Alex Duffy Poet Free verse

Only Human

This won't be a pretty picture, but I'm going to use this paper to put my art on
I'm not heartless, let me show you where my heart's gone
Should I be ashamed? Should I hide my scars?
Some were gave to me, others inflicted from self-harm
The weight of the world on my shoulders, is easy to carry compared to the pain in my heart
I fell so many times and had no one helping me up
How could I be alone when I have depression telling me I suck
I wanted to get close to you Chantal, but depression was right there
It made me push away my dream girl and continued to be my nightmare
Age 13 I lost my virginity to a girl called Meg
I grew up quicker than I should have
I wonder if she ever thinks of me? Do I pop into her head?
It wasn't her first time, so I doubt it was as special for her
If she reads this, I hope I can make her feel special with words
There I go, Putting out stuff about me the world doesn't need to know
I'm probably wrong for putting my heart on display when I write this
I just hope people who give this a read will grow
Even if they judge me, I don't think I can hide this
I battle suicidal thoughts daily, so a lot of people consider me weak
I can rhyme my pain perfectly, but I'm unable to deliver a speech
When my ex cheated, was the guy richer than me?
Was he bigger than me?
I don't need to know, tell the bartender it's a hard liquor for me
All of my mistakes came with a lesson attached
I've never touched drugs, even though my brother and sister are injecting smack
Who am I to judge, when I used to pick up blades and made myself start bleeding
Depression makes me tired, anxiety prevents me from sleeping
I was bullied at school and made to feel worthless
I can't be a good poet, because I don't know how to word it
Got told I shouldn't love hip hop cause I'm a white dude
You don't have the right to listen to Rakim, Nas, Big Pun and Ice Cube
I was confused as to why they cared so much about what's playing in my earphones
Dealing with my fears alone
Bipolar so a lot of people label me weird
Sometimes I wish I wasn't able to hear
I find it hard to open up to new people who come close
I hide my feelings to the best of my ability from people I know
I'm only human, I hope you can learn from my mistakes
This is my real life pain, but to you its just words on a page

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Johnny Williams February 18, 2018 at 3:38 PM I absolutely love Your poetry . You’re truly talented . Keep up the amazing work dude . You have wicked talent . I wish I had half the talent you have . Never let anyone tell You you’re not talented . Alex Duffy February 18, 2018 at 5:39 PM Thank you so much, I really appreciate it, I tend to doubt myself and writing ability at times, so I really needed to hear this, thank you, hope you have a great day

Indiana Shaw September 18, 2017 at 6:37 PM Thought I would pop back to see how you were getting on in your life's journey - Totally amazed at your inner strength and your ability to express it - I sincerely hope your writings are given YOU some inner strength out there - Hope you know there are good folk out here routing for you all the way - Real emotions counts for a lot - I will be sure to pop back to read more of your fine works "Alex" . . . : ) Alex Duffy September 19, 2017 at 6:23 PM Thank you so much, yeah my writing does provide me inner strength and help me a lot, thank you, I'll always try to win for those who are rooting for me, I trybto be as real with emotions as possible, thank you for reading, I appreciate it :)

Darlene De Beaulieu May 27, 2017 at 6:02 PM Hello Alex,You have been through a lot of pain in your life. I can see that in your poem. Anyway it is a good poem that you hav e written.By the way nice to meet you. Good evening. Alex Duffy June 6, 2017 at 5:22 AM Thank you, it doesn't matter what we go through, as long as we manage to survive it :) glad you liked it :) nice to meet you too

Heather Abrams May 10, 2017 at 12:15 AM I am at tears. This hit gone more than you know. Thank you for putting into words emotions/thoughts that I have choked on to many times Alex Duffy May 10, 2017 at 4:37 AM I'm glad you can relate and hope it helped, I tend to just put it all out there, no matter how painful it is, I used to hide it and that hurt a lot more than expressing it. Thank you glad you liked it :)

Elizabeth Kinch May 6, 2017 at 11:48 AM You certainly are a good poet and this is so much more than words on a page Alex. I wish I could take your pain away. One for my favorites and a definite seven my friend. Alex Duffy May 6, 2017 at 5:39 PM Thank you so much, I appreciate it :) I'm glad you liked it so much :)