Contrite
Contrite
I'm supposed to sleep now,
right, how?
One single stone of such irrefutably
inferior quality
built into anything worthy
can destroy the entire entity.
Thus the feeling of humility
casts immediately
its necessity
upon me.
Strength and weakness
trade places
and righteousness
becomes iniquity,
Anger in its fury
destroys in seconds any everlasting beauty,
that ever had a chance to be.
The contrasting images I see
are like slow motion as the hope and dream are suddenly so distant
dashed in an instant.
What else is left to feel,
beware, this is real,
contrite is right.
Remorse,
of course
but what of bliss,
gone the vestiges of harmony,
stop stop, here an excuse,
an explanation of abuse,
say what, are you kidding me,
such is not the way that I can be,
no, this which is is within me,
therefore the why is not a plea,
innocent because I have the right to feel this way,
that is not ok.
What is the source of this contrite spirit which dwells in me now,
consider it's opponent, it's polar opposite and how
Pride on one side seems to rise above
even the strongest love,
love is not strong because of pride,
nor should such feelings be inside
of anything worth being in,
pride is sin
and will not win
if contrition can begin.
A conscience thought
a feeling wrought
with such emotion rarely sought,
wrings its might upon my heart,
it's there the healing has to start,
what a fool what an ass am I,
to have even cast an eye
at thinking it would slide on by,
such torment I begin to cry.
So unworthy so unjust
gone the faith, away with trust,
just an instant all it takes
to cause such pain that the heart breaks,
How could such be
the who in me,
what was it that I didn't see,
can there ever be,
forgiveness in your heart for me?
Of such I ask, of that I pray,
somehow some way
to find sufficient words to say,
I'm sorry how I was today..
David Dobbins July, 2013
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David Michael
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