He says that he loves you, but he can never say why.
He says he only has eyes for you, but turns and looks every
time another girl walks by.
You think that you love him so much that you can hardly breathe.
Not realizing it is because he has pressed up against your neck, his knee.
He says that he loves you and wants to spend his lifetime with you, the
true love that he has found.
Yet, how many times do you find yourself alone, calling everywhere for
him and he is nowhere around.
You keep trying to pretend that you are happy, but your friends know you
can't be with him, treating you so bad.
How many times has he forgotten special occasions, and you smile at them
saying no problem when they can tell that you're mad.
He keeps saying how much he loves you and he wants to marry you, but
now is not the right time.
Knowing every time he says this, you get a feeling that one day he is
going to walk out and leave you behind.
I know how much you love him, but the question is does he love you?
Cause if he did, then why does he keep treating you the way you allow him to?
Iv'e pondered life in so many ways
and for so long
i feel like iv'e fell down a hole
iv'e witnessed the wind blowing on my skin feeling like a hug from gods
iv'e heard birds in different trees of a forest making separate sounds that put a song to nature
iv'e suffered for trying to love
iv.e suffered for trying not to love
iv'e seen my mistakes and begged on my knees to forgive me and let me live
iv'e watched everyone i know grow and create familes and become happy
and i still stayed in the same place
i ask my self constantly when is it enough
when can i take my throbbing heart and put it back in my chest
and let my self be excited again
Every time i think about doing better and moving forward
i get a feeling in stomach that gods saying NO
or Not right now
i find my self miserable and being able to think about doing better with out thinking im going to it up
to me i feel like the biggest fool i know because i know what im capable of i hide my self away like im beast that only notices beauty
But Its not what ive done it what im afraid i might do
We Are But, Human what to do. we Should put down the Gun's hold out a Hand.when you Kill no matter what race it's your Brothers, your Sister's Mother @ Fathers.even if you have no Family don't take others away.Because your
hurt and feeling Sorry for your Lifes.When we Steal we get a Feeling with others look what I got. it's someone that work hard to put the object together.and was paid through hard work to Feed there Famlies .and no matter what Race we are when we Burn Buildings.they did nothing to Us Who are you ,Are we Human .Yes God Help Us When we Have No Fear,but the Day will Come When we Will Hear A Voice that's said they had no Fear.They Destroy my Good and they will Pay if not Tomorrow it Will Be Today.Your Father.
Get a feeling
It’s Christmas everyday
Hate going to bed
Excited to wake up
To Presence
First I unwrap by
Reading a daily reflection
Then I share
My joys with others
Carrying that Present
With me all day long
Devoting myself to
Your Sweet Song
Believing I’m a Christmas light
You are the Socket
Without You I can’t shine
You can be around hundreds of people
But, still feel like you are alone
You can laugh and joke around
And, yet feel broken on the inside
You might think you have longed for solitude
But somehow the loneliness does get to you
You get a feeling that's not sadness
But it is simply just the feeling of emptiness
You are the one who keeps all the others happy
But no one really knows if you're happy yourself
Sometimes you think you want to disappear
But really, all you want is to be found
You need to learn to enjoy solitude
Because in solitude the mind gains strength
And it learns to lean on itself
As whoever is delighted in solitude
Is either a wild beast or God itself
Being alone does not mean you are lonely
And being lonely does not mean you are alone.
as you pass by
i get a feeling
got me reeling
here's why
what i see is heavenly
and tell no lies
its
MY EYES
Here's a story that's one for the books
A tale that's really quite odd
Turned out the lights in our hotel room
And journeyed to the land of Nod
Woke up next morning about seven a.m.
Anxious to get back on the road
Packed our things and went to check out
Started to get a feeling of forebode
Doors to the lobby were locked up tight
Not a soul to be seen anywhere
Thought to myself this is really strange
Usually, there are people everywhere
Noticed the watch on my wrist had stopped
It was reading five fifteen AM
Damn thing needs new batteries I thought
So we get back on the road again
Not a lot of cars seemed a bit strange too
It was still pretty dark outside
Passed a sign which gave the correct time
And I couldn't believe my eyes
Nearly ran off the road as I checked it out
Five twenty-four the sign read
The clock in the room was out by two hours
Could've still been asleep in bed!
i can feel my anger rising
and i just cant make it fall
im used to it subsiding
but still my insides crawl
no point to try to stop it
its releasing vein by vein
ripping each one open
to let my anger drain
i feared that this would happen
but not to this degree
i have no outlets left
to sustain my misery
i could try to sew them shut
each and every vein
let you think im happy
while inside i go insane
but then i get a feeling
thats even worse than pain
im feeling every stitch
get ripped from every vein
i guess that is my punishment
for locking it inside
accompanied only by my sadness
which also still resides
I'm willing to fight for us to keep us together
because I want us to last forever,
but I get a feeling deep in my heart
that you'd rather us be apart.
Every night I go to bed an sleep alone
while you stay up all night on your phone,
while I lay in bed with tears in my eyes
as my heart slowly dies.
I know you don't think I'd ever walk away
but you're making it harder an harder for me to stay
an one day you're gonna turn around
an realize that I'm no where to be found.
So if you still love me an want me to stay,
take the time to show me every day
or one day you're going to lose me
just you wait an see.
You are sunlight in my day,
You are the moon i see far away.
You are the tree i lean upon,
You are the one that makes troubles be gone.
You are the one who taught me life,
How not to fight and what is right.
You bought me the first toy,
Which i played and enjoy.
You brought me in this world,
And then you became my world.
Mother loves conditionally,
Without benefits and utterly.
Mothers are supposed to be the god on earth,
But some mothers only get a feeling of hurt.
You take care of me when im not well,
How much i love you can't tell.
Im lucky, i have two mothers,
One of my own and other whom i adopt.
Both are truly amazing,
One i dont listen to and other drives me crazy.
You are the words inside my song,
You are my love,my life my mom.
Love you both lots,
Please do admire my thoughts.
I love you so much ....
1) We were both young and stupid
but sometimes it still hurts
to remember we don't talk.
2) We never really loved each other
but we lasted a year and a half.
I feel nothing.
3) They told me we should be together.
They were wrong, but it was nice
to know I could be wanted.
4) She was on my mind for eight months.
I was on hers for mere minutes.
I learnt to let go of needless hope.
5) She was the first girl I ever truly loved.
She is the first girl I ever truly hated.
6) He crushed my confidence the moment
it blossomed.
One girl could never satisfy him, or maybe
I wasn't good enough.
7) Maybe we could have worked out.
Maybe we wouldn't have.
I'm sorry I hurt you.
8) He told me he owed me the day I saved his life.
He told me I owed him every time he raped me.
I still gave him everything.
9) They told me we should be together.
They were wrong, but
he helped me move on.
10) I started to try and love myself.
Somedays it's still tough
but it's easier to smile now.
11) Every time you smile I get a feeling that makes me think
maybe my heart has healed.
It's not. But with you, it might get there.
I stand seaside on the edge of a cliff..
Slowly shut my eyes as the rain just falls from the darkening skies..
Lean over the cliff as I whisper goodbye..
My body just floats over waves and through the wind..
While time remains frozen I'm forced to pretend that my wings aren't broken
and I can fly again..
To a brighter place that has the powers to mend my broken heart and make it
whole again..
Erase my anger that has trapped me in and dry all the tears I've been
drowning in..
Then as my fears are gone and the pain slowly fades I get a feeling of warmth
like I'll be ok..
My wings are restored to take me away..
I open my eyes and there's no more rain..
All I see is a brighter day..
Here's a story that's one for the books
A tale that's really quite odd
Turned out the lights in our hotel room
And journeyed to the land of Nod
Woke up next morning bout seven a.m.
Anxious to get back on the road
Packed our things and went to check out
Started to get a feeling of forebode
Doors to the lobby were locked up tight
Not a soul to be seen anywhere
Thought to myself this is really strange
Usually there's people everywhere
Noticed the watch on my wrist had stopped
It was reading five fifteen AM
Damn thing needs new batteries I thought
So we get back on the road again
Not a lot of cars which seemed a bit strange
It was still pretty dark outside
Passed a sign which gave the correct time
And I couldn't believe my eyes
Nearly ran off the road as I checked it out
Five twenty-four the sign read
The clock in the room was out by two hours
Could've still been asleep in bed!
© Jack Ellison 2013
To David and Roz
Since you left I think of you and often find a tear.
Never returning home, never coming back here.
I want to yell at you and tell you that you’re dumb!
But all I can do is get a feeling that makes me numb.
Why did you have to take those pills? Why did you have to die?
Now you know that prescriptions kills, watch as we all cry.
Why did you think of only yourself? And leave us all behind?
To your children I have to tell, what made their daddy die.
Less than a year has passed and I still feel regret.
Regret for not knowing more and letting everything set.
Fifty weeks later our sister does the same.
Is it doctors? Or your usage that is to blame?
Why did you have to take those pills? Why did you have to die?
Now you know that prescriptions kills, watch as we all cry.
Why did you think of only yourself? And leave us all behind?
To your children I have to tell, what made their mommy die.
Why did you leave us this way? Was it worth the ultimate cost?
Watching as your children play and I think that all is not lost.
At least you left pieces of you here, at least they can still grin.
I miss you both and I shed my tear, knowing that the drugs win.
Perhaps I am only a grass
Living on the top of this hill
Trees here may think
They are taller than me
Million , trillion and zillion
But they are beneath me
As they cannot survive on the top
Don’t have me any fear on hurricanes
Heavy rains or floods
I am always safe here.
Indeed I am the first one here
Blessed with the first ray of sun
And it is me the first get a feeling
Of a feather touch as soon as Moon
Appears and I am always happy
As getting the kisses of Breez continually
Decorated with golden pearls at morning
And brighten with a silver crown at night
I am living here as a queen
But the world always calls me as a grass
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