About ten minutes ago i felt like i had been stabbed in the heart
because of my wrong doing our love fell apart
if we were not together you should have told me before we made up
instead you led me to believe thatthis relationship was to help us grow up
and i dont feel bad about the fact that i dont have you in my life the way that i want
to, but about the fact that i know i hurt you
you may act like your doing just fine, but i know you feel like me deep down inside
right now i accept the face that you say we are just friends, and for us to be
together it all depends
on rather you can trust me or not and or if we could ever be like we use to be
why am i just blaming myself though? you have lied to me plenty of times but i never
addressed the issue, but thats just the kindness in me
You used to call me by my nickname, now you don't call at all.
I know I made the first move, but it was the only move.
In my mind I told you I'd be back in three seconds...guess I counted wrong.
It's been three months since our fight, can you please just talk to me?
My life's gone through too many tunnels to count.
How did I break your heart, how am I to blame, why am I not ashamed?
You're one of a kind and yet you changed because of what I did?
I'm sorry for the trillionth time!
Just forgive me already!
My past doesn't want to come back, so stop trying to make me feel like a jerk.
I didn't dump you, it was all a little argument!
I miss you. The old you!
I'll never get to see her again!
Thanks a lot inner demons of John Monteblanco.
Poetry soup changed me
I look for poets not poems
On me I place blame
You cause me pain
You cause me grief
And now I need some real relief
Before my heart begins to rain
You broke my heart
You shattered my soul
And now the pain takes its toll
Cause this rain tastes like tart
I’m done playing your game
Cause now you need tame
When you say my name
It’s like I’m to blame
And then I see something swirl
That you can twirl
You push me to the edge
Of a very small ledge
Anger, anger, anger welcome to my cave
you pull me close and letting me be
falling victim to your games
I give in to you
and the things you do
and now it's all the same
I watch through the letters
and I don't believe you at all
but maybe it's disbelief making me fall
I'll take what your saying into consideration
but I don't feel any better now
I don't know how you can either
Never followed the right lane,
Was always in the wrong train.
Thought would do everything with ease,
Rule the world & bring them on their knees.
Pride was which I was after,
Never cared and let everything by laughter.
Money's the thing for which I was thriving,
Got away easily for crimes just by bribbing.
Never thought of the changing trends ,
Foes were always in the form of friends.
Time I realised this was too late,
Results were goin to b bad & I had to wait.
Time had come for me to pay,
Was so guilty had nothing to say.
Wish had simple life & some better passion,
Punish me for my sins , is My Confession.
---------Yashu
Sorry, yesterday was a bore
That wasn’t me on a roll
It was the other me – John Winston – who wrote it all
But now I feel convinced I’m back
‘Wise-the-Prins-Wins’ in white and black
So please just sit back
And wait for more than just another rap
From this Kenyan dude on this part of the map
So what if there I sat
Butt flat on the dirt
Near the boulevard of broken dreams
Bleeding within from the wounds inflicted unto me
...while in pursuit of impossible dreams
Still I insist there is nothing impossible to me
I gotta heal quick and get back to the ring of dreams
I gotta fight for what I believe in with all that’s invested in me
Defeat is a word unacceptable to me
Last night wasn't the same
Last night I made you cry, instead of laugh
For that you slammed the door on me
I wished that you'll come back
I wished that you'll forgive me
But you never came... you left me alone
I sat down on my knees, regretting, thinking of what I have said
I wish that I had followed you
I wish that I had followed you on my knees begging
Because my pride is you, your happiness
I have lost my pride the moment you left me alone in the dark
I should be left in the dark.. alone, I made my angel, my starlight cry
My heart is now missing, because I gave it to you to hold
I'll walk around the world kneeling, begging for your forgiveness
And if you give it to me, come back to me
I will hold you to me, to me closer than my heart and soul
Because you are the reason for me to live, to love
I hope for forgiveness, because I will never forgive myself..
Lord, please forgive the wrong I do,
Don't let it take me far from you,
Teach me to live, and learn, and pray,
As you wish, dear Lord, today.
Amen.
i am being hunted dont you know
someone is stalking
following
trailing me
they want to catch and imprison me
maybe its not a bad thing maybe its a good thing
nobody knows
sometimes i sit up in bed and look around
is that the hunter behind the curtain
under my bed
in my closet
i wake up like im being watched everyday
being stalked
being hunted
do i need to turn around
do i need to run
do i need to hide
this person confuses me
if you were gonna get me wouldnt
you catch me already
i dont want to be afraid anymore
LEAVE ME ALONE
STOP HUNTING ME ALREADY
but its to late im already hunted!!!!
You're staying home alone
Don't wait up because I'm going out alone
Just the girls/guys and me
Don't need no stress with me
I need to cruise the night alone
Because it's the weekend
And the weekdays has brought me stresses
Don't think the cause is you
I need to think my whole life through
I need a break from all these stresses
To let my mind just go free
It's not about you and me
We're doing good and I'm so happy
But the weekdays has brought me stresses and tonight
I'm going to let my mind free
You say I'm always uptight
You say I'm always blue
It's not because of you
I've always got things to do
And when I come home in the day
Your dinner's made your special way
It's not about you
You're love helps me through
Don't think the cause it you
Ii need to think my whole life through
I should have resisted that deceiving voice
that entrapped me and made me quickly fall...
when silence dominated to conceal noise;
and however sorry I am, I felt tall.
Devil, why did you choose someone so meak...
to do horrible deeds unthought by this mind?
Devil, you hide in dense shadows and peak,
hiding in caves more afraid than a child.
As beautiful things so charming and grand...
temptation led all to wrongdoing,
but without real compassion and feeling,
thoughts clustered together to offend.
That deceiving voice kept on coming back...
alienating friends who looked to me for help.
This situation was never meant to be...I do believe a false card has been dealt by me. The
words exchanged the chips are down... Awkward stares across the table and the tension
begins to rise.
The suitor shouts I cheated you and the tears start to arrive. You slam your first and the
guns are drawn, pointed at my head.
I've done you wrong, I've hurt you. It makes me wish I was dead.
If need be I’ll fold and walk away in my regret, but if you let me I’ll pay you back in
compassion and friendship; this can be my only debt.
So, if you will my friend strike a match and let’s forget...burn down this house of cards
and hold no regrets.
life....
it seems to be some where
between heaven and hell...
love and hate....
living and dying...
who knows what to expect out of life
to some people everyday is a smile....
to others its a cry
me?
s@#t..
i don't give a f@#k anymore...
i really don't..
go ahead and yell and scream!
get in my face and curse!
tell me s@#t that may or may not be true!
send me away!
because i don't give a f@#k anymore!
i really don't
wether you love me..
or simply hate me...
doesn't matter to me anymore
i used to cry a bucketfull of tears at night
when daddy left...
i cried when i told you i hated you...
when we fuss and fight....
argue
but now?
now im empty...
i just don't give a f@#k anymore
i have no more tears to shed....
no more smiles to give
....
....
if i ever did something wrong to make you hate me like this...
im sorry...
wether you believe me
or not....
im sorry...
im sorry
for everything i've done
today
yesterday
a month ago...
maybe years ago...
im sorry...
.....
....
...i count the days till i leave...
leave here...
leave life...
just leave...
i walk behind you
i dance at your feet
i copy your ever move
i disappear in the
shadows never to be found
cant see me
can't catch me
i disappear at night
I'm shadow that
walks with you all day
i run across the sidewalk
running on walls and standing on ceilings
i make shapes in the distance
i mock you as you walk
I'm your shadow
scaring you at night
when i make a scary figure
i stand tall in the sunlight
and blend with the shadows
can't see me
can't catch me
who am i?
I'm your shadow
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