Triggers
Soft & loud
Here comes the storm cloud
Sssh the silent treatment
Meant for cruelty intent
Everyone’s the enemy
Even if I don’t agree
Stomping, slamming,huffing & puffing
Saying he’s only joking and bluffing
Ignoring, interrupting, intimidation
Only leads to darkness and deflation
Rolling his eyes and being dismissive
Thoughts of not to live
Invisible is how I feel
He says it’s no big deal
Triggers are all around
Without any sound
the hurt child
His father had been away for a long time
Although their mother had divorced
her husband he visited his children
his young son was excited
he could hardly remember his dad
when he came smelling of beer,
pointed to the pale little child and said
Whose son is that
instantly the bitter disappointment the child
the hurt was so deep he withdrew
into his inner world
The father spoke to him again, but he didn't
apologized, said he was only joking
Too late, the child didn't talk to him again
When the father visited again, the youngest
son sat in another room, refused to see
his father, the adults didn't understand
when the father died, the son didn't appear
a his funeral.
Emotionally fractured it took him many
years to recover.
Who Am I? How did I get here?
The Monster
FEBRUARY 5
He destroyed her
He killed all that was good
Burnt her hopes and dreams
Took her broken heart
and stomped on it
He raped her soul
and filled it with hate
He took away her reason
He stole her joy
He trashed the sweet
and innocent
He broke her heart
and killed her passion
She no longer is what
she once was
She has fractured
She has gone
He awakened Psycho
She no longer is afriad
and is now dangerous
She is torn between hell
and non-existence
Wounded and trapped
She wants to leave this
Tortured world behind
WHY?
He was only joking
Chasing his thrill
After everything she did
After everything she endured
He had one last joke:
He never really wanted her at all.
Behold the monster,
His creation
It's Saturday eve
we're drinking in town
Only joking, I wish.
We're still in lockdown.
Any inkling of romance
on pause until further notice.
Making plans for the future
feels utterly hopeless.
We were all on fast forward
and the world blew a fuse.
Burying our heads in the sand,
disregarding the news.
Forced to stop
and re-evaluate life.
Beneficial for all
though the stress has been rife.
With no option to rewind
all we have is hindsight.
But we're sick of these rules
our patience is finite.
For now, we press play
and take joy in what we can.
I just really hope they lift
the bar and restaurant ban.
BAD RESOLUTIONS
Be good, be kind, help those along the way.
All good resolutions I’ve made on New Year’s Day.
Don’t do this, don’t do that, do know right from wrong.
Resolutions I have never kept for long.
Every year I’ve broken them before the end of June.
So, now I’m old and grey, I’ve changed my tune.
Only bad resolutions this new year,
Like lots of smoking and too much beer;
Using bad language and being unpleasant;
Telling rude jokes when ladies are present.
I’ll do what I want to, it’s all about me.
Oh, what a wonderful year it will be.
No, only joking, I don’t think I could.
So, once more this year, I’ll resolve to be good.
13th January 2020
Resolutions contest
Sponsor - Matt Carili
Easter Egg's
Fat Free
For 1 Day only
1st April
Only joking
April Fool
And when exactly ?
Did Bunny's
Start Laying Egg's ?
Asked
Father Christmas
There's always something
Behind the only joking
Knowledge behind the
The I don't know
Emotions behind the
I don't care
And pain behind the I am okay
It’s odd how people who think they are funny,
Confuse humor with offensive ridicule.
Saying hurtful, empty and shallow comments,
Pretending it’s all April fool.
Not standing behind what they say, or
Taking the blame for the hurt they cause.
Saying “Hey I was only joking, they’re not even here.”
As though that’s a moral escape clause.
These folks that lack this empathy and care,
Not understanding how hurtful their words are,
Don’t see how people simply endure their opinion,
Protecting personal and emotional scars.
They joke about folks more often than not,
When these folks aren’t even there.
Rather than put the effort into being good, they’re two faced,
About others they just don’t care.
They’re convinced they’re funny, clever and smart,
Often saying things to feel superior.
Not admirable by being grand and noble, but
By mocking, pushing others to inferior.
Sadly one day these hurtful fiends will be forced to take heed,
And peer into the mirror of their soul.
There they will see where others have love in their heart,
All they have is black hearted charcoal.
Lunging forward a stab to the heart,
vitriol hurled at an unsuspecting soul.
A sarcastic word or comment, thrown in jest,
tearing flesh, leaving a gaping hole.
I was only joking, ha ha, wasn't that fun?
he says to no one.
Why are you hurt?
They're only words you know,
letters put together as one.
Intentional or not, caustic words will burn,
stinging speech cannot be unstung.
Hurtful songs, once sang, cannot be unsung.
Playing the dangerous game of sarcasm,
is like shooting words in derision.
Vitreous feelings are shattered,
only causing hurtful division.
Sarcasm is not innocent child's play,
it bites, it leaves marks, that forever may remain.
Think before you speak there are always consequences to hurtful speech!
John Derek Hamilton November 18,2015
You have to really see it
then you'll truly believe
there before your very eyes
it's hidden up your sleeve
Of course I'm only joking
that's not where it is
just look over the horizon
no this is not a quiz
Look ahead have a good look
see that big yellow thing
it's round and so very clear
think what thoughts it does bring
Sunshine everywhere all around
you've never seen such light
wherever you turn it's there
what a spectacle what a sight
Yes there is such beauty
as the sunset does rise
your eyes are sparkling
seeing this nature's prize
You’ve got to be strong
Got to know what you want
Can’t be too sensitive
Have to know I am only joking
Got to be free
And frank
Got to be number one
Got to speak your mind
Not a very good mind reader I am
Got to live
Got to be
Got to see
Got to fly
Destinations unknown
Haha
So ready?
Promise it will worth your while
But can’t expect
As the opposite it will usually be
So the uncharted it is
Indefinitely, if you are game
You will achieve
Your lifetime’s dream
lol
Please may I be abrupt, it's the nature of this beast
Especially with ones wine, it's the fuelling of thine feast
Well, I'm a man, so let me make my start
I'm prone to erupt, no anger, but simply fart
To also roar I can, with an incredible furore
Dare to be awoken, I'm now like childish sore
I've also been known to gurn, about the slightest thing
C'mon, I'm just a man, what more can I bring
Moaning yes, I can't do this, moaning, I can't do that
I'm starting to believe, I'm a useless male diplomat
So what can I do to irritate you, and be just who I am
Ha ha, your only joking, it's simply poetic scam!
I am trying to be patient
Determined to be fair
But she's been over an hour in the bathroom
What is she doing in there .
She said I must be ready
So I wear my suit and tie
But now we can't go out
Until her hair is fully dry .
I am feeling fruity
She is feeling sick
All those bloody headaches
Are really getting on my wick .
She succumbs to my nagging
I try so hard that I feel faint
But all she has to say is
That ceiling needs some paint .
She's got a soap on the telly
But there is football on tonight
I can't find where she's hidden the remote
Now how can that be right .
She says I'm drinking too much beer
I must abstain or i'll get fat
She's sat there munching chocolate cake
Where is the fairness in that .
Yet if it were not for women
Where would us fellows be
Its a good job I'm only joking
and I truly believe in equality.
A Guilty Pair
Under the Stars and moon so bright
Two lovers lie in the field at night
What’s that noise?
It can’t be boys
Have no fear
For I am here
Of all the things we feared the most
It’s not your husband, just a Ghost
Oh Love I’m only joking
But soft I can hear a baby crying
Where can it be?
There’s only us
Oh God are the legends true
I never really knew
Darling where are you?
I cannot see you
You cannot leave without a sight
Please come back, you gave me such a fright
He is not there
I fear he was never here
Was he a ghost?
But he lay with me
What shall become of me
Where are my clothes
Am I to die
What shall I do
Someone help me
HELP OH HELP OH HELP
Wake up, Wake up, my love
What is the matter?
Just a nightmare?
Oh Husband dear,
Was it just a dream?
It was so real.
Hold me tight.
On a dark and stormy morning,
You left me all alone.
I thought you were only joking,
but you were doing this to hurt me.
I thought you really liked me,
but now I see that you don't.
You left me all alone,
with no one who really cared.
You were the only one who I could trust,
but now I cant.
Because you left me all alone,
with no one to trust.
But I don't care anymore now.
Because I found someone who I can trust and will always care for me,
he promised me that he will never leave my side.
He healed all my heart aches,
he healed my broken heart,
that you left just to die.
I have one thing to tell you .
If you leave me then you lost me forever.
So leave me now and I will be able to forget about most of my past,
for now I'll just have to stick with my heart aches,
and my scarred wrists being healed right now.
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