Were Not Together

About ten minutes ago i felt like i had been stabbed in the heart because of my wrong doing our love fell apart if we were not together you should have told me before we made up instead you led me to believe thatthis relationship was to help us grow up and i dont feel bad about the fact that i dont have you in my life the way that i want to, but about the fact that i know i hurt you you may act like your doing just fine, but i know you feel like me deep down inside right now i accept the face that you say we are just friends, and for us to be together it all depends on rather you can trust me or not and or if we could ever be like we use to be why am i just blaming myself though? you have lied to me plenty of times but i never addressed the issue, but thats just the kindness in me