Fragmented Fury

Yes, the title says it all, says it all I will not make a fall while I stand tall I won’t be pushed down by gravity still I will make sure that I am your windmill Dementia won’t stop me from being me Bipolar won’t stop me from being free Depression won’t stop me from feeling glee Anxiety won’t stop me from feeling happy Yes, the title says it all, says it all I will not be a brick in the wall, wall I won’t be pushed out of shape when you desert me I will make sure to set free the despondency from inside me...knowingly... Alzeiheimer’s won’t stop me from being me Parkinson’s won’t stop me from seeking help in reality Suicidal thoughts and actions won’t stop me from feeling positivity Negativity and the likes won’t stop pounding in my head tremendously But I won’t give up I won’t So, don’t Just don’t start it with me again Fragmented by fury Tormented by injury I just want to be free Let’s say it plain and simple - be with me possibly for an eternity...so I can remain in the comfort zone of my insanity I’m determined to the D I’m terrific to the T I’m underestimated to the U I’m understanding to the U 2 I’m determined to the D I’m terrible to the T I’m overwhelmed to the O I’m over-obsessed with you tho So, I have fallen in love with the demons in my head I’m sorry...angels, come save me from my dread Christ, love me like you do God, I’m sick with dem luv flu Father of truth, set me free from unhappiness Father of lies, go fall in the ditch of helplessness Hopeless romantic and manicky frantic I once was I was filled with perfection and flaws...a predator without claws...a period after a pause...demons gnaw at me and start to chase after me...my dreams are to be all alone and be independent on my own someday...here’s cheers to applauses before the crow silently caws Okay, enough of my poetic games and riddles i bemuse you with Fragmented by fury for no apparent reason - I trek into a Labrinth Of loneliness and longevity It’s a pity that I am less than witty I’m ty and giddy Now, let’s throw a house party of Champaign, whiskey, pills and confetti...or maybe not apparently cuz it’s ungodly Cleanliness is what I need mentally, mentally Emotionally unstable to the point of no return Distress and anguish is what I deserve plainly Let the flames of doubt cease from its intensifying burns and let it churn Frag-men-ted It’s what you said Drag-me-dead Without a single trace of dread Kill me with compassionate kisses Throw me into a billion abysses I don’t mind being left behind but I will seek first His light of might...tonight I’m meditating on blissful silence in my room I’m meditating on plentiful of elegance in full bloom Paint my sky a hundred hues of rainbow Fragmented by fury by you-know-who, you know? Okay...I’ll tell you a secret I have held back this regret For oh so long...long...long Rather it was right or wrong All along, all alone But, with God Most High, I’m not on my own That, I can’t clearly deny I will keep fighting this blasphemed battle with healing hope in mind all year long As long as my fragmented fury doesn’t take me by the hand and leads me to do something quite...wrong...