Only Human

This won't be a pretty picture, but I'm going to use this paper to put my art on I'm not heartless, let me show you where my heart's gone Should I be ashamed? Should I hide my scars? Some were gave to me, others inflicted from self-harm The weight of the world on my shoulders, is easy to carry compared to the pain in my heart I fell so many times and had no one helping me up How could I be alone when I have depression telling me I suck I wanted to get close to you Chantal, but depression was right there It made me push away my dream girl and continued to be my nightmare Age 13 I lost my virginity to a girl called Meg I grew up quicker than I should have I wonder if she ever thinks of me? Do I pop into her head? It wasn't her first time, so I doubt it was as special for her If she reads this, I hope I can make her feel special with words There I go, Putting out stuff about me the world doesn't need to know I'm probably wrong for putting my heart on display when I write this I just hope people who give this a read will grow Even if they judge me, I don't think I can hide this I battle suicidal thoughts daily, so a lot of people consider me weak I can rhyme my pain perfectly, but I'm unable to deliver a speech When my ex cheated, was the guy richer than me? Was he bigger than me? I don't need to know, tell the bartender it's a hard liquor for me All of my mistakes came with a lesson attached I've never touched drugs, even though my brother and sister are injecting smack Who am I to judge, when I used to pick up blades and made myself start bleeding Depression makes me tired, anxiety prevents me from sleeping I was bullied at school and made to feel worthless I can't be a good poet, because I don't know how to word it Got told I shouldn't love hip hop cause I'm a white dude You don't have the right to listen to Rakim, Nas, Big Pun and Ice Cube I was confused as to why they cared so much about what's playing in my earphones Dealing with my fears alone Bipolar so a lot of people label me weird Sometimes I wish I wasn't able to hear I find it hard to open up to new people who come close I hide my feelings to the best of my ability from people I know I'm only human, I hope you can learn from my mistakes This is my real life pain, but to you its just words on a page

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Johnny Williams

Date: 2/18/2018 3:38:00 PM

I absolutely love Your poetry . You’re truly talented . Keep up the amazing work dude . You have wicked talent . I wish I had half the talent you have . Never let anyone tell You you’re not talented .

Alex Duffy
Date: 2/18/2018 5:39:00 PM

Thank you so much, I really appreciate it, I tend to doubt myself and writing ability at times, so I really needed to hear this, thank you, hope you have a great day

Indiana Shaw

Date: 9/18/2017 6:37:00 PM

Thought I would pop back to see how you were getting on in your life's journey - Totally amazed at your inner strength and your ability to express it - I sincerely hope your writings are given YOU some inner strength out there - Hope you know there are good folk out here routing for you all the way - Real emotions counts for a lot - I will be sure to pop back to read more of your fine works "Alex" . . . : )

Alex Duffy
Date: 9/19/2017 6:23:00 PM

Thank you so much, yeah my writing does provide me inner strength and help me a lot, thank you, I'll always try to win for those who are rooting for me, I trybto be as real with emotions as possible, thank you for reading, I appreciate it :)

Darlene De Beaulieu

Date: 5/27/2017 6:02:00 PM

Hello Alex,You have been through a lot of pain in your life. I can see that in your poem. Anyway it is a good poem that you hav e written.By the way nice to meet you. Good evening.

Alex Duffy
Date: 6/6/2017 5:22:00 AM

Thank you, it doesn't matter what we go through, as long as we manage to survive it :) glad you liked it :) nice to meet you too

Heather Abrams

Date: 5/10/2017 12:15:00 AM

I am at tears. This hit gone more than you know. Thank you for putting into words emotions/thoughts that I have choked on to many times

Alex Duffy
Date: 5/10/2017 4:37:00 AM

I'm glad you can relate and hope it helped, I tend to just put it all out there, no matter how painful it is, I used to hide it and that hurt a lot more than expressing it. Thank you glad you liked it :)

Elizabeth Kinch

Date: 5/6/2017 11:48:00 AM

You certainly are a good poet and this is so much more than words on a page Alex. I wish I could take your pain away. One for my favorites and a definite seven my friend.

Alex Duffy
Date: 5/6/2017 5:39:00 PM

Thank you so much, I appreciate it :) I'm glad you liked it so much :)