Dead Inside

This time I really think I’ve lost my mind It’s getting harder now to freely try to find The heart that died and washed me up in here The pain that breeds and begs me not to fear My hold on life will slip at every turn If I smile it’s only when it burns The rain arrives precisely when I ask Clean the stain left here by my mask Denial was my favourite game in life Denial was the way before this knife Scarring me with every step I take But I do it now with every chance I make Bloody eyed, I’m taking my world down Screw my lies, it makes no difference how I drown I have died time and time again But I denied it’s always just the same This time ‘round I’ll throw what’s left away This is the end, the beginning and the way Dead inside, my silence feels betrayed It’s just another time I feel I can not stay