Dead Inside
Dead inside
Growing up in a home with little love and a mother who distanced herself and always felt she had to push me away.
No hugs or kisses or tucked in at night...….just shut up or go outside and play.
Then the awkwardness of getting nubs for breast and being watched by step dad number three.
Wondering what
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Categories:
dead inside, betrayal, child abuse, evil,
Form: Free verse
Dead Inside
It's a slow decay
So slow at first I don't notice
The rot
The smell
The maggots
Little worms feasting on the flesh of all that used to be good inside me.
It's all words
Words like bullets
Words like a sharp knife
They create wounds and invite all the crawling chewing things inside
Devour all the joy
Devour all the hope
Devour all the life
Leaving
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Categories:
dead inside, death, emotions,
Form: Free verse
Dead Inside
She is always insecure
And a little dead inside
Sometimes she builds confidence
But is a little dead inside
And when the confidence boils over
She's still a little dead inside
She goes in for the kill
Though a little dead inside
And when that thing she killed, kills her
She falls dead inside
She melts away into her corner
It's okay
She was always dead inside
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Categories:
dead inside, absence, africa, anger, angst,
Form: Blank verse
Dead Inside
Fallen on my knees on the inside,
Smiling while standing tall on the outside,
No one can see me through all this my imperfection,
I'm trying to be ready to find and receive my redemption,
Shifting inside my body's walls,
I can feel my skin and the pain inside me crawl,
A ghost from my past that will never yield,
Ive no
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Categories:
dead inside, abuse,
Form: ABC
Dead Inside
Cold,
Numb,
Rage of unbelief,
Empty inside,
Who wouldn't have seen,
Blinded for whats to come,
So much rage to handle,
Just for one,
Blood red color,
No other color belongs,
Don't matter who cares,
It's you who has to pull through,
Moving forward,
Another day has come,
It's da ja voo,
And everyone seems to see through you,
It doesn't matter anymore,
Life goes on,
One way to be,
Is dead on the
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Categories:
dead inside, analogy, dark, deep, depression,
Form: ABC
Dead Inside
Humans aren't perfect, some zombies inside..
Some hearts always breaking, though smiling they've tried...
Their scars are all endless, they're searching in vain,
To turn back to "normal", and find love again.
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Categories:
dead inside, deep, emotions, feelings, how
Form: Free verse
Dead Inside
I can feel the maggots crawling inside and out of my organs,
Listen closely; put your ear to my navel
The whispers you hear is not of food churning
But of my insides slowly corroding away by the power of mold and creepy-crawlies
Constantly I stitch my skin anew
My lip is now forever askew.
My heart barley beats, lungs hardly
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Categories:
dead inside, anger, betrayal, emotions,
Form: I do not know?
I Am Dead Inside My Sorrow
I see the fire.
I am the flames.
I am hurting.
Within the inside.
Next to which rests with
the dead.
I do not linger.
Even to point one finger.
I swallowed my pain.
I am the nail in the
cross.
I take.
I break.
For yours and heavens
sake.
I carry my burdens.
You will never see me
cry.
My tears are not forsale.
Not today and
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Categories:
dead inside, emotions
Form: ABC
Am I Dead Inside
Am I dead inside
I have this void
I think I've died
Before I felt
That’s when I cried
Now I can't feel
I know, I've tried
The hurting is gone
But the hole is still here
Once I was in pain
Now I don’t care
Once I cried
Now not even a tear
Hardened as steel
The only way I could make it
This fear of being empty
Can't
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Categories:
dead inside, lifeme,
Form: Rhyme
Dead Inside
Broken pieces of my heart,
Lay shattered on the floor.
I wanted to hate you for what you did;
But I still love you, just as before.
You ask why I can't forgive you,
And I look at all the little pieces.
Wondering why you would ask such a question,
As my heart beat ceases.
Dead inside,
Because of what you did.
I turn cold
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Categories:
dead inside, depression, lost love, sadheart,
Form: Rhyme
Dead Inside
Verse one:
Walking corpses
through downtown streets.
The dead always
seem to drag their feet.
Hide in shadows
of city lights.
Stumble through cornfields
late at night.
Consuming potions
in every form.
To numb the hurt
from the day before.
Hide in taverns
under neon lights.
Stumble through alleys
late at night.
Chorus:
We are all dead inside.
Hollow shells filled with flies.
No need to speak a lie.
We are all dead
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Categories:
dead inside, song-lyric
Form: Lyric
Mr. Dead Inside
Mr. Dead Inside
YOU
who wouldv'e known?
it would be you
that makes me feel this way
I can't believe I've gotton this far
Without knowing where I stand.
YOU
have no idea
what goes through my mind
what pumps through these veins
what beats through my heart
on nights like these
YOU
think you've won
think you've got me wrapped around your pretty little finger
but I
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Categories:
dead inside, lost loveme,
Form: I do not know?
Dead Inside
I've lived my life lonely and scared
Filled with pain and anger
While kids ran to their parents
I was left uncared
To all who think i'm happy and bright
I say you think wrong
Because my heart is dead as the night
So I don't belong
I've taken blades and razors
Just to free the pain
But when it's about gone
It comes flying back
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Categories:
dead inside, depression,
Form: Bio
The Dead Inside
I can’t caress these new dimensions
My shifting face is imbued with lost pain
And my hope is too deceiving
The things I love are thrown away by this state
Onwards hereafter
What I feel will still swallow my mind
And the love I will imagine
Will still be broken down here, inside
Everything is in a shadow
And what I give is coated
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Categories:
dead inside, confusion, introspection, loss, sad,
Form: Lyric
Dead Inside
This time I really think I’ve lost my mind
It’s getting harder now to freely try to find
The heart that died and washed me up in here
The pain that breeds and begs me not to fear
My hold on life will slip at every turn
If I smile it’s only when it burns
The rain arrives precisely when I
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Categories:
dead inside, angst, introspection, sad, me,
Form: I do not know?
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