Misgiving
Somewhere between sweet dreams and nightmares
I find my true existence
Shades of grey are all I see
Life within the twilight wears heavy on my soul
Disquiet and apprehension my reality
There are no allies in the shadows
I fight the dragon all alone
I love the light but dwell in the dark
Where is my fairy tale my happy ever after
I feel the dusk approaching It’s calling out to me
Here I go again
Categories:
misgiving, anxiety, dark,
Form: Free verse
It was a memorable evening, bright
with my beautiful, charming fiancé
(once my wretched, tormented heart's delight)
near the old village of Fatheringay.
Drawn by the lilt of a whispery voice,
we found ourselves in a dark, rustic pub.
An inner misgiving questioned our choice.
A man served drinks from a hook on a stub.
After imbibing a strange, bubbling brew,
we dawdled the full moon-lit countryside.
In the lunar light, her eyes shone light blue -
mine, a phosphorus glow, like Mr. Hyde.
We gazed at the Hydra constellation,
where the Ghost of Jupiter nebula
somehow unfastened my reservation,
as its image fell on my retina.
That my grandfather was a lycanthrope,
and a mad cascade of serpentine thoughts,
this myriad of disclosures doused hope
(a demented disconnection of dots).
The vile dreams would slither back to their hole
too late for my near bride of eighteen.
The strong brew's effects had taken their toll.
My love was never again to be seen.
No, my true love was no more to be seen.
Categories:
misgiving, evil, magic, marriage, moon,
Form: Rhyme
you only know the me i am
the one i am when i’m with you ~
the me that’s mistrusting
reserved and holding back
i hope one day you’ll get to know
the me with you i want to become ~
my mind at ease with trust in heart
freed from misgiving and suspicion
AP: 1st place 2025
Categories:
misgiving, confidence, longing, relationship, trust,
Form: Free verse
A choice
Without choice
No question arose
For this birthing
In blackness and
Sharp voices
Scolding the choice..
Regrets
For the choice arose
Imagined alternatives
Without sharpness
Without edges of an
Imagined identity..
Masks worn with
Pride and misgiving
Pain and elation
Comfort and shame
Colored to perfection
The separation game..
Yet in winding down
Appearances of memories
Flash and fade
No answers are found
To questions in time
Only these words
And not only these
Burning this page...
Categories:
misgiving, blessing, farewell, irony, words,
Form: Light Verse
Mistrust is like a thorn
Fiercing deep into the skull
It's like adding salt to the burn
Excruciating beyond pain appall
Akin to disloyalty and treachery
Mistrust is misgiving not careful
Towards a downtrodden bribery
Misgiving against success is painful
This is crisis in attitude and morality
Without following rule and its sanctity.
Categories:
misgiving, betrayal, character, trust,
Form: Rhyme
Unpredictable and volatile--
morose and quiet one moment,
he is laughing heartily just after a while
at whatever excited his mirth,
his high thin loud laugh strange
from a person with a grave mien.
He would often be in deep thought,
as if engaged in contemplation
of a philosophical question.
You’d think he is not given to humor,
but know him well and you will divine
he is not averse to jests even at his expense.
You would view it with some misgiving
he delights in fairy tales, children’s books, toys,
movies with superheroes or fantasy themes,
colors, flowers, and childish games,
but perhaps you would forgive him
for through circumstances not of his own doing
childhood had somehow skipped him.
Categories:
misgiving, fantasy, introspection, me, philosophy,
Form: Bio
is it wise forgiving ~ if one has doubts or the slightest misgiving
very good question said god ~ and why i only judge the unliving
Categories:
misgiving, forgiveness, perspective, truth,
Form: Monoku
“If you keep only healthy food in your cupboard and fridge, you will eat good food.” – Errick McAdams
“You need a steroid to fix your ills.
Now vaccination to ward off winter chills.
Take an antidepressant, to calm your woes.
Let’s try antibiotics and see how it goes.
A short run of oxycodone to ease any pain.
Eating salt and acidy food you must refrain.
We will give you antacids just in case,
And a full range of vitamins, food to replace.
Eat nothing with Gluten or carbohydrate.
We’ll give you a pill to lower your heart rate.
A bevy of sprays to help you breathe.
A mood stabilizer if you begin to seethe.
There’s nothing else before you run out of money.
Make sure you call if you begin to feel funny.
Your health will soon be at its highest peak.
Make an appointment to see me in a week.”
"How uplifting it feels to be given such care.
Knowing my specialist has it all right there.
And silly me was considering healthy living.
Fresh air, good food and exercise, such a misgiving !!"
Categories:
misgiving, health,
Form: Rhyme
Doctors Said No Chance
Then A Miracle Happened
Miracle Man
10/14/2023
I sometimes sit, reevaluating past living,
for only used clock do I know for certain.
Some clock was wrapped in misgiving,
and unidentified days, remain uncertain.
Many friends have outstripped me and gone,
but I remember some from treasured years.
I recall opportunities that I failed to act on,
of Southern Cal nights and grinding gears.
I’ve had Doctors tell me that I shouldn’t be here,
they called me the protected one and Miracle Man.
They couldn’t explain the way things did appear,
but death that day wasn’t part of God’s plan.
I recall other times when death’s door was ajar,
and the circumstances that led to forgiven sin.
Recalling that time is my best memory by far,
I’d made Jesus my Savior and was born again.
Categories:
misgiving, cancer, death, god, health,
Form: Quatrain
Some people are Satan worshipers
As luck would have it they are few
They love cheating beside evils and devils
Active in showing coloring of a chameleon
Not nowadays but since their early beginning
What do you expect Satan worshipers do?
Obscenely they come and go, say and sing
Rancorous men and women most of the time
Sake not humanity welfare sake not facts and truth
Humbug day and night deceive others and themselves
Identical to Satan and its misgiving its obsession
People hate Satan, evils and devils all over the world
Except those ugly Satan worshipers
Really Satan is their leader and their god
Satan lovers!
About this simple poem, please note that there is nothing personal, nothing related to old friends and readers at all.
Categories:
misgiving, evil, people,
Form: Acrostic
Where there had been laughter, sparkling tears
Kissing naked hearts with shadows, clinging fears
Dreams silenced by the darkness, quiet despair
Erasing all the light within, doubt beyond compare
Echoes of grace and mercy, breathlessly listening
Lifting the obscurity, inspirations flowing, glistening
Whispers pleading for new beginnings, the unveiling
Satisfaction rubbing away the worries, belief prevailing
Serenity sighs through the spirit, jubilantly singing
Dispelling the tears and fears, reprieve is ringing
Where there had been uncertainty and misgiving
His sweet grace dispels skepticism with thanksgiving
When Jesus colors hearts in hues of dancing praise
He reminds the worshiper that His love will amaze
Listen to the breath of hope pouring out on those
Who know He is the One who from death arose!
Categories:
misgiving, christian, faith, hope, inspirational,
Form: Couplet
Eternal Visions
Miracle Man
6/14/2022
I feel the stress of quotidian living,
sometimes dwelling on days long past.
But in my heart lies no misgiving,
and I live each day as if it were my last.
Each step I take brings the finish nearer,
only God knows when that step will come.
Each day my traveled path grows clearer,
and I have no doubts concerning outcome.
Categories:
misgiving, death, god, heaven,
Form: Quatrain
I sense the onslaught of bitter times
When rain and fog in my future lie,
I shall hear the chapel steeple chimes
And I shall think me near to die.
Then, when I least expect the light,
The sun bursts forth with radiance
Clouds disappear in vaporous plight
And I shall dance, yes, … I shall dance.
Slip me through the stress of living
The bad times come, I shall only glance,
Sunshine bears not macabre misgiving
And I shall dance, yes, … I shall dance.
written February 25, 2022
Categories:
misgiving, depression, hope, how i
Form: Quatrain
I've struck a snag after a long develops steps.
To a recent attitude over alliance depth,
I investigate this frightening atmosphere.
On top, winning expresses me insecure.
Because of my hearty assurance, I'm here today.
Divine grace has favored us for countless days.
I'm ailing back running with my unique mindset.
God, the Divine, contrives a chart for us, don't fret.
I can't travel to this area alone or by potent force.
It's all mercury; there's subtly nothing else sparse.
I'm defenseless to impact or succumb to anybody.
Every day, there is solely a requisite mission boldly.
But I'm evenly a pebble and embody no braw feeling.
Conception utterly lingers the power of God's crafting.
Despite our slightness, shapes harbor an awful misgiving.
In our style-driven culture, inner self-fosters are laying.
The fence of affection grows stouter as unfolding.
The Lord has appropriately arranged everything.
We are more poised than we reckon and form sound.
A wall that set us free, not the myriad way around.
Written: December 19, 2021
Categories:
misgiving, analogy, anxiety, appreciation, beauty,
Form: Rhyme
Something has hollowed her will for heart
She has swallowed a distant spark
Clothing despair she's breathing foul air
Let peace be still
Walking through barefoot on thorns and bristles
Standing in dominantly still in her sins past decisions
He wrote it in her mind set dawning past tense
Let peace be still
Transverse misgivings pass post wrong decisions
Some things crawling on your skin you're full of misgiving
Temperature rises Spirit full of surprises
Let peace be still
When you find it you're negative self you're dealing with
And you allow fake Satan's thoughts to have you distraught
When the world around you is in chaos
When your body's at war with you and your stomach in knots
Get off your high horse release you your truth
And let peace
Let peace be still
10/23/21
Written by James Edward Lee Sr © 2021
Categories:
misgiving, analogy, appreciation, betrayal, destiny,
Form: Dramatic Monologue
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