My Faith is challenged
when new ideas I’m conceiving,
Believing is mile one
on my highway to achieving.
Nothing good occurs
if I’m content to merely stand still,
Only then do things happen
if I’m praying in God’s will.
I find myself all alone
with no place to call my own.
Living off other peoples’ charities,
how did I let this happen to me?
It really wasn’t that far back
I had it made, that’s a fact.
The world was my oyster holding the pearl,
Miss Independent, a confident girl.
‘I don’t need anyone!’; least that’s what I said.
You think maybe I let it go to my head?
How did things get turned upside-down?
When did my smile turn to a frown?
Oh yeah, that’s right; I fell in love!
Man of my dreams sent from above.
As always, I dove in head first,
never thinking that I’d get hurt.
But he took my love, then cast me aside;
never caring that my heart had died.
So now I find myself all alone,
I can’t even give a dog a bone!
Now I just want to be free again
and not let my heart be ruled by a man.
I know I can do it, I've done it before,
and this time I want it even more!
I just have to be patient, it’s gonna take time.
I can’t let myself start falling behind.
And you know what? I’ve got all that I need
to make this plan of mine succeed.
I won't ever again have to feel alone.
Can somebody please give that dog a bone?
When you lost everything you worked for
You feel the real affects of being poor
Life isn't normal you dont function the same
Things were stolen from you with no one to blame
Thats when any and everything seems to matter most
As you gain items back you have reason to boast
Losing things quickly when you gained it slowly can be a pain
Feeling as though everything you worked for is in vain
Its not easy starting over when you know what you had
Each time you realize you need something it makes you sad
You feel that nothing is ever going to settle
Your patience wearing thin while gaining little by little
What was taken from you was yours and you want it back
It was here today and gone tomorrow just like that
When you have something for years you grow attached
You feel a sense of emptiness when starting from scratch
if tomorrow happens to be what ive waited so long for,
then my eyes might start to pour.
ill say yes,
although you already knew.
i never lost you,
only tried.
but not even once did my heart say goodbye.
ive tried letting go, tried to forget.
but something about you, your love,
my soul could not reset.
i still remember my cue,
to be held so safely.
held in your arms where i feel whole,
to rest my head, and calm my soul.
youll open your arms,
inviting me in, your love charms.
ill always run to you,
wrapping my arms around your neck,
tip toe-ing just to reach too.
you hold me so sweetly,
so safe,
so secure.
i refused every hug completely,
only desiring your safety.
when i lost you.
but i never truly lost you, did i?
you never truly left.
if you ask me the question ive been hoping for
ill say yes.
because its not starting over
if it never truly ended.
and maybe thats what love means.
to find the way back
to the same person
and knowing
it never ended
because
the relationship that wasnt ready to be over.
it just needed some work.
Tab 8
The summer pains will
Go away; and once winter breaks
Problems become numb
The snow and cold air
Soothe your sunburns, and the lake
Of your mind freezes in the mint
For the first time in
A while, even though your nose
Is red- there is peace
But the harsh winds get
Repetitive over time
You crave the sunlight
And when you know
It is time to step into
The light- and start (a)new
The heart starting a love beat
By Reggie
As I think of you, my mind begins to unbind,
and my nerves start to level and calm.
As you come to grasp my heart, and as soon as I feel your touch,
The beats begin to play a loving tune as we head toward the room,
to be alone.I am able to tell you my real tone and feeling it in my bones
As I explain my love to your understanding and show you what you do to me.
As I tell you seriously, there is nobody else for me—
I am yours for eternity, and that is something my family believes.
I feel so secure at your side, though it’s funny, I know,
But I will stand ready to cover your back and not rely on you for protection—
So I do not lose any ground in life,
As attempts try to destroy my living, my love, my stride.
But these are not just words to me; they are vows of loyalty,
to be fulfilled and promised,
And I hope this is comforting for your knowing,
for it is nothing but my true reality—
Of my feelings and love toward you.
I have rituals
for the first day of class
like a superstitious athlete
they get me into a good frame of mind
where I feel like a juggernaut who has total agency
and I don’t need to seek validation
It’s a moment in time
I have all my books—stacked on my desk
they look serious—very nuts and bolts
I’ve beaten the syllabuses to death
to try to figure out where my power lies
learning is all energy, it’s a marathon
it’s hard to sustain that for the entire semester
so not switching off, now and then, is unrealistic
Still, I’m comfy in in a classroom (I’m a senior)
Good students are just a little weird.
I say hello to the moon so she won’t feel alone
I say ‘cheers,” before taking a shot of mouthwash.
If I lose my ID, my lucky pencil or something, I call out, “treasure hunt!”
When treating everyone to grubHub I ask, ‘the usual?’ When we’re done I ask, ‘how was everything this evening?’
If I see a random girl looking fabulous, I tell her, because if I get complimented, I think about it for a week.
.
.
A song for this:
Thetan by Single Gun Theory
We are weary of words, endlessly taken and tossed,
Singing day and night without ever being lost.
Like the clear moon in the sky, one thing clear:
“Fish always decay, starting from the head.”
A person who reaches their goal walks with purpose,
Thinks carefully before taking their course.
A child’s education and upbringing,
Is formed first and foremost in the family setting.
We’ve seen the rich fleeing across borders,
Carrying their wealth away by planes and orders.
To plunder the nation’s treasures they seek,
Is so much knowledge really what they need to peak?
I learned to love myself, alone,
In quiet nights, in whispered tones.
Before I searched for love outside,
I healed the wounds I couldn't hide.
I felt the sting of words once spoken,
A heart once whole now torn and broken.
But in that pain, I found my way,
A stronger soul, a brighter day.
For love is not just sweet and kind,
It’s also strength that we must find.
Even when the world turns cold,
I hold myself, my heart, my soul.
If someone leaves, if trust is lost,
I’ll never count the heavy cost.
For though it hurts, I still remain,
A heart that beats through all the pain
I am not weak, I will not fall,
Even in heartache, I stand tall.
For love begins, not from the start,
But deep within a mended heart.
So if you break me, take my trust,
I’ll rise again, because I must.
For love, though tender, sweet, and true,
Begins with me, and it’s my view.
By Anna A Tauvaa
I'm Starting to forget you
I wish I wasn't.
When is your birthday?
What are your fears?
I can't really believe
It's been so many years.
What color is your hair?
Is it curly like mine?
What clothes did you wear?
Whats your Favorite Time?
Were you excited to see us?
Were we always have burdens?
Did your bedroom have windows?
What color curtains?
Were you happy to see me?
Was it all fake?
Remember the summer I fell in the lake?
There's so much you missed
since you gave us away.
Maybe I'll meet you some other day.
scared feeling of starting over at my age
I have seen that house a hundred times,
The one upon which the old vine climbs.
So poignant and so melancholy,
That place had once been the omphali.
Now it was abandoned, dark, and drear
And seeing it made me shed a tear.
I always wondered what sort of joy,
And happiness the house did enjoy.
Was there pain and hurt and deep sorrow?
Why did it not get a tomorrow?
Maybe it just needs another chance
To give it ability to dance.
We were the center of our fam’lies’
And were living out our fantasies.
What happened to us I do not know.
It has been years since I watched you go.
Perhaps we just need another chance
To give us ability to dance.
Some kids sleep
To sounds beating
Beating scared hearts
Beating man starts
Beating woman scarred
Beating black tar
Racing for life
Faking out time
Speeding the night
Open eyes fright
Closing blue eyes
Praying through cries
Hearts hopes dream
Perseverance purple green
Arch angel wings
Borrowed brown blessings
Morning raises shade
Man still raged
Kids know stay
Sleep until safe
“Woman come back!”
Clothes are packed
She leaves, kids go too
Man looks doomed
Police were called
Red woman walked
Holy house call
Ran evil off
Blessed everything
Starting over new things
Healing hazel hope
“Sometimes you have to be your own hero”
Starting today
things will be
different.
There will be
no more
word vomit
thrust on you
my friend,
I promise
on that you
can depend.
Starting today
my words will be
succinct and
to the point
light as not
to push you
away because
I want you
to stay.
Starting today
I won't
love you less
but my feelings
I'll start learning
to repress.
Starting today
I'll faithfully
listen to you
Without
Opening up
because it always
causes trouble
when I do.
©SamHarty
My mind is made up
leaving all the bad behind
wiping the slate clean
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