IN AND OUT OF DELIRIUM
In delirium state, I have become
Never to regain sanity,
The fact that I lost her was such a turbulent loss.
She was delicate by healthy,
Yet cancer came quickly and took her away in an egregious manner.
Was I that obtuse that I didn’t notice the change?
Was I careless when she moaned about being weak?
Now she has parted from me and I feel indigent,
It is me and the dog left in the house,
Looking blankly at the walls feeling down,
Nobody to mediate with or express my loss.
I am at a loss of how to redeem my hate to God
And try to consecrate my previous beliefs.
In a delirium state, I have become,
Not knowing when I take the gun and terminate my life too!
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