As I walk this long road of
regret.
My heart shakes, I seek to surly
Forget.
Your evil words offend,they
Kill my soul.
Hateful, you bring real
bitterness and flecks of cold.
While I struggle with your
abuse,I I sometimes wonder
what is the use?
Your words gash and swim inside
My heart.
I must face my reality, we need
to part.
Somehow the very path I stroll,
Still has us both connected,
If not for all the leaves too old,
I never would detect it...
At every glance a tree that's bare,
Seems just as ordinary,
Until the breeze that shapes the air,
Divulges the contrary....
The smell of all the virgin wood,
Engulfs me in a womb,
Reminding me of what it should,
And smells of her perfume...
Touching me in such a way,
That words cannot explain,
Clutching me until I say,
Three words before her name...
( I love you )
Tomorrow I will take my walk,
Along this path again,
And look for you in trees that talk,
Until my journey ends ...
I may not have a place in your perfect world
I may not be that special emerald
I may not be your perfect man
But do you know that I am your biggest fan?
Do you know I slowly became mesmerized by your charm
And waited for the day to hold your arm
I have waited for the day to speak to you
Though we did speak often and the words were not few
But it was that special something I always wanted to say
I searched and searched for your heart's way
We met as strangers having different lives
And have met different people as large as bees of a hive
But it is you that I remember the most
For you are the most precious thing I have lost
When our eyes first met,I experienced something different in me
That is only you can ever, see
I can't say I saw my future in your eyes
But looking at them I could not speak any lies
Oh how I wish our talks would be from the heart
But I neither opened myself,nor my heart
Was it a fear of losing you?
And failing to start anew?
I may not have been your emerald
But you, and only you were my world
I was not scared to express my words of love
The truth is I did not show you my charred body in the flames of love
I have tried
But no matter how many showers
Or storms I stand beneath
I cannot wash away
These memories
You have given me
I couldn’t find
The right words to say
As you turned and left
While in my head
The words you used
“I love you, but I have to go”
Had me speechless
I just couldn’t understand
That kind of love?
You always told me
That we were a puzzle
That fit perfectly together
Yet this type
Of perfect love
I can live without
You had me believing
That each of us
Was what the other wanted
Until today
But now
As I watch you
Walking away
I think to myself
Isn’t it nice to know
That even though
She had to go
She still loves me
I'm sitting here all alone,
emotions numb, with words you've shown.
You chose to leave our bed last night,
precious time wasted, to hold me tight....
I'm still in shock of what you said,
how you cared for her, when tears she shed?
You're probably right, when you confessed,
you shouldn't have pulled me into your mess!...
You honestly believe that it's okay?
to care for lovers, that went away.
I ask if it, would be alright,
if I cared this much for an "ex" tonight?...
You lie and say it wouldn't bother you!
if I showed compassion, while he's so blue.
I'm lost in thoughts of how to feel?
your words ring loud, as they reveal....
"You care for her, is what you say",
those words still sting, I must convey.
What was I thinking?.. to let you in,
my heart is broken yet again....
I don't need lovers, from past gone by,
to talk me through tears I cry.
The way I see it, they had their chance,
but you need 'her' more, than our romance...
Go figure?....
~Nothing Is As It Seems~
Our words faded in the air..
We kept running circles in a square..
We left our good byes out on the road..
The flames fanned by tears flowed..
My last look captured your face like a picture..
No wallet size photos or keepsakes to hold her..
So sad to blow away the final kisses that I still can feel..
Now I walk and run around on paper, jumping lines just to heal..
Just one more kiss or hug is something only in dreams..
We both flew away in a warm light where nothing is as it seems..
4/22/2011
I wrote this after hearing a song called "Last Kiss Goodbye"
by David Cook... and it stired up some old memories of mine..
I Just put it into my words and theme.....
You whispered me a love song
with the sweetest melody
perhaps you should have sung instead
a song of tragedy
The words you uttered reached my soul
and struck an inner chord
but now I'm haunted by your tune
each note a piercing sword
An unrequited lovers song
that taunts me night and day
I long to have my soul at rest
your ghost I try to lay
Your shadow seems to follow
it just wont let me be
you seem to live inside my head
of you I can't be free
Perhaps deep down I can't let go
afraid you'll disappear
for then I will be all alone
your melody no longer hear
But I need for someone else to come
and take the place of you
to sing to me a different song
with words that are brand new.
Sat 9th April 2011
You're miles away
But always in my heart
I have so many words I'd like to say
I miss you
More and more everyday
I wish I could see you with my own eyes
The pictures of you have turned gray
A part of me has slipped away
I guess a call
Is better than
Nothing at all
You miss me
I miss you too
I wish I could see you
For a second or two
I call your name
But you aren't there
Without you my life is bare
My heart
It's starting to tear
I wish you could see
The hurt in my eyes
Knowing we'll never be
I want you forever
Nothing more
No one else is better
If you only felt
The feelings I hide
Your heart would melt
You bring my feelings out of me
With your words ; your smile
I wish you could see
What exactly that means
To me
You light up my day
With every single
Word you say
When I'm down
You make me smile
And no longer frown
You're perfect in every way
And I tell you
Each and everyday
You mean more to me
Than words can explain
If you could only see
What you mean to me
You walked away with a smile on your face
Never suspected it would be your last say
The words goodbye never dripped from your lips
The words goodbye never crossed my mind
We were in this forever,
That abruptly became today
Forever and a day is what they say
your forever changed
like the seasons
All in one day
I let you be my forever,
Eternally yours
Even in my dreams,
The beginning had little hints of an ending
Here I stand, with my heart on my sleeve
Do you recognize the pieces?
Some of it ripped away
On driftwood,
an aimless journey
searching,
indecisive
and yet
it still remembers
to beat…
Contest: Free Your Mind
9th Place
Even though I've said these words out loud
But I will still worry because my head is too proud
You will use these words however you choice
Use them to love me or use them against me
I am trapped in this love, not knowing to fight
You face was in my heart but it's no longer the light
I am just waiting while life passed me by
I want to scream because you wont say goodbye
But you say you love me and I don't believe
The words you utter to hard to conceive
And it's strange how we could just crash to the floor
When I could never imagine wanting you more
I guess this is the cycle to move on
Waiting for that love that already long gone
Trying to relieve our lovers past glory
But in the end, we are just, another sad love story
“This is for me,” he said,
The words still ring in my head
So many words spoken were lies
Each time I hear them a part of me dies
So badly, I want to say what does it all mean
Why is it that no matter how hard I try I cannot be seen?
Brief moments are all I have to hang onto
What is it exactly that I have to do ?
I sit here tonight with pen in hand
Try to write- try to understand
The reasons elude me and leave me lost
Why is it so hard for me even though I know the cost?
Why do I play with fire when I know ill be burned?
Isn’t there some relief to be earned ?
We’ve played this game for so long the lines have blurred
But know that every night I go to bed begging to be assured,
that you will
Choose me.
Desire me, long for me.
Love me
Now that your spirit hovers in chilling night air
Can you find your way to offer me some insight
So many times I pledged my love to show I care
But your lack of response trepidation would ignite
If I could hold you once more, would you tell me now
Would you utter the words I longed so much to hear
Instead of leaving me hanging from love’s frail bough
You’ve passed from earth, but in my dreams you reappear
I see your lips moving and long to comprehend
Words that silently escape into the vast void
I reach for them and your death I try to transcend
Expressions in life that you never employed
Our hearts had been broken countless times before
Your actions showed love, but the words I needed more
I let go of a smile, way too afraid to share
what was needed to be said.
I know you waited for words that never
came as your heart slowly bled.
My mouth was open, and only silence were
the sounds heard.
Everything inside just ran and hid as I scrambled
for just a word.
Then you were gone like the sun taken by a sky.
I couldn't reach for you or even stop the goodbye.
Now your gone and I'm screaming for my words
to reach you're ears.
To go to sleep and never wake to see your eyes was
my fear.
I never meant to break your heart, please believe
these words are true.
You were my world with a beginning that ended without
my words "I love you"
"You can say it now" Contest....
It makes me sick.
My heart races.
I feel all the blood drain out of my body.
I start shaking.
The screen I'm staring at, transfixed.
As if I'm looking at a train wreck.
And I'm the victim.
I can't read these words anymore.
I can't stand this.
But I know they'll be with me forever.
They've been burned into my brain.
Carved into me with some sharp object.
I'll hear them every time someone opens their mouth.
I'll hear them every time you say "I love you".
They'll haunt me every night.
The words I could never make you say.
YES I LOVED YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY BUT IT WILL TAKE MORE THAN WORDS TO
MAKE ME STAY I KNEW THIS DAY WOULD COME WHEN OUR LOVE WOULD FINALLY BE DONE I
MISS YOU MUCH MY HEART IS TORN BUT IT BEAT LAYING AROUND BREATHLESS AND
SCORNED I ALWAYS WISHED OUR LOVE DID,NT MAKE THIS TURN OH BUT IT DID AND I FEEL
SO BURNED THIS IS JUST ONE OF LIFE LESSONS LEARNED REMEMBER ME AND KEEP ME IN
YOUR THOUGHTS LETS NOT LAY BLAME WE BOTH AT FAULT I WILL CHERISH THE MOMENTS AND
THE THINGS WE DID AND ALWAYS CARRY THE LOVE OH SO CLOSE TO MY HEART AND
REMEMBER IT IS WHAT IT IS
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