My long-time love gave me a special gift,
a photo of himself when he was young.
He even autographed it: “Love you! Dave.”
From then, upon my wall this treasure hung
where I could always gaze at it~~but then
his love, if it was love, began to die.
Who breaks up with someone he doesn’t hate
on Christmas Day? All I could do was cry.
I took the stark reminder of heartbreak
and laid it on a shelf in my spare room.
My wall now bears instead a lovely print
of red and yellow roses in full bloom.
From time to time, I think, when I am gone,
what will the kids do with my mass of things?
It’s then I start to throw some stuff away.
At times, a sense of loss, this cleansing brings.
I parted with some things in '23.
One gem I almost tossed, I’m glad to say,
I kept and put it to creative use.
It serves a unique purpose to this day.
My bedside table never sat quite right.
One leg is shorter than the other three.
Dave’s picture, folded twice, now fills that spot.
Successful reasoning gives me such glee!
Diving deep in the pond of the sub-consciousness
I die everything night, you die every night too
This is our way of rejuvenating the body
This may sound crazy, eerily or even spooky,
However, this is absolutely or definitely true
Our body makes a special trip to correct the mess
Which takes place from a certain time to the other
We die every night to pay a visit to another crater.
We die every night, if we're blessed, fortunate or lucky
We return to our natural living state, feeling rested
God in his divine and genial way created us that way
That's a given, we have no alternative; no other way
To change things. Sleep deep tonight, die slowly and lightly
Hoping that we'll wake-up the next hours alive and resuscitated.
Drowning in a slow sleep is a gift, die a little tonight
God will not keep us. This is wonderful; this is out of sight.
Hebert Logerie Friday, August 26, 2016
She greeted the universe before the sun rose
Blessed but looks of defeat contoured outside physically
She fought and fought in learning how to hold her head higher then a so called addiction
Follow the bear paw prints
Hear the bear
Bear hears you
Always knew a place for her with all the greats in all entity awaited
She was blessed to make a change and learn
On her way to a new addiction
A healthy lifestyle to learn
love is overdue
we check out with our passion
back to the basics
At times we say and do things we dont mean,
we hurt others feelings without wanting to.
'im sorry' loses its whole meaning.
at this stage we start looking to undo,
knowing that it cannot be done, we try.
But sadly, what's done is done.
One right doesn't fix a wrong, but why?
Why is every effort shunned?
The past will always be brought into the present,
to remind us of the damage we caused.
Nothing is forgotten untill and unless,
time itself heals our flaws.
Everybody has some reject.
Nobody is born perfect.
I have lived,
And felt the cost,
Paid my dues,
But I have lost_ You.
Still I pray,
As chaos looms,
And as my blue turns into grey,
I hear__
The angels sing- In tune.
Don't be giving in,
Don't give up my son,
Or fade away,
Lift your chin with the sun__ And rise,
With this new day!.
I have lived,
And felt the cost of all my wonderin ways,
I've paid my dues,
I - Have lost you.
I can hear the angels sing,
Your in a mistaken land__ Lessons learned in truth,
As the grey seeks out the blue,
She will__ Your daughter my son---
She will return--- To You.
For I have lived,
Felt the cost of all my walkin days,
I've paid my dues,
I- Lost you....
I wont be giving in,
Won't give up my girl,
Or fade away,
I'll lift my chin with the sun---
And RISE--
With this new day...
contentment contradicted by emotions supressed
more like medicated happiness
an unmanagable mess
lost in deception
denial, i lied to my self
with a destorted perception
I sabatosh my health
abandon my values
turn my back on my kin
in a control battle with addiction
I delusianaly think I could win
a downward spiral of adventure
in which im killing my self
its time to surrender
its time to seek help
There comes a point of no return
What all’s been said and done
Then you have to walk away
And to step out in the sun
If someone has grieved your soul
And will not make amends
You need to start the healing work
Turn for comfort to your friends
There comes a time when you realize
That all he uttered were lies
You were swept up in the tide
Of passion you saw in his eyes
There comes a time when you realize
Your heart has been broken in two
And none can dress up the wounds
You must do that work for you
Close the page of that book
That brought you only pain
Made you forget your true worth
And made your tears fall like rain
There will come a reckoning
When all must give an account
Of all the hurtful things they’ve done
Be paid back in full amount
So, don’t turn bitter and don’t you fret
Just lock tight the door of your heart
And look forward with renewed hope
For there awaits a fresh new start.
Eileen Manassian Ghali
20 years of time
Time for me
20 years I've
climbed
And fallen free
20 years a dime
Not so easy
20 years my prime
I'll live happily
20 years I deflect
Protect
I,Reject
20 years I reflect
My final year of
neglect
I looked at snapshots
From a bygone day
Were things as great
As people like to say
Everything picture perfect
Clothing and smile
Captured by the camera
These pictures in my pile
There is my old self
With a knowing look
The memories flood back
Like pages from a book
As I keep flipping
My tears make me shake
Taking this look back
What a huge mistake
So back in the box
To the rear of the shelf
Hidden but not forgotten
Still a part of myself
There so much energy to waste
Like making time and space
Space in your mind to have the time
To gossip and to hate.
Profoundly you dislike
Just stay away alright
Then you wouldn't waste your time and energy because it's out of sight
Wasted energy is never alright.
I'm left behind once again,
Just one more goodbye I have to
Endure through but I'll be fine,
I promise. I'm strong. Honestly, I
Don't completely understand why
But even before we said goodbye
I felt our love die. I never wanted
This to happen, but I can't
Bring you back and I, have to face this,
It's over; I don't apologize for it. I said what I had to
And you did what you had to.
That's the way this works. Sometimes with you
I got way too honest, way too up close
And personal with myself, ended up hating myself
For being so needy; but I don't need that,
This love wasn't all there was after all,
I'm finding myself and happiness without you
Though it's been slow coming. Once,
You let me have a glimpse of the sun instead
Of the mocking shadows, but we watched
The sun set, watched the roses wither and die;
And I don't regret a single moment...
~As my wheels turn,patience fade.
You are the dust that scatters onto this empty highway.
Wind will release these thoughts of yesterday.
Dusk turns to dawn.
With new light, peace guides a shaken soul home~
wrote for all who have suffered disappointment~
A tap on the shoulder
The call of your name
Your next for a boarder
A tattoo in the game
I was so bored
My day was so lame
I had played all the fairs games
So I made myself a bracelet
With all my favorites names
We saw the singers preform
And now their here for ever
Right here on my arm
Here to permanently endeavor
In the heat of the sun
Living today in the wake of yesterdays yesteryears,
following the footsteps not walked for a while.
Finding hope in the pages of time unwritten fearful
that hope is all for nothing
Offended by all of the offenders that crowd my sullen day
All along the way I know in advance
that the way I've lived most is
the last way to live,
knowing the way is hard to find when the
days amount to nothing. Production slows
as the motion becomes all to apparent,
apparently just going through the motions.
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