Long Suicidal thoughts Poems

1 - I can't be alone

I struggle to be by myself because my dark thoughts come
But when I'm with people my heart is numb
On top of a lot of pain is what I built my...

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Paradise of passion has dawned upon my mind of my once dusked mindset (desired future of peace that has transformed my mind that was of darkness for the better) 
I'm envious of others' ecstasy for...

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This message is someone’s story and from observing their story, it inspired me to write about it. Hopefully this can help someone else who may be going through or in a toxic relationship.

Imagine - Being...

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Everything seems better when I am in my own world 
Everything is better when there is no one there
Once when I had someone 
When I felt friendlier 
When all I wanted to do was be...

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I know your confidence is low, you don't see much in yourself
You've had to face your demons alone, your family didn't do enough to help
They had other priorities such as drinking
Keeping your thoughts to yourself...

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Yes, the title says it all, says it all
I will not make a fall while I stand tall
I won’t be pushed down by gravity still
I will make sure that I am your windmill

Dementia won’t stop...

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Haunting night for writer's block decided to 
explore my writing endeavors awakened always 
at three am feeling overwhelmed from another night 
filled with words dancing about inside my head to put 
to pages immediately before...

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Hopeful

Time to go home there’s that cursed bell
Excitement for most - for him an impending hell
A torturous journey - that takes him down life’s dark path
His old friend ‘Panic’ enters causes a disturbing wrath

‘Humming the...

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Is there a life after death? I'm about to see
I'm ready to find out, got no one looking out for me
Been betrayed by everyone I gave my all too
They dug the hole, they made me...

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Under the firmament 
Vying  to escape the dome  of purgatory 
A trap which seems permanent 
Filled with negative energy and pain
Stuck on a plain 
That plays tricks on the brain 
Driving souls insane 
Desensitized to...

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-Infected- with *PSD

My luck is tough, 
My life has been rough,
I cannot feel my dreams,
I dream of dreams, that can't be felt.

In the deep corners of my mind
There is something there no one will ever...

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This tale is a grim tale, so you must beware
It's about a man living in despair.
This tale is sad & filled with gloom
But you'll see the pain in his heart very soon.
You'll see his anguish,...

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No one can take my voice away
No one can, not today, not even tonight, 
Not today with no more fright
I want to feel happiness tonight, this awfully good night…this good awful night…

Take all the voices...

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AWAKEN TO ANOTHER HOME INVASION ALTERING MEDICATIONS OF DISABLED VETERANS AND THEIR FAMILIES TODAY I'M TERRIFIED MY MEDICATIONS MIGHT ACTUALLY BE TAINTED WITH FENTANYL WHY WOULD THIEVES BREAK IN YOUR HOME FOR KLONOPIN FOR MY...

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Beautiful Blue Butterfly 

In life we go through changes and we all start out as an egg, later down the line we grown into a larva in order to grow we had to eat and...

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Suicide
Life doesn’t always give us what we want
Hearts get broken
Loss of loved ones
Falling deep into debt
Emotional ups and downs
Life as it’s said is not fair
But please compared to what
Lives messing up other lives
When the darkness...

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I was 16 at the time 
Love was plastered on my mind 
Never knew love from a man 
My daddy walked right out our lives 
Never looking back, you know 
He made himself a family...

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Give me recognition for all that I do and say...I give up giving in to failure...I give in giving up over success...
Used as an experiment in society these busy-lazy nights and days...I'm going through a...

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It's been getting worse
I see the end in the most innocent of items
I dream of death
Death of my family, friends
Ironically never of myself
The hollow inside my chest isn't leaving
self hatred comes easily
unhealthy coping habits are...

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Poetry and Words 

Comes in so many a different form

All depends and depending on who
it is written by 

What the particular subject or topic
is

And what it's initial and final intentions
are and maybe 

It can rhyme...

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So many times, have I cried your name, and you do not answer.
I know not your face nor your name, yet I only know you are a sir.
Perhaps now married, perhaps still single, nevertheless,
You are...

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I'm going to write until there's blood on my pen
Then I'm going to wipe it off & I'm going to get blood on it again
Bipolar and psychotic
Give me a handle to fly off it
If it's...

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Intellectual progress with thee
beyond this, that, here or even there
of matter within what color, shape, size, weight, etc
All in all, we started with for example if you were to use a pencil or a pen,...

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This won't be a pretty picture, but I'm going to use this paper to put my art on
I'm not heartless, let me show you where my heart's gone
Should I be ashamed? Should I hide my...

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Due to the extreme measures my 
identity thieves have taken in order 
to extort my American poetry from 

mafia wise guys to corruption to Jamaican 
female impersonating me with data breach 
and severe identity fraud...

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