This was written from the heart.
Never knew it'd come to this.
I don't know where to start.
Mama, your son gotta kind heart!
But every day, the world's telling me to play my part.
From a boy to a man, I had to transcend.
Like a pea in a pot, I had to grow up.
Never once complained when it's time to show up.
I've been scarred, betrayed, and left to fend for myself.
No one's fault but mine, for trust don't get you far.
So I've learned to keep my heart dark, like a tint up car.
And fight it by myself this internal war.
Sorry it took me so long to understand.
The world's doesn't cater for the weak.
That every man's battle is in their own hands.
Win or lose, you gotta stand strong.
And a man's tears are as worthless as a dollar coin.
The older I get, there's thing's I comprehend.
Like family can be your biggest hater, nothing like a friend.
And you gotta answer to God for every sin.
I apologize for not knowing this in the beginning.
I tried to take something off your plate,
That was a huge mistake.
Honestly, sorry for what I ate,
Now there is no way to replace.
Trying to find a compromise,
I honestly want to apologize.
Truthfully, can’t decide,
Do I deserve to die?
The whole time, I was just along for the ride.
Got me staring at the sky
Questioning is my brain working fine,
I tried to brush it to the side,
But now it doesn’t want to hide.
Maybe it was the wrong place, wrong time.
Did I learn my lesson?
Well now I’m second-guessing
I just want to know what’s the message.
Honestly why am I stressing,
Hoping for a blessing,
Steady checking
When I didn’t even have the weapon.
Not one thought of aggressing
Is it time for me to do some reassessing?
Or will I just be regressing?
I sit here with the truth oppressed,
Wearing guilt across my chest
In this silence I’m a mess
All I wanted to do was my best.
A chance
Just one. Only one. A chance, please, and open,
open your heart, give me a path, let me get a heart
Let that be yours. Let it mine from yours. A little love
Just ask me. Do you know? Or love is the best, greater,
in the world. Yes. And this is yours. Not mine. Take mine
Hmm. Just for a minute give me your heart then dying
Let me die
I lived for you
Ask Satan
Yeah
Love
Dried a
Heart
Vilmos
Excuse me, and excuse yourself
If you think you were unfair
You were not, because you felt
That for me you mustn’t care
Without caring, as you know
There’s no faith in bright tomorrow
You decided I must go
Thank you darling for my sorrow
There is nothing you can say
How would you feel in my case
When your love says go away
And you cannot see that face
You have never been involved
In the stranger situation
When the one you love turns cold
Without any explanation
And no certain age can tell
Where to the rejected goes
It’s the other people’s hell
You do not belong to those
I sincerely apologize
If I made you feel frustrated
Blame it all on me, its wise
There I go, forever grateful
I was stealing time of yours
With nonsensical chit chat
Till you finished this - of course,
There’s no guilt of you in that.
I hurt someone today
I made them tremble and cry
I hung my head to pray
For my forgiveness to be nigh
I wasn't sure what I did
It was all right at the time
It's so vivid in my head
Yet my darkness made me blind
How could this all happen?
My dearest, sweetest friend?
Every time we check in
I know we've met the end
But do know I regret it
Do know that I would try
To cry out all your tears and
To take them all as mine
At nights I cry alone now
It seems I've fallen apart
But in midsts of tears I still vow
To one day heal my heart
So why now do I write this?
This horror which made me fall?
I do it to confess this
Because I trust you with my flaws
I hope this helps someone today
To know we all mess up sometimes
Bitter, and yet bittersweet
You'll be forgiven for your crimes
I sincerely apologize on my own behalf
It has taken me so long
To have eventually woken up
And to respond and reply
To you as you did to me
As I was so taken up in my own ego and self
With you complimenting and embellishing me
With undue undeserving praise
I never was able or took my time to realize
Whilst you were complementing me
Backing up my own delusional thoughts
Thinking believing and buying into
Just how smart I thought I was
What I failed to sadly and unfortunately
Realize was just how smart you in fact
Actually you we're rather than me
And now I have finally seen the light
I sincerely apologize
I let my ego run away and get so out of hand
And also now more than ever sincerely appreciate
You are still willing to accept my apology
So in some small inconsequential way
I feel my debt and your faith in me
Was and has been repaid
With these eyes I can see,
my fingers writing,
what my heart feels,
a message to my late mom.
My letter was written,
then left on my desk,
it was meant to be sent,
with kisses and love.
The stamp waited to be placed,
your envelope wasn't sealed,
that's the reason why,
to the mailbox I never raced.
Then came the day,
to bid a bye to the world,
it was like a candle,
that it blew away.
As days passed by,
I realized that there was something wrong,
now it was too late to apologize,
for the mistakes I made.
Someday I miss,
the burn of a love lost,
or maybe,
I didn't realize your true love.
I gave you every drop of tears I got,
because the best ,the best way,
for one day I dreamt,
perhaps I will never see you again.
Then I'll mail it to you mom,
signed,stamped and addressed,
to you in heaven above.
PEACE
With these eyes I can see,
my fingers writing,
what my heart feels.
My letter was written,
then left on my desk,
lost amongst the bills.
It was meant to be sent,
with love and kisses,
hoping we could make amends.
The stamp waited to be placed,
your envelope wasn't sealed,
to the mailbox I never raced.
Like a leaf in the breeze,
It blew away,
scattered amongst the trees.
I left my pen,
for one day perhaps,
it will press me again.
Then I'll mail you my love,
signed, stamped and delivered,
from me in heaven above.
Nature i am sorry
Sorry
Sorry
So sorry
We humans have eradicated you
Denatured you
Destroyed you
Humiliated you
Taken away you forests
Your flowers
Destroyed your soil
For our houses industries and malls
I am sorry
My mother earth
I am sorry
I
When mistakes (sins, really) occur
Again, again, again, again, again
Who has grace enough to forbear?
Maybe misguided mothers, not men
Like me ... Either old school or clear
About action-reaction, choice - consequence
II
All sides gain if there seems to be justice
With great mercy, grace, forgiveness
Or forgiveness is but a burdened brute
Like donkeys (old English "@asses")
That cannot get human consideration
Since none would take a donkey to tea
Or coffee, or - O my human brain - therapy
But you & I must feel our identity
As humans is respected; humans ought not beg for humanity
In the name of misguided forgiveness
On the one side only; error must pay & learn
Or forget forgiveness & all education
Such is the choice for this generation
"Goodbye civilization," or bring back repentance
Only poo can make this world seem bright
Only poo can make what's heavy light
Only poo and poo alone can thrill me to the bone
So I fill my toilet to the brim with poo.
Never apologize for being you, he said.
Just don’t be so much of you that people get scared.
I was shocked at this advice from my insane cousin Ned.
I had no idea that this apathetic guy even cared.
I didn't know your name was joy
something I never found in my toolbox
or between the medicine packs
in the kitchen cupboard
time to replace the wrong things
that I threw on the shelves of illusion
because a shy sun dares through the clouds
just now that I tasted sugar
at the end of bitter coffee
I must apologize to myself
I thought happiness
it was just another plastic word
created to sell insurance and refrigerators
when I saw your face smiling
through the windshield
next to the gas station pump
I already knew I was doomed
to our love's death row
Ever so sorry
My sincerest appologies
It must be my turn to apologise again
As my forlorn downtrodden mood
Is obviously stopping me from
putting you first
And displeasing you and causing
some mild discomfort from
feeling so much better
So better i as you revert to type
As otherwise god gorbid you may
terminate our so called friendship
If there is nothing in it for you
Haven't you stolen enough kisses
and broken too many girls' hearts?
Haven't you played crazy games
with beautiful and rich dames?
Playboys never apologize,
they stand on their pedestal...
until lies make them fall
and sorry looks dramatize!
Charm lasts through youth,
then it fades from the eyes
and becomes bitter untruth
as age is shown on the faces!
Playboys never apologize,
they stand on their pedestal...
until lies make them fall
and sorry looks dramatize!
What can happen to a playboy
who still chases after women?
Will he be satisfied completely
and settle down with one woman?
Playboys never apologize,
they stand on their pedestal...
until lies make them fall
and sorry looks dramatize!
After a playboy has fun with a lady,
he searches for more, he will ignore
the one who loves him and waits at home;
and betraying her, he hurts her deeply!
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