, the word that we have put into who we are, its a race, we are racing, racing each other. 

Where will it be the race, who is in the, race, yes indeed!
Mumblings of a mad man corrode the in workings to such a degree that there seems no way out!
Surely we had felt more than this?

Surely!   




Scott. T . Williams.


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Time

Time keeps going, the world turns too,
With life, death, choices we make or even what we do.
What's the point of  life and death?
When all we feel is regret.
Repopulate the world with idiots,
make dumb choices and fill life with IGNORANCE.
It matters not what we do or say,
only to the very flawed humans, that bring us up and teach us this "way."
Life has it's occasional joyous moments,
but all that matters, I guess, is dumbass comments.
We live, we breathe, we die,
in the end it's apart of life.
Whether or not we live or die young,
why must we try to end it before our time is up?
What's the point of  life and death?
When all we feel is regret.
Repopulate the world with idiots,
make dumb choices and fill life with IGNORANCE.
Time keeps going, the world turns too,
With life, death, choices we make or even what we do.


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life lost,life saved

I saw something  yesterday let me 
share the news
Put things in perspective and gave
me the blues
This is the story and it’s all I know
Don’t judge my writing if it don’t flow

I dude the other day rented a beamer
A poor boy with no toys
Always wanted a rich man’s 
screamer

He was driving through town and 
said Ah oh!
He was driving to fast
And pasted a Poe poe

Soon in the mirror blue lights 
flashing
He was scared to go to jail for what 
just happened
Part of him knew to pull over
But going to jail was his fear
He mashed the clutch 
And threw it in third gear


A little boy woke up and said what’s 
the rush
After he just left the poe poe in the 
dust
Said don’t worry just go back to 
sleep
But damn boy the car is sweet
Going 125 and approaching a curve
Hit a deer and lost control
The car flipped over 14 times 
And one third

He woke in the ambulance
And asked “where’s my boy”
I had to say all we found
Were empty beer bottles and toys


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Are they With You

Are they with you?


If you wish to seek that feeling
wish to feel those chills all over 
your body
wish to reach that inner glow 
then please follow so 
if not, then you will never know
this place you always long
where you seek where you 
belong
dream that you are there
the scene the smell 
nothing else compares
who is it that you love?
are they there with you?
what kind of feelings do you 
have ?
right now, this minute..
is this place, that your at now 
does it make you feel alive?
the person you love 
what makes you love them?
how would life be with out 
them?
this dream 
this destination
would it be any better if they 
we'rnt there?
or is it a place that you can 
share
have you got faith to trust 
them 
with everything?
what is it that you wake up for?
is it love? is it just day by day 
living?
do you believe the one beside 
you 
is with you on the same 
journey?
would allow you to be free 
with them 
walk on water 
fly in the clouds 
not held back 
a free spirit 
do they let you be 
when you need to flee
a question with out cause 
is irrelevant with out answer 
a dream or destination 
at arms length, tight grip 
or a thousand miles away
either way alone or someone 
beside you 
can make that reality easy to 
become


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the anchor

when someone says you need to forgive someone for something
that does not mean you are saying what they did was okay
when they tell you to just let it go,unhook the anchor...
they mean for you,not for them,see a better day
you are giving someone power,when you let them affect your life to that extent
so forgive someone for YOUR own sake,actually DOES make sense
you hear alot of cliche' things,especially growing up like i did
but at the end of the day,i refuse to let them be that big
the creepy man that scarred you for life,or maybe an abusive husband
the girl that plays mindgames with the good man that's in love with her
that mother who let the stepfather abuse you cause' she "loved him"
or the father that drank and said nothing but "okay" and "sure"
no matter what your situation,you must forgive them promptly
you must forgive them for you,not for them,this doesn't mean it wont be rocky
it's hard to forgive, but its even harder to forget
but if you hold onto these grudges you will regret
you will become a bitter human being,with tons of exhausting baggage
thinking about these things and re-feeling them will run you ragged
trust me,i've lived it
im trying to fix it
im not perfect,im only human
but im trying at least,to remove it
let it go.
unhook the anchor.
let it go.
unhook it from your ankle.


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Powerless Love

The most powerful thing in this world has to be love 
The most precious person you've ever dreamed of, 
Beautiful as can be, upon the midnight sky 
You came out of nowhere, and I didn't know why, 
My heart became my every emotion, and love was part of the feeling 
It's how you make me feel and cure my every healing, 
So deep in the thoughts of powerless love 
Your blinded by the curse you always feared of, 
It's a choice of freedom, or a choice to risk 
The first and last you'll never forget, 
Your heart is the emotion and devotion that couldn't be broken 
And the words that I fear that come out your mouth shall never be spoken, 
I will never let go of the dreams that I am holding 
Or never cut loose on the love that is growing, 
Don't fear the people who you love or who love you 
Just fear the feeling inside, that can no longer touch you. 


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so pathetic

Ever walk through the woods with just a candle?
Confident that you know right where you are going.
Feel the wind blow and your light disappear. 
Anger will help you get there, 
Angry that the wind took your light
Angry that the darkness is always what you seem to have to fight
Rage builds, as you realize hope was so easily takin away
That all your goals and all your plans, relied on this one fragile thing
Never in all the planning did you for see, A step without it's guidance 
The trees whisper plotting their revenge 
Running now, lost in the darkness 
A clearing where the moon can shine through 
As you step into the blue light you see
This is where you should never be
Where is your undying confidence now?
Where is you anger that will push you through 
It's all as lost as you.
No more will to fight, discussed at your own sight.
You lay your head down, begging for the end of this life.
But even though the cold rips through your cloths and the snow covers you
Your broken heart still beats, Your mind still traces his lips
And pretends you can hear his voice tell you it'll be ok
But it's the same sound that took your light away 
Now the only reason you know your still alive is the pain
And you realize you would take the beating each and everyday 
Just to have him say 
He loved you again, Now remember how pathetic you are my friend? 


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Welcome to my nightmare

Welcome to my Nightmare

In the confines of the dungeon walls
The gentle bull eats flesh and all.
While the Griffin with its eagle fire
Would burn up those of strong desire
Who'd enter through the burning gates
Oh they would surely meet their fate.

A maiden waits in sweet devotion
Should the devil take the notion
To send folk down to her allure
She looks gentle, sweet and pure.
But look into her deep green eyes
Then you may see through her disguise.

Those Vampires wait in fearsome lust
As through those nymphs
Some folk be thrust
To have their life sucked out of them
By these ghouly Vampire men.
But there's the lady of your dreams
She's knowing just what all this means

The fires of hell they must be known
Before there's any mercy shown
Through Ghouls and nymphs
And dark, dark fear
The lady's waiting everywhere.
As you pass those fires bold and free
You'll submerge within her mystery.

Socrares Dec 8 2003.


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Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I Wonder
Poem By: Sherman Badgett
Sometimes I wonder if I was dead would I be burnt to ashes or would I be buried with the possibility of having a tone stone
Sometimes I wonder will I go to hell because of my many sins or will it be heaven because God forgives
I wonder who would visit my grave site and how often would they visit
Would I be left alone on my birthday and the day I past away
If not ,who would stay with me for seconds minutes, hours or even days, how long?
Would you leave me flower on the green grass so other visitors would realize I was just shown some love by the fresh flowers left to rot
When you stare at my pictures would your eyes become Niagara Falls or would you reminisce about the past and just laugh it off
It’s hard to show tears when the person is meaningless
Knowing I’m gone y’all probably be in pain, pain causes stress, stress led to sleep or even sudden death
I wonder how someone could neglect someone they truly love
Why cant women stay close to there man during hard times
If I’m forgotten does that mean I’m meaningless
A lot of people hate when they don’t know something
So what’s the point of living if death is secretive?

copyright(rW


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my second chance

In the wake of a full moon
When men search for their beloved
And wolves are in their fullest potential
Surged from the strength of the moonlight
A murder of passion is committed
Hidden in the darkness from the eyes of man
Yet I see the act of rage occur
Now I wage war against the death of my own
They say I’m safe
Hidden from the world‘s eyes
Living in the image of one that is inexistent
Needless to say I am dead
Yet I feel I her eyes
Salvage and study my every move
Now I’m scared of my shadow
And wondering how one night changed my life
I hear her foot steps in my dream
Running away from her dead lover
And a few steps towards
And I realize it is not a dream
She is reaching out to take my life
And I have no power over her
I hear the sound of a gunshot
And realize that the blood is mine
Never knew fear like this before
Now I’m awake in apprehension
Oh my God it was a dream
For me it’s more than that 
It’s a second chance at life and love
A full moon is soon approaching
For my new life I rejoice


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shattered

	

shattered! i am closed down. my life is slowly breaking as more pains come in. i am hurt and i am sad. i am in denial.

disappointed! i am hurting and i am crying. i cry but my tears do not matter to anybody.

life! is this all there is to it? sufferings, pains and agonies? i am done for it. fed up! i have lost the fire to see tomorrow. that fire which ignites hope. oh! did i just mention hope?

hope! just what i need. wait! i have hope. i just dont have it with me or in me. hope is that which revives and it is just what am missing... a revival. i so much want to hope. ok, now i am hoping to have hope. does that mean that i already have hope? is it that am not just believing? well, then help me believe. i so much want to believe. i feel so alone and let don.

deserted! unwanted and hated! those words are ever in my mind. they echo in my dreams and in my sleep. they haunt me. the air i breathe is that of resentment and rejection. all i know about myself is that i am filthy.

yes! filthy. but not literally. stupid is the word she used. how could i not have seen it coming? am i really dumb as the other one put it?

stuck! i dont have the answer to that. ignorant he is, am sure you are telling yourself. i am slowly letting go. the people that matter to me most, the closest and the trusted have made me become this shallow person. my self esteem is dead and none of them care for it. i am a burden to most of them and you know yourselves. some have told me off. some have shown it and some of you are just about to.

why? i ask myself. what have i really done? yes! i know. i falter alot but do you have to hate me with all that is in you? i cry when i sit to think of my life, my friends, my family, my loved ones and what they all do to me. is there anything i can do to atleast feel a bit of your love? even just for a day?

i wonder! why am i still living? why am i still alive in this world where no one even wants to hear my name? letting go. but wait! maybe there is hope. all i can do is hope. and i wish!

i wish mum was still around. she's the only person that ever genuinely loved me. i hurt her, i insulted her, i disrespected her but yet she loved me even more. she taught me how to love and i loved. what did i get in return? hatred, resentment and all that i get from most of you.. why?

God! look upon me. show me your love and mercy. make me believe and give me the fire to hope.

i have one mind.


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Whispers

Swept away 

i feel fear coming

grasping for my breath

screaming my name...

Melisa it whispers blending

contorting with evil shame

holding my precious breath

from this vicious thief of fear

i wonder sorrowful am i sane

just surviving another year


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killed by my memories

killed by my memories

my thoughts, my mind
so ****ed up so twisted inside
they are killing me, ripping me apart
flesh from bone, rippng my very skin from my body
my mind never sleeps, forever tormenting me
drowning me, torturing my soul.
You haunt my dreams, haunt my nightmares
haunt my thoughts, haunt my ****ing soul
give me peace, let me rest
you laid away in hiding for so long,
false sense of hope
now overwhelming sorrow besets itself upon me
I used to be so strong, so resilient
now only a mear shadow of my former self
ive been screaming for so long, screaming for help
screaming in pain on the inside.
Screaming while memories rape my mind
no soul remains, no more room left for anymore pain,
I feel nothing, nothing but anger
im a lost soul, to be forever lost.
nothing to be saved here,
long gone, killed by my memories.


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INSANITY

he screams and yells and throws his arms
he runs helter here and skelter there
i don't do all that but am mentally ill
she rips her clothes, underwear n all
and roam d town, nakedness unknown,
i don't do all that but am mentally ill
he eats the things he finds in bins and browses through d trash in search
i don't all that but am mentally ill
she throws stones and sticks n bricks, hiding under sheds n bridge, her
battle in her head alone, i don't do all that but am mentally ill
if u could see what i see
hear what i hear
fight my battles n cry my tears, if you'v had everything taken away from u,your life ,your dreams, your very soul,you'd  grab your head and shake it hard till you can literally feel your brain a bounce,
you'd scream and shout when no one is home and fix on your face that mask of cool,
you'd ask a question and answer back, the characters only you have met
 you'd know that am mentally ill.
certainly am stark raving mad.


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My first heart break 'Excuse my french'

My body
you wrecked it.
My honor
you disrespected.
When I told you I loved you 
I meant it.
Yet..
You. Didnt. Give. A. F**k.
I guess you could say I was down on my luck.
or
Was I suppose to swollow the pain?
and stay stuck in the same position again?
No. F**K THAT.
I dont want you back.
I Hope you enjoyed your times inside me.
Because now all the memories of us I push behind me.
And in time you will see
the best place you could ever be was beside me.


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ally

Dont grow too fast
my little girl
stay as it was
"Our" world’ s a twirl

Your little houses
and cooking games
those cute blouses…
Just stay the same…

Dont grow too fast
it’s not what you think
stay as it was
Yought is just a blink…

Your highschool club
and little pains
your first ever love…
Please just stay the same…

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FEAR

MR.F
Coerce and seductive is he
Dread like the comb and bee
It tears one who admires
Who can say it is required

Crave not to see it calculated
Else it gets you frustrated
Don’t with it be on table
Cos like water you become unstable

Who are you? Fear!
Oracle of tears-fear
He ask whom shall I chastise
O! Don’t be prize



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Dilemma

So lost-not able to find
Helpless--a drive by shooting--
Regaining regrouping needed--
Lost to myself--where did you go?
 
Something tearing inside--fragmented--
No tools for repairing the breakage--
Lost in turmoil, confusion lives strong--
No retrieving what is lost--forever comes to mind--
 
A maze of thoughts--
Hazy at best--
No understanding--meaning cannot be found--
No trusting, lost in bewilderment--
 
No hope, no surviving--
Effort missing, sensibility lacking
Lost to no one, no one lost
Me is in the heart of it
 
Lost lost lost
Agony lives strong
Disintegrating in anguish--
Nothing to lose; nothing to gain--
 
Darkness/light no difference--
 


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my pain slave

I am not who you think i am 
I am from your deepest fears
when you are awake i see 
when you are asleep i hear
you think i am not out to get you but i am 
i make sun of sam look like a school girl
i only want to love you with my knife
slice your  throught end your life 
im in the bush at night
behind you right by your side
run but you cant hide
im the shadow you see in the corner of your eyes
who am i someone who wants to love you with pain
you could say i am insane 
but do not be afraid i only want to hurt you and make you my pain slave


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Why birds do not sing on this Earth

When hot and It is rain, 
Birds do not sing in vain.
This joy they never feel 
When heat walks upon hill. 
When nothing else has worsened stroke,
This rain is taken for the rock -
Birds fear this intensive sound,
It echoes back the shape of ground:
They harder fear their end 
When endless drops hit waiting land. 
Who's after spot of Paradise on earth? -
It always rains, It always hot,
And question is the same:
Why birds do not sing on this earth 
When heat turns into rain?


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Mommy Listen

I am in my room, Waiting for you. I know you'll be here soon, you have done it since I was nine. I tried to tell mommy, She wouldn't listen. The pain just deppens, with every vain im cutting. I asked why me, But you just laughed. But not anymore, for i have passed. I tried to tell mommy, She wouldn't lisetn. Maybe now she will know, What she was missing.


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TAKE SOME STEPS


                       TAKE SOME STEPS




                 Let not fear control your life
                regardless of any strife or figurative
                knife and be neither a puppet nor a victim
                of any kind

                 If a talking horse and his owner can
                overcome fear with out beer anyone can-
                there is no need for a pan but to push 
                forward

                 The proverbial match has been lit
                you have to hatch a plan soon and take
                some steps or burn-the best decisions
                are never made hastily nor selfishly


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who am i

How can one who lost himself find himself
Every night i have a repeating dream  of an empty field
With a sword in one hand and a mask in the other
As i raise the mask to wear the field is no longer empty
Hundreds stand front of me with same two item a sword and a mask
As i pan the area one thing is different the mask 
With the sword in my other hand i clutch it and raised it as did they
With no nonresistant i  charge towards the mass as they did to me 
I slash, stab, slain, and killed all them
Not once did I wonder who they were as i resume killing
Until one remain the field but  this was different the clothes and mask were red
As i lunge into an endless bout  i grew more exhausted and tired
But the one in red never slowed
Until i stop and look down and notice the sword through my heart
As i fell to my knees i remove my mask looking on the field the men i been fighting 
Were Me
I look up to the one in red and who are he lower his mask it ME
The true me and he said
"The one you slain today are you these were you emotion rage, hate, fear happiness, sadness"
and i ask "which one are you"
He respond "I am love for can never know or fell love until you accept who you are for that reason you will never know love"
As my eyes darken 
I began to wake and notice a blank mask on my bed and wonder
Which one am I


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The Last Day

There will be no more 
there will be so much.
There will be fire
and there will be ice.
There will be tears
and there will be pain.
After this day
nothing's the same. 
I've seen it come
and i've heard the screams.
Don't underestemate me. 
You think Im small
and nothing at all.
But wait and you'll see
the very last day...


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A Sweet Love Poem

My fear I feel deep inside 
follows me around, never far from my side 
Can you promise it always be 
us forever....for eternity?

No amount of  love can erase
the fear that another, could  take my place
Painfully argument's are hard to swallow
will colored rainbows always follow?

As we age and grow older
could our love die, turning cold?


I know you would give me the stars above 
yet can you promise me eternal love?

My  greatest fear will always be
that someday...will you ever stop loving me.


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What Fear Fed On

Fear
The venom that rains
Got you
Drowning
In the desert
And a spirit
Weak in brevity
Strong but unbelieving
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

Society cuts
Flying wings
As to drain
The courageous soul
Of its hope
And then
People die
Rich with power
Power they never used
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

I see plain pain
In your eyes
Hurt laughing at you
You’re afraid
To ever love again
Because your past
Caused you wounds
So you walk agape
Running
In a cold escape
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

I see your dried tears
Inscribed
On your broken face
But a determination
You’ve been robbed of
That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you

So will you
Forever sulk
Forever your conscience bulk
In a pessimist bask?

Or will you
Your mantle take
And fear forever shake
For you live dead
When fear drives your head

That’s what fear fed on
Fear fed on you


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DREAMS

There's a grave in my way.
Lord I am out here, Pave a way
things i cannot see attack me, save me today "OOH LORD"
Daily knees to the dirt as I pray,
surrounded by lost souls,
Iam puzzled seeming like I lost my virtue at the crossroads 
My feet have sunk deep in Africas potholes
Nobody care, because nobody is here.
the grieving stare as I languish in my demise
Lord, open the skies, and make a way for my rise
open my eyes, So I see them that curse my name
blame and frame my name... Lord make all things the same please!!
my life and my dreams.


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Just so I'm with you

As I close my eyes and try to remember your face
A darkness comes I can't seem to erase 
I sit in silence just to hear your voice 
But the noise of how my life has changed is the only thing I can hear
My heart has let go, for feeling are too far gone 
But my mind holds on remembering a smile 
For I have no hope to hold on to now
And I'm stuck in limbo praying for hell 
Heaven never last 
With hell wrapped around like a cast 
You did what I told you to do 
Left no doubt of what you wanted to do 
The only question I have left 
Is what happen to the man I saw that day 
The beautiful words you called to say 
You loved me
For that I have no doubt and in all my years I thought pain had nothing left to teach me 
But pain taught me love wasn't enough 
So I come home to stare into brown eyes
That saved me countless times
To find death has taken hold
To the last thing that had my soul 
And with all the dying 
I've been trying to see the reason of love
But all that is left is pictures of days in the past 
When happiness seemed to last
Now like countless times before
I see my self wishing for the past even more 
Reaching with empty arms 
For something I can't have back 
And with you both my skin still can feel your touch 
My lips fear to have lust 
For they fit perfect with you 
But death had to claim you 
In that moment I saw my love was true 
So let me not fear this knife
With it's cold blade of truth 
Let me feel the blood 
From the heart that bleeds for you 
For if death can take you 
Then it can come for me too 
Rejoin us in heaven or hell 
Just so I'm with you 


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sudden truth

sudden truth
of love unknown
my wasted youth
i have out grown
 
old and stupid
and in my silence
pity my cupid
for i no sense…
 
for i not say
what i must speak
for i not stay
with in her cheek
 
still d’same
and never grown
a boy in stain
a man not shown

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untitled

"You have a spirit in you son."
 [an unlikely host it so seems]
A glare from diamond- like eyes,
 as so {like a light} to redeem.
 "you're smile heals souls, and a voice
that softly flows."
( a non-believer w/ a flame that brightly
glows.)
"an old spirit w/ knowledgable personas" {she claimed}   
A quoted repetoir,
  and a rough existance to be blamed.
 Her beautiful, dark, wrinkled face
spotted a grin.
[calling for beauty from a man of 
monsterous sin.]
 " You have a spirit in you son", 
{an unlikely host that's been named?}
 a disproportionate smile mirrored back,
a so-called "spirit" thats been tamed.



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Hope

Hope
        Hope, the lack of fear,
        Travelling through desperate ears.  
        Ignited for those who are dear,
        The heart is where hope is seared.

         Desperation, the lack of hope,
         Weakening us, making us weep.
         But truth be told we are not weak,
         For a sliver of hope can do the trick.


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Alot In Me

Afraid to sleep at night
Too much on my mind
And I pray that god
Will guide my heart
Will save me right in time
And my joy melts into stressing
I have no one to lift me high
And now the madness in me
Is gathering
Having no where left to hide
Every day in my life,
There's a problem I have to find inside
But somewhere inside my heart,
A diamond lies deep inside
And I hope I'm gonna be saved in time
So you see I got a lot in me
But there's more than this for me
When god lands his hands to heal my heart
I'll be just fine
And the madness that surrounds my heart
It shatters as they land
See I grew up on a painful road.
But I learned to block the pain
No, I wont give up tomorrow
Because I'll come to life
Again


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since you been gone

Feeling so all alone now i dont know wat to do wen i was good before kuz i always had u im falling apart i feel the pain deep in my heart no matter how hard i try to keep it together i feel myself falling  harder n harder everyday it gets worst i feel soon im just gona burst   I cant believe im never gona see you again its hard for me to accecpt n comprehend r.i.p cholo without you i feel all alone now im riding solo i miss you alot a place in my heart u got believe me my nigga everyday in my mind ur a thought i dont know wat im gona do this is the hardest thing i ever went threw


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save me i beg

Smile smile,
Tear, tear
Pain, pain.
Please make it
Go away.
It's driven insane,
Lord help me erases
What my heart can
 no longer swallow.
For I'm a committed sinner,
No longer 
Well i  fear
An let him in.
Dragging me down deeper.
To wear I'm no longer.
From down below up to the sky
I hope you can here my
Cries....


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My dark friend

An evil falls within your bodyThat no one can see
A darkness that's meant for you and me 
Never in this world have I found a soulAs evil as dark as broken as mine
Hood up eyes darken your heart beats slower as you walk my way
A friend of mine you have changed
Every muscle in my body tells me to run Away 
My heart feels the painAs my soul watches its twin walking in 
Sliding down the wallUnable to do anything else
Breathing quicken as I feel you next to me
Eyes open to see evil itself in front of meA growl flows from the familiar places
Your breathe burns my neck in the best ways
Scared of what I see but I can't push you away 
I lean farther to the cornerAnd in the moment of my weakness 
You went in for the killYour body pushed against mine
Your teeth on my neckGrowling As I knew in any second my life could be through
Your teeth scrapping my neckAs you breath filled my ears and blow my hair
No where to run,not wanting to scream
Curling into my selfYou pull my arms away 
Pinned now Held by your power
The darkness covers me and I give up the fight
My Evil rises My demons once again walk
My resting place I have found, an understanding of the claimed now
Unleashed and untamed I look into your eyes
Only to find the light is gone,The humanity has fallen
Now I see everythingNo shield No glamor 
Blackness pours out of your eyes as if they were waterfalls
My mind tells me to be scared The light in my soul says to pray
Voices said that you were hear to make me learn 
To teach me the ways 
We are the two that our cursed
Smiles cross our faces I now no where I completely belong
Your hand reaches outI can't resistsThe peace the comfort 
I'm Home as I accept his hand and my life begins to fall away 
Now I understand that I am yours
I know who you are As the world passes us by
You pull me off the wall and lead me towards his victims 
Or are they our friendsLooking around they see nothing different 
My hand in his as we stand by there sides
A moment in time we shared A moment only we could see 
As if someone stopped the turn of this world 
I Urn for the feeling of our darkness
It whips away all the pain, It connects us in a ungodly way
Feening for this drug again, Sober scares us into the light
Stoned enables us to find the meaning of our life
You are my connection to what is ours
You are my darkness that pulls me back from the light
You are what reminded me of why I am here
We were meant to meet meant to invoke the powers we were giving
And save our selves from each other


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Tell it

Loving!
I have never been so FULL.
Now I'm empty!
My heart strings you no longer PULL!

Hating!
So much RAGE!
Your love for me...
I used your violence to GAGE!

Hurting!
I'm BLEEDING!
Your demons have given you enough REASON to feel righteous in your TREASON! 

Praying!
On my KNEES!
Scarred arms covered with SLEEVES!

Sinning!
Good vs EVIL!
All my attempts are made FEEBLE!

Burning!
On FIRE!
All these head games! 
I have grown TIRED!

Shaking! 
So AFRAID!
I have nothing left to give!
Please stop! 
I want to LIVE!

Living!
Every breath I took for YOU!
Now I'm just existing! 
Breathing because I'm supposed TOO!

Dying!
Every moment felt like the END! 
I'm still here!
Missing my FRIEND!


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scared of love

Do I have a Fear of love or am I scared of commitment
The answer I can’t even bare to listen
I’ve always got a pretty girl, cutest smile, sexiest body, nicest bum
Yet I can’t ever see myself wifeing one
I don’t feel a thing for them my heart’s cold. My insides are numb
So people think the way I live my life is dumb
Even if I like this one
I’ll tell her she’s the wrong one
The moment I like her and she begins to get close
I know it’s time to let go
I’m more interested in writing and getting songs done
You would understand why I act this way
If you knew me before
There ain’t an ex I would take back today
It’s ok for them they’re in my past, safe
So I move on, one after the other
Is it because I was never close to my sister or mother
Is it because I’ve lost the only girl I ever loved, the girl I would of wifed up?
But I messed up. Cause I’m not good at this relationship type stuff 
The pain from my childhood am I still healing
People think I don’t care about these girls feelings
Yet I always think should I of treated her better?
But I’ll always leave when she says she needs me forever
It’s too much pressure on me
I give my best. Yet you still expect better from me
Maybe one day I’ll find the girl who will help me overcome my fears
Or maybe till the day I die my fears will last
So we can Enjoy tonight  together while you are here
But I apologise if tomorrow I don’t call back


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Invisible

  INVISIBLE

I wish I was invisible
Oh, that would be so incredible
If I wasn't seen
I could be so mean
People get on my nerves
I'd give them what they deserve
Smack! Whack! Flip them on over
crack with a bat! I can be colder

Anger grows stronger
But you can't see me
I could go wrong
and you would still believe me
Oh the temptation of how I feel
Getting in their face
It could get real

If you could see me
I couldn't get away
Just believe me
It's why I stay away
If I was gone and disappeared
I would steer you in such fear
I would forever be gone little one's
You cannot come along
This is so much fun

If I was invisible
I could do all I want
Hang out and relax
I couldn't be stopped
The clock is ticking
and I keep going
Doing everything I want
Without you knowing

If I was invisible
I couldn't talk to anyone
I would blow a whistle
So I could stop all this fun
I'd rather see you as you see me
We can all get along, trust me, believe me


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The Lonely I am

I am the lonely
My heart isn't whole
I'm the only thing I have
But in my soul I know

I am the lonely
Here's my chance to escape this shame
Things are distinct now
But whose to blame
can you tell

No one cares that I am the lonely
But it will all be ok
Or so I say
These words are just crazy

Because I am the lonely
I sit by myself alone 
This time my heart is gone
And I have nothing to show 
Except that I am the lonely


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Black Rose of Love

       The dread black rose has such  dark meaning to it.
       It can never find a way to a heart .
       The Thorns are deadly t all who touch and hold .
        The Black pedals on that on the rose show pain and suffering and loss .  
        A Creation of such darkness such Agony and Despite  in it .
        How  does a person turn such a creation a Black Rose into a Red  Rose .
        The Black Rose of Love is  heart ache , pain , hatred  for your love of people and things .
 For that is the Black rose of love  

                      Stay away from the Black Rose of Love.


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Mirror

My body faced towards a mirror
pondering how could my race be inferior
scars, once behind bars my realisation approaching nearer
iris zooming towards the mirror, my supremacy is clearer
Mother natures chosen, she cries and we hear her
walking closer to the mirror, and I see poison media
backstabbing and witchcraft whats your choice of beer
many tried and died,.. some molested by fear
dusty minds of the ancient soldiers in Libya
sinister actions of hatred towards the superior
They should make their mercy be our admirer 
Procure peace through a heart which is pure
every word that exits my jaw, 
mirror mirror looking at me like I have the world to live for
mirror nailing my bludders to the wall
mirror showing me an image, a purpose and matter scrimmage
Mirror shows me I, Not my life.


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The Truth

Whats this love for? Is it worth it this time?
Are you gonna break my heart? 
Are you truly gonna be mine? 
Guys will say anything behind those jail walls , but 
the sad thing is I wouldn't believe you even if you 
weren't in jail at all.
You've done some horrible things Bobby. 
You truly broke my heart.
When I lost you my whole damn world feel apart.
I'm not saying that to make you feel bad.
I'm saying that cause when I lost my whole world got sad.
I'm not perfect never have been but , I truly loved you 
and still remained your friend.
Now 7 years later the same words you once said.
I love you Megan , I need you so bad.
The sound of your voice is still the same and hidden in your words are lies.
Things are different this time. I'm not the same girl.
If you try to play games with me I promise I will get the highest score.
I won't fall for it this time I'm mean it I do.
I won't let another guy put me threw what you put me threw , not even you.
If you love me we can hold each other threw all this bad weather.
We can get threw it together , but if you hurt me its gonna be bad. 
Not trying to sound mean but my pride is all that I have. 
I promise to love you & be there till the end , and if *****gets to 
deep I promise to remain your friend. 
I hope you do the same , but I hope even more you mean what your saying.
Just be honest Bobby thats all I ask. If you do that I willing to let go of the past.
I wont bring it up no more , if you can show me there's a reason I fell in love with you.
I want to know there is love behind all this pain we've been threw.
If you can do that then the sun will truly shine , and the gas is greener on the other side.
Most of I will be your everything and you'll be mine.
I'll love and cherish you and when you do time I'll do time.
Like Bonnie & Clyde if you show me you love me , I'll ride or die. 
To the end of time , you could be the only man that's on my mind.
That's precious. Getting me to say some *****like that is a blessing.
I hope you learned your lesson. Your 34 I hope your ready to man up , and be all 
that you can be and more. You owe to it yourself but even more to your kids.
You need to show them their dad's not as bad as everyone says he is. 
I know together we can make it. If I didn't it would be heartbreak that I'm risking
taking. 
So please hear my words their is more to life than trying to put yourself in the dirt.
Stand up and realize what your worth I want you to love yourself and remember I 
loved you first. 


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Mine Alone

A cold,dark chill...wind and rain and bluster............... Fear overtakes me... Shakes out of control... I fight them with all I can muster.................................... The storm is blowing in the spirits... I catch a glimpse as they dance in the corner of my eyes............. I want to run for my life but I am paralyzed... Fixated on the Gray and Black skies......................... The 
hair stands high on my Arms and on my Neck... The smell of death fills my nose and the shrieking sounds of screams violate the drums in my ears... I just want to be some place else.. but I stand strong and fight back the tears................................ I try again to flee but at every turn they manifest as the face of a Demon trying to capture my soul... why me............................................... They are darker than Black and so is the night... I am blind except for the lightning flash... and then it`s nothing I want to see.................................. They will chase me until I am weak and take what is theirs and that is the day I no longer live....................... Their pursuit will be relentless and they will pick away at my psyche until I have nothing more to give.................................... No one else need worry about these Demons they are mine alone and will haunt me until my very last breath.......................... and then I will live with them in the fire for an eternity... my Demons will own me throughout my life... and forever........ after my death..................


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Possession

Pounding, pounding, 'side my head
Flip around 'till nearly dead.
Scratching at the back of my brain
Crashing forward, running train
White eyes glare out, banish me gone
But I may stay firm, must stand strong
Or the demon inside will kill more and more
And the world will be like never before.


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FRAGILE HEART

As you walked into the light that shined upon the street
Your eyes met mine and my heart skipped a beat
You were just like an Angel being sent from above
Reminding me the feeling of being in love
So I kept my distance whenever you came near
Afraid from my feelings because love's what I fear
I kept my heart locked with a key I would not give
Scared that you may hurt me so I refused to let you in
But when it finally came down to telling you goodbye
I opened up my heart to you and allowed myself to try
Now my heart is aching for someone I barely know
I hope I never half to learn to let you go
The way I feel for you I can't quiet explain
It makes my heart accelerate and it's driving me insane
though distance may separate us at times while we're apart
But I'll treasure every moment and hold you in my heart


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miss u more and more

Eachday I miss u more & more
I get so weak i feel like dropping to the floor
    It's hard for me to comprehind that I'm never gonna see you again You were more than just my bestfriend 
    In my life you were one of the closest friends I ever had
I can't believe ur not here It's hitting me so fukn bad


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true face

Can't stand my reflection mirrors are my worst enemy, cuz the face I have inside is not what u all see, my true image is horrifying make peoples eyes bleed, so I conceal it so noone knows how ugly. I am you can't see it but I can if I could I would do what atmosphere talked about in tattooed hands. Beautiful image on one hand and demon face on the other, a truely hideous face only one can love and that's my mother, even tho I was lucky enough to find myself a lover, who loves me for me times that by three and that's still doesn't compare to how much I love her. But back to the topic how I had beauty and lost it, and exactly how I got it. And the way I got it is from my past and battle scars, how I had to battle hard so I could get this far. And I keep on pushin makin my true face look more different then how its lookin, if you could see it you'd be shookin it looks this way cuz of all the shit iv tookin . But I don't care what you think cuz its me and and I'm me and I wouldn't take back anything, cuz my image is mine not yours, and my life is all I do it for, dont matter if I'm rich or poor the world is winning but I'm bout to even the score


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replacement

why do i have to be scared , i fear being replaced , being the real thing , but not enough to keep my spot in your heart .i keep my head high , try not to think about it, i try everything but it doesnt help . i fear being nothing without you seeing me the same way . your veiw on my is changing i see it , i feel it . im slowly being pushed away .its for the best since when is being replaced the best , since when is not being good enough , for the best .


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i can only call this one MIKE

What does one say , to someone he's never met, what does he say so she'll never forget .
In a moment like this its instinct to lye and when i say lye i mean act like a guy. Not like the man you think you are, with a name in capitals and has its own star. we fear the truth cause it speaks to much, imagine the story if your life's been rough. So day to day left with a mask , one that will block all questions you ask. talk is cheap or so they say its the lessons in life that lead us to  today . so i look to the past with the future in mind, cause i no there'll be answers to some questions ill find.I write this quick cause my lifes like this . 

My mind wonders sometimes it ponders, what would life be like if we were all gonners ,would anyone notice im not in my place would they not even miss me or remember my face .


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abanded

When im needing love n affection all im feeling is neglection  I cant believe hes treating me so bad never felt so confused n so sad i feel like a lost depressed soul that lost everything i had i feel so stupid for believing him n trusting what he said now im broken hearted n misled over here halfdead im shaking with pain inside n out this is the worst i ever felt it feels like i have nothing at all n im not even inportant enough for him to call n he wont catch me if i fall betrayed unloved confused going crazy mentaly abused heartbroken n used So much pain n tears how could he do this to me after so many years


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Life

I never knew how life could be. Everyone always said just wait and see. Its hard when your on your own. You miss the sound of your parents tone. You are so far away. You were a child just yesterday. You have to make your own living. Its hard because your parents were the ones giving. You always thought that being grown up was fun. When you you were a kid you always wanted to be one. Now things are different the world isn't the same. How fast it goes is just a shame.


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More then just pleasing

I want someone I can kiss.
Someone I can wrap my arms around.
Someone to undress me.
Someone to cover my mouth
so the neigbors cant hear a sound.
Someone to make me drip with lust.
Making me beg for more is a must.
Someone whos tounge makes me sensitive to every touch.
Someone whos so rough and yet gental that to the sheets 
I clucth.

And when its over....

I want someone I can kiss
Someone I can lay with.
Someone who will stroke my hair.
Someone who will hold on tight.
Someone who will never leave.
Someone who I more than just need.
And for every reason they stay 
In every way I know 
Its more than just pleasing.


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SANDMAN

I am the sandman bringer of fear taking you're soul and removing all that is dear .
I see when you're sleeping you cannot hide because I am the shadows right by you're side.
I am the reaper that makes you're heart bleed taking you're fear on which I feed .
You may think its safe when you wake, knowing its over while you shiver and  shake .
But don't worry I'll continue the pain and one day just maybe it'll drive you insane.


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Fear

Heart ache heart break is the definition of fear why must it be fear I have given my heart to a couple and what happens besides heart ache or heart break first comes fear and than anger and hate why is this cuz we will be hard to love again we put our life on the line we try again we will punish may before we find the right one we will hunt for a life time but we continue to attempt to try we let our past affect our future but when will we allow that to happen when we can finally can let our guard down take off our mask and stop allowing our past affecting our future I future has yet to happen so why do we let the past dictate it it's human nature to avoid pain witch results for heart ache and heart break witch is what we call fear 


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DONT WEEP FOR ME

Don't weep for me
i will be fine and strong.
when it rain i will be fine, 
when the sun shine i will be fine.
i look unto God for my survival.
Men can fail and trample upon me if hope on, 
But God never fail thousand times.
He alone knows my story and tribulations 
in the hands of Destiny and faith.
As i am  being drag to the dungeon
With this black maria painted hatred and sorrow, 
I know i will be fine in the middle of the night
when human voices shall be no more but
that of howl hunting human souls.
Look not the blood tears gushing down from my eyes, 
Truth shall reveal itself after many hearing.
Don't weep for my honour nor for my glories, 
weep not for my life nor for my sorrow, 
i will be fine in good justifications
Take care of my wife and mother as i go.
Bear up my children in your hands.
They are my gold and my future, 
when i am no more.
Tell Ozuruonye not to cry, all depend on God.
Advice Kambili never to give up on her dreams.
let her strike while the iron is still hot.
Warn Onye to take responsibilities of his younger ones.
if tomorrow never comes, tell my children that i love them.
Tell them how i was humiliated and battered in my innocence.
and warn them to be wearing of humans.
Dear friend, weep not i be fine.


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Page Twenty

My past, its starting to collide with my present but still, its 
still a blessing even tho it feels like a desert...everything 
in life is a lesson, but this one thing may be holding me 
back from true happiness and it has me feeling lesser, 
unless I...follow this threw, everything happens for a 
reason that's why its happening to you! After prayer 
there's that moment of clarity, but my heart needs cpr 
I'm in a state of emergency...my past is still haunting me 
something serious, and that's the one thing I hate telling 
people I fear it...might run them away...but Lord God let 
the old me the, the fear in me slowly decay, let me do it 
your way even it hurts following you does pay, I'm in a 
hurt locker, I need my heart doctor...make me whole, 
don't let me sleep on you I'm taking no dose!


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Fearless

What I fear is that who I am and what I become is gonna 
be incompatible with who you are. I fear that the spirit of 
God that I carry within me, is gonna make war with the 
flesh you live to satisfy. I fear that I'll have to choose 
between the everlasting love, need, want & desire for my 
Lord against what I feel for you. I fear we will grow apart 
in time because we aren't serving the same God and 
because we live in two different worlds we could never be 
together as one for that purpose. I won't try to change 
you, your mind, or your heart. But I'm also 
fearless...because the Love I have for God is more greater 
than my love for you so In time if I have to choose and 
we're just never gonna live the same life for Christ...oh 
well its a sacrifice I'm willing to make


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Shattered

All these years have passed
And I still don't know who you are
Every day goes by so fast
Wondering if I should go so far
To see the man up north
He says he cares, he says he loves
My mind travels back and forth
Once again, taken custody in handcuffs
Inside these concrete walls, I sit away
Busted and disgusted, tears begin to fall
Watching time creep along each day
Knowing it shouldn't be like this at all
Never behind bars too long
The outside world provides me light
Compelled to change what I did wrong
Striving to do what is right
Living day by day just getting by
Seething with the twisted pain
I appear in the mirror and ask myself why
Should life be so vain
Gaping into the eyes of reality
The reflection begins to tear and rip
Frightened of the shattered imagery
My psyche endures a further trip


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haters dont love themselfs

people who are jealous 
are those who pick on others
people that hate and judge
are those hiding insecurity under their covers.
their insecuritys are vented through anger
at those who have something they lack
they may be in denile about it
and when confronted they bite back.
haters dont love themselfs
because they may not have been shown love
those who bully and hurt people around them
are normally those who have had it tough
but there is always a crack 
that just needs cracking a little bit more
once you've hit their weakness
they cant hurt you no more.


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Night with the Living Dead

Wounded in battle from a long drawn fight;
Took refuge, late in the night, in a small burial ground;

Hungry and thirsty with no place to hide, fell asleep, in the dark of the night;

Woke to a sudden chilly breeze blow, that sent shivers and tremors right through my  my spine;

The rustle and tussle of dry twigs and leaves, kept my eyes open with gleaming tears;

Shadows of darkness from big grumbling trees, felt like mammoths coming right at me;
Whisper in whispers from creatures around, felt like the world was angry with me.

Grumbling & scrambling with my two feet, hoped to catch a light in the dark.

Cris, crossing crosses, showed me a sign, only to quickly disappear again;

Huge was expansion, fighting direction seemed like an ocean filled with commotion,
in such proportion, that losing my quotient was simply a notion trying to flee from darkness & thee;

Slammed in the body by an ivory post that struck like a hand, from a man standing in silvery sand;
Fell to the ground with absolute sound that none could hear in such a town;

Woke the next morning shaking my ache, only to see voices awake;
Asking me questions that I could not take;
Managed to fumble and stumble away to a fresh start on happiness day


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set free

i was 3 years old, and by you i was hurt

you treated me has if i was a piece of dirt

you took me in the bathroom day after day 

against my own will, after awhile it didn't matter what i would say

each new day that came, you would waite till she was gone

then you would continue where you left off, and you knew it was wrong

i was trapped by your aweful touch

how could you hurt me, how could you over me lust

i was just little, i was only three

i knew one day though i would be set free

the best day was when i got taken away 

no longer i am your little prey

i hope has time goes on, God changes you

so you won't do those aweful things that you do


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Public Transportation

I was like hey I can save and fight this pollution I thought this was a good decision but as I started to ride I could not believe my eyes, so much much was going on,yes something is wrong as we pay are fare the real pollution hit the air and your are forced to breathe in this piss stench, the seats give you a creepy feeling now it got you itching,the loudness of people being on their phones, I can't rest on the ride home,the crazy people that you in counter on the daly basis ,yes I'm talking about people and some are racist,somebody should have warned me that this will be the ride of my life,germs in the air,trash every where,it's a scare beware.


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soul

waisted time wasited space waisted soul thats all i am...............
i make you sad i make you cry now i should be the one  to die
pain tears crying falling nothing better then trash burning eyes flames with
fire pain so deep cant shake off.waitse of life waist of time and a waist of love
no comments no faith no fear only pain and tears and a waitsed soul.no smiles 
no fears only evil looks and deivl eyed tears burning  heart waitsed space earth 
is a horrible place.sad cry i shall be the only one to die.exiting deaths of no  fear 
despret nature despret year.just a waisted soul


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Accidents Happen

driving down the street jamming out to the beat 
not knowing what we were about to meet 
the next thing i knew i had fallen asleep 
waking up to the screeching of tires 
i pinched myself hoping it was just a bad dream 

as i feel something grab me pulling me to safety 
i look back and i see the complete opposite 
pain blood agony 
my friends my family nearing death 

the sound of sirens draw nearer and nearer 
carting one by one off to the hospital 
for hope that their lives can be saved 

sitting int he waiting room 
pondering why it wasnt me looking death in the eye 
why must i always be the one standing by 
why is it my hearts the one to cry 
too many times its me saing goodbye 

as the sun starts to rise 
i jet back home so my parents arent surprised 
jump in the shower getting ready as if nothing happened 
during the day my mask is put on the night is when it comes off 
forced to face reality of the horrifying accident that had just happened 

every breathe i take feels as though it is not worthy of being breathed 
what has happened to me 
why all the lies why all the pain 
where did the old me go 

day by day i wait anxiously for the latest news about my friends 
till finally the out come has arrived 
marcus will not survive 
after hearing the news my heart shattered into a million pieces 
how many more are going to be taken away 
where am i supose to go from here 

tear after tear 
my heart grows with more fear 
fear of loosing others fear to take off my mask and show the world i am hurting 
how can this be how can so many people die when it should be me 

the answer is it was an accident 
nothing can be changed about what has happened 
the cure is time 
and that is what i seem to have a whole lot of 


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fellings for you

love,hope,and fear all the felling i feel tords you i love you for ever
i hope we can be together  forever and i fear what will happen next.i  love for who 
you are.
hope thats you love me for who i am now.fear of you dumping me.love,hope,and 
fear.happy,sad,or mad...
you always make me happy when im with you .im sad when your gone i fell so 
alone.
i get so mad at what you say so easily.i like im the happiest person you will ever 
know
because im dating you.people get sad thier not dating you as i am.lots of people 
get mad at you for some stupid things  you do   but they dont know the ways i feel 
about you.


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DUET

                       
  "YOU BROKE MY HEART" NO YOU SOLD ME OUT"

So often we are actors in a play that's often tragic
the lines are old and worn and they wished they had done magic.
If they had  pulled a rabbit from a hat
they might laugh instead of shout.

Lying in a field of love believing hidden in the grass
clinging there in desperate fear hoping it will pass.
neither one will speak of it for fear of losing hope
weighted down within themselves not knowing how to cope.

Pieces of their hearts do crumble
beneath the weight of time
slowly sinking in the mire 
of love that's so unkind.

So goes the days as man and wife
Who forgot that they were friends
two souls that once were joined as one
now trying to pretend.