Am I Ok?

I look in the mirror, this is all strange. I feel so different, peaceful, happy, somehow in a better place. I feel like I should be sad. I always have been, so maybe always should be. Am I really ok? Is it possible I am lying to the people I love and this heart deep? I seem to smile, with out wanting to die and I am starting to wonder why. I can say that I am alone, I made myself strong, no one else must be thanked, but that would be all wrong. Am I really ok? I look around, maybe I'll find an answer, and I see my friends, my family, my counselors... and they all lead me to look up. And I must finally say... I must be ok. God has led me to this place, these people, new ways, He has shown me that I am ok.