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Arkansas Anxiety

Have I fallen to the back of the line Have I finally conformed and forgot where my home is Not really, not in the least I've just preoccupied myself with relentless faulty tasks distracted myself with treacherous emotions Maybe reason why my goals have yet to be obtained I only managed to have one successful, unforgettable year to show for my dedication and concentration As much as I try to step up go beyond the boundary line of what I hope to achieve laziness kicks in or a depression shaped lightening bolt blasts the mountain I previously scaled and sends me tumbling back down the base I realize I just need a break I realize I just need to leave I'm just ready to leave Homesickness keeps locating me on its GPS and I can't fight it anymore 5 days, too long of a wait 3 days until my birthday celebration 2 more school days to pull through until I'm home bound No repeats, I know I eventually have to return but I need this time to brush off all the pressures, all the expectations and everything in those bad memories still haunting me Could you picture a day where I'm smiling, laughing loudly and having fun being the kid I want to be instead of taking on the responsibilities of the adult I've not grown into yet Somehow 365 days without breaks is my job because I manage to work my fingers to the bone It's time to break my cycle and get some air time to go home and see everybody I haven't seen in two years All these plain faces and infamous places are becoming old but aren't going anywhere I just want to go home... time to break the cycle Get some fresh air and finally be free Time to go home to the unfamiliar faces and famous places I really miss Time to finally just be...Me

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