Life After Death
Is there a life after death? I'm about to see
I'm ready to find out, got no one looking out for me
Been betrayed by everyone I gave my all too
They dug the hole, they made me fall through
Why can't I erase these memories yet?
I don't have much energy left
I'm trying to find courage in fear
Trying to be strong when my worries are near
I may say a lot of things that people aren't in a hurry to hear
I'm killing myself daily while I try to bury my fears
My past calls and I'm stupid enough to answer
So many thoughts in my head, it takes just a few minutes to write these Stanzas
But I'm reliving everything I wish to forget
Leaving the house of a one night stand, my ex called but I'll miss her next
Trying to get the number of every girl I haven't kissed on yet
I hate love for the way it treated me and made me feel
What does it take to heal?
Depression telling me to pick up a blade and self-harm again, maybe more
Strangers asking what I'm crazy for
Suicidal thoughts in my mind I can't seem to shake yet
When I'm asleep I dream of my death
Is it the only way to find peace?
I shut my heart off, but my mind speaks
Growing up in foster care, made me unable to commit to people in my life
Got so used to them leaving, that I get scared anytime someone is by my side
Let me finish this bottle of brandy and goodbye note, there's isn't much left
Goodbye world, I couldn't take it anymore, it's time to see if there's a life after death
You know what?, I'm not done yet
I'm ready to give more than ever, because you have to when life tries to make you become less
Starting from the bottom like Tetris, it's time to build me
I'm going to kill these suicidal thoughts before they kill me
I've been in a bad place recently, but it's time to show the world the real me
As long as i have a pen full of ink, I'll never have an empty pad
No more feeling Empty, Sad
I'll become sane from everything that sent me mad
I'm about to Make a bigger comeback than Vinny Paz
When he came back from a broken neck to box again
A man with nothing to lose, there's no stopping him
Odds stacked against him, but he got the win
You're about to see part 2 of that
Throw your opinions at me, and I'm hitting you with the hardest facts
I may lose balance here and there, but you won't knock me out with the heart I have
No more crying over people who did me wrong
All they did was make me realize I'm better without them and made me more strong
If i was supposed to die, i would have when i overdosed at seventeen
I'm not yet what Heaven needs
The past few months i was thinking about killing myself, but it's time to create a better me
I've got a much longer Story to go, i haven't wrote my best chapters yet
I was Ready to die, but I carried on living, I guess I found my life after death
Copyright © Alex Duffy | Year Posted 2018
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