Best Dead Inside Poems
It's a slow decay
So slow at first I don't notice
The rot
The smell
The maggots
Little worms feasting on the flesh of all that used to be good inside me.
It's all words
Words like bullets
Words like a sharp knife
They create wounds and invite all the crawling chewing things inside
Devour all the joy
Devour all the hope
Devour all the life
Leaving nothing but a shell
Animated by the chewing bugs inside
No heart
Just a crawling beetle
No soul
Just a carrion ant
Just enough animation to keep my husk moving
Too much to let me rest in peace
Mr. Dead Inside
YOU
who wouldv'e known?
it would be you
that makes me feel this way
I can't believe I've gotton this far
Without knowing where I stand.
YOU
have no idea
what goes through my mind
what pumps through these veins
what beats through my heart
on nights like these
YOU
think you've won
think you've got me wrapped around your pretty little finger
but I suppose i should let you in on a little secret of mine...
I
can break you in a heartbeat
leave you beaten and bruised
but begging for more
YOU
think you're bad
Mr. High and mighty
Mr. Kill you with one glance
but i see through you
YOU
HURT LIKE I HURT
YOU FEEL LIKE I FEEL
YOU
HATE LIKE I HATE
YOU
CRY LIKE I CRY
but i'm not the one who hurt you
I
shouldn't have to pay for her mistakes
I
am not her, nor will i ever be
ONE DAY
you will realize what you have with me
and on that day
MR. DEAD INSIDE
you'll appreciate me..
By: Kym Turner
Form:
Verse one:
Walking corpses
through downtown streets.
The dead always
seem to drag their feet.
Hide in shadows
of city lights.
Stumble through cornfields
late at night.
Consuming potions
in every form.
To numb the hurt
from the day before.
Hide in taverns
under neon lights.
Stumble through alleys
late at night.
Chorus:
We are all dead inside.
Hollow shells filled with flies.
No need to speak a lie.
We are all dead on the inside.
Verse two:
Dreading sunrise
and what that brings.
The world always
seems to only sting.
Hide in fortresses
without lights.
Stumble through darkness
the soul's black night.
Walking corpses
through downtown streets.
The dead always seem
to drag their feet.
Hide in torment
late at night.
Stumble through life
without a light.
Chorus:
Broken pieces of my heart,
Lay shattered on the floor.
I wanted to hate you for what you did;
But I still love you, just as before.
You ask why I can't forgive you,
And I look at all the little pieces.
Wondering why you would ask such a question,
As my heart beat ceases.
Dead inside,
Because of what you did.
I turn cold and blue,
No, it's not pretend.
My heart lays broken and bleeding,
On the cold hard floor.
And I stop breathing,
Evermore.
You are slowly killing me,
And yet you don't seem to care.
I look at you and scream,
For the pain I cannot bear.
You ask why I'm so sad,
So lifeless and cold.
You don't understand,
That my life is out of control.
Dead inside,
Because of what you did.
I turn cold and blue,
No, it's not pretend.
My heart lays broken and bleeding,
On the cold hard floor.
And I stop breathing,
Evermore.
You have destroyed me,
And taken my life.
It amuses me,
That you wield the knife.
My blood drips crimson,
Out of my body.
It is so funny,
Because you claimed to love me.
Dead inside,
Because of what you did.
I turn cold and blue,
No, it's not pretend.
My heart lays broken and bleeding,
On the cold hard floor.
And I stop breathing,
Evermore.
Dead inside,
Because of what you did.
I turn cold and blue,
No, it's not pretend.
My heart lays broken and bleeding,
On the cold hard floor.
And I stop breathing,
Evermore.
Humans aren't perfect, some zombies inside..
Some hearts always breaking, though smiling they've tried...
Their scars are all endless, they're searching in vain,
To turn back to "normal", and find love again.
I can feel the maggots crawling inside and out of my organs,
Listen closely; put your ear to my navel
The whispers you hear is not of food churning
But of my insides slowly corroding away by the power of mold and creepy-crawlies
Constantly I stitch my skin anew
My lip is now forever askew.
My heart barley beats, lungs hardly creak
My mind wanders greatly, when not pulled back to this pain I feel within me
I dress in my daisy best
Hoping to inspire all the other fellow desperates
I tell my tale everyday
I am despised, turned away, shunned from the rest.
Is it the dead inside of me, which makes you flee?
Am I tiresome with my disparaging tale?
My body grows horns, my tongue splits in two,
Happy no more, I ravage on you
You taste so bony, with the nothing inside your vein
So I must spit you out, deserving no more than a stain.
Form:
Cold,
Numb,
Rage of unbelief,
Empty inside,
Who wouldn't have seen,
Blinded for whats to come,
So much rage to handle,
Just for one,
Blood red color,
No other color belongs,
Don't matter who cares,
It's you who has to pull through,
Moving forward,
Another day has come,
It's da ja voo,
And everyone seems to see through you,
It doesn't matter anymore,
Life goes on,
One way to be,
Is dead on the inside.....
Am I dead inside
I have this void
I think I've died
Before I felt
That’s when I cried
Now I can't feel
I know, I've tried
The hurting is gone
But the hole is still here
Once I was in pain
Now I don’t care
Once I cried
Now not even a tear
Hardened as steel
The only way I could make it
This fear of being empty
Can't seem to shake it
If I can't love again
Maybe I can fake it
Nothing inside
I can't take it
You cleaned me out
You took it all
When you left me
I put up a wall
When I took it down
There was nothing at all
My heart was empty
So I just let it fall
I see the fire.
I am the flames.
I am hurting.
Within the inside.
Next to which rests with
the dead.
I do not linger.
Even to point one finger.
I swallowed my pain.
I am the nail in the
cross.
I take.
I break.
For yours and heavens
sake.
I carry my burdens.
You will never see me
cry.
My tears are not forsale.
Not today and surely
not tomorrow.
Never in the corner of
the dark.
I will drown.
I will suffocate.
My heart hangs around
a stake.
I do not have to die.
I am dead inside my
sorrow.
Fallen on my knees on the inside,
Smiling while standing tall on the outside,
No one can see me through all this my imperfection,
I'm trying to be ready to find and receive my redemption,
Shifting inside my body's walls,
I can feel my skin and the pain inside me crawl,
A ghost from my past that will never yield,
Ive no armor except my person that doesn't protect me in my battlefield,
You, me, him, her we are not the same,
Different fears and insecurities within a different name,
Faith and hope what i want but only others can feel,
The very principal is to separate what you've no choice but to accept is real,
I want to see what it seems like Ive never seen,
I want to be better than who Ive always been,
Too scared to die but too weak to live,
Trying to hide from this pain and fear within,
I close the truth in my heart letting no one in,
I need to forgive my weaknesses causing me to be unable to prevent my sins,
Ive seen these things and feel this all from before,
I try to hide all the places Ive been ripped and tore,
Hiding my real feelings behind a smile and pray for the end of this illusion,
Consumed by non stop pain and confusion,
They held me down to hurt me and everything i had they completely stripped me clean,
I never want you to go through or see the horrors i have seen,
Ive been closed off for so long from normal reality,
My mind venturing close to insanity,
Ive lost my life and happiness so quickly,
Now I go through life dead and sickly,
I don't think I'll ever have or find the strength to move on,
There's too many parts of me I can't find or get back their permanently gone,
To really be alive again is impossible and takes to much,
I feel it slowly happening, my body's losing touch,
I feel as though I'm doomed to always be in pain in this nightmare alone,
Ive lost every part of myself that I and everyone else has ever known,
I wish I had hope to heal and have a fighting chance,
To break free of my prison no longer hurting in this trance,
Death stays surrounding me,
Reminding me that this person Ive become is everything I despise and don't want to be,
My reflection I see in the mirror isn't me but only a stranger that resembles,
I try to sit quietly unnoticed as my body starts to tremble.
She is always insecure
And a little dead inside
Sometimes she builds confidence
But is a little dead inside
And when the confidence boils over
She's still a little dead inside
She goes in for the kill
Though a little dead inside
And when that thing she killed, kills her
She falls dead inside
She melts away into her corner
It's okay
She was always dead inside
Dead inside
Growing up in a home with little love and a mother who distanced herself and always felt she had to push me away.
No hugs or kisses or tucked in at night...….just shut up or go outside and play.
Then the awkwardness of getting nubs for breast and being watched by step dad number three.
Wondering what in the world I could be doing wrong?
Thinking there has got to be something wrong with me!
I wanted attention and love but not in this way but also knowing that mother will never believe me over him.
So I continue to let him and keep my mouth shut-
Constantly feeling as if I'm living in sin.
So as the days turn into weeks and the weeks soon turn into years.
My beautiful heart gets colder with time...…
And my eyes have begun to shed their last tears.
What its like to be dead inside...…
I hope and pray that you never do see.
For I wouldn't wish anyone the hell that I endured as a child.
I would never wish on you what happened to ME!!!!!!
I've lived my life lonely and scared
Filled with pain and anger
While kids ran to their parents
I was left uncared
To all who think i'm happy and bright
I say you think wrong
Because my heart is dead as the night
So I don't belong
I've taken blades and razors
Just to free the pain
But when it's about gone
It comes flying back again
So don't try to raise my spirits
It will just go wrong
Because if you didn't know
I was dead inside all along
I can’t caress these new dimensions
My shifting face is imbued with lost pain
And my hope is too deceiving
The things I love are thrown away by this state
Onwards hereafter
What I feel will still swallow my mind
And the love I will imagine
Will still be broken down here, inside
Everything is in a shadow
And what I give is coated in dire flame
I should look for one more answer
But every reason becomes another dead game
Disguise my shelter
Or run off to devils in prayer
Hide in this nothing
Or become nothing that waits in his lair
I’m sure my path will soon awaken
And it will drag me to the end of what I am
Because even with courage
The dead within me still holds my good hand
This time I really think I’ve lost my mind
It’s getting harder now to freely try to find
The heart that died and washed me up in here
The pain that breeds and begs me not to fear
My hold on life will slip at every turn
If I smile it’s only when it burns
The rain arrives precisely when I ask
Clean the stain left here by my mask
Denial was my favourite game in life
Denial was the way before this knife
Scarring me with every step I take
But I do it now with every chance I make
Bloody eyed, I’m taking my world down
Screw my lies, it makes no difference how I drown
I have died time and time again
But I denied it’s always just the same
This time ‘round I’ll throw what’s left away
This is the end, the beginning and the way
Dead inside, my silence feels betrayed
It’s just another time I feel I can not stay
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